#im so tempted to give this one a 5/5 but idk

[brb-on-a-quest]

Brb Book Club Reviews: The Queen's Thief by Megan Whalen Turner

tagging: @ramblings-of-lola and @hiddenvioletsgrow (who recommended the book, and i feel bad about lack of updates until like very end)

Date finished: 2/17/2025

Format: Audiobook from Libby :)

Length: 8hrs

Rating: 4.5 stars (AUGHHHHHHHH)

Thoughts: Literally straight up a fun time. Not for Our main character but it was for *meee*. It was a really cool plot and really cool set up and the worldbuilding (Literally the worldbuilding was excellent) was excellently done and I grew to love most of the characters (even if i hated most of them at first). Vaguely kind of like the Italian Job movie if it took place in like ancient history and there's only one person who's really competent at his job (like if you squinted).

Also gen gives very much bloodless vhas from rolling with difficulty vibes but literally no one's going to get it except me but if there was ever a modern au gen's got a bad australian accent.

Started off on the slow side but literally so worth it and not bad pacing overall really

the audiobook narrator did a really good job but literally will never hear 'yogurt' the same way.

Spoilery thoughts (There are actual spoilers, ppl be wary im sorry):

*screaming shaking crying*

Literally exactly the kind of book I wanted at the time. I don't know where to begin to be perfectly honest.

LIterally the build up that Gen's actually from like one of The Most Important Families caught me so off-guard and yet looking back to lines in the book it makes sense (especially the nobility)

Sophos/Sofos (I literally have no clue how any of these names are spelled im so sorry i just listen to it) best boi. Literally will kill anyone who harms him. Would make a terrible leader probs but i'd follow him anyway.

literally cried real tears with the Pol death like NOOOOOOO-

Literally always knew ambiades was a scumbag but chalked it up to normal elitism an pride that is so so everywhere in academia so was still surprised when he was traitor all the way from very beginning

Literally the temple scenes gave me actual chills especially when they met the gods for the first time.

Actually all the exposition was done really well. Like We love the magus for world-dumping all of the things for us and Moreover We Love Gen being like "actually ur wrong here's why."

BUT ALSO THE DYNAMICS BETWEEN EVERYONE SCREAMING

The magus and gen gaining a respect for the other and their positions. Magus being an absolute karen /aff to help gen and get him medical help he needs. Gen absolutely risking his own life over and over to get magus and sophos alive

literally the whole "everyone's secretly actually nobility" ending made me laugh and scream so hard. It's not so out of the realm of possibility that it didn't make sense, but I want to reread with that knowledge and be like heh. heh. heh. Also sophos being the kings nephew and the Heir to sunis is so funny. Like we're going to steal a magic rock to make ur uncle get married so he can have an actual heir and u can be ignored." Like sophos had actual motive to sabatoge and yet my boi did nothing. (although sophos probably would prefer to not be king of sunis)

Literally queen of attolia asking him to be her theif instead and gen responding that he already has a mistress *squeals* its sooooo gooddd (especially after finding out the mistress is actually Edis idk why it makes me laugh sm).

Moira. Just. Moira. I love her.

And Eugenides

Someone could really do an essay about the different approaches to find truth and justice between gen, ambiedes, sophos, and magus and even pol because it's very interesting but it's 1am so not doing that rn

the worldbuilding the vibes were 10/10. Screaming. I am currently in the middle of book 2 and so scared

Queen of Edis <3 the way she spills the whole tea with gen like we love catching up time

Gen being the historical fiction version of james bond

literally screamed after they found hermaitheses' gift (like yea i knew gen was gonna have it bc ofc my beloveds. but I was not expecting in his hair

If they make this in a movie i request the flynn rider man for gen. i'll think about everyone else.

[eeulysian]

ha. ha. ha. since ur requests are open.. I'll be requesting a fic for my beloved, chelsea from path to nowhere. writer!reader who makes novels and chelsea is interested in reader's works hehejwheueh.. he.. heh.. ok neways ^_^ chelsea then gives reader an opportunity to make their works more popular!!!.. if tjat makes sense idk but!!! in exchange, chelsea gets to have reader for herself! then reader is tempted but they'll make money from it so.. yah. in other words, this is kind of like idk prostitution— but i promise if u word it in a different way, it's ok... this happened to me in a dream btw

(heh.. nsfw.. if that's ok.. idk im kinda down bad for chelsea since shes my gf)

⟡ . IRRATIONAL COMPENSATION

summary: all in the request above!

cw: afab!reader, developing smut, oral and fingering (f!receiving), dom/sub dynamics, chelsea is a flirt, did i make it too long... chelsea is a squirter change my mind

a/n: i wouldn't call it prostitution? maybe compensation is a better word!! and i'm sorry if this isn't good enough, its my first time making smut 😞 and i think i went overboard and made it too long... soz i was too into it 💔💔

WRITING used to be a hobby for you, you used to be that wattpad kid that would make those alpha vampire boyfriend and the sheltered white girl kind of fics. but as you grew older, you began to take your hobby seriously, and it became a dream for you to become a novelist. so of course, you were able to get yourself into a publishing house, making yourself an official author. the only problem is, the publishing house is really unknown, so none of your works were able to make it big. you only had about like what — 50 or so fans/readers? yeah, even though you were grateful that they read your works, a part of you still wishes for the numbers to magically increase by the coming days.

you thought there was no hope for you, your works and your dreams, so you decide to drown yourself in alcohol, hoping to forget all your worries. so you went to a bar to get yourself a drink. then a second. then a third. then a fourth. then a fifth.

when is this going to end?

oh you were soooo depressed, no matter how many shots you took, your worries couldn't get out of your head. "i'm about to lose it," you think. not until a sultry voice called out to you from your right. "hey cutie, you seem to be stressed. what's the matter?"

you hastily turn to your right to find the source of the silky voice, and your (e/c) orbs meets with ones that are as red as wine. not to mention, her hair was pink. oh fuck. pink. pink hair??? you had a thing for pink haired girls. and this girl made you weak to the knees. it's probably because you're a little tipsy, but right there at that moment you wished you could kiss her oh so annoyingly, attractive red lips. this woman was downright beautiful and it's amazing how only her voice made you forget your worries.

she waves her hand infront of your face, trying to get your attention "hello? earth to... what's your name?" she chuckles, and at that moment you realized you've been too lost in your thoughts so you look like you've been staring at her for quite some time now... how embarrassing. "oh, m'sorry i think i'm just a little tipsy right now hahaaa... i'm y/n. andddddd you? beautiful lady?" what the fuck y/n why did you say that you're WAY too drunk to be flirting with gorgeous ladies right now you could trip and laugh it off like it's nothing in this state what is wrong —

your thoughts were cut off by her honey voice yet again once you hear her laugh ring in your ears. she laughs at your attempt to flirt even in such a state, but she replies nonetheless. "just call me chelsea. so tell me, what has made you so stressed, that you have to take about 5 or more shots of alcohol at once? are you a divorcee or a widow? work problems?", she asks you, curious to see if she's able to help you. what a kind beautiful lady. "the last one you just said", you managed to let out, and averted eye contact to not look at her. "i'm a failed novelist... ugh. i can't even get any of my works to be a hit. it's always just a 2-digit-amount of people reading them. i'm not saying i'm ungrateful, i just wish it was more popular." you sounded so exhausted, so worn out, and so stressed. chelsea felt bad, and she was trying to think of a way to console you.

then an idea came in. "how about this", you turn your head around to look at her again once she said that. "i'm quite rich, and i have a big social media platform as well. i could promote your works for you so your works can do numbers", your eyes lit up at that sentence, "but in exchange, i get you." then your eyes widened. confused on what she meant. "you get me in exchange...?" you were baffled. "yes, meaning i get to have a one night stand with you... or you can even just be mine straight away~" she smirks, looking at you dead in the eye. at that moment you noticed her eyes are filled with lust and desire.

oh that sentence, that smirk, the way those eyes look at you, you were sobered up. the bustling sound of chatting and laughing of other bar customers goes deaf in your ears, you're only focused on this pink haired woman and the loud beating of your heart. why is your heart beating so fast do you have arrhythmia? "so, what do you say?", she asks you again, and all the thoughts are running in your head. this might be a bad idea... but your co workers don't have to know, right? i mean, you're tempted. tempted to make your works a hit, and tempted to spend a night with this beautiful, enchanting woman.

at last, you decided to go with the latter, and accept her offer. "... okay. i'll accept that exchange." you hesitantly said, and all you see is a wolf-like smile infront of you. you can't deny that the way she looks at you is kinda... turning you on. "good girl." you flushed at that sentence. you look like the equivalent of a tomato right now. she called you a good girl? oh fuck you could even get on your knees for this woman.

"give me a copy of one of your best works, and i'll read it when i'm home. after that, i'll tell you if i like it and promote it for you. but you'll have to give me your number first so i can let you know how it goes," she winks, she is a woman of her word indeed. "if it turns out to be successful, then i can give you my address and you can come over... after all, our exchange can't be one sided, right? ♡" you were still blushing, but i mean... popular works? money? pretty girlfriend? you were more than happy to comply. you two exchanged numbers, and luckily you coincidentally brought your best work in your bag to read it when you get home, so you gave her your book, which was about a highschool slowburn romance, the characters are too happy so expect them to be doomed by the narrative because you're evil just like that lmao. you told her she didn't have to worry, as this is just a copy and you have all your original works at home.

she took the book, and you said "i'll be waiting for the results then, tell me if you like it and if you're able to promote it", you laugh sheepishly, kind of embarrassed how a beautiful woman is helping you and not you helping the beautiful woman instead. "of course, i'll read it in my free time and tell you how it goes~," she says in a sultry, flirtatious tone. you could only laugh nervously. "get home safely now," she leans in close to you to give you a peck on the cheek, and it left a faint red lipstick stain. you couldn't even talk at all, you were left shocked, baffled, flustered, shy, embarrassed, confused. girlfailure moment

✧༺♡༻✧

almost 2 weeks have passed, and you were procrastinating in your room because it was your day off. you were playing games, reading books and eating. at this moment you're watching a show of your choice on netflix on your laptop, but alas your peaceful moment was disturbed by a loud buzzing from your phone. "who the hell is calling me?", you said, clearly annoyed because whoever is calling you just ruined your netflix and chill time. probably your best friend or a co worker ready to bother you.

but the name you see on your phone is "chelsea", so you just had to pause your show because you just knew it was about your novel. you hesitantly answered the phone, and the first thing you hear is "hey cutie, i just finished reading your book", she says through the phone, and you swallow, scared of how she thinks of it. "... and i have to say, your writing is quite impressive, the way you organize the storyline and give your characters so much personality," you smile at the compliment, though she can't see it, so you say "really?", hoping she hears how happy you are.

"yes, so it's safe to say i can promote your name and your work on my social media. but even so if i ended up not liking it, my interest for you would have not gone away anyways." she says, followed with an attractive giggle that has your heart going crazy. but you're very ecstatic nonetheless, because you know your works are about to get popular after she promotes it. yes bitch get that bag

"thank you for helping me, i really appreciate it. i'm sorry i had to trouble you over my own work problems." you answer her, apologetic for dragging her into your personal matters. "don't worry about it baby, i'm happy to help. but please do remember..."

