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#im kind of in an art slump ... maybe i should look up art that inspires me drawings kind of been ehh for me recently asksks#then again i havent really been drawing i got sick again 😭 ive mostly been asleep hep me orz#anyways I LOVE OURANNNNN i treated myself to a box set of it for xmas ...#ive been reading it when ive got nothing to do or when i dont have headache LOL#sunnysidedoodles#sunnysideouran
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This scenario is close to my heart, if any of you have not seen Jaebum's glorious body and his perfectly proportioned face, then please do. Look it up on the internet. NOW. It can save lives. LOL. This scenario is basically an appreciation post of Jaebum's AMAZING bodeh, guns, jawline, that eyesmile, well basically an appreciation post of Jaebum. And his body, a great emphasis on his body. And his butt, someone please message me so we can talk about his butt. Summary: You're in university taking up Fine Arts and your friend Jaebum volunteers to be your model and things get a little too hot to handle Genre: smut + slow-burn + a bit of fluff + tiny bit of angst "Will you be my model?", the phrase that started it all. You were in university taking up Fine Arts, and the professor asked each student to have a model or muse for the projects he will assign, preferably a human subject, and the model shouldn't be anyone from the class. Being the shy person that you are, if finding a model wasn't hard enough, you have to actually approach and befriend someone, it was energy draining and very time consuming.
You hated how meticulous you were with choosing your model, you had no specific standards in choosing one, what you believe is that when you see someone and you feel a certain connection with him or her, then he or she is the one. If there is no connection then the masterpiece will have no emotions in it. You felt pressured. Almost everyone already had a model, and you were losing hope in finding the one.
You sat at the field under a shady tree watching students go by, hoping to find someone or at the very least some inspiration for another school assignment. It was a free day, so you had all the time in the world for you "model hunt", professors and students alike passed you by but no one was of your interests. After some time, you felt yourself dozing off, with a sketch pad in one hand and a pen on the other, just when you were about to fall into deep slumber you heard a brain splitting laughter, causing you to jerk ruining a page of your sketch pad.
You turned your head to see who it was, a blonde-male who had his back turned was laughing his head off, probably because of some lame joke his friend told him. You thought it was a waste of time and energy to confront him, so you calmed yourself down and continued your search, but with each passing minute the blonde males' laugh gets more and more irritating. You felt your brows slowly knitting together and your jaw clenching tighter, you've had enough of him and his laugh, you put your things aside and approached them, "Excuse me!"
He had a bright smile plastered on his face when he turned, "Oh..what is it?", he had this innocent expression as though he was teasing you even more. Just when you were about to explode in anger, he shifted to the left giving you a glimpse of the other male, you felt the world slow down when you saw him. His face was probably the epitome of perfection, a perfectly proportioned face, a million-dollar smile, he had two beauty marks right above his eye, and he had a nice frame, broad shoulders probably a six-pack too. Unconsciously, you found yourself smiling 'cause you knew, you finally found him, your model.
"Are you okay?", the blonde guy asked.
You strut towards the guy without taking your eyes off of him, "Will you be my model?"
"Uhh..excuse me?"
You flinch as if breaking away from a stance, "I'm Y/N, and uhhh..i'm a Fine Arts major and we need a muse for our project. If it's no trouble, would you be willing to model for me?", you asked stretching your hand out to him and his blonde friend.
"I'm Jackson! Hi!", the other said taking your hand in his, "I'd like to be a model it's my lifetime dream, even though I have short legs, my face and my body can make up for them, and-"
"I don't need you, I want him.", you said with an expressionless face, making the other male laugh. God. You didn't know it was even possible for someone to look so angelic when they laugh.
"I'm Jaebum, but JB is okay too.", he said recovering from his laughter, he took your hand and shook it, "What would I gain exactly from being your model?" "Nothing.", you said with a soft voice.
"Pick me instead!", Jackson insisted.
"But...ummm..I can give you free meals and I can pay for your transportation, that's basically paying you right?", you offered.
"Did you say free meals?", you swear you saw his eyes glint when he heard about food.
You nodded, "Yeah, just be my model for my projects."
"Then i'm in! I look forward to being your model, as long as there will be no stripping involve.", he winked at you making his friend cringe, "I'm a shy type, just so you know."
