#im really enjoying this very rough style lately its so. quick

[spiderziege]

[hobilluvvr]

lost ocean troubles | 2

college au! sub!armin x dom!reader

words - 2.7k

warnings - vomit, blood, mentions of abuse , injuries

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so incredibly sorry for this late update but testing season is approaching and I need to study sadly :/ this part is very rough with spelling errors and grammar but will be revised later !

please enjoy this update and constructive criticism is always welcomed :D . If you want to be added to the tag list please don’t hesitate to ask !

taglist - @haikyoonn @kenmas-nintendoswitch

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The flowers had this magnificent pale blue color to them, the sun hitting them just at the right angle and the sage leaves accented the stem, the weight of the beautiful petals making the stem slightly wilt downwards .

this piqued armins interest, so much so that he walked towards them , feet trudding against the soft sand. As he comes close the overwhelming smell of coconut with a hint of sea saltseasalt overwhelmes his senses, his nose srunching up in question, the scent resembling of clean linen,a quite odd observation , even more so for a flower .

Just as he reaches to pick the flower up, the sun all of the sudden blazes furiously, the rays bouncing everywhere and blinding armin, now groaning as he squirms in abrupt discomfort. His feet dig at the sand … or what was the sand… the feeling of plush fabric instead meeting his skin, surrounding his body in comfort and warmth.

Snuggling further into this random source of heat, the sudden realization hits him. His eyes open the tiniest bit and he stops for a moment … this isnt the beach… in fact he’s laying on a bed… an unknown bed

At this his body jolts upward and armin frantically looks around his surroundings, the white pillows and the grey blanket not correlating in his mind as his. ‘This isnt my room’ the panic quickly sets in, quickly throwing the blanket aside and standing up abruptly which proves to be a grave mistake as a headache and the urge to vomit surges up his throat.

He clutches his stomach as he runs to the bathroom ,quickly kneeling over the toilet, emptying the contents of his stomach, the acidity already making his throat burn angrily. The sound of quick footsteps echo the walls and he goes to turn his head towards the door when the second round of bile threatens to escape his throat.

His ingers clutch the toilet ,violently puking when a second presence is felt . armin feels someone kneel next to him and gently rub at his back

“Its okay , its okay ,let it all out “ you push his bangs away from his face while the other hand rubs at his back . armin lifts his head up ,groaning as he moves away from the toilet feeling his head throb way too violently.

You hand him the cup of water and pain killer you set down when you entered the bathroom

“Here take this, dont move too much . your head is most likely killing you” he takes the items and pops the pill in his mouth quickly downing it with the water. When he sets the cup down he looks at you ,eyes squinting, clearly confused

“Where am i ?”

You chuckle lightly, standing up and lean against the counter “you dont remember anything do you huh?” the boy sitting on the floor thinking ...

Suddenly armin visibly stiffens, his cheeks flushing “uh w-ww di-idnt do i-it ,rig-ght?” his eyes all of the sudden finding great interest on the floor tiles .

You give him a light smile and laugh even louder this time “no, no we didnt ,dont worry about that. Here cmon” you reach out a hand to lift him up off the floor

He takes your hand sheepishly ,shoulders relaxing in relief, his red cheeks calming down “ then what happened? Why am i here ?” he asks following you out of the bathroom and into the room.

You cringe at the events that happened the previous night and you wonder if you should tell him everything. You head over to your drawers and open them, turning your back to the stumbling boy “well you got extremely wasted and this creep saw that you were alone and he tried messing with you but i took care of it”

your hands clench harshly at the shirt you were holding thinking about the old fuck. God humans can be pieces of shit

“Oh.” armins bit his lip and he desperately tried to remember exactly what happened , your answer being quite vague , but this did nothing but make his head throb once again . wincing in pain he goes to lifts his hand up to hold his head when he notices the bandages around his wrists ‘what happened ?did i get injured ?’

After picking out what you needed , you turned to face him and you catch his line of sight , looking at his wrists . as if you heard what his thoughts you say “ the perv was being really aggressive towards you and he injured you quite badly but i brought you up to my apartment and fixed you up a bit “giving him a warm smile you hold out the clothes you had previously searched for

“ here , take this and clean your self up a bit then i can take you home, yeah ? you got a little bit of a stain forming on you “ you chuckle, head nodding towards the vomit on the shirt before walking out ,leaving him in the room alone

His eyes widen at your comment immediately rushing to the bathroom and sure enough his vomit is all over the shirt , the mirror reminding him of his earlier commotion . armin sighs in embarrassment ,blue eyes scanning his appearance, finally now knowing how much of a hot mess he looks like . he notices another bandage on his face, his cheek specifically , a bit of blood staining the white bandage along with another few scratches all over his face.

His finger traces around his facial injuries ‘wow, what exaclty happened last night ?’

He shakes his head , not wanting his head to pound again, instead just focusing his attention on the shirt you gave him noticing that it looks similar to the dirty one he is wearing currently.

‘Oh god …..dont tell me …. Im wearing her clothes ‘ the realization hits him and his ears turn an angry shade of red. ‘God how much more of a burden can he be to you ?’ he groans before closing the bathroom door

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As soon as you close the door , your eyes land on a very dishevled eren leaving his room , hand shielding his squinting eyes away from the harsh sunlight “what happened ? i heard what sounded like someone vomiting” his morning voice rasping out, following you to the kitchen and sitting down on the kitchen bar stool

“Oh he woke up and well... , you know how hangovers are like “ you open the fridge , scanning the interior “wait why is the fridge empty ? i thought i told you it was your turn to go grocery shopping this time ? what happened ? “ you frown turning towards him, crossing your arms

Eren only yawns and stretches his body, not seeming to mind that you were glaring holes at him “dont you remember ? i couldnt go so you said we’d go together after we ate something yesterday but then you got too caught up fighting someone if i recall correctly ” he confidently said, fingers tapping at his chin , eyes meeting yours, glaring back.