"that if you want to pay me back, then you'd have to pay back with you, and only you."

you remembered the exchange you had with her. and you become red, whether it's about the pet name, or the agreement you guys had. "oh, right... uhm, what do you want me to do then? come over?", you asked. "yes. that's exactly what i want. i'll text you my address. i'll be waiting, hot stuff~", and that's where you know you're going to have the time of your life. whew

✧༺♡༻✧

you finally arrived at her house. damn it was a nice house. 2 storey, clean, shiny and modern, and you can tell theres a pool in the backyard. you check your phone, it's 8:32 PM right now. you knocked on the door 3 times, no answer. you knocked again, another 3 times. then the door swings open, and you're met with those red wine eyes and luscious pink hair again. and you notice that she's wearing one of those... dress-type lingeries. you were sure you were at your last percentage of sanity because of it.

"hey, it's been a while." she gives you a silent giggle. "it certainly has been. well uhm, how have you been? did you post anything about my works?", you asked her, i mean you were eager to know if your work is gonna do numbers and hoping you'll wake up to your works getting sold out by tomorrow. "oh, straight to the point... is your work more important than me?", she answers, clearly sarcastic with the way she immediately laughs right after. you panic slightly, but before you could protest, she talks once again. "don't worry, my post about your book is already going viral, so expect all your works to get sold out tomorrow and your publishing house flourishing overall~"

once you heard that, you were glad you met this woman by a miracle. but oh, you shouldn't forget the deal you made with her. "thank you so much, really. i appreciate it. but so um, about the deal...", you say weakly, heart beginning to pound fast in your chest and you try to avert eye contact with her. but yet again, she always manages to catch your attention, and she pulls your face closer to hers, making you look into her eyes.

"mhm, and you remember what you have to pay with, right?~", she says with her red blood pupils looking right into your (e/c) ones, by now it's obvious how eager she is to devour you whole. you swallow, sweat falling down your neck, and you look flushed. "yes... i guess i shouldn't make our exchange to be one sided."

and with that, she pulls you inside her house, shutting the door and crashes her lips onto yours. she pulls you slowly to her kitchen while sloppily making out with you, and you feel like you're on fire. you want to please this woman, and make her feel so good. you start taking the lead for a bit and push her onto a counter, continuing to make out tongue to tongue with her. she wraps her hand around your shoulders and hair, moaning in between your kisses and grinding on your thigh... and that was when you can tell that she's quite... damp.

"mmhh hah~", she pulls away from the kiss to look at you with hazy eyes, "i want you to... go down on your knees, and eat me out." she manages to let out breathlessly, "i want you to please me, and be a good pet for me." you could only nod quietly. even if it means getting on your knees and barking like a dog just to marry this woman, you would do it anyways.

you slowly get down on your knees while she sits still on top of the counter, spreading her legs to give you easier access. you reach out for the hem of her pantie lingerie, slowly pulling it down. by the moment her pantie reaches her thigh, her pussy juices made a thin bridge with the inside of her pantie, which was an erotic sight for you and turned you on even more. that thin bridge was cut off the moment you pulled her pantie down completely and threw it onto the floor. gripping her thighs and spreading them a little wider, you lean it to give her aching clit a kiss. you earn a shocked gasp from the pink haired woman above you, shuddering the moment you made contact with her pussy.

you lick her slit, going down then up to her clit again and start flicking your tongue on it at a pace that's not too fast, but fast enough to make her throw her head back. she takes ahold of your hair and grips it slightly and whimpering your name, letting you know how good you're making her feel. you decide to push your tongue inside her tight velvety walls, and she almost puts you into a headlock with her milky thighs all because it was too sudden. you thrust your tongue into her in and out, constantly hitting her g spot. "ahmm...! ughmnggh... y-you're doing so good, hah! keep goinggghhngg..", she manages to blurt out weakly, mindlessly grinding her hips to meet your tongue, you can tell she was close from the way her moans started sounding more louder, the grip on your hair tightened and her walls started spasming a lot more than earlier. but you only ended up pulling your tongue out last minute and you were greeted with a disappointed whine. "why did you do that?", she looks at you, face so fucked out, but she's still a little angry even in a state like this.

you smirked at her, and went back down to kiss her clit and flick your tongue on it. she went back to moaning and whimpering, but what she didn't expect is you shoving a finger inside her and slowly thrusting it in and out, receiving a choked moan from her. you added another finger inside, and curled them. chelsea lets out a loud cry and her breathing starts getting more ragged and unstable, her thighs starting to shake uncontrollably. "ah! mmpleaseeee pleasepleasepleaseplease— fasterrrrhngmnhhh...", and the constant chanting of your name was all you could hear until she started squirting all over, onto your face and to the floor. at this point, the countertop was dripping wet with her juices, and it's slippery. one wrong move, she could accidentally fall down and injure herself. you wait for her to calm down from her high, getting up and holding her by the waist to stable her.

leaning into her neck and giving her kisses, relishing in the her rose scented perfume, mixed along with the smell of sweat and sex. she snakes her hand up to your neck, and kisses you, soft and chaste. pulling back, she could only say "i didn't know you were skilled like that... you really did good, cutie ♡", and you give her a promising smile, one that made her heart flutter and look at you with hearts in her eyes.

© 𝗮𝗹𝗹 𝘄𝗼𝗿𝗸𝘀 𝗰𝗿𝗲𝗮𝘁𝗲𝗱 𝗯𝘆 𝗲𝗲𝘂𝗹𝘆𝘀𝗶𝗮𝗻. 𝗽𝗹𝗲𝗮𝘀𝗲 𝗱𝗼 𝗻𝗼𝘁 𝘀𝘁𝗲𝗮𝗹, 𝗿𝗲𝘄𝗿𝗶𝘁𝗲 𝗼𝗿 𝗿𝗲𝗽𝗼𝘀𝘁.

another a/n: finally i'm done!! one of my longest fics yet... let me know if i made any mistakes or my writing was too long, sloppy or rushed. once again it's my first time making smut, sorry if i disappointed you! :( i'll do better next time ❤

[karatekamania]

haha hey you know that ask game you reblogged. what if. the prompt i gave you from it...... was all of them . grins EVILLY

UMMM!!!! TEEHEEE!!!! hi anon here's the dissertation u requested from this ask game, obviously im doing joe and sk (Ziggy) bc who else would i be able to answer 30 questions about??? i went into detail w all of these

under cut bc loooong and theres some doodles

1. What’s their love languages?

love languages are pseudoscience but as i said in a post before (and as u can see from my art and hopefully writing lmao) they're a very physically affectionate couple to me! to paraphrase my ramble from a bit ago, they're both the type of autistic person to thrive on physical touch but Joe's spent most of his life being extremely lonely and touch-starved. so I think Ziggy (whos like. a very clingy cat kinda) just loves to be rly gentle and affectionate w Joe in a way he never thought he'd ever experience or deserve. sobs a little (idk i make em v v sappy bc. comfort ship)

2. Do they have a dynamic trope? (enemies to lovers, sunshine x grumpy, etc?)

i dont knowwwwwwww but if i ever end up putting tha things i wanna write/finish writing on ao3 theyd probs be tagged friends to lovers which i assume is what the question's asking? and probs also hurt/comfort kinda i guess, in both "directions" but i def think Joe has more Problems in his life than Ziggy, especially when they first meet, so it just goes that way (again, comfort ship. i project my problems onto both of them but maybe more on joe soooo)

3. Who cooks? Who cleans up? Who’s banned from the kitchen?

Joe's a good cook I think, out of necessity (because his dad was such a terrible one) and also he takes it up as a hobby! not too sure about Ziggy, im tempted to say he sucks a bit at it n is just a bit clumsy and incompetent. 6switcher also lives with Ziggy and Joe and he's kind of like, a 3rd (platonic) member of the relationship and cooks for them all occasionally!!!

4. What’s their favorite sleeping/cuddling positions?

again they're like velcro around each other so i think they always hold each other when sleeping,, its v. comforting for both of them!!! i went thru my art tag and ive literally drawn them snoozing like 9 quintillion times and kinda similar each time,,,, the comfy cozies,,,

also really liking the hc that space kickers are kinda catlike in some ways so maybe sometimes Joe wakes up and like. his arms numb because Ziggy's curled up like a cat and is lying on it or Ziggy's sprawled out in the most bizarre sleeping position possible.

5. Who does what chores?

They have a cat (remix 9) that was also originally Joe's so he probably looks after that side of things, and as I said Joe also does the majority of the cooking I think!!! Other than that I can't really see them particularly dividing things out in a special way, maybe bc they r both autistic they have sensory hangups around certain things and the other takes charge! and again 6switcher lives w them so does some of it

6. Do they go out often or prefer to stay indoors?

When they first meet Joe is still living in the basement and they meet behind Senior's back, so they pretty much have to spend all their time out and about! which they both enjoy. When they move in together I still think they do a lot of fun things together out and about :) especially bc I imagine Ziggy's place is in the middle of a big city w lots of stuff to do!! and they also play for the same football team! but I think they're both good at looking at each other and deciding to skip a plan/social gathering

7. Who is the more romantic one?

i dont knowwwwwwwwwwwwww they are literally just. so sappy to each other. maybe I'd say Ziggy - they call Joe a bunch of really sappy petnames and gives him physical affection a loooot

8. Do they have any favorite activities to do together?

football :)))) Ziggy teaches Joe how to play, Joe teaches Ziggy to be happy w/ doing the sport for fun and not professionally (Zig had 2 retire early when he was young)! I think they also like to watch football games together (either at the stadium or on tv)!! also I think there's a market (like a night market!!) near where they live so they visit there quite often. ohhh and stargazing sniffle

9. Baths or showers together? Do they like elaborate ones with bubbles and flower petals?

probably not - Ziggy likes 2 take really cold baths/showers while Joe likes 2 take really hot ones bc in my mind palace space kickers are adapted to colder temperatures than humans! maybe they tried a few times but it didn't work out bc they kept arguing! but I think they'd both be fans of really long fancy baths n run them for each other

10. Who drives and who picks out the music?

Ziggy drives a silly little stereotypical ufo, Joe picks out the music (usually the rockers)

11. What’s a song that describes their relationship? Or, what’s the song that they’ve deemed “their” song?

as much as Ziggy isn't a huge fan of the rockers (Joe is), "that one song" (the rockers 2 song,,, enjoy my shitty in universe name) is their song because they had their first kiss/got together as a couple at the battle of the bands!!! so that 1 ig

12. Who gets up the earliest? Who has the worst sleep schedule? Who is the sleepiest?

Another hc I've thought already abt before is they have different sleep schedules, partially because they're different species! Ziggy goes to sleep later/wakes up earlier than Joe and also spends time awake in the night/napping, a bit like a cat kind of! they should maybe consider getting seperate beds but they are wayyyy too clingy w each other to consider that dfjkdjdjd. Joe's the sleepier one I think, especially before they move in w/ each other and he's overtired from training so much and probably has a bit of an unhealthy habit of denying himself sleep. he's the kind of guy to say "oh i'm fine, i'm tired but i don't need to sleep now!" and then Ziggy will play with his (remaining) hair for 2 minutes while they're watching tv together and he'll be like honk shoo honk shoo. i think in general he struggles to sleep normally but doesn't when Ziggy is there :')

13. What’s their opinions on PDA?

hypocritical,,, they both tend to be annoyed by others doing it, but are very pda-y themselves

14. Who does fashion shows after a mall trip and who watches and compliments them?

Ziggy is a v. fashionable guy and considers buying/modifying/making clothes a hobby, and probably even gets suuuper into it and likes to do lil mock fashion shows for Joe (like walking up and down the room as if it's the catwalk).

He also likes to buy Joe clothes n stuff, at first he buys Joe kinda fancy fashion-y things (wiimix7 outfit!!!) and then learns what he acc likes to wear (rly comfy cozy sweaters n stuff).

