#im so glad you liked it so much!! you can always send rants or links about the au because it is so fun!

[stayxlix]

hi hi alex🩵🩵 I am back once again! I'm still recovering from the fact that you actually ARE weaving some of the trope into otde.. LIKE HOLY SHIT AHAHWJWKWKEJSJ AND ANGRY PASSI0N YES I love that you think the same as i do bc everything u said is so true i can't😭

and you are so right, enemies to lovers on top! I also like a good portion of angst and tension ( angry love confessions are literally why i live and i would gladly die for them) but it has to have a happy ending tho.. like make me cry seventy times and go from wanting to jump off a bridge to cursing the characters BuT!!! gIVE ME A HAPPY ENDING!!!!!!!

also, I've gotten settled in my new apartment almost completely, and i also moved to another town so i've also been taking care of that but so far it's amazing here!

And of course I love the way you write the tension between lix and mc! no seriously it's so fun to read and really engulf myself in the story (fantasising about otde may have or may have not became my fav way to relax/ get rid of some excessive stress) and it makes me even happier that the author of such a masterpiece finds time in her day to reply to my long ass rants and actually read through them!💗 Literally whenever I read your replies I always blush and squeal andbjqkqkqjwje (also thank u for the forehead kiss!🩵🩵🫶 sending one back ur way deatest)

ANDDDD I HAVE A SURPRISE!!! THE MOODBOARD IS HERE !!!!!

https://pin.it/261Fohe (if the link doesn't work lmk💗) IT HAS 52 PINS SO NOT TOO LONG AND I TRIED MIXING SOME DIFFERENT SHADES OF GREEN SO HOPEFULLY YOU'LL LIKE IT 🩵

Aand I'm so glad that you agree with me on Lix being dark red!! also i've been thinking and i feel like mc is the kind of green that kinda leans into blue? I'll try to find the shade and then share it with u!🫶 (bc of course I'm gonna share it with u I love talking to u like this sm omfg) i've already started on the red moodboard bc I got this surge of motivation yesterday at like four in the morning☠️

I'm honestly so so so so so excited not only for the next otde chap, but also for your response and to hear what you think about the moodboard! I tried to really show how I feel like when reading the story, though it's not exactly the way I see it since I couldn't find some specific pics on pinterest but I tried my best anyway! 💗 (also the Vans thing has been creeping up my mind lately and I have absolutely no idea why help - maybe it's bc I myself wear Vans and feel like the mc would wear them too😭)

You are making me blush so hard rn with the last paragraph omfg I love u sm😭😭 I am in all honesty so glad I've descovered you and your blog bc it's been seriously brightening my days by a LOT lately, so of course i'm gonna spend my time on it! I love making things related to otde and you!! Even more so if it makes you happy!🩵 you definitely deserve all the love in this world and i really hope you're having the best time of your life! Honestly, the longer your responses are, the better bc I love LOVE LOVE reading them and finding out your thoughts! I appreciate you so so much and, seriously, thank you for taking the time of your precious day and responding to me, love🩵💗

As always, stay safe and take care! 🩵 wish you the best week possible 🩵 (and did I ever mention that the way you write Felix makes him somehow just as attractive as irl and I have a fat crush on him...??)

hiiii my🩵 its so good to hear from youuu :) i know it can be scary moving to another town (i think i moved like four times by myself, including to two completely new cities before finding the place i am now) so im really glad you’re settling in and liking your new apartment🩵🩵🩵

i promise i plan to do my very best to weave our new favorite trope into the coming chapters🤭🩵 “angry love confessions are literally why i live” LMAO me with any form of media ever that includes romance😂😂 “cry seventy times” this made me laugh even harder, but im totally with you, i MUST have a happy ending to feel completely satisfied after reading/watching something. imo its what makes all of the angst and tension worth it in the end :)

“fantasising about otde may have or may have not became my fav way to relax/ get rid of some excessive stress”

noOoOoo babe this makes me SO happy to hear😭😭 you saying that my little story is a source of relaxation and stress relief for you is like the ultimate compliment, and i’m sure anyone who’s ever written anything for an audience before would agree🥹 it makes me even more happy to hear this because its YOU saying it and you have no idea how much i value your opinion😭 i swear after i read one of your asks it makes me feel so genuinely happy and full of energy that im pretty sure i could go out and run a marathon😂😂 it’s the best feeling ever, and you should know that i always find myself getting all flustered when i read your messages too, its like a big warm hug and i love it so very much💕💕

THE. MOODBOARD.

