#im just yelling into the void. i just need to yell.

[redrandomposts]

what is your opinion on time traveling Till in a time loop of making sure Ivan survives (spoiler: he doesn't) and slowly going insane.

Thing is his constant loops create an error in time so an insane adult Till is transported at the start of the contest.

Insane Till locks his attention to Ivan right away and kidnaps him much to everyone's bewilderment.

till watched, almost void of life, as ivan fell to the ground. he didn't register it for one moment, two moments - it's only when he saw the blood-dyed suit, the unseeing eyes, the unmoving body did he truly know what happened.

ivan had died. it was an irrefutable fact. like how the rain will always be dyed red, and how the white will always be stained maroon, ivan will always be dead.

that is, until hours after in the waiting room, preparing for the finale. till had taken a brief nap, a bare blink, and woken up in the room he was in the morning he took the stage, across from ivan.

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dyed red. red red red- it will always be red. the rain will always fall, and always dilute the blood, and always always always will his white suit never stay pure. he'll fall to the ground, no matter if till continues to sing or not, if he begs and pleads, if he smiles or cries or yells; the stage is his deathbed. his coffin, the place his memory will forever be immortalized.

till has tried everything. he rigged the robots, rigged the polls, rigged the points; he kidnapped and took and gave; till has watched and held and left ivan as he died.

what else can he try? mere hours to everyone else, but another day in a decade for him, of the same rinse and repeat.

so when he wakes up somewhere new, with a vague familiarity attached to the way the papers are scattered, he feels... dread.

what about ivan? is he here? will till never see ivan again? has till failed so much even the universe won't try again?

except it's a blessing.

after investigating the same halls for decades, till knows how to escape. he's taken ivan down the same path, months later, only for it to somehow go wrong. the halls are the same, except downgraded, and ivan is here too. he might be younger, without the same memory of falling falling falling, but it's ivan. the snaggletooth, the grin, the hair, the skin; it's all ivan.

till doesn't know how he's here, but he takes the chance. they're gone before the dawn fully lifts, before ivan could tell left from right and dream from reality.

till doesn't restrain ivan much. ivan is the earth to his sun; he can't let him go blind, nor does he need to take his hearing or voice or food. however, till can't just let him stray. just as the sun holds the planets in orbit, till holds ivan in his vicinity using chains.

at least, till thinks as he looks at ivan, he doesn't try to leave till's vicinity either. ivan knows his place as till's earth.

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GUYS IM A GENIUS??? I LITERALLY CAME UP WITH THE EARTH AND SUN METAPHOR AT THE VERY END AND IT'S INSANE???

like, the earth's life can't exist without sunlight - plants grow from it, the heat warms ice to water, etc... but the earth is only just another planet to the sun. the moon is ivan's love for till, because the moon is only seen because it reflects light from the sun. am i making sense??

anyways i love this au but im not doing it justice ;-;

[xannerz]

i feel so frustrated reeEEEE

[rysttle]

Googling for specific features in a person's face/body for art reference and it's all 'how to get rid of it' tips and im here like :((((((((

[bananamilk2004]

yeah ok we've heard of butch fem ghost which is awesome showstopping amazing but if i may add onto that: the entire tf141 being butches. soap with the same mohawk stunting around in military surplus activewear to attract femmes (or other butches. she's not picky). gaz who– unlike her friends– presents herself as more of a bifauxnen with clean pressed shirts and a nice smile. price who's the hardest butch out of all of them; never shaving, foregoing bras, referring to herself with brazen terms popular in the older queer scene (all the while having the voice of a chainsmoker, so deep it can initially be mistaken for a man's tone) (maybe she even packs?)

just. ugh. butches…

and imagine if you were passed between all of them? spitroasted by their straps? omg

[lemonlurkrr]

Was dungeon meshi localized to Delicious in Dungeon because it'd be DnD

[jackfrostimposter]

genuinely why is there so much misinformation about the guardians of childhood book series?

[typosandtea]

The most frustrating part of being someone who mostly draws now trying to getting into writing, is that I can picture what I want in my head and how I would represent it visually.. but how the hell do I describe important forgotten object hiding away out of sight that the characters haven’t noticed is missing yet??

[anachronistic-falsehood]

ohhggh i have had a post canon defiant fic in my head all fucking day. he's up in my neurons guys i'm so cooked there's no saving me

[aviiarie]

just a little blog update! you might have noticed i haven't been posting as much writing lately... well, to be honest i've been struggling to find the motivation to write. i want to, but it feels like my skills have gotten... idk, worse? even now that i have time, it's like nothing i write is good enough, so i never end up finishing and posting anything. in other words my creative juices have run dry :(

i do want to write though! i will try to get stuff out. i'm rewriting what i've already written for the requests i have, so don't think i've forgotten about them. i hope you can just have a little patience with me :")

tldr: writer's block is hitting me hard, but i'll try to get something posted soon.

[foreverxdaydreaming]

x

[thevikingwoman]

help i accidentally thought of a love confession scene

[sleepy-doobles]

I have reasoning for this I promise

[whatthefuckisasweep]

sighing and putting my head in my hands and crying and throwing up as i think about stanley uris and how he was the most terrified loser.

how he was deathly scared of being dirty, of not knowing where he was, of not being able to predict the world around him. how he was more scared of his world order being offended than anything else. how knowing that pennywise is real sent him down this spiral of 'what else can be real' and it broke him. but he STILL was the one who cut everyone's hand and made the oath. how bill constantly reminds him of his bird book and how it saved him. how he is more mentally fragile than eddie. how he's one of the only Losers who ever says "i can't do this", but he still gets to his feet and makes jokes right after he cries. stan uris, who, after Mike is like, "i just saw a killer bird!" goes, "what kind of bird?"

thinking about how we really don't know how his death went down so we don't know what he was thinking in those last moments. how he threw away his whole picturesque life because of a promise he made, and because he couldn't honor it. how he's such a private person, a quiet one, but he's so so so sharp and graceful. i wish they showed more of his fear in the movies, how much it fucked him up in the end.

stanley uris i think about you a lot.

[molliemoo3]

For the 2nd time in 2 months someone commentating on an fia world championship series has felt the need to bring up driver weights, like it isn't something so many drivers have struggled with, like its fucking nothing, and I just dont understand why they feel the need to say it????? The minimum weights were introduced for a reason and unless you were born yesterday i dont think its difficult to figure out, implying drivers are worse at their jobs or severely disadvantaged is fucking vile

[skybristle]

maybe this is just me being annoyed but whenever i try to talk abt my ocs here [which i very rarely do for this exact reason] it always gets zero engagement whatsoever. like i dont come here for Attention i come here for interaction which do kind of go hand in hand but. getting like 7 likes any time i pour my heart out about my guys is. disheartening. and it sucks because talking abt them is part of the way to get people to care! but i dont have the motivation for comics all the time [and when i do they dont get much attention either]. i feel like i should just stick to discord but im soo desprate to be heard and i feel like its hard to find The Right People to talk to

[zombie-bait]

I will readily admit that I’m such an “everything reminds me of (insert current obsession)” kinda person but hearing this song come on the radio out of nowhere threw me for such a fucking loop. Cuz it…. It’s just them huh??? Why did a random Slovak radio station just toss me the most Death Stranding-Sam/Higgs ass song it could’ve. Like I’m not mad but the shock of menacing beach imagery combined with “we will die and be reborn” + golden touch sure distracted me from my sudoku

anyway the song is “The Road to Mandalay” by Robbie Williams and its a nice moody listen