15. Do they go on vacations together? Where is their favorite place to visit?

they visit Joe's home planet quite often because he gets homesick and also ends up with earthling family other than senior. and they probs go to the beach there too or smth :)

16. What’s their favorite “domestic bliss” moment? Do they cook/clean together? Do they like to go out shopping together?

Joe has a growing collection of earthling plants (part of their apartment is slowly turning into a jungle) to feel more at home, and they love looking after them together, and Ziggy loves to listen to Joe talk about the different plants and how he's making sure they're all happy!!!

17. What does a relaxing night in look like for them?

very cliche but they cuddle up (under a blanket if its cold) and watch TV every night until one of them (usually Joe) starts falling asleep... Usually things like football games or like, shows/movies from their respective planets which they feel is important to introduce the other to. idk its just a mega important part of their routine to both of them :)

18. What does a date night out look like for them?

uhhhhhh idk Ziggy takes fuckin forever to get ready and pick an outfit and stuff a lot of the time! I think they live in a big city on Ziggy's planet w a lot of stuff to do so they have p varied date nights,,, stuff like going for nice dinners or concerts or watching the space/cosmic dance together! but tbf i think their fav date nights r like,, just stargazing together on a quiet hillside or something. i think if they're at a concert or a restaurant or whatever they often end up stargazing together anyway bc they both get overwhelmed easily n go and sit outside to chill for a bit

19. How do they silently/subtly express their love for each other?

when Joe was still living in the basement, letters! they communicated mainly by post during that period of their relationship and I think they'd just,,, include little inside jokes or send each other little heart candies n stuff. when theyre together i think theyd do things like subtly holding/touching hands or one holding on to the others coat or whatever,,, like idk theyre just always holding on to each other whether subtly or not

20. What clothes/accessories do they steal from each other?

Ziggy steals all of Joe's sweaters, even the ones he buys for Joe as a gift, bc they're oversized and really comfy and just like,,, feel like a big hug to him!!! Joe also lends him a pink rockers t-shirt one day so they can match at the battle of the bands and it becomes Ziggy's fav pyjamas! idk if Joe steals any of Ziggy's extensive wardrobe bc a lot of it isn't his style, though i could see him taking a liking to Ziggy's scarves :)

21. Which of their friends/family pokes fun at them for them getting flustered/affectionate?

6switcher basically bullies them 24/7, and Ziggy likes to playfully make fun of Joe for getting super flustered, often after doing something intentionally to make him flustered

22. How do they apologize after arguments?

I think Joe overapologises and overexplains a lot (now im thinkin Ziggy would do the same as well. but especially Joe), but he'd also default to baking something for them. I think Ziggy would just come and wrap their arms around Joe after they've had an argument

23. Do they like pick up lines?

They both see pick up lines as kind of cringe and would use them as a joke/bit! I think they both don't get why anyone would use those kind of things unironically

24. What are their favorite places to kiss on their partner(s)? What are their favorite types of kisses?

Zig likes to kiss Joe all over,,, but their fave is the very tip of Joe's nose, like it just makes him completely melt every time. I like to draw/imagine them also kissing him on the forehead n cheeks a lot. I hc space kickers as having patterns on their skin, I think Joe finds Ziggy's really really pretty so he likes kissing each of the lil spots and stuff on his shoulders and arms and stuff sniffle... ye

25. What is their dream home? Do they buy a place together? Who plans the decorations and who does the heavy lifting?

When they first meet and are long distance they both dream of living like,, anywhere together. I think they're pretty happy in Ziggy's little apartment, but eventually I imagine them moving to Joe's planet (because he missed it a lot) in a lil house and maybe running a kids football academy or smth! Idk exaactly what the interior decor is like but probs like,, cozy and full of plants n sunlight (projecting my dream home dreams onto them lmfao)

26. Do they have any pets or kids?

They have a cat and a fuck tonne of plants

27. Who would propose? What would their wedding be like?

im so unsure of which 1 would propose to the point where im considering the sappy gay relationship trope where they both propose at the same time!!! Whoever proposes, I think they'd do it outside live house ogu where they had their first kiss for sentimental reasons... I think Joe especially would want to get married bcs he has like,, no family or anything after running away from the basement (before he reunites w his mum), and he'd see getting married as a big part of leaving his past behind him and also becoming part of Ziggy's family! I think their wedding would have a mix of both earthling and sk traditions (whatever they are), space gramps would officiate it, 6switcher would be the best man and idk. gay space marriage (old art below)

28. What’s something that reminds them of their partner(s)? Do they have anything on them daily as a reminder (a photo, phone background, tattoo, clothing/accessory, etc)?

before they live together i think they know where each others planets in the night sky are and they look out for them every night, and probably also swap clothes so they can feel closer to each other! Joe has an old film camera that his dad stored in the basement and he takes pictures of em as lil mementos :)

29. What is something they can never agree on? How do they meet in the middle?

They spend a lot of time deliberating about whether to move back to Joe's home planet and maybe disagreeing on that! Joe misses it sometimes and has family/friends there, while Ziggy's job/football team/friends/family are on their planet. They compromise by makin lots of visits before/after they move I think, idk. I also think they never agree on like, how hot the room should be bc theyre adapted to diff temperatures lol

30. Free space! Say something about this ship that you want to say!

im SOOOO normal about them they make me ILL!!!! and ive learned like 90000000 art things just to draw better pics of them!!!!!!! and they bring me so much genuine comfort!!!!!!! as an extra thing I think they'd speak mix of each other's languages to each other

thanks for reading this far and thank you anon for enabling me

[catboygirljoker]

actually one more. Eraqus w/ 1, 5, 12, and 18 ok thanks i hope these all are fun ones 👍

did you know Eraqus is pronounced "era-kwus" in japanese? ever since i learned that im always tempted to pronounce it that way LOL. also it's an anagram of "square" (and very nearly just "square" backwards). anyway character ask game :3

1. Why do you like or dislike this character?

ive only played 3 and watched DR once each so i feel like i wont have a very in-depth answer skldjhflsjdf but . i think he's really interesting! i like the development of his character over the course of the games and of his life. seeing how he used to be bright-eyed and idealistic, how that curdled over time into seriousness and dogmatism, how that opened the door for xehanort to manipulate and destroy the lives of his apprentices....i like when characters change, i like when they get worse, i like when they make mistakes.

also his character design fucks. that man ages like a fine wine. who said that. looking around sweating

idk about dislike. i wasn't super big on him in BbS but in general i feel that the game's writing has problems, i imagine owed largely to hardware limitations and to them trying to do something very ambitious by putting three stories in one game. now that ive gotten to see him in other games and i have a more complete picture of his character, i like him a lot more.

5. What's the first song that comes to mind when you think about them?

ughghGHGMGM song about believing youre always going to be with this person and that youre both going to pursue your dreams. only for life to get complicated and in the way. one person still putting in the work for a constructive idea of the future while the other makes bad decision after bad decision. (who's who? tee hee.) fast car by tracy chapman.

(id love to have a better/less basic answer than that but thats what ive got. LOL.)

12. What's a headcanon you have for this character?

uhmm. DR-era Eraqus (lol) doesnt know how to cook many things but the things he does know how to cook are super fancy. he was a "blueblood". kid grew up rich. he makes like, really fluffy omelets in a special square pan he brought from home. barely knows how to boil noodles but he can make a hollandaise. he's self-aware enough to be a little sheepish about liking caviar but is surprised when his classmates dont know youre supposed to eat it with a mother-of-pearl spoon.

18. How about a relationship they have in canon with another character that you admire?

[gesturing helplessly at DR-era xehaqus] i mean. like. listen, im not big into shipping, i know that this subtext is entirely unintentional, but...i didnt really care about eraqus or xehanort before i played 3, and i was just immediately struck by how gay they are for each other. i was NOT looking for that energy from eraqus or xehanort and it bowled me over. their first brief cutscene together in 3 contains more homoeroticism than all of DDD combined. and Riku and Sora co-wield a rainbow heart-shaped keyblade in that game.

even if you dont read their relationship as romantic... theyre each other's better halves. you cant have one without the other. they come as a set. it's expected by everyone around them. i feel like one could do some really interesting stuff with exploring how the traumatic events of DR, and the years to come, changed both of them so much that they couldn't be described that way anymore.

and i also dont really know what other answer i could give lmao. i like his relatonships with the wayfinder trio, i think they're interesting and add to the story and to each of the characters involved, but i definitely wouldn't say i "admire" them when he failed all of them pretty badly.

[eievuimultimuse]

soooo. im only barely finishing up season 1 of TM.NT 2012 but....i might be considering adding a proper 2012 verse for SF & ali in the near future 👀 don't have super concrete ideas atm (mainly bc of aforementioned only finishing 1/5 seasons lol) but some things i do have in mind rn:

SF is a human-born in this verse. originally he was aster stockman.

aster & aliyah are bio siblings & both the children of felix (bc i REALLY can't see 12!baxter being a father in any capacity lol). they are both very estranged from their uncle & don't really have much interest in knowing him or anything he gets into

in this verse, aster is a boxer but works in mechanics in a car shop as his day job to help pay the bills. if he's not working on vehicles, he's likely training for whatever upcoming fight he can get. he's not as interested in science in this verse since he's got less of a connection to it (& if anything has inherited more of felix's aversion to it) (but aliyah's still def into science tho, it's her bread & butter. she openly pursues her interest despite her father's displeasure this time around & is studying engineering)

^^^ that being said, aster is quite passionate about his sport and can't stand when it's faked or staged. he thinks it gives it a bad name & is an insult to ppl who are genuinely trying, such as himself

as tends to be the case for poor aster, he WILL eventually mutate (i'm not sure how yet, i haven't gotten that far), which i figure would happen in season 1-ish timeline-wise since he'd just kinda be a random in the scheme of everything. anywho, as a way to differentiate him from stockmanfly a bit & lean more into the general weirdness that are the 2012 mutants, i've opted to make aster's mutated state a lil more based on superduperfly OR, more accurately, kaijufly from my own AU (pics under the cut for reference). it wouldn't be 1-1; i'll prolly draw a more accurate vision later. but yeah, the mutagen made him into smth of a bizarre, aquatic + insectoid hybrid

now my vision / initial concept is that post-mutation he's 6'8" like MM SF is & that he's still somewhat capable of boxing, even if it takes him some time to get used to this significantly heavier & slower body. but im also not opposed to the concept of him bein like the size of a small whale (technically the smallest whale species is only 6'7" but. you get what i mean gjkG) & it just bein like whoops! his chances of having any vague sort of normalcy, even in the shadows, are completely ruined!! but idk i'd prolly stick to the smaller vers. food 4 thought tho

as for aliyah, i havent decided if she would mutate or not. on one hand, part of me feels like she wouldn't & she'd be aster's anchor on humanity throughout. on the other hand, i have such a fun moth mutant concept that ive had forEVER that would work rlly well here & fit 2012's vibe that it's super tempting KJGHGJK

but yeah that's what i have so far. will add other details as i continue watching / as they occur to me !!

