#im just a big sucker for being the favorite in a pool of others who r pawing for his attention.... i knowwwwwww he has a cute nickname 4 u

[introloves]

THE MARKET FOR SUKUNAS CONCIBE IS IN SUCH HIGH DEMAND PLS PLS PLS PLS

(thank god ive already written 1k words over this)

aheemheem... perfect

[killsaki]

FOR KAZUO FOR THE DILF PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE LLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE

Bc I chose so many I also typed out the questions for you <3

👊 - are they quick to violence?

💤 - do they fall asleep easily? What helps them sleep?

🌙 - what is their greatest wish? How far are they willing to go for it?

🌋 - how bad is their temper? A slow boil, or an instant explosion?

🎁 - what type of present are they happiest to recieve? Are they good at gift giving?

🍼 - what are their thoughts on (more) children?

🎷- do they play any instruments? Are they any good at it?

🎡 - are they someone who wants to kiss at the top of the ferris wheel?

📎- a random fact

☁️ - a soft headcanon

💓 - what gets their heart racing?

💗 - when they have a crush is it noticeable? What changes when they're in love?

💖 - are they a subtle or showy lover?

why!!!! do you do this to me !!!!!!

👊🏻 — not at all. he’s big and sweet <3. but, he used to be a hellian at some point—he knows when and how to protect what needs protecting.

💤 — he works out still! so, i think that. plus other physical activities. (you could literally fuck him to sleep)

🌙 — all hes wanted was to have fun with his friends when he was younger, to keep each other safe. and then he had katsumi into his early 20s and didn’t really have any time to form any other dreams. so from then on all he wanted was to make katsumi happy, and give him a good life. he worked multiple jobs and went to college all while taking care of katsumi as much as he could, then started and ran his own business until retirement age <3

🌋 — he genuinely has the patience of a saint. i don’t think there’s much that can make him mad (his son only irritates him at best.) but a slow boil is probably what is most likely. even then, he’s very calm and direct about addressing whatever the issue is.

🎁 — from his son! he doesn’t want anything. from a lover! he really is so big on quality time. (have sex with him) he doesn’t want much of anything materialistic. he sucks at gifts! they’re also super over priced because he “has the the money to spend” so he just buys whatever it is in the “best quality” and then you end up with a $1,200 necklace.

🍼 — he. has the biggest breeding kink in the world im surprised he doesn’t have any already. i don’t think he’d be fully against it! but it would take a while to convince him, because of the issues with katsumi’s mom. even if he doesn’t blame her, even if he never dwelled on it. it was still traumatic.

🎷 — probably can play guitar! he doesn’t suck but he’s not amazing at it. never had enough time to get it down fully.

🎡 — in his youth? absolutely. now? he’d feel silly. but would 1000% indulge you.

📎 — his favorite snack is peaches !! + he has never not made his sex partner cum (:

☁️ — has the biggest habit of kissing his lover on the nose in quiet moments.

💓 — being pawed at, he’s such a sucker just for being wanted. sexually, romantically—in any way. he just loves being come onto.

💗 — very. are you kidding me? he’s trying to come over a repair your entire house for you. build you a deck. put in a fucking pool, he’s trying to stay over to cook for you afterwards too. he just wants to take care of you.

💖 — showy! but on accident. he loves touching you, doing things for you, buying things for you—anything you’ll let him do.

[youranxiousnerd]

Spring Break Thoughts

bc i want to get stuck in an airport and break into first class

spoilers below

EJ DOING THE INTRO

the most...profound intro?

“maybe it’s really about other people” looks at gina

i have jumped on the portwell train

when i first saw they were doing zoom backgrounds i was not on board, but they’ve grown on me carlos’ sucks

miss jenn and the zoom backgrounds

NI NI HEL LO

nini didn’t you get cut?

you know miss jenn they could get together out side of school (at least the kids who are here)

olivia is so pretty

aww carlos called miss jenn his madrina

HA I KNEW IT OF COURSE CARLOS INVITED SEB

seblos tension, ill get to that later

they’re so passive aggressive guys i love it

ASH AND EJ

CASWELL COUSINS YESSS

“You guys are watching like, old, old movies”

“This is why we’re soulmates” the redyln goal has been reached bye

this...this is the only line they get?

miss jenn has obviously not gotten the memo

three weeks and you havent blocked act two

“not it”

of course sebby is the last one to leave

“bye” awww miss jenn

GINA THAT LITTLE GIG YESSSS

just one complement after another ej

AHHHH EJ WITH PAINTED NAILS YESSSSS

he looks so good ej should do it more often

ej fell hard guys

jack in the background doing tik toks i cant

gina and signs

RICKY IN A BLANKET

ugh its lynne

i dont care enough to spell her name right

“just being a burrito here”

bitter ricky, i feel ya

“I’m sorry to hear that’s it over” *smiles*

nini you should have just posted a video

ope empty notebook

awww ej’s insta

gina and jack

thats it

“she changed her name” nina is literally her real name 

the leg pull away

ricky and bedding is my new favorite ship besides therapy

“Your boy Jack”

when i first saw the promo for this nini scene i was worried it was gonna be another solo (shes had like 16)

I SPY WITH MY LITTLE EYE A RAINBOW HEART

my gay heart is bursting

nina really said “rainbows are awesome” this episode

and the necklace is off

guys i love improv scenes

it was so goood

soooo howie and kourt just get no closure after that killer song last week? no nothing? 

BAHAHAHA KOURTNEY BREAKING UP

i love kourtney

sofia is so pretty

okay i dont ship jack and gina but they’re fun together, little chaos demons

THE DUKE SWEATSHIRT AHHHH

“my friends, like, my castmates, they think it sucks what you did on opening night”

good talk, long overdo. nothing is solved by any means but little steps

the therapy line omfg 

“HI, CUPCAKE”

“I’ll meet you in the pool” there is an ocean right behind you

 “Don’t ask me”

“Ashlyn, Big Red, Miss. Jenn, Carlos”

the way seb’s face just DROPS when he mentions carlos

“Are you guys fighting” big red looked so happy omfg

“That would imply that we’re speaking”

“Who has time to talk when you’re busy posting selfies with random guys in a cabana”

guys i had to pause for five minutes because i was dying

jealous seb... where did you come from?

ALRIGHT IT IS TIME TO TALK ABOUT SEBLOS!!!!

first off, it seems the writers love to make major seblos things happen off screen. examples include there pinning and officially getting together

where... where did all this tension come from? it has been light the past two episodes then bam, everything they say to each other is bitter. since when is seb jealous? the writers have so many other conflicts to talk about and they choose jealous seb? off all thing?!?! im honestly kind of disappointed because there are so many other things to talk about from previous episodes and instead they choose this?!?!?! hopefully this isn’t the only thing that is addressed next week, it cant be. they better talk about the constant “no seb” because its an issue. 

moral of the story is i hope the fight next episode isn’t about seb being jealous bc there is so much more to talk about

i am loving passive aggressive seb like i hope that doesn’t go away when their conflict is resolved bc it’s awesome

HERE are my thoughts on the zoom call

okay seb’s line about doing public makes sense with the full episode

everyone on the call is just like “wtf happened to my otp”

EJJJJ

EJJJJ I LOVE YOU

THE BEST EJ SCENE 

“Hi Nini!” ejjjj

you have to watch the scene twice, one to watch nini and ashlyn and another for ej

EJ AND THE PUPPET THATS IT IM DONE

sassy gina i love her

guys i just love everybody

ASHLYN AND NINI I MISSED THIS DUO GAHHHHHH THEY’RE ADORABLE

ej is a child i love it

ricky i feel you with the songwriting

look at big red being best friend of the year now give him a plot line

i am under the impression jack recorded gina 

SHIT THE CANDLE TO LAMP TRANSITION YESSSSS

i love transitions and that was it

matt is ripped

julia lester showed up this season. queen shit 

she is perfect

YES BIG RED AND KOURTNEY DANCING I WANT MOREEEE

i am so confused with seb’s gloves

that has been bugging me for two days 

carlos has more style then a hawaiian shirt and khakis

im in heaven the harmonies are soooo good

they are amazing they sound so good

you can hear all there voices

julia popped off

aint seen nothin is really good, i wasn’t sure about it at first but its grown. they sound so damn good the talent they hold. not the best song but its fun

the video actually looks better than i thought it would

“Wow” me too richard

jack is fun, i’d be okay if he comes back. he is a little chaos demon.

i like how the writers didn’t make them romantic (for once), hopefully gina got his number bc i would

i want to be stuck at an airport with jack

“let you go” is genius. so far the best original song this season. josh has been killing it lately. this is the ballad ricky deserves. lyrical genius. he sounds sooo good.

the one time i agree with lynne

EJ YOU CAMEEEEEE

OMFG THEY’RE ADORABLE

PORTWELLLLLLL BABY WHOOOP

HE IS GONNA TREAT YOU SO GOOD GINA 

HE BROUGHT YOU FOOD AND TOOK YOUR BAG 

GAHHHHHH 

nOoOoOoOo thats it?!?! i cannot wait a week i refuse

i normally don’t talk about promos but episode 10 (im a sucker for sleepover episodes) is my most anticipated episode so we gonna do it. 

for starters ricky has a guitar, so he might sing?

AWW THE SETS THEY ARE SO PRETTY

ooo lily is back?

blueprint?

ashlyn and ricky where have you been?!?!

seb and the girls yesss

since in a heartbeat is next episode seb probably leaves? i hope it is a private moment

oh please talk about your other issues pleaseee

“why did i never hear about this?” nina no, it was an accident alright?

gina and nini haven’t interacted this season and the first thing they do is fight.

lets hope there “beef” doesn’t take the a slot 

maybe another seblos kiss?

did you know i love seblos

i have stocked up my tears for next week

[yoichichi]

Bunny’s 200 follower event

request: Hey, congratulations on 200 followers, you truly deserve them :) ! Matchup for aot please? I'm bi, a preference towards girls irl but men in anime and fiction. I'm Intp, 5w6, true neutral. I like drawing, swimming, video games, sleeping. I have some weird "hobbies" like sitting in front of my washing machine when it's done and smelling all the clean clothes, taking photos of every single cat I see, sitting alone in my rooftop and listening to music late at night. I also have a lot of scented stuff laying around because I'm a sucker for nice clean smells. I consider myself smart, Im not social and I don't like crowds. Although I might seem cold or uninterested at first, I'm kind, trusting and understanding to those I open up to. I can be pretty lazy, however I always finish important stuff and never leave my room dirty. I'm 5"8, with an athletic and slightly curvy body type. I want an understanding and loyal partner. Preferably introverted, or at least someone that doesn't mind having more casual dates at home. I'm the "bottom" in a relationship so I would also look for someone who is more of a "top". I've found myself attracted to multiple ISTPs, but also other INTPs. I wouldn't want a loud, super extroverted or hot headed partner. (ex.bakugo, connie) I'm not very good at expressing emotions so I would prefer someone that can be patient with me and won't move things too fast. Sorry this is long, and thank you for doing this :>❤️

a/n: hi luv! Thanks for sending in the first request! And please don’t apologize for the length at all! I hope you enjoy! This is also not canonverse! I write these in mind with modern!au if that makes sense :)

Warnings: nsfw-ish themes but generally sfw

Reading your request, you have been matched with...

(づ￣ ³￣)づ Reiner Braun

Ok first things first with you and Reiner: naps naps naps

This man is big, warm, definitely smells like fresh laundry, and definitely likes to cuddle. So the fact you like to sleep? Yeah napping is becoming his favorite pastime with you

Definitely a big spoon type of guy but would also love it with your face buried in his chest, you can also smell how good he smells this way!

Tell him he smells good and he ~will get flustered idc

Ok but this man would send photos of cats to you

He’d be on a run and see a cat and immediately whip out his phone to send you a Snapchat, that’s like the only time he uses it at this point LMAO

Reiner would be such an understanding partner and LOVE stay at home dates

He’s definitely a bit of a homebody so getting to have cute little dates where you guys cook some stupid fancy dinner together are a must

He’s on the quieter side like you in public but definitely takes charge in the relationship with initiating things

The type to order for you in public and remember your order exactly but still looks at you after every time like, “that’s what you wanted, right?”

Please kiss his cheek and reassure him it’s correct it’ll make his year

The top in the relationship for sure, but also very soft with you

So even though he’s taking charge, he’ll always be asking for reassurance you’re alright and checking in with you constantly

He wouldn’t admit it but he would want you to draw him LMAO

Like he’d also just be so obsessed with watching you draw

Is he staring at you or the drawing? I don’t know if you catch him staring at you he will think about it for a week and get red every time it crosses his mind

I don’t see him as a big video game player but he would definitely watch you play them and just be so 👁👄👁 and ask SO many questions that I feel Iike would just make it even more confusing for him LMAO

Reiner is the king of understanding and patience

He will go as slow as you need and listen and do his best to support you as best he can

Late night cuddle convos are his fav bye ✋🏼

Your vibe reminds me of...

Another suitable match for you would be...

(づ￣ ³￣)づ Armin Arlert

This man is another VERY understanding and supportive person

Now before anyone says anything this man is not a bottom and definitely takes charge in a relationship idc

Service top service top service top anyways moving on

He loves taking care of people and that includes you

He’s very attentive and good at knowing when your social battery is running low and is taking you home and scooping you into his arms so fast

Another big spoon type of guy

He loves having his face buried in the back of your neck with your back against his chest and his arms wrapped around you

Something about feeling you that close and secure to him just hits different for him

Candle lover omg

He’s a chronic bath and body works gift card holder it’s almost a problem LMAO

Sometimes he goes to the store and if he see’s a candle he think you might like he will buy it and bring it home like :) here, smell :) and just be holding it out at your face like :) you like it?

Ok idk why but he definitely likes to cup your face

Like you’ll be on the couch chillin and he’ll get up and stretch to go to the kitchen or something and see you and just 🥺🤲🏼

“You’re so cute 🥺🤲🏼” and it’s like, grandma aggressive

Like he’s squishing your cheeks and moving your head around and talking so loud and then leaves a stupid big kiss on your forehead and then walks off after like what he did was completely justified and normal

Ok so being with Armin does come with eren LMAO

Eren would want to play video games with you ~so bad

Cause you’re his besties partner!! He wants to make you feel like you’re apart of the group!

Armin absolutely loves if you beat him if that’s an element in the game

He finds it 1. Hilarious and 2. Hot LMAO

You can’t tell me he’d be kinda 🙂😏😳🙂 if you beat Eren

He doesn’t know if it’s his pride or what but something about it...

Ok obviously he loves swimming with you like, c’mon

He doesn’t care where, recreational pool? Check ✅ Beach? Check ✅ lake? Check ✅

This man just loves doing things with you and he loves swimming so :)

He will lather you in sunscreen at the beach whether you think you need it or not

You couldn’t say anything to him about it

He’d just be putting the sunscreen in his hands and then give you a ~look

He’d just raise his eyebrows and purse his lips and look so DONE just-

“(y/n), give me your arm.”

Loves rubbing your arms while you cuddle idc

He’s very caring and patient with you and his favorite way to show he cares is through his devotion and affection 💓

Your vibe reminds me of...

eek! Here’s the first post in my event! I really hope you liked it! Please let me know your thoughts!

Requests are still open until February 26th 8:00 pm PST

-🐇out

[gummyleesunshine]

Hot Mornings and Cold Nights

Genre: romance and angst

Warning: a bit of make out and sex

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You open the curtain, letting the sun sip through. You wrap the robe tighter around your waist, it was 7 in the morning yet the room felt cold.

You turn your head and stare at the sleeping figure on the bed. You walk towards Like hot mornings and cold nights fluffy caramel hair then slowly down to every part of his face, admiring it.

You still remember the first time you saw him. Your breath hitched as soon as he walked in the room. At first you noticed how his face was perfect, he had bushy brows that matched his almond shaped eyes, his nose bridge was long and his lips had the perfect cupid bow. He had the face of a responsible and reliable boy who you'd bring home and your parents would love.

He was your bestfriend Lucas' roommate and brought him along as the plus one for the party. Lucas leads him to you and introduces him as Kun. Even his name matched his face.

He stuck out a hand and you shook it. He then gives a big smile and a deep dimple pops out. You cursed inside your head, you were a sucker for guys with dimples.

And as the night deepened you saw how Kun was, all nice and friendly. The exact guy you expected him to be.

Then beer came to the picture. He had low alcohol tolerance, yet he kept drinking, not able to refuse whatever Lucas gave him. 4 glasses and he was a mess. A cute mess. While you on the other hand, you had high tolerance but you only got yourself to 3 glasses making sure to be the sober one in the group.

The party was still on going but looking at the two boys all drunk, you decided it was time to head home. Despite their dorms being on the other side of where you lived, you still chose to bring them home.

Arriving to their dorms, you flopped Lucas on his bed and did the same with Kun. You were about to leave when a hand held your wrist. You looked back and see Kun sitting up holding your wrist.

"Ill bring you home." He slurred.

You raised an eyebrow at him. "Youre drunk."

"Nothing fresh air can fix." He replied. He lifted himself up, slightly wobbling. You reached for his hand, giving him support. He thanked you with smile. Before heading out, you fixed Lucas up and tucked him under his blanket.

You both chose to walk instead of taking the bus thinking it was better to have some fresh air. You stopped by a park and sat there for a few minutes just taking in the view of colorful bright lights hanging on th trees and the small bridges. Kun leaned his head on your head and let out a deep sigh.

After the park, you had bits of stop overs from the tiny ice cream shop to the cafe for coffee take out. Kun was drunk but he could still keep a conversation. Both you talked about the most random things from which building you thinks the tallest to favorite superheroes to how Lucas is crazy. The topics kept rolling that you didnt realize you were by your gate already. Your heart ached, you still wanted to keep talking to him. You couldnt even do the 'invite for coffee or food inside' since you already had that a while ago.

You were about to open you mouth to say something when his lips crashed into yours. You were shocked, confused and was processing what was happening. He realized you werent responding and was about to pull away, when you held his face and deepened the kiss. You werent sure what was happening, maybe it was the alcohol or maybe it was something else but you wanted it to last. Kun held your waist bringing you closer to him.

You woke up to the sound of your alarm. You threw a pillow at it making it fall to the ground and probably broken. You try to roll to your side only to be constricted somewhere on your waist area. You place your hand on your waist but instead you feel a large hand. Your eyes widen. You looked down the blanket and realized you were naked. You slowly turned your head around to the side and saw Kun sleeping beside you, shirtless.

He pulled his hand away and placed it on top of his eyes, groaning. He then turned his head and gave the same reaction as you. His eyes grew wide and he started going white.

"Oh shit."

---

You chuckle remembering that incident 6 years ago that had led to this. Your lips turn to a thin line and you pull your hand away from his face.

"Why'd you do that?" A mumble said. Kun rolls to his side going nearer to you. He pulls your hand and places it back on his face. His other hand wraps around yous bum and pulls you to him. He places soft kisses on your thighs and looks up at you through his lashes. He then pulls you down, you in an uncomfortable position—your body bent down and your legs dangling on the bed. He pulls you in on a kiss and leaves soft kisses on your jaw. You climb yourself on bed and stradle him getting a soft moan from his parted lips.

After having a steamy morning sex on bed, it follows then on the shower then the kitchen. That was the routine.

Kun places you down from the bar table and grabs a handful of tissue handing them to you. You grab it and dab on the beads of sweat on your face while Kun wipes you in the lower area. You eye Kun, following his every movement. There it was again, the painful feeling in your heart.

Kun stands up and you stretch your hands out fixing his tie. You tiptoe and stroke his hair, fixing the tiny strands poking out. Kun holds your waist and stare at your eyes. You stare back at him too and he gives his dimple smile. He leans down and kisses your forehead.

He slowly pushes himself away from you. He grabs his bag and walks to the door. You tightly fist your skirt, the aching feeling back again. Kun turns around but freezes when he sees you looking panicked.

"y/n." He calls out, slowly walking to you.

"Stop." You say, voice shaking.

Kun stops on his tracks.

Youre eyes are wet and tears are pooling on your eyes. "It hurts Kun," you touch your heart. "Here." Tears already slipping out

"y/n." he calls out again.

Before he could say anything, you cut him off first. "Just go. Please." You look away. "Ill see you tomorrow at dawn as always."

Kun sighs deeply. He clenches his hands hard, his knuckles turning white. "Im sorry." He said before turning away and leaving the flat.

You fall to your knees crying. You've loved him for a long time and now here you are. This is all your fault.

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After the incident long time ago, you two became inseparable. Casual hang outs, dates and sex here and there. Slowly without realizing it you were falling for him. You became dependent on him, you kept relying on him. It was all perfect

However, things turned upside down. After graduating college, he was introduced to a girl by his family. It was arranged marriage. When Kun told you all this, you didnt know what to do but give him the smile and comforting words he needed.

Just like that you were drifting apart, he needed to be with her, get to know her. If he wasnt with her he was busy with work. You could only hang out every once in a while. Get some coffees, trying to update each other about life then say your goodbyes.

Until that day when you were out drinking with Lucas and friends when you reached your limit. You started crying and babbling about Kun. Lucas called Kun to pick you up

When Kun arrived, Lucas said some things to him in a hard tone but you couldnt understand the language. Kun approached you, picked you up and walked you home. You probably fell asleep because next thing you know you were home, on your bed. You propped yourself up with your elbows and saw Kun walking out your room.

You panicked. You picked yourself up and ran up to him. You hugged him and begged him not to leave. Kun stood still while you cried and begged. He turned to face you asking you to stop. You screamed I Love You at him then kissed him.

You woke up and felt a cold bed beside you. You went out your room and see Kun whipping up some breakfast. He greeted you and placed the food on the bar table. He apologetically smiled at you. He was about to leave when you called him. He turned to you.

"What happened yesterday..." you trail off.

"Its fine."

"No. Its not."

Kun looked at you blankly. "y/n"

"Youre not happy with her right?" You swallowed a saliva. "But you have to be with her because of your family."

Kun raised an eyebrow. "What are you insinuating here?" He crossed his arms.

"Fuck friends." You answered quickly and confidently.

Kun froze. His eyes widen and his arms drop. "y/n, are you listening to yourself right now?" He asked in a serious tone. His eyebrows furrowed.

Disappointed flashed through your face. Yes it was desprate and stupid but you didnt want Kun to leave you. You looked down and gripped the hem of your shirt. Yes it was shameful but that didnt matter to you at that moment.

"Kun, I love you." You said softly enough for him to hear.

Kuns face softened. "y/n, dont do this."

You looked up at him desperately. "I love you. I dont want you to leave me. I—"

Kun pulled out his hand, signaling you to stop. "Give me some time." He looked at you sadly. He turned around and left.

You stood there shocked with what just happened. You were never this kind of girl. What happened? Kun happened. The whole day went on like a blurr. You werent functioning properly. You spent your whole day in the flat shutting yourself out, not answering Lucas' texts or calls.

It was 12 pm already yet there you were sitting on the sofa, staring dazely at the movie playing on tv. The ring of the doorbell startled you. You walked lazily to the door, pissed and ready to scold whoever it was. You opened the door but froze as soon as you saw who it was.

Kun pushed you in, pulled your face to his and kissed you roughly. He cornered you between the wall and placed his hands on your ass, squeezing it. You whimpered when he pulled away.

"Deal." He said panting.

You looked at him confused.

"Fuck buddies, fuck friends, whatever you call it." He said.

The sex that happened was rough. You never expected Kun to show or even have this side of him. Your sex was usually loving and soft but this time it was different. He was dominating everything.

He lay down beside you, chest heaving up and down. You turned to him, your head on his biceps. You traced little circles on his chest, staring at his face with droplets of sweat.

"Why."

Kun lookes at you. "What ya mean 'why.'"

"Why'd you say yes. This morning you gave me this disappointed face. I thought Id never see you again."

Kun looked at the ceiling. He opened his mouth but closed it again. "Theyre controlling me. Im like a puppet." He looked back at you. "But with you, I feel free."

You smiled and pecked his cheek. You cuddled close to him, both your breaths harmonizing. You looked at again him. He was already sleeping, his eyebrows furrowed. You rose up and pressed the pad of your index on the middle of his brows. It relaxed. You looked at his features and sighed sadly.

He's using you.

You pecked the middle of his brow then lay back down to the same position, slowly dozing off.

Just like that you became fuck buddies and had a schedule planned. Hed come to you at dawn and leave before lunch for work. That simple. He'd text you or call you when he couldnt come. You two would spend time occasionally with Lucas but the girl was always around.

The whole time both of you were together you never heard him reply to your I Love You's. He'd either nod, reply with a hum or he'd give that dimpled smile of his.

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This kept going on until now. 6 years. You waking up to a hot morning and going to bed with a cold night.

---

You're still crying there, unable to recover. You want this to stop but at the same time you didnt. You let out a loud cry, loud enough for the whole neighborhood to hear.

Unknowingly, Kun's still outside, leaning on your door. His head raised up looking at the ceiling light. He closes his eyes, a tear falling.

End

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I actually hesitates in posting this. I never see Kun being like this. He's more like a brotherly-mother type for me.

Also, its my first time writing with little bits of making out so, Im sorry if it kinda sucks.

Hope you enjoy it.

[purplesurveys]

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Is old age catching up with you? I wish I could say no but it really is. My back is just increasingly getting bad from here on, I can fall asleep by 8 PM, my joints hurt when it’s too cold, and I occasionally squint in front of my phone. Would you rather be hot or cold? Even though my joints have the tendency to hurt, I’d still much rather have it be cold every single time. I was born and raised in tropical climate and I can’t wait to get out of it. Can you sleep through thunderstorms? Yes, I sleep like a