"Oh, don't worry. We're working on portraits, so you'll be good, it'll be good.", you never knew that day would change your life forever. Since then, he's been your model for all your projects, it's been almost 3 years now since you met him, you did not only find a great model, but a great friend as well. Despite his intimidating and cool personality, he's actually a fluff ball, he's really sweet towards his friends and he cries whenever he's watching dramas, but he can be real strict at times and he's kind of bossy. He doesn't like it when you're late and he gets angry whenever you wear provocative clothes. You were thankful for having him not only as a friend, but like a brother, a father, a mother and a teacher as well, he was the guy any girl would ask for.
But, there was one problem, as time progressed it wasn't only your friendship that blossomed, the way you see him started to change too, you only see him as a friend before, but now whenever you see him, you feel butterflies in your stomach, you feel out of breath whenever your skin touched and you feel rather nervous around him. With your feelings in the way, it was hard to get any work done, drawing him would require you to stare at him for a long time, now that you have a crush on him, you couldn't even last a solid 10 seconds without intensely blushing or smiling.
Who could blame you? He was handsome. He was a gentleman. He can sing and dance. He has a rocking body. He has that smile that can melt a girl's heart. He was sexy. He had a thing for Bart Simpsons. He was basically asking you to have a crush on him, he was to blame for the catastrophe inside your mind and heart.
You contacted a friend to help you solve your problem, "Suzy-yah, what am I gonna do?", you whined, Suzy is your friend since 1st day of college, you could tell her absolutely anything and you always ask her for advice on things. "Oh, is there a problem? Other than the JB problem?", she teased.
"Please, I need your help! I need to finish my plate this week and I can't draw my model.", you whined. Suzy's evil laughter was clear as day on the other line, she draws happiness from your sadness.
"Just bear with it for a little while longer. Do it for you! And your heart!", teasing you was like her hobby, and she supports your feelings for Jaebum a hundred percent, "Who knows, maybe you'll look into his eyes and he'll look into yours, and then you'll kiss."
"I'm serious! I just can't draw Jaebum anymore."
"Then go look for a new model.", she suggested.
"How? I barely have the time to look around the campus for a model, you know how meticulous I am when it comes to my model.", you argued.
"Do you know about the 'Dashboard'?"
"No."
"It's the big bulletin board at the center of the campus, it's where students' post anything their heart's desire. You can confess to someone through letters, badmouth your professors, you can even post a chocolate cake recipe if you want to.", she advised, "You can post an advertisement there, I bet a lot would want to be your model."
"Won't it get covered up with the amount of students posting in this dashboard you're talking about?"
"You don't have to worry about that, they take down everything every week. It's like giving life a deadline and a second chance.", she said, "I posted there once, I confessed to this guy from the Engineering department, I waited for a week but I guess he didn't see it. A few weeks later I found out that he was very abusive towards his past girlfriends, it was a great relief that he didn't see my confession, or else I would've been next."
"Wow, you never told me about this Engineering guy." "Whatever. Forget about me let's talk about your problem. You should totally post at the 'Dashboard', information gets around quick and JB-ssi will never know about it.", for the first time she was actually making sense and not fooling around, "The least I could tell you is 'goodluck'. You said so yourself, replacing JB-ssi is impossible."
You did as advised, the post reads 'Urgent! In need of Art model, please contact 123******** and look for Y/N. Thank you!'. And Suzy was not wrong, your phone rang non-stop for a week, apparently, a lot of students' aspired to be models. To avoid clashing and conflicting schedules, you held the assessment at your house on a Sunday, applicants came and go, there were a lot of good looking applicants and most of them had great bodies. But because of what you call the 'Im Jaebum Effect' everyone looked normal and plain, at the end of the day you never found anyone who can replace him.
You slumped yourself onto the sofa, "Geez. This is impossible, only if Jaebum-ah had an older brother.", you were stuck in your bubble of depression, 'till you heard a knock on the door, "It's almost 4 pm who in their right mind would apply at this time?", the knocking didn't stop, you got up your feet and lazily walked to the door, it has been a long day and you gave up the idea of replacing Jaebum. As you swung the door open, you felt a cold shiver crawl under your skin, it was Jaebum, holding your advertisement in one hand. But seeing his face after meeting so many others made you realize, that he was really the only person who can meet your standards as a model. He just had his hair cut and it was pushed all the way back, and of all his hairstyles this one has to be your favorite. You love how the shape of his face and his features accentuate when his hair is pushed back, he looked like a fucking piece of art.
