#im pretty sure like aside from my cluster of OG friends a lot of the ppl i interact me strongly dislike me anyways so like

[minglermail]

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under a readmore cause kinda long sorry!! 

i don’t think im worthy of human interaction so please don’t take it personally tht i pretty much cut everyone off on discord / etc its not really you its me im not angry at any one sorry if i made you nervous and feel that way!! :^(

ill still post art on here if i ever get out of my art block but i am not worthy of one on one interaction with other people. dont feel like scared to reblog/interact with my posts cause i dont hve any hard feelings towards anyone i just dont think its good for me to be talking with human beings on the regular / having a direct line of communication at all

im also hving some really bad trust problems right now and i dont want to take out my paranoia on people who dont deserve it, so for other people’s wellbeing i think i should just stay away from every one

i hvent seen my psychologist in weeks ill maybe talk to her about it ive just let paranoia and self doubt and stress consume me to the point tht talking to people would just not be a good idea? i have no idea whats going on im not sure if im having a mental crisis or not but either way i’d just rather ppl not have to deal with me at least not until im less of a mess ;; 

again sorry if anyone got worried i just think its for the best that i live my life alone at least right now i have too many problems i dont want to bog others down

i love you all thank you for being so fun and sweet im always going to cherish the fun moments i had talking with you <3 <3 <3