#im not going to draw someone doing crochet EVER AGAIN

[chocokrinkspi]

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this isss uuuh an art trade for someone on tiktok !!!!!! i jsut finished this thing IM PROUD OF IT BC I NEVEER DREW ERROR LIKE TGIS... ignore the hands it was HELL

[eccentrickleptomaniac]

hi again :D

thank you for drawing estonia! the art was so cute !!! do you have any headcanons for ukraine?

sure!

ukraine is rather quiet and tends to keep to herself most of the time. she was never one looking for trouble. however, she's also incredibly bitter and tends to have problems with jealousy. this formulated especially during world war two involving poland. it's one of the only times she's ever actively had a grudge against someone, and it'd been building up since the 20s after the polish-ukrainian war and poland promising to protect her. this obviously didn't go well, as during the polish-soviet war ukraine disappeared from their own plane and out into the real world (ooh i'll have to give context on that. basically in my hc theres a plane specifically for countries to live in and then theres our world. a free and sovereign country can travel between the two freely but annexed countries are limited to the real world. it's incredibly lonely out there considering they cannot talk to anyone other than other countries.). from there she just grew angrier and angrier at poland, viewing him as being let off the hook and undeserving of his freedom which eventually culminated in, uh, everything the upa did to polish people LOL.

after world war 2 the two didn't talk much. poland very specifically avoided areas where she thought she might've seen her (as well as her sister in all honesty. i hc ukraine and lithuania as good friends while under the ussr because they're both, uh, a little angry at poland during this time). during the time she spends alone and out there she grows into a very defiant person. she begins to learn to stand up for herself.

after the fall of the soviet union she gets on good terms with most of europe and begins to despise her brother (russiaaaa) post-georgia invasion. she forms a friend group with lithuania and poland (lublin triangle!) as well as georgia and moldova (association trio :3). to her friend's she's known as a very brave person who isn't afraid to stand for what she believes to be right. outsiders might view her initially as soft but that pretty much got thrown out the window with the whole "Russia invades ukraine" thing. it also helped her be "friends" with america. (america is very stocky and does not consider anyone to be his friend, only allies. he acts like an emotionless corporation twitter account tbf)

she enjoys crochet and hiking. she has chronic migranes and joint pains due to chernobyl. she is a girlboss

sorry this isnt well thought out im about to go to bed LOL

edit 08/08/23: her """"government assigned"""" username is utopianArmageddon.

[whimizera-me]

i've been feeling so drained, physically and emotionally so much more than usual, for the past 1 almost 2 months. I have to go through 4 flights of stairs to get to my classes multiple times to get to my classes, i dont know anyone in my classes, and i've done 30+ hws in the past 3 weeks already, and even more tests next week.

I can't even see my old friends anymore, and there's too much work to do I can't even go play with my other cat. It's physically impossible for me to do any tasks anymore. The four flights of stairs are a death sentence towards me, even walking a short distance exhaust me already. My friends messaging me in between classes are literally keeping me going for the most part and I can't even meet them irl.

I have to do so many social work out of my comfort and i don't even know this people, it would be fine if they were decent it it was really necessary but at this point it feels like they mess everything up for me on purpose. Everything was so nice last school year, it was my best ever, now im stuck with people i hate in a new area.

I have so much work to do other than homework and other in school aswell. I need to prepare for my hilton performance, I have to practice the t sax, I have out of school things to do aswell, and in home chores.

Im so drained that I can't even do my hobbies happily anymore. if I cant make art, draw, crochet, sing, or play my saxophone with emotion it's no use, it's not even art anymore at this point. I've lost interest in almost everything.

I haven't been eating a lot. I haven't been feeling hungry in a long time properly, I haven't been getting the proper sleep and I'm always so tired, even then when I do get nice sleep I still feel tired. I feel fatigued all the time even more. My health feels like it's been deteriorating even worse than usual for the past year. I can't run like I used to, I can do exercises and other physical activities energetically as much as before, it's horrible. I'm not even old yet, I feel like I'm doing something wrong.

I just wanna lay down and stay there forever.

At least i have my friends. Even if it's not irl. It's a blessing really.

There's still the ocean though. I really like the ocean, I really like going to the aquarium, it's been one of the best highlights of my life so far. The ocean's everything to me right now, I wish someone can take me to the aquarium again, i love it there. I really do. I wish I could live in the ocean.

[deathwolf9000]

i think i misunderstood your message and sent my matchup request to the wrong blog 🧍 so here it is again!

may i get a romantic overwatch matchup please? any gender is fine, but i prefer characters 25+

im 5'3 and nonbinary

I'm very shy and reserved at first but once i open up im very friendly and warm and a huge dork. im creative and i like to make things for people, whether its sewing or crocheting or drawing etc.

im easily flustered by anything flirty. im a good listener and i value communication greatly. i cry easily bc im sensitive and i struggle with emotional dysregulation. im a very caring person and can sometimes overdo it trying to be there for everyone. im also very stubborn, especially when someone either tries to make me do something i don't want to do, or says i can't do something. i have anxiety and often wake up at weird hours of the morning bc of it.

tysm!

Hrmm...in my humble opinion, I match you with:

☆ Reinhardt! ~ ☆.。.:・°☆.。.:・°☆.

[ Want one too? See here: (insert link to post ill make later) ]

(Warning: Long 'Keep Reading')

(Warning: Angst)

TLDR: He's anxious and caring too. You build each other up, and he especially nurtures you/ see last paragraph

It could go a number of ways. It was a bit of rummaging to find the right one, but if you like Rein I think it'd work out pretty good!

I can imagine you working in Overwatch when it got big in a teensy assistive position, occasionally bumping into the fabled heroes, usually for professional reasons.

And dear god, it was terrifying. That looming itching feeling of social pressure as you have to talk to them. At a work party Tracer had made an effort to try and talk to you, which kind of worked- you quietly babbled back and forth but the atmosphere with so many strangers was just kind of overwhelming. Cassidy had teased you, both simultaneously putting a blush on your face and a bubbling feeling of frustration. You wanted to prove his smug face wrong.

And you did. You were out of your shell, one way or another, and spiralled down this one-sided? Requited? God, who-knows - situation-ship with Cass that did you more harm than good. It was nice for a while, colourful, passionate, but fickle. The verbal equivalent of scraping at a smooth wall in your effort to help him as he slipped into Blackwatch. His ever-waning attention to your beautifully crafted gifts; his ignorance.

However, during that time you did meet the heroes personally. You caught Reinhardt's attention particularly. You were amazing! He'd look over your shoulder in awe in what you were making for Cassidy, spouting words of encouragement, saying something about how you should teach him so he could crochet for Ana and Fareeha. When someone dared you couldn't take your turn arm wrestling Rein, you did, and won! Crazy strength, right? Just kidding, he let you win. When you complained, you stayed up as everyone trickled out continually trying to beat him. It was very comical sight; opponents crouched over a table, one 2ft bigger than the other. When you were shy, he would offer a hand on your back as you entered the new thing together instead of alone. Reinhardt was always very clear with his emotions, which was quite grounding and you started to unintentionally imitate him a bit. You'd had your bubbly, loud conversations, but when Ana and Cass had left (and during Cass' stupid antics)- they sometimes became more quiet, and solemn. Seeing him awake too at ungodly hours of the night-morning, you had reached out to him in worry despite your state. The two of you had exchanged woes carefully and ending up in streaming tears in both sides, both of anguish and relief, ending in an all-encompassing hug underneath the cloudy night sky of Gibraltar. It was hard not to rely on him, because he wholeheartedly let you.

And that's it. Overwatch was...over? You remember that last day as your co-workers began to pack on to company helicraft to go back home from Gibraltar. Looking at Rein through the crowd, distraught. Ana was missing. You had sincerely guaranteed you would stay in touch until press had died down. With a tugging heartstring you returned home.