[fictionfixations]

IM GOING TO SCREAM

guys i know i said i wanted aven but also realllly wanted to wait until i could hear how sunday played (my new idea is just. im gonna pull for aven. if i get him then im going to pray i can get sunday somehow bc i do actually need aven)

but like

like

guys im a dan heng IL main (i got him on his first banner, stopped playing the game, came back for aven and in time for aven's banner but didnt manage to get him. ahdwauishuahd)

i want his lightcone i dont have it i gave him clara's 😭(i wanna give him eidolons too but thats kind of tough for a f2p) i mean i dont think her lightcone is bad but theres something about giving a character the lightcone that belongs to them. hiaudhawidiud

hhhhhhhhh its fine im still gonna skip for aventurine because i do need to be serious with my savings.

cause so the state of it rn is that i have a guaranteed 5 star, at something something pity i cant remember and i have like 20 pulls rn so im gonna pray aven comes home and that idk sunday comes home somehow too (otherwise im using sunday as my support instead of aven all the time since i would assume i have aven by then)

otherwise reruns i love you but man my list of characters or things i wanna pull for is growing so fast 😭

i dont think i have a good lightcone for aven but hes gonna have to deal with it 💀

i cant remember if i ever pulled geppie's lightcone (i dont think so?? i think ive only pulled the lightcones of clara and welt)

i dont think so. we'll see. 🙏🙏🙏

update:

29 pity w/ guaranteed 5 star on character banner, and 28 pulls saved (+4 in starlight exchange but idk if i wanna use it or if i wanna save it to maybe get one of the lightcones in the distant future)

i have 70 pity on lightcone banner (which. makes sense. tbh i dont recall getting a 5 star on lightcone ever? i might be wrong but i think all the lightcones i got have been mainly from standard 5 stars included)

n 12 pity on standard banner which i DO have geppie's lightcone i just forgot i did

idk if thats a good lightcone for aven but hes gonna have to deal with it

and now im really tempted to pull for IL's lightcone cause the pity is really close

😭 nowi regret that aven is in phase 2

but at the same time i really cant because i need to use any spare (if i even have any spare if aven doesnt come home) for potentially sunday hsfuiedhseh

AAAA

[thesupernaturalhouse]

Somebody needs to explain why I'm feeling the sudden urge to have Joey be younger then all of them, at like idk 16, and for Shelby to be the ONLY one who knows

Like, so in my timeline(for now), empires took place over about a year(17 months with the prequel I'm doing) so that'd make Shelby like uh, 33? In the witchcraft smp book?? It's a 4 year time skip instead of the canon 10 years

So, Owen 17, false and oli would be like, 16 when WC takes place, Emerald 5, nightlight(yes I changed the dragons name) 4, Thorn 4

Why am I ranting about that? I dont- I don't know- also im just now re a lying how many kids I'm planning on giving to shelby and i- it's like 6 and I am very tempted to give her Joey as the 7th because he was abandoned and Shekby just casually picks uo stray children she finds

She found the twins in the forest, Nightlight on Olis back, Owen she gave consciousness too, Emerald was found in the swamp and she was pregnant with Thorn-

Like the universe, me, looked at this elytrin/witch and went "lol, your gonna have parental powers. Go find you children whoa re stuck in a fucking tree and hiding in a bush lol good like with the 4 that follow soon after lol"

But they all have some type of trauma related to be abandoned, you understand me right!? And so does WC!Joey-- I have to finish watching his pov and wtahc the others(aside from shelbys) btw- motherfucker was thrown out of the only home he'd ever known-

Shelby just sensing that, evaluating it, realizing he's 16, and slapping adoption papers infornt of him like "You're my child now, sigh here please :)" is hilarious to me and I- well fuck now I wanna do it- should i??

Joey going to roast Pris only to realize his mom shelby also uses water and losing all his will to fight her in shame-

And Empires Joey and Katherine chilling, watching the kids like "....Katherine you wife has adopted another child. I can sense it." "Oh that's nice"

.....imma called witchcraft Scott Scotch and witchcraft Joey JJ because.....those are gonna be shelbys nicknames for them-

Shekby also adopts Scotch but more in that odler sister way, unlike JJ who she's like the mom to now

[autisticempathydaemon]

Hiiii!!! this is for the match up thingy :3

im fixated on um. oh god. weight in gold - gallant, literally every hozier song ever and if im being honest - dodie. i really like the backing music and lyrics of all these songs and obviously i cant just choose one :3

ok i have no idea what this means but from highest? to lowest it’s apparently 6, 4, 3, 2, 8, 1, 5, 9 and 7

I ABSOLUTELY DO. i love learning so much,, i dont have a favourite but video games or historic events or horror are my favourite genre :3

i dont remember my childhood friends much but i conjured them up because everyone else had one and i felt left out. purely out of spite. but i loved them lots :3

ok. i sleep on my side with my leg out and switch between that and just on my stomach, suffocating in my pillow. and i never sleep in the silence. like i always have headphones on with music or asmr playing

i changed my name!!! i hated my birthname and the one i chose is much better. it also is the name of my sibling which i knew nothing about so i am basically a psychic

oh god. i reallt like gavins recent studying one annnnd ashers cookies one. and the damn bowling one. im gonna stop before i name 100 of them but i love them because they are so comforting and make me overflow in happiness :3 i love them

sam. sorry.. his videos r so boring to me BUT they make good sleep aids :3

princess and the frog, criminal minds and community. its a problem.

HUXLEY!!! oh my god i need to be his best friend and make him pottery SO bad. need to protect him with my life. oh my god. my beloved.

i talk a LOT about space and dinosaurs and the sea :3 i fucking love learning so i have a lot of lil facts from reading encyclopaedias and watching documentaries :3

oh god it changes every fucking time im in there but recently any flavoured milk and red doritos

amazing world of gumball. and uhh any other kids animation shows. reliving my childhood multiple years later smileyfaceemoji

other important stuff is probably my love language? main one is quality time and also gift giving in the sense that i WILL spend 17 hours straight on something if you merely mention it once. do not tempt me. i am the middle child of 5 but the eldest daughter and basically raised my younger siblings haha somoene help. um my MBTI is ISFP, ihave autism and adhd and have horribly high standards for myself!!! haha c: idk what else to say. i quite literallt am always chewing something and its either something that is definitely not edible and needs to be removed or strawberry gum. i also love fruit. so much. and lovingly bullying people is my love language. AND i apparently exude ‘ginger cat’ energy according to literally everyone i have the pleasure of knowing. so loved.

thank u so much for doing this, this was a mountain of an ask omgim sos sorry bff

You are such a dear- there was so much fun information in your ask for me to work with. Everything you gave me just makes me so sure and brings me such delight to talk about how perfect you would be with David!

One, ginger cat energy combined with big German shepherd energy? Cute as fuck, a match made in heaven. Two, an eldest daughter pairs perfectly with him and his only child/eldest brother in the pack vibes. It’s a lot of responsibility and obligation, I know from personal experience, and being able to chill out with that and just rely on him would be just what you need. Three, David is totally autistic, and we love an A4A couple.

Y’all would generally be just so cute and be exactly what you need in each other’s lives. Type Sixes are characterized as wanting security and support in their lives and relationships, and he heads a security companyyy (/j). Meanwhile you’d bring a joie de vivre and nurturing energy to his home and the pack that would be so appreciated. He’s not the only one who’d love to be around you; it’d be all the Shaws.

Song:

Feeling alive all over again/ As deep as the sky that's under my skin/ "Like being in love, " she says, "For the first time"/ Well, maybe I'm wrong, I'm feeling right/ Where I belong with you tonight/ Like being in love, to feel for the first time

My favorite David headcanon is that a lot of his music taste comes from rock/grunge music Gabe and Juliet (my hc name for his mom) used to play. That is exactly how I know this song, so I think it’s perfect for him. Plus, David seems like the type of guy where that first love is it. He imprints like a duck, mates for life like a penguin; he has you for his first and only love.

Runner-ups:

Vincent would be a cute runner up because he also has ginger cat energy once he dropped that flirty, Lestat-esque facade, so you’d make a fun, chaotic pair. Elliott, I like because I think you’d like a lot of the same things. He strikes me as the type of guy who would love a good Criminal Minds binge.

note: you’ve got great taste in movies and tv Community is one of my favorite shows 💕 also, thank you for being my fiftieth matchup 💌

Read this post and send me an ask if you’d like a match-up of your own! 💌

[corvicides]

just some VC ideas i have for wuya.

voice: Kōsuke Toriumi

lines for his school uniform card

summon: " i'm really enjoying this school thing. it's a lot more exciting than what i used to do every day. " groovy: " my wings? maybe i'll show them to you sometime... " set home: " got any snacks? " home idle 1: " a lot of these classes are really easy. so sometimes i'll tease trein's cat during lessons. haha he hates it! " home idle 2: " ill let you copy my homework for a bag of lemon candy. a reasonable trade don't you think? " home idle 3: " group work? if i have to, but don't expect me to pick up any slack. " home tap 1: " i don't think sebek likes me very much. he gets on me about ruining the dorm's image if i don't behave. what a bore! " home tap 2: " ever had lemon bars? trey made some once and i couldn't help but snatch a few, hehehe! don't worry i left him something as thanks. " home tap 3: the way students scramble to see test scores is so funny to me. what's all the fuss for? if you passed, you'll know. " home tap 4: " skipping class with floyd is really tempting. but i promised to take my studies seriously. i'm lucky to even be here. " home tap 5: " i've just started to like you, don't make me change my mind. "

lines for his dorm card

summon: " you should always watch what you say. you never know when someone might be listening. " groovy: " aren't my wings beautiful? they take me places you wouldn't believe. " set home: " you know, you can always visit our dorm. im sure malleus would enjoy the company. " home idle 1: " some of the secrets the students keep here are quite unsettling hehehe... oh no, i really shouldn't say. " home idle 2: " the diasomnia dorm is nice, i guess. but malleus definitely could do something to liven the place up a bit... " home idle 3: " fae don't scam or swindle, we trade . to imply otherwise is an insult. " home tap 1: " my uniform? oh yeah, i made the changes myself. malleus doesn't seem to mind it. though...it wouldn't matter if he did anyway. " home tap 2: " have you seen octavinelle's dorm? they've got a big view of the ocean floor there. i'd never seen anything like that before. " home tap 3: " lilia is a lot different than i expected. i'm kind of relieved, this version of him is a lot more fun. " home tap 4: " i love jumping out of the shadows and startling people. idia is really easy to scare, especially when he's engrossed in his games. " home tap 5: " don't poke at me too much, i might forget you on a rooftop one of these days, hahaha! no, im very serious. " home tap groovy: " why don't i give you a birds eye view of the school hm? promise i wont drop you. "

ssr dorm card buddy bonus' ( idk who he has a duo magic with out of these )

silver: minor power boost malleus: minor health boost jade: minor power boost don't make me do card stats................. i might one day but uh!!!

spell 1 ( forest strike ) / spell 2 ( water shot ) / spell 3 ( void shot )

[thecrowslullaby]

thank you so mich for the tag @candied-peach

1: How many works do you have on Ao3?

39! (its not much, but its honest work!)

2: What's your total Ao3 word count?

around 143,5k

3: What fandoms do you write for?

Currently? sanders sides and team fortress 2, but i would love to try my hand at a star trek fic

4: What are your top 5 fics by kudos?

Easy: Souther charm and other suspicious behaviour, Fire, Shopping at 1 a.m. (not particularly proud of that one anymore xd), [Redacted], and Of friend, foe and fae

5: Do you respond to comments?

I try to (i mean to and then i forget :'))

6: What is the fic you wrote with the angstiest ending?

Ooooof, i dont shine on writing angsty endings. If im allowed to go with one thats not fully posted yet (or fully writen) it would be "the five stages of losing roman". There is a pernament character death. (Guess which character/lh). Maybe 'a bridge to cross' or 'sunday shirt' but they both are more bittersweet than angsty. I dont really post sad ending, huh. Time to change that/hj (there are a few wips that have more angst, but they arent fully edited)

7: What's the fic you wrote with the happiest ending?

All of them/hj.

I'm gonna say honeybee(also no longer proud of that one) cuz there is the biggest contrast between the story and the ending.

8: Do you get hate on fics?

No(t yet).

9: Do you write smut? If so, what kind?

