#im just so distraught about my dog

[transtuvok]

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[yanderefarm]

yandere vampire's pet introduction

cw;; yandere tendencies, blood, abuse, child abuse, manipulation, orgies, pet play, hypnosis

i love this little freak. there's a lot of information here bc i had a lot to say. he's so pretty and i love him so much one of my favorites for sure. im sorry to everyone who wants to be kind to him and treat him gently. im definitely gonna write about him getting bullied.

like I said before his yandere type is self destructive not like ares who is more traditionally yandere. so his content is less about him being jealous and hurting other people or you and more about his obsession. you're the only thing that matters in his life and it drives him to insanity.

silvan was born in a territory owned by a cruel vampire who purposely mistreated the humans under his watch because of how dirty he thought they were.

because of this it was hard for his family to find food so when he was a young child he was given to some low ranking vampires in exchange for human food.

that's how he got his scars around his neck. the vampires kept him for 3 days and nearly killed him before his blood started to develop a bad taste.

when humans are malnourished their blood starts to taste more like dead man blood which can be toxic to vampires. when silvan fell at your feet he tasted horrible, it wasn't until he'd been eating regular healthy meals for a few months that you actually risked trying his blood for the first time.

he tastes sweet. he's like biting into a perfect strawberry that's juicy and sweet without any tartness.

he believes that you're just inherently superior to him because you're a vampire. he feels like he needs to serve a powerful vampire like yourself that you're the only thing that gives his life meaning.

if he had been sired by you he would have been distraught and unable to cope with the idea of it. he wouldn't theoretically mind hurting humans. the problem is his self esteem and how lowly he thinks of himself.

he makes it no secret to you how he feels about himself. it's why his guilt tripping is so effective.

it also means that when he actually does something bad that earns him punishment he takes it incredibly hard. your servants will report his screaming and wailing so loud they can hear him if they go to that part of the manor.

you had to make his punishment room essentially baren so he wouldn't try to hurt himself. even the floors and walls had to be redone to minimize risk. it's basically a padded room.

you would expect him to lay on the guilt tripping extra hard after he gets out but he doesn't. his eyes are empty and his voice is just about gone. he's like a shell of a human being.

silvan will just walk around for a while like that. he'll hesitate to even go near you because he doesn't want to disappoint you again. he doesn't start to return to normal until you bite into him.

he loves when you feed on him. he feels wanted, needed even. you're so powerful and amazing there's no reason you should need him but you do.

he loves sitting in your lap while you drink. he'll run his fingers through your hair and babble about how happy he is. he just goes on and on if you let him, until he's absolutely woozy from blood loss.

he can't die easily because of the preservation procedure. he can withstand having his blood drained past the point of a regular human, he doesn't need to eat every day, he doesn't age. the only thing that could actually kill him is a deliberate attempt on his life.

you've robbed him of part of his humanity by turning him into a pet.

it's not like silvan cares though. you could take all of his humanity if you wanted. you could force him to crawl around like a dog for eternity and he would do so happily.

and compared to his home in the human farm his life is significantly better because he belongs to you. it's not just the fact that he's a pampered pet living in a lavish manor and eating whenever he desires. it's that he's yours.

he's met plenty of vampires by now, other lords like yourself included. no one compares to you. you can show him the bare minimum of affection and that is worth more than all the adoration he gets at parties.

some parties can be a bit too much for him. he's always willing to serve so if it's your will that he be passed around he'll submit himself to any vampire you decide. but sometimes vampires are too greedy, sometimes it reminds him too much of his childhood trauma.

he finds it hard to run to you for support, not because you're some cruel owner but because he doesn't believe he's worthy of your care. if he actually comes to you with a problem you know it's serious.

if he starts to panic or get upset while he's in the middle of being fed on and used by many vampires he can't exactly get up and run into your arms. that's when he finds his ribbon.

the first gift you gave him was a ribbon to tastefully hide his scars. you wrapped it around his neck like a dog collar. since then the original had gotten torn but you bought him a new one.

every one that got torn went to a shoe box in his room. he took good care of the one he wore around the manor but at parties they often got carelessly discarded by greedy vampires. you always bought him a new one, usually to match his outfit.

it was so important to him that he would use it to soothe himself when he was upset. it's presence was like your embrace to him. he would imagine your cold fingers gently touching his skin as you tied it on him. everything was ok.

not every party was a horrible slog fest. the small parties you and the other elite would have were the most fun. you and your friends would all bring your pets and while you talked business silvan got to spend time with the other pets.

he likes other pets because they tend to be the only humans who understand him. some humans have a deep resentment for vampires and they dream of revolution. some humans simply accept their lot in life and do their best while silently cursing their vampire rulers. it seemed like only pets understood the deep admiration for vampires.

silvan and the other pets would excitedly brag about their respective owners and gush over how cool they were. at least until the party turned to other things.

if you're an incredibly affectionate owner he'll become a spoiled brat. he'll still be self loathing but being sat on your lap adorned in all the beautiful things you got him is basically therapy. he doesn't ask for material possessions usually all he really wants is your attention. he interrupts your work, he crawls into your bed, he'll even accidentally barge into meetings with other vampires. he'll pretend to be your stupid pet who doesn't know better. he didn't know you were busy he just needed to see you so bad. the other vampires just watch his shameless smirk when you let him do what he wants.

if you're more of a tortured soul type vampire he loves you but you also irritate him a little. you gave him a good life because of how pathetic and sad he looked when you first met. you give him clothes, you feed him, you gave him a warm bed. so why won't you bite him? why do you wait until you're starving to finally feed on him? he's your property it's your right to feed on him. but you don't. when you finally do you're crying and apologizing. it makes him so frustrated he doesn't understand you. there's nothing more insulting to silvan than you not wanting to eat him.

