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boycritter · 1 year ago

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im afraid of the way that i lived my life. im afraid of the way i dont. im afraid of the things that i wanna do but i wont. im afraid of god. im afraid to believe. im afraid of all the loved ones that i made leave. im afraid that my dog doesnt love me anymore. im afraid of the social laziness that let kitty genovese die. im afraid of the mob mentality that makes otherwise normal people go blind. im afraid of the way that the world works. im afraid of the words in my notebooks. im afraid that you all know that i am a pervert. but the big red bird that lives under the city. doesnt give a damn about me. and it dies every night. by burning alive. im afraid of my grandfathers cancer. im afraid of my moms dying arm. im afraid that ive somehow caused my family harm. im afraid that the ones i love wont have enough. im afraid that the ones i love wont have enough. its harder to be yourself. than it is to be anybody else. i wish i were a little less of a coward. but the big red bird that lives under the city. doesnt give a damn about me and it dies every night. SO I BOUGHT A KNIFE !!! I AM A KNIFE MAN !!!

hello. hello. can anyone hear me. hello.

#im sooo normal about big bird by ajj #the way it sounds empty and hollow at the beginning. when hes thinking about himself.#and then how all the instruments start to play when he starts thinking about those around him.#and the music picks up as his fears go from inward to the entire world to those he loves. and how much he cares about them #and and and and

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