#im sorry but no and also youre setting someone up to read smth potentially really triggering. like it's bad

[caredscared]

i wish That bit wasn't in Venom: The Madness bc it was about to be one of my fav stories as a whole until then. it feels more alive and i love that he's confronted with his approach of k1IIing bad guys only once someone is about to be attacked. and how he made sort of friends and juggernaut seemed chill in comparison to eddie. and i thought beck was really cool. i but again, i loved it all until that page. even the writers seemed to regret that bit bc it got retconned from the very next page on and they re-phrased it as if he was about to mvrder his gf. idk why they left it in.

[datesinredink]

could you possibly write headcanons you have of how the rise yanderes would like psychologically manipulate/punish their darling? i’m all for physical violence but what do they do to mess their darling up in the head?

ty very much for reading this if you do :)

THANK YOU SO MUCH RAGHHHHHH!!!!! Since this is such a fun question to answer im gonna order these from most to least awful. The ranking is just my opinion and i would LOVE to see what other people think jhwhnwiurfj i decided to chug a soda to write this and i think that was a great decision because i immediately came up with smth for donnie because of it.

I decided to search up some ACTUAL psychological torture methods that have been/are used in real life and let normal manipulation take more of a backseat so that this didn’t end up too repetitive- honestly would recommend researching it, it’s a fun topic.

Trigger warnings: Very unfun use of technology in your arm, Drugging, More drugging, Even more drugging, Withholding of food/water (+ a more mild example of doing so but it still happens), Mild descriptions of gore, Mentions of blood, general yandere stuff like kidnapping, and likely others- please ask me to tag anything else triggering, because unfortunately I am not perfect.

1- Donnie.

This might be surprising to some of you. Yes, Leo is the manipulator- he’s the face man, the people guy, but I think that in terms of sheer awfulness- Donnie is going to win here simply because of the potential with his tech.

He’s a genius with access to mystic powers who has incredible skill with both designing and creating various machines and gadgets. I think that he’d be very creative, just considering how much he thought to fit into just his bō staff.

My first thought was that he could come up with a small device (which might be able to double as a tracker) to embed under your skin that could move around. It would skitter up and down your arm like a beetle (likely your dominant arm, just to be worse) and be a nice cherry on top of anything else he could come up with.

To pair with that, he could force some type of hallucinogenic drug down your throat- after some googling, LSD would be a likely candidate. While apparently it usually only causes “pseudo-hallucinations” (where you know that they aren’t real, whereas true hallucinations would be where you think they are), true hallucinations can happen, and the pseudo-hallucinations combined with the environment alone would be enough to cause a panic attack. Not even to mention the kind of drugs that the mystic city might have. (edit: i just found out about datura??? GODDAMN THAT’S A STRONG DRUG.)

Also, I think that Donnie would actually take decent care of you prior to any sort of escape attempt or broken rule. He’d hate for you to waste away in a dark room for the rest of your now shared life, so he would take you outside to some private space for a set amount of time everyday while you’re chained to him and probably gagged so you don’t call for help- you need time in the sun and exercise, after all. That’s why I think he’d also stop doing that if you broke a rule. You don’t want to be anywhere near him, and he supposes that he’s fine with that- but if you really don’t want anything to do with Donnie anymore, then you’ll just have to deal with losing all the luxuries that came with him being so caring.

He’ll lower the temperature in your room and take the hoodie that he so graciously gave you and waltz on out. He still brings you food and water, but now it’s less frequent and more random since now he’s prioritizing his brilliant inventions. Sorry dear, but weren’t you the one who begged him to leave you alone? Now he is. What’s the problem?

2- Leo.

Even if you haven’t done anything wrong (yet), being kept in his room would probably be a nightmare. I feel in my adhd soul that he would NOT be good at keeping it clean. It’d be living in a constant mess, and as someone who has lived in a perpetually messy house, it will definitely take a toll on your mental health. Not to mention the additional noise from whatever he and his brothers are doing. You wouldn’t be allowed outside of it either, not for a while at least, so you’d never know what day or time it is.