Looking at your comms device your stomach churned over Reinhardt's contact, finger hovering over the screen. What if he'd forgotten? Does he still want to speak? Is it saf- your thoughts cut off as the device lit up. A video call from Reinhardt. It was an initial image of a confused old man before he saw you, and his holographic face lit up. He corrected himself, asking of your safety, and if you are free to talk, etcetera. When you dizzily but enthusiastically agreed, he jumped back into over joyous questions, compliments and jokes. In this time apart, you would chat now and again. How Brigitte was; your latest projects; if you couldn't fall asleep or you woke up too early... It was nice during a time of ever-growing political tension.

Eventually, you were invited to visit for the holidays. As soon as you stepped off the hoverbus Reinhardt was there, asking you before scooping you up in a hearty hug and laugh. You'd missed that. As he gushed about his hometown you couldn't help but look over. He was overflowing with joviality- but weathered, more than before. An added sense of maturity and intelligence. You understood. And, it looked quite handsome on him. Not to mention the juxtaposition of his parental looking cardigan against his massive scar-strewn form.

This odd kind of new..adoration began to weasel its way into otherwise familiar interactions from back in Overwatch. Becoming more familiar with his bouts of depression, (Ana's death, all his friends disappearances...) consolations especially became more tender and intimate in the quiet hours of the Lindholm household or out on the green hills. Sometimes you'd wake up at a horribly early time, and going down the stairs you would find Reinhardt carefully cooking. Anxiety wake-ups didn't seem as bad anymore- actually, they became less frequent as you would just exist together into the night, sometimes even cuddle. Sometimes Torbjörn would shout and make you cry, leading to Brig and Rein to scold him and then comfort you, Reinhardt more calmly. You'd go grocery and material shopping (for Brig) together. Reinhardt would ever so subtly wince at loud metallic noises, and you would hold his hand. You'd take over for Brig in tending his wounds when he tried to 'stay in shape'. You weren't trying to be an opportunist, but god his body was pretty too. Maybe you paused a little too long, because in-between a pained grunt he chuckled. This confused you, as minute as it was, but it wasn't long before he began gently dropping more smart-mouthed compliments and half-jokes in a lower tone than normal. One night that you had stayed up late together he had pulled you aside. With the same sincerity and nervousness of when he had initially contacted you post-Overwatch; and the same cloudy night sky, he articulately confessed his growing romantic feelings for you.

If you reciprocate? He is overjoyed to a silent smile, forehead bumping against yours as he offers a calloused hand to rest on your cheek. He eventually looks through to you, a small smug smile as he articulates something cheesy but tender. Boundaries and expectations are shared, and it's pretty easy to trust each other. You have your own business to attend to, but when you do meet, it is loud and beautiful. Boisterous, passionate holidays and days together. He remembers what you taught him, and presents to you a bad crocheted..blanket (?) as big as his hand that he's proudly holding it with. You slam the table harder than him as you're so close to winning a stupid family board game against him. He princess carries you often just-cause. Quiet and meaningful talks as he holds on to your every word.

It's nice.

--------------------------------------------------BTS ↴

[fire-but-ashes-too]

thank youuuu!!

i think i did one with one of my OCs over here (please check it out im really proud of it eheh) but never done this for myself!

*cracks knuckles* here we goooo

are you named after anyone?

yes and no, i just so coincidentially happen to be named after my maternal great grandmother, tho it wasn't intended (at least, not that i know of)

when's the last time you cried?

a few nights ago after i woke up from a nightmare where i had a spider on my feet biting me. dont ask. i panicked.

do you have kids?

nope and i dont intend on having any.

do you use sarcasm?

every day. as much as i can. my beloved sarcasm <3

what's the first thing you notice about people?

not the first thing i notice probably, but the one i remember more vividly, is the voice. i have a sound memory (is that how you call it? i cant remember) so i do this thing sometimes when im bored where i say the same sentence in my head over and over, each time in a different person's voice.

what's your eye color?

very boring brown. my right eye has slightly more greenish tones in it tho.

scary movies or happy endings?

uhmmmmm nice question id also like to know. no idea, it varies from time to time, as long as it's good idc. (rewatching rw&rb for the second time atm hehe)(why did i notice just now that in the red room scene the portrait behind alex while he's waiting for henry is ALEXANDER HAMILTON??? my internal theatre kid is screaming)

any special talents?

I HAVE DOUBLE JOINTED FINGERS. MY THUMB CAN GO UP AND DOWN AND APPARENTLY ITS SCARY BUT ITS SO FUN. and i can bend my fingers more than normal.

i also have a very quick memory and can loop my tongue.

where were you born?

here where i live, in verona :)

what are your hobbies?

an infinite moltitude of things. too many to count.

painting, drawing, writing (duh), reading, doing absolutely nothing, crocheting, doing clay stuff, baking/cooking, making plans on how to jump out of a winfdow in case lessons get too boring, learning progressively concerning and detailed facts about literally anything, acting and watching musicals. that's all that comes to mind rn.

do you have any pets?

none sadly, i've wanted a cat for a very long time, then a rabbit, a hamster, a fish, etc. my parents were always either allergic or against having a pet so i never had one.

any sport you play/played?

im an aerialst! i do aerial silks and aerial hoop and i like to think im pretty good at it (modesty aside its probably the first sport i've ever really been great at so.. yeah.)

when i was little i tred volleyball (a disaster), gymnastics (again, a failure), swimming (not bad but i didn't like it that much), skiing (i only went on winter break tho, and i absolutely despised it, although i won a couple races) and... yeah that's all i've done more than a couple lessons at.

how tall are you?

1,60. short. i think.. 5.2? i use the metric system sorry haha

what's your favourite subject?

uhhhh probably history... yeah. it's the only subject that the more you go into it the more interesting it gets, and it doesnt really grow harder like maths you know.

what's your dream job?

definetly acting. the idea of telling stories by becoming part of the story feels so amazing to me.

the ultimate-dream™️ is acting in a film/series based on a book. the fact that someone views and pictures you as a fictional character, as a character people read about, and talked about... best thing ever.

that's it! thank you so much for reading this far :D

gently tagging @holdmyteaplease @the-chaotic-writer @alhyastarain @jaxypaxyhaxy @dancinginsepia @a-k-oblackhat @ember-writer @justremuslupininamask @ashwithapen @aspiringfictionwriter @yesireadbooks @guessillcallitart @mychemicalwhatever

15 Questions 15 Mutuals

@kaiarchives tagged me in this game that I haven't had the pleasure of seeing before, so that's exciting. The rules are: Answer the 15 questions and tag 15 of your mutuals.

1. Are you named after anyone?

No.

2. When was the last time you cried?

Last Sunday. I don't think it was for any particular reason, I just had a headache and was feeling down.

3. Do you have kids?

No.

4. What sports do you play/have played?

I played a bit of a football as a kid and a bit of volleyball for school. I also did range shooting in my tween years.

5. Do you use sarcasm?

Quite a lot. I've been trying to cut back and be a bit more genuine, but my habit for being sarcastic and my generally low moods have given me a bit of Resting Bitch Voice, so people don't always pick up on it.

6. What's the first thing you notice about people?

Facial shape I think. Before I learn someone's name I generally remember them by the shape of their jaw and cheeks.

7. What's your eye color?

Blue, but it's a kinda greyish blue.

8. Scary movies or Happy endings

I like scary movies with happy endings. Give me protagonists who face down with the worst of humanity or the nasties of the world and come out alive and swinging, if not a bit traumatized.

9. Any talents?

I'm told I have a way with words. In general I don't believe in talent in the "innate skill" way though.

10. Where were you born?

Oslo, Norway.

11. What are your hobbies?

Writing, reading, movies, video games (mostly strategy and roguelikes,) I used to sing in a choir and I kind of want to get back into that.

12. Do you have any pets?

No. Haven't really had the opportunity to, but I'd like to get a dog someday.

13. How tall are you?

178 cm, so... what, 5'10?

14. Favorite subject in school

Language and it's not close at all. Social Sciences as a second place I suppose.

15. Dream Job?

Author. Give me a way to live from writing and I'll churn out books at a brazen clip. It might drive me crazy, but it'll be worth it.

