#im sorry im too weak to rewatch something hurts in my chest i cant

[gibuckaroo]

i have been avoiding the lawsuit arc in my rewatches, but decided to skim through the reconciliation when buck gets back and am having total whiplash at the amount of buddie? and eddie’s still total disdain and a bit of anger still at the beginning of the episode? and how quickly he forgives? how he already has? how he’s still hiding from buck, pushing him away because his body hurts even though buck wants to hold him longer? and have found myself in the kitchen scene™️ and i watch that scene a lot on its own, in edits, randomly, but i haven’t watched the entirety of it in a very long while and i’m just? sometimes i forget that some things are canon and just aren’t formed in fics. and then how eddie says this is my kind of therapy (no eddie you need frank) all smiles and joy as he laughs and plays and sits there with buck and christopher.