Other than the already constant sensory of his room, I think that Leo would mainly use threats- of which he goes through with. Not against you, though, but against your family, (what’s left of) your friends, and any other loved ones you might have. He’ll drag their unconscious body into whatever room he’s keeping you in, and wait with you for them to wake up.

While you two are waiting, he’ll lay out everything he’s planning to do to them in awful detail- and lucky you, he even left out some things as a nice surprise!

You’ll be tied to a chair and forced to watch as their guts fall to the ground from the clean slice in their now empty abdomen while Leo picks up and talks about their functions one by one. You silently wish that you never told him that you admired his skills as the team medic.

When he’s finally done rambling about the various viscera laying on the cold floor, he’ll force you to help him clean up- “so that Raph doesn’t get mad about the mess”, as he says. He’ll hold you in his arms when the two of you are done, whispering in your ear about how sorry he is that he had to do that, but you really did force his hand, and you know that, right? If only you had listened…

When the list of people you can bring yourself to care about finally has 0 names, Leo starts to instead take things away from you. He starts small, gradually taking and taking like the parasite you’ve learned he is until all you have left are the clothes you wear and him. He’ll even deprive you of food and water for periods of time, and you can no longer tell if you wish he would shut up for once or if you’re grateful for at least anything to distract you from the constant pain in your empty stomach.

Mikey and Raph landed themselves towards the bottom because I think that they’re both more lenient with punishments (Raph would be afraid of hurting you beyond repair physically OR mentally and Mikey has generally been shown to be very patient and forgiving with people he cares about), but I also think that they might be more exhausting to be stuck with GENERALLY, wearing you down slowly in day-to-day life rather than harsh punishments for breaking whatever rules might be in place for you.

3- Raph.

Raph would try to instill learned helplessness into his darling, to make them understand why he always has to be so careful!

It’ll happen the next morning after a particularly bad argument between you two, and when he’s suddenly letting you handle sharp objects again- but oh no! For some reason you feel so sluggish and dizzy today that you messed up and sliced open your arm. It’s ok- Raph’s here for you! He’ll either patch up your arm himself or take you to Leo, and after it’s taken care of he’ll scold you and say that it’s fine, maybe he’ll give you another chance next week. And he keeps his word- once again, you’re allowed to try your hand at chopping some veggies with him or Mikey- and again, you feel dizzy and accidentally cut yourself.

This will happen many more times- or not, if you give in easily enough- at least until Raph finally decides that he just can’t keep doing this. He brought you to the lair to keep you away from harm, and despite it being to teach you a lesson, he just can’t bear to watch blood drip down your pretty skin.

So instead, he further seals you away- locking you in his room and wrapping one of his hoodies around your head. He’ll keep you like this until you finally learn.

He won’t starve you, at least. He’d hate to watch you waste away after everything, so you’ll be fine physically, but it’ll be hell to not be able to see or properly hear anything. It’ll also be more difficult to breathe properly through the fabric, so I wish you luck with that.

He’s infuriatingly nice throughout the whole thing. Of course he’s angry when you argue with him- when you hurl insults and and completely unfounded whining (yeah right) at him. Sometimes he hurriedly leaves the room so he doesn’t do anything he regrets- but when he comes back- despite your wishes that he wouldn’t- he just wraps that damned hoodie around your skull and chides you for your hostility, leaving you to wonder if this could really be better than death.

You feel insane rambling to his plushies, of which you now know the individual names of, but it’s an admittedly nice bit of company to have when your only other option is Raph. Honestly, you’d rather deal with Ms Cuddles by this point, and she even managed to wring a scream out of Donnie.

At least it’s something you can actually have even an ounce of fun doing that he won’t take away for being “too dangerous”. As long as you can tolerate his absolutely smitten behavior when he finds you talking to them.