As for the tags: @frostedlemonwriter @shay-puppitty @longwuzhere @indigostudies @an-elegant-void @mjjune @marlenadutch @fire-but-ashes-too @meerawrites @sparrowrising @silverslipstream @floweryprosegarden @the-secondborn-of-seven @chishiio @a-had-matter

[animated-moon]

hello there! I've been seeing this a lot but can you introduce your moots to everyone and what do you think of them? 🤗

HELLO THERE ANON <33 you caught me in a good day and i’m ready to have social interaction let’s go 🙌 i just added a few moots ive been talking to recently!! (and i finished this in one day)

@0jiro / meet the friendly neighbourhood iwa lover everyone. she’s very cute and i love her (we’re married) ! we would sell our souls for nanami (who wouldn’t) and she introduced me to a cute ket game <33 (thank you for moon ket he was so cute :( <3) she’s also very caring and if i were you i’d go follow her rn (what you doing if you arent already following her ?????)

@kyoutxni / I LOVE THIS MF 🤬 we’re hoes for each other he likes boobies and i draw him boobies ❤️‍🔥❤️‍🔥 we have an amazing toji krabs collab coming but yall just aren’t ready for my amazing art yet. tiddie lover, suguru geto chaser, nanami wanter, thirst dumper (me to him. yes.)

@miyamartina / FIRST FRIEND ON TUMBLR :(( GORLIE I HOPE YOU KNOW I LOVE YOU SM 🤬 she has amazing art (i dont want to hear martina art slander i will throw a tantrum) and shes the sweetest person ever :(( thank the rats, truly 😞🙏 we’re both weird genshin (itto… atm) obsessed people and i’m proud to be her itto tiktok dump rn 🙌

@neonical / HELLO???? i love you sm it was love at first sight and we were meant to be <33 us irls soon 😞 we’re also married and we in fact have an actual marriage certificate guys 🙄🙄🙄 our priest was leo btw he’s a professional and definitely didn’t scam 2000 dollars off us <3 ALSO IS VERY CUTE N SWEET AND HYPES ME UP I THEM SM :(((( will give you lots of presents when we meet muahmuah <3

@pm4gal / HELLO ILY SM 🤬🤬🤬 thank you for contributing to my wedding funds on dank memer lots of kisses to you 😚 ALSO MAY IS SO CUTE IM GONNA CRY SOMEONE GIVE HER LOVE RN (i’ll steal your pelvis bones when ur not looking if u dont) she also tolerates my weird preferred nicknames + hypes me up a lot and we talk about a certain blond man a lot.. if you know what i mean 😍

@luvbub / BUB <333 bub is also my wife (let’s pretend mitsuya doesn’t exist atm 🧑‍🦯) and i love her for how much she loves yarn 😞😞 i mean have you even seen her talk about her crochet projects it’s so cute it makes me wanna have a try. SHE ALSO HYPES UP MY COUCH CATALOGUE SHE ENCOURAGED ME TO GET A JUSTIN BIEBER COUCH YALL ❤️‍🔥❤️‍🔥❤️‍🔥 in conclusion, stan bub, luvbub (i’m hilarious) and support bub with everything you have <3

@shoyotime / hey incredibly seggsy babygurl 🙌🙌🙌🙌 /j INEZ IS THE BEST TOO <333 inez is so deprived of scented candles which should be a crime at this point 😕 one of my first wives ever and she lives in my closet #couplegoals #relationship #romantic 😍😍 one day i’ll send you a box of scented candles there and we’ll light everything on fire we can have a candlelight dinner 😍

@babydai / dai babie :((( <33 i love her sm she’s so gorgeous and sweet and cute :((((( she reminds me a lot of a bunny and she’s also one of the genuises who opened my eyes up to the world of cute ket game <333 i would drown her in my love and effection for every second of the day if i could >:( her voice is also super calming and adorable I LOVE HER SM 🤬

@beware-of-the-rogue / HELLO???? RO IS SO SUPPORTIVE SHE RB-ED MY WORK AND SAID SHES PROUD OF ME IN THE TAGS 🤬🤬❤️‍🔥 that’s all you need to win my heart over :(( i just know shes super hot and shes so caring ?!???!2$;9/$ complete momma figure i would smother her in kisses if i could 💯

@solaxena / ATHENA <33 athena is the cutest ever she’s my junior who i would protect with my entire life :((( she’s so cute and she just has that comforting aura around her that just makes you wanna melt like a marshmellow :( she’s also good at reading people but not in a creepy way 😞😞 AGAIN SHES THE CUTEST PERSON EVER I WANNA HUG HER AND GIVE HER CUTE KEYCHAINS EVERYDAY <33

@cupidines / CUPID !!! honestly i was a lil intimidated when i first saw your blog bcus you seemed so cool but sweet :(( (AND YOU ARE <3) and i’m so glad we’re moots and that i got to talk to you :((( also your cat is very cute and your blog is extremely pretty >:)) you’re also an adorable individual and i would run to whereever you are and give you free blankets and ice cream if youre sad

@haikyuutothetop / CEL >:(((( cel bby i love you so so much <33 we went through lots of divorces and marriages but tbh i don’t even remember why (but it was very fun >:)). I SWEAR I’LL TRY TO BE MORE ALIVE TO TALK ABOUT OUR PROJECT SOON 😞 with our wakatocelmoonten power we can take over the world 🙄🙌🙌 we’re just holding back smhh

@tobibam / BAM BAM!! bam bam is a huge sweetheart and thank you for writing such long asks to me and saying it’s alright i don’t reply immediately :((( AND YOUR VALENTINES LETTER TO US WAS SO CUTE TOO?!???? i remember when you asked for you and suga’s selfship for the ask game and yall were so cute omg :(((( pls stay cute i love you sm 🤬🤬

@mysterystarz / NOVA !!! nova is a big sweetie and akaashi lover >:)) she’s supported me a lot and along my journey with tendou anon my fav person ever :((( ALSO VERY CUTE AND I NEVER TOLD YOU BUT I LOVE UR THEME SM 🤬🤬 your writings are beautiful as always and honestly sometimes i reread the first longfic i’ve ever read from you 😞😞

@kitacharm / NAT BABE. GOSH. HAVE I TOLD YOU I LOVE YOU SO SO MUCH SMH 🤬🤬🤬 you’re so cute and precious :( and supportive :( and sweet :(( and you were also always helping me with tendou anon shenanigans :((( you deserve so much and i hope school isn’t too tiring for you 🤬 i’ll go over there and eat ur homework if i have to 🙄👎

@ichigomis / RAY MY WIFE <333 I LOVE OUR SUN MOON DYNAMIC SM AND OUR TAG 🤬🤬🙏 you were also so supportive when i was crying about teppei (i still am) and when i said i’d write for thoma (which i have not yet) 😞😞 i have to interact with you more UGHHHH. and also please don’t tattoo that sakusa on your forehead i’m still concerned about that (i’ll draw you a better one soon 🤬)

@spiritingawaytoanime / ELLIOT THE SWEETHEART 🤬🤬🤬 once again i love you SO MUCH (AND THAT TENDOU FIC??????? THAT TENDOU FIC OMFG IM STILL THINKING ABOUT IT 🤬🤬🤬🤬) your writing is so good and holy shit your fits *chefs kiss* YOUR FITS AND UR COSPLAY IM ON THE FLOOR 🙌 i’m glad we became moots and also we’re gonna have to watch howl’s moving castle soon 💯

@shirari / you and shirabu CUTEST JUNIORS EVER 😞😞😞 and in case you’ve ever wondered, I DID READ THAT FIC YOU NAMED ME TSUKIYO IN <333 it made my heart do little jumps thank you so so much :(( ALSO YOUR ART???? YOUR ART IS SO SEGGSY I LOVE IT 🙏 please keep doing art it’s absolutely adorable

@teyvatdreams / DANI!!!! oh lord i REALLY have to talk to you more >:(( hopefully that’ll happen as i start to write for genshin again (i actually have an albedo fic in my drafts >:)))!! AGAIN ONE OF THE CUTEST PERSON EVER AND I’D SELL MY LEG TO PROTECT YOU 🤬🤬🤬 i love you sm and want to give you lots of headpats and fluffy pillows >:(

[officialgomezaddams]

Cabin House

if this dosen’t take im shooting myself $wag no TW except usual sadness. Slight simp anakin and breeding kink but iykyk

She sat outside on the porch in her rocking chair, watching the ship in front of her lower its self onto the meadow surrounding the cabin that she lived in with her husband. She smiled to herself, her hands rubbing her pregnant stomach in relief that he was home. It was a new feeling to both of them, homeliness. A family that is now back together. Or at the very least, the start of one. 

