#im not ready to reply to dms just yet

[norrisainz33]

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☆ summary: internet sleuths find out that lando norris has been flirting with and potentially dating a relatively unknown singer

☆ pairing: lando norris x singer!reader

☆ fc & warnings: zinadelphia & slightly suggestive. you are responsible for the content you consume

☆ requested: nope!

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f1gossip: it’s been brought to our attention by an anonymous user that our lando norris has been caught seemingly flirting in the comment sections (for at least the past 24 weeks based off the time stamps) with a small american artist, y/n y/l/n. he’s the only driver that follows her and has been consistently in her comment section hyping her up and calling her things like “gorgeous”, “talented” and “pretty.” what do you all make of this?

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user1: oh my god lando????

user14: i’ve never once heard of this girl?

user2: how did we not know about this for the past 24 weeks guys wtf

user4: no like seriously…. seems like something we should have known already

user3: wait her music is really good tho 🥹

user7: her song mirrorball??? the girl has some vocals wow

user4: just looked her up and she’s beautiful… i see what he’s seeing

yourbff: screaming my head off at this

user1: and who are you??? do you know y/n??

f1gossip: check your dms yourbff

user5: she’s using him for fame!

user4: considering we all just found out about her…. imma go ahead and say no she’s not

user6: now how do i make this about me 🙂‍↔️

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user1: ooooo orange or papaya ???

yourbff: girl you fueling the flames with this post 😂💀

ynuser: HAHA i know… i got 24k new followers in the past 2 days since you sent me that post by f1gossip and figured id have some fun with it since there’s no hiding now

yourbff: who knew meeting that guy randomly in europe 6 months ago was going to turn out like this

ynuser: certainly not me girl. remember when i thought he was some weirdo who was just trying to hit on me in the bar??

yourbff: bc he had no rizz but max and p really swooped in and saved him and now look at you 🥹

ynuser: my perfect little no rizz baby boy 🥹 love of my life 🤭

landonorris: it’s papaya baby

ynuser: i couldn’t be too obvious now could i?

landonorris: nah go on then be obvious

ynuser: oh you want me to post you?

landonorris: yeah specifically that one pic you took of us in the mirror last night

ynuser: LANDO that is for OUR eyes only

landonorris: right yes

landonorris: i still think you should post me

ynuser: i don’t know if i want to burst our little bubble yet

landonorris: fair enough baby. you just tell me when! i’ve got paddock passes, pictures, plane tickets — everything lined up for when you’re ready

ynuser: 🥹😭 vegas? we go on our little vacation after im done my tour and you’re done in brazil and then pop the bubble?

landonorris: sounds great to me gorgeous but seriously no pressure

user2: my delusions are working over time

maxfewtrell: i’m trying so hard to defend your privacy and this is what you post

ynuser: what’s wrong with the color orange?

maxfewtrell: y/n

user3: ain’t ever seen you and lando in the same room but i somehow know yall doing it

user4: you’re so pretty and your outfits eat so hard wtf 😭

user9: praying this is a new song lyric idk who these new fans are talking about lando this lando that …. i need a new song

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ynuser: baby’s first headlining tour was a success! thank you to everyone who came out and sang along with me every night. i love you all dearly 🤍 and for all the newbies here, welcome 🫶🏻

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user1: oh she’s so cute

user2: starting a y/n fan club rn yall

yourbff: you are making those dreams come true bb girl

ynuser: trying to 🥹

yoursibling: cutie patootie i love you

ynuser: i love you more

user23: the peoples most beautiful princess 🤍

user9: who are all you new people here

user2: lando norris fans. who are you?

user9: a y/n y/l/n fan. who is lando norris?

user2: a formula 1 driver!

user9: race cars?? i did not expect that…

user8: taking note of lando and max in the likes

user4: also taking note of their lack of a comment…. lando has commented on every single one of her posts before the f1gossip post dropped

user16: i was there last night!!! best show ever!!! love you y/n

user19: i’m obsessed with those cherry earrings

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landonorris: a much needed break. vegas here we come baby

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user1: i don’t know where to look ,, at the wh*re in the first pic or the soft launch in the second my god 😮‍💨😍😭😔💀

user9: ok user2… i get it now. also i’ve seen those white shoes in y/n’s posts before it’s def her

user2: omg you’re an icon for this

ynuser: dmn y’all really can identify me by my shoes?

user9: YN WHAT ARE YOU SOING HERE IM SORRY

user2: y/nlando confirmed

maxfewtrell: interesting choice of photos mate

landonorris: thanks! picked them myself

maxfewtrell: yeah clearly

pietra.pilao: 🤍

landonorris: 🧡

user2: i’m speechless

user55: hey lando idk if u heard but there’s a lookalike contest happening in my room tonight. $59 cash prize

oscarpiastri: those aren’t max’s legs 👀

landonorris: you’d be correct

user12: this is monumental

user18: my favorite sinister, evil and orange little gremlin

user14: you’re gonna cook in vegas king

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yourbff: this dress is eating in a way i didn’t think it would. i’m sorry for doubting you

ynuser: never doubt me 😤

lilyzneimer: had so much fun meeting you at dinner this evening!!! looking forward to spending the weekend with you at mclaren 🫶🏻

ynuser: omg it was so fun getting dinner with you and oscar!! i’m so so so glad to have you as a buddy in the paddock. i was super nervous about it all

lilyzneimer: it can be very overwhelming at times but we’ve got you y/n!!

ynuser: that means so much to me 🥹

user9: mother is mothering … in vegas?????

user12: are you in vegas per chance?! for the formula 1 grand prix?! for lando norris?!

user2: i fr need style tips and grwm’s from you y/n. every time you post an outfit it moves me

landonorris: in my hotel room 😈

ynuser: you got it ☝🏻 now hurry up and get back here

landonorris: trust me im hurrying

user8: i need someone to get you on a magazine cover stat

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f1gossip: confirmed! y/n y/l/n, singer songwriter, is in las vegas with lando norris for the las vegas gp. this seems to be their first official weekend out together

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user2: as someone who has been deeply invested since the beginning (3 weeks ago).. this is everything

user9: my girl 🥹

user10: i truly wonder how in the world they even met… they’re such an interesting pair

user18: mclaren admin please ask him this weekend

user13: that should be me 😭

user24: ok wait guys im at the gp and y/n was walking through the paddock with lily and we waved her down because we had made some lando merch and she was honestly so sweet and stopped and took photos with us and chatted for way longer than she needed to. i truly hope she never changes she’s an angel

user21: this is so wholesome

user23: i fear she’s on track to become the people’s paddock princess in record time

user18: i have no one to send this to who will get it

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mclaren: this weekends most requested interview just dropped! make sure to check out the full thing over on the mclaren app 🟠

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user18: mclaren admin is a y/nlando girly confirmed

maxfewtrell: he’s leaving out the bit where i had to save him from completely bombing

landonorris: 😔 you’re not gonna let me live that down huh

ynuser: idk what would have happened if max didn’t come over and stop you from explaining why you hate fish so passionately

landonorris: babe please not on the public instagram

user2: lando norizz strikes again

landonorris: love when i get asked good questions like this!

user4: king said if one more person asks me abt wdc im gonna lose it. ask me abt y/n instead

user9: this is making it incredibly hard to gatekeep y/n

ynuser: that’s my man 🙂‍↔️

landonorris: damn right it is

user13: the mutual do you know who i am is lowkey so funny

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landonorris: thanks for being nice to me this time vegas!! oh and thanks for coming y/n 😈🏆

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user12: i’m so proud of you lando

user9: wahooooo first race i watched and you won. i think me and y/n are good luck for you

mclaren: incredible drive lando! that’s our winner!!

ynuser: something about seeing you on that podium 😮‍💨

landonorris: oh you like that?

ynuser: yes 🤭

landonorris: alright podium finishes only from now on 😏

user19: oh you two are freaks i just know it

ln4: LFGGGGG

user13: congrats on the win and the hot gf 😭

carlossainz55: congrats lando!! and hi y/n!

ynuser: hi carlos 🤍

maxfewtrell: much better post mate

landonorris: why thank you. i worked hard on this one

user2: a win and a hard launch = double win for me

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a/n: thanks for reading!! likes and reblogs appreciated 🫶🏻

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[jadeoru]

SMUDGED LIPSTICK!

O2: chivalry -> prev / mlist / next

now playing: decode - paramore 🎶

Sakusa watched her perform on that stage, surrounded by lighting that hit her in an almost angelic way; illuminating her features. She danced around like she's lived in the spotlight her whole life. And he knows she didn’t. He recognised her upon the first glance. One brief look, and he knew exactly who she was. It would take a million lifetimes before he could forget her face. He tried to deny it at first, but its impossible. Standing on that stage, singing her heart out to a punk rock melody, was the girl he used to call his best friend. The girl he ruined everything with.

He hadn’t even noticed his jaw clenching until his teeth began to hurt. His head was spinning; overwhelmed with emotions that he couldn’t even name. Relief? Sadness? Regret? Grief? Honestly, his mind was a disgusting mixture of all of the above. If he'd known that she would be here, that he’d see her again for the first time in almost 4 years, a part of him would’ve wanted to stay at home and to never leave again. But, strangely, the other part of him would’ve left at the mere mention of her name alone. It's pathetic, he thinks. He constantly prayed for moments like these, where he’d see her again: A second chance to make everything better again. Now that he has it, he doesn’t know how to process it.

It’s all so unsightly. So messy. Everything is sticky: the floors, the tables, even his hair is clinging to his forehead with sweat. It’s evident that no one in the crowd has seen a shower in their lives; he can practically see the clouds of b.o that float around him. It’s everything he hates in one place; his head hurts and a part of him wants to go home, a part of him isn’t ready to see her again. But his feet are taking him forwards, his feet are forcing him through the crowd to get as close as possible. Closer to her.

Sakusa selfishly hopes that somewhere out there, there's a universe where he didn't say those words to her; a universe where he didnt ruin everything. a universe where they were still best friends. And if that exists,

maybe there's a universe where they could’ve been more than that.

His thoughts were rudely cut short when the music stopped. Then, among the drunken banter and the crowd chattering amongst themselves, he heard her voice.

