#im rly bad at givng advice im sorry jjdffj

[wilson4dinner]

how did you know you’re a transmasc lesbian / do you have any advice on dealing w dysphoria

transphobia , dysphoria tw /

honestly... ive been uncomfortable with how i should present for a long time like i have known i was lesbian since i was rly young, and the term felt like home to me but i also dont feel like a girl at the same time. some cis lesbians/bi women told me that i cant call myself lesbian/sapphic if i dont present and identify as a woman, and that fucked me for so long. 

but at the same time i dont feel like a man so its uh ??????confusing experience for me. and yet i feel more connected to masculine/male characters on films and shows, and even questioned if im less lesbian for that.

until like ive seen actual trans butch non binary lesbians on the internet and met some on twitter (thank u star trek stan twitter) and i felt awesome and more comfortable with how i truly felt

i have my own ways to deal with dysphoria, one of them is not calling them dysphoria, it helps me tbh sjdjfjkf and i am brown and my country isnt exactly friendly with trans people, my family is transphobic (my dad for example, ‘tolerates’ me being a lesbian, but its another story if i “look like one”, whatever that means. i dont live with him tho which Helps) and that sucks, i dont have irl trans friends so i tend to stay at home. i use he/him pronouns on the internet, and my language doesnt have gendered pronouns and words so im lucky on that part i guess. i keep my hair short and i tend to lower my voice with strangers. im taller than most girls, and i always would try to help them with something (like lifting and opening things). yknow stuff like that

i also get in touch with my femininity too, i used not to, but seeing ian alexander be transmasc and feminine is fucking badass and i want to be like that

advice to fellow nb lesbians is to stop trying to adhere how cis people define gender and just be. lesbians have been gender noncomforming, and history proves that. i feel we will understand being non binary better if we stop trying to define it!!