They had met when they were both young, Anakin was in Jedi training, and Y/n was a mechanic at the same temple. It was a decent gig, she reasoned with herself. The many hours and days spent watching and learning from her father in his shop had paid off. 

Born and raised in the capital of the galaxy, the high life never slowed down. There was always loud traffic, busy trade; the planet never slept. Anyone could go to a party or club; some festival was always happening. The temple was different, a little peace in the concrete jungle. As the war started, the need for maintenance shot up—the urgency to fix whatever droids or ships needed to be rewired or mending broken welds. Simultaneously, the Jedi and the politicians tried to restore the balance, maintenance fixing everything else. 

A job was a job, and getting herself out of her father’s small auto body garage was a priority for her. Pulling night shift sucked, but the lack of staff and management who wanted to do nights meant she could get away with a lot. 

It started when the shy padawan walked up to her, the shift partner in the area she worked with was sleeping in his chair, and even tho he was older than her and had more experience, Y/n didn’t wake him up. It was her first real interaction with someone who was force sensitive, and she was thanking the stars that this boy somehow made his way to her.

It wasn’t because he was lost. Anakin had been at the temple long enough to know it by hand and could probably draw blueprints of the entire layout. The way around maintenance wasn’t that hard, as he often borrowed material from them to fix small stuff he could handle. Anakin had caught glimpses of her, he would stare at her for the few seconds it took to pass each other while he was leaving the ship and for maintenance to check it for any repairs that needed to be done.

“What’s up, Starboy?” Y/n teased. Even though she had never met him formally, he was quite well known for his destiny. 

He shuffled his feet around, and all the confidence he once had was gone. He looked at her before looking down at the table she was in front of, watching her set down the wrench she was fiddling with. 

“I need an arm.” He shot out, not even knowing how to ask for such a thing. 

“An arm?” She had responded, wanting to make sure he had said the right thing. “Why do you need an arm-” She asked but quickly stopped as he dropped his robe, and she realized he was missing the very thing he had asked for. “Oh. You need an arm.”

It took about six months for the arm to be built. It took a lot of measurements, calculating, and many, many nights for it to be made giving Anakin time to grow his confidence back up and flirt relentlessly with her. Telling her that it didn’t bother him that he would almost get little to no sleep because ‘being with you is a dream I never want to wake up from.’ On the nights he didn’t see her he would tell her, ‘Even though I couldn’t be with you, I still see you in my dreams. The best dreams I will ever have will always be the ones where you are in it. My dreams with you are so sweet to the violent reality of being a Jedi.’ 

The last night the two spent together working on his arm, or to be honest it was just her while Anakin would pour his heart out to her, hoping for something, a kiss, or even the simple statement that she returned his feelings. 

“If I have any problems with my arm, I’m coming to you. For my arm and my heart, you are the only one who knows how to fix them. Help me Y/n, my heart hurts, it burns for you. Every time I leave you or think about how you aren’t mine it aches. It’s so painful. Fix it, please. Tell me you don’t feel the same way, that your heart beats differently to the tune of mine.” He told her, watching her with doe eyes as she concentrated on wiring the last few things together. 

“Isn’t that against your rules?” 

“Attachment is forbidden, possession is forbidden. Compassion, which I would define as unconditional love, is essential to a Jedi’s life. So you might say I am encouraged to feel this way about you.” He stated, awkwardly biting his lip which made her giggle. 

“In three days, I have time off, maybe then you can teach me about this new teaching, and I can teach you something about how to use the arm.”

Neither of them expected it to be like this. Married and expecting. The moment she had told Anakin the news, he had immediately begun thinking of moving. Getting away from the city life and going somewhere more quiet and peaceful. Somewhere the war could not disturb them, so they landed in Alderaan. The whole planet was pulled right from a painting, and the moment they settled on the cozy cabin, they both realized that after years of running around, they finally found their home. With each other, in their soon-to-be family, and in Alderaan. 

As the ship lowered its self to the ground, the woman awkwardly got out of the chair and stood up, holding onto the wooden frame of the porch. Anakin swiftly got out, smiling from ear to ear as he saw her waiting for him. His feet moved on their own as he ran to her, watching her take careful steps to meet him. Before she knew it, his arms were around her, pulling her into him. “Don’t strain yourself for me.” He whispered, kissing her head. 

She was thirty-three weeks into her pregnancy with twins. The two babies growing safely in her womb had made things more difficult for her in terms of moving around, and she had long forgotten her shoes. 

They didn’t move in right away. They waited until work became difficult for Y/n, getting down to work on something wasn’t easy anymore, and she couldn’t be on her feet for more than an hour and a half until her feet started hurting. On the other hand, Anakin wanted to move in as soon as they got it. ‘You shouldn’t have to work, you’re pregnant with our babies, and I want you to enjoy this.’ He also knew how chatty the maintenance section was and was not looking forward to any rumors that could be spread about his wife. ‘Tell them they are mine. I’m not going to let them disrespect my children by disrespecting you. Tell them that I got you pregnant, that you took me in, and this is what my seed is doing to you.’

“How are you, my angel?” He asked, watching as the moonlight hit her face. He had been gone for most of the pregnancy, being forced to leave after her first doctor’s appointment that confirmed that Y/n was with child. Only then, she was nine weeks far too early to be showing anything. He came back to her a few weeks later, and the first thing he did when he greeted her was to kiss her fourteen-week stomach, but he didn’t stay long. The three days they were together were spent moving quickly into the new house. Only the important things she needed were to stay back at the temple so she could continue with work. They didn’t have much, but Anakin insisted on carrying everything, telling her that she was not even to lift her jewelry box because he didn’t want anything to happen to the babies. 

“Bored. I’ve been itching to get back to work; there’s only so much you can crochet before you want to stab yourself with the needles.” She joked, making them both laugh. 

“And the babies?” He asked, his hands dropping to rub the sides of her stomach. It brought him pride to see her like this. Seeing her carrying his child, seeing her full belly, smiling at the thought of the stretch marks that clung to her round belly, knowing that her body was adjusting well. The few times he was able to see Y/n through the hologram, he always admired his wife’s new changing body.

“Restless. I’m hoping now that you’re home, they’ll calm down for a little bit.” Anakin pulled her into a soft kiss. The whole time he had been away, she and the babies were always on his mind. He would wonder if they were kicking or thinking about what to name them. He would think about Y/n, if she was sleeping and if she was pushing herself too hard. He felt terrible for not being there to hold her hair back through morning sickness or walk her around to make sure she got the proper exercise she needed. He felt so useless. 

“How long do I have you back for?” She asked. It was an impossible question because no matter what time frame they had, it wouldn’t be enough. She just wanted him to be here with her, safe. The only good part about being away from the temple was she got away from all the rumors about her husband being dead or being held somewhere and tortured. She wanted him here in their home, enjoying the moments and milestones that she was going through alone. She had convinced herself that if - stars forbid it- something happened to Anakin, she could do it by herself. She could raise the kids and do what she could to make ends meet. It’d be challenging, and she understood that. But in her opinion, what could be harder than going through this pregnancy alone? Forcing herself to get the rooms ready, forcing her co-workers at the temple to help her in the later stages because she couldn’t depend on Anakin. 

He quietly led her to the house, purposefully ignoring the question because he knew that it wouldn’t be the one she wanted to hear. Only when she asked again as they reached the front door, he answered. “A week. Then I have to go back, and I don’t know where the council is sending me. Probably to Hutta.”