No kind you can prove * laughs awkwardly *

10: Do you write crossovers? What's the craziest one you've written?

Not particularly fond of them tbh, but i am tempted to give it a fair try before i judge them too harshly.

11: Have you ever had a fic stolen?

Too many grammar and spelling mistake for people to risk it/hj

Question 12 has been lost to the ether...

13: Have you ever co-written a fic before?

Yes. Its not posted though XD

14: What's your all-time favorite ship?

See, people expect me to say loceit.... ok, yeah, im noy awake anough to come up with anything different, y'all win XD

15: What's a WIP you want to finish but doubt you ever will?

im not ganna say the name jinx it XD

16: What are your writing strengths?

ADHD?

Also dialogue I think XD

17: What are your writing weaknesses?

grammar and spelling.

18: Thoughts on writing dialogue in another language for a fic?

I mean, i am doing it rn. English isnt my first language. I did write parts of it in another language. But i dont think I would write a full on dialogue in another language than the rest of the fic. For a few reasons. Mostly my perfectionism.

19: First fandom you wrote for?

Ummmm. Idk. Winnie the pooh, atla or penguins of madagaskar, probably. The firts one i posted though was Hamilton i think - (and i am mighty proud of my idea, not proud of the execution. I was like 12 ok? XD)

20: Favorite fic you've written?

Maybe of friends foe and fae? bc its the first long fic i fully posted? Also a fic that will forever live in my wips and im not sharing that one (ite not smut but damn i am showing my soul a lil too much in that one).

Tagging @rosepetalgold @brainlicking @warcats-cat and @dillydallydove

[sociallyawkward--fics]

hi xy time for what is becoming my annual checkin! how are u! i feel like since its been abt a year i have to infodump abt all my character development hold on i'll speedrun it. my pronouns r it/its zhey/zhem or (less preferred) they/them. and i have settled on those. it/its is the only one thats ever given me gender euphoria, took 4 years but i got there. ummm realized i have autism (undiagnosed). love the stimming and the being insane abt fictional characters the rest isnt that great. got anxiety meds!!!!! oh my god xy!!!! life is so good now antidepressants r a girls best friend. also. hold on ur never gonna believe this. i have adhd meds now. the crowd goes wild. was like yea doc idk i just think the anxiety meds r not improving my ability to focus what was that u said abt adhd^__^ n she was like hmmmm ok i cant diagnose u but i can give u this adderall u dont need a diagnosis for n if its like glory hallelujah we'll just assume u have it and GLORY HALLELUJAH. ive cleaned my room like more times in the past few months than i have my entire life im WINNING. i cant rly feel if its working but i'll sit down to write or smth n i wont get distracted every 5 seconds n the mental block that keeps me from doing things is gone!!!!! life changing stuff just wish i had it before my grades fuckin woooo splat. um my gpa is 2.2 weighted im like. ok well now that i have adhd meds im working on it -H (i feel like. ok i think tumblr made it so ur asks can be longer but fuck all those liberals n their woke agenda (joke) i am all abt tradition babey i'll be back for a pt 2 rq)

ummm rly into books love books. "thats old news h everyone knows that" but like im being wonderfully unnormal abt them<3 there was this one series the ascendance trilogy n i was fucking OBSESSED w it when i was younger n i learned there was a 4th n 5th book recently so like. the trilogy thing was a fuckin lie. but i obviously had to reread the series so i could read the new books n im still so obsessed w the series its so banger for a middlegrade series. got so unnormal abt it i made a 7hr playlist for the main character bc everyone elses sucked so much ass i just had to. still in the process of rereading but yeah. also theres this OTHER series the raven cycle i read recently n im also obsessed w that these series r all like my ideal books they hit all my favorite tropes. yeah just being rly unnormal abt books thats my current obsession. also. drawing. im so good at it u wouldnt believe. next fuckin van gogh right here. n honestly i dont even care abt going off anon it just bothers me bc my ROUTINE. the TRADITION. its just not the same. but i'll go off it just for u to show u some of my banger art. at a stage where im pretty frustrated at my limitations but that doesnt mean i cant recognize that im fucking awesome ok hold on again -H but yea ok to finish up what have u been up to! tempted to just ask what shows/game/etc uve been into but also i am exerting a little of my brain power to realize some ppls lives dont revolve around those. so just liek what have u been spending a lot of time doing. how is writing going! wait what r ur drawing skills just out of curiosity draw smth for me (if ur comfy ofc n dw i completely understand if it fuckin sucks taht was me just over a year ago) -H (when i was younger i used to think that ppl couldnt be good at writing n drawing they had to choose one. exerted my baby brain power to be like. it takes too long to get good at them u can only do one. then saw a book w the cover art credited to the author n i was like woahhh this is fuckin crazy living my younger selfs pipe dream)

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The way I have had a reminder on my phone to answer these asks for MONTHS but my executive function has been GARBAGE i am so sorry my friend it was not intentional to leave this sitting for so long i am so sorry!!! (also between the two of us this got Long so i am putting a read more so i don't take up a big block of people's dash in my return from the dead lol)

thank you for pronouns update! congrats on meds!! i gotta get me some of those so i can Detroit: Become Functional lol. I am rooting for you with your GPA!!! Also lol, love that we are following tradition of multiple asks still even with the tumblr updates letting asks be way longer now lol, it is just Familiar To Us

I will have to look into the ascendance trilogy!! My sibling is also obsessed with the raven cycle, but i have not read it yet (still debating if i want to or not, have been for YEARS lol, because i keep hearing "author problematic" and then never remember Why because i have Goldfish Memory). I will not post your off-anon ask with the artwork unless you want me to (want you to feel comfy on the blog and sending asks and I know you prefer anon!), but i will say that your art is AWESOME, my friend!! you are SO good and you're only going to keep getting better! I am glad you enjoy it!

Also bestie. This is a neurodivergent space lol, my life also revolves around shows/games/books/etc. they are the only thing that make the monotony of life and job-having under a neurotypical capitalistic society bearable lol. I actually have been getting back into reading ACTUAL BOOKS lately which feels GREAT (because reading Actual Books when i am so tired and Non-Functioning all the time is Hard lol), i am finally going through my seemingly-endless TBR and also have reread some old faves this year. Games-wise, the only thing i ever think about is still the Dragon Age games, Alistair is the love and light of my life lol. Show-wise.... i am in Limbo because of the Exhaustion, tragically, and also just waiting on new seasons (OFMD). Witcher has a new season out, but i have not watched it yet because Energy and also i have no motivation to because the last season they put out was so bad (even if i hear this one is good, i have lost trust lol)

Writing is. Not quite going lol. I have not finished a fanfic in ages, and also have made little to no progress on any of my original work attempts either, tragically. Hopefully things look up for me soon cuz I wanna get stuff DONE again lol, this blog has become so quiet and near obsolete because i cannot FINISH anything and it is TRAGIC.

Also, I have little-to-no drawing skills, but I also unfortunately do not have much energy to apply to drawing you a picture atm :(( maybe someday. Sometimes I can draw something that makes me go "omg i am not Awful, maybe I could actually put thoughts and energy into learning this as a skill" and other times it is like "i will never put pencil to paper (or stylus to screen) ever again" lol. Maybe someday when i am doing Better again i will hopefully have the energy to draw you something!!

[just-nothing-forever]

okay im high right now and i always have the most profound thoughts when im high and this time im writing them down so i can actually fucking REMEMBER and DO SOME THING ABOUT IT

so im in this kinda intensive therapy thing, it’s 5 days a week, 5 hours a day. Ive been in it for like 2 months now

and im trying to get better, im trying to get back on track but its so hard when you dont really see a future. like, im not totally “the world is gonna end anymoment” like i was back when i was really depressed, but i still can’t really see any kinda future for me

im talking to this career advisor at the place, just kinda discussing options

but thats not the most important part

i just thought, i need to make this using substances not part of my daily routine..it should be a little “treat myself” things. I need to get out of here a start trying to make a life for myself. I have so much time that a waste to just feeling good. Who knows when the end of the world will happen, could be 50 years from now. I know the pandemic was kinda a sign but, human life is short compared to mother nature. She could take a 100 years to make us go extinct. I do kinda believe the pandemic was the first wave but,,, who knows how long the next thing will appear to wipe out millions of us

kind of a pessimistic view point i know but, its the thing thats keeping me alive for now. we watched a ted talk or some kinda documentary in one of the groups and there was a lady who got her face smashed in by a car, she lived but her face was damaged forever, she had to have many surgeries for it. she said during that time she said “just give it 6 months and then i’ll kill myself.” and she waited and in 6 months things got better and she didn’t wanna kill herself anymre so,,, gotta give yourself a reason to live i guess?

i still dont know exactly what my purpose is either, we talked about that in therapy too. I dont know if i wanna get in the animation or gaming industry. But that’s what i have a degree in. My parents told me that its okay, i got a degree in general and thats whats important. Maybe i should just go where the wind takes me i guess i dont know. maybe do what rylee’s doing and work at a pet shelter lol.

i just need to get out of here, set up my own routiene, do fucking HEALTHY THINGS like i’m NOT doing right now. I could be doing so many things in my spare time. I want more skills, i should practice them. if animation makes me wanna cry, then i should do other stuff right? practicce ukulele more, painting, coding, learn a language, other thee things i used to enjoy. even exercise. blugh. itss easy said than done tho, everything is so tempting. like all the bad stuff. i said in therapy im addicted to my depression and thats true. but how can i escape that? how do you say no to something that’s literally a part of your brain? idk. okay i think im done, for now.

[rigelmejo]

i think a point im trying to make with myself lol is that i really should start reading the print novels i’ve bought extensively. i am definitely at the point where they are both readable/understandable overall without a dictionary, and where my reading speed for them isn’t that much slower than in english (and if we’re honest here... if i make myself speed read in chinese there’s a fair chance its faster than my english reading, if the speed really bothers me... also when the hell did my english reading speed get so slow? idk i think as i got older i got self indulgent about savoring things i like and dwelling in them tbh). my point is, if its a matter of struggling to follow the plot, or reading ‘intolerably’ slow, i have surpassed those points. so they aren’t reasons to avoid my print books anymore.

the only exception is maybe Poyun, Sha Po Lang, and Can Ci Pin, which are probably above my reading level a little bit. According to that zhtool website i’m reading extensively at about 1.8 (with lower numbers being more difficult), and most of the novels i own are 1.8 or easier (with the exception of the 3 listed above). So my dmbj novels, the gyadl novel, the LiuLi novel, modu, zhenhun, saye, hell even the mdzs novel i have in traditional characters i could probably do right now (i have zhenhun in simplified and traditional and figure i’ll read the traditional to re-remember/get used to recognizing some traditional hanzi i forgot or am not used to yet). Related... i saw a new dmbj novel for sale that looks like slice of life old man iron triangle side stories in the village and i’m very... tempted to buy... but i should probably buy reboot novels first (i have the first set of dmbj novels in print, then the 10 Years Later novel). To be fair, all the dmbj novels are online too (so im not worried about missing some).

