#im so tired tho 😞 i don't want to care

[im-getting-help]

me: im so tired, im not going to do shit this year, just bare minimum and that's it.

also me: "heeeyy [name of the coordinator of my career]!! i have a proposal. I was thinking we could do more for the stand of the career on the festival week. I would like to work with some professors to create games or presentations so we can interact with potential alumni..."

[xqllin]

the absolute horror on my face upon the realization that a pearl by mitski is literally sakura MOTHERFUCKING haruka

"You're growing tired of me"

- his doubts about how everyone will think of him when he thinks he 'failed' his duty as a grade captain, a leader

"You love me so hard and I still can't sleep"

- ok I can't really remember when it happened but this reminds me of the time sakura spent the whole night tossing and turning and then kotoha teased him about it

(i seriously can't remember why tho but it's gotta have something to do with how the people of Makochi treated him)

"And all the things I don't talk about"

- 'Everybody's got a thing or two that they don't wanna talk about' by sakura haruka himself

"Sorry I can't don't want your touch/Sorry I can't take your touch"

- him being so used to physical contact through violence, he doesn't know how to be soft, he never got the chance to

"It's not that I don't want you"

- he does care about them all but he's scared of getting close to people, he's only had himself so he pushes them away unconsciously :(

"It's just that I fell in love with a war/Nobody told me it ended"

- my interpretation of this line is that you're just so used to the toxicity, even after you've gotten rid of it, it doesn't leave you, in fact, you might feel you're still in the war, or worse, be the trigger of another war with a different "enemy"

- but in this case the "war" really did end for sakura (WARRR ISSSS OOOOVERRRRRRR)

- it's just like how sakura has been ridiculed by people all his life, he automatically assumes Furin and the townspeople will be the same and eventually reject him as well

"And it left a pearl in my head/And I roll it around every night/Just to watch it glow/Every night baby that's where I go"

- basically him overthinking things, I don't really know how to explain it 😞

"There's a hole that you fill/You fill, you fill"

- his thoughts about how he wants to be with these people, and then he realises he wants to be here, that he belongs here, that this is his home :((

- this town will heal him, fill the hole in his sore, lonely heart (im so happy for him sobs)

🙏 sorry if any of these information are wrong, I wrote this purely by my memory !

[rodolfoparras]

Gonna ramble for a second

So I smoke weed (it's illegal in the US at my age) and my older brother asked me yesterday if I wanted a hit off his bong before our parents got home. Because despite having done every drug to permanently damage their brains (mostly my dad, he was an alcoholic and addict before and when I was born), smoking weed as a minor is bad 🤬🤬🤬

And he joked that my younger sister exposed me, because he had no idea I smoke. Everyone in the house, except my sister, thinks I would never smoke weed. (It's because of the smell cuz my dad would blow it in our faces and laugh. I'm more inclined to enjoy something when it's not being shoved down my throat.)

And I brought it up to my sister this morning to joke about, but we were whispering because my mom was in the other room. And now she's mad at us and being short with us because we didn't include her 😐

42 year old woman being mad that her kids don't tell her everything, and for good reason. We literally can't tell her anything because she'll rat to father even tho we ask her not to. One time, I told her I tried alcohol at a graduation party and found out I have Alcohol Flush Reaction (I'm basically allergic) and told her not to tell my dad, and I found out she told him because he made a joke about me being allergic to alcohol in front of my friend 🧍‍♂️I also told her I was bisexual and asked her not to tell him and then I found out she did because he made a joke about me liking aliens or something.

But he's her best friend, so it's okay 🙄 girl we ask you not to for good reason!!! We hate him!!! And he's an asshole!!! If we wanted him to know, we'd do it ourselves!!!!

Anyways, sorry 😞🙏 I needed to bitch for a moment

In a different note! How have you been doing?? I know you said you were sick recently. And how's the job 👀👀 are you enjoying it??