You snapped back to reality when he started talking, "So, I was being a gentleman, helping out the English department take down this week's Dashboard entries, and then I come across a familiar name that read 'Y/N' and a familiar cellphone number. And this Y/N happens to be looking for a model, so, do you mind explaining this to me?", he said with a stern voice, just hearing his voice that low made you feel threatened.
If it was possible to crawl under a rock at this moment, you would've crawled under it and bury yourself forever. Or get eaten by a lion, yeah, getting eaten by a lion is probably better than getting scolded by Jaebum, "Uhh...a new perspective! Our professor told me to look for a new perspective, which means new models."
You could not see an ounce of pity or happiness in his face, he was glaring and gritting his teeth, "I asked your professor and your classmates, and I heard no such thing."
"You did what?", you hated how keen he was with this kind of things. "And I heard that you'll be drawing nudes."
"Ah, yes! That's it! I can't draw you nude, you're my friend it would be super awkward.", you reasoned, you wish he would stop asking so many questions and get on with the scolding.
"So you'd rather draw a complete stranger nude?"
You started feeling cold sweats dripping from your temple, "It..it's not nude, uhh...just the..umm...just the upper body, that's...that's not really considered nude.", you tried laughing the topic off.
"Suzy-ssi told me everything.", he said.
You gasped, Jaebum knows about your secret, he knows that you like him and he'll probably end your friendship because he thinks you're gross for liking him, "I'm..i'm really sorry, i'm sorry for liki--
"I can lose some weight.", upon hearing him say that, you frowned.
"Lose weight? What for?"
"Suzy-ssi told me you came looking for a new model because I gained some weight, it's true, I did gain some from having all those late night snacks. But, I can lose weight so you don't have to look for someone else.", he said, "Do you know how relieved I was when I heard that, as the reason? "
You were left speechless with his sincerity, it was probably why you never regretted liking him. You smiled and stretched your hand out, asking him for a hug, an offer he didn't hesitate to take, "Come on now, you don't need to lose weight, in fact you lost some. See, you're so thin, you're too thin.", you said measuring his waist, "I'll cook you something delicious later or maybe treat you to some meat."
"You're just sugar coating things, you already told Suzy-ssi that I gained weight." "Don't worry you'll always be my number one, either you gain or lose weight, you'll always be my Im Jaebummie.", you felt him release you from the hug and then he bore his eyes into yours, "Are we good now?", he didn't say a word, you kept on smiling at him, but he remained silent. He slowly lifted his hands, cupping your face and his face slowly closing in to yours, "Is he going to? No, he isn't, probably not.", you wondered.
Just when things were about to go well, there was a knock on the door, "Goddamn it!", he exclaimed. When he opened the door, he saw two males, "What the fuck do you want?"
"Uhh..we're here to apply as models.", they enthusiastically said, only to be turned down by Jaebum.
"Weren't you at the salon earlier?", he asked, they nodded in reply. Jaebum scoffed and gave them the middle finger, "You can go fuck yourselves, assholes.", he slammed the door to their faces.
You widened your eyes with his sudden change in behavior, "What was that for? They were just applying, you could've al least turned them down nicely." "That was what I was worried about!", he yelled.
"Im Jaebum, will you calm the fuck down?"
"I got a hair cut and I saw those two getting their hair cut as well and then I heard them talking about you."
"What did they say?"
"They...", he stopped, "It's nothing. Forget about it."
"Come on. Tell me.", no matter how you pleaded for him to tell you, he wouldn't spill. You were then startled for a completely different reason, out of the blue, Jaebum took off his shirt, "What the fuck are you doing?"
"Taking my clothes off, isn't it obvious?"
"No! Why are you taking them off? Didn't you say you were a shy type when we first met?"
"You have a deadline right? You need to finish you project as soon as possible, so we can get some meat."
"Ohhh...I thought you were...", you gulped before even finishing the sentence, what was laid out before your eyes was Jaebum's toned abdominals, you resisted from your urge to touch them. You shut your mouth tight to prevent yourself from drooling, "Oh my Gooood...", you mouthed.
"What did you say?", he asked tossing his shirt to the sofa.
"Nothing. I said nothing. Let's ummm...let's get started.", he was used to this so he went to the sit on the high chair providing you a full view of his gloriousness. You calmed yourself down and proceeded with the sketching, you like sketching a layout before the actual painting process, you started with his face, because you're well aware that if you start with his body, it will be not good for your heart, "Oh, can you move your face to the left?"