“Thank you so much to everyone who showed up tonight! We hope you enjoyed the show because we certainly fucking did. You guys were without a doubt one of the best crowds we’ve ever had!” She spoke earnestly, yet exhaustedly, but overall she sounded just so happy to be up there. He admired that; how humble she was. Her voice was sweet like honey, just like it was the last time he heard it. Despite the shouting, the shakiness of her words as she struggled to hold her tears back, her voice was always so sweet to him. As he cleared his head from the memories of her, she left too. The band had finished their performance, and most of them had exited the stage. Except for their lanky drummer, and their bassist, who were helping the staff carry their equipment. As he searched the area for any trace of her, he finally noticed the obnoxious buzzing of his phone. Shit.

extra!

sorry this ones kinda short :-[

im gonna try have the next part posted within the next few hours to make up for it !

okay fact time

sakusa never opens up to his friends

he just doesnt want to like he genuinely doesnt bother cuz he knows they wont help him

they give terrible advice

nishinoya accidentally launched his guitar pick halfway through the set so he had to play the rest of the song with his fingers strumming

which fucking HURT

non au related but fun fact!! antigun was the name of the band im in before we changed it!!

TAGLIST: @gojoed @anianurst @sleepy-writer84 @itsdragonius @yuminako @wolffmaiden @tenjikusstuff4 @juie13 @ilyless @petrus1989 @aria-in-wonderland @arachnoia @sugarrhiccupp

dm me, reply to this, or send me an ask to be added to the taglist ^__^

[prylc]

DUCKKKK

More serious notes on where I've been under the cut

So yes

I've been gone and kinda here and there for quite some time

I've just been working on myself and actually creating a life that's busy yet, I love a lot

While I do have commitments for Art raffles and other stuff. I do wanna say that I'll do them when I do them. Since at the end of the day, it is free art. But I will be prioritising art prizes ofc. And I realised im not exactly ready to commit or grow on social media for the time being too, as much as I'd like to. (it's hard to force myself to draw when I don't want to) So, as I've said before I'll jus be in and out. But feel free to chat with me in dms for mutuals ^^. I might jus take a longer time to reply. Same with tag games (tho I do wanna do them eventually LOL)

No idea how many times I've said this over and over again. But this will be the last since i just wanna clear up some stuff and get it out of my mind.

I'll still be posting art here and there that I've kinda accumulated since it didn't feel right to post art without completing prev art stuff at the time. But I've already addressed that above.

Other than that...

Thanks so much for your support and I love yall ❤️

[bunny-banana]

Hey, sorry to be random but what did Gregor do? I am a bit out of the loop it seems

hey bestieeeeee, sit back and enjoy the ride

Okay, I assume you know about the classics like the whole inapproriate suicide jokes about Finland thing, and the whole Ukraine war is a "war of two people" thing and that time he told someone to stop being greedy on ig.

But what I'm referencing tonight is his latest story from their gig. The caption said smth like "are any girls ready to rock tonight?" Many people found that 1) bit odd because that implies the entire JO fanbase is made up from underaged girls. like sir, I'm older than half this band wym "girls". and more importantly 2) its uncomfortable that he's singling out "girls" specifically. He could have said "is everyone ready to rock" but he didn't. its girls, specifically.

What I also found out today is that he apparently he texted some fans back in May his location for an upcoming JO gig and how the boys might be there too. The thing is, most of these things are minor mishaps if at all. Yes, the suicide joke was undoubtedly inappropriate, and that one time he told fans on IG to not be greedy was also rude. But all things considered, its nothing really huge yet. But there's just an uncomfortable atmosphere in the room nevertheless. He's becoming way too chummy with fans, way too involved with them through DM's which in itself is becoming.....odd. The whole "i'll text you our location thing" is also just strange, because what would the potential circumstances be? you arrive at some location, with him alone. the boys MIGHT be there (but also they might NOT be. and if theyre not, what will you do????) And the story from today à "are any girls here ready to party?".... y'know "girls" implies younger fans, who in turn are also more impressionable and manipulable. Maybe some 17 year old would have replied with "yes!! im right here!!" And on another note, as the band's PR manager, I just dont think you should say all that shit on your public profile. You're a public person, this isn't your private IG account where you can have all sorts of banter with ur mates. Saying some insensitive shit and/or fucking things up with the fans will also reflect badly on the lads even if they aren't the ones at fault.

in summary: even if he genuinely only has good intentions in mind is almost irrelevant because it just comes off as sketchy and creepy.

[sobirp]

i made a whole new blog just to post this, bear with me

i'm looking for 1x1 rp partners for discord !! i exclusivly play male character and i can do mxm or mxf! i put general info + a few face claim cravings under the cut!! i'm very open to other faces tho. Send me a dm or like this post and I'll message you!!!

>> full face claim list << >> full plot ideas list <<

"We've been playing this online game together for months and I guess we're kinda online dating now but... I'm a catfish, so..."

(Same as the one before, but inspired by the episode "Striking viper" from Black Mirror where the game is a realistic VR where you use all your senses)

"Why am I in this prison? I just did [really minor crime] and everyone else are pure evil. I know you're a grumpy, lone wolf, but can you protect me?"

(Same as above but guard x inmate)

"I just switched bodies with my sworn enemy, how the fuck is that even possible and how do we switch back?

"I know you have a reputation to uphold as a celebrity/royal, but it hurts that we can't be together in public because you're not ready to come out yet"

"of all the people i could get stranded with on a deserted island, why did it end up being you? we're so different."

GENERAL INFO

only 21+ as I'm 25+!

I'm GMT+2, but time zone isn't a problem for me!

I love comms/sms/text/chat (whatever you want to call it) rp's but I do love threading/main rp too ofc !

I usually lean towards shorter replies (half-ish paragraph), but if I'm vibing I can write 3-4 paragraphs.

I'm ok with NSFW, but it does not have to be a huge part of the plot

At this moment, I only play male characters (or nb if you have any suggestions!!). I can do either mxm or mxf!!

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CRAVINGS (the bold ones are the ones i crave the most)

TO PLAY: boun nappanut / bright vachirawit / choi yeonjun / john krasinski / jake sim / jung hoseok (j-hope) / kim mingyu / min yoongi (suga) / tom holland / xiao dejuna (xiaojun)

TO PLAY AGAINST:

m: boun nappanut / choi yeonjun / han jisung / kim mingyu / lucas wong / omar rudberg / xiao dejuna (xiaojun)

f: alycia debnam carey / bae joohyun / dove cameron / huening bahiyyih / im nayeon / jang wonyoung / jenna ortega / kiernan shipka / kim jisoo / rebbeca marie gomez (becky g) / sabrina carpenter

[aiwaysmoody]

fake it // mason mount

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fluff, angst

you could basically say you and mason mount were work colleagues. he plays for chelsea and your head of media at chelsea. after there had been rumours going around that he had made a snarky comment about you, as much as you wanted to call him out for it you decided you were better off avoiding him, however, mason had other ideas.

‘y/n, please my family really want me to bring a plus one and your my only option’ mason begged as he stood on the opposite side of the counter

‘no, im not being your fake girlfriend’ you dryly reply

‘ill do anything please just come, its a free holiday to italy and ill even pay for all your food there too’ mason bribes you, earning a look from you

‘free food?’ you ask as mason nods. you could never say no to free Italian food, so you gave in, earning a big hug from mason which took you by surprise. you've always hated physical touch so you awkwardly patted his back before he finally pulled away and thanked you multiple times. you eventually got him to leave and send you all the information about the flight.

your currently awfully close to mason, as your in security. you can smell his strong, footballer like aftershave which was really started to make you dizzy since it was so strong. you finally got passed security and took a seat as you waited for your flight to be called. you could feel the awkward tension between you and mason, however, it started to fade as mason would occasionally show you a funny tik tok, making you both laugh. finally, your flight was called and you were getting ready to go on the plane as you felt your phone vibrate in your pocket multiple times. mason looks down at you and frowns before you quickly silence it.

‘you should check that out’ mason chuckles and looks away causing you to scrunch your eyebrows. you listen to him and open up your phone and go on instagram to see multiple articles and dms all along the lines of:

the sun

former chelsea and england star has been caught by paparazzi this morning walking into the airport with a girl. multiple people have identified this mystery girl as y/n y/l/n, who some say also works at chelsea. the england and chelsea star has also been caught liking y/n y/l/n instagram posts recently, causing people to jump into conclusion. is mason mount and y/n y/l/n together?

neither mason mount or y/n y/l/n are yet to speak up about the situation and have ignored any sort of questions when asked over social media. do you think there together, or is this all a misunderstanding?

your jaw slowly hits the ground as you read one of the articles. you scroll through multiple of your dms too, some congratulating you and others saying horrible things and calling you names. your so engrossed in all these messages and articles that you didnt realise you were meant to be getting on the plane. mason clears his throat causing you to look at him. he gives you a small, sympathetic smile before nodding his head towards the plane, implying that we should be getting on. mason left the window seat for you so you take a seat and get prepared for take off. you rest your head on the window as you feel a cold hand on your thigh. you look at mason and he smiles, earning a smile from you back.

‘dont worry about it’ mason says as he runs his thumb back and forth on your thigh giving you goosebumps even though you usually dont like when people touch you

‘im not worrying about it’ you quickly reply as mason laughs at your confidence

‘by the way your chewing your lip and your eyebrows are slightly raised, im sure you are’ mason says, causing you to look away in embarrassment. although it did make you feel a wee bit giddy that he was paying attention to your features.

‘by the way your leg is bouncing non-stop and you keep biting your nails, your worrying about it too’ you reply. now it was masons turn to look away in embarrassment, causing you to laugh. 

your not one to usually fall asleep on flights, but somehow you did. you were woken up to mason gently shaking you. still half asleep, you get off the plane, however, you did nearly fall down the stairs as you got off, earning a laugh from mason. you and mason got your suitcases before getting in the uber. mason explained to you that we would be there for a week and the wedding is in 2 days, so the first day we will hang around with his family and then after the wedding we are free to do whatever we want. after you and mason chatted some more, you finally arrive at the hotel.

you were stunned. the hotel was luxurious and absolutely gorgeous. but you couldn't help but feel a wee bit of sympathy at how much money mason has spent on this hotel for not just him but you. yous walk over to the receptionist and get your key card before going up to try find your room. after the 2 hour and 30 minute flight you were pretty exhausted, even though you did sleep most the way through it, so you just wanted to change into more comfortable clothes and jump into bed. 

you walk into your hotel room and you can't help but feel mesmerised by it all. the large windows which show a beautiful view of italy that are slightly covered by the translucent curtains and the beaming lights which hang above the bed. however, your day dream soon came to a stop as your eyes landed on the one bed.