You sigh giving up “ ahh yeah i remember now….” you take a quick glance around the kitchen and see nothing of nutritional value “ the hell are we going to eat then ? and why didnt you clean up the medical supplies from last night ?” you badger him looking at the medical supplies messily strewn all over the counter

Eren scrunches his face , hand running through his bedhair, still groggy from just waking up a few minutes ago “ we can always just doordash something” he picks up the bottle of rubbing alcohol remebering how you carried armin into the apartment when he passed out and set him on the couch leaving eren to tend to his wounds.

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Just as armin was falling , passing out after just vomiting all over you , you quickly grab at his waist and preventing him from hitting his head on the floor . the stench of the vomit was awfully intense and you scrunch your nose trying to stop the smell from affecting you “ can you be any faster over there ? you tease seeing him struggle with the keys , his fumbling being weirdly endearing somehow

“Im trying , im trying. I swear this cold is messing me up or something “ he puffs out now fumbling with inserting the key right . you roll your eyes upon seeing this , giving a light chuckle before reaching a hand underneath the blonde boys legs and bringing them towards your chest, effectively lifting him up bridal style.

You walk into the apartment and set the boy softly onto the couch before looking down to the mess that your clothes are in , heading towards the bathroom “ hey eren could you patch him up for me ? i have to clean myself up before he’s not the only one with body fluids all over the floor.” you smirk

Eren scoffs “dont you go throwing up on me , you hear ? i just mopped the floors yesterday and im sure as hell not letting you mess my hard work up “ he hears your distant laugh down the hallway , before the sound of boots fade, leaving him alone with the boy

Eren looks at the boy slowly sliding down on the couch and ultimately sighs before going to the cabinet where all the medical supplies are stored. He opens it while lowly muttering “just cause my dad was a doctor and he taught me a few things doesnt mean i have to tend to everyones wounds “

Grabbing a few bandages and bandaids, and rubbing alcohol, he grabs a stool and places it in front of the boy. ‘Your injuries shouldnt be that bad ‘ he thinks before he lifts the boy and positions him upright. Immediately the sight of scarce blood and vomit greets erens eyes . eren winces in slight sympathy and disgust before he wipes armins face clean with the cloth he has in hand and disinfecting the wounds next

The rubbing alcohol stirred a reaction out of the blonde boy seeing as he squirmed in discomfort , the position he was put in faltering, falling into the nearest thing, which so happened to be erens chest, more specifically his neck

Eren was flustered ,not knowing what to do he freezes , his ears turning red upon feeling the shallow breath of the boy on, his sensitive neck . Eren looks down and he admires the peaceful features on the petite boy .’he looks so peaceful, pretty even ‘ eren stares for a bit before he snaps out of it and pushes the boy off his chest , tending to his wounds , doing what he first came to do.

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“ i left the supplies out because i knew i would have to tend to your wounds too “ he gets up , walking to the other side of the bar, heading where you are

You squint your eyes in visible confusion “ my wounds ? what are you talking about ?” he scoffs rolling his eyes, “dont play dumb with me , you beat up someone to a bloody pulp and dont expect any damage to your hands, more specifically your damn knuckles ? “

He reaches down, grabbing your hand and lifting them up as to make a point “look at this “ you look down towards your hand and the sight of multi colored bruises,blood and even some open skin greets you.

“ you didnt let me tend to them yesterday so let me do it now “ you meet eyes and his are practically pleading you, but before you get to open your mouth to say anything, you hear rustling and you look behind eren to see what it is .

Armin is awkwardly standing there in the living room, the clean shirt you gave him reaching his knees , and the sweatpants a bit too baggy . you have to physically stop yourself from cooing , the sight being way too adorable for you to handle this early in the morning

Eren senses his presence as well , turning around , both of you guys forgetting about your previous conversation . you clear your throat, sensing some sort of tension in the room “ hey youre finally out ! i was going to make you something to eat but turns out the fridge is empty “ you rub your neck sheepishly , making a mental note to go grocery shopping asap .

Armins eyes widen at this , his hands extending and quickly shaking ��� oh no no , please you dont have to, i dont want to be more of a bother than i already am ,” he shyly looks down at the floor , swinging his body , slightly nervous

You smile seeing his cute habit of not making eye contact, fetching your car keys off the wall “ well i bet youre missing your home right ? i can drive you home now if you want “ you also grab the plastic bag off the floor by the corridor

Armin seems to stiffen again , eren now chuckling , his hands stuffed in his sweatpants , noticing how the blonde boy seems way to nervous around you guys . armin looks at eren momentarily before he looks at the floor again ‘ how the hell do you guys look so good this early in the morning ‘ he thinks ‘ meanwhile here he is looking all messed up ‘

“I actually dont live too far away, i can walk home by myself “ armin lies straight out of his teeth , clearly not doing it well judging by the look of your face . youre not convinced seeing as the whole reason why he’s here in the first place was because he was wandering alone.

“ id feel much better knowing that someone is walking you home , i dont want a repeat of what happened yesterday .” you bite your lip, now staring more intensely at the boy in front of you

Armin mentally groans ‘ damn you and your kindness, why cant you get the hint that he doesnt want to hassle you any longer ?’