"Just like this?", he titled his head emphasizing his jawline.
"Will you refrain from jutting your jaw please?"
"I'm sorry, I can't help it, especially when I think about those dickwads."
"Dickwa--, Im Jaebum watch your language!", you kept on bickering as you did your work, "Are you okay? Would you like to take a break?"
He shook his head, "Nah, i'm good. But, it's a bit warm today eh?", it was indeed a hot day, you could see sweat dripping down his temple and also his glorious chocolate abs.
"What good deed have I done in my past life to deserve such a wonderful blessing?", you asked yourself as you tried to remain composed in front of Jaebum. After almost an hour, you were nearly done with his portrait and it was time to draw his torso, "Okay, uhh...i'm done with your portrait, so let's uhh...start with your...uhh..mm..body."
He moved closer to you, "Is this better?"
"Wait! Why are you inching closer? Did I say you can move?", you said, "I have 20/20 vision, so you don't have to be this close."
"I'm doing this for your own sake, I moved closer so you can see the details much better.", he laughed.
"What details are you talking about exactly?"
"You can even touch me, I heard from one of your classmates that when you touch the model, the end product will be much better."
You giggled at his remark, "Yeah, if i'm working on a sculpture. I'm working on a painting so there's really no need for that."
"Okay then, suit yourself."
"Uhhh...aren't you going to move back?", he smiled and remained in his place, "Will you please stop grinning like an idiot, it's creeping me out. And will you please stop staring?", the more you told him off, the more he did the things that annoyed you. The way he looked at you today was different, it was as if he was taking your clothes off, a thought that was enough to make you sopping wet. "Did you really have to wear such short-shorts, knowing that you'll be drawing someone today?", he asked. Your shorts weren't that short, nor too long, it was just Jaebum being overprotective again.
"Will you shut it and remain still.", you said looking him dead straight in the eye, "God, it's really hot today."
"Is that the reason why you're blushing?", he teased, "I thought it was because i'm naked."
"Do..don't flatter yourself dude.", you rolled your eyes and continued with your work. With each stroke of your pen, all you could think about was how beautiful Jaebum was, people would kill to get where you are right now.
"Y/N-ah!!! You're bleeding!!!", he exclaimed rushing to your side.
"What?", you nonchalantly asked.
"Your nose! It's bleeding!", he rushed to your room to get some tissues, you could hear him swearing, probably from all the clutter in your room, "Throw your head back, come on. It'll help stop the bleeding. Fuck. The tissue...the...uhh...the...put it inside your nose. Come on. Come on."
You grabbed his hand to calm him down a bit, "Calm down, it's just a nosebleed. I am not dying.", little to your imagination, the action did not calm him down one bit, it made his heart beat two times faster.
He pulled his hand away and stood up, "You probably got a nosebleed from the heat, uhh...i'll buy you some ice cream. Don't you move an inch, i'll be right back.", he dashed to the door and disappeared.
"This is hilarious, I didn't realize it was even possible to get a nosebleed from staring at a man's naked body.", you went to your room, turned on the AC, laid and waited for Jaebum's return, the bleeding had stopped and he wasn't back yet, "Better watch some TV."
A frantic Jaebum came crashing through the door, giving you a mini heart attack. He went straight to your room and gave you two bags of ice cream, flavors ranging from vanilla to chocolate to caramel and many others, "Are you okay now? Did the bleeding stop?"
"What's up with all these ice cream?"
"I panicked and forgot about your favorite flavor, so I got one of each flavor." You laughed and gave him a bubblegum flavored one, "Eat up, this one's your favorite, if I remember correctly.", you patted the empty space beside you. He obliged, you both enjoyed your ice cream while watching some movies. Every after 5 minutes, he would ask you if you were okay, or if there was anything you'd like to eat, everyone thinks he's this cold and chic person but in actuality he's the complete opposite of what everyone thinks of him.
"Do you want anything else? Please don't hesitate to ask me, this is a once in a lifetime opportunity, you should take advantage of it, take advantage of me." "Like I told you, i'm good. But, thank you.", you gave him a hug, "Thank you for the ice cream and everything else. For always being here for me, for being my model, for being the best friend any girl could ask for. I'm really really thankful for havi---", the world stopped. It happened. Jaebum's lips met yours, the only thing you could feel was your quadrupled heart rate and his warm lips on yours, on your lips! Not on another girl's lips, but yours!