“You’re gonna be here for the births, right?” She pressed, stepping into the warm cabin and away from the cool breeze of the night along with his arms. 

“Y/n, I promise that once our children are born, I will be there for everything,” He reassured her. He knew it was a promise that he couldn’t keep. That the Jedi council would most likely tear him away from his family sooner or later. With war, or keeping the force away from the Darkside, he knew that it would be something. “Don’t look at me like that, Angel. You know how hard this is for me. You knew what you were getting yourself into.” He took a step towards her, but she shook her head and stepped back, turning around and began waddling herself towards the shared bedroom. 

“But I didn’t expect it to be left by myself throughout this.” His wife began, with Anakin following her quickly. “All alone and pregnant just to have you, my husband, show up for a few hours or a few days if I am lucky. Then to have him leave me alone again.”

“Am I not here, in our home when I can be?” 

“Our home?” She raised her voice, “It feels as if you are no more than a guest.” Finally turning around to look at him before walking over to the bed and sitting down facing away from him, looking out the window that gave a view of the spacecraft out front. “Anakin, I want to go back to the Coruscant.”

“Going back wouldn’t change a thing.” His words were forced, trying to stay calm and not lose his temper. He was a good husband, or at least he tried to be. It wasn’t easy - for anyone. But he tried, skipping meetings and purposefully doing stuff to get close to you, reporting ships and droids as broken so he could sit with you as you worked on them. Even now, with the war, just being on the opposite side of the same planet was enough for him. “You know that I can’t control what happens out there. I don’t get to pick and choose when I get to stay home!” His anger was cut off by the sound of her whimper. 

“Y/n, Starlight,” He was cautious with his words now, “Y/n?” She would not face him as he sat down next to her on the corner of the bed, his head down in shame. “Please tell me you don’t regret this.” Any of this, he thought to himself, knowing it was always her who got the short end of the lifestyle they had to hide. 

“Anakin, our love is like the Coruscant. It’s messy at first glance, and it’s hard to understand why it hasn’t just fallen apart in chaos. It doesn’t make any sense. But if you squint hard enough and really focus in,” She began slowly, trying not to fall apart. “You can see how nice and beautiful and all of the great things you can get out of it.” Her lip quivered, and her voice broke, letting the painful tears she was holding in anymore. “But I’m so tired of squinting.”

Neither of them looked at each other. While Y/n cried into her hands, Anakin just sat there, trying to figure out what to do. “I-” The reality that this could be it, this is all about to end, made him re-think his words. Did he miss something? Was he too happy that he was starting a family with the girl he fell in love with at nineteen to realize that she was now, what? Fallen out of love for him while she was right about to give birth? For once, Anakin was speechless. He could still fix this, right? I have to fix this. She’s fucking pregnant with my children. Our children. 

“What do you want then? I’m here, now, Angel. I -I don’t know what you want.” His voice was pitiful, but she was strong. She had to if she was going to do this alone.

“I want you to get in your ship and leave.” 

As soon as she said it, he was protesting, ”Go where? Baby, please, don’t make me go back.” He was the one crying now, tears falling mercilessly down his face, realizing that this was it.

“I don’t care where you go, Anakin. Just- you can’t stay here. You make me too sad.” 

[haveyouseenthisskeleton]

Hi, thank for doing this and for hopefully not minding the other ask i sent, im hoping for a dude.

Qualities:

Loyalty, encouraging, very family oriented.

flaws:

on my phone too much, mostly to keep my hands busy, i AM paying attention! An awful sweet tooth. Push over :( i dont wanna disappoint people. Ask me to get you a cup of water and i’ll say no like im offended while getting you that water.

lots of half baked hobbies, i dont stay on one thing for long (crocheting, perler beads, little crafty stuff, rpg games, i do DO them just with long pauses between them)

lazy, i dont like cleaning but will help and willingly do the dishes.

i have no problem laughing at myself and have thick skin for it, once my friend  spent an hour telling me how my fav sweater was so ugly a thrift store would pay me to give it to them out of pity and it was THE funniest thing and did not stop me from loving that sweater.

Really just love to appreciate art and fiction, what people can make is amazing just watching my friends draw or paint is really cool and fascinating!

Im a bit spacey, one time i forgot what a higfive was and gave them a hand hug instead.

Anothing thing is i cant be anyones drinking buddy, i dont drink or smoke, tho i dont mind people who do.

I’d like:

Someone whos comfortable with a lot of casual physical affection but wont get offended or take it personally when i need to be alone (not in a sad way just in a recharge way)

i dont use makeup ever and will not be told to dress up when i dont want to but i will accept help and suggestions when i do want to dress up. 

Cannot under any circumstances throw away or replace my stuff without talking to me first.

Any dude i end up with is gonna have to deal with my hoarding, cute boxes, random items, old trinkets, boy we’re going THRIFTING and im re organizing the Collection of random items i like, possible that WE like 😳

Really like cats but believe they need to be indoors so you GOTTA have good enrichment for them. Dogs are great i just dont think id have the energy to take them for runs or walks as much as most dogs need. 

I really like soups, soups with wantons and dumplings are pretty good to!

hope this isnt too much stuff??? would have used asks but only let me use like, less than 400 characters which is less than from other asks you posted so idk what thats about. anyways, thanks again!

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Hi !

It was a very difficult one, with lots of possibilities. For the other potential candidates, you had : UT Sans, UT Asgore, HT Sans, HF Sans, Dancetale Sans, D!Papyrus... But a very surprising one managed to beat them all, and it's...

DUSTALE SANS (Dune) !

Well, Dune is not an easy guy. You're not always understanding how his brain works, but at least, every day is an interisting experience.

Dune is very loyal. It takes literal months to gain his trust, but once he is trusting you, he can put his life in your hands blindly. He is lazy too, and you can sometimes mistake him for a cat with his weird habits. He needs encouragement to know when something he's doing is right, because after what happened Underground he has a very low self-esteem. He doesn't mind you being family oriented, even if you can see there's sometimes a small light that shuts in his eyes when you're talking about siblings. He's fine with your need to keep your mind busy, as long as he can just lay down in the couch and don't do anything during this time.

He has some difficulties with the push-over thingy however, since it's something Frisk did with him for a long time and he can get defensive when it happens. He has a sweet teeth too and loves eating garbage food. He has a certain sense of humor made of jokes about blood and corpses, but lighter jokes might makes him think of new soft ones. He's fine with creative activities, despite being bad at it. He is very forgetful and will need constant reminders of where to put things, because he gives up easily when he does'nt find something.

No worry for the affectionnate part. Dune has weird ways to show affections, like bringing you dead mouses like a cat, but he doesn't mind napping in your arms if it's what you wants. He understands if you need space, no problem, he can use this time to wander in the woods like the weirdo he is. He doesn't borrow things. However, there's a high chance you find him sometimes sleeping in your wardrobe. It's technically not borrowing your clothes if they are still in the wardrobe.

He's fine with cats, but it will take some time to explain him to not hunt the cat down. Once this phase is done, they are best buddies and you'll find them in all of his nap spots together. He's ok with soup. Well, he's ok with most of food actually (except spaghettis, for obvious reasons). He's a food vacuum, don't let anything on sight or he's taking it.

It's a bit of challenge, but Dune can be a great partner if you take time to learn how he is working !

[chocolatte-and-despair]

Thank you so much for answering! So matchup:

(No AU Preferences)

I currently have red hair (I bounce between red and blonde through out the year), I'm very curvy and I'm plus sized, im about 5'3 and I have brown eyes.

At my base, I am the sweet adorable one of the group that will drop kick you with no warning if you make me mad, unless you catch me working. I am a hairdresser by trade, so I'm basically a therapist without the pay but I enjoy making people happy and have them feeling better about themselves. I also like to draw/paint, bake, and crochet.

When it comes to relationships, I like 50/50: They have a bad day, I will try my best to help them and vice versa. I'm more of a sub in the sheets so I would prefer a more dominant partner. I also would like if they are taller than me.

