#im never gonna be normal about jean moreau

[moreauz]

big thank you to jeremy knox for finally verbalizing what we’ve been thinking for an actual decade now

[meyhew]

Seed 😭😭😭😭 I’m back😭😭😭 I was last here crying about one day. I’m back to cry about all for the game OHMYGOD.

I read the books and TSC all for the first time over the last week and I’m… unwell. I’ve been scrolling and deep diving on here and have so much fomo of missing out on when this was an insanely active fandom cause it looks like everyone was having such a great time omg. But just. OHMYGOD. My heart. Neil 😭😭😭😭 Andrew!!!! Kevin!!! Jean omg I’m truly never gonna be over this. The Neil and Jean parallels I’m gonna be sick.

I came across mentions of lessons in cartography and how it’s based off the extra content Nora shared. Soooo might jump into that next 😅😅😅

Just wanted to come cry to you and see if you had any thought and comments to share 🙂

hii SORRYYY this has been sitting in my inbox for days…. i’m so sorry but omg. isn’t it CRAZY to read for the first time??? i remember reading the trilogy three times back to back bc i just could not get enough. and then i devoured all the extra content (which isn’t on nora’s blog anymore but u can find here). im not even gonna lie bro it was such a blast to be on here back in the heyday of it all. nora was so active, there were so many fandom wide jokes. i highly recommend searching up neil’s jortventures on youtube and watching all of them in order.

i thought i might be normal about it all now but then i read tsc and i was 18 all over again. jean moreau… oh his extra content bits had already ruined me and he’d held a special place for me but reading his story… watching him struggle… i wanted to sob. he’s just a boy :( eagerly awaiting my rainbow crate aftg box so i can read from the hardcovers

i never read lessons in cartography but i know everyone raves about it. it was THEE andreil fic of all time for a very long time, i just never rly got into fic for the fandom. they’re such uniquely fucked up characters i fear no one will ever Quite get them the way nora writes them so i shan’t venture past that. but god… what an insane story

[chewingonsneakers]

some songs i think should be on aftg playlists more often (and are on mine) — or im just fucking blind it could be either

Pt. Four — JEAN MOREAU

- Hurt by Nine Inch Nails (catchin a whiff of sad tall french boy off this one)

- All We Ever Wanted Was Everything by Bauhaus (idk why but this song makes me cry very very hard because it makes me think about young Jean and Kevin and they’re just taking care of each other’s wounds and trying to be normal friends when everything is trying to keep that from happening and then Kevin escaping and leaving Jean on his own in the face of Riko’s brutality.)

- It Can Never Be The Same (Live) by The Cure (HOLYYY FUCKING SHIT okay just hear me out,, listen to this song and think of Jean. think of Jean thinking of Kevin. think of Jean thinking of Kevin being safer and successful and moving on. then think of Jean stuck in the Nest being abused within an inch of his life and working himself to death every day without a Kevin to be there with him when it got really bad. “I miss you, but it’s not like you’re gone” imagine the constant reminders that Kevin is building a life for himself outside of the Nest, imagine having to face him on court without any mercy knowing you used to clean each other’s wounds as children. brb gonna lay face down on a floor a cry.)

- Alt.End by The Cure (“1 Draft where Jean didn’t commit suicide on graduation”. Alternate End. haha. no it’s actually quite sad but the song hits tho)

- Please Don’t Leave by The Drums (more Kevin and Jean feels. there’s a lot of em in my heart and in my head, tell me why this has to end,)

[darkfinch]

Like colors and outfits and haircuts and vibes!!

[Original Ask] Out of curiosity: ideal hell au aesthetics for both Eliot and Moreau?

!!! thank you for clarifying, i made some melodramatic hell au aesthetic collages bc the answer is just "canon but 2 inches from the left" and im gonna say too many words abt it :)

SO. here's too many words abt aesthetics.

i’ve always been of the baseless opinion that eliot started growing his hair out after he left moreau, as a way to be a little less recognizable (also something something bodily autonomy)? so since our hell au eliot has not actually done the leaving, yet, he’s still bound to moreau’s own aesthetic preferences for his people; i think his hair’s a little shorter than it was in rundown job in this au, and it gets longer the longer he stays with the team.

(i also think hell au eliot is a little physically smaller than our canon eliot, because he's hasn't been running jobs solo and he hasn't been his own first and last line of defence for a while? no one's getting close enough to him that he needs to be able to Take Hits etc. i think he probably starts putting on more weight when he joins the team.)

clothes & colours: we know moreau likes his people in black-on-black everything, so eliot starts out v dark v monochromatic. once he starts trying to sell Nate's Eliot TM as a Real Person with Preferences, he goes out and grabs some henleys and some plaid shirts and some jeans (so cheap so so cheap), but I don't think he ever gets to Our eliot's jewel tone situation?

hell au eliot is like regular eliot except washed out and desaturated and a lil empty; he's not going for The Iconic Red Eliot Shirt. he's going for the saddest noncommittal brick red you've ever seen in your life

(i think by the time we get to season 3, eliot looks v much like Our eliot who we know and love, long hair and accessories and all, + warmer richer colours to break away from moreau's cool dark palette)

For Danmien Mornmo, every time I write this man he is drinking wine in a black silk robe, at sunset, like I cannot stop him it’s his life’s true calling and his default state

uhhhh aesthetically he is.....goran visnjic in a variety of suits. theres not much different here. he usually looks well put together unless it’ll benefit him not to; when he’s mad at eliot, he’s in the full suit. further into the au when he’s pressing on eliot's Sense Of Loyalty or Protective Nature Tee Em he’s either got the tie and the jacket off or he’s gone back 2 the robe, hair ungelled. he’s not actually more vulnerable either way but he is Signifying that he is. Stratégique

vibes for the lads: we're taking the dog metaphor and running a marathon with it. for anyone who has read my eliot/moreau fics u know abt my devil+hellhound bullshit for them and i am back on that wholeheartedly with this au. eliot's slamming the Devotion button in his brain like "i would like 2 feel Something. something. Something" and moreaus like "obviously he's doing Fine, very normal and functional, i'm gonna send him to the states to run a grift on sophie fucking devereaux". wise

the VIBES did i say dog metaphor. corrosive loyalty. found family but you're screaming very loudly about it. rediscovering ur personhood via robinhood shenanigans. moreau as a corrupting and consuming force. eliot is about 35% human person and the rest is just static. the vibes they are bad <3

♫ for listenable vibes i've got a chronological eliot playlist here, a moreau playlist here, & a pre-canon eliot/moreau playlist over here ♫

[POMES from the pics: first poem is from i never figured how to get free by donika kelly; second is from hunter's moon by yves olade.

quotes are a modified quote from the zoo job and a moreau line from the show, respectively]

thank u for coming 2 my rambling if u made it this far i hope u have a wonderful day :)

[moreauz]

SCREAMING,,