Be careful about how loudly you complain, though- it might just land you being completely swaddled in blankets and left to go insane on his bed.

4-  Mikey.

I think that if you were to try and escape from Mikey, he’d conclude that his love simply needs to spend more time with him! Maybe if he shows them how wonderful life is with him, they’ll stop trying to run away!

Unfortunately, I doubt his sleep schedule is very consistent. He keeps you up late at night to try out new spraypaints, recipes, games, anything he can find to do with you will be done. You hardly get the chance to sleep well, and the peace you get in dreams is frequently interrupted.

When he does take a break, he insists on sleeping in the same bed, and it’s much harder to fall asleep with him staring holes into you, as though he were trying to memorize every single detail.

It takes a damn long time to get Mikey to knock it off, too. You have to guess that stubbornness runs in the family, if his brothers are anything to go by. Unfortunately, said brothers’ coddling of their youngest has resulted in quite the persistent guy, and you’re quickly losing the energy to refute him. You wonder how long you’ll need to sleep for the giant spider in the corner of your vision to go away.

When the box turtle finally does realize how much of a toll his shenanigans have taken on poor you, he decides that as the person responsible for you, it’s his job to make sure that you get plenty of rest- and if you refuse, Dr Delicate Touch and Dr Feelings are always here to make sure you’re convinced!

He does a sort of 180- where he once forced you to do everything, he now forces you to do nothing at all, even when your mind screams at you to get up and move. He’ll slip something he stole from the pharmacy into your food and carry your sleeping figure back to his room for your seemingly infinite nap.

In between consciousness, you’ve learned to just stay in bed, maybe draw or write something related to all the adventures you go on in dreamworld.

Fun fact, over sleeping has a couple negative side effects- it increases the risk of diabetes, obesity, headaches, back pain, depression (like you don’t have that already, being kidnapped and all), and heart disease! I wish you the best of luck.

When he finally believes your rest to be sufficient, everything will go back to normal. Except, of course, the lingering paranoia of when it’ll happen all over again will continue to haunt you.

Who knows, maybe he’ll continue drugging you just to keep you a little more complacent. Can’t have you running away all the time, right?

[dokidokiliteraturegirls]

1 day hiatus and some thoughts regarding the last arc.

Man, that was one heck of a ride! Or at least I hope it was, because that was my intention! Before we move on, I want to announce I’ll be taking a day long hiatus, mostly because it would be pretty weird to finish the hyper-dramatic and intense arc I was making and then jump straight back into silly hijinks and shenanigans, so there won’t be an update tomorrow, but there will be one the day after! I’ll also share some thoughts and ideas that went behind the writing of that specific art and ask for some opinions under the cut, so don’t miss it!

I was going to make this post a video but after I heard my recorded voice I was like eeeeeeeeewwwwww. Sorry if I ask you to read too much (I’ll try to keep this text post as concise as possible), but trust me, it’s better than my awful voice and bad attempts at comedy. Trust me.

Anyways, I want to thank all of you!! The last five days have been really intense here in ddlitg with Monika’s Deletion Arc. With the intents and purposes of keeping the events of the story mysterious I purposefully remained mostly silent during this week (mostly because I can’t shut tf up). I know you guys had a lot of questions and it made me kind of sad not being able to answer them to keep up the aura of mystery, but it was also incredibly fun and motivating to see you all coming up with your own theories about how Monika was going to be brought back, how her memories would be installed, etc~ It really made me feel like I succeeded at keeping you guys hooked on the story! As a fanfiction writer, that is a great achievement for me ❤️❤️❤️ On the other hand, some people got really scared. They thought I was going to delete the blog at the end of the time limit, and that Monika would stay dead for good. I’m sorry that I couldn’t elbow you guys and say *pppst! don’t worry. all this tension is temporary. I don’t write tragedies bro. In my stories, even when stuff goes sour, it always ends up ok because I think it gives a good message* because it would spoil all the suspense I was working on so hard to build up.