if you're a mean owner it makes him feel all the more desperate to please you. he'll gladly ask you to take your frustrations out on him. if you want to see his face twist in pain you're going to have to get creative. you punch him, strangle him, cut him, anything and he has a big dopey smile on his face. he can so easily convince himself that you hurting him is your way of showing affection. as long as you don't lock him in the punishment room it means you love him.

as long as you let him stay by your side he'll remain your devoted and loyal pet.

silvan has a vampire kink. he gets so turned on by your fangs, your cold hands, your power over him. compel him. bite him. touch him.

with this comes a pain kink, a blood kink, and a hypnosis kink.

he's already obedient but compel him to make him quiet, dumb, and pliant. he'll jack off to the memory of you doing whatever you want to him for months.

it's hard not to notice just how much you drinking his blood really turns him on. especially if you're a messy eater. he has to physically restrain himself from kissing you and licking up his own blood.

if you're covered in someone else's blood he gets strangely jealous but still undeniably turned on. let him remove your bloody clothes or touch him with your bloody hands and he'll end up humping your leg.

he likes taking care of you. he's clumsy and overexcited but let him help you get dressed or take a bath or get you off. he'll do his best to show you the love you showed him.

he will suggest crawling under your desk and cockwarming you all day. but if you give a mouse a cookie.

he likes more traditional pet play too. put him in a proper collar and make him bark. call him good dog or good boy.

he's really skilled at taking multiple people at once. it's part of why he's so popular at parties. as long as you're not participating he'll be able to focus his attention on everyone.

if you're participating everyone else is chopped liver. he wants to show you how good a pet he is but he also only wants to touch you.

the rare exception is at the small parties with all your friends. all of the pets just get passed around. the first time he got really jealous of whoever you would put your hands on but as he became friends with them all the jealousy subsided somewhat. he knows they'll never want to leave their owners so he doesn't have to worry about them wanting you.

you're vampires of course you have to have cool vampire orgies. if you can't have cool vampire orgies what's the point!

his favorite position is either on your lap or with his legs over your shoulders. he wouldn't particularly care too much what position you had him in. he just needs you.

brat taming. if you spoil him you get to brat tame him and in return he'll misbehave more just to get punished.

he's the most fun to bully or mess with when you have company. he tries to be beautiful and put together eye candy by your side, he can hide his obsession with you for a little while. until you're pulling his hair or cutting into his neck. undo all the hard work your maids went through to make him presentable.

he can't hide how hard he gets when he's looking up at you and your company with tears in his eyes and his shirt stained with his blood. he'll play pretend that he's a miserable dog who's being mistreated by his owner but you're both well aware that he loves it. any kind of attention is good attention.

[shy-writer-999]

Hi I saw your post about Law’s happy trail!! I was wondering if you would write something based off of that? Like if the reader really likes it they would always tell Law how hot it is during sex then he would get shy and not believe them and it would end up messing up his performance🤭🤭

oh my wordddd please. yes i will write something about this of course… that man has been on my mind an ungodly amount. i just word vomited this onto the page, apologies if it's messy!

Law's happy trail 🥴

Law was fucking you in missionary when he realized you were staring at it. His happy trail. You couldn’t help it.

The black hair crept from its thick ring around the base of his cock, travelling up his lower abdomen, where it thinned out and disappeared at his belly button. There was something so masculine about the wiry strands playing up his body, manly whisps that accented and emphasized how toned and sleek he was. His happy trail rolled and grinded into you along with his hips and cock—it was mesmerizing.

You always thought it was hot. I mean, he’s just hot in general so of course it was hot. But in that moment some fascination struck you. You were laser focused on it.

“Fuck, Law,” you panted his name between moans. “Your happy trail is so fucking hot.”

It took a moment for him to register what you said. He froze. “What?”

“I said your happy trail is fucking hot.”

Your eyes flashed up from his abdomen to his eyes. Law was bright red, poised over you. He didn’t know what to say back—were you making fun of him? What did you mean?

Law resumed rocking his hips into you and your eyes went back to watching his happy trail, abs, and cock grind into you. Sweet sounds kept falling from your lips and Law fucked you a moment more, but then he froze again.

He pulled out and collapsed on the bed next to you, looking up at the ceiling. He was blushing so hard you thought he’d explode.

“Are you okay, Law? What happened?”

“Your comment about my… happy trail.”

“What about it? It’s hot, Law.”

More blood rushed to his cheeks. “Are you sure?”

“What? Of course I’m sure. You’re gorgeous, Law. I was just admiring the view.”

He turned to you. His eyes looked distraught, he was crimson, and his brows were bent at the middle.

“I just got a bit insecure.” Law averted his eyes again.

“Babbbyyyy, please believe me.” You got on top of him and peppered his face with kisses. “I’m not lying to you. You’re just so sexy I can’t take my eyes off you.” When you smiled sweetly like this, his heart melted.

He groaned. “Alright sweetheart, I believe you. C’mere.” Law brought his hands up to cup your cheeks and kissed you tenderly. He rutted his erection up, sliding it through your wet and inflamed folds.

You smiled and snuck a hand down, passing over Law’s happy trail with your hand and then grasping his shaft. You stroked him for a second and he let a whine out in your mouth as you exchanged sloppy kisses.

“I need you.” He groaned again and you positioned his cock at your entrance, slowly sliding down on him with a whine. You braced your palms on his abdomen and rode him until he came inside you.

When you cuddled after sex, you passed your hand over his happy trail a couple more times and he blushed every time. “It tickles a little bit,” he said gruffly. “But if you like it, I like it.”