Maybe i will finish this fanfiction i’m reading, then move onto a print book for a while. usually i read digitally for the automated-audio, but since i haven’t been using that lately and my listening comprehension is getting ignored Anyway, there’s no huge difference for me between using print novels or online ones. Eventually i WILL listen to audiobooks and get some listening reinforcement, will listen to chinese spoonfed audio again for listening gaps, and when i run into new Frustrating words when reading in print i do sometimes look them up and get the word’s pronunciation. so my reading to listening gap is more like “oh no i kept reading 晕 yun as hun for 200 pages (which is easy to pick up the correction when listening), or 小心翼翼 xiaoxinyiyi as xiaoxinweiwei” (yeah idk where my brain guessed the wei pronunciation either).

also @a-whump-muffin i finally kind of get what you mean when you said manga were sometimes harder than novels. i’ve been reading more manhua lately just because i’ve been in the mood, and even though generally i know MORE of the hanzi i see (like 99%), unknown words give me less context to work with. Whereas in novels i can see a lot more unknown words and hanzi and still figure out the plot and a decent portion of the details. since there’s usually like a paragraph per main-detail to elaborate on things. i read some of 你的距离 and its easy enough to follow the plot based on pictures (its about a guy who broke up, looking for someone new on app dating), but a lot of the specific-dating-app words i do not know in chinese and i could Guess what words i was seeing but i wasn’t sure specifically what a LOT of them actually were. Whereas when i read a novel i’ve got like 2-5 surrounding sentences to figure out if ‘vague word’ means specifically speaker or microphone or headphones (when in the given sentence itself any of the words could work). in a manhua its like “well this means something related to ‘match’ but i only have one line about it so who knows specifically what this meant if i see it later in another piece of writing, it could mean ‘paired’ ‘match’ ‘compatible’ ‘selected’ etc). 

[animereaderinsertwriter]

Signed, Sealed, Delivered (Levi Ackerman x Reader)

Chapter 1

Chapter 2

Chapter 3

Chapter 4

Chapter 5

Chapter 6

Chapter 8

Warnings: MINORS DO NOT INTERACT (im watching you, if you see this, begone!), MILD SPOILERS, also this is a sequel, the first work is here. (I promise it's good, the formatting of the origi post is just a little plain cause I hadn't figured out what I liked yet). There's some... stuff in this, idk, its nothing much but check the description or ao3 tags if you're not sure of how you feel about dads who are Assholes, lots of angst because yours truly is a masochist :)

Description:

Levi returns from the war with a broken body only to have his heart broken as well when he finds (Y/N) has gone away from her father's farm never to return or so much as remember his name- or so her father says. (Y/N), recently returned from a medical emergency in a neighboring village, is informed of her lover's death, and the ensuing grief is almost too much to bear.

Months later, (Y/N) finds herself trapped in her father's house, and Levi finds a very interesting ad in the personals column of the newspaper. Letter-writing shenanigans ensue, and Gabi and Falco get ideas.

Ao3 link here

Chapter 1

The moment the conflict ended and Levi was mended enough to travel, he belligerently insisted to be taken to see (Y/N) until the brats collectively decided to convince Armin to allow the trip back across the sea. However, Armin— who was now the head brat— had been vehemently against the idea of Levi returning back to Paradis even at the request of his comrades, especially since the Jaegerists had left their mark on the public enough to poison them against the rest of the Corps, but after Levi’s bitching and that of the two most unlikely allies he had made for his cause, the newly-minted Commander of the Survey Corps was left no choice but to give in lest he be plagued by malcontent to the point of near-mutiny by one incapacitated old man and two loud, annoying children.

“It’s for true love, Armi— I mean, Danchou!” Falco had insisted, his eyes shining as he pleaded.

“Besides,” added Gabi, ever practical, “Levi-heichou has little to no chance of ever finding someone to like him again if he misses this chance. He’s mean and grumpy, and this girl already likes him even so! How is he gonna find that elsewhere?”

Levi didn’t know whether to be offended by their disparaging description of him, or to be relieved that they had each neglected to mention the pitiful state of his body. He knew what he looked like right now; his face was a mess of stitches and scarring, his body was mangled, and there was a chance that he would never walk again. He was damaged goods now, and he could count himself lucky if (Y/N) wasn’t horrified just by looking at him.

She would never be, said a still, small voice in the back of his mind. She loves you— you do her an injustice by even thinking such a thing.

Still, the thought was there, grating at him like a piece of sand stuck in the crack of his ass— and so it was with a mix of joy and trepidation that he accepted Armin’s permission to return to Paradis under strict orders to remain discreet.

“It seemed like a much shorter ride the first time around,” grumbled Gabi as the flying boat glided above the sea that stretched between Paradis and the mainland. “Now it’s taking forever .”

Levi couldn’t help but grin. Armin had attached Gabi and Falco as conditions to Levi’s permission to return to Paradis, allegedly to have someone “keep an eye on him,” but the truth was that the Survey Corps was woefully short on manpower, and putting Gabi and Falco’s talents to use was far too tempting for them to remain as a factor on the mainland. They might have been soldiers for Marley, but they were still children by anyone’s standards; they had no place in the post-war cleanup that the 104th would be taking care of— and besides, Levi was still confined to his chair and would need a bit of help getting around for a while yet. It was likely that Armin saw this trip as shooting two birds with one stone; the first being ensuring Levi’s well-being on the island, and the second being finding a place where Gabi and Falco could come into their identities as people outside of the life of a soldier. Levi was an expert in dealing with child soldiers, and the brats would find purpose in caring for him until he was well. So, problem solved… and Levi happened to actually like the ankle-biters in spite of himself.

“That’ll be the adrenaline, kid,” Levi explained, wishing like hell he could cross his legs without discomfort. “Your brain and body had a hell of a lot more to focus on then than it does now. Just pipe down and be patient— your squirming makes me fucking nauseous.”

“You’re not supposed to swear in front of children,” Gabi huffed, folding her arms, and Levi tch-ed .

“I’ve been swearing in front of children since I was a child,” he replied, “And don’t act like you haven't said worse yourself on the battlefield.”

Gabi was about to protest when Falco piped up.

“He’s got you there,” said Falco, grinning. “You have a mouth that would put a sailor’s to shame.”

That, of course, prompted a heated (if childish) debate, and time seemed to fly by as Levi allowed himself to sit back and spectate. Distantly, he wondered if (Y/N) would mind too terribly if he decided to adopt those two brats. He knew she’d wanted kids of her— of their — own at some point, but he couldn’t imagine any opposition from her on the adoption front either.

You have to get her to agree to still marry you first, his brain supplied altogether unhelpfully. Who knows how she feels about you now.

As Levi closed his eyes against the rising frustration in his gut, the flying boat began its descent, and from there, the journey transitioned to a carriage-ride. Onyankapon waved him and the kids off before turning around to make the trip back to the mainland, and the doors of the carriage were pulled shut, closing Levi in with Gabi and Falco on the opposite side of him.

“So this lady,” said Gabi, staring at him with those big, beady eyes, “Is she really all that special to you?”

Levi thought back to his bright-eyes, his beautiful, sweet, spunky lover, and the memory itself was enough to make him long for his right eye back so that he could see clearly her beauty even just once more. He thought back to her hands— so soft and gentle— wandering the expanse of his chest, roaming over the globes of his ass, tracing lazy little circles on the bags under his eyes, and wished for his two fingers back with which to hold hers. He thought of lager and laughter and lightning bugs, and his chest constricted so violently that he wasn’t sure he wasn’t having a heart attack.

“Yeah,” he said, his voice thick. “She’s one of a kind, my bright-eyes.”

“Bright-eyes?” asked Falco, tilting his head. “Is that some kind of pet name?”

Levi shifted in his seat, suddenly flustered. Damn kids were too nosy for their own good.

“I guess so. I just started calling her that when we first met, and it stuck. It fits, after all.”

If you get to meet her, you’ll see, he wanted to say, fighting back the urge to— to— to something , he wasn’t sure. She’s the best, brightest thing in this world. She was worth the rumbling to me, and would be to you too if you knew her.

But that was crazy-talk— he closed his eyes and tried to think of what he would say to her when they met again instead of the what-ifs and what-fors. He would tell her that he missed her, he thought… or maybe that he loves her, that he came back for her. Something grand and romantic and not as tired and broken as he felt. (Y/N) deserved so much more than that; she deserved only the finest things in life.

After what felt like forever, the carriage finally rolled to a halt, and Gabi and Falco helped him back into his chair. It was an ordeal, this being injured business— and frankly, Levi was more than a little embarrassed by it— but Gabi and Falco were nothing if not patient with him as he navigated his injuries. They helped him settle in, and once the world stopped spinning with the effort of it all, Levi realized that they had, in fact, appeared to have stopped at the correct destination:

(Y/N)’s home town.

“Here,” he said, handing Falco and Gabi a few coins each. “Buy something to eat in the village— I won’t be long, so don’t stray too far.”

Gabi cheered, but Falco paused.

“You don’t want help?” the boy asked, giving Levi a God-awful pitying look, and Levi waved his concern away with his good hand.

“There are some things a man needs to do on his own,” Levi told him grimly, “And this is one of those things. Like I said, I won’t be long, so don’t worry about me and just enjoy what the village has to offer.”

Reluctantly, Falco nodded, and Levi pushed his wheels in the direction of the other side of the village, where (Y/N)’s father’s farmhouse would await him.

Shoulders square, chin high, Levi told himself as he propelled himself forward. Look like the soldier she wanted to marry.

Love was a funny thing. Levi could and did throw himself against any enemy and hardly bat an eye. The blood of many— including that of his comrades— had stained his hands many times over. These things, these horrors had become small, mundane occurrences that he handled with practiced ease, and yet the thought of facing (Y/N)— of facing her father — had his heart racing and his gut tying itself in knots. More than once, he nearly wheeled himself right back around and fled in the face of such a challenge, but for (Y/N)’s sake, he steeled himself. Because she was worth it— because she was worth the stares of the villagers, worth whatever her father might say or do, worth any price Levi had to pay— he would do what needed to be done. She was the love of his life, and Levi would do anything to make it back to her.

It took a while— using his arms to maneuver everywhere was still going to take some getting used to— but Levi eventually arrived at the farmhouse door, sweating bullets and wishing for his heart to stop that incessantly loud thumping. He rapped three times on the door and waited somewhat impatiently for an answer, and when he finally got one, it wasn’t exactly what he had been expecting.

The man he assumed to be (Y/N)’s father— a portly old man with thick spectacles and a disposition not unlike that of a pissed-off wolf-rat— opened the door with an agitated snort, and Levi could smell brandy on his breath even from where he sat.

“Good morning,” Levi said, though it was well into the afternoon. “I’m looking for (Y/N)— this was the address she gave me for when I— well, for— ”

Levi cut himself off, then started again.

“I’m Lance Corporal Levi Ackerman, and (Y/N) has promised me her hand in marriage. I’d like to see her, if I could. If she’s well, I mean.”

Oh, boy, this was fantastic. Levi Ackerman— humanity’s strongest soldier and biggest buffoon.

“I’m afraid you’re too late,” said the man, folding his arms. “My (Y/N) got tired of waiting around here for you. She said she was washing her hands of you and took clear off into the sunset to go pursue that medical rot she's always on about.”

Levi's chest constricted once more, though he tried desperately not to let it show.

"That can't be," he said aloud, though he didn’t quite mean to. "I know your daughter, sir, and she— we’re in love.”

“Girls are fickle,” her father said, handing him a small coin purse. “One month they love you, the next they’re gone away to school or to work, never to think of you again. I’m sure you’ll find another bird around here to chase. Try the Whilloby family over the hill— I hear their daughter is exceedingly fine.”

With that, the man closed the door in Levi’s face, crushing his hopes and dreams with a mighty slam .

Levi opened the bag, and found the plain gold band he’d given to (Y/N) before he left in it.

She’s gone, he thought to himself as shock washed over him. She’s well and truly gone.