NO BECAUSE THIS DESERVES AN ENTIRE RANT OF ITS OWN I LOVE IT I LOVE IT SO MUCH I CAN SEE HOW MUCH THOUGHT YOU PUT INTO IT BECAUSE EVERY PICTURE FITS THE STORY SO WELL😭😭😭 YOU WENT ABOVE AND BEYOND MY EXPECTATIONS😭 i wish you could have seen my reaction when i first opened the link, it is the PERFECT visual journey to accompany the story and i could actually CRY i can’t-😭😭😭 the shades of green you picked are gorgeous and the whole feel is a little bit ominous?? (maybe haunting??) idk the right word for it but it is the EXACT vibe i associate with the story while i'm writing, so you absolutely nailed it yet again. i wish we could go through and discuss every single picture and your thought process behind each (i’m serious, my dms are always open😂) and its hilarious that you started on the red moodboard at 4am but hey, inspiration strikes when it wants to, right?😂😂 dare i say i am even more excited to see how this one turns out?? (oh and i was thinking that our mc might wear red vans?? bc idk they remind her of felix???🤭)

i'm so thrilled to hear that you’re excited for the next chapter, ill let you in on a little secret..its coming along nicely, but the problem is that i’ve got waaayyyy too many words so far (help) and its not quite finished yet so i definitely need to condense lol but i’m realllllllyyyyy really hoping to have it out some time later next week (if all goes to plan🥹) and im just as excited to share it with you, so stay tuned🤭

thank you for being so wonderful 🩵🩵 your support and enthusiasm for this story and our conversations mean the world to me🥹 and i know i’ve said it before but you and the amazing content you have created and chosen to share with me is SUCH a source of motivation (i now find myself thinking about you when im writing and wondering if you'll like where the story is going or certain parts etc. etc.) because that is how much you and your interactions mean to me. you make all of the time spent on writing worth it and i am so very thankful to have you not only as a reader but also a friend<333

....OH and to hear that you have a crush on otde felix makes me SO giddy🤭🤭🤭 to be honest...for similar reasons..sometimes I need to take a break when im writing and remind myself that none of this is real (including our favorite angsty rebel boy🥹)

okay okay i think this officially takes the record for the longest rant ever written on this website, so i'll end things here lol. stay safe and take care of yourself out there🩵🩵let's finish out the week strong, okay?? sending the biggest hug your way🤗 ilysm💕💕

[kittytheartist]

ahhhhhhhhhh anon is here to rant about ur wonderland au!!

first, i love ur explanation of how hanano is the white rabbit and nene being alice!! it does make sense considering that the white rabbit is the reason for alice to fell in wonderland, just like how hanako is the reason for her to be involved with the supernatural world!

and then there's kou who is the cutest and lovable chesire cat that does want to help nene; tsuchigomori as the cartepillar because both had similar roles of holding tons of knowledge and smokes quite a lot; and mokkes being mokkes!!

but it does surprise me that u had yako as the gryphon!! though thinking about it, i think it does suit her to have that role considering that she went wild and harming those unfortunate victims because her rumour was changed.

then the broadcasting club being mad hatter's group!! and i also agree that sumire would be the drop dead gorgeous duchess!!

terukaneaoi being on different sides!! terukaneaoi being on different sides!! i found it hilarious that terukane still fought and banter with one another (and that nene was accidentally caught in their fight lmao) and that terukane becoming enemies to friends to lovers is still hilarious and lovable ugh. and aoi being a grey moral white queen!! like, she is still nene's best friend and the kindest to her subjects, but hides her selfishness and pride behind her fake and adorable smiles.

and mirai being the legit nice version of the red queen!! i could see how nene believed that mirai and akane are behind the shit that is happening in wonderland, since it must've been chaotic compared to the calmness in aoi's side and knowing mirai, she must've caused tons of chaos but was actually nice and kind.

and is kako perhaps the previous ruler of the red side?? i read somewhere that the red king is the one with the most potential but was ignored, and the red king was seen to be sleeping throughout the plot. so i wondered if kako would be the one who is one of the important people that nene must meet during her first hours of arrival but was absent due to certain reasons, which leads to nene meeting kako's granddaughter and personal red knight, mirai and akane, instead.

but is it possible for the queen of hearts to be shijima mei, no.4, in ur wonderland au?? idk but i imagined the wonderland to be her greatest creation, like whatever she creates becomes real or something just like in canon. if i remember it right, she was quick to destroy aoi and akane in her world because she didn't like how they turned up, which i think leads to her becoming the queen who is too obsessed with wonderland to be perfect that she will execute or destroy those that didn't match her high standards.