“Well um … “ he pauses, intensely thinking of a solution that doesnt involve him burdening you guys any further when he hears some shuffling and then someone handing a phone to him. Armin looks up and green eyes stare back at him

“Do you have anyone you can call ? a friend maybe to come pick you up ? “ eren suggests , reading right through the boy

“ o-oh y-yes i do umm thank you , for your phone i mean “ armin scrambles to take the phone and calls his roommate , knowing for sure she is freaking out about his whereabouts

He hands the phone back to eren and shuffles his feet “ luckily she is around the area and can pick me up in 5 minutes , i can wait outside …” you ponder for a second at this suggestions , before ultimately nodding

“Yeah sounds like a solid plan , okay , here take this bag before you head out “ you hand it over and armin looks at you and tilts his head slightly “ its your clothes from last night , i washed them and folded them , oh and your bag is also inside “ you explain while he peeks at the contents inside grief striking his face

‘How much exaclty did you do for him , he’s the worst guest ever in history , throwing up all over your bathroom ‘ he cringes at the thought. He's definitely gonna think about this experience at night,when he reminisces about all the embarrassing moments he's had in his lifetime

“Thank you guys so much for all youve done , i really do appreciate it “ armin rubs at his nape laughing out softly “ well i should get going “ he goes to the entrance, hand on the knob

“Yeah absolutely no problem , take care pretty boy ! “ you say waving , smiling brightly when you see his cheeks flush once more , eren just nodding goodbye . he waves a small goodbye before leaving , closing the door gently . sighing in relief when he got out.

Armin walks out into the street and sure enough there is his roommate , waiting and the look on her face looks not so pleasantly happy .he knows what is going to happen. he opens the car door ready to hear her badgering soon enough

“Look , mikasa , i can ex-” not so shortly as he begins his sentence, she yells out

“WHERE THE HELL HAVE YOUVE BEEN ? DO YOU KNOW HOW WORRIED SICK I WAS WHEN YOU DIDNT PICK UP MY MANY PHONE CALLS ? ARE THOSE BANDAGES IM SEEING? “ armin winced at her reprimations, slowly sinking further into the passenger seat as she kept rambling, knowing that he has to face her wrath for the whole drive home .

he still has no clue as to what exactly happened last night, the only thing he can do is hope his memories would come back soon and clear up his many questions

[pbandjesse]

It was my first day back at the museum!! I was so nervous but it went great. I wish I had accomplished some more stuff today but like. I worked a whole shift and I had a great time.

I slept okay last night. My whistling was very bad. But I slept okay. Waking up sort of sucked but it was okay. I was in a good mood. I loved my outfit. I matched my mask to my dress. I felt great. But I was still very nervous and then my boots wouldn't go on and James tried to help me but made it worse and I got very upset but I knew that was stupid and I hate when I do that.

James got my bike ready and walked me outside. Some of our neighbors were there and wished me luck. I believe Kim left for her long trip today. I am sad I didn't give her a goodbye hug but I was very distracted. And also just super anxious.

But I was off. I loved biking. I had to stop pretty quick to tie my bag off because I am always afraid someone will grab it from my basket. But once I fixed that concern I was off and I had a great ride with great music.

I was nervous about being late but it was fine. I got to the museum and was so happy to be there. Meahgan was there and gave me a big hug. And Becca was there! And Jack and John and Estelle. And Jessica is super pregnant!! It was all so exciting.

I was very nervous so I went and walked around the tour route to try to jog my memory. I was convinced I was going to completely blank. But of course I didn't and it was great.

The first program I had was the sewing program, Needles, with Estelle. And she's lovely and I worked on pretreading the needles while she set up the rest. And once the kids got there it was honestly totally fine. I had a blast.

The sewing went pretty well. They all worked well together and it was a great discussion. And then it was tour time. The part I was dreading. But it honestly went so good. I for sure stumbled but it was mostly because I had a child who interrupted a lot. But besides that I really leaned in and it was so fun. I told more jokes then normal and asked more questions but it was like. Perfect. I was so happy with it at the end.

They had lunch next. I went to the breakroom and enjoyed the food I brought and the conversations with my coworkers. It was interesting to talk about when the last time we were there. How we remember it went. All the weird stuff like that. But honestly I think we are all just excited to have a little bit of normal again.

We had the cannery program next and that wasn't scary at all. Exept I forgot I had to do the company store and my timing was way off for some reason and I cannot figure out what I did beyond talking to fast. Honestly that's probably it because I wasn't ready for it. But the actual cannery program part went great. I had them make cans and it was good.

And then they were gone. I put on my headphones and went to sit in the cannery and glue oysters and cans. Just that constant hand work. It was good.

Becca asked me to come help clean the print machines. And then Meahgan, Esstelle, and me sat together and worked. Esstelle cut her hand on an oyster. It was a whole thing. But it got cleaned up and she was okay. It was nice just sitting and talking and I am so exited to be back to work.

And then it was time to go. I thought about going to get lunch or go somewhere. But I wanted to go home. Get a feel for how long it takes me to go up hill. It takes me about 25 minutes to bike to work and about 40 to bike home with breaks. I hope it gets faster but it was the first time I have biked in a while so Im not shocked.

The hills are rough though. I took the bike path the whole way to avoid traffic but it makes me very dizzy.

And once I was home I locked my bike outside (James would bring it in later) and went up. And then I felt very bad!! I was super hot and shaky. James, the doll that they are, were in the middle of making me a quesadilla. Love them so much.

I would have my food and try to calm down but I was just this close to falling asleep. I changed and then realized I wasn't wearing my engagement ring?? Couldnt find it anywhere. Panicked. Knew I had it when I got home because I had washed my ahds because I got bike dirty on them and was glad I didn't get it on my ring. But I couldn't find it. Worked myself up really bad. But it was just in my dress pocket?? I was all upset though so I went to lay down in the studio. And at some point fell asleep until 6.

Oops.

I woke up and styled two people. I should have done more but I was just not feeling it. I laid with sweetP for a minute before I put shoes on and went to walgreens.

I thought maybe those breathright strips would help my whistling and so far I think I am right! I am breathing almost normal!! Its not the most comfortable and Im worried the tape is going to give me a rash (I did get the sensitive skin on but still, plastic bandaids give me rashes) but I am breathing!

I also got a bone crab. I love the stupid bone animals so much. And Ive seen so many good ones this year. But bone crab is just. So good.

I came home and James was still working. I had a yogurt and have been hanging out since. I took a shower. Put on a hoodie. Im in bed enjoying the breeze now. I am in a good mood.