In the moments that followed after, Levi wished he could boast of numbness. What bliss it would be to feel nothing in comparison to the torment that heaved in his chest! He could not weep, for he could not breathe, and because he could not breathe, he could not see nor think. He blindly wheeled away, unwilling to stay a moment longer at the site of his greatest defeat, the ultimate humiliation and heartbreak, but he found himself lost in the scattered crowd, wondering for the first time since Kenny Ackerman took him in what it might be like to have someone left in the world that truly loved him.

“Levi-heichou!” he heard Falco’s voice call from some ways away. “Heichou, are you okay? Can you hear me? Levi!”

Levi didn’t want to hear anything. He never wanted to hear, see, taste, or touch anything ever again. His love was gone— his life was gone. He wanted very much to simply cease everything, to shatter the world the way he had been shattered, body and soul.

“Oi, old man!” said Gabi, pinching his arm savagely to get a reaction. “What’s the matter with you?”

Levi couldn’t speak— his jaw was clenched too tightly, his teeth grinding against one another. There was a wet warmth running down his cheek, and he realized that though his face hadn’t moved, he had begun to cry.

“We need a place to stay for the night,” he finally managed to say, though his voice did not sound like it belonged to him. “Take me to the nearest inn and pay for a room on the ground floor. We’ll be gone by dawn tomorrow.”

“Gone?” asked Falco, his eyes widening. “Why? Isn’t your bright-eyes here?”

“My bright-eyes?” he asked, feeling hollow. “I have no bright-eyes. She’s gone.”

Gabi inhaled sharply, and Falco took a step back.

“Is she— did she— ”

Levi shook his head. “Not gone forever. Just gone from me.”

Levi Ackerman had endured many hardships. He had looked Death in its grisly, horrific face, and had tasted the bitter bile of defeat. He had known well the gall of a life of repeated ignorance and failure. He had known hunger, fear, and abandonment, and he had conquered all despite the odds. This, he knew, he could conquer too… but something about the pain of this heartbreak made him want to succumb to it.

“Come on,” he told the kids, though he felt like dying, “Daylight’s burning.”

***

A few weeks later, (Y/N) rode into town, oblivious to what had happened prior to her return from the fever camps just outside a neighboring village.

There was a buzz about the town, she noted, but no one was buzzing to her about it, which could only mean that whatever had happened to cause such a stir had happened either to or because of her. She began to hope as she had scarcely dared to hope since the day Levi left for Marleyan shores; her heart began to beat hard against her ribcage, and she urged her horse onward with her heels. If Levi had come for her— if he had kept his promise— oh, the day had finally come when she could be free! No more would there be farm chores, no more would there be oppression from her father— there would only be love and happiness and a life lived fully.

(Y/N) had waited so long for this day!

When she came up to her childhood home, she dismounted without even remembering to tether her mount and pounded the door with her fist.

“Dad!” she called, excitement coursing through her veins. “Dad, I’m home!”

Before her fist connected with the door another time, it opened to reveal her father standing there with his usual dour expression.

“Daughter,” he greeted her, but nothing short of a disaster could spoil her mood.

“Has he come?” (Y/N) asked, her heartbeat roaring in her ears. “Has Levi come for me?”

Her father looked away, and the first small seeds of panic were sown.

“He did come, didn’t he?” she prompted, and her body began to tremble. “Was he well? Did you tell him where I had gone and when I would return?”

Her father grunted.

“He came, alright,” her father said, finally meeting her eyes. “Came back in a coffin.”

(Y/N)’s blood ran cold.

“What do you mean?” she asked, suddenly nauseous. “That’s— that’s impossible, he—"

“I'm sorry, child,,” her father replied, deadpan. “I told you that a soldier's lot was to die when ordered to."

(Y/N) shook her head. She refused to believe such a thing. If it were true, then why hadn't news reached her before then? The whole island should be ablaze with the rumors by now!

“He was different,” she said, but her voice gave away beneath the weight of her emotions. “He— He wanted to marry me, he promised he'd come back—”

“A promise he never had a choice whether or not he could keep.”

(Y/N)’s head was spinning, and her vision went blurry with tears.

“I’m sorry,” her father repeated, grabbing her arm. “Come inside and have a meal. I’m sure you’re tired from your journey.”

“I’m not hungry,” she replied, but numbly let her father pull her inside. What use was protest? What use was anything? These past months of hell, she had endured for Levi’s sake. Without him, what more was left? What had been the purpose of her suffering?

Was he truly gone? Forever?

She couldn’t tell what was real and what wasn’t anymore. A part of her wished that she would jolt awake to find herself sleeping on the ground in a medic’s tent so that she could cry the bitter tears of loneliness while knowing that it was all just a bad dream that would be gone come the morning; another, larger part of her knew that this was no dream, no nightmare.

Only reality could be this cruel.

***

"Oh Memory, torture me no more,

The present's all o'ercast;

My hopes of future bliss are o'er,

In mercy veil the past.

Why bring those images to view

I henceforth must resign ?

Ah ! why those happy hours renew,

That never can be mine?

Past pleasure doubles present pain,

To sorrow adds regret,

Regret and hope are both in vain,

I ask but to — forget."

~Lord Byron

[leenl-len]

ok ok so

pokemon permeates the public consciousness just a bit right. like fucking everyone knows who pikachu is. so that bleeds into the metaverse and suddenly every mythological creature is replaced by a pokemon

when the thieves awaken they still get the cool costumes but the masks are just masks, instead they get pokeballs with their "partner pokemon" or whatever. akira, being the wildcard, winds up with 5 empty ones after his second or third velvet room visit and just starts chucking them at the random birds he finds. none of the others can catch other pokemon, though they do get a set of legendaries for their second awakenings

im thinking akira starts w/ zoroark, mona either gets or is an alolan meowth, ryuji gets electavire, ann salazzle, yusuke frostlass, makoto lucario, futaba beheeyem, haru tinkaton, sumire primarina, and akechi decidueye + shadow mewtwo but god i wanna give him a corviknight so bad

the velvet room's main function is just selling akira pokeballs and being his pc. i am very tempted to make the twins plusle and minun but lavenza gets to stay in human form for reasons.

yaldy is arceus for obvious reasons (god) and satanael is giratina for equally obvious reasons (satan). maruki has idk zygarde that's weird enough to fit him right

but yknow other than that everything plays out about the same

persona 5 but instead of shadows and demons and whatever the metaverse is just filled with pokemon

[meltwonu]

| 🍒 CH-CH-CHERRY BOMB! 🍒 |     [CHAPTER 5]

pairing; dom!seungcheol x camgirl!reader

this chapter’s notes; camshow, use of toys(sybian), squirting, the long awaited chapter 5 😳💕 do they finally meet?!?!?!?! hehehehehehe also sorry for not being able to post this yesterday, had a busy week and when I tell ya I woke up at 3pm today 😗 💕💕💕💕 as always, thank you so much for your continued interest!! I'm already writing ch 6 and im SOOOO EXCITEDDDD hHEHEHEHEEHEH 💕💕💕💕💕 HAVE A GREAT REST OF YOUR WEEKENDS! 🍒 

chapters; 1 - 2 - 3 - 4 - 5 - ? 

“You guys! I--you have to see this!”

You can’t wipe the smile off of your face when you shimmy to the side, excitedly showing off the new gift that Seungcheol had sent in the mail.

sleepy_wonu: holy hell

universe_WZ: that mustve costed hella

alphagyu97: nothin like feelin extra poor amirite lads

angelhan: it was only a matter of time before dom.cheol was untouchable lol 

You giggle slightly as you adjust the camera so that you and your new sybian are in frame. “Hey~ Don’t say that!! Y’know it’s not the amount of money you spend on me… I’m glad you guys are always here with me~” The sound of coins clinking goes off in the back as you read a few more comments.

dom.cheol: well princess, don’t u wanna show them how you use your new toy? ;)

tangerine_kwan: fuck i bet it can get u to cum so fuckin fast

hoshi_tiger_xx: yessss

dom.cheol has donated $100

hoshi_tiger_xx has donated $50

“Hmm~ How many times do you think I can cum with this? Oh! Why don’t we do this~” You pause, sliding your wet panties down your legs before tossing the material to the side. You grin, swinging a leg over the toy until you’re straddling it. “Rapid fire question! Whoever guesses the right amount of orgasms I can take before I call quits… Wins a special unreleased photoset of me! Go!”

dom.cheol: 5

universe_WZ: 4

sleepy_wonu: 6

angelhan: 3 artist8hao: 5

alphagyu97: everyone took all the good numbers already!!! 7!!!!!

gentleman_josh95: DMAN IT 3

tangerine_kwan: 8, fuck

kitty_junjun: ugh i was gonna say 4!!!!

xcaliburDK: i was gonna say 5!!!!

therealchan99: 2? thats so low tho….

chwenon: as if anyone is gonna say 1, lmao. Uh 6…. If sleepy_wonu happens to disappear

hoshi_tiger_xx: im gonna say 10, but… seems… risky

Reaching for the remote, you situate yourself until the raised part of the toy sits directly on your clit. A shiver runs up your spine at the feeling; already excited for what’s in store. “Um, to be fair I haven’t tried it myself yet so I’m not sure either... Hehe, but I guess we’ll find out together, huh?”

Gulping, you set the sybian to its lowest setting, the air getting knocked out of your lungs immediately as your body lurches forward. “H--holy shit!” The vibrations are already harsh on the lowest setting; your fingers gripping the remote tightly as you try to adjust to the feeling. “O--oh my g-god, I--”

dom.cheol: aww can ur cute lil clit take it?

xcaliburDK: maybe one of the lower numbers was right lol…

The moans spill freely from your lips, garbled noises getting lost in the mix when you start to grind against the vibration. “Fuck, it--it feels suh--so good, hah, already feel like ‘m gonna cum…” You whine, already getting lost in the pleasure. For a second, you’re tempted to raise the vibration intensity but you hold back, letting your wetness coat the toy as you continue to grind down onto it. The sound of donations and comments sound fuzzy to your ears; only the sound of the sybian buzzing reminding you that the camera was still even on.

“Ngh, g-god, I’m--I’m gonna cum!”

tangerine_kwan has donated $75

xcaliburDK has donated $50

dom.cheol has donated $200

dom.cheol: cmon, lets see that pretty pussy cum

Your legs shake as you cum, only a squeak coming out of your mouth as you lurch forward atop the toy. The grip you have on the remote loosens while simultaneously trying to turn it off in the midst of your orgasm.

dom.cheol: awww cumming so hard on the first setting? Cute

therealchan99: lol baby is in trouble now

angelhan: maybe 3 was right lmao

“I--a-ah, fu--fuck!” You cry, shaky fingers finally managing to shut the toy off. Your body immediately untenses; chest heaving with how sensitive you already were and it had only been your first orgasm and the lowest setting of the toy. “O-oh my g-god, I--I didn’t know i-it was that s-strong…” You mumble, body buzzing with the remnants of your orgasm.

sleepy_wonu: well mr dom.cheol did pay top dollar

gentleman_josh95: imagine if u had this for yesterdays show lol

“Oh god, if--if I had this for yesterday’s show, I would’ve been too boneless to do today’s show!” You laugh airily, slowly grinding against the toy already. “It feels really nice though… I’m already super curious about how strong the other settings are…” Trailing off, you reach for the remote again, throat dry as you fiddle with the knob.

kitty_junjun: what if u set it to the max setting

chwenon: idk if her cute lil body could take it

dom.cheol: its okay baby, take ur time. I wanna see how sensitive that pussy of yours can get

“But ‘m already so sensitive~ I dunno how much more I can take~” You tease, biting your lip when all the comments flooding the chat are words of encouragement.

