#im just gonna resume playing gensh!n n distract myself b4 bed

[yumenosakiacademy]

my parents always exaggerate tht im good at things like!! im rly NOT good at anything! tht isnt singing! just bc i vaguely remember tht rule of thirds doesnt mean i retained much from imaging class! just bc i like 2 take random pics when i see pretty shit doesnt mean i kno shit abt angles n lighting n photography! just bc i doodle doesnt mean im good at art! a fucking 13 yr old has more artistic ability in their fucking pinkie than ill ever hav in my whole gd body. just bc i kno what a layer mask is n can recolor an anime boy’s hair doesnt mean im a Master at editing suddenly! in quite mediocre in fact!! just bc my grades in school were decent in school doesnt mean im smart! not a bit!! i didnt retain shit! i dont hav any talents! never hav, never will! the few tht i minutely hav wont help me w a decent job in the future! they should kno tht damn well! theyre just boomers who think bc i can easily use a computer that im a whiz kid! newsflash, even millenial n gen z fucker knows how to use technology n has basic skills! im not special! i hav nothing i wanna hav a career in, nothing im good at, n no motivation to even further myself! all i can do is fucking pray n let myself down. im not “underestimating myself” or w/e i KNO im a worthless, unwanting, empty coward. i kno myself more than theyll ever fucking kno. i kno i cant do shit, will never do shit, n will never ever ever BE shit.