-🐧

Unfortunately a lot of parents like this. However this doesn’t make it okay and I’m sorry she betrayed your trust at multiple occasions and I’m sorry you have to put up with this nonsense behavior. You are completely in the right for setting boundaries and upholding them. I know there’s a lot of guilt you feel inside bc at the end of the day that’s your mom and you want her to feel happy and be included but she’s proved time and time again that she doesn’t care about your feelings so you shouldn’t take hers into consideration

Also I’m good my love!! Still getting used to working in schools again but I love it!! I love my job! I love working with my students I love the staff there are so many hot teachers around (and parents) 🧎🏻‍♂️🧎🏻‍♂️🧎🏻‍♂️ I think I’ll be signing an official contract this Friday or I hope at least djdjd and I’m so excited to see the type of pay I’ll get, I’m excited to get a proper schedule because now im currently floating from class to class trying to gauge where they would need a student assistant but like I said I love it I don’t dread going to work I mean it sucks being tired after because I want to come home and write much more than I do now but that will come in time!

[kllrorca]

TLDR;

- Hai!!!! I'm Orca also now known as Mylo (bc the name is pretty and i wanna feel pretty :3) I'm an alter who's LITERALLY our host but I also have some fictionkins I'll need to regulate later on umm!!!!

- I age with the body and rn, we are 17 :3 I DON'T HAVE A DNI (beside the basic one!!) I'm just existing ^_^ I USE THEY/THEM!!!!!!!!

- I CAN'T FOLLOW BACK!! This is a side blog and even tho host doesn't use tumblr to post, ik he wouldn't want any proshippers in his following so I'm gna respect that :3 (feel free to follow me anywhere else that DOESN'T connect this type of stuff)

- I AM A PROSHIPPER AND PROFIC(??! I need to search more about it but it seems fun :3)

Tsdr [Too short didn't read];

ITS ME!!! - KllrOrca :3

— Mylo/Orca ; Minor ; They/Them ; Headmate

- SIDE BLOG. Other socials will be put later!

- I'm usually fronting, if I'm not fronting u have the permission to ask about me!! The host might not respond but sooner or later I will instead :3

- I am a proshipper & Profic, I'm still getting used to being public about it so I'll put emojis down at some point!!!

- We are bodily Black & Puerto Rican :3 I WILL make jokes eluding to racism and slavery with friends, its something I picked up and will NOT let go!!! If that makes u uncomfortable just tell me ^_^

— Activity Varies depending on how much people perceive me ^_^ If you dont perceive me I won't be on for long, since I'll be bored!

- I USE MY HOSTS ARTSTYLE THAT SEEMS EASY TO USE!! I don't want to hurt my hands OR make others think my host is a proshipper when he's not 😞 I wanna get in drama for ME not him srry

- Everyone has full permission to draw my sona and use my sona in anything EVEN hate drawings :3 I love everything!!!! Give it to meee ^q^

— I'M NOT EXACTLY AGENDER BUT I DON'T EXACTLY HAVE A GENDER EITHER!! I guess I AM agender but on a more feminine + masculine side without the neutral ??? I don't really care :3

- My sexuality is... idk!! I haven't thought about it

- I AM APART OF THE LGBT THOUFH!! I KNOW THAT :3 Idk if I'm pan, i don't think so and besides; I wanna be myself !!!

- ANY AGE CAN INTERACT WITH ME BUT DON'T BLAME ME FOR ANYTHING I AGE RESTRICTED!!

— HAI thw main blog to get to any OTHER blog IS strictly [ANTI PROSHIPPERS] + variations, so I can't send it here :3 incase any anti proshippers want it to date back to my host (who rlly just wants me to stop bothering him about everything) then dm me and I'll send it!!! idm ^w^

- I'll make a carrd/rentry/strawpage at some point :3 maybe :3 idk .. maybe I shouldn't but also Should once I have all my socials ready

MY BOUNDARIES [IK, SHOCKING!!]

— I don't have a dni (beside the basic one!!) :3 You can interact with me idc! Even if its for arguing! One thing I ask though is that u DON'T attempt to dox me, bc at the end of the day I can just stop fronting snd you'll be doxxing an innocent person instead who got so tired of hearing me yap and yap!!

- I won't be doing the time, my host will :3 and it'll only traumatize us more!!! Don't be stupid :D

- ACTUALLY don't harass ANYBODY!!!! u can Harass ME but don't harass anyone else PLEASE!!!! I won't like talking to u otherwise sorry

— JUST BECAUSE I'M AN ALTER DOES NOT MEAN I WANT TO TALK ABOUT MY SYSTEM! Talk to me for me pls :3

- I DON'T CARE ABOUT SYSCOURSE UR ALL PEOPLE AT THE END OF THE DAY and I want people to talk to me ^_^ Talk to me Rachel...!! /ref

- IF YOU feel uncomfortable talking to me since im an alter (confusing but wtvr) DON'T FEEL FORCED TO INTERACT if I interact first :3

- Ai generators can kiss my ass also btw I don't like Ai but i can like the person typing the prompt in the computer if ur cool !!!!