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guys i think you are all witnessing my thigh fetish in real life. idk where i got this shit. im sorry to subject you to it. but its here. this ^^ happy trail writing falls under the umbrella of the thigh thing, in my mind. that’s what we’re going to call it. the thigh thing. i literally wanna bite and chomp on the happy trail like a rabid dog

[rotthepoet]

Lorenzo who stops being a toxic idiot and just makes you his girl friend bcs he's already wrapped round your finger

YOU HAVE NO IDEA HOW LOUDLY THIS MADE ME CACKLE IT GOT MY DOGS WORRIED

b-bb-but m-m-mean l-lorenzo🥺🥺🥺🥹🥹😢😢

Lets shove him aside for 5 minutes, let me set my biases behind me like a good author(im a lorenzo hater he is a disgusting disGRACE of a man), and lets talk about fixing him!!!!

Lorenzo is like…

He just needs a little shove in the right way.

I think the only way to break him is give him a taste of his own medicine. Be mean to him back! Like!! It gets him kinda flustered.

100% you break it off with a fwb!lorenzo and he goes ballistic. He’s in his room breaking his shit, smoking a pack, smashing mirrors because like?? how fucking dare you??? Like?????? Hello??? Who are you?? Youre his???

And then immediately after he gets so sad and bitter towards you. Hes literally in a depressive episode he stops doing anything because like…. You left him??? And hes?? Distraught!!!!

And omg pookie let me tell you, youre doing wonderful without him, i mean youre kinda sad because you couldnt fix him and you love him, but otherwise you are in a better place! Your skin is glowing(no longer tainted by his hickies), boys are paying more attention to you(he used to threaten anyone who looked your way), and life is good!!

And then theres lorenzo at your door, definitely crossfaded and sobbing. He’s burying his face in your shoulder and begging you to come back because life sucks without you- and he’s drunkenly yapping about how he’ll drop all his hoes and treat you like a princess. Bonus if you get it on video. So much bonus.

Hes literally on his knees begging you to come back to him. And not gonna lie, youre a bit of a self saboteur, you take him back and make him promise to get better.

And to your pleasant surprise, he gets better?? He gets so much better??? He dropped literally every girl from his life, he holds your hand when he walks you to class, he fixes your plate at breakfast and dinner, and most importantly… he openly calls you “his girl” which is close enough right now!!!

He sometimes acts like bitchylorenzo still, but you snap him out of it. Cuz you’re right<3 hes wrapped around your finger<3

[theoceansluvr]

Percy Jackson x Gymnast! Reader

warnings; casual injuries ? nothing major at all author's note; yippee for reqs !!!! idk why i love them so much but they make my month tbh even if they take me forever bc of school T^T

Olympics training with THE percy jackson ?!

yeah. your making it.

mainly because he's also training for either surfing or swimming(which ever you prefer)

but also because he's the most supportive boyfriend ever !

oh, you need to go do strength training ? he's doing lunges right there with you ! flexibility training ? he's learning how to do the upwards dog.

somehow manages to make protein shakes less gross too so that helps

would absolutely FREAK if he saw you fall off the bat though 😓

like if you sprain an ankle it's like he got punched in the heart or something like that

he's emotionally distraught over this as if it was him😭

LOVE LOVE LOVESSS watching you come up with routines !!!

like he'll literally just sit and listen to you talk about what you're thinking of doing !

he has no idea what a back hand spring is but hey ! you seem excited to do to and that's all that matters

probably watched the gymnastics Olympics videos with you just so you could gush about it for hours(i went on a tanget to my dad about Simone Biles when i watched them)

does a fake interviewer voice while your taking a break from practicing and asks the dumbest things

"What's it like being the most gorgeous person on earth ? Is it hard ?"

or sometimes he'll do it for an excuse to ask you genuine questions he hears interviews ask to.. by where's the fun in that ?

moving on, qualifications !

when i tell you he is LOUD.

like im not even kidding he's screaming, cheering, shaking the person next to him who he doesn't even know(they know him obviously but still)

he's thrilled for you dude !

he's only quiet when it's your floor time ;3c

and when you place 2nd ? oh he's right back to screaming once he finds out

expect the world's largest bouquet of flowers and a little stuffed animal !

thus, the soon to be Olympic champion couple was born !

I'M SORRY THIS WAS LATE AND MINDA BAD ANON :c not an excuse, but i've having the WORST pain flare ups so i kinda pushed this off for a lot longer than i planned on.. :<

[gaiathemexicanbeauty]

UHM

Boss

Can I have headcanons of the Mad Dog of Shimano watching his crush play with a toddler and he realizes he's in love </3

Boss <\3

majima crush headcanons

warnings: mention of alcohol but mostly dumb fluff! :3

reader is gender neutral! :D

idk who ur calling boss but if its me HEYYY SIR YES SIR I CAN WRITE FOR YOU 🫡

also i know you only asked for the crush with a toddler but this will be just a general crush headcanon list as well!

thanks so much for requesting! i’m steadily getting through the requests i have but make sure to check out my ask box! thanks for reading! <3

i think if majima had a crush on someone i feel like he wouldn’t really know it at first, he is most definitely the “we look like a couple of besties” guy but not on purpose

that or he’s completely ignorant and when (if you ever do) tell him, he’s like “????? REALLY??”

BUTTTT!! when he finally realizes it, he is so distraught; he’s the guy that thinks about it at night and he’ll toss and turn before finally laying on his back

he stares at his ceiling with his fingers intertwined over his stomach before he growls and gets out of bad to go out and find something to do to get rid of the giddy feeling in his stomach (he wouldn’t tell you that, though, he punches anyone who insinuates he has a crush)

so he obviously doesn’t tell you when he has a crush on you

and i think when the two of you are alone, he feels a lot less inclined to be all “HEHEHE HAHAAH IM CRAZY AND INSANE” to impress you but he’ll act funny when you’re in a bad mood

had a really vivid image of you and majima maybe at one of those rooftop bars or maybe ur just on a rooftop hanging out (for whatever reason) and you’re telling majima all about your day and how you need a drink but you may as well have stopped talking bc he wasn’t paying attention, he was looking at you and taking in the view of the moon and the way it was shining on you; not that you would really notice bc of the completely unbothered front that he puts on

i think seeing you with a kid is what really reels him in, though, he’s almost scared of the way his heart leaps in his chest

you and him probably head for a park (there’s like two in kamurocho if i remember correctly, it’s been a long day guys) after a night on the town

majima is laying on a bench with his arm over his eyes while you sit by his feet and change your shoes for something more comfortable before a toy runs into one of your shoes and knocks it over