Im at the museum all day tomorrow. Giving tours. With Gaby! Im excited to see her. My plan is to bring the laptop and styling the people I have and bring a book. But I hope to give a few tours. Well see if anyone comes.

I hope you all have a great night. Sleep well my friends.

[calm-me-down-oh]

How about all the questions ;)

skdsjf ofc u would get me back for that, under a readmore bc theres a lot!

When was the last time you masturbated? Yesterday! Had a.. very hot convo w my gf

Do you enjoy being fingered/fingering? Uhh the only time Ive had it done to me the person had to stop bc they got uncomfy with it and it was overall just a bit odd,, wait it happened a second time and their nails were too sharp also sdkfhsdh I feel like I could get to like it though? If its like, actually properly done rather than my current experiences sdhfk

How do you feel about food during sex? nno thanks mostly? I guess it can kinda depend on the food though idk, like if my gf suggested somethin I might not mind trying it out depending on what it was yknow

What do you do directly after sex? um.. well afaik just kinda lay/sit in a daze for a moment, mayb have some water, get real clingy, kind of have to be nudged into doing stuff bc i guess my brain just stops working skjdfkj

Cuddle with the tip in? Hell yeah. cuddle with it all in. sounds good.

What’s the nastiest sexual thing you’ve done? I don’t think I’ve really done anything nasty sdjkfsj all the sex ive had has been quite brief and vanilla idk

Name a follower you would fuck. @you-better-make-me!

Name a follower you have fucked. None..

What’s the sexiest part of your body? Idk man I guess my thighs are ok people seem to like them anyway

FuckMarryKill: DJ Khalid, Rick Ross, Fat Joe Am i supposed to know who these people are

Would you ever be with a trans person? i think the real question is would i ever be with a cis person (yes i would be with a trans person i am with 2 trans people and i am trans and i havent dated anyone cis since i was like 15)

Riding dick or doggy style? yes

Ever fucked in a school? Nope

Most random place you’ve had sex? havent really had sex in a random place lmao just beds

Would you ever be part of the mile high club? maybe..? thats having sex on a plane right. idk. maybe

Name three of your spots. what does this mean fkjd

Fuck on the first date? Depends

Do you suck dick? I’m sure gonna try!

Do you eat ass? Idk maybe not skdfjhsjk

Do you eat pussy? Haven’t yet, nearly did, got too nervous sdkjfh

Do you like kissing? So much!!

Is farting during sex sexy? I.. I mean its not sexy but like im also not gonna have a negative reaction. unless its me. that is something im admittedly very nervous about fkjd

Ever fucked in the shower? Nope

How old were you when you lost your virginity? Uh............ good question. 19 or 20 i forget if it was before my birthday but within the last year. unless you only count penetrative sex, then I haven’t yet

Do you prefer sex in the morning, afternoon, or night? Y..yes? I suppose afternoon/night is usually a better time, morning is jsut sleepy and trying to remember how to exist hours

Do you like drunk sex? Haven’t had it but I do get horny when I drink, wouldn’t be against trying it with someone I trust

Do you like high sex?  Again never had it! And I haven’t really been high either so Idk

FuckMarryKill: Nicki Minaj; Cardi B; Kash Doll N..none for any

When was your first kiss? I was like 13 I think

How did you meet the person you lost your virginity to? College

Have you ever faked an orgasm? Nope. Wait maybe. Kind of. Idk when I was younger I was with this guy who would try get me to touch myself n I hadn’t figured out how to make it feel good so I’d just lie and say I was when i wasnt bc i didnt wanna do it so maybe at some point i said i came when i hadnt sdfhks

Ever painted/been painted on? Yeah but not in like a horny way, my ex would paint on my hand as kinda their way of flirting with me

You like sex toys? Sure

What’s your favorite sex position? Personally think missionary is underrated bc that closeness and being able to cling just sounds v good but also getting fucked from behind face down ass up also sounds,, v good lately

Sex on a bed, couch, or floor? beddd, maybe couch, floor just seems uncomfortable

Do you like car sex? Never had it, just seems a bit awkward but I guess I’d be open to trying it

You get instantly horny; what happened? My neck got bit!

FuckMarryKill: Trey Songz, Chris Brown, August Alsina. Kill chris brown. idk who the others are

Describe your crush. Don’t have one!

Woukd you ever be with someone with an incurable STD? Uh... Idk? I mean, theres preventative measures for basically all std’s right? So as long as those are taken so i dont also get it I guess it’d be ok

Rate your head game. No clue dkfhdsj

Rate your sex. Awkward!

Would you fuck someone outside of your race? ?? yes. what kind of question is this

Describe the type of freak you are. idk what this means but what first came to mind was ‘pet’ so take that as u will

Ever tasted your own nut/cum? Sure

Into golden showers? Nope

Body count: Under or Over 25? Wayyy under

How do you feel about nipple play? Uh depends! Not into being harsh like clamps etc just seems like itd hurt n not in a good way, but playing w/ them w ur hands and sucking on them. very good

Where do you like to be nutted on? chest/stomach seems good

Which are you better at: topping or bottoming? bottoming

What do you consider “too small?” Idk man dick is dick idc

Is play fighting foreplay? It sure can be!

Do you like angry sex? In concept maybe, in reality itd just kinda scare me

How long should a quickie be? Idk.. quick

How long is “too long” to have sex? Idk sex ends whenever one of u wants to stop, don’t think u can go too long if ur both comfortable with it

How long is “too long” to go without sex? Listen i.. am not the person to be asking this I’ve had sex maybe 3 times spread out over almost a year. i have never regularly had sex

Is “no” relevant in a relationship? Incredibly relevant!! Always!! Unless you’ve discussed beforehand that its ok to ignore it and have a safeword in place instead!! and then that safeword is not to be ignored!!

Do you believe in no-strings-attached sex? Sure but idk if i could do it

Would you have sex in a public bathroom? mmmaybe....