‘there's one bed’ mason mumbles but loud enough for you to hear

‘no shit’ you reply as you quickly jump on the bed landing on your stomach

‘ill take the couch’ mason says

‘no honestly its fine, ill take the couch’ you insist

‘y/n, I know your tired just take the bed’ mason says as he places both yours and his suitcases in the corner of the room next to the windows you were day dreaming about a couple minutes ago

‘no’ you dryly reply

‘guess we’ll both take the bed then’ mason says as he chuckles. as much as you wanted to insist on someone taking the little white sofa which is placed at the end of the bed, you were too tired too. so you just quickly got up and walked into the bathroom to have a shower as mason stayed sitting on the bed on his phone. however, you were in such a rush to shower and get into bed that you forgot to grab some pjs from your suitcase. you mentally curse at yourself as you unlock the bathroom door, earning an eyebrow raise from mason which you choose to ignore. you rapidly go up to your suitcase and pull out the first pair of pjs you can find, as you are aware the towel your wearing is extremely short and as your crouching it has lifted up a wee bit. but, to your luck you got the most revealing pjs you brought. it kept you covered up, but you knew from past experiences that it tends to roll up in your sleep a lot, especially the top. however, you had no choice so you just put it on and left the bathroom. you got into bed as mason got up to shower.

‘dont snore please’ mason says with a laugh as he walks into the bathroom

‘I dont snore’ you reply as you hear mason laugh in the bathroom. as soon as your head hit the pillow, you fell asleep straight away.

you wake up the next day to your back pressed up against masons chest. you two were so close you could feel his chest rise up and down as he lightly snored. as you had guessed, your silk pj top had slid up revealing your lower stomach, however, mason had swiveled his arm around your bare waist over night, keeping your stomach warm. you stay lying down a couple minutes as you adjust to the light and try to wake up. you soon feel mason squirm under you as he wakes up too.

‘morning’ mason says in a raspy voice sending chill down your spine

‘morning’ you reply as you smile at him. as soon as mason looks down he immediately notices his arm around your waist. he doesn't hesitate to remove it rapidly, causing you to scrunch your eyebrows. was he uncomfortable? you got out of bed before you could have anymore of those thoughts and went to the bathroom to get ready. mason said we were just spending the day with his family and going on a walk to explore the city of rome where we would then go out for dinner. you hadn't really thought about it much, but it only hit you now when you arrived at the located area masons family had planned to meet that you were actually going to meet masons family and act like masons fake girlifriend. you didnt know if you already regretted agreeing to this but there was no going back now.

mason gets out the car and quickly walks over to your side to open the door for you. his family watch in awe as you hold each others hands and walk up to them. you couldn't help but feel something in the pit of your stomach even if it was all fake. you were nervous. however, all those nerves quickly went away as masons family nicely greet you.

‘oh my god, hello y/n! its so nice to meet you, im debbie!’ debbie, masons mum, sweetly greets you as she engulfs you in her arms. you greet her back before greeting everyone else

‘im jaz, so nice to finally meet you!’ jaz, masons sister, kindly says as she also hugs you. after all the ‘hellos’ you started your walk around rome. you weren't nervous, however, as soon as you realised you and mason hadn't planned a believable story about your love life together, you cursed at yourself under your breathe and mentally slapped yourself.

‘so how did you love birds meet’ jaz asks as she looks at you. you quickly look at mason with wide eyes before looking back at jaz

‘well I work as head of media at chelsea, so we just started getting closer as we saw eachother everyday’ you say as you try sounding believable. although, it wasnt exactly a lie as you did meet mason because you were head of media

‘so your work colleagues, thats lovely!’ debbie says as she smiles and claps her hands together earning a laugh from everyone

‘how long have you been together?’ masons dad, who introduced himself as tony asks as he gives you a dead serious face. you couldn't lie, you were wee bit intimidated by him so you gently pinch masons thumb, implying that its his turn to answer a question

‘erm, um about 4-5 months’ mason stutters, making him sound so inconvincible earning an eyebrow raise from his dad

‘you kept this beautiful lady from us for 4-5 months mason, your a joke’ jaz says as she attempts to get summer to slap mason, making everyone laugh. your walk soon comes to an end as you all walk over to a restaurant to have dinner. you all order and ate, chatting the whole night. although, you weren't really listening to what everyone was saying as you were only paying attention to the way mason was stroking his foot up and down your bare legs. everyone orders dessert, however you dont as your not so hungry. you have summer in your arms as you and mason make funny faces at her making her laugh

‘so when are you two gonna have kids, I want more grand babies!’ debbie says out of the blue, making everyone laugh and mason hide his face in embarrassment

‘mum stop’ mason quickly replies before lifting his head out of his hands, revealing a very red mason

‘oh come on mason, stop being embarrassed you've definitely thought about it before’ debbie replies, earning another erupt of laughter through out the table

‘its too early’ mason says before turning around so he's facing summer again, but he can't help but look down at you as summer grabs the top of your v-cut top, giving mason a perfect look, however, he quickly looks away

‘its never too early’ masons brother, lewis, joins in as he winks at both you and mason making you both go red. the conversation goes on for abit longer before it goes away. when masons dessert arrives, you can't help but ask for abit as it looked so good, earning a laugh from mason. soon, its time to leave.

‘you know you guys can kiss infront of us right’ lewis says

‘I know mate’ mason quickly replies before we all say our goodbyes and leave

when yous arrive at the hotel, you shower and get into bed before wishing mason a goodnight. just like a repeat of yesterday, since you were so exhausted as soon as your head hit the pillow you fell asleep.

you wake up the next day to a cold bed. you turn around to see an empty bed. you sit up and rub your eyes as you gradually adjust to the sun shining through the window. you hear the bathroom lock unlock as a dressed up mason walks out

‘you have 15 minutes to get ready for the wedding, hurry up’ he says as you look at him, your eyes wide open. you were so tired you had completely forgotten about the wedding

‘fuck, why didnt you wake me up you prick’ you say as you quickly run into the bathroom to get ready. mason just laughs as you start doing your hair and makeup as you had no time to shower anymore. you walk towards your suitcase to quickly find your outfit

‘30 seconds’ mason says as you run back into the bathroom

‘shut up!’ you scream back before getting changed and leaving to go to the venue

the venue was absolutely gorgeous. you take your seats and wait a couple minutes for the wedding to start. as they start your speeches, you can't help but let a few tears slip out at how cute it all was

‘are you crying?’ mason asks as he quietly laughs

‘no’ you reply as mason pulls you into his chest where you quickly wipe your tears. soon, the wedding comes to a finish and its time for the after wedding party. you danced and laughed with mason and you even got to meet his grandparents

‘your so beautiful sweetheart’ she says as she pulls you for a hug

‘aw thank you!’ you reply as you hug her back as mason just watches in awe

‘you two are so cute together’ she says as mason wraps his arm around your back and kisses your forehead, making you blush. soon enough, the party comes to an end, however, yours and masons night wasnt. you both ended up going to this club you found on the way home as you were still both sober. you have been in there for 5 minutes and you had already lost mason, however, this group of girls asked you if you wanted to do shots with them, so you accepted. they all headed to the dance floor but you ended up staying at the bar for one more drink. as you were waiting for the bartender to make your drink, an old man in his mid 50s sat in the seat next to you. you could basically taste the alcohol coming from him since he smelt so vile. 

‘you look lonely princess, want some company’ the man says as he leans in causing you to lean back

‘no’ you reply as you chuckle

‘come on, you know you want me’ he replies

‘no, fuck off’ you say

‘lets take this to a more private place’ the man says as he places his hand on your waist and lifts you off the chair, giving your ass a slap as he did so. you quickly push him back as he falls into a group of people, making everyone look over at what's happening

‘dont fucking touch me you scum’ you say as you quickly walk through the mosh pit of people as you try to find mason, however, he is no where to be seen. after looking for about 10 minutes, you finally find him in the corner of the club. although, you did not expect to find him with a leggy blondes tongue down his throat. is he being serious? did he not feel the tension between you both every time you're alone together? does he seriously not feel anything for you? your day dream is quickly stopped as you feel someone gently tap your shoulder causing you to turn around. the man looked around your age and you couldnt lie, he was attractive

‘are you okay, I saw what happened back there and I really dont think you should be in here’ the man says into your ear as it was difficult to hear over the loud music. you hadn't even realised you were crying. you just nod as you couldnt get your words out, however, the man stops as he looks behind you

‘she's fine with me lad’ mason says with a rough tone

‘calm down bro, I was just asking her if she wanted to leave for some fresh air’ the man replies

‘and I said she's fine with me lad’ mason says as the man walks off. mason grabs your arm as he pulls you out the club. as much as you wanted to scream at him and insist, you really just wanted to leave that environment

‘what the fuck is wrong with you y/n, what if he was a pedo?’ mason asks as he paces up and down. you just sit on a bench as you try to collect your breath

‘what's wrong with me mason? ive just seen another girls tongue down your throat whilst im meant to be your ‘girlfriend’? what if your family saw that?’ you reply as you raise your voice

‘its not like were actually together y/n, drop it’ mason replies as he laughs. you couldnt believe how unbelievable he was being

‘and how would you feel if you saw your ‘girlfriend’ do that?’ you ask as you stand up from the bench. angry was an understatement for how you were feeling

‘wouldn't really care’ mason dryly replies as he laughs once again, making you more aggravated 

‘yet you had a full on strop when a man offered me help’ you reply as now you laugh

‘face it y/n, he wasnt offering help he was probably tryna do stuff to you’ mason says as he gradually starts raising his voice again

‘oh my god mason, if you weren't fucking snogging a leggy blonde you would have noticed he was offering me help because a man was trying to touch me up’ you shout at mason. thank god it was late at night so no one was out on the streets to see this scene you and mason were causing

‘your so easy to manipulate y/n’ mason says as he shakes his head at you. you look at with as your eyes widen

‘what the fuck is wrong with you, your disgusting’ you say as you quickly collect your bag from the bench and start walking off before looking back

‘go back to the hotel mason and dont wait up’ you say as you roll your eyes at him, mason doing the same back. 

there was no way you were gonna go back to the hotel and stay in the same bed with mason right now, so you walked down to the beach that was close by and sat on the sand. as much as you didnt want to cry over the situation, you couldnt believe how horrible mason was being. you would have never expected that from him. you were sat on the beach as someone approaches you from behind. you look back to see the man that had offered you help at the club. he gives you a sympathetic smile before asking for approval to sit next to you. you nod as he takes a seat

‘are you alright? I saw how distraught you looked, im sorry I didnt come over to you earlier’ the man apologises as you try to smile at him, even though you have mascara stains all down your face and your makeup is all smudged