“hey, you got in the way of my car! you’re sitting on my tunnel!” a shrill voice says, running up to the bench you are sitting at and snatching the car away.

majima has most definitely woken up from his very light state of sleep, one of his arms hanging off the side of the bench and the other laying on his stomach as he watches you start to playfully argue with the kid

and he regrets it

he doesn’t say anything while he watches you make a “racetrack” (it’s really only sticks that you and the boy can find around the park) with the small boy, he’s afraid he’ll spit up a butterfly or something from how many are flying in his stomach right now

you’ll occasionally look up to see what majima is doing and he’ll feign disinterest, picking at his nails or something to make it seem like he totally he wasn’t looking at you

“MISTER! DO YOU WANNA PLAY TOO?!” the boy shouts from inside the slide, making majima sit up as you shrug your shoulders at him and gestures for him to join you two

and how could he say no to that?

the three of you spend what only feels like a couple of minutes making the rest of a racetrack before a group of small boys catch the small boy’s attention and he leaves\

“you sure can hold your own with a kid.” majima mumbles from behind you, sitting down in the exit of the slide and leaning back on his hands

“what can i say? kids like me.” you say, shrugging softly before you crouch down to majima’s height inside the slide

you boop him on the nose with your finger which makes him jump before you say “which is probably why its so easy to be around you.”

majima’s face goes beet red before he swats your hand away, making you giggle as he grumbles about how he ‘hates’ you

IM SORRY IF THIS WAS LITTLE TOO LONG AND MAYBE WASNT WHAT YOU ASKED FOR HELPPP 

i reallly tried to make it obvious that he had a crush on you but imo, majima himself isn’t the kind of guy to be really obvious about who he likes unless he’s drunk

but either way, i got so excited to write this and had so much fun! :D i hope you enjoy it! <33

[ryutarotakedown]

major ghost trick spoilers under cut

okay wait while im still on my ghost trick bullshit: theres something so - sad? - about missile & the black cat getting only 1 talksprite. like when we first meet missile he's absolutely distraught over being dead and kamila being in danger but he can only use that one sprite of delighted doggo with tongue out. which is a great sprite dont get me wrong but definitely doesn't match with his tone in that scene at all, which i think is partially deliberate? like, he's a dog, so no matter how much he feels things he can't express it the way a human can

and missile at least is used to that communication gap over his 2 years of being a dog. but for sissel. man. like he's a really expressive guy, we all love that one sprite of him going :0! but once he remembers he's a cat he just gets stuck in that one sprite of neutral cat expression. because like missile he can't express emotions in human expressions anymore. and obviously it's possible to show emotions in other ways and it's not a bad thing to not show emotion at all, but i can't imagine sissel adjusts to that immediately

[teioh]

last time i vent i promise

like nonstop all through january no exaggeration i was incredibly sick like i literally dont know if it was one big continuous cold or it was different kinds but i was soo miserable. on top of that my dog passed away last month and i had to put my cat to sleep last night and i have to distract myself from thinking about any of these before i start feeling so distraught because its just one thing after another and i havent been able to find any peace.

i have to work very hard to feel like myself again bc i have never ever been in so much physical and emotional turmoil. i feel so pathetic ive been like. wallowing in my own sadness and its been hard trying to do something good for myself. and when i do i feel an immense amt of guilt, like im not allowed to do that anymore.

i havent been able to cook very much, but i made curry today and it felt rlly good doing it and i wanna hang onto that feeling and cook more things. i also see mason towards the end of the month and its gonna feel so good being w him again. also gonna try a little harder to look for a new job..... im getting way too comfortable putting up w insane shit and i know it can be better for me... aaaaa lol

[tokillamockingbird427]

hot take:

the walkers start BALLING whenever they and/or the ghosts watch a sad dog movie. (a dog’s purpose,hachiko,a dogs journey…..)

-🎧

(sad fact: instead of dog movies today(i cry so hard with those), i am absolutely DISTRAUGHT over a major spoiler in the new mw3 i was flashbanged with by my fyp. sigh, the game isnt even officially out yet snd im SOBBING. sniffles…my beloved, absolutely favorite comfort character, youve been done DIRTY.)

Oh real, like all three of them just sobbing on the couch and everyone's like "Okay, tissues, we need tissues." scrambling around to find a box. (Keegan also cries but in private. Movie ends, he goes to his room, starts bawling.)

They have very strong opinions about dogs being mans best friend okay? They just really appreciate it and love Riley a whole lot.

(I am right there with you on both bro oml. Love dogs. And lowkey I'm mad about it I won't lie, the og trilogy is just more satisfying to me story-wise. Feel like things aren't being resolved right in the remaster.)

[ghoulangerlee]

For the asks! 🖇🍄🌺!!

🖇 what are your favorite asks to answer

lmao stuff about me? i dont know!!! uh gosh, i'd say i love to answer asks about my writing or anything creative ive taken on. i love to answer general questions about things. idk once i got someone who sent me an ask about a computer issue they were having and we worked that out through dms haha. but i also just love general chit chat asks too like, i dont think you could ever go wrong sending me something though I might take six business years to respond haha

🍄 what is something that’s happened in your life that you wish you could go back and change?

Honestly, part of me says that if I could go back, I'd never agree to work for my aunt in 2016 and thus, I'd never agree to work for her again in 2017 after cutting contact with her back in 2013. I'd never have agreed to move into the house across the street from hers and take care of an ailing family friend and take the blame for every single thing that went wrong even though I did everything she asked. I'd never have agreed to let her control me as much as she did.