He tried deepening the kiss, but you snapped back into reality and pushed him away, "No. This is wrong. So wrong. We're friends, and friends don't kiss like that.", you stood up and went to the far side of the room.
"I know this is too much to process, but, I love you, Y/N-ah.", he declared, "And I can't keep with this act anymore, i'm tired of being just your friend, tired of being just your model. I want to be the person you can't live without."
"Stop Jaebum-ah, you stop right now. If this is one of your jokes, then leave me out of it. If you want to save this friendship, take back everything that you said." "Funny how I stopped thinking of you as a friend a long time ago.", he stood up inching closer, "Maybe it was over 3 years ago.."
"Really? That's your punchline?", you reckoned, "I know your way with girls, you tell them sweet and lovely things, call them beautiful and all just to get to their pants, and i'm not falling for any of that shit."
"Do you really think i'm that kind of guy?", he asked with a pained expression, "If I wanted to have casual sex with you, then I wouldn't have waited this long! I was scared that if I tell you my feelings, you would shun me. But, after knowing that you like me, gave me the courage to finally confess."
"Like you? Where did you-
"Suzy-ssi told me, she told me everything."
"Leave.", you said as tears rolled down your cheeks, "Please leave, if you want to save our friendship."
"Don't you think it's about time you started thinking with your heart instead of your mind?!?", he remarked.
"Please leave."
"If that's what you really want, I will respect your decision. But remember, I really do love you, with all of my heart.", he walked himself to the door. Hearing the door click was probably the most heart clenching experience you've had your entire life. You just let the most important person in your life slip right through your hands, he already told you he loves you, the least you could do was reciprocate it, but all you did was doubt his feelings for you.
Hours passed, part of you wanted to go to Jaebum, but part of you wanted to remain friends. If you tell him you love him too, everything will change, it was more convenient for you if you remained friends. Your mind was a blur, but one thing's for sure, you can't afford to lose Jaebum, betting on love was a risk you had to take. It didn't matter that it was almost 11 pm, you threw a thick coat on, grabbed your bag and went outside, but as you got outside you saw Jaebum, standing outside your door with his back turned, rubbing his hands together for some heat.
"Jaebum-ah?"
He swiftly turned around, "Y/N-ah!", there was a certain relief with the tone of his voice.
"You were standing outside all this while?"
"I..uhh..no, I...uh.. forgot something I just came back to get it, if you don't mind.", you knew he was lying, his lips were dry from the coldness, his nose was red and his body was shivering. When you saw him, you felt even worst, you accused him of wanting to have sex with you for fun, but someone who's just playing around won't wait in this cold weather.
"I love you too."
"What did you say?", he said, a smile lighting up his face.
"I said I love you too.", the next thing you know, you were both inside, you against the wall and Jaebum giving you deep passionate kisses, you had a hard time breathing being it your first time to kiss someone so aggressively. Pieces of clothing were strewn all over the floor, as you both struggled to get to your room. You pressed your thumb over his lips trying to catch your breath, "Can't you be a little more gentle?"
He scoffed, "I waited 3 long years for this and you're really asking me to be gentle?", you both laughed at his remark, but despite his joke, his kisses did become gentle. He planted soft kisses on your neck, while your hands roamed his body.
"God, you're beautiful.", you said, as you eye the glory that is his body
. "You're the one who's beautiful.", he said , leaving a trail of kisses on your collarbone, "You have no idea how many times i've imagined doing this to you." "Do you have any idea how dirty that sounds?", you purred, the sounds of lips clicking and ragged breaths were the only sounds that surrounded the room, his hands that were gently placed on your back were now on the hook of your bra. You gasped from the sudden cold sensation on your back, "Do you want me to stop?", he asked.
"My mind wants to say no, but my heart says yes. Since someone told me I should try thinking with my heart once in a while, then, I guess it's a yes." He smiled and gave you a quick peck on the lips as he skillfully unhooked your bra, after tossing the garment aside, one hand kneaded your bare chest while the other was at your back to keep you from falling. You took the chance to make your move, you cupped his face and gave him a deep kiss, with each passing moment it was like a fight of dominance between you both. He trailed his hand from your bare chest to your heated core, a gesture which made you gasp. He took this chance to slip his tongue in, but being the inexperienced kisser that you are, what was supposed to be a French kiss turned into a sloppy one.