Secondly, I was also a little scared that I was breaking up the mood that I had set up for the blog. Because of the beautiful messages you marvelous individuals take the time to send little ol’ me, I know many of you see this blog as a palate cleanser for all the f*cked up stuff that happens in DDLC, and I remember people even telling me they recommended the blog to other people who had just finished the game so they could overcome the trauma more easily, as I have set up a fluffy and comfortable atmosphere around my updates. Even when I delve into more serious topics, such as Natsuki’s bullying because of her being trans, I had never written a story arc as tense as this one before (previous multiple-update spanning story arcs were the Natsuri and Sayorika shipping arcs, so....). However, I may not show it because of how fluffy DDLitG is, but I’m a big fan of emotionally intense stories, such as shonen manga, where blood-soaked heroes scream about hope in the eyes of imminent defeat. The kind of stories that keep you glued to the screen with your heart pumping and your blood boiling wondering what is going to happen next, how are our heroes going to overcome the next hurdle (I recommend Tengen Toppa Gurren Lagann if you’re into that kind of stuff like I am). However, the stories I write are very different: Doki Doki Literature Girls is about four girls trying to heal from past trauma with the power of mutual support and persistence, ohfuckistaigis is about random stuff happening and out-of-character banter for the sake of whatever joke I can come up with in the 15 minutes I take to make each update, and Literature and Murder is about two seemingly incredibly different characters realizing they’re much more similar than they realized, and growing together as friends while exploring themselves and overcoming their internal struggles ina world that actively works against them (no, really). I really wanted to challenge myself to get out of my comfort zone and write an emotionally intense story arc for DDLitG, as not only it is my story with the biggest and most beautiful audience (I love you guys so much ❤️❤️❤️), but it’s also the one with the biggest potential for those kind of stories. HOWEVER, I’m still scared that I betrayed you guys by writing something different if you put your trust in me to bring you happy fluffy updates every day to help you unwind. Some people were disappointed when the first update in the arc dropped, and that’s understandable, which is receiving your opinion on this is super important for me.

You know, I worked super, SUPER hard on this arc. Like... the hardest I’ve worked on anything ever. I’ve put more woman-hours and effort into making every little thing make sense, fit perfectly with each other, work as a conclusion to a previously established fact, and at the same time be mysterious and interesting in these five updates than the entire rest of the blog. And apparently it paid off!! I received so many wonderful messages, so many theories daily, and so many people saying they cried at the conclusion that it felt like a truly special time in the blog, and an reminder of why I love the power of fiction and being a writer so much ❤️❤️❤️ I want to thank you all again for being with me in this journey, and I hope I can keep bringing you updates that make your hearts go doki doki!!

Now as a fun conclusion I want to share some memes I received that I was too much of a dumbass to remember queueing. I’M SO SORRY I’M REALLY SORRY I WAS SO FOCUSED ON THE UPDATE I FORGOT TO POST THESE I’M SO SORRYYYYYYYYYYY 🙇🙇🙇

Now let’s check them out because they’re the best ❤️

(pleasebringmonikaback@gmail.com holy shit)

@retritale I LOVE THIS SO MUCH OMG!!! I kind of wonder what would happen if I’m on the bus or smth and spot someone with a picture of my blog like this one as a wallpaper. I would probably lose my shit right there and then.

We actually received this one today, but I’m posting it here because 1. it’s hilarious and b. I don’t want people freaking out thinking Monika got deleted again.