‘yeah, thank you’ you gently whisper back as you try to stop your voice from cracking

‘do you want a hug’ the man asks as you nod. as much as you hated physical touch, the hug actually made you feel a wee bit better. you both chat for another 2 hours. he introduced himself as jayden and even gave you his number. you soon said goodbye and got into the uber you ordered before heading back to the hotel. however, back at the hotel, mason paced across the room with his hands in his hair. as much as he didn't want to admit he was wrong, he knew what he said to you was extremely wrong and now he was even more worried since it had been nearly 4 hours and you still weren't back. he just got into bed and tried to get some sleep even though he knew he wouldn't be able to sleep without the comfort of you in the bed, even though he's only slept in the same bed as you twice.

the sound of you unlocking the door pierced through masons ears, but he didnt know how to react, so he just decided to pretend he was asleep, although he was far off it.

you walked in and placed your bag down on the couch at the end of your bed before quickly washing your face and putting on a random hoodie which you found on the floor. you were thankful that mason had already fell asleep so you didnt have to deal with the awkwardness, however, you were aware you were going to have to some time soon. you got into bed but stayed more far away from mason then usual. you were about to fall off the bed but you were dedicated. as much as you were exhausted and tired, you couldnt get to sleep. your eyes filled up with tears for the 100th time today as masons words repeated in your head. you really thought he felt something, but you were so far off as he didn't even care about someone touching you up. you were aware you weren't getting any sleep soon so there was no point of staying in bed.

on the other side of the bed, mason also laid awake. he could hear your quiet, muffled sobs and he couldnt bare to think you were crying because of him. when he felt the bed shift as you got up, his actions came before his thoughts as he grabs your waist, pulling you back down to lay against his chest. as much as he knew what he was doing was wrong, as he was horrible to you, he really didnt want you to be upset over him.

you lay gently against mason. his touch pierced through your skin as his arm still drooped over your waist. you really wanted to push him away, you really did, however the warmth and safety coming from him made your eyes droop, sending you into a deep sleep straight away and same for mason. how can someone who hates physical touch feel so comfortable in the arms of someone she's only known for 4 months.

you wake up the next day to an empty, cold bed. you weren't surprised, however, you did feel abit hurt that he had left and not stayed to talk it out, even though you were aware that you were stubborn and would most definitely not forgive him this early. you quickly jump in the shower and get ready before leaving the hotel so you could do something, anything. you first started of with a walk, however, when you bumped into a big shopping centre, you couldnt resist. whilst shopping, your phone vibrates in your pocket. you sigh at the thought of it being mason. you pull out your phone to a message from an unknown number. 

‘hey, its jayden from last night, I was wondering if you were free tonight? xx’ the message read. you couldnt help but smile whilst replying saying you were free. jayden replied saying be ready by 5 and bring a swimsuit. it was already 3 so you decided to go home and get ready.

you walk back to the hotel with your hands full of bags which were filled with clothes. you were already feeling so much better since shopping was like your retail therapy. after multiple attempts of trying to open your hotel room with all the bags in your hands you finally did it. you walk in and place your bags down before turning around to the site of mason lying down on the bed with his head on the headboard and his phone in his hands. he didnt even look at you. you scoff as you pull the swimsuit and some shorts and crop tops you bought today out of the bag and walk into the bathroom to get ready. you tie your hair up in a bun before checking the time. it was 4:45, perfect. you walk out and grab everything you need.

‘where are you going?’ you hear mason ask as you look up at him, his eyes finally on you as you make eye contact, making you swallow hard

‘out’ you say dryly, looking away from him again

‘on your own?’ mason asks as you frown. as much as you wanted to be petty and give him a taste of his own medicine, you decided to ignore him just incase another full blown argument happens again, which could delay your plans. you walk out and slam the door before getting a message from jayden saying he's here. you walk down and greet him before getting in his car. he drives you down to the same beach you guys sat together on yesterday. you guys swam, sun bathed, threw water at eachother and more. you enjoyed it, but you still couldnt help but let your mind roam onto mason again. 

soon enough it was 9pm, so you both decided to go to the beach bar, where you drank so much more then you should of. jayden couldnt drink as he was driving so he just watched and laughed at your drunken state as you slurred your words.

‘I think its time to go home’ jayden says whilst laughing at the way your face squirmed at the 60th shot of tequila you had had tonight. jayden somehow walks you to the car but he notices the goosebumps appearing on your arms, so he gives you his hoodie and drives you back to the hotel

‘ill walk you to your room before you embarrass yourself’ jayden says as he gives you a piggy back, sending you into fits of laughter. he asks you for your keycard as he opens the door and lets you walk in. he didn't want to invade your privacy so he stayed outside until he had your approval to come in. he wasnt intending on sleeping with you, he just wanted to help you get into bed. however, since you were so drunk you had completely forgotten about mason.

mason was in the bathroom when he heard your giggles. he sighs a sigh of relief at the thought of you being safe, however, his heart drops when he hears the voice of a man. he can't hear what he's saying properly since he was so far away, although as the voice moves closer to the bathroom, he instantly recognises the voice. he mentally curses at himself as he lets his actions come before his thoughts. he unlocks the bathroom to see you and the man who mason had accused of trying to do something bad to you yesterday. 

jayden gently places you on the bed before asking you where your makeup remover was. you point to the bathroom. he turns around to be faced with mason. jaydens eyebrows shoot up and his eyes widen as he turns around to look at you

‘did you seriously just go on a date with me whilst you were sleeping with him the whole time?’ jayden asks as you slowly stop laughing. a wave of coldness hits you and it feels like you had sobered up in a matter of seconds

‘what no, were not sleeping together, well we are, but not like that I swear!’ you quickly say, as you stand up from the bed, nearly tripping over air before jayden puts his hands on your waist to steady you, making masons eyebrows twitch

‘what?’ jayden asks as he removes his hands from your waist as he remembers what just happened

‘its fake, me and him, yeah like fake like fake girlfriend and boyfriend’ you say slurring your words as jayden raises his eyebrows

‘y/n you talking absolute non-sense, I thought we actually had something going on you know, guess it was a one sided thing ay’ jayden says as he turns around to walk towards the door. you look at mason for help. for mason to do anything to get jayden to believe you, however, he just stood there staring at you. you quickly try running towards jayden without tripping

‘nooo im not talking non-sense I swear I dont like him please’ you beg as jayden opens the door before looking back at you

‘as much as I want to believe you, I know you have feelings for him y/n. I could tell the whole night’ jayden says before leaving. you stand there as your knees weaken and you drop on the floor. even though you thought you had sobered up, you were still very drunk, so when you started crying you couldn't stop. mason walks over to you as he tries to get you to stand so he could get you ready for bed

‘get away from me’ you say as you try hitting him, however, mason dodges it

‘come on y/n, I know you hate me right now but please just let me get you ready for bed’ mason says gently as he picks you up, placing you on the bed

‘you ruined everything, you begged me to come here just for me to be upset the whole holiday, the only time I was actually happy you had to ruin it’ you say, a fresh set of tears rolling down your cheek for the thousandth time this week

‘I wanna go home’ you gently say through more tears. mason feels like tearing up himself. he can't believe he left this happen. he gets the makeup remover jayden was trying to find a couple minutes ago before removing the little amount makeup you put whilst you were at the beach bar. mason was surprised you didnt throw a fit whilst he removed your makeup. you just sat there, helplessly

‘do you feel like you need to throw up?’ mason asks, his voice soft and full of regret for everything he's put you through. you nod as mason puts his hand on the small of your back as he follows you into the bathroom, where you puke your guts out. mason stayed there with you the whole time, either rubbing your back or saying sweet things in your ear. he even tried to tie your hair up, even though there were still so many loose bits. after you felt like you were done, mason gets you to brush your teeth and wash your face.

‘what are you gonna sleep in?’ mason asks as he stares at you, noticing how you were wearing a hoodie he had never seen before which most likely belonged to the man that had just basically dumped you. he watches as you just take off your denim shorts, leaving you in just your underwear. masons eyes widen but he just looks away before getting you in bed

‘I can't believe you mason, how could you’ you gently whisper as mason tucks you into your basically shared bed

‘im sorry y/n, I really am’ mason apologises as he watches another set of tears roll down your face as he wipes them away

‘I thought we had something going on’ you say as you stare into his eyes as mason bites his lip

‘I really liked you, I thought you liked me too’ you say as you try to keep your eyes open. mason didnt know if it was you or your drunken state talking but you know what they say, drunk words sober thoughts

‘I do really like you y/n, thats why I got angry when you caught me kissing that girl, because I kissed her to get over the thought of you but you were still always there’ mason says however, you had already fallen asleep.

[cogbreath]

totally fair if you aren't the right person to ask but you are my one muslim mutual and i was wondering if headscarves were like a closed practice thing or if there are specific styles of head coverings that are closed practice. i wanna get into headscarves and incorporate them into my girlmoding outfit roster but i don't know if i'm ready to actually fully convert to islam (yet. i've been thinking about it tho). my second question is if you know good places online to order headscarves bc i don't wanna give amazon my money for that

its not a closed practice, you can wear them regardless of religion. im not sure if any specific styles are considered such or not though. if there are im not aware of them.

i get a lot of mine from etsy.

i like this seller a lot , i really like the style of that light gray melange khimar, i got it custom in black. price range is probbaly middle of the road though, and a lot of the options here are mostly khimar and niqabs which r honestly my style preference

ive also bought some from ebay before as well.

im a big fan of the instant hijab, i prefer these cuz i can just slip em on and its done and theres no need for any pins or securing.

i personally have not shopped at this store but i hear it mentioned a lot from other hijabis, and also they have a selection of hijabs starting at 5 dollars (idk how shipping might effect that though!)

https://m.modanisa.com/en/

same for this site, havent personally bought from them but i hear them mentioned often, and they have a LOT of options.

hopefully this helps you out a lil! if you have any other questions abt hijab or islam or anything u can dm me or send more asks i'll do my best 2 help <3

[onapril3rd]

A message i'll never send

it's been a while. How's life? It's quite a mess for me lol 😆

Idk how to start, but these things always pop up everytime Im being unbusy. Im gonna reveal this and I know this may cost us being strangers again.