Would you have sex in a changing room? mmmmmmmmaybe

Who was the last person you had sex with? My ex

Describe your type. Idk I have the weirdest type i think they have like nothing in common then theyll all turn around and be into the same stuff or something its v strange

Name 3 turn-ons. Biting, just making out sometimes tbh, skin contact in places usually covered by clothes or under clothes..

Name 3 turn-offs. Umm. i definitely have turn offs but whenever im asked my mind goes blank. I guess being overly rough, hair pulling im undecided on tbh, and oh i usually dont like having my ass smacked but idk if itd change if it were like.. in the middle of sex

Name something that would make you stop in the middle of sex. Bad pain or panicking or it seems like the other person is uncomfortable. or someones knocking on the door for some reason sdkfjs

Would you answer a phone call during sex? no omg

Would you ever pay for sex? Nah.

Would you accept money for sex? Uh. Maybe? Wouldnt ask for it tho

How do you typically feel after sex? Mostly affectionate and good, but w the last person i was with sometimes it seemed like they just wanted it over and done with so i would get kinda nervous and guilty over that,, idk

Do you like your body? Nah

Ever sent nudes? Yep

Have you ever cheated on someone? Yeah he was abusive

Have you ever been cheated on? Idk, maybe, wait i think the guy i cheated on tried saying he cheated on me too but idk if he was just trying to get back at me so

Would you have a threesome? If I trust the people sure

Would you have a foursome? Same as above

Would you take part in an orgy? Uhh idk maybe, same as above applies tho

Would you let’s train be ran on you? Again if I trust the people yeah sure

How often do you masturbate? Idk it really depends sometimes im really horny and its like daily maybe more than once a day and then sometimes i just dont for like. a while

Sex with the lights on or off? on.. how are u meant to see what ur doing otherwise sdjkhfs

Sex with music or tv in the background? Sure, idc really. Though i have a thing if its like.. kids stuff.........dont do that..........

Do you have a cousin you’d fuck if you weren’t related? wtf no

In your last relationships, rate the sex? Uhh... good? I mean, good at the time, though like i said sometimes felt a bit rushed, and that now makes sense and i have very mixed feelings on it but mostly guilt bc the person i was with has since said they werent really into it. so.

Do you sleep naked? Nah I at least have underwear on

How often do you go commando? Never

Are your nipples pierced? If not, would you get them pierced? Nope

Do you dive right into sex, or converse first? Uh, depends? Talking about it beforehand or even during can be good though. But i guess it doesnt have to be Right before it, it can be a bit in advance

After taking your clothes off, what’s the first move? Kiss.. touch,, etc,,

Do you make the first move? Um. w my ex i kinda had to bc as i said, i later found out they werent really into it. other than that i generally dont tho bc im very nervous abt all that, kinda especially after that discovery hdfbghf

Have you ever had sex with more than one person in a day? Nope

Do you like dryhumping ? Sure

Can you twerk or do a split on a dick? Probably not

Have you ever been recorded during sex? No but I’ve had a dream abt being recorded sucking someones dick it was weird

Do you watch porn during sex? W. who does that. how can u focus on that. why would u watch sex when ur having sex skdjfhsjdk

After fucking, do you try becoming friends with a one night stand? Never had a one night stand

What’s your kink? Praise! Marking! Collars!

Would you hook up with the same hook-up again? I don’t think i could have a hook up tbh so no

Ever made a relationship from a one night stand? nope

How romantic are you during sex? uh.. idk havent rly had chance to try being romantic during sex but soft sex sounds v good imo

Describe your sex in 5 words or less. in my experience so far? nervous and kinda awkward

[bannerswife]

A Well Deserved Holiday - Bucky x Reader

Title: A Well Deserved Holiday

Pairing: Bucky Barnes x Reader

Warnings: Well i wouldn't classify it smut but there is a make out session & language

Word Count: 2268

Requested by @headcannonqueen

a bucky  fic where the reader is a mermaid an only tony knows but she turns when she touches salt water. She bathes in salt water and refuses to eat seafood. She has water powers and sealife.  Tasha decides to make us all go on a trip to a beach in Hawaii and reader doesnt go in water. Until she goes in the sea late at night skinny dipping and bucky comes not knowing and he finds out shes a mermaid...

Authors Note: i’m so sorry its not exactly what you requested but i did try m best. Again sorry if bucky is out of character, as well as tony eek

You pulled yourself into the large bathtub that was currently filled with warm salt water, it was something you had to do on a daily, being a mermaid and all. If you didnt you would begin to get migraines and nauseated, really something you avoided at all costs. For your whole life you had been gifted the ability to not only grow a tail when in contact with water, but to be able to control the sea life and the water itself. You knew you were special the moment you hit puberty, things started changing within yourself (and not the normal way) and you had found yourself constantly being drawn in such a way to the beach. Completely mesmerized by it.

You soon found out from your mother that in fact your deceased father was a merman, at the time you simply laughed off the idea telling her that there was no such thing and that she was crazy, but little did you know as soon as you stepped back into the ocean the next day your legs weren't in fact legs anymore but a long beautiful f/c scaly tail. It really was something you could never explain how you exactly felt in that moment.

As you slowly and softly sunk into the relaxing bath you felt every single tense muscle in your body simply fade away, and the tight feeling in your legs relaxing as it became a long tail. You were thankful that Tony had specifically designed a bath just for you,  it had everything you needed to help with your ability. Tony was indeed the only one (aside your mother) that knew what you were. He was your lifelong best friend after all. There wasn't one secret the two of you kept from each other. He was your rock, and you were his.

So of course as soon as he heard of the recent passing of your mother he was quick to action to help you out and let you stay with him, and so that meant living in the Avengers Tower. You honestly thought it was ridiculous, you didn't deserve the right to live amongst all the heroes. You weren't really anyone special, but everyone loved you and kept you under their wing. Considering you one of their own.

“Y/n? You in here?” Tony asked, as he strided on into your bathroom where you were currently topless.