Which would be very fair of me to say because that would have been so much time that I wouldn't have had to deal with her but. But. It was also the catalyst to get me out of South Carolina. It was the catalyst to get me to leave the fucking state that made me miserable. So like. I don't know. If I could still have the same outcome without all that heartache and pain, 100%

Otherwise, I'd go back and fucking make sure my name was on the beneficiary list for mom's insurance money so my aunt would have never gotten her stupid little hands on it. So I could already have her a headstone on her grave instead of still struggling to pay it off because no one else in this family will help me. I'd make sure that I had photo copies of the forms showing that my name was on it and that I was the beneficiary to her insurance money. I'd use it to buy mom's headstone, pay off some of her debt and use it to better myself like she wanted me to. Instead of fucking paying it into a dog rescue.

lmao sorry that got a bit mean. im still fucking bitter about that to be honest.

🌺 what is the best gift someone has ever given you and why is it so important

there is a joke in here somewhere about how my kid was born literally 3 days before my birthday and that was probably the greatest gift I ever received in my life, barring i guess, the gift of life, ofc. And by joke I mean I'm 100% serious when I say that that kid is the best thing that's ever happened to me, not to be disgustingly domestic on main. that kid and my husband are both the best gifts that I could have ever gotten in life. not 2 be sappy or anything. i guess if we're talking about a physical non-person gift then it'd be my class ring; it's not technically a "gift" because I picked it out but I count it. It's the last remaining thing that I have that my mom bought me before she passed. It's a white gold ring with my graduation year and a ruby gemstone on it. means the absolute world to me and I'd cry and be distraught if I lost it

[fuzzbuns]

You mentioned the chasm in your tags so I'm curious what your thoughts are on it 👀

Mostly just this.

But if i had to ramble:

Im not sure if u mean in general or just the fatui in the chasm but since thats what i was referring to in the tags and also what i feel strongest about, i’ll focus on that.

Also disclaimer: considering it’s been…. Oh my god its been 2 years… what… ok.. since the chasm came out i might be a bit fuzzy (haha) on the details.. MY CHEESE!

When I played through the fatui quests in the chasm i. I was distraught for a very long time. Katarina’s quest is so unbelievably gut wrenching in every way.

Summary for anyone who needs it but like i recommend experiencing the quest for urself: Katarina Snezhevna is an orphan from the house of hearth that is stuck in the chasm looking for her brother. Who is. 😬 probably dead. But all we know is he is missing. So then she goes to look for him. Only to. Also.. go.. “missing” super fun. Thanks mhy.

But what really is a sucker punch is the way Katarina talks about her brother and Lyudochka (you might know her from the fortune slip quest). She talks about how she hopes Lyudochka isn’t thinking about her. How she thinks about her often because its what keeps her going but the thought that she is also thinking of her, worrying about her, makes her sad because she doesnt want Lyudochka to be in pain. I had to stare at a wall after i read that. She doesnt know how to feel because if her brother is dead she will have to mourn but if he isnt, if she is able to see him again like she so desperately wants to, she will have to kill him because it means he deserted and well. Thats what happens to children of the hearth who run away.

Anyway at this point you realize the fatui down here are under the impression they are allied with liyue but quickly realize things must have went south considering they have been cut off completely from the surface. So I, after eating drywall about katarina, ran into the next emotional pipe bomb:

The rest of the ninith company. Or .. i guess.. whats left of it. 😬. 64… people were sent down. And only. 4. Remained. Aurgh.waugh. And it gets so much worseeee.

Summery: the final girls are fighting!! Or well. They are dealing with the emotional train wreck that is not understanding what is happening and being stuck in the Horror Hole. After holding the traveler back like a feral dog (THEY LOVE BEATING UP FATUI) you fail and end up beating them up anyway, giving them some food, and finding out that they have been purposefully cut off from the surface and the millelith is banned from contacting the fatui in the chasm and if they see an fatui on the surface, they have to arrest them. Learning this, Anton (the leader of sorts) decides they have to retreat.

So happy ending right? They leave! Not really. See Anton says they have to retreat but its not without push back. Even after learning EVERYTHING one of the other members, Radomir, IS STILL INSISTING THEY STAY. WHY/?? BECAUSE THE CAPTAIN SAID SO. CUZ THE CAPTAIN SAID THEY SHOULD BE WILLING TO GIVE UP THIER LIVES DOWN HERE.. FOR WWHHAAAATTT. they are still going on about how they are here to protect liyue and they cant leave even after everything so Anton snaps back that the captian also said they wouldn’t die in vain but 60 of them are dead or mia and if they die here it will be in vain. Radomir finally agrees and the matter is settled.

My point is: these people are miserable. They have been abandoned and left to die miserable deaths and yet they STILL say “if not us, then who?” Its. Like i cant even put it into words how it makes me feel. They are so desperate for their sacrifices to mean anything, to keep their faith in what they have been taught. As if starving in the chasm, watching the people around you get slaughtered, knowing deep down no one is coming for you, is going to mean anything in the grand scheme of things. God. GOD.

“Fuzzy you’ve been going on for so long but have yet to explain why they are there in the first place..? Protecting liyue? Why are the fatui-“ OH I DIDNT FORGET. I TOLD YOU. IT GETS WORSE.

SO WHY ARE THEY EVEN IN THIS SITUATION/?:

Signora, being the excellent diplomat she is, apparently made a deal with the Qixing. She got some trade agreements going but under the condition that liyue allow the ninth company to investigate and get rid of the horrors in the chasm. The idea is that any info gained would be shared between liyue and snezhnaya. There was literally. No ulterior motive. They were. LITERALLY. JUST HELPING. They were allies! One of the millelith even left some supplies for the company out of guilt along with a message expressing his regret that they would be enemies now.

“But why did the Qixing cut them off?”

