#im on T and im mostly using he/him pronouns but fuck yall i lived as a butch woman for my 25 of my 27 years

[blangyouredead]

i slam my hands on the metaphorical desk in front of me and point at myself and annoying fucking label discourse

LISTEN

lesbians and queer women taught me how to love women

gay and queer men taught me how to love men

lesbians and queer women taught me how to be masculine

gay and queer men taught me how to love the elements of my femininity that remain from my childhood despite being two and a half years into transitioning

nothing about the way i love people is straight or heteronormative because the way i've learned how to love people, myself, and my identity is through queer people and that will never change no matter who is perceiving me or my relationships, romantic or otherwise

to some i look like a guy, to others a butch woman, and you know what? both of those are in me, and im exhausted from trying to separate the two, because both of these life experiences have informed the way i live in this world, and neither is 100% right.

queer is the only word that i want to use for myself because it's the only one that is 100% right