Your legs weakened when he started circling your clit with two fingers, the squishing sound being produced only heightened your arousal, you could feel the wetness trickling down your thigh, "You're sopping wet Y/N-ah.", he fastened his pace, you clung onto him to keep your balance and to muffle your moans. "Oh my God, Jaebum-ah...that feels amazing.", you said in between pants. Jaebum was panting as well from the fast steady pace he was doing, "Scream for me Y/N-ah, I want to hear you scream my name.", you refused to moan for him so he maintained his pace. The pleasure was driving you crazy, you felt a knot forming on your stomach with Jaebum's ministration, "Jaebum-ah! I think I need to go to the bathroom."
He quickened his pace even more, the knot on your stomach was now building and you felt like it was going to explode anytime soon, "Cum for me, babe.", when you felt the knot explode, your legs finally gave up but Jaebum was there to catch you.
"That felt so good Jaebum-ah.", just when you thought it was over, Jaebum gently laid you on your bed and he positioned himself in between your legs, you could feel his throbbing member as he brushed it against your clothed core "We're just getting started Y/N-ah.", he swiftly slid your underwear off and threw it across the room and then his underwear followed.
You felt your eyes widen and your core dampen from the sight of Jaebum's member, it was covered in pre-cum and its veins were embossed, making it appear like it was about to explode, "That's going inside? Is it going to fit?", you asked, with a worried look on your face.
He didn't respond and started showering your body with kisses, you feel a warm sensation in all the places his lips touch, and you drown in Jaebum's intoxicating scent as he hovered over you, "I love you Y/N-ah.", he chanted repeatedly after every kiss. When he reached your core, he licked his finger and slowly pushed the digit in.
"Ah!!! Jaebum!", you moaned. He pumped in a slow pace and slowly adding a finger after the other, he was stretching you out for what was about to happen next. You bear with the pain knowing that Jaebum will not do anything to harm you, after some time he pulls out his fingers, glistening from your wetness. "Are you really sure about this Y/N-ah?", he asked after laying a kiss on your temple, "We can stop, if you want to."
"It's okay. Go ahead."
He took his member into his hand and positioned it at your sopping core, "I'm sorry Y/N-ah, but please bear with the pain.", you shut your eyes tightly, the warm sensation indicated that he was about to enter, he slowly pushed the tip inside and then you felt a tingling sensation.Jaebum was in shock, there was blood dripping from your core indicating that you were still a virgin, cautious that he wouldn't ruin the moment, he slowly eased his member in to lessen the pain, "Are you okay? I'm going to move now.", with your eyes still closed, you nodded as the go signal.
"Fuck, Jaebum!", you screamed. As soon as he started moving in a steady pace, the pain slowly turned into pleasure. He made sure to keep his hands busy, one hand on your breast and the other on your clit.
"You feel so good Y/N-ah.", he said in between pants. His member throbbed whenever you tightened your walls around him or when you scream his name, "Say my name Y/N-ah."
"Ah!!! Jaebum! Jaebum! Jaebum!", you exclaimed, the more you screamed his name the faster his thrusts became. Your hands were clawed into his back, whenever he hits your good spot you were sure you left marks onto his back from how hard you dragged your nails onto his back.
Both your bodies had the same rhythm and the same pace, all that could be heard from the room was skin slapping together, pleasured moans and endless cursing. When Jaebum felt his climax approaching, he hastened his pace and circled your clit with his thumb, "Let's cum together Y/N-ah!", a few more quick thrust and you felt him release his love juice inside of you.
A breathless Jaebum laid on top of you, his head went up and down probably from the heaving of your chest, you brushed the hair off of his face and gave him a kiss, "That was amazing Jaebum-ah."
"No, you were amazing.", he slowly pulled himself out to get a tissue, to help you clean up. You were hesitant to let him wipe you, but he was persistent about it, "You know, I was taken aback when you bled."
"You thought I wasn't a virgin?"
He nodded while grinning, "You had two boyfriends in the past right?" "No, there was only one and he was a douchebag and we only dated for like a month, all he wanted from me was sex and he told me to stay away from you. When he said that, I immediately broke up with him.", you said.