“TONY!” You yelped, quick to cover your bare chest hopeful that he didn't catch a glance of any of it.

“Woah! Sorry! I should’ve knocked, JARVIS, please remind me next time so i don't do that again,” Tony asked bashfully, as he rubbed his hand over his face, through his hair.

Your cheeks flustered a deep red, god that was something you were hoping would never happen again. Even if you had known Tony your whole life, it was just… weird.

“What is it, Tony?” You squeaked, your cheeks still red hot.  

“The team is having a meeting, so get your scaly ass out of the bath-”

“But im not apart of the team?” You asked confusingly, since when were you an avenger? You hadn't even been on one mission, let alone even know how to fight.

“Yes you are, now come on. Let’s go,”

You raised your eyebrows, your mouth forming a giant toothy grin. Quickly you pushed a button that drained the water from the bath and with your powers evaporated the water right off of your body, your tail now gone to form two human legs.

“So do you know why we’re having this meeting? Is it for a mission? Cause you know i can't fight, i literally have no skills or experience in fighting. I’m hopeless on my feet-” You rambled on, the adrenaline kicking in like the first day you were in the tower.

“I don't know, Nat wanted us all to meet up, didn't say why but must be important,” Tony simply shrugged and smiled upon your form, as the two of you made your way down the halls.

“Is Bucky going to be at the meeting?” You asked, you weren’t going to be apart of anything if he wasn’t.

You had been dating him for nearly 6 months and honestly you didn’t think you deserved a man like him. He was everything you would expect in a man, but more. But of course, you hadn’t told him what you were. It was something you were planning to do, but you always chickened out on the last second. You couldn’t handle the feeling of him maybe breaking up with you or not being able to handle such news. Him dating a mermaid? How would you react to such news?

But you knew the time was nearing to tell him. And that scared you.

“Yes, your little boyfriend will be there too, don't worry,” He chuckled.

The meeting wasn’t exactly what any one had expected coming from Natasha but everyone had very much agreed to her plans. Humming at the ideas that everyone was proposing, fantasizing what everyone would do.

“I think we’re in need of a holiday, somewhere we can completely relax and not have to stress at all.” She had firstly stated.

The conversation had begun on where exactly the team should go, there was talk about Australia, Fiji, Thailand and more, but everyone had finally settled on the idea of Hawaii.

You smiled widely at the idea of actually coming along to such a significant thing, this was a time where the avengers could finally relax and not have to stress about anything in the world. And a time for you and Bucky to be together. You were only lucky enough to had been invited.

“Alright i'll book flights and accommodations now, we’ll be leaving first thing tomorrow so everyone get packing.” Tony said before walking off out of sight.

“Are you excited?” You asked when you jumped to your boyfriend side, holding his hands in yours.

“Yeah, Natasha is right, I think it will be good for the team, but most importantly. Finally a time just for us,” he stated, with a soft smile as he pulled you close as you made your way back to your flat of the facility.

The second the two of you entered Bucky was all over you in a second. His mouth on yours, not too roughly but enough to make you know he had been craving this moment. Every time you had kissed Bucky it was always like the first, as though sparks shot through and around your body, it really was exhilarting.

Bucky pulled you in with a strong tug so the two of you had no space left between, You could feel the heat of his body radiating onto you. You brought your hands to his long hair and raked through it while he ran his hands up and down your back and over your waist, exploring every curve of your body.

In a second Bucky had pulled you into bridal style, walking you to the bed you both shared. As he walked you over you moved your kisses to his jawline, cupping his cheeks into your hands. You couldn't help but leave marks behind.

He softly placed you onto the bed, his body hovering on top of yours, looking deeply into your bright hungry e/c eyes.

Slowly he took of his clothes, You enjoying every single bit of his body he was currently unclothing. God he was fucking perfect everywhere.

You hooked your legs around his now fully unclothed body and pulled him closer to you, your lips latching onto his once again.

“Maybe we should start packing,” You huffed, placing your hand on his bare chest.

“Fuck packing, I want you,” Bucky said, you softly chuckling.

“Alright, babe,” And with that Bucky tugged the clothes off of your body.

...this wasn’t the first time you and Bucky had fucked but god damn it was always a new experience, just like his kisses. Sometimes it’d be fast and rough or slow and passionate, it always varied. Today was a little bit of both, and you loved it.

There had definitely been a lot of moaning and you didn’t really care if anyone in the whole bloody building could hear it. You both were enjoying this moment and wanted to live it out as long as you could.

You loved Bucky with everything you had and honestly you didn’t know why you doubted him if he found out what you were. He loved you. And you knew you could trust him with your life and trust.

-

When morning came the two of you had to shove whatever your hands lied upon in your draws and cupboard. You didn’t pack yesterday afternoon like instructed so you had only little time before Tony left without you both.

“I told you we should of started packing yesterday,” Bucky sarcastical commented chuckling, knowing full well that he would of never even finished before he went back to you on the bed.

“I’m sure you would’ve wayyyy rathered that,” you smirked before grabbing your suitcase and walking out of the door.

“Bye, bye house,” Bucky said before closing the door behind him, ready for the holidays.

-

On the flight to Hawaii you mostly slept trying to limit the amount of jet lag you will experience once landed. You snuggled close into Bucky craving the warmth he radiated, while he rested his head upon yours.

“Aren’t they just the cutest,” Tony commented, smirking at the sight of you two.

At first Tony was a bit hesitant at the announcement of the two of you dating but he knew that if you loved someone it was for all the right reasons. And as long as Bucky treated you with enough love and respect, tony would be fine.

“Indeed they are,” Thor replied, before he found a comfortable position to get some sleep himself.

Swiftly Tony got out his phone, snapping a quick photo of the two of you, his smirk still playing on his face.

-

Hawaii was just beautiful. From the way the tall green palm trees blew in the winds to the crash of the crystal blue waters you could hear from your room in the night. This was exactly the whole team and been needing, a time to finally relax and think about nothing but themselves. Not a worry in the world.