After thinking for a little bit, I decided to give you... Asgore (Undertale Asgore)! Here are a few reasons why. First of all, Asgore really needs someone who would try to understand him and listen to his worries. He is a very broken down person, be it a sweet one, either way, that’s why, if you would give him the time of day, he will make sure that your life is as wonderful as possible. He is more dominant too, but he is in a very gentle way, always caring about your well-being before anything else. 

* His age: Human age: 2304 years old, Monster age: 48 years old

* His height: 8′3 feet

* His yandere Type: Caring yandere

* His dere type:  Undere

* His Sexuality: Cisgender Male Heterosexual Demiromantic

A . How would he show his love and affection? How intense would it get? - Asgore tries to be a very gentle lover. He shows a very caring side too, though he can get angry too, whenever he thinks that you are not taking good enough care of yourself. That’s why his affection is always doting. He isn’t the best at cooking, but he will try to learn how to prepare your favorite meals, so when you are down, that he could surprise you with them. He will also always try to give you advice whenever you seem to be lost about something.  

B. What type of future is he planning with his lover? - There is nothing more that he wants that for you two to end up getting married. He wants for you two to start a new family too, but he won’t bring the idea up until he is sure that you are ready for something like that. He doesn’t want to overwhelm you.

C. What is the scariest moment with him? - Asgore tries to really be a very sweet person. Tries to never get angry, but when he does, he gets angry. We need to remember that he had the heart to kill innocent children. After doing something like that, he can do anything he wants. He is not afraid to hurt the people close to you to prove his point, especially if you would try to leave him. He lost a lot of people in the past, he’s not letting that happen again. 

D. How does he usually act with his lover? - Thankfully, his angry moments are very rare, and in an every day basis, he is very sweet. He loves to tell you silly dad jokes, hoping to get at least a pity laugh and smile out of you. He will also always leave you a few flowers alongside breakfast for you, whenever he would need to go to work and couldn’t wait for you to wake up. He is simply a secret romantic, and would try to do small gestures that he thinks to be romantic.

E. How would he court his lover before? - Asgore wouldn’t be sure if he would want to court you or not. You are younger than him and he was sure that you could find someone better than a simple old man like himself. But if you would show any sort of interest in him, he would try his best to charm you with his silly yet loving self.

F. What type of affection does he give? - Asgore is a never ending romantic. You will always live a life that is straight out of a romance comedy with him. Secret dinners under the moonlight, trips to the lake, weekends in a cabin, secret dates, majestic anniversaries, love notes hidden in between your things. Honestly, anything you can think of, he will do it, hoping to get that sweet smile he loves so much on your face. 

G. What sort of kinks would he ask to try out with you? - Asgore is a gentle dom. He only enjoys it if you enjoy it, and he would never force himself on you if you would ever show any signs of hesitating or not being in the mood. 

1. Infantilism - It’s one of his guilty pleasures, and he wouldn’t admit liking this until he knows that you wouldn’t judge him. From the moment he discovered this play, he wanted to try it out with you, but he just doesn’t have the courage to ask you about it. 

2. Maiesiophilia - He would just find the way you look while bumpy with his baby very attractive. That is something you both made. The fruit of your love, how could he not be attracted to this form of yours?

3. Butts - He isn’t sure what is it about it, but he absolutely loves the way his paws feel whenever he places them on your behind. He hopes you don’t mind him touching you there, because he will make it a habit, as long as you don’t mind it. 

[sungwanns]

ah as someone who went to catholic school, i feel your pain with the uniforms. thank you tho - just picture your typical 2000s/early 2010s emo kid and that's me (≧▽≦) but for real - i'd pay good money to see you and seungmin switch for a day!

christmas cookies do sound fun! i'm sure yours taste great - i just bought a box from a store because i'm not even going to attempt making any HAHAHA. also i love how diverse your music taste is, and as a fan of j-pop/j-rock, i totally approve of one ok rock! yeah i feel you on taylor swift too. tho i wasn't such a fan of her as a teenager, i can appreciate her songs better now that i see them as the music of my youth i sound so old HAHAHA

ohh i never knew that about libra risings - that's pretty cool! hmm i don't think i've ever paid attention before to whether or not my face is symmetrical...i'll just pretend it is if it isn't (￣▽￣) ah you knowing all of this about skz is totally expected tho d(ﾟｰﾟ@) have you created charts for them before?

aww all your crochet stuff sounds so cute! and the skzoo pillows sound fun - i'd love to see when you finally get around to making them. i'll have to check out that podcast tho - i love paranormal stuff too!

also you're a supernatural fan? i haven't really seen the show (just a few eps here and there) but i feel like i know too much thanks to all the tumblr posts i've seen HAHAHA. i hope you're doing okay after the finale (≧▽≦)

true about the kingdom stuff - i was rewatching stages with a friend and that's the only reason i remember them. it seriously feels like it happened like. i dunno, last year. definitely not a few months ago.

ooh and as for the greens, i love lime green the best, but every green is still good...though i guess that depends on what colors they're with. totally respect your impatience for paint to dry - i imagine drawing is less messy than painting too. but either way i'm sure your art looks great! and speaking of which, i'm still digging for zoro changbin HAHAHA. AHH i'd die if/when you make a skz version of nami! i'm now imagining a hybrid of minho, hyunjin, and seungmin.

aww that's true - how far they've come/stays have come really shows these past couple of months. i still wish i would've joined earlier, but better late than never i suppose XD

i forgot about the crowd surfing! wow seungmin really went all out for MAMA this year. i kinda feel the same about the intro stage - it would've been better if they danced together, but at least we got hyunjin opening the whole thing. we really do need to take what we can get ( ;∀;)

ahh that's great!! FINALLY you get your boy! i haven't opened mine yet so...i guess it'll be a surprise who i pull (let's face it - it's probably jisung again HAHA). here's manifesting you keep getting more of him and seungmin in all your future albums!

oh and btw, thanks for letting me know your time zone! your gift is all finished - i just need to time the posting properly so you can get it on your 25th (i live 13 hours ahead of you apparently). would receiving it sometime in the afternoon be an okay time?

- your secret santa ^^

Omg catholic school buddies haha!! but yeah haha the uniforms were nice for not having to pick out an outfit everyday but at the same time it sucked having no creative liberties!! But emo fashion is great too!!! i end up dressing like that on accident every once in a while haha but seungmin!! you heard what the people want!! don’t be shy! come here and let me style you 😌

They took me like all day but they were fun haha!! and there’s nothing wrong with just buying some!! I do that when i don’t feel up to it haha it requires a very specific mood !! Omg thank you!!! Yay!! another one ok rock fan!! but im really not picky when it comes to music or food or anything really i like a little bit of everything!!

HAHA i feel that sometimes it’s just easier to pretend!! But also any planets in your first house (if you have any) can affect your appearance too since the 1st house rules the self!! for example uranus in the 1st house can give a person a tall almost lanky frame LMAO and i have that placement and look at me 5’10 LMAO & neptune in the 1st can give dark magnetic eyes & like a constant look in their eyes like they’re not really here?? haha and i have really dark blue almost gray eyes and people always ask what im thinking about💕 but uhh HAHA i may or may not have skz’s charts saved for the occasional study LMAO

Aw thank you!!! 🥺 I’ll definitely keep you updated on it!!! And yes i totally recommend the podcast if you have time it’s a really good mood lifter!!

Oh HAHA i totally get that there are so many things that i know sm about without watching bc of tumblr!! As for the finale… JAHDJSJ i just honestly pretend it never happened LMAO Castiel was my favorite character and they had to do him like that 😭 But whatever i just pretend it ended a completely different way so i don’t lose my mind LMAO <<3

RIGHT like it feels like so long ago!! I’ll have to rewatch them myself when i get some time and i’ll get back to you on it!!