MYYYY Final notes :3

— ANY ANON EMOJIS ARE WELCOMED TO ASK FOR A SPOT HERE OR A SPECIAL TAG :3 U can dm me and ask me abt things idm!! I have the mindset of NOT SENDING HARASSMENT OR hating on people who haven't done anything :3

- u can request me art from me :3 but know thay sending nsfw to minors IS illegal so I can't do nsfw!! sexual nsfw!

[dysiver]

Idk if you wanna hear it but I will still rant cuz im sad 2d ☹ I just look at those people being in relationships for 10 years and I fucking feel sad BRUH. Like I want that shit too but I am single. Asked a friend why and he said I had this aura around me. I thought he meant antiosocial emo aura but he said that I seemed like I was really confident and thus, intimidating LOLL. Like bruh, true I do take things in charge a lot but thats cuz I have friends who are all socially awkward and shy and anxious and some1 gotta step up and shit and fucking order at the goddamn restaurant instead of sitting like a fracking mute duckling. But they all end up gazing at me with wide-star doe anime eyes and the look that says "MY ALPHA, THANK YOU <33" LIKE bitch, I don't wanna be alpha tho 🥺 I'm the softest inside and I want to get spoiled and shit and it's sad that cuz I'm kinda a leader type, guys/gals (im a bi girl) don't approach me. I wonder if they would back away if I started aproaching them first cuz I apparently am so intimidating lmao. But i dnt wanna do the chasing, I wanna BE CHASED. But then again, if someone does end up approaching me, I don't wanna give the wrong impression and then fking end up being the cuddliest softest horniest mushiest pillow princess bitch ever when the person expected a badass dominatrix 😪 My life is sad, I wanna be a bitch but I can't cuz everyone around me is kinda pussy and I gotta be the alpha cuz I get tired and shit of seeing nobody step up 😔😔😔😔😔 DYS PLZZZZ, I need someone more alpha than me to be my own alpha. Plz set me up 🤧 Write a fanfic about me and do voodoo with it until it becomes reality, I want so bad to be the bitches you fuck up in your fics 😞

don't worry anon I know the feeling cuz I give off that vibe too and it turns into a struggle with people. Like they don't realize I don't enjoy being the responsible one or the one that has gotta take care of people i just assume that role cuz everyone else is an idiot LMAO

But I wanna be spoiled uwu and taken care of but it takes a VERY specific person to deal with me cuz again, I am very particular in how I want things done and I'm very vocal about what I like and don't like, in other words I'm not submissive in the slightest and that seems to make people believe I wanna be the one in charge when I don't.

So it's kinda hard LMAO

[stormyoceans]

Have a nice day, Monica!🌸 I am sad to hear that your condition has not improved. I don't know if you've talked about a sleep therapist, but maybe you should see another doctor who won't forbid you caffeine, but will really help you figure out the causes of your insomnia. I'm morally with you, Monica! I'm not sleeping well right now either, but it's more because of the nightmarish situation in a world where everyone hurts each other. It seems that our species is genetically devoid of the word "peace", and the realization that everyone chooses violence as a method of conversation makes my heart clench. Anyway, I want to support you! I'm your personal Kevin McCallister, remember? I'm sorry for not doing my job well in setting traps for your insomnia😞. Be sure to take care of yourself! Only you have yourself!🌸

my dear 🌸 anon,

im actually so very grateful for all the hard work you do in setting up the traps for my insomnia. that pesky little devil sometimes is still able to sneak past them, but every time i get what for me can be defined as a good night of sleep, i know it's because there's my own personal kevin mccallister looking out for me, and for that im never gonna stop thanking you 💜

im sorry to hear you’re also having trouble sleeping tho. for what is worth, i truly do understand how you’re feeling. just because im not particularly vocal on here about what’s happening in the world, it doesn’t mean im indifferent to it, and even being able to have the choice of not talking about it in a curated space like tumblr is an immense privilege. and while we may not be able to change the world by ourselves, we still can do our small part in trying to make it better by doing what we can to help those in need, even if it’s just by spreading awareness. it may not sound like much, but if more and more people start to do that, and we don’t get tired to fight for what’s right, maybe one day things will change

im not sure this is much of a soothing thought, but i want to support you as well, anon. im holding your hand and im here if you ever need to talk 💜

[saintobio]

The way this chapter made my heart hurt and flutter at the same time. The “Mrs. Zenin” had a nice ring dont ya think😏😏😏. Toji is so sweet to the MC and I think it’s so refreshing to watch their relationship blossom.