that's all for my ranting!! i would love to see more of u talking about ur wonderland au!!

omg hi Anon!!!!! tysm😭

ALSO SHIJIMA AS QUEEN OF HEARTS???? YOU JUST COMPLETED MY WONDERLAND AU TY THIS IS PERFECT!!!! She needs RED roses!! otherwise it's not good enough!! her long forgotten self likes RED not WHITE!! lmao anyways yes! at first she'd see Nene as an intruder and send her guards to surround her, but in the end inviting her to crochet with her and everyone else, but Nene is too confused and worried to be able to keep up(like when Shijima told her she had to kill them to return to the normal world) and this is when Kou appears by the tree only for a little while, he has a secret (much like how he was with Nene's lifespan?)

oh yes and your ideas of Kako!! yes he is the Red King, I was too wrapped up in TeruKane to realize EHE but it's perfect! so PERFECT, my head was all 'who is Kako and Shijima? I'll figure it out later in a follow up post' AND THEN ANON CAME IN HERE AND MADE MY DAY JAJSJSISJSI

I'm so glad you get where I'm coming from!! because this cast is everything to me!!

ok so lemme let you in on a scenario! you know when we meet the Duchess? and the cook is being an asshole? let's say that's also Kou! Nene is so surprised to see Kou cooking after she noticed who was throwing the plates, but the Duchess was far too obnoxious to let her pass and try to talk to him, not too mention all the seasoning! Nene could hardly say 'pardon me' and it was driving her crazy, in the end the Cheshire Cat once again disappeared when she finally got the chance to go to him, because she is ever so lost! but alas, the Duchess is taking up all her time! but she is eventually forced to leave ehehe

Isn't that kind of funny? imagining Kou getting fed up in Wonderland and just mad cooking? also Kou on trial and being so nervous he only says 'pepper'???

so happy that Yako as Gryphon made sense!! because she just IS also the Gryphon is a lot nicer then most wonderlandians...even escorting her to a old grandfather mokke(if that's a good thing?(actually probably just a trick to make fun of her/hj)) and escorting Nene to the mock turtle is kind of like how she told her and "escorted" her through her boundary, the whole time she told her to collect body parts so she could make it to the top, and when she helped them to hell of mirrors, kinda like how the Gryphon showed her the way to the Mock Turtle? anyways yes a civil but furious and strong Yako Gryphon? YES

and yes I'm obsessed with the TeruKaneAoi situation it's just.... EVERYTHING

I love Aoi and Teru being on the same side and Teru being her personal knight, but that's just Teru's job, they don't conversate much, and are purely just mutuals who have parts to play, and Akane, the one who'd rather be on any other side then the Red, with Mirai and Kako ect, but Teru lacks the want to be a part of his kingdom? pah! time for a fight, not to mention he's too handsome for his own good—so he HAS to keep that helmet on....I imagine Red Knight Akane isn't as obsessed with Aoi but still admires her as a Queen, and Respects White Knight Teru to a crazy amount, and constantly challenges him to a fight because they constantly run into each other!(they can only walk on diagonal chess squares so of COURSE they would(not that they walk diagonally..)) and Nene just in the middle trying to become a Queen herself, Aoi was such a graceful ruler, showing Nene around and inviting her to a picnic and even telling her how a pawn like herself can move up in the higher ranks, but what Nene doesn't know is the opposing team's Queen has to have died to take her place, Aoi you little rascal! I know she's your enemy and Mirai can be quite annoying but you guys could be mutual kingdoms instead of fighting... or you just like causing all this stir with everyone...

anyways the TeruKaneAoi in this au is everything to me! and Nene is always in the middle of the shenanigans...

ok but Anon..... thoughts on the Dodo being Tiara.

IMAGINE ITTTT TIARA USING SUCH HUGE WORDS AND NO ONE BELIEVING HER WHEN SHE TRIES TO EXPLAIN IT??AND HER PRACTICALLY ROBBING NENE DRY OF HER GOODS?????? IDK ANON WHAT DO YOU THINK????