It was late at night, Bucky sleeping soundly next to you, snoring ever so slightly. You hadn’t had your daily swim yet, and these past previous days you had been sneaking off to the beach at night where you would be alone.

So quietly you got up from bed and opened the screen door and walked down the hill to the moonlit beach. You pulled your clothes off and jumped in, thankful to be back into the salted water once again.

You never get the chance to go out into the beach anymore as it was too risky to get caught, so to be out in the open water was amazing and thrilling.

It finally gave you the chance to conjure sea life to interact with, you met so many different types of animals here and had even made a friend with a dolphin, Squeaky, you called her. Thinking it suited with the sounds she always made.

As you jumped in, you called out to your dolphin friend, she was quick to your side practically jumping into you.

“Awah, I missed you too, girl,” you giggled.

You knew it was a bad idea to get attached to an animal as you had to leave it once you left to go back home, but honestly you could not have. It was such an amazing experience and you wanted to take every chance of finally doing something you rarely get to do.

You swam around and about for a couple of minutes until you jumped out of the water to a rock on shore.

You puffed, smiling upon the dolphins head that stuck out from the water. Squeaky called out to you, wanting you back into the water to play but you shook your head.

“I’m sorry but I can’t be out for too long, just in case-“

“Y/n?” You heard an all too familiar voice call out from behind, your heart practically leaping out of your chest.

“Oh shit,”

And this was the moment you had feared.

Bucky walked over to you, you could hear the crunch of the sand get closer and closer until it stopped.

“Wow,” He marveled, his eyes growing wide.

“When were you going to tell me you were a- a-“ he stuttered as he took upon your form, you couldn’t really tell what was going on in his head. But you could see the gears turning all too quickly in his head, trying to understand.

“A freak? Uh well, I had been tossing up about it for a while now but I guess I’d been afraid of how you would think of me,”

“I would never stop loving you because of who you are y/n. You’re not a freak, not even close, you’re- you’re beautiful,” He said as he walked upon the rock.

He took a close look at your new form, taking in the way your beach wavy hair fell from your shoulders covering your breasts, and your long f/c tail.

Your cheeks flushed a warm red, when did you ever deserve a man like this?

“I love you so much Bucky Barnes,”

“And i love you, y/n l/n,”

[cjostrander]

Linkin Park: One More Light

Hey guys, i am back now after some issues with work that resulted in me getting laid off. Unfortunate at best but it’ll give me some time to unwind and figure out how to capitalize on this new opportunity. I figured i would continue with the promo reviews like i said i would at the beginning of the month and intended it to be Rise Against’s new album; but due to the shocking passing of Chester Bennington i’m gonna try and do Linkin Park’s new album. It definitely puts a somber feeling towards this album considering the expected backlash the band got and the outbursts Chester gave in response. Looking at this album; it’s going to be very hard not to picture it as his farewell (suicide) note to anybody that was willing to listen. Let’s get it started and look at this album hopefully the way it was originally intended to be.

Nobody Can Save Me: Yeah, these song titles definitely have a grim to them when you factor Chester’s passing into the equation. Well let’s get this started. This album if you’ve been under a rock lately is a pop rock themed album; with a HEAVY emphasis on the pop side of things (ha like the song references alreadly lol). It begins with some cheerful vocal manipulations and a emotionally mellow synth drum loop. Chester enters with a rather soothing vocal delivery that reflects well on the somber nature of his lyrics. The vocals at first will take awhile to get into but after a few listens; you’ll get what he’s going for. There isn’t really a chorus on this song due to it’s slow churning pace and easy going atmosphere. This album is going to be one that i would suggest looking at as an album that is intended to relax to before bed. Basically look at it as an album that you listen to when you want a break from the complexity of Radiohead and intend for something more basic in flow. The highlight of this piece would probably be the lyrics and the humorous yet cheerful vocal manipulations/synths. As a live piece; im sure it would of been an intimate one to see and as long as it is placed at the right point in a set list i’m sure it would be acceptable by an audience. From what i saw on set lists; they only played like two or three songs max off of the album; so they were probably still working out how to weave it in so that the fans wouldn’t be taken off guard quite as much. Personally i think that they should of did a double album with the first half being something that was logical to follow the Hunting party’s metal sound and then have this as the second disc. Would of been a nice ying and yang concept that fans i’m sure would of taken a lot more smoothly. Picture Foo Fighters’s In Your Honor album as an example. It was a double album with the first disc being your expected rock tracks and the second one was a very risky acoustic album that i doubt wold of gotten much success had it been separate. That’s just my thought on what could of been with this work in order to avoid the shock factor most fans (including myself) had when first listening to it. 8/10

Good Goodbye (featuring Pusha T and Stormzy): This song isn’t a single but i know they had a music video put out in case you guys want to see it done. Chester starts off with a soft vocal melody similar to the start of the past song and then Mike begins to rap to a very pleasant degree. His verses fit in very smoothly with the low energy synths and the lyrics stick out as some of Shinoda’s classic style. Chester delivers the chorus and keeps it very simple as a bridge point between Shinoda and the guest rappers. I don’t know these guys really well but the decision to bring them in was an interesting one since they do a decent job in their role and don’t just have a token five second moment. They actually make a presence during a good second of the song. The first rapper is a lot better in my opinion but the second guy has more of a accent which makes the difference to me. This one continues the nature of the previous song in terms of mood and energy; and seeks to hopefully catch onto the listener’s attention as the album progresses. Not for the Hybrid Theory focused fan but still something that can get good attention from the pop focused audience it is intended for. 7.5/10

Talking to Myself (Single): This one will actually have a dark mark for the band since it’s music video was released a few hours before Chester’s death was announced. More lively key like synths and the actual presence of drums begin this album on a more energetic note than the past songs. Chester continues to utilize the same vocal style of the past two songs but with a little extra force than on them. The lyrics are heavily emphasized due to his casual speed and take a bit before the chorus enters. He definitely exerts more life into this one without losing the relaxing atmosphere than earlier than the album. As far as catchiness goes; it does begin to lack progressively as the song progressively. This one starts off pretty decent but never seems to hit that high point that you are expecting of it. 6/10

