#im just. already worn out at the idea of mum and her bf being here and i KNOW i need to get out of this funk | Explore Tumblr posts and blogs

izzy-b-hands · 5 months ago

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To Do for tomorrow (in theory at least, if the spoons are there to let me manage all of it)

-One last load of laundry (that idk where im gonna put bc im outta room but. I'll figure it out)

-clean bathroom sink

-swiffer all the floors (that are safely swifferable)

-double check my room and hide any sex toys still sitting out (in my defence, my toys my room my choice where they go, but also, i think a dildo can be a nice centerpiece on a desk or shelving unit top. Ties my whole room together!)

-pause the Oh God Mum's Visiting cleaning/prepping to try and gif Tyler's part in last night's concert (I fucking*screamed* when i heard the intro to his first song and saw him run out, poor Housemate was v chill abt me losing my shit in excitement lol)

-dishes, bc that's just a thing i like doing daily now. put on music, zone out for an hour and half, come back to conscious thought to a bunch of clean dishes. what more could a man ask for (I have ideas but I'll take dishes for now)

I'm writing this out, here, so when my forgetful ass is scrolling thru things tomorrow, I'll see this and won't forget to do anything

hopefully (Tomorrow Me pls don't fuck this up)

#text post #i have no right to be tired rn but i am a bit #Housemate and i are gonna chill tonight tho so that'll help #just relaxing and dinner and maybe a bunch of Tumblr scrolling #im just. already worn out at the idea of mum and her bf being here and i KNOW i need to get out of this funk #my brain is like hmmm but what if they cancel last minute. maybe you should just not do anything and act like they won't be here #my brain does that with anything that hardcore triggers my anxiety like work and Mum lmao #immediately is like 'what if they cancel everything forever and you never have to worry abt work or money again'#and I'll be like 'thats not fkn happening let's just prep for the situation and get thru it'#and yet. the brain persists in this #Housemate is being an absolute angel too and taking us on another dispo run before mum gets here bc #between work and mum im gonna just. need to have every minute be 420 at least mildly #to make sure i don't get overwhelmed and have a meltdown that puts me in my room for a week straight #and fucks up all of this #getting wizard high is for the nights during this next week tho bc Housemate has helped me convince mum #that I dont need to see them to the hotel each night and maybe hang out thru the night with them (sweet but pls no)#so the nights I'll have to try and keep my shit together #stoned and worry rambling too much rn but god just. let me not piss her or the bf off. they're gonna lecture me on like #at least three things im p sure of. I don't want to add to that number 🙃

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