Childe lol. Or well if you follow the line up, Zhongli and Signora. The fatui rising a dead god to drown liyue didnt really leave a good impression on them so they immediately voided all their agreements with the fatui. Awkward! Obviously, Signora knew about the fatui in the chasm (made the deal) but i wonder if Childe or Zhongli knew anything about it. Sad! Even pulcinella knows (its his men down there) and Anton literally says that he understands and doesnt object to him “dispensing with less valuable assets” in the quest for bigger endeavors.

No one was coming to save them. Left in a nation they were trying to protect that is now incredibly hostile to them because of the actions of the archon of said nation LOLLLL its such a tragedy. The entire time you are treated to the ideals the fatui drills into these soldiers heads and for me, this was the moment that i became unable to relate to the travelers distrust and resentment of the fatui. I understand it but i just. I couldnt feel the same rage ever again after knowing what they are told and what they believe.

When i confronted trofin in sumeru i was so. Sad. Because i knew something had to be done about what he was doing but i also knew how fucked the entire situation was. And then i accidentally let lumine KILL HIM DIED and i sat there like 😨 BECAUSE I DIDNT MEAN TO. I THOUGHT I WAS JUST BEATING HIM UP. but i guess it doesnt matter because if you dont kill him the house of hearth does when he abandons his post. And like. He knew they would. He knew it was over for him. All the fatui recruits we meet are so. They know they arent the good guys. They are family to each other and they know that these connections are going to end in heart break but its all they have. I mean. I guess thats why they are called “fools”.

Anyway. Big fatui head. I find them and their mindsets so unbelievably interesting but i feel like the genshin fandom… doesnt really like.. fully digest a lot of the info we get about them. there is so much focus on the orphanage and what they do as if its not a symptom of the environment of the fatui in general. Childe was also 14 when he was enlisted and never stepped foot in the orphanage and like.. look at the guy. He is so unwell. I didnt even mention polar star. Oh my god. Polar star makes me sick. The ninth company mentions it. God. Look at the lyrics for polar star. I have a google slides thing about childe where i pool all my thoughts on him and the fatui (its at. 136 slides… lol…) so i could ramble about them all day but like . I .. i have to stop

[shinyvenus]

Til' Death do us part.

spencer reid x gn!reader

summary: How can an innocent and happy morning easily turn into a night of dread and loss?

warnings: death. mentions of blood, angst, hurt no comfort, fluff into angst (lmk if i forgot any)

a/n: this is actually my first ever published work lmao also im not good at summaries

word count: 1.5k

Mornings with Spencer were always your favorite, the soft glow of the sun illuminating your room as you stirred in your sleep, waking up not too long after him. He enjoyed reading a book while waiting for you to wake up, as you were continuing to fight to stay awake he gave you a soft rub on your back. "Morning, I'll go make us some coffee," he whispered as he stepped out of bed. The sudden loss of warmth from your side making you groan.

"Don't worry, I won't be long" he said in a hushed tone, his voice was always angelic to you, rambling or not, you found the greatest comfort in his voice. Since you first met Spencer you've always been drawn to his voice. Maybe more than just that, but it contributed to your liking to him a lot.

You were lost in your thoughts that you hadn't noticed that he was back already, sitting back down onto your shared bed, leaning down to kiss you on your temple. "Coffee's ready."

Slowly lifting your eyes open to look at his face, the same face you'd fallen in love with since you first saw him. His soft features that somehow just complimented eachother.

Walking out of your bedroom, the smell of coffee immediately filling your senses, you poured yourself a cup and sat down, Spencer sitting across from you reading his favorite book hes read atleast a million times on your small round table that sat next to a window. It was one of your favorite spot because the sun shone perfectly through that window, sometimes making a beautiful rainbow effect on the top of your table.

Upon finishing your coffee, you sat there, fidgeting with your wedding ring. reminiscing on that day. That memory of you both saying - “I do.” - brings a soft smile to your lips. He notices your fidgeting in the corner of his eye and he turns to look at you, being met with that smile that he loves so much.

“What?” he says to you,

“Just thinking about how much you mean to me.”

He gives you that smile you just adore, you seem to get lost in eachothers eyes, this kind of love you had for eachother makes your heart burst. Moments like these you wish could last forever.

A buzzing noise could be heard in the room and it took you about a minute to realize that the buzzing was your phone. You rushed to grab it from your pocket, taking one glance at your phone your smile slowly faded.

Spencer seemed to notice the minute change in your expression, "It's Hotch" you said to him, sighing.

Of course you loved your job, you wanted nothing more than to help people and put criminals in jail. But it was extremely demanding, and tiring.

You were dealing with a tough case, an intense child hostage situation in a mall, it was empty except for you, the cops, search dogs, and all of the distraught relatives. You sat there comforting the mother who had been sobbing for atleast an hour now.

Cases involving children seems to hit you the worst, you've always liked children, yet not wanting any of your own. Spence was gone investigating some people with Hotch and Derek. It was just you, Emily, and the tired parents looking for some hope that their child may still be alive and well.

Spence, Reid, and Morgan came back from investigating and spoke to you and Emily seperate from the parents.

"We think we may have a suspect, and we believe the child is still alive" Hotch spoke in his usual monotone voice, "-And it may not be for long." Spencer added, you looked at your boss and then at Spencer. He knew you wanted to go and find this child, he wanted too as well.

Hotch went over to discuss some things with the parents as you stand there, not knowing what to do. Spence could see the look of hesitation written all over your body, as soon as he opened his mouth, you spoke over him. "Do you have any idea where?" He just looked at you, Derek chimed in. "Look, Garcia is working on it. We'll find this kid. Don't worry."

Minutes later Morgans phone rang, you stared at him as he put the phone on speaker. "Talk to me, baby" You listened intently to every word Garcia said, and as soon as she gave some sort of indication to where the child may be, you were rushing down the mall.