Oki am tired byebye love you Anon(please send more asks about this I'm obsessed with talking about it(maybe I should just make it more well known then.. artwork rewritten scenes...more on their relationships.... HMMMMM))

[weirdmageddon]

five years too late let’s analyze this. the commentary has gotten me back into gravity falls reigniting thoughts and insights i came to years ago

i love everything about this commentary in general it hits the points of humor, genuine analysis of the characters, but most of all im so glad hirsch addressed that the droid not detecting any fear from dipper here doesnt make any scientific sense because that was a massive CinemaSins moment for me

IDK the fact that dipper can fucking stand after an airship crash because theres a bigger threat at hand is literally one of the defining capabilities owed to adrenaline lol...... IM SORRY im a biopsychology student if i dont point that out iwill seethe and die because that was just . its a grudge ive held for a long time about this episode but didnt rant about because it was something so minor and i’m sure nobody would care.

i was 13 when this episode came out and i’m almost 19 now, i had a special interest in biology and i still do but now i’m actually having college classes in biopsychology so i can give my arguments more oomph now. and i have to say, now that i know more about the brain and autonomic nervous system the more this scene bugs me, if that was even possible. and it says a lot of dipper and ford’s relationship.

if dipper clearly wasnt calm before, why would he be now just because he’s put up an outwardly confident facade? before he was in the flight but now hes in the fight. my boy just rode on top of a spaceship by nothing but a magnet gun that could detach at any time if it failed and then the ship crashed, he sustained injuries, is in emotional turmoil because he thinks his uncle is Fucking Dead and the threat of a security droid that detects adrenaline is on his tail and produces a Big Fucking Gun in response to dipper saying “i hAvE a MaGNeT gUn” and hes screaming and has his teeth clenched but sure there’s no adrenaline coursing through his body in that moment i can totally believe that

when dipper asks what happened, ford says “the orb didn’t detect any chemical signs of fear, it assumed the threat was neutralized and self-disassembled” but i don’t think measuring someone’s heartbeat alone is particularly relevant in detecting ... chemical signs of fear?? they dont really tell you this shit but noradrenaline (and maybe adrenaline too if the acetylcholine from sympathetic outflow always activates the adrenal medulla??, theres two pathways) is always active in small quantities to make sure your parasympathetic nervous system doesnt slow your heart to dangerous levels on its own, regardless of your emotions. it’s just a homeostatic mechanism. your sympathetic and parasympathetic nervous systems are CONSTANTLY modulating control of your organs on a see-saw, literally with every breath you take. simply standing upright causes specialized mechanoreceptor neurons in blood vessels to signal your brain to project signals to release catecholamines via the sympathetic nervous system to constrict your blood vessels so that blood is able to reach your brain and not pool in your legs. i have a deficiency in my body’s ability to adapt to this which is why i know so much about it. if i stand up my heart races to compensate. i’m not feeling fear, my body is just adjusting—albeit grossly and incompetently lol.

but what im saying here is that the security system is flawed. it’s a cool idea to have security droids detect fear, but in practice by detecting adrenaline, and not even directly by detecting the molecule itself—it’s done in a roundabout way by reading the heartbeat, could be a recipe for false alarms. like what if someone’s on beta-blockers. that’s not really an adequate way to measure “fear”; there’s so many variables that could interfere with the measurement the farther you abstract from what you’re really trying to detect. and besides, adrenaline is NOT just a sign of fear, it’s just for preparing the body for action. i know the sympathetic nervous system and adrenaline is constantly linked with the “fight-or-flight” reaponse to a stressor, but 99.9% of the time the sympathetic nervous system is used in your life is to balance out your parasympathetic nervous system to maintain homeostatic equilibrium for mundane things.

i think detecting amygdalar activation would be more efficient in detecting fear. the amygdala sends projections to the hypothalamus which then in turn modulates the autonomic nervous systems. but the amygdala is intensely activated specifically in response to a fear-inducing stimulus (it does activate in response to other emotions but they’re mostly negative and is most activated by startle and fear), and wouldnt be highly activated by many other confounding variables like measurement of the heartbeat could be. the amygala is one of the first stops directly from external stimuli.

to show you how integrated the amygdala is as the first step in registering fear after receiving input from sensory stimuli let’s look at the auditory-amygdala connection for example

see how the auditory thalamus projects to the primary auditory cortex and auditory association cortex? the cortex is where conscious awareness of what the stimuli is comes from. this is the “high road”. it goes sensing -> perception -> emotional response. but sometimes you can be startled without even processing what it is you’re sensing, like the startle response of an alarm or a phone ringing in a quiet house before you even register what it is. this goes sensing -> emotional response, without perception happening until after you’ve already felt the startle. that’s when it takes the “low road”. here’s a simplified version:

even if that were the case with these droids though it’s obvious dipper is still fearful on some level here. his body language, voice, expressions all give it away. for the amygdala, aggression isnt too off from fear so it would be detected equally.

the reason this is so important is because ford uses this as evidence for why dipper is special, “i did it?” “you did it. this is what i was talking about, how many 12 year olds do you think are capable of doing what you’ve just done?”