Gojo on the other hand😐… can still take a long walk off a short pier. It’s so ironic how he feels bad for Sera bc she feels insecure compared to Y/N. like how do you think your wife feels sir???? you barely interact with her and when you do you’re demeaning ASF. do you ever tire of being a dickhead? and idk why he just expects her to be happy-go-lucky after he comes back with a getaway with his mistress. and Ms. Sera maybe you wouldn’t feel insecure if you weren’t willingly sleeping w a married man😫😫😫

but I just live for when the MC talks her shit back to Gojo like you go girl LET HIM KNOW! i hope we definitely get to see more of her speaking her mind

This chapter was😮‍💨🤌🏽 Ai! You always come through and make my weeks worth something. I hope you’re taking care of yourself and prioritizing your health before anything. Make sure you’re eating a whole bunch and staying hydrated! Can’t wait to see what’s in store for Chap. 7!

-🧎🏽‍♀️

Anonymous said

that “mrs. zen’in” sounded real nice i can’t even lie to you 😭 felt like it just ROLLED off the tongue omfg i LOVE the dynamic/relationship of toji & mc so much 🥺

Anonymous said

The moment I read, "Hey, drunkhead" I can't help but squeal! 🤩 Their moment together was so cute I think Toji will be a great mentor to her for when she starts trudging into the business world, hands on. He's so sweet I almost wanna ship. And don't even get me started with that "MRS. ZEN'IN?!" OMG! 😍 Another cute interaction, right there!🤲🏻😌

I love it when she finally started acting cold and was so consistent with it until Gojo tried to be more affectionate 😅 I almost got swayed too ngl ('cause I'm a Gojo-simp, I'm sorry 😔). I love the pool moment and also the part where she said "you don't have to hug me" but he won't let go. Sir, I— I swear I— but then I remembered the McLaren scene 😠 and whooop, who are you again? 😀 Yep it's gonna take you more than that, sir 😌

To think that Y/N even plan on apologizing to Sera for sleeping with her own husband, girl, you're too kind you might pass through heaven and miss it 🤷🏻‍♀️—🌾

@brivetaroundtown said

AHHHHH YN SHOULD BE MRS TOJI. I don’t give a shit what Gojo promised when he was six, he told Sera the fuckin truth, that YN would never have him. but jokes on Sera she’ll never have him either

I want more of MC being calm and truthful. Gojo deserves to suffer.

I do think Gojo’s mom was shitty though leaving her son in that situation. Probably the reason he is such a jackass now.

You’re writing is amazing and I am so emotionally invested in this story

Anonymous said

gosh i feel like if mc got fed up and leave assh*le gojo he would have the same nightmare he has when his mom left him, theres huge possibility possibility that he would be mentally ill due to the stress n all that drama 😔

ON THE OTHER HAND MR TOJI ZENIN THOOO 😍 (literal heart eyes when i read his part 💕) MRS. ZENIN? YES PLSS 😙🤲 (personally would leave gojo dumbass any day now for toji 😋). TOTALLY WANT TO HAVE MC HAVING A MOTHER N SON RELATIONSHIP WITH bb boy megs😌, like he would treat her like a 2nd mom n all (gojo would be totally jealous like "why cant we have our own 😔" then mc be like "suck to be u then, i aint gonna be ur baby momma 🤪) toji x mc (with bb boy meg) = happy family 💗👪

that b*tch sera 🤢 tho im so pissed at her like wtf girl ur the mistress i just wanna 🔪🔪🏃‍♀️😤

i have a question regarding gojo's mom 👉👈, does she have a deeper reason why she left gojo with his sh*t abusive father 🤢. i like her tho she seem cool

and the last part where gojo told mc about the promise they made when they were 6 about a baby? im in confusion 😞

sorry for the wack english hehe 😜

-🍄 anon

MRS. ZEN’IN !!! it does sound nice sdnsj imagine how gojo feels when he hears that lol mans not gonna like it 😭