Well, it was started when we met on Tinder years ago. Sebagai pengguna tinder yg masi newbie, ure the 1st one yang waktu itu yang paling ramah, not over sugarcoat, ga sok qewren dan paling lucu (lol) yg match sama aku 😆

We shared jokes and thoughts…sampai pada titik kamu pernah bilang (circa 2021, aku lupa ini di chat tinder ato IG) kalo gabaik utk pelihara trust issue, apalagi menutup pintu orang yg mau masuk ke kehidupan kita. Aku gatau waktu itu kita abis ngomongin apa, as long as i know, it might be a quite hard convo. Your words hit me hard, idk mgkin karna saat itu relate aja sama keadaanku.

Since then i loved to share my thoughts, annoys you and asks you pertanyaan2 ga penting. Nyaman aja rasanya bisa sharing tanpa ada judging. And I started to re-build my confidence just by remember to what you had said. I never forget how you react to IGs i shared. Sometimes it was a joke, sometimes it's a caring one. Idk what this feeling was at first or when it was begun. I always trying to defend it, though deep down inside I wish we share common faith but I knew it's impossible. So I decided to keep it untold and let it be just friends. Between us.

It ain't hard to hide my feelings back then, as we never meet in person, never do chat on daily basis or even vcalls. But do you know, the more you tease me with your words, the more I would fall deeper? And it's gonna be harder for me to hide it. Aku bahkan ga sanggup utk nanya why you teased me with those words. Im too naive to ask you as im not ready for the answer. I know its kinda freaky to have a feeling for someone you've never met in your life. It's also my 1st time to experience this feeling.

Oh iya, im personally hurting tapi juga sekaligus relieved pas kamu jawab pertanyaanku soal ekspektasimu thdp responku pas kamu kirim DM itu. It's hurting when I know you expect me nothing. But it also a relieved that I could continue annoy you as a friend (again). But it just until the moment before you read this, that may be we can't befriended again.

Aku tau setelah ini mungkin kita ga akan leluasa bertegur sapa lagi. Pls dont get me wrong, im just trying to be assertive and be honest to myself. I dont expect for your reply or even your repay for this confession. Im too shy to say these things cuz this is too long and a bit poetic. Thank you for being such a nice friend, a caring one and a funny one. Meskipun kadang jokesmu kaya bapack-bapack yet I luv it. Im bad at saying goodbye but I wish you the very best in life 🤗

[favorite-lie]

i cant even. i can't make myself reply to anything. it is genuinely stressful to just know there is somethimg to reply to

it is absolutely okay to dm me about your commission though..... i must give you all at least a thing at least a message back, barely a minimum, below a minimum even

its just. im sorry

people often say i should just make a break, but i cant allow myself one, since i literally dont do almoat anything at all for the most time as if. every day was a break. i just dont do much. i dont think a break will help.. they are waiting for too long, for some it's been more than half a year. that is a ridiculous amount of time. i cant just let myself rest, yet i cant make myself do anything.. i-

i cant do anythinf i cant . i promised to make a simple minecraft skin almost a week ago. they dont take more than an hour i still dodnt do it. i promise to take care of the dishes and then i cant. i promise so much i promise to deliver somwthing and then i forget about it.. i promise so much to my partner yet i just cant do anything. i promised them a million times, i will teach you english. tomorrow. i will begin. tomorrow begins, nothing happens. a week later ill be ready. im not. please dont cry i promise i will teach you soon. in 2 weeks i promise. i did not. hey i made a list of worsd to teach you with. i did not i fuCKING FORGOT I FUCK8BF FOROGOT FAINA I CHNWNR GN O I KEEP FORGETTING but 8t crawls my mind and drives me insane i fucking cant

and it happens with eceeythibg i just i cant. everything feels so stressful andtiring. i just want to hide and do my little things. my mind doesnt want any of this so it makes me forget .but it mames it worse. i just want to go keep playing or make a model or work on my project ideas. but i cant i must keep going i must do it but i i i cant i

i msorry .. . i would say idtry my best with all of the commissions but now i know its gonna be a lie. i dont know if i can do my best. i dont know if i xan do anythibg

im so stressed and burnt out and worried and feeling and things about commissions im so sorry if i sady i will do something and then not do it im so sorry i just cant anymore this was so much i was not ready but i didnt have a choice im sorry

i say ill try my best but im not sure if i can even do my best i cant do anything at this point even remember to reply im im so sorry

[workofmark]

“it just...doesn’t make sense to me. i don’t understand how you could give yourself up to a world that isn’t even rooting for your success. and all of this is for what, mark lee? another sleepless night and holiday spent away from home? why can’t you just be selfish for once? why can’t you just say no?”

“i have said no. i said no to help, to hand outs, to people, to my own family. i made it this far in my career because i was selfish. i worked extra hours because i wanted to be the best. i could’ve went home but i didn’t because i wanted this life. being an idol is one of the most selfish things i’ve ever done, don’t you understand? everything i do is because i want to do it. i want my body to be bruised and aching because i know that means that i worked just that much harder. i want my family to miss me because i’m out on tour rather than having me sit at home with them and wondering about the what ifs. i want people to respect me so i try that much harder, exhaust myself just that much more in hopes that my moves become a little bit more fluent, that my lyrics have a little bit more meaning, that my life becomes more worth the wild. i didn’t do this for my family. i didn’t chose this road for the fans. i make the decisions on a day to day basis for me. because i wanted this. because i am selfish.”

—snippets from a work i’ll write one day

[lanshappycorner]

Just in case any of yall can relate and need this on ur blog

[povcherry]

The Love Test | DNF

Dream and George take a test to see if they are in love with their best friend

The intense red text was prominent on his screen. Frustratingly, the one time Dream agrees to playing bedwars with George and Hypixel is down.

Dream lent back in his chair, hands behind his head staring up at the ceiling. His room was dark, the only light shone from his monitors. Patches wrapped around his legs. A deep sigh left George, as he lay his head on his desk in exasperation, an empty subway wrapper by his face, the time on his monitor read 2:17 am, yet he wasn't tired. After being on calls almost consecutively with Dream for essentially a year, he had managed to sync his sleep schedule up with him, already in Florida time prepared for when he goes to live with Dream and Sapnap.

George was disheartened. He was looking forward to playing with Dream. They were both normally either too tired or busy editing or working to go on minecraft for fun, and not just for a YouTube video. But now that they couldn't play bedwars, they were bored and unsure of what to do. They only called each other so that they could play minecraft, but that wasn't an option anymore.

"What do you want to do now then?" Dream asks, his voice far away from the mic, so much so that George nearly missed what he said. He hesitated, staring at Dreams discord profile picture light up.

"We could..." He stalled, drawing out his words. He wasn't the best at making decisions, he was much to indecisive. "Do you want to stream GeoGuessr?" He suggested, silently hoping Dream would say no. He didn't really want to do anything, only talk to Dream for hours on end.

"Not really. My brain is too slow for that level of concentration." That earned a giggle from George, putting a small smile on Dreams face. He loved that sound. "How about we go in my merch vc? Me and ni- Sapnap had fun last time just listening to music?"

George was hesitant. The last time he went in Dreams merch voice call was during the sleep over with Sapnap and Dream. That ended up in a disaster of butterflies and George having to turn his phone off for a couple of hours just to distract himself from the 'dreamnotfound' mayhem they had caused yet again on twitter. He felt giddy just thinking about it, Dream whispering into the mic, loudly cursing when George beat him at 8ball. It made him dizzy thinking about it... thinking about him.

George didn't hate it though- the attention from Dream and the fans. Despite all the jokes and innuendos that they both do to mess with their fans, George knew there was some truth to it all. A deeper meaning to being called an idiot. The endearing term that Dream loved to use oh so much. George felt fluttery, wanting to be called an idiot at this moment.

"George?" He had been silent for a while, reminiscing.

"What would we do on there?"

"Just talk. Or listen to music. Whatever you want to do, George".

Without thinking, George clicked onto the icon for Dreams server. "Do you need to add me to the call?" He asked, unsure about how the podcasts worked.

"Yeah, I need to quickly tell my mods to open it first."

Within minutes, they where in the call, hundreds of people pouring in immediately, spamming the chat with things like 'GEORGE?!' and blue and green hearts. George stifled a giggle, nerves taking over him. Despite doing streams for a living with tens of thousands of people watching him, there was something more intimate with calling Dream in a private server.

"Hello" Dream broke the silence, welcoming all the fans. He chuckled, looking at the chat, "Yes, George is here today. Hypixel was down and we had nothing to do"

"Hi" George was unsure what to say, scratching his neck in awkwardness. It wasn't this weird when he was streaming. At least then they had a plan and chat was relatively easy to read. He was doubtful that this call would end well, what with his ignorance to some innuendos and jokes involving DreamNotfound.

"We thought we would just pop on here. We're kind of bored." Dream stated, unable to see what people where spamming in the #podcast chat. "I can't see what you guys are saying, i'll probably just read my twitch chat."

Half an hour passed and George was getting hungry and bored, nothing eventful had really happened so far except for Dream explaining his setup and chat freaking out over his galaxy mouse pad.

"I want food but all that's in my fridge is butter... oh and the BTS sauces and... uhm expired milk" George complained, looking through his fridge while still on the call.

Dream chucked, "Why do you have expired milk in your fridge?"

"Not the point, I just want food"

"Well get some food then" Dream counteracted. George sighed and rolled his eyes, sitting back down in his chair. His stomach rumbled loudly, calling out to his hunger.

"I'm going to order McDonald's." And with that George muted his mic, found the McDonald's number and ordered his food, in the background, he could hear Dream.

"Should i do a quiz?... yeah? Link some in the podcast chat." There was a long silence. George, long ordered his food, stayed muted, listening to Dream talk to his chat. He found it so endearing the way Dream spoke to them, as though they where a family. His voice soft and gentle as he scrolled through the chat looking for a quiz.

"Ooh, this looks interesting... oh, 'Am I In Love With My Best Friend?'. Sounds... interesting" George stopped. Everything seemed to slow down. Eyes wide as he looked at the screen infront of him, Dreams discord icon lighting up as he chuckled nervously. He wasn't actually going to do it was he? The room was getting hot for George, he wasn't sure whether he wanted to delve into the idea of being in love with his best friend, let alone his best friend being in love with him.

He quickly unmuted, ready to call Dream out on what he was doing, but Dream beat him to it.

"George, i'm going to do the 'Am I In Love With My Best Friend?' quiz" He laughed, opening up the link and reading out the first question. "do you catch yourself looking at your best friend?"

George stalled. They had face timed multiple times in the past, Dream only letting George see his eyes upwards, but George always found it hard for him to look away. He got lost staring at his best friends eyes. George quickly messaged Dream asking for the link for the quiz, if Dream was going to do it, so would George.