Battle Symphony: Vocal effects and a slow drum loop ease it way into the mix before synths take on a rough and dominating tone. it fades off before Chester enters in to deliver some straightforward lyrics. The catchy factor still lacks in terms of melody; but the lyrics will prove interesting to focus on for this track. It’s slowly recited and obtains a similar degree of emphasis like the last song did and will be well geared towards a fan of piano ballad pop music. Adele is probably the easiest comparison i can picture for you; but pop isn’t my strong suit admittedly. 6/10

Invisible: Guitars begin this one with a rather pleasing sense of tension before Mike enters to deliver some very emotionally driven vocals. His lyrics prove to be very strong and will captivate the listener’s attention rather quickly. Honestly the moment Mike starts singing you are hooked since it obtains a more energetic and catchy position than Chester has been able to by this point in the album. His clean style has certainly improved as well over the years and while i hated that he was spending more time on clean vocals than rapping (Living Things); he’s certainly improved with time. Hopefully he decides to keep the group running and even if its just him singing for awhile his mix of rap and clean vocals should have molded him well enough to take the lead till they figure out who is fit to be be Chester’s successor. I know there is no such thing in mind but who knows Blink 182 surprised us lately so this band can do the same thing as well. I would note this as one of the stronger songs on the album and one that deserves to be made a single if the band decides to continue promoting the album. 8/10

Heavy (Single featuring Kiiara):The second half of the album begins with what is easily the most recognized song of the album. It was the first one released to the fans and understandably is what sparked such a strong backlash. I would of went with Good Goodbye first since it was more energetic and not as slow driven as this one. Chester begins singing along with a key melody and tackles a newer and riskier style than before. It is very pop centric vocally and his lyrics manage to do a decent job of providing the focus that this song needs because the spacey synths definitely wouldnt do the job on their own. The guest vocalist makes a rather strong presence on the album and for being new to the scene; she manages to sound like a perfect fit into the pop world. If anything she sounds like she’s been doing it for awhile now and she is only 22 (a year younger than me; i’m getting old ha ha). It’s definitely a simple and quick number that brings forth a good deal of complexity out of its lyrics and takes a big risk for the band. It will test a seasoned fan’s patience; but if you enjoy a little pop then it will be a smooth fit for you.  8/10

Sorry for Now: We start off with some soft synths and drum loops before Shinoda enters with his softer and slower  style of clean vocals. It actually proves to be rather catchy and full of emotion just like the last song he was on here. The vocal effects and rough bass drops help to push the song along nicely and provides a bit of an awakening for Shinoda’s clean style. He always like near empty keyboards on his clean songs and they didn’t have what it took to bring out the life in his voice. This pop side actually accentuates it rather perfectly and could be a good format for him if he decides to continue with the pop sound on future albums if there are any. Chester’s solo moment on the song is rather lively and does well to provide this song with a little extra life before it ends. This would be a decent single choice and would be one that i could see standing a better chance of pulling off a smooth live performance. 8/10

Halfway Right: Chester begins with some low vocal melodies and and low synths. His lyrics prove to be rather interesting to ponder over and he manages to make his voice have an elegant sense of blissful beauty when left with just the keys supporting him. The chorus is low energy as you’ve likely come to expect by now but it works well for the flow of the song. It is a simple track but it starts to finally show Chester getting his pop style down smoothly for the album. Better late than never; but it will help ease you into the other songs better as you continue to listen to it with time. 8/10

One More Light: This title track begins with a very emotionally powered synth opening and key segment. It is soothing, soft, and beyond captivating in beauty. Chester enters with a soft and complex vocal tone. His lyrics match the beauty of the song and helps to establish it as a perfect closer if needed for the song. This would actually be a good pick to put as a single for the band to say farewell to him. This one actually is one of the highlights for the song and i really suggest listening to it because it will impact you greatly when you first listen to it. If anything this is what i would picture as his farewell track to his fans and his final goodbye to the world. 9/10

Sharp Edges: This finale song takes on a more pop rock tone and features acoustic guitars and lively drum beats beginning that emphasize a more cheerful and energetic delivery from Chester. Is a very upbeat song in comparison to the climatic nature of the previous song. The lyrics are rather well done and give the song a catchy melody for the listener to follow along to and would of made it a good pick to play live. It’s a quick number that will end the album on a rather pleasant note and help to provide a positive closure to Chester’s musical career. 8.5/10

Overall album rating: 7.7/10

Well a C+ isnt bad at all but it is definitely the lowest album rating for the band on my blog. It bumps Living Things to my second lowest with a ranking of 8.0. This is definitely an album that will be better appreciated do to the passing of Chester and its a shame that it took such a bad event to get this album a fresher outlook. I’m speaking more for myself but i can’t deny they really botched the release for this album due to how abruptly they revealed their new sound; especially since their prior album was heavy metal. There had to be a smooth transition and i honestly a double album approach would of gotten the album a high amount of praise and elevated the band’s creativity. It would of allowed them to then venture into more pop-centric territory with relative ease since the fans would of already seen it coming. That’s the gist of the album and hopefully you guys appreciate this review and decide to give it second chance. I won’t lie and say it will be anywhere near their best work just different and misunderstood. Luckily i still have two albums with Chester on it (Meteora and A Thousand Suns) to get to; so my blog hasn’t closed its doors on Chester just yet. I actually wanted to do A Thousand Suns before this but with Chester’s passing; i felt it was more urgent to promote this album instead. With my abundance of time now; im going to try and pop out a few extra promo reviews for albums that i think could use the extra buzz. In This Moment and Stone Sour are up there on my list and YES Rise Against is as well. Enjoy your day everyone and i shall see you sooner than later.