Ooh!! I love lime green too!! I adore bright color & i love wearing them to haha Oh but i totally get you about it depending on what colors it’s with!! Oh yeah it totally can be so much neater than paint i always get paint all over myself HAHA well i always end up getting charcoal on my face too but that’s beside the point!! And omg im so sorry!! I’ll go dig it up and link you to it!! Here you go lovely!! The lighting was gross in the original so i cleaned him up in the rb LOL don’t mind it too much!! He’s not perfect but i think he still looks pretty nice! Also i believe i used an i am you era picture for binnie’s reference photo 😌

It really does!! 🥺 And don’t worry about it lovely!! I didn’t join red velvet’s fandom until they were a little over 3 years old so i totally get it!! but don’t worry about it bc there is still so much content to come!! 💙

But he really did UGH and he looked so nice while doing it!! I’m so proud of all of them!! And yes AH i would’ve just died happy if i got to see all of the members of the collab stage dance together!! But I got wendy in a collab stage with yuna, wonyoung and more & im getting a seulgi and bambam collab so i really can’t complain too much!! Skz please where are some more collabs id do anything

Oh i’m so excited for you!!! Manifesting a minho and/or hyunjin pull for you you deserve it!! Ah but thank you sm!! I hope i can continue to pull them!!

And omg ofc!! I really look forward to the gift i just know it’s gonna be amazing!! :D And i don’t mind at all!! Whatever time is easiest for you works just fine with me lovely!! 💙

[disco-cola]

Hi Jennie I follow u on twitter as well and I saw what you wrote today about your job & I can relate 100% man. Im stuck in a job I HATE (sales assistant). going to work is an absolute torture I literally cry everyday b4 going to work I hate it that much but I have to pay a rent & eat :( I want 2018 to be a year of change & happiness for me & id like to start by having a job I actually enjoy but idk bc I feel like Im not good at anything + Im v shy to be an actress or do somethg cool like that :(

just for y’all who don’t know what this is about: on twitter i basically just told about an incident at a christmas party where someone who didn’t know me asked what i was doing, so i mentioned the extra thing and that person was like “extras don’t become movie stars, that’s not substantial! why don’t you have any better goals” and that really pissed me off cause i never started with this being an extra-thing cause i wanna be on tv or in cinema or get famous or something and i’m well aware you’re just a production accessory as an extra, but to me it’s an alternative/compensation as my goddamn anxiety has caused a lot of troubles in previous jobs i had here in my suburb. i hated what i was doing so much, barely got out of my town and felt even more depressed bc it felt like nothing exciting was ever happening in my life. since you get paid the same hourly wage as an extra as you get in any other mini job like being a cashier here in my town, i figured what the hell. i’m not forced by the agencies to take on booking requests, which is something that takes pressure off of me, even though i still barely ever sleep for more than 2 hours before filming days bc my anxiety just keeps me awake, that didn’t magically go away. but since it’s something that truly interests me, seeing up close how series and movies are produced, i can cope with it better than i ever could when i had to get up and go to some store or warehouse and do the same shit i hated every time. plus not everybody has big “goals” in their life as a normal-formal academic career, going to uni etc. and that doesn’t make me “less worth” or “dumb”. if you wanna work 40 hours a week, earn a lot of money even if it’s in a job you actually hate, just to be able to afford a nice house, an expensive car, luxurious materialistic things and an exotic holiday once a year then that’s FINE - but i don’t want this. i don’t wanna live for saturdays, i wanna keep a sense of freedom in my life and if not love then at least like what i’m doing for a job (and i’m okay if that just affords me a 1-bedroom flat as long as it’s nice and i can stay true to myself and my passions). and if i wanna live my life working small jobs because i feel i can handle life better that way, who do people think they are to judge?

i can relate to what you’re going through; i’ve had this with my previous jobs here in suburbia too, but if you have running expenses you obviously need to earn money and it’s a vicious cycle you can’t break out of easily. you know, a lot of the people i meet on filming days have normal jobs in their regular life and do the extra-thing for an exciting change from their usual routine. it also earns them some money on the side. plus you really don’t have to be “good at anything” for it. change comes slowly. if you’re already working in sales and have experience, maybe you can first start by changing the store you work at?? for example, i also hated the stores i worked at, the whole atmosphere was terrible and i swore i wouldn’t ever work in such stores again, but i still could imagine working in an antique store for example. this way you don’t have to do a one-eighty turn and go into a completely new field, but finding a store you would personally enjoy shopping at maybe makes it better? and then you can just go from there? and figure out what you’re good at in your free time, i’m sure there’s SOMETHING… an instrument, drawing, writing, singing, hell crocheting and making your own clothes, or maybe even try to get out of your comfort zone by learning some lines from your favorite movie… you may surprise yourself! i believe in you! 💘

[frozenrose13]

Larp is one of the last hobbies i have that my health hasnt touched aside from the presence of my wheelchair

Crafting my hands fuck up enough that theres stretches of time where i cant hold a needle steady

Art its my hands again and my sight

Even the vc stuff, i cant manage the stairs to the basement work space anymore and i cant bend over the bathtub without starting to convulse and shake

I cant knit, crochet, sew, write, make art, do anything vc related, go on walks in the cold, do any snow activities, i cant rp i cant make jewelry i cant do any of the things that kept me alive for the last 20 years. Even singing, now.

It hurts so badly

Either my hands convulse and are too shaky or i cant bend them in the motions id need to, i have symptoms consistent with aphasia so writings out, i cant...

All the things that kept me going, kept me alive, provided solace and shelter and pride are just....gone. And i dont know if ill ever be able to get them back

Larps the last thing i have. Sure i cant draw a bow properly in my chair but i can draw well enough to peg someone charging at me directly on the bridge of their nose. Sure everyone there treats me differently but like everyone does now. Even wolf has his moments. I can still fight if im careful i can still spar well enough that experienced players are impressed. I have enough impressive garb made from before that still fits me.

Its the last one but after today i think im losing that too...

[bloodystrider]

(( ALL OF THEM

Getting to know you Questions for the Mun! 

(( I will get you back for this!!Splitting these up between both asks so its not hella long for one Undercut! ))

🎂- When's your birthday?

December 7th!

👨‍👩‍👧‍👦- What's your family like?

An everyday family, we all hate each other until they do something for us then we like them for like two minuets then go back to hating each other again

🐶- Favorite animal?

Fox!!!! I can not tell you how hard it was to not cry when i was able to hold a baby fox bc i love them so much

🔶- Favorite color(s)?

For dark colors; Red and blackFor light colors; Pink, Babyblue, purple

🎥- Favorite movie?

The nightmare before christmas!! and also Mama mia, Jay got me hooked on that one

📺- Favorite TV show?

good questionI dont actually have control over the tv so?? i litterally never watch it??

🎞- Favorite cartoon/anime?

Anime; Yuri on ice, Servamp, and tokyo ghoul are all tied for firstCartoon; Steven universe 

🍔- Favorite food?

Chicken strips, not joking if a place has them there is a 95% chance thats what ill get

🍦- Favorite ice cream flavor?

Blue bunny (i think its blue bunny) make the BEST salted caramel ice cream thats my favorite flavor, i get it whenever i get ice cream

🍭- Favorite candy?

Sour gummy worms

🍸- Do you drink?

Every now and then (meaning once every couple years) ill have a tiny glass of sprite mixed with dr mcgillicuddy cherry, (it just tastes like cherry sprite) but if i drink anymore then that or any other kinds (especially wine) i get horrible stomach aches so no, i dont really drink bc it hurts my stomach 

👣- What do you like to do in your spare time?

Cross Stitch, Crochet, Draw, Sew, play games on my phone

⚽️- Do you like any sports?

Badmittens pretty fun but thats about it

🎮- Favorite video game(s)?

PC ones; Bendy and the ink machine, Outlast, The evil within 

⛪️- Are you religious?

I think so

⌛️- Last thing you did before logging in?

Get outta bed

🎈- Share a childhood memory!

I once went to an aquarium with my gma and little sister and we got to pet seapancakes and see jellyfish and thats where i learned im afraid of being under deep water becuase they have tunnels that you go through and the fish swim over you. I got the cutest seapancake plushy tho!

🛍- What was the last purchase you made for?