"Hey, wait!" Morgan shouted to you, but you didn't listen. Spencer followed behind, clearly not listening to Hotch or Morgan.

You sprinted down stairwells and tried to clear out every room possible, What Garcia said might not have been much, but to you it was everything you needed. Spencer now close behind clearing out rooms as well, even with little to no communication you always seemed to just understand eachother.

While he was in a seperate room clearing it out, you went in another when you heard Spencer yell "Drop the weapon. Now!" Your heart skipped a beat as you tried to rush out of the room and to your husbands side.

As soon as you entered the room the deafening sound of a gunshot rang throughout the room. Not yet comprehending what just happened, you shot the suspect down. When he was on the floor, unconscious, you finally turned to look at your husband who was hunched over, groaning in pain.

Adrenaline and fear coursing throughout your entire body, you dropped your gun to the floor and tried to get Spencer to lay down, he was panting and hissing in pain as blood started to seep through his vest. Your heart was beating out of your chest as you removed his vest, you took your shirt off so you had something to put pressure to on his wound, and to hopefully soak up most of his blood so you wouldnt have to see so much of it.

You hurriedly took your phone from your pocket and dialed the first name you could see, it was Hotch. You threw your phone on the ground to keep your attention on your husband, who was dying out in front of you. Aaron almost immediately answered, he tried to speak but you didn't care about what he was going to say. You needed help. Spencer needed help.

"Aaron, please, help me! Spencer got shot and I dont know what to do, send somebody, now!" You screeched, you wished someone could come right now, they'd get your husband and save him, and everything would be alright.

You knew help would arrive fairly quickly, you guys didn't travel too far. Tears streaming down your face as you tried to keep Spence conscious, your shirt proving to be useless at this point as blood now started covering your hands.

You couldn't hear anything, Hotch's voice being drowned out by your own, talking to Spencer. For what seemed like hours, you sat next to him, kneeling, watching his body fight to stay alive. Not long after, you felt the vibrations in the floor of people rushing towards you, and bursting through the door. You couldn't hear anything. Morgan was pulling you off Spencer and into a tight hug off to the side so paramedics could rush him out and into an ambulance.

Morgan wouldn't let you go as you felt waves of emotion hitting you even harder. Your bloody hands staining his dark beige colored shirt, but he didn't care. "Its okay, you're okay. Reid's gonna be fine." His words fell on deaf ears as you just sobbed onto his shoulders.

You stood outside with Emily's blazer covering you, ambulance sirens blaring all around you, but all you could hear was the ringing in your ears and the intense pounding sensation in your head. Finding a seat on a trucks tailgate, your entire body was sore. You were tired. Hotch appeared in sight and you just looked at him. "Im sorry, there wasn't much they could do."

Your entire world seemed to shatter at that moment. Body going completely numb at his words, your mouth fell agape as you tried to think of anything to say, but every word you could think of died at your tongue.

"Was the boy okay?" You blurted out, eyes fixed on the floor. Hotch didn't respond. You could only close your eyes and just take a deep breath.

You could never imagine how much your world could change in just a matter of less than a day. When you got home that night, everything was quieter. You just stood there in the living room, staring at the little round table you and Spencer were sitting at this morning. Your coffee sitting there, cold. But Spencers book, colder.

You walked into your once shared bedroom, Spencers side of the room littered with books and papers.

You climbed into bed hoping to find that same warmth you experienced just this morning, only to be met with a still, empty bed.

You resigned as an FBI agent recently, not being able to save your husband and a child in need, in time. Those facts weighed not only on your shoulders, but your soul.

[saetoru]

hi Teeeee i love u

💚 Alhaitham always on the brain, im sleepy and sitting in the shade with my feet in a kiddie pool while my moms dog splashes around in it and thinking about Alhaitham in some shades and swim trunks hehe…..

he says he likes to do nothing on a sunny day so think about how cute he is lounging around on one of those beach chairs and passes out with his book on his face…also i bet he tans so good and sexy >.< i daydream about his tan lines more often than what i think is normal i wont lie !

gray i’m so unwell at the idea of him in swim trunks he must have the cutest belly button ever don’t u think ?!???? don’t u just want to kiss his lil belly button ????????????? i want to kiss his lil belly button

but imagine it’s hot and he’s a lil huffy next you as he swipes his bangs from his face bc they’re making his forehead sweaty. so u cup his lil face and tilt his head closer so you can tie his bangs into a lil ponytail over his head. a lil palm tree on his lil head 🥹 imagine how cute he looks i’m so distraught 🥹🥹🥹🥹 u coo over him and kiss his cheeks and he’s all blushy like “whatever” and goes back to reading BUT HES HIDING A LIL SMILE AND HIS FOREHEAD ISNT SWEATY ANYMORE SO HES HAPPY AND CUTE

ok that’s enough for today i’m going back to bed i’m not well or capable of being well for today

[dayundying]

ummm i dont have anything better to do so im annoying you. how did u sleep and hru currently

YAYYY I LOVE GETTING ANNOYED ^_^ /gen

Meeeh I slept ok. Very normally. I never ever really sleep good or bad? Its always "I went to sleep comfortable" "I woke up feeling cozy" and "I woke up from a nightmare" "I woke up all sore because apparently I sleep enact torture on my neck" yk?

Tho speaking of nightmares, I didn't have one I just had a bad dream I guess?? I dreamt I watched a youtube video that I thought would have dogs in it but it just had people being phsyically very loud about their nationality which hurt my dream ears and there was no dogs and I was so distraught by that when I woke up I almost asked my dad to send me a picture of our dog because I wanted to see a dog so bad.