And finally, and extremely importantly... remember that thing about removing Monika from the Icon and Banner that was the best idea ever because it was so meta and it paralleled beautifully with how Sayori disappeared from the title screen of DDLC in the 2nd run and was so much fun because more and more people discovered it and I literally received messages about people freaking out because they had just discovered it every day? I want to thank this anon for that! It was entirely their idea:

I read that messages as I was having breakfast and literally stopped eating to make the new pictures because the idea was so genius. I really wanted to IM this person to thank them personally but... you know. Anon. So I’m posting it here! Thanks buddy, you made the whole experience seem all the more real ❤️

Once again, I can’t thank you enough for your wonderful messages, sending your theories, sending me shit because you didn’t agree with my decision, everything, the comments you put on posts, the tags you put on the reblogs, everything. You’re seriously the best fanbase a writer could ask for ❤️❤️❤️

[survivor-guyana]

Episode 13 - "I don't think that there's anyone remaining in this game that can 100%, undoubtedly, beat me at Final Tribal Council." - Alyssa

I'm worried that I don't have enough on my resumé for the end game. I'm set up "pretty" well to get to that point (watch me jinx my ass OUT NOW) but I believe it's because everyone thinks they can beat me.

I need to make a move SOON. Jones NEEDS TO GO TODAY but I'm worried she has an idol. I kind of want to throw a vote at Alyssa and blame it on someone else because they'd never believe it was me? It would cause cracks in whatever alliances we have with Chelsea/Dani. I just DON'T MORALLY want to do it. I feel fucking terrible and I'll feel even more terrible if it's the vote that tips the scale in the direction of her going :\

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I HATE THINKING ABOUT THE END GAME BECAUSE.. I FEEL LIKE I'M GOING TO JINX THINGS BUT....

I just know Devon's game is tooo fucking strong and he is HANDS DOWN THE BIGGEST THREAT TO WIN THIS GAME.

Alyssa is second biggest. I honestly think even Chelsea has a better shot at this point than I do.

I NEED TO FIGURE SOMETHING OUT.

If I don't have to use my idol tonight (I'll only do it IF Jones uses the idol)...  then next tribal I may have to be sneaky and idol our target and force either Devon or Alyssa out.

This is the ONLY WAY I have a chance. I rather get 4th and took a swing to DO SOMETHING IN THIS GAME than to get 3rd by doing nothing.

I haven't heard much about the vote but it has to be between Jones or Dani..... Jones voted for Devon last round which worries me even though Dani voted me lmfao. Dani only voted me because she was told I was majority, so i can't be too mad. Jones however, idk what that Devon vote was about. I want Devon with me at the end so I want to knock out anyone who potentially gets in the way of that.

so Jess basically just confirmed to me that the vote to go was on me tonight. like we had a deep conversation about why it didn't work out most of the time and i'm really glad we had that. I also lied and told her Aidan was gunning for them the whole time skfskjfksf so oops. Jess if you're reading this now i'm sorryyyyy for lying i was p desperate BUT UMMMM yeah i'm trying to figurew this out so i can stay so yeah. hopefully it's dani!!! hopefully i make it!!! hopefully I win

sooooooo here i am :) that smile isn't supposed to be sarcastic i swear but I know i'm going home. like, i already cried about it and i think i'm gonna cry about it again, but I don't regret anything and i'm honestly really proud of myself and how far I've come. I'm the last of OG tamaka!! so that's cute. so thank you to anyone who was like,, supporting me in anyway shape or form? i really appreciate it. like genuinely. i'll probably pop off on the tribal - BUT yeah. I really appreciate it. hmu if you ever wanna see the finished doc. I keep hinting at it so i might as well show people. but genuinely though,,, thank you so much. i know this won't be the last time you hear from me, so GET READy for me to rig myself into a game and win or smth. <3

After Jones put my name down, I was shocked to see her drop in the immunity. She HAS to go, just cause she is an immunity threat. Nothing personal whatsoever, but it's all part of the game!

THIS BITCH IS GOING TO FINAL 4! I honestly can't believe it.

This round is gonna get messy. I'm either going to destroy my game and go out 4th or I'm going to somehow end up in final 3. I think I rather go down swinging and making a move than playing it safe and getting beat in the final 3 anyways.