but like....did he really? i’m not saying this to shoot dipper down or make him out to be more of a wuss, he was incredibly strong-willed here and i dont want to take that away from him because it WAS growth on his part. but the underlying psychophysiological reactions of aggression and fear shouldn’t be that different and this was a total asspull. maybe the droid was so old that it fucked up. maybe dipper being covered in grime and dirt made it harder for the droid to measure the correct heart rate through photoplethysmography (im assuming since they use a camera and are non-contact).

and in all honesty everything i just said brings into question the interpersonal healthiness of ford’s judgements, what he thinks, his expectations, and how he communicates that. in this video alex already talks about how ford is projecting onto dipper. and i think ford may be projecting his expectations for himself onto people who are not him, and the fact that it’s on dipper here makes it far more unfortunate. you realize how much this boy idolizes ford, right? how much impressions matter? dipper even tells himself before he leaves in this same episode, “all right dipper, this is your first big mission with great uncle ford. don’t mess this up.”

even though it’s unstated, the implicit message dipper is perceiving from ford based on their dynamic is: “do you have what it takes for me to be proud of you?” and to accomplish this he must be like ford, even though he’s clearly not and he knows this. he says “i don’t think have what it takes. i was tricked by bill, i was wrong about stan’s portal, heck, i can’t even operate this magnet gun right.” then, by simple chance without even knowing what he did, he activates the magnet gun and pulls out the adhesive, which immediately takes the focus away from what dipper was telling ford about his feelings of inadequacy to ford saying, “yes! dipper, you found the adhesive!”

these thoughts of dipper’s hang in the air without resolve or comment from ford. we don’t know what ford would have said. but it then becomes painfully self-evident in the scene immediately after when the droids emerge and ford tells dipper, “they’re security droids and they detect adrenaline. you simply have to not feel any fear and they won’t see you”, to which dipper replies with an exasperated (and rightful) “WHAT?”

dipper goes in a panic trying to indirectly tell his uncle that this isn’t something he can do. and he is completely right and valid to be freaked out by that full stop. that IS crazy. you can’t control your fear. you can control how you interpret that fear in your higher brain regions but the physiological changes will stick around for longer than it takes to cognitively calm down. it’s easy for me to detach from my emotions to analyze them, but being able to do this does not come naturally for everyone. even i have an irrational fear of wasps and i can’t control it by detaching myself, my body is just automatically primed to get the fuck out of there. i know it’s stupid and i know it’s irrational and isn’t helpful to get myself worked up but i literally can’t stop how my body reacts no matter how i cognitively think about it. expecting composure from dipper in a situation like this when he’s being made to consciously be aware of his anxiety is absolutely fucking insane. look what you did, placing these cruel expectations on him, now he’s afraid of being afraid! this isn’t a case where two wrongs cancel out, they just stack on top of each other.

there’s a good reason these scenes were put side by side but it seems up until now it had remained unanalyzed.

what dipper fears from ford is disappointment. not living up to his uncle’s (quite frankly badly placed) expectations for a twelve year old with anxiety. not once did ford say or subliminally communicate “i don’t expect you to be able to do what i can since you are not as experienced as i am and that’s perfectly okay, no judgements”. you don’t put a child on bike before training wheels. you don’t throw a kid into a swimming pool without giving them swimming lessons. the way ford is doing it, there’s no room for trial and error or mistakes that are an opportunity to grow and learn; instead, it’s life or death. he only seems to pride dipper on what he can do while ignoring the underlying struggles that plague him and never making it known it’s okay for dipper to fail in front of his hero and that he won’t think anything less of him for it.

and that’s why i found the ending scene for dipper and ford’s adventure in this episode to feel so.. wrong. on a scientific and social level. because by the sound of it ford focused more on what dipper had done to dismantle the droid (the droid not detecting any fear) instead of how dipper displayed love and protection for him even if he was truly afraid. what if the science was accurate and the droid detected adrenaline while dipper was confidently standing up for his uncle. would ford still be proud of him regardless?

[jordanshenessy]

Tumblr appreciation post✨

Hi!!! This year has honestly been the most surprising and eventful year over the course of 2020 and while not everything was perfect I can’t be more thankful for finding all my friends here on tumblr 🥺 I’ve had this blog for about 5 years but I never really joined any fandoms or made any of my own posts until March of this year bc I really fell in love with skam + remakes and wtfock and despite its tragic last season I’m so glad I met all of you through it 🥺🥺🥺I couldn’t be more thankful for the friends I’ve made and I couldn’t even imagine having this just a year ago and ily all so much 🥺🥺💕💕😌💫🥰💫💕💕 🤧🤧

Note: some of you I’m mutuals with only through my skam blog sonderthroughthestreets so I hope you don’t get confused with me posting on main haha 🥰

Brocsquad:

@franboos @gucciboner @alterlovex @earthling-isa @engelkeijsers @theflowerisblue @lieverobbe @dagcutie @thenerd10

I’m so happy I got to meet you all through the gc and I love talking to you guys a lot, you mean a lot to me and I get excited every time we make plans and we talk and cause chaos 🥺💕

Shoutout to:

@robbesdriesen biancaaaa you are definitely the first person that I talked to on here and I’m so excited for our upcoming anniversary of us having talked for one whole year!! You have my whole heart and I’m in awe of your talent. I’m so glad we can share our writing with each other and I’m just always so excited to see you around on my dash or my messages. I LOVE YOU so much that words that cannot describe 🥺💕

@to-enter-polaris sarahhhh you are so brilliant and I love you so much!! I’m so glad we got really close and that we got mad at wtfock enough to write a whole moyo season fic together!! I enjoyed the chaos that would happen in the middle of the night while we were buzzing with ideas. I love your gifs so so much and now ur writing too!! I can’t wait to see what else you have in store for us I LOVE YOU so much bb 🥺💕

@fvae faeeee you are such a delight and I’m so glad I started liking and replying to your posts when we became mutuals and started talking because you are the cutest and funniest person and you’re so so talented with ur art!!! The siren!sander book cover lives in my head rent free ahhh I’ll never be able to thank you enough for drawing for my fic ILYSM BB🥺💕

@sanabakkoushd amiraaaa I’m so glad we started talking and I love hearing your opinions on everything skam and I know we don’t talk as often but ily and appreciate you so much!! You’re so kind and understanding and you’re the sweetest ahhh I love your gifs so much you have so much talent and ILY 🥺💕

@welcometo-saturn çağrııııı it has been a pleasure becoming mutuals with you, you mean a lot to me and I know we haven’t talked a lot recently but you helped me in some tough spots and I’ll never be able to thank you enough! You’re so chill and talented, you’re my talented soul wrecker and you wreck me with your gifs ILY bb🥺💕

@lot-bubbel charlotttteee im so grateful for the conversations we have everyday and when you send cute cat posts and we laugh about them. You’re such a kind and funny person and you’re so so cuteee ahhh thank you listening to my problems and helping with my nervousness sometimes and thank you for brightening up my day every time that we talk!! I genuinely laugh and smile every time I get a message from you ILY 🥺💕

Alt er love server: (I know I don’t talk as much on there but I appreciate you guys a lot)

@kieumyvus valentina thank you so much for welcoming me into the server and being so kind and understanding i love your passion for making friends and making people feel like they belong🥺💕 @womenstan em ilysm you welcomed me as well and I love talking to you whenever I come in and seeing what ur upto, you just brighten my day a lot🥺💕 @misunderstoododdity brennaaaa ilysm and I love talking to you about writing and ranting or getting out our frustrations about not being able to write hehe and I also love hearing about your day! You’re one of the sweetest people here and ily and appreciate you so much 🥺💕 @honeyandsinn caaaat ily and your writing so much!! Love that we had a galaxy brain moment and I can’t wait to see what else you have planned for us!! 🥺💕

Special mentions: (this is definitely not all of you and if I didn’t mention you I still love you and I honestly wanna write essays for you all too 🥺🥺🥺💕💕💕💕🥰)

@thedeth @alinachilt @bleachblondebitches @nori-in-pink @driesenrobbe (ur so talented and ilysm 🥺) @skam-wtfock-sobbe @phantomsobbe @tinyfatou @sander-klaas @sanderxrobbee (I love the support you give to fanfic writers and I love ur gifs 🥺) @jorgecrespo (ily) @annonymannonym @vanillalipstick66 @dionysuswearsanorangetracksuit @sundaymorninghangover @luxandobscurus @morshiberna @kritiquer @suburbanenigma @mirroroferisedx (I love ur gifs and u) @jusdekiwi @kingarthurpendragons @katzen-kinder @smiling-for-money @ayarambles @palpitating-procrastination @alexiswoke @lesbeanfatou @demauryss @cash-queens @zoesrobbe (ur so talented I love ur gifs and u🥺)

Tumblr won’t let me have more mentions 😭 but I’ll link it here✨

[wristsofidleness]

(happy birthday!!)

I wanted to send you something aside from the chat, but messages are too short and sending it to you via facebook seemed weird so… here I am!

(obviously this is less than a submission and more of an “I needed a place where I could type a lot and it wouldn’t get lost in our chat”.)

First and foremost:

Happy Birthday, Jinali! 🎉🎉🎈

I’m really shit when it comes to writing birthday messages/expressing feelings, but I really really wanted to use this opportunity tell you how happy I am that we’ve met online.

You’re this friend that weirdly takes a long time to answer messages and yet is also always there when I’m “in need”. I don’t even have to ask, I might just make a post because sometimes life is shit and all of a sudden there’s a message from you or some words of encouragement that mean the world to me ♥

And you’ve recommended so many good things to me, like The Raven Cycle, Six of Crows and Buffy (which I have yet to finish THOUGH NETFLIX REMOVED IT). I can’t imagine my life now without The Raven Boys (hello, my url) and not only did you recommend this to me, but you also read all my silly/stupid/senseless rants and feelings while I was reading/watching them.

The other day I saw a post that said that online friendships at first are weird because conversations consisted mostly of “hi”, “hi”, “how are you?” “great and you” “very well, thank you” and ended there and not only did I ever feel that it went like that with us back then*, but it’s been two years and we still have loads of things to talk about. At least for me, it’s never been weird. 

*(also, I’m 80% sure I’ve already told you this but just in case I haven’t I’ll say it again: I think we started properly talking (exchanging actual messages?) somewhere around my 23rd birthday. I don’t know exactly H O W, but I remember it had something to do with me posting something about my birthday, you commenting something about “oh, I didn’t know it was your birthday” and some message that I’m guessing you sent me because it’s not in my inbox (or I sent it and my inbox deleted it), and boom! we were friends. It was fast in a (nice) way because what I remember from that time is that we just started talking and went on and on and on and for me there was never some awkward phase of “mmm… I don’t know what else to say/how to respond to this” and until today it still feels this way *hopes I’m not jinxing it*. Anyway, what I think I’ve already told you is this: back then, I had been thinking a lot about sending you a message that basically went something like “you tag me on stuff, like my posts, I like your posts and you seem like a really cool girl, wanna be friends?” but obviously better written and with actual arguments. I never got around to send it, though, because we started talking, but you were weeks away from receiving a message like that. You just seemed so cool and I wanted to be your friend.)

(Speaking of old messages, I’ve just found that you also encouraged me to buy The Cuckoo’s Calling, so add that to the list of awesome things that happened in my life because of you. Isn’t it weird that I’ve never seen you in real life and yet you’ve had a visible impact in my life?

Also, in one of those late-2015 messages you said to me, when I asked you if I could follow you on instagram, “n yes OF COURSE! ill follow you back. insta, twitter, facebook, goodreads, whichever you want.” like WAIT ANOTHER YEAR AND WE’LL BE MESSAGING IN EVERY SINGLE ONE OF THOSE WEBSITES)

I think I’m doing this with you right now because I like showing affection to my real-life friends (by hugging them, buying them some small present that I know they’ll enjoy, going places, making plans, etc), but you’re an online friend and I don’t have the chance to do any of those things. And it’s your birthday now, so isn’t it the perfect day to tell you how happy I am to have you in my life? 

So this long, endless, completely incoherent mess of a message is my way of telling you thank you for being my friend and being around all these years. I’m glad we started talking and I’m glad we’re still friends and haven’t drifted apart and I’m so happy to have a friend with whom I share so many things and fandoms in common ♥

You’re the best. Happy birthday, Jinali! Eat lots of cake, spend time with the people you love, and I hope this new year is full of love and good things! 💜💜🎂🎊🎉🎉🎊🎈

(PS: I hope I’m doing this whole submission thing ok. I think you have to approve it, and thus see it, and it doesn’t post it automatically. No, I checked on my blog and it should appear as a message, this is not a message sadly)

szkjfhkshfksfk Selene, listen thank you doesnt even begin to cover it. first off, you’re an angel for tolerating my bad replying habits. Ive been particularly bad about it this year. I know ��*hides in a corner*  thsi has been a frustrating year, not gonna lie, but you’ve been incredibly kind and thank you for not only listening to my rants but being so understanding. its helped me more than you realise 💖 

also i still cant believe that i actually have a friend with exactly the same taste as me. so thank YOU for fangirling and loving it all as much as I do so im not just shouting into the void anymore. 

Ive talked to quite a few people on here but i was never comfortable enough to actually tag them in posts or even dare to strike up a conversation out of the blue but you always seemed so approachable and i guess that speaks to the kind of vibe you gave out 😊 wait im pretty sure i can track down the post that got us talking so im gonna send you a link. also im so grateful to my weird 18 year old self who thought it was perfectly normal to thank someone for being their 100th follower back in 2012 😂

I still can’t understand how we havent run out of topics to talk about by now. I cant believe there’s not a single website where we dont have an ongoing conversation. I cant believe we didnt even spare goodreads ffs 😂 

just.. THANK YOU THANK YOU THANK YOU for everything. I love you and I hope that even as we change and grow, we never drift apart 😙

[tojoselitaa]

Val/Sungkyung

Happy birthday Josie!! For your 37th birthday, we all decided to write you letters like this! (Mae just added me to this group chat randomly omg I didn’t even know what was going on)

I think this is our second year knowing each other right? When we first talked, you were Wheein that time! And you were so funny (I still think you are), you made me laugh so hard AHHAAHHA. Your comments on my posts too! And then you CC-ed to Momo and became a part of our OG Twice Gang. That time you were really down because of your IC relationship and you even ranted to me out of nowhere. I’m a very empathetic person okay so I got sad and worried as well omg. You were still really sad when you joined TSC and I remember getting angry at you that time HAHAHAHAHA and you messaged me going “oh my god, im so sorry” multiple times until I finally answered. I realised how much you care then because you said sorry so manY times dude I felt SORRy you have to say sorry omg!!

We started to get really close then jshd we were so TIGHT oh my god TSC was practically inseparable. We tagged each other in everything, messaged each other all the time and the group chat was lit 24/7. We were so open and accepting to each other! I found out some stuff about you that I never knew before. Like how you have 12984 dogs, how you really really like art and how you love girlgroups a LOT. Especially produce 101 omg, you were really into that when it came out right? KIM DANI. She was one of your faves I think. And you really like puns and savage memes. also hoW YoU TA LK liKE HTISISJKD most of the time. And like you love beautiful sceneries and those “tag yourself” memes. You were really fun to get to know! You know I thought that it would be hard for me to be close with you since you’re so old already. Actually, with EVERY ONE OF YOU. But you were so easy to get along with! You made me feel really welcomed and I’m sure a lot of us think so too. You’re very very welcoming, you’re really warm as well. And friendly, kind, trustworthy, loyal, supportive, generous, humble, etc.

If anyone ever asks me “what is Josie like?” I’d just link them here https://www.englishclub.com/vocabulary/adjectives-personality-positive.htm

You’re a very wonderful person josie! And someone who I can trust with anything and everything. You’re always there for me whenever I’m down and you always listen to my problems! Not only that, you gave advice to me as well. I remember that time when I was really down because everything was so hectic for me. You made me promise to myself that it’s okay to cry it all out and I was like “;A; klasdvjkhsdvjksd josie….” You’re always so supportive and it really means a lot to me. I feel like I could just come to you, telling you I committed murder or something and you’d just go “okay but don’t do it again, alright?” because you’re so understanding too!! You’re just amazing okay I feel like tearing up while writing this jkhdf

And because of that, I’m always here for you to lean on as well! I might be way younger and wayyy more inexperienced compared to your friends, but I’m willing to listen to you and try my very best to help you with anything. My advices might be a bit too immature or just lacking in general, and you don’t have to listen to them really, but I’m always trying hard to understand what you’re going through! I just care about you so so much skhdjhkds

You know long distance friendships are so painful sometimes. Because you can’t be there physically with them. Like, there has been so many times when I just want to hug you so much and just comfort you but I can’t ;A; (and I’m like even tearing up while typing this im not even kidding jklhdsf I WILL TAKE A SELFIE WAIT. Okay, tell me when you read this so I can send you the selfie.) ugH I just wish that I can just hug you at least once in my life and like hang out to watch the movies or something or just eat together jkhsd basically just hang out like normal friends do. AnD like I’m so scared like what if one day something happens to you and I wouldn’t even know jkds what if you stopped going online ;A; I DON’T EVER WANT THAT TO HAPPEN JKCL this is supposed to be a cute birthday letter but this feels like the English essay I’m supposed to be writing right now.

ANYWAY, tl;dr: you’re amazing and I love you. I hope that we can still be friends for like 70 years from now on when all of our fake RP accounts have gotten disabled. I’m so glad you’re one of my closest friends and I’m really glad that you EXIST. You’re my favourite Aquarius/Capricorn cusp of all time! Thank you for being a great friend josiee. I hope that this year, since you’re 20 and all, will be a great one for you! I LOVE YOU A LOT MY LOVE ❤

xx Valvalvalvalval