As for how I am currently I'm alright! Pretty good considering people keep interacting with me on tumblr which I like :3 I am hungry tho. I should probably eat soon augh

[traumasurvivorshelpingsurvivors]

TW ..dysfunctional family relations? not sure how else to describe it lol

I guess I'm looking for reassurance? someone to listen? answers? im not exactly sure

so i have PTSD from. a lot of different things so i know what flashbacks are and i know what triggers are. i recognize them ok? but i don't understand why i keep getting triggered by my brother. for clarity, we don't talk: we live in the same house but he's very transphobic and an asshole, so i stopped speaking to him. but he's still around all the time.

and it triggers me! even when he's not saying transphobic things, hearing his voice triggers me sometimes. i don't understand why, like, it's not even like that's targeted towards ME, he's just generally a bigoted ass. but what's really bothering me is that there was a thing that happened:

he was being really mean to my little sibling. and he does shit like that sometimes, he targets me, or one of my little siblings and he generally treats them like shit. and i knew if i spoke up in the midst of it, he'd be mad. but i did anyone. and he was. really mean so i told my mom. she said she'd speak to him about it.

anyways, long story short, there was a family emergency and my mom left. my sibling was distraught over the emergency and my brother decided that was a great evening to totally tear into her. i mean-telling her HORRIBLE shit. she just wanted one of our dogs to sit with her but he started yelling at her about how she always wanted everything, how she was such a pest and all this shit and i couldn't BREATHE. he'd done shit like that to me before but never this bad with my little sibling.

so i did the first thing i knew would snap him out of it so i could get my sibling away: i told him to fuck the hell off. which of course shocked everyone but then i could get my sibling away. i was so fucking scared-my dad was home, my older sisters too and none of them did ANYTHING. they could hear him yelling but just ignored it. he was so mad, he started saying all this shit about me and i left the room but then ii had a panic attack for like, literal HOURS, i couldn't sleep because i couldn't BREATHE and he kept talking really loudly near my room so i could hear how mad he was and then, to top it all off, i got in trouble for using a curseword and he didn't even get told off.

but i keep getting flashbacks to it. even though he wasn't even targeting me in the first place and yknow its over now and its done and like, ok he's an ass but that's how siblings ARE sometimes right? i mean. i'd never do that obviously bc that's horrible!! he's like 26 and my sibling is 12. i wouldn't do it even without the age gap in mind but fdshajklfhdajkl i'm just trying to ask 1. why tf am i getting flashbacks and 2. am i just? being crazy over this??? is this just some totally normal thing i just. dont understand or is this something actually fucked up that my parents just dont give a fuck over? tnx

(-luci)

Hi luci,

I'm so sorry you went through this.

Please know that what happened is not okay. It sounds like your family normalizes and enables his behavior.

You even said yourself that you would never do these things because it would be a horrible thing to do. So it sounds like on some level you know that this isn't just "how siblings are sometimes". While you're definitely not alone, it doesn't mean that it's okay for your brother to behave this way. Accountability is still necessary to encourage growth, and this sounds like something your parents may not see.

The way you responded to the situation does not sound disproportionate to the situation, despite how your parents made it seem. The fact that your family simply ignored him implies that this may be a pattern for your brother and your family has developed a learned helplessness. I say this primarily because, even if reacting may exacerbate his anger, it seems more natural to react than ignoring it.

It makes sense if this was a traumatizing experience for you. It can be scary to be in a situation like that. You're not being crazy over this. This is something your parents aren't taking seriously enough.

I hope I could help. Please let us know if you need anything.

-Bun

[jayvikyaoi]

Hold Me Now by the Thompson Twins ethubs

okay, i literally left my overwatch game at the very beginning just to listen to this song. also im honored that you thought to send this to me whoever you are

this is a banger song btw

i think "both of us searching for some perfect world / we know we'll never find / so perhaps i should leave here" is really good. because i think ideally etho is looking for a world where he and bdubs can be okay together, but in the end his hand is always forced and he decides to save himself rather than letting them both die together, painfully, because at least bdubs can live on in his memory, right? he does so much to run around and get lives for bdubs, whether it be through tango or the scar safety net. he'd do anything for bdubs, except die.

bdubs, on the other hand, WOULD die for etho, and he does, somewhat. he's looking for a world where someone will be as devoted to him as he is to them, and nobody realizes that they'd be nothing without bdubs -- ren, scar, etho. but he's always placed in second because of how eager he is to give his full loyalty to people; he's like a dog, always waiting for his owner to come home. he knows that etho will always save himself before anyone else. he knows what lengths etho would go to just to stay alive, the lengths that his self-preservation reach.

"but you know that there's nowhere that i'd rather be / than with you here today" etho even states that he gets tempted by bdubs' offer to be red with him and cause chaos, because he loves being with bdubs, and he loves causing chaos. even when bdubs is red, etho still lets them live together, he still lets his guard down and he still keeps close contact with bdubs no matter their circumstances. he could've easily gone somewhere else, instigated a fight so that he could drive bdubs out, he had multiple connections at that point. but he didnt. because he liked their base, and most of all, he liked being with bdubs. the fence was nothing but a safety precaution, but it isn't like etho thought bdubs would truly attack him anyways, which is secured by the fact that bdubs was the boogeyman so early on and easily couldve killed etho on so many occasions.

going along with that, "you ask if i love you / what can i say? / you know that i do / and that this is just one of those games that we play / so i'll sing you a new song / please, don't cry anymore / i'll even ask your forgiveness / though i don't know just what im asking for" to me represents etho being upset and distraught by bdubs' death, and he would apologize for it given the chance just to make bdubs not feel bad about it, but he knows in his heart that he wouldnt have done it any other way. if he were to apologize, he wouldn't be sure what it'd be for.

i think bdubs and grian's analyses of etho were both correct in their own rights. etho does love and care for bdubs deeply, but in the end, he has to preserve himself. bdubs knows it, yet doesnt want to see that part of etho, because he's is perfect for him in every other way, so if he just pretends hard enough... maybe etho will be as devoted to him as he is to etho.

TL;DR - i made ethubs way more dramatic than it actually is, because thats what i like doing