"Dream, check dm's" He rushed.

"Huh, what, why?" Dream asked, busy trying to still his own heart beat. He had always known at the back of his mind that he had romantic feelings for George, whether that is because he was just touched starved and was desperate, or because he genuinely wanted more than just a friendship with George, suppressing his feelings as to not ruin anything between them.

"Just read it." George urged, getting apprehensive, unsure whether he should just delete the comment and over analyse everything Dream says.

But before he knew it, the link to the quiz had been sent to George, a small smiley face underneath it from Dream. George was about to reply with a '?' to the smile, but Dream spoke up again.

"I just put 'once in a while', i mean, it's not like im never looking at you but i don't do it like.. all the time." George clicked all the time. He couldn't get enough of Dreams warm amiable eyes. His eyes were a kind of green that speaks to the soul of nature, of fresh wands of grass and new buds, and his eyes were that bright colour, bold and beautiful.

"Right," he snickered, " next question, 'are they the first person you call when something happens?' uhm... yeah, i guess. But not always, i mean i would call my mom first." He laughed, ignoring the fact that George was silent. George always called Dream if something was wrong. He wasn't in contact with his parents, Sapnap wasn't the most mature when it came to serious things, yes he was a great friend and he would be there for George if he needed, but Dream came first. George put Dream before everyone, at time even before himself.

"George?" Dream disrupted his thoughts.

"Hmm?"

"You're being so quiet, everyone is asking if you're asleep" George looked at chat, Sure enough, between all the green and blue hearts, there where people spamming Georges name and sleep.

"Oh uhm no, it is 3 am though. Kind of tired." He said, anxiously looking at the next question, mouse already hovering over 'it's nice if i can'. George didn't wake up thinking about Dream, not always anyway. Just if they had fallen asleep on call together, or if they were recording a video that day.

"You should sleep." His voice had softened. He too was looking at the same question. Thinking about George staying up just for him made him feel giddy, but he also didn't want George to be sleep deprived.

George held back a smile. "I'm good, we're in sync bb" he snickered, knowing that would get a rise out of the chat. He could practically hear Dream roll his eyes in exasperation.

"Oh come on" He laughed, his voice low and raspy as he started to read out the next question. He couldn't get through it without laughing, however. "'Do you get jealous if he or she has a boyfriend or girlfriend?' Oh come on! I mean..." He started, George's scoff cut him off. "What?" Dream laughed.

"Nothing" George giggled

"To be fair.. no, but... i mean, wouldn't anyone?"

"Not really." George counteracted.

"Well, no. But! But! But! It would be one of those things where it's like, awe, now he's gonna be spending time, like, doing that, instead of like, with us. Like with like, me and sap. So, I'll put maybe a little. Right? Maybe a little.?" Dream stuttered, trying to defend his reasoning while George just giggled at his flusteredness.

George had already clicked 'ugh its the worst' already. He remembered when Dream had told him Sapnap was moving in with him. Now, George knew his best friends. He knew there was nothing going on between Dream and Sapnap, but something about them living together tickled George the wrong way. He was pissed off, to say the least. George wasn't normally jealous, but when it came to Dream, he became a different person. He almost didn't want to share Dream with anyone else... George wanted Dream all to himself.

"Dream, no one is arguing with you..." George whispered endearingly, a small smile painted across his lips.

The next few questions were uneventful. Dream still defended his answers despite no body calling him out on them. The chat was a blur of left ear jokes and and blue and greens. George answered 'yes' on the majority of the questions.

" Do you have dreams about them? Im- Okay! That's unfair, like, oh my god. Okay, I'll put sometimes." Dream rushed, desperately wanting to move onto the next question. He didn't want to tell chat, and especially George, about the dreams he has. No body knew about the desperation Dream has when he dreams about George. The want and longing to touch George in many ways than one. The heartache Dream feels when he wakes up because he knows the happiness his feels in his dreams could never be recreated.

"What?" George once again giggled. He was starting to have fun now. Seeing Dream embarrassed made George feel slightly better about his answers, but at this rate he was afraid the quiz would tell him he's so hopelessly in love with his best friend that there was no hope for him. "What do you dream about me?"

"You- you've had- you're- you're an idiot, you've had dreams! You've had one hundred pe- you've told me about dreams you've had!" He stammered, struggling to get his words out correctly without revealing too much. He was starting to get hot, the air conditioning in his room seemed to do nothing, the 'GNF' jumper he was wearing was suffocating him. He was suddenly finding it hard to breath under the weird pressure of these questions he had no obligation answering.

"What type of dreams, hmm?" George teased. He had his head resting in his hands leaning on the desk, taking in everything Dream was saying. George, of course had clicked 'all the time' about dreaming about Dream. Dream was on his mind 24/7.

"Oh don't even start with me, i know you've had dreams about me. You told me you've like.. texted me in your dreams or something. You.. you definitely have, anyway..." The two argued for the next few questions, and it was all smooth sailing for both Dream and George, until it came to the big one. The one that caused George to almost throw up the McDonald's that he had eaten a half hour ago.

Dream went silent. George could almost hear Dreams heart beating through the mic. He knew why, too. He saw the question. George had been dreading this. He chose to stay silent, not wanting to draw attention to himself.

"Do you ever think about what it would be like to kiss your best friend?" Dream was silent for almost thirty seconds. He felt sick. The amount of times he had wondered what Georges lips felt like. Whether or not they were made for him. Perfectly molded to fit Dreams own. He dreamt about them constantly. The soft touch of lips. He was beyond salvageable. "Uhm, n-no. Of course not."

"Why did you take so long to answer?" George was apprehensive. He wondered whether Dream thought about kissing him as much as he did. George so desperately wanted to, he wanted to feel them on his own lips, wanted to know what Dream tasted like, how he smelt. He was forlorn.

"I'm just going to put, well... i'm going to put.. well there's no good answers. I'm just going to put 'yes but it would be like kissing my mom'". He lied, his mouse had been hovering over 'at least a few times a day', unsure whether to click it or not, but he knew the truth. He wanted to kiss George more than he ever wanted to do anything ever.

The rest of the quiz, George kept silent. If he opened his mouth, he would confess his love on the spot. He had finished all the questions, revealing a 32%. He was totally in love with his best friend. Desperately, pathetically and hopelessly in love. He needed help.

"Okay, last question" Georges ears pricked up at this, he was happy it was almost over. He needed to talk to Dream in private, even if it killed him. "Do you see them in your future?... of course. A lot of my future is your future. I don't want a future without you in it..." Dream whispered, muting his physical mic so that no one could hear his breath leave his body. That was the most intimate he had probably ever been with George in front of fans. He hoped he hadn't just messed anything up.

George still stayed silent. Dreams answer made him almost cry with happiness. He couldn't imagine a future without Dream.

Dream un-muted his mic to finish up the quiz, "It says, you are in love with a few things about your best friend, so it's likely that you could fall entirely in love with them if you... if things keep up the way they are right now." George was unsure of what to say. Chat was once again asking if he was asleep. Both boys took no notice. Almost silently, so silently George almost missed it. But he held his breath, staring at the monitor with fear. All colour had drained from his face. He was about to pass out.

"If.. if you're worried they don't feel the same way... you're going to have to find out how to shut your feelings off, you don't want to ruin what you have."... no one talked for a couple seconds... both of them waiting for the other to say something, until George plucked up the courage.

"I don't want to ruin anything, Dream."

George loved Dream, and Dream was sure he loved George.

[rurifangirl]

aight. here somes the ask lore thingie

tw for ppl readin: mention of mental illness, father mention

firstly, how did rui end up meetin the rest of the gang? did they all have sum sort of run in? did they just happen to meet on exident?

also is the father a villain? i remember ya mention him, and was wonderin

and do they have a specific place where they stay? like in a dormstory, a single house, do they live in a single town, or in completly different places?

do any of them suffer from mental/physical illnesses? if they do, how does it affect their life/relationships w others?

Aight, so here we go, be ready cuz shit's long.

(1st part - The Rui n the gang meeting; The Shou meeting) No Tw

Honestly, I also kinda wanted to do this for quite a long time, so I'm gonna firstly talk about how the gang (w/o really mentioning the others name's since they're gonna get introduced soon) met itself and decided to form, and then I'll individually do It in Lyva's and Shou's case, specifically Shou's since i mentioned that his meetin was somethin id have to take care of in another post, so i will rn.

First things first, w the whole gang. Now It wasn't really casually, mainly because Lyva n Rui did meet up, but It was during a special occasion still, that being a really important manifestation in one of the main regions in my oc universe. (They don't have name's yet so pls don't bash me🤡) Them being primarly the Forest, where Rui eventually lives in after all of his past shit, the near-countryside part, where Lyva was living, a pretty much city living on water, where Shou's currently living, and many more, as such the dunes with which I'll introduce Qiran (hopefully tomorrow/today),The sea itself, some High up places and as I said many, many other more. Other than this brief intro, they meet up where Lyva used to live, but mainly because of problems and out of conviniance.

Everyone had something to take back from, so they agreed to help eachother to reach that end, so it's all really planned. Now i won't really go w Lyva, cuz i explained how she met Rui the first time n how they helped her, so I don't need to ramble more on this. Now I'm gonna go w Shou's part though.

This Is more of a note i wanted y'all to know first, cuz i really like how Lyva n Rui met him the first time (cuz the second time was when the gang then all agreed to form n all that jazz.). Basically, Rui n Lyva were out, n visiting new places as such, to prepare themselves further and to try and search for more weapons, cuz they both knew that they'd eventually get in trouble, and even though they still are good, they wouldn't stand much a chance, n since Shou's Place is known for its production they decided to go. N fun fact, there's many funny shit that happends, for example Rui tries to touch a fish, but gets SLAPPED by It. They're still mad >:[. Ajkskdj anyways, some other stuff happends n they just, lose themselves. They had a map ofc but still managed to do so. But Rui was usin It so, I don't really blame em for gettin lost.

Shit happends n they find themselves pratically in front of his shrine/palace. Shou's servitors (cuz he saw everything happend from afar n gave them the okay) brought em in, but rather than makin em idk some tea n just making them recouver, Shou rather put them under some "tests" w/o tellin em, to see if they were any use.

For example he brought them some cups of tea, but before drinking them Rui noticed somethin unusual in the water, so they gave Lyva a sign to not drink It, n as Shou asked as a reason why they just replied that they weren't thirsthy, leavin Shou in a kind of defeated state. Bitch if i love this part honestly, there's so much fun to seein all of their reactions, but I'm gonna go brief rn. So other of this tests pass later n Shou eventually gets upset cuz they're all winnin n seemingly makin fun of him, lettin him in a weaket standpoint, n a fight happends. Even though it's a 2v1 situation he can still manage pretty well, so It ends in a draw. They get to talk after this and get to understand that they don't have to necesseraly be on the opposite side, though Shou Is still unsure whether to belive in that or not.

After they leave him, pratically almost alone w only a bunch of servitors helpin him. He admits defeat n won't show up until the event and yadayada. (Also it's during this weak time of his he'll meet Qiran which i already have plans w so it's all goin to be said bout their relationship in their post.)

(2nd part, the father mention.) Tw:father mention

So it's true that w Shou i did mention his father, but I'm not entirely sure bout his involvment honestly. In theory he kind of is a villain itself, even because of his devilish nature, so it's true, but im not sure whether to make him an independent villain or part of a group of them. But rather than that yes, i do want to make him some sort of villain in the end, because that's also part of Shou's agreement to be part of the group. I will make concept art for him so he'll definetly be involved. Not gonna lie, mabye that bastards also involved w Rui's cult too in a way or another but im givin in too many details holy shit I'll never get outta this fuck

(3rd part- where do they live) No Tw

They live in their own homes honestly, but It would be no surprise if they'd all decide to sleep over someone in specifical, though they have their own place. I made some concepts for Rui's intern home, which here It Is 😤 (forgive me for the bad quality but it's 2 am rn 🤡) I made this a while ago but only did Rui's, so I'll do Lyva's, Shou's n the other one's too. They live in different places, for the exception of, atm, Qiran, since I'm gonna say that they're more of a traveller n don't have a stable home.

(4th part- the mental/physical ilnesses) Tw: Self harm and Mental ilness mention

Well, this Is gonna be a ride. They all suffer from Ptsd, which Rui n Shou suffering from It the most. It still affects them all, though in different occasions, so Imma just do them in specifical. (Also because i gotta add some shit to shou that i didn't wanna add because i thought It was too much honestly)

Rui-

It affects them really much. They use crystals n gems to avoid anything going w their past or anything remotely related It, as whenever they feel awful about havin those flashbacks when they still were a child. They never want to talk about what happened, n during their moments It gets really, really bad. Both emotionally and physically, as their body sometimes cannot handle anything so it completely shuts down. They never really got any help for It as Rui's too scared to share bout their experience, both because of trauma itself that doesn't make them say anything even if they wanted to and because of the cults influence, so either way they've got to handle It by their own.

Lyva-

Other than havin to deal w mornin sickness, which Is the least for her, she has to deal w her neglectful childood and how desperate she's always been for litteraly anythin, whether it's related about love,friendship, food, toys, anything. She tried to seek for help and semi found It, but as of now she can't keep up w It and has better things to take care of. It's still really bad overall, but she's hoping for things to get better. Spoiler It really won't.

Shou-

⭕Tw for sh⭕

It's... really fucking bad. I'm gonna get outta this w saying something i didn't want to add because it's really triggerin, but im gonna do It now. So basically, I've mentioned them acting feminenly for his own mother, but i didn't say what would've happened if he displeased her. She would just stare down at him and whispering some awful shit or names. This would happen especially whenever he'd slip off that mask of his or revealed even a tiny bit of his devilish essence. Note that he's still a child here. So, best thing he could to was to "punish" himself, which basically consists of him scratching his arms too much and, i don't really want to continue this, forgive me but it's kind of triggering even for me. But...you can guess what he's doing, since he even to this day still keeps sharp nails. I'm sorry for putting this, but it's another way to show how his mother fucked him up and now suffering from this.

I'm sorry for rushin the last part but i'm not personally vibing w it.

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@a-chaotic-dumbass @spoopy-fish-writes @dopesaladlady @damnfoxx (I'm really unsure bout taggin ya in this ;-;)

If you want your tag removed, dm me cuz it's 3 am at the moment n i may have messed em up. (I'm not gonna recheck tomorrow so that's why)

[ihatebnha]

hi 🥺 i wanna give you a hug too!! you’re so precious. i am so glad i decided to share my oc with someone as wonderful as you 🥺🥺 (congrats! you’ve been upgraded from being ibiza’s cool aunt to her godmother! LMAO) i’m totally okay with you just replying to me with cute cat pics lol honestly i think ibiza is pretty… catlike. i actually made a second blog just so i can reblog stuff that gives off her vibes & at first it was just all black cats.. 🧍‍♀️maybe i’ll woman up & finally dm you so you can see! anyways lmk if you want me to send the ramble i mentioned in my last ask 🤍🤍 i hope you had a great day & i love u &&& idk if you have any ocs but i would so so super love to hear about yours 🥺 bye bye

-oc anon

a;dfjaskd Sorry this took me so long to get to, i was meaning to respond but i just kept getting swamped with things blehhh... 

OMG THO, we could back and forth about this forever because YOU ARE JUST SO SWEET AND PRECIOUS, TOO🥺🥺🥺 like, ibiza??? my goddaughter??? why do you wanna make me cry so bad... because that’s honestly what i feel like doing when u say such nice things to me LOL🥺✋🏻

but !!! about the sideblog!!!! i’d love love love to see it, so if you want to, you can just send me the url in an anonymous ask if you’re not ready to reveal yourself yet! That way it’s like... i know you are but i also don’t? since it’s not linked to your main account... either way tho, whatever ur most comfortable with is what will make me happy... 

as for the next ramble, i actually have an essay rough draft due tomorrow, so now probably isn’t the best time... but by Wednesday i’ll be officially out of classes (besides a couple exams) if u want to send it (or anything, really) sometime around then!!! im excited EEEEE especially since my only ocs are for an original story i NEVER work on hahaha... 

SO YES!! i hope u had a good last couple days TOO and i love u and will SEE U SOON BYE EEEE☺️☺️☺️❤️❤️❤️

[katytheinspiredworkaholic]

KATY

I debated on sending this as a DM but I feel like you deserve all the public acknowledgement for your greatness

1. The last chapter of Extraordinary??? Phenomenal. I blushed the entire time and was absolutely so giddy. Not to mention, I’m like SO invested in the plot. I need to know what’s going to happen next my poor heart can’t take it 😫 ALSO THE MORCIA OF IT ALL.

I have lots more thoughts/thots about the last few chapters that I will most likely be picking your brain over soon

2. DOG DAYS IM SO EXCITED!!! I saw the notification and I almost burst into excited tears (I’m an emotional person, sue me) I’ve been in such a fluffy/sweet mood because of the holidays and I feel like this is the perfect fic for December.

You truly are the gift that keeps on giving, lovey 💞

You are the absolute sweetest Emmy, thank you so much 🥺💕😭💕 I barely have words. (Which proves to be a lie, I say after I just wrote the longest ask reply xD but it deserves it for all your kindness)

1. Honey, I made MYSELF blush writing that scene 🙈 and I've written a lot of smut over the years. But I'm so glad to hear it was worth the wait, as well as THE MORCIA OF IT ALL. I've never written Morcia before so that was a learning experience for me -- but the end of that chapter might have healed my soul and all the trauma the show inflicted on me for not making them canon xD

I'm so stoked you're invested in the plot! If you want to DM me guesses/thoughts you are MORE than welcome to. I have a few other people that have made some _very good_ guesses that came so close to being right on the money it astounded me xD But no one has gotten it 100% right yet so bring on the theories. I love to hear them 💕

2. YOU AND ME BOTH! Extraordinary and Dog Days overlap a little that first week of December so I might temporarily _lose my mind_ trying to get it all figured out and posted but it will be WORTH IT. I almost couldn't contain myself waiting until this morning to post that Masterpost, I've had it ready for so long. And I love that you got so emotional about it because I'M emotional about it! It will have some cute/sweet/fluffy stuff as well as some terribly heartbreaking stuff so I hope it fits into your Holiday spirit <3 It totally became a Christmas fic on accident xD but it really makes it all the sweeter.

NO YOU'RE A GIFT 💕 an absolute treasure, thank you so much for your kind words and infinite support 🥰 I can't wait to share everything that's to come with you. As well as what will be coming in 2022 because you can bet that I already have the first 6 months planned out for what fics are coming next.

I hope you are doing well, my friend. All the love to you 💕💕💕

[7wanderingpaws]

Simply, yours (6)

Pairing:  Baekhyun x reader

Genre: family AU, hapkido teacher AU, PhD AU

Word count: 2.7K

Warnings: none

A/N: Haha I laughed at the reactions for the last part! Yes, it is all happening huu! I cant wait to write even more! And thank you for giving me feedback, it honeslty makes me feel happy and motivated! ❤

tags: @milky-baek​ 💖 (Im so sorry if there were more people who asked, my list got messed up? Im so sorry again, if you want to be tagged pretty please comment on this post or write anon/dm, Im fine with all! Sorry again!! :((( )

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You left the doctors in deep silence.

None of you were capable to speak much, but there definitely was a lot to talk about, to discuss and probably re-think. Your mind was in an internal turmoil, and it seemed to be a vicious circle. What you just learned was something you would have never ever imagined before. That type of news was… news-worthy. Like television news worthy. From the excitement of the doctor, it easily could become reality.

You vividly imagined yourself talking to the reporter, the microphone of the broadcast station in your face as you tried to explain just how crazy your situation was. A poor countryside family (that didn't even tie the knot yet) expecting three…

Ridding your head of various scenarios, you entered the bus. Thankfully, there weren't many people as you entered the stuffy vehicle. Baekhyun quickly grabbed a single seat for you, wanting to stand right next to your side. Funnily, the one who constantly spoke and had an argument ready was now silent, deep in thought just like you. Glancing up at your boyfriend, he was holding the loop above his head, his gaze set on the road outside, but eyes unfocused. Who knew what was going on in his mind. Was it the same mess just like in yours?

Gnawing at your bottom lip and bunching up your skirt in your hands, you waited for him to look at you, to reciprocate the look. And after several seconds, he snapped out of his reverie and looked down at you, seeing your eyes bulging in scare. He smiled at you softly and widened his eyes at you as he pressed his lips tightly together, giving you a cute face.

You managed to lift one corner of your lips up and you dropped your gaze, reaching for his free hand in his pocket to hold on to, and he immediately complied. Squeezing yours tightly, you could sense he was worried, too. You rested your connected hands on your small tummy and you let out a little scoff in disbelief as you also looked out the window. Belly was small, but soon would be huge, bearing three lives.

Just how long could you prolong your silence at your workplace?

You only had few weeks left.

-

Once the doors of your apartment closed behind you two, you wrapped your arms around Baekhyun's neck, pulling him close to you, burying your head in the crook between his neck and shoulder. He didn't hesitate to hug you back, squeezing your aching body as gently yet as persistently as he only could to show you he was there for you.

“Baekhyun,” you whispered, the sound muffled, your breath hot on his skin. “Just what will we do?”

This time he also hid his face in your shoulder, while his other hand came up to rest on the back of your head. “We can do this. This is…” he hesitated before gently pulling back to gaze into your teary eyes, “a blessing. For me. For us.”

Momentarily, you closed your eyes and let his honest words sink in. He was right, of course. If everything would go well, you were heading into a family filled with happiness and lots of children's laughter. “It is, darling. But money-wise-”

“Don't even start,” he retorted gently and cupped your cheek. “That is not something we should focus on right now.”

You frowned. “How should I not focus on it when we barely live with what we have now? And we are two adults, Baekhyun. We need a lot of things for one child, can you imagine the amount of money that goes into three?”

“First, we need to sign up for the governmental support, but I am more than sure that is automatically given once you give birth,” he reasoned rationally, not letting your frown break his stance. “Second, you need to chill, okay? Leave it up to me, I know what I am doing.”

“You need to enlighten me, because I won't be able to chill otherwise.”

“You know I am soon done with my PhD. The position of the professor is literally months away,” he replied hurriedly, “we will manage, honey. I will give my everything to you, to them.”

“But I want to give as well,” you protested, stubborn. “I also want to provide for us, Baekhyun.”

“Well, you are doing just that, aren't you?” he asked, confused at your scared face. “C'mon, you are acting like you are going to get kicked out for being pregnant.”

That shut you up very quickly. Shit. He had no idea you would get sacked the moment your boss as much as sniffed pregnancy.

“You can work until you can, until your body is able to… as much as I hate to say it. I don't want to lock you down just because of your state, sweetie, hm?”

His words touched your heart, but he would soon find out he didn't have to do it because you would do it for him by losing your job. You wanted to laugh. 

“And then you will take the maternity leave. If you can work from home, even better, right?” Baekhyun kept going on, his features brightening.

You nodded, fazed. This was something you probably should resolve by yourself and very quickly. The last thing your wanted was for Baekhyun to provide for five people all by himself.

After few seconds of silence, he let you go. “Go change into something comfy, hm? I will prepare food, you need to eat.”

Standing still, you watched him move around your tiny kitchen, opening the cabinets, preparing plates, heating up food - when he sensed your unmoving body, he turned, and looked at you, perplexed. He called your name softly before coming back to you. “What's the matter?”

Staring at him, you were speechless. So you shook your head.

He chuckled quietly before cradling your neck and bringing your head close so he could give you a lasting kiss on your forehead. “My pregnant little lady.”

You scoffed. “Not little for too long.”

He laughed and his eyes shone when he looked at you, squeezing your cheeks. “Can you imagine? This young cheeky lady, and three babies inside.”

“Baekhyun,” you murmured, rolling your eyes. Your murmur came out funnily as he was still squeezing your cheeks, letting out a little yelp.

“But you are just so cute? How is that possible? Shit, you will be even cuter when the babies will grow!”

You sighed, realising he was in one of those fever moments when he just had to vent out his racing thoughts, be it whatever. “I will be an elephant soon.”

“A cute elephant. An elephant lady to her Dumbo boy?” he quirked his eyebrows and moved his ears back and forth, making you laugh out loud.

“You're unbelievable,” you giggled.

“There it is,” he murmured, affectionate gaze grazing your smiling features.

“Hmm?”

Slowly, he let his thumb trace your stretched out mouth and the soft wrinkles around your eyes. “The smile. The genuine smile. You look gorgeous with it, sweetheart. Whatever it is that is on your mind, vent it all out to me, okay?” he lowered himself a bit so he was on the same eve-level with you. “By no means keep it to yourself. We are in this together.”

You stayed silent for a moment, before saying: “I love you so much.”

He sighed, almost in relief, before bringing you into another hug. “And I love you, much much more.”

When the food was prepared and both you and Baekhyun were changed into comfy clothes, he sat you down onto his lap, both of you munching on the soup.

“This reminds me that one time we drove a truck and sat in the backside, trying not to fall out on the dirt road,” said Baekhyun before slurping on his soup.

You hummed, swallowing your portion. “You mean when you asked me to sit on your lap? And hold onto your sweaty chest?”

He gave you a cheeky grin. “Exactly that one. Just wanted to sweep that pretty young girl off of her feet, straight into my arms,” he sing-sang.

You giggled, remembering that time very well.

It happened before his enlistment. 

The day was scorching hot, creating droplets of sweat on your forehead within minutes of being exposed to the strong sunshine. Your uniform was plastered to your body, but thankfully no one could tell just how hot you were. Probably a big part of it could have been because of that gorgeous boy who was, of course, very well known in your village and the surrounding areas. The hapkido master and charmer who is able to make heads turn within a heartbeat, all for him.

That day he was working around your school and he happened to be finishing his work in the late afternoon just when you were leaving your classroom and heading outside, prepared for the long walk.

You knew Baekhyun. Your family knew Baekhyun. He was a trust-worthy young man and he also lived in the house next to yours. You might have shared few chickens as they were wandering around the shared space. So when he asked if you needed a ride home, you replied with a bright smile, your heart jumping like crazy, your mind racing with possibilities of what he might do. Would he give you a smile? Of course, he would. He was Baekhyun. And he reserved the sweetest of smiles only for you. They were breathtaking and made you feel like you were the only person on this planet. You wanted to share him never.

His colleague driving, you and him climbed on the back to enjoy the breeze throughout the drive but  there were no seats and your skirt was surely short. Baekhyun had had long taken of his sweaty shirt, his toned body glistening under the sunrays. He sat down on the edge with his knees politely connected before he patted the top of his thighs. “Come, sit here,” he said as the car moved and your skirt almost blew upwards before you and him both reached for the hem of it to keep it down.

You blushed a deep red and he gave you a lopsided grin before he gently placed his hands on your hips and helped you lower on his lap, his arm protectively around your back, his hand resting on your hip. His touch was burning through the material, but his breath which was so close to yours was scorching. The pull was strong, yet you didn't dare to look at him right away, feeling his searching gaze on you.

“How is high school?” he started, his voice light. To make sure you wouldn't fall, he placed his other arm over your thighs and looked at you curiously.

Your hands were folded in your lap, and you felt how he purposefully moved the hand closer so your hands would brush and rest against each other. You itched your hand just a tiny bit closer. “It's okay. Too bad the previous seniors are already gone,” you replied, boldly looking him in the eyes, referring to him. “Would have been more interesting to be at school.”

He chuckled boyishly, sending electric waves down your body. “Honest girl, I see.” He looked ahead for a bit before looking back at you again. “That's what I like. It's a shame, indeed. Would have liked to meet you on the corridors of the school.”

Would have loved to kiss you in the dark corner of the corridors, you thought, the idea so sweet you felt the pull in your insides. Ah, not now, don't think about it now! He is right here!

“When are you enlisting?”

“In a couple of months,” he replied. You expected him to grow dull at the idea, but he was still cheerful.

You smiled. “Seems like you are looking forward to it?”

“I love sports and I want to become a real man,” he admitted, laughing. There was a bigger bump on the road, making both of you jump up, his arm tightening around you in reflex which caused him to pull you even closer. Your faces were so, so close.

“I will miss you, though,” you mumbled sheepishly, not caring about almost falling off the car.

“I will come back, hm? It doesn't last forever,” he replied, still gentle in voice. Noticing your sour expression, he said: “ Now there,  I don't want to see that face,” he spoke gently, his face even closer now as you ever so slightly lifted your downcast gaze to meet his dark orbs. “You look beautiful when you smile.” And I think I want to kiss you.

But you might not be ready yet.

-

Sighing in content, you snuggled closer to Baekhyun as you fell asleep right after food. He realised quickly that the happenings of the day must have caught up with you, because by the end of lunch your head was dropping on his shoulder.

Tucking you in the bed, he pulled out his phone while he had you curled up by his chest, your head just under his chin, while his arm was your pillow. In that hand, he was holding his phone and scrolling through some information from the government that could give you help but as much as he scrolled he only got positive news. Although you wouldn't be receiving much, you sure would be getting some cash as a thank you, since the country was doing terribly in terms of birth rate.

Baekhyun was silent, except some random hums that would softly leave his throat, but nothing that would disturb you in your peaceful slumber. His free hand was caressing your back soothingly, slowly he would drag his palm up between your shoulder blades where he would make a circle and than go all the way to the small of your back, reaching the hem of your shirt, where he added more pressure, knowing your lower back was giving you a hard time already.

He was very excited about the news. Of course, it was only natural they caught him off-guard but he just wanted many kids with you and make a happy family like he always imagined. The fact that fate provided this all at once was a sign for him and he was not going to be the one ruining it. And he would make sure he was there for you during each step.

Even if your mind was troubled, you were sleeping rather contently in the arms of your man and his caressings were what you woke up to. Ever so slightly, you lifted your head to have a look at his focused stare illuminated by the screen of his smartphone. He was studying something, and even though he felt you stirring, his caressing had yet to cease.

You reached up with your puckered lips and gave his chin a gentle kiss, signalling him you were up.

He hummed, not looking down at you. “Sleeping beauty is up.”

“Sorry I fell asleep like that,” you whispered, not wanting to disturb the bubble between you two.

“Why are you apologising?” he whisper-asked back, now locking his phone and letting it fall from his hand to look at your pale face. “You must be so tired, honey. I like us being like this.”

You raised your eyebrows in question at his sudden confession.

He smiled gently and gave your nose a sweet kiss. “Lying in bed, you sleeping and probably the babies too, and I'm here looking over you guys.”

His words touched your heart. “Yes. I feel the safest when I am with you.” You caressed his cheek affectionately and he gave you a smile before grabbing his phone to go back to researching.

“Go, sleep some more, sweetie,” he said. “We have work tomorrow, so let's make sure you rest plenty.”

You bit your lip, hiding your face in his chest right away, the thought of entering work tomorrow quite scary.

Mulling whether you should tell Sukyeong about your situation and ask for her advice, you found yourself drifting back into another slumber.

Telling her would maybe ease your worrying heart.

But it wouldn't save your job for sure.

And that was the problem.