According to my account; A ipod charger ima probably have to return bc i dont think itll fit the ipod i have

💸- If you had a billion dollars and could only spend it, what would you buy first?

A house so i can get out of this hell 

🖌- Are you artsy?

Yess

❤️- How would you describe yourself?

A gay potato with anxiety and depression whos just trying to live his life

💛- How do other people describe you?

I have no idea

⭕️- Favorite Pokemon?

Leafeon!! 

💠- what is the Most expensive thing you own?

My phone, its like 200$

⚜- What is the most precious thing you own?

I have a little piano music box that an old friend sent me and it still means alot to me becuase he remembered the time i told him i love music box’s 

🐻- Do you have any stuffed animals?

I have to manyJUST on or near me/my bed i have a huge stuffed dog pillow pet, an Eevee plush, Bendy and Boris plush, A valentines day fox, a little TY fox, A stuffed unicorn, a bee pillow pet, A leafeon plush, and i think one moreThats not including the ones i have stuck away 

🐝- Favorite season?

Fall

🐋- share a Weird/funny story?

Once when my sisters, mom and gma and i think uncle all went out to eat, first my sister spilled her drink on my other sister then later on i spilled my drink on myself and ever since then there was a joke that stayed for a couple years of someone going “Keep your drink way over there becuase im sitting across from you and dont wanna be spilled on” 

[juicy-juice-hyp0tenuse]

99 questions that no one asks that im gonna answer cuz y not

1:Do you sleep with your closet doors open or closed? Uh, it depends on how trashed my closet is XD if there a lot of clothes on my floor then i close my closet doors to keep my dog from nesting XD 
2:Do you take the shampoos and conditioner bottles from hotel? Lol yea 
3:Do you sleep with your sheets tucked in or out? Uh, if i just made my bed then yea. But after a while i get bored and so i undo everything 
4:Have you ever stolen a street sign before? No... 
5:Do you like to use post-it notes? Yea, but nit for anything important 
6:Do you cut out coupons but then never use them? I dont need to use coupons lol 
7:Would you rather be attacked by a big bear or a swarm of a bees? Bees.... 
8:Do you have freckles? Nope 
9:Do you always smile for pictures? Not always. I dont smile unless i have a good reason to. 
10:What is your biggest pet peeve? When people get proportions wrong in a drawing. Especially when it comes to breast sizes and height. Idk why, but it really pisses me off. 
11:Do you ever count your steps when you walk? If it crosses my mind then yea. 
12:Have you ever peed in the woods? I dont think so 
13:What about pooped in the woods? No 
14:Do you ever dance even if theres no music playing? I might have. I cant remember 
15:Do you chew your pens and pencils? Yea 
16:How many people have you slept with this week? 0 
17:What size is your bed? Queen size 
18:What is your Song of the week? No logic sung by Megurine Luka 
19:Is it okay for guys to wear pink? Hell yea 
20:Do you still watch cartoons? Lol of course :3 
21:Whats your least favorite movie? Rings 
22:Where would you bury hidden treasure if you had some? I would probably bury it under the mango tree in my back yard 
23:What do you drink with dinner? Usually water when im at home but when im at a restaurant then Coke 
24:What do you dip a chicken nugget in? Nothing... 
25:What is your favorite food? Sushi! And Hot wings! (Not together, of course...eww) 
26:What movies could you watch over and over and still love? The goonies or Kimi no na wa (your name) 
27:Last person you kissed/kissed you? My ex boyfriend. But come not this weekend but the next, ima do a thing to this boy who asked me on a date. I'll go more into detail in another post about James. 
28:Were you ever a boy/girl scout? Yea. Girl scouts sucked. But i would hang around with the boys when my bro was in boy scouts. I loved it 
29:Would you ever strip or pose nude in a magazine? No... 
30:When was the last time you wrote a letter to someone on paper? No long ago. But that person will never get that letter.. 
31:Can you change the oil on a car? Most likely 
32:Ever gotten a speeding ticket? Nah, i cant drive :3 
33:Ever ran out of gas? Again, cant drive 
34:Favorite kind of sandwich? All Italian meat and muenster cheese. No condiments 
35:Best thing to eat for breakfast? Frozen waffles 
36:What is your usual bedtime? Check tumblr, check hello pal, check quiz up and the cuddle up with my waifu, GUMI 
37:Are you lazy? Yea 
38:When you were a kid, what did you dress up as for Halloween? Uh, my farthest memory of dressing up was being Cleopatra for halloween one year. Then the next year i was Spectra Vondergiest for Monster High, next year i was a disco dude, next year i was Hatsune Miku and last year i was Noiz from Dramatical murders. 
39:What is your Chinese astrological sign? If im correct, im the monkey 
40:How many languages can you speak? 1. I can speak a tad of Japanese tho 
41:Do you have any magazine subscriptions? Nope 
42:Which are better legos or lincoln logs? LEGOS!!!!! 
43:Are you stubborn? Not really 
44:Who is better…Leno or Letterman? What 
45:Ever watch soap operas? Nope 
46:Are you afraid of heights? YES 
47:Do you sing in the car? if im with my sister yea 
48:Do you sing in the shower? Yea 
49:Do you dance in the car? Again, if im with my sister 
50:Ever used a gun? A bb gun 
51:Last time you got a portrait taken by a photographer? Spring picture day 
52:Do you think musicals are cheesy? Lol yea. Fuck musicals 
53:Is Christmas stressful? Yea cuz the fucking overly religious bs is annyoying g for me, an atheist 
54:Ever eat a pierogi? Hell yea, im polish :) 
55:Favorite type of fruit pie? Cherry~ 
56:Occupations you wanted to be when you were a kid? Vet / doctor 
57:Do you believe in ghosts? Yup. Ive actually had a few encounters 
58:Ever have a Deja-vu feeling? Yup. 
59:Take a vitamin daily? Nah 
60:Wear slippers? If i need em and i have a pair ready then yea 
61:Wear a bath robe? If i need it then yea 
62:What do you wear to bed? Panties and maybe a shirt. Or i just dont take anything of and just sleep 
63:First concert? Ive never been to a concert 
64:Wal-Mart, Target or Kmart? Target 
65:Nike or Adidas? Neither. I dont care 
66:Cheetos Or Fritos? ....fritos 
67:Peanuts or Sunflower seeds? Niether 
68:Ever hear of the group Tres Bien? It sounds familiar but i can put my finger on it 
69:Ever take dance lessons? Yes. I was a ballerina in kindergarten 
70:Is there a profession you picture your future spouse doing? Im not married 
71:Can you curl your tongue? Yea 
72:Ever won a spelling bee? Ive never been entered in one 
73:Have you ever cried because you were so happy? Yes 
74:Own any record albums? Nope 
75:Own a record player? Nope 
76:Regularly burn incense? Nope but if i could i would 
77:Ever been in love? Yes and i still am. But ever day im haunted with the fact that i will never see him again 
78:Who would you like to see in concert? A vocaloid or B52's 
79:What was the last concert you saw? Again, ive never seen one 
80:Hot tea or cold tea? Both 
81:Tea or coffee? Tea 
82:Sugar or snickerdoodles? ....thats a hard question....SUGAR 
83:Can you swim well? i can swim very well. I just really dont like water XD 
84:Can you hold your breath without holding your nose? yea 
85:Are you patient? Depends 
86:DJ or band, at a wedding? Mmmn nah 
87:Ever won a contest? Not that i can remember 
88:Ever have plastic surgery? No 
89:Which are better black or green olives? GREEN :3 
90:Can you knit or crochet? I can crochet a little. Im not that good tho 
91:Best room for a fireplace? Living room 
92:Do you want to get married? Yea 
93:If married, how long have you been married? 
94:Who was your HS crush? Im still in middle 
95:Do you cry and throw a fit until you get your own way? No 
96:Do you have kids? No 
97:Do you want kids? Yes. But i wont carry said kids. Im an asexual 
98:Whats your favorite color? GREEEEEEEN 
99:Do you miss anyone right now? Yes....DAMIAN I LOVE YOU 😔😫