My plan for this round is simple: Promise both Alyssa/Devon I'll use my idol on them. Get them to both dump their votes on each other.. and idol the person I want out of this game. I didn't come here to make friends.. those are a bonus.

Devon HAS TO GO.

If they both somehow want to end up in the final 3 with each other then they are dumber than bricks and I'm done for. But LET'S PRAY SOME MORE!

Yooo so me and Jess are trynna make it to final 2 by knocking out Devon and Alyssa. But everything I type here never happens so LOL

Jess approached me and mentioned possibly voting Alyssa because Dani will be easy to beat in F4 and Devon has been cool af to both of us. I haven't heard anything in hours so im hoping this goes smoothly. I hate to vote out Alyssa because she's been awesome, but i have to think of my game and voting out Dani will be a waste imo.

I hope i don't get blindsided tonight but i can't promise myself that it won't happen.

This one goes out to my Final 3 partner, Devon! Oh wait, you wanted final 3 with Jess. OH WAIT, no you def wanted final 3 with me because Jess and Alyssa NEEDED to be broken up. OH WAIT, wrong again!! You wanted final 3 with ANYONE who would get you there by being a total SNAKE. Devon, I commend you on your tricks to get yourself far in the game, but I am so pissed that you made it this far by playing the way that you did. I have prided myself on not being a sneaky player and always being pretty honest with the people I work with. I feel dirty that I stayed close with you and allowed you to have some control on who I voted and how I felt about certain players in the game. You pulled me and Sammy aside early on to spread lies about Jess and Alyssa so that Sammy and I would say that we want them out, and then you went to Jess and told her that Sammy hated her. All were lies but you caused a lot of drama that was right under our noses.  All of this was on call so that there is no paper trail and I am SO HAPPY that us ladies outlasted you. Karma is a biotch! I should have known that you weren't just "working" with me when you said you were gonna "lay low" about the Aidan vote.

You are probably really nice as a person outside of these games, but I honestly don't think I could ever trust you in a game again. The fact that you so easily made your way through the game at the cost of others makes me think that you have done this plenty of times before. Sorry, I don't feel bad that you got voted out; you deserved it.

Final 4! WOW. If you would have told "Day 12 Jess" she would make it this far I think she would have died.

This game has been a rollercoasterrrrrrrrr.

From feeling alone on the Fans tribe, to losing three challenges in a row, to finding a PERSON in Alyssa, to winning challenges, to constantly being targeted with Alyssa, to somehow being put in a power position, to being fed bullshit until final 5, to discovering this bullshit and taking out the BIGGEST PLAYER in this game.... IT HAS BEEN A TIME.

If I go out tonight I'll be disappointed because I do think this has been one of the BETTER games I've played. HOWEVER, if I'm Alyssa/Dani/Chelsea I would take me out.

BYEEEEEEEE <3

I'm a lil worried that I might not be making it to final 4 so if that's true, i am happy to be losing to a set of queens. In my last game I got beat by 3 men, so this is a step in a better direction lmfao. I might vote jess tonight for the sake of it being easier to win against Dani (imo, idk if Dani might have me beat because we didn't talk as much) so i see Jess as a bigger threat. However, Jess used her idol on Alyssa which leads me to think that Alyssa def won't vote for her. I really do think that i am the easier vote so just in case, I'll leave this here:

I had a lot of fun in this game and did not think that I would have gotten this far in the slightest. I feel like I did really well despite having at least one vote against me for more rounds than I'm comfortable with, and I think I proved a point that you don't always need to be super active and in every tribe conversation to do well. I do a lot of behind the scenes talking and it works for me. I love you all and I'm happy to be in the Guyana: fans v favorites final 4!

WOW I made it to FTC. I'm shook, I'm nervous as fuck, and I'm pretty sure I'm about to get verbally assaulted.

Final Note From MWAH: