#im sending you hugz and warm regardz

[spookythesillyfella]

I know you possibly don't want this inbox right this second but I wanted to say that you should never apologize for trying to express your feelings, No matter how often or in what way you do it there's nothing wrong with that. This is YOUR BLOG and rightfully so wanting people to ask about you is normal it shouldn't be seen as some sort of crime to WANT ATTENTION especially because you put so much time / effort into everything you do. I know you're hurting right this second... I can't stop anything that you may do but I can at least tell you one last time that I will always try to support you to my compacity. I don't want you to feel as if you're standing alone in an empty room, I've been watching over you for even this short amount of time and you've made such an positive impact on me. It's not phony bologna, It's not me inboxing out of "pity" I just really care about you. It's hard to reach anyone on my end.. One last time though. Thank you everything Thank you for inspiring me through art Thank you for inspiring me through writing even if it meant dissecting song lyrics or writing out headcanons/fanfiction writing Thank you for checking up on me. Associating me with characters I am sorry I haven't done more. I hope in the future more people will be able to appreciate you. Keep your chin up

You don't need to reply at all. I'll check more on you later on (I'll try to..) I love you so much /p

i honestly don't know what to say that hazn't been said yet – your askz alwayz seem to calm me down . for a moment . and help me reevaluate thingz

i really do appreciate all the thingz you've said . but i really do need to stop talking about my issuez here and seek attention and support from a bunch of people on tumblr ; my purpoze here waz just to make art of my au and sometimez post fanfiction – i came onto thiz platform with the goal of escaping my problemz and being a pillar of support for otherz . to help them feel better in timez of need . and to inspire them with the thingz i make ; it just seemz that . over the past month or so . ive just been expozing the crackz in the foundation . and i've ended up the "high maintenance" person in everyonez livez . instead of helping maintain other people

looking back on it . itz foolish and unrealistic to think that would be the case – and look at me now . i've ended up spilling my gutz onto thiz website becauze i just desperately want people to look at me and care ; looking for pity in placez pity won't be found iz a waste of time and energy . and at thiz point i just want to go back to how it waz before thiz whole decline started . since i just posted art and thatz it – no opinionz . no mishapz about the day . no frustrationz . just entertainment for otherz

but what you've written down truly doez mean a lot to me – you're someone who i look up to an awful lot . and your appreciation and support meanz more than you could imagine ; itz such a pleazure to be friendz with you . and you're probably the best older sibling a guy could ask for . i really . truly mean it 💌💌💌