You knew when you started camming that it’d be no easy job. Building up your fanbase and subscriber count had taken you months upon months to even get within the thousands and camming was physically exhausting. Some days your viewer counts were low and some days they were above average and sometimes you didn’t make as much in one show than another.

tangerine_kwan: was therealchan99 right with 2 then? Heh

therealchan99: finally FINALLY ITS MY TIME TO SHINE

Giggling, you slowly start turning the knob; body twitching when the vibrations kick in at full force.

Seungcheol watches in amazement at the way your body jerks atop the machine.

He can see the way your legs twitch unbearably when you cum for the third time; your brows furrowed at the intensity of the vibrations and your taut body when you can barely manage to turn the machine off.

Licking his lips, he slowly thrusts up into his closed palm, spreading the precum down his shaft as he watches you catch your breath.

“I--ngh, fuh--fuck, I---I don’t--don’t know if I--I can cum a-again…”

Seungcheol moans at your breathy whimpers; the arousal in his body pooling up quickly when he sees the fucked out expression in your eyes. His eyes flit to the wetness that coats the silicone portion of the toy, smirking when he realizes how much you really seemed to enjoy the gift he’d gotten you.

Mentally patting himself on the back, he praises himself for making the right decision.

angelhan: please tlel me im the winner im begging

universe_WZ: NO

dom.cheol: is the princess tired already? ;)

You catch your breath, not wanting to give up despite how fuzzy your head was getting and how much your body was buzzing. “I dunno… We still haven’t tried the last setting, you guys… And I’m just so curious...” You whisper, hazy eyes staring into the camera.

hoshi_tiger_xx: god u look so pretty like this, all fucked out

artis8hao: right? fuck, id kill to be that guy who can get u off like this

xcaliburDK: goddamn same

The sound of coins clinking mixes with the ringing in your ears; fingertips already on the knob of the remote.

You take a deep breath, letting the adrenaline kick in as you quickly set the knob to the highest setting, a high pitched cry spilling from your lips when you let go of the remote in favor of holding onto the machine instead. Grinding down onto it, you meet the toy's harsh vibrations as it quickly forces another orgasm out of you in the matter of seconds.

Choked cries spill from your lips as your entire body tenses up; body twitching uncontrollably as you cum for the fourth time. You lean back with whatever energy you have left, bracing yourself on the back of the toy as you relieve your swollen clit of the buzzing machine. Your orgasm refuses to stop and you can already tell how obscenely wet everything’s gotten when your head starts to clear.

alphagyu97: fuck you squirted all over the toy baby

universe_WZ: fuck fucki fuck

universe_WZ: wait did i winf kjfhdsjk

You shakily slide off of the machine, resting on your side as the machine still buzzes with life next to you. Your entire body won’t stop shaking, head muddled as you fight the urge to shut your eyes and sleep for the next 5 days. “I’m--I--” You whimper, still feeling the phantom vibrations between your legs.

“I--ho--holy fuck, I, w-wow, I--I don’t--that--I’m, I’m just… wow.”

dom.cheol has donated $400

dom.cheol: knew you’d like it ;)

universe_WZ: THAT MEANS I WON

universe_WZ has donated $150

angelhan has donated $150

therealchan99: well, at least some of us got close

hoshi_tiger_xx: fuckin speak for urself man i said /10/

You end the show after letting ‘universe_WZ’ know you’ll contact him soon, shutting your eyes as you lay on your soiled sheets.

You can still feel your fingertips twitching when your eyes slide shut, chest heaving in deep breaths as you try to relax yourself, momentarily cursing yourself for pushing your body too far for tonight’s show. 

Groaning, you reach for your phone, the screen lighting up with a text from Seungcheol, a simple ‘don’t forget to drink water ;)’ in your notifications and you can’t help but pout.

Seungcheol was nice, almost too nice. Definitely not in a murderer kinda way though, you think. 

He bought you expensive gifts and never asked for anything in return which made you feel bad sometimes. And while the donations and tips you’d made through your camshows was enough to get by with, Seungcheol’s generous donations helped you always make your rent and bills on time without worrying if you’d have enough or not.

You quickly text him back with a smile on your face; hoping that he’ll like what you had to offer.

Seungcheol feels the exact same way he did when you first contacted him offering him a free show, except maybe ten times worse. At first, he’d been a little sad that he hadn’t won your quick little game but this made up for it 20-fold.

The six simple words read ‘want to meet up next friday?’, a small heart emoji next to the question and he’d almost thrown his phone when he read it, hands shakily responding with a simple ‘I’d love to.’ to make it seem like he was calm when he was most definitely not.

His immediate next order of business after replying was to text Namjoon despite how late into the night it already was, begging for the day off and offering to take any shifts or pay cuts in exchange for it. 

All he needed was one day and he swore he’d never miss a day of work ever again.

Namjoon responds with a quick ‘sure, why not’, momentarily confusing him as to why his boss was awake while simultaneously sending Seungcheol into complete panic when he realizes he finally gets to meet you.

The week goes by extremely quickly to Seungcheol; his mood on a completely different level when he offers to pick up Yoongi’s Sunday shift without a complaint. He cleans up all the messes around the roller rink and even offers to do jobs that aren’t his which have Jeongguk raising a brow at the older male.

In the days that lead up to your meeting, Seungcheol looks up a few cafes that you might be interested in and even goes to get an STD exam, not that he’s expecting anything. Safety first, he says.

Your Wednesday show comes and goes, Seungcheol too excited to even get off when he watches you and he even donates an extra $600 at the end of the show; travel spending money, he offers.

And Thursday comes without a hitch and he all but skips to the employee backroom once his shift is over, humming a tune while he changes out of his uniform.

“Hey hyung, no offense, but are you okay?” Jeongguk rests against the locker next to Seungcheol’s open one, brow raised at the blue haired male that beams back at him. “I’m scared, why are you so… giddy. You even offered to take Yoongi-hyung’s weekend shift? What the hell was that about? I’ve never seen him that giddy either.  Man, this place is getting weird, maybe I should quit...”

Seungcheol can’t help but laugh, patting Jeongguk on the shoulder before shutting his locker.

“I have an important meeting tomorrow, that’s all. And don’t quit, ‘cause who else is gonna give me free food.”

While the excitement had him since Saturday, now that it was finally Friday, he was downright nervous.

The two of you had agreed to meet at 2PM in front of the cafe that Seungcheol had picked out and you’d gotten a hotel in town to make it easier on yourself instead of trying to get back to your place too late. Seungcheol had offered to come pick you up, but you had politely declined; instead opting to meet him first before letting him do anything else for you.

And by nature, Seungcheol gets to the cafe 15 minutes early, fidgeting and continuously running his fingers through his hair as he patiently waits. He can feel his palms getting sweaty when he rubs them against his jeans, mentally trying to keep calm and his head floods with all sorts of thoughts; mainly, how he even got into this position with you in the first place. And he gets so distracted that he doesn’t realize you’d be standing watching him zone out for the last 5 minutes.

“Wow, not sure what’s got you so focused but you’re standing so still!”

Seungcheol hears your cute airy laugh that follows, a cherry blush on his cheeks when his eyes meet your smiling face. “I--oh my god…” He whispers, taking in your appearance.

He feels his face buzzing, fingers twitching when he sees you in a cute simple  sundress. “W-wow, you--you’re just… so beautiful. I mean, you’re beautiful on cam too but just, wow, in person? Incredible.” The blush reaches his ears when he realizes he’s rambling, a nervous laugh spilling out of his lips.

“S--sorry, I, uh, usually I’m more chill than this but y’know…” He trails off, to which you nod. You step closer to Seungcheol and he gets a hint of your sweet smelling perfume, mentally groaning when your cute eyes peer up into his.

“That’s okay! I totally understand~ I’m kinda nervous myself too, to be honest…” You pause, a pink blush coating your own cheeks. “But let’s talk over some food, huh?”

Seungcheol doesn’t want to pry, but he’s not sure if he should address you as ‘Cherry’ in person, or if he should avoid calling you by anything at all.

He watches as you go through the cafe’s menu, biting the inside of his cheek as he itches to ask.

“‘Cheol… I can feel you staring, y’know.. Penny for your thoughts?” You ask, concerned eyes meeting his nervous ones.

“I just-- Sorry, I didn’t mean to be awkward, I just was wondering how I should address you in person? I don’t want to overstep my bounds, I know you don’t put your real name out there so…”

You place your menu down, closing it before leaning on your palms atop the small table. Seungcheol is cute, too cute, you think. You knew this would be a question when the two of you eventually met and you had given yourself the time to get used to the idea that he’d know your real name.

He eyes hyperfocus on your glossy lips, watching as you say your name for him for the first time.

Seungcheol’s heart threatens to beat out of his chest when he hears it; repeating it over and over in his head before he says it out loud.

“Wow, it sounds nice when it’s you saying it~” You tease, leaning back in your chair. “I don’t mind if you call me by my name, by the way! The pet names are cute but maybe we should keep that to the bedroom~” You end in a whisper, winking at the male.

Fuck, he thinks, just as his cock throbs at your comment. He really wishes you wouldn’t say things like that because he’s weak and he knows it, especially when it comes to you. “Okay, cool! Yeah, sorry, I just---I didn’t want to overstep, I know you don’t really let that be public information.”

“Of course! And thank you, I really can’t tell you how much you’ve done for me. I really… really wouldn’t be able to do all the things that I do if it weren’t for your constant support.”

You want to say more, but the waiter comes to take your orders, cutting you off until he leaves again.

“By the way…” Seungcheol looks at you with curious eyes, lips puckered around his drink straw. “Tell me about yourself, ‘Cheollie! I feel like we didn’t really get to talk that one time!”

He swallows the water in his mouth, licking his dry lips. Here goes nothing, he thinks.

“I swear, and please don’t think I’m a loser, but I--I work at a roller rink. It’s really not cool, I’m not some high paid CEO or whatever, I--I just, I work hard?” Seungcheol chuckles, running a hand through his hair as he waits for your reply.

“Wait, that’s so cool! Oh my gosh, I kinda wanna go!”

The surprise washes over Seungcheol, eyes wide as saucers when he hears you saying you’d want to visit his workplace. “Wuh---wait, seriously!?”

“Yeah! It’s kinda, like, retro! I haven’t been to one since I was a kid!” He quickly offers to bring you to the roller rink on Sunday so you could have somewhere to hang out while you were in town.

“And sadly, I took a shift on Sunday so you can hang with me while I work.” 

Seungcheol grins, watching as you jokingly roll your eyes at him. “So you did it on purpose, huh…” The two of you share a laugh, glad that your first meeting seemed to be going okay so far.

“Well, I mean, if it makes you feel any better, my best friend works the concession stand so I’ll make sure to get you a free pair of skates and food whenever you want?”

“It’s a deal!”

The two of you continue to talk over your late lunch, Seungcheol telling you of the various work hijinks he’d gone through at his time working at the roller rink.

“Which, by the way, that morning show you did… Hope you know I holed up in the restroom for an entire hour for that ‘lil stunt.”

You can’t help the tears that fall from your eyes when you laugh, only feeling slightly bad for the blue haired male. “But I told you! Sometimes it’s just like that, y’know~” You tease back, heart blooming at the way you and Seungcheol got along.

In all honesty, there’d been something on your mind since you first sat down and you didn’t know when the right time to ask was, or if it was even appropriate.

The smile slips from your face as you bite the inside of your cheek in thought.

Seungcheol takes the bill from the waiter, slipping his card into the holder before you can even offer. But he notices the way your expression falls, noting the hesitance in your eyes when he looks at you from across the table.

“Are you okay? What’s wrong?” His voice is gentle, soft and caring when he leans over the table to make sure you’re alright.

“Yeah! Just---Can I ask you for a favor?”