"Oh, I see.", Jaebum was a person that easily gets jealous, and it wasn't exactly the time to make him jealous.
"I saved it for you.", you whispered, immediately pulling the covers over your head after, "I can't believe I said that."
His face lit up like a christmas tree, "What did you say?"
"It's nothing.", you and Jaebum were pulling the mattress back and forth. "No, no, no. You definitely said something."
"I said, I love you Im Jaebum.", you said.
He tugged the covers, "Yah, are you asking for a second round?", he teased. "Do you want me to die?", you laughed.
"I waited for three longs years, you can't blame me if i'm like this.", he was about to go in for a kiss but you stopped him.
You pulled him towards you and rested your head on his chest, you trail your hands from his chest towards his broad shoulders, "Let's stay like this for now, just like this.", you said nuzzling your nose in his chest.
"Yah, yah, that tickles."
You stared at him square in the eyes without saying a word, just laying beside him and drowning yourself with his beauty, "You're so beautiful."
He squinted, making his eyes look like slits, "Why do you keep saying that?" "Because you're beautiful."
"You are aware that I am man, or do I have to prove it to you again?", he suggested.
"I just can't explain it, everything about you is beautiful to me. Your face, your shoulders, the two moles above your eye, that smirk you do, your dino laugh where you look like you're about to swallow someone, the way you like to stuff food into your mouth. Heck, you even look beautiful to me even when you're pissed off and you look like your jaw is about to dislocate.", you giggled. Jaebum grabbed a pillow and covered his face, his sudden scream made you jump, "Are you okay? Are you angry because I called you beautiful?"
"I didn't think it was possible, but it is.", he mumbled.
"What did you say?", as you pulled the pillow off his face, you were taken aback because of the redness of his face, "Are you okay?"
He smiled from ear-to-ear, "I didn't think it was possible to fall even more in love with you, but it just happened.", he took you in for a hug, a hug so tight you had a hard time breathing, "I wish I confessed to you sooner, so you didn't have to date that douchebag. I could've been your first boyfriend. I might not be your first, but I intend to be your last. You last kiss, last boyfriend and the last person you'll ever love."
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Have you ever gone through any like, EXTENDED art slumps? I used to draw all the time when I was a kid, all the way through 18, but now (23yo) it's this big awful stressful Thing? I keep feeling like I want to create, but I feel like I have to hide this urge because I'm not like a ""good"" or """deep""" artist, which is dumb for so many reasons... but I just can't seem to logic my way out of this. You're a very inspirational artist to me and I'd appreciate any insights you have. Thanks
from highschool for sophmore year of college i stopped drawing entirely because i wanted to focus on getting a “real job” and not some dumb shit i couldnt make money with. when i started doing it again it was as a stress reliever and hobby, so while i put enormous amounts of pressure on myself to improve, there was no external pressure to perform. when outside motivating factors are stronger than your own internal pressures, i think the activity ceases to be enjoyable, if that makes sense.
i used to read like over 50 books a year as a kid but once i had to start reading a lot of boring shit for college constantly the activity lost all appeal to me. maybe look for ways to relieve any external pressures about it that are outweighing your intrinsic enjoyment.
like, two pressures you mentioned are that you feel like youre not making good things or deep things. i totally get these feelings: ive recently come to terms with not making “good” things by re-framing how i work as “doing a lot of warm ups before i make something really good”. making bad things is just the natural first step to making good things. its embarrassing but honestly i think not being private about it and slowly coming to own it/work with it to your advantage is the secret needed to improve your art. become willing to accept you’ll make bad things. youre in good company.
as for deep things i STILL feel this. as a comic person i get really stupidly insecure over the comic i make for a lot of reasons but one that rolls around every time a zine/comic fest is happening is the feeling of “oh my god i make a trash comic about idiots that doesnt mean anything”. its a really insecure and ugly bad look but im so secretly jealous of people who are able to tell emotive and meaningful stories in their comics because they’ve adapted a suitable art style and storytelling methods.
but im just now starting to discover what im good at and what i like to do and where they intersect so i can make the most best comic i can under the least amount of external stress. when you worry about not making things that are “deep” you should instead focus on what kind of stories are missing from your life that you wish would be told and think about how to construct those. you dont even have to make concrete plans. just daydream and doodle about those ideas. focus on creating what you want to see more of or whats missing and if they’re also the stories/ideas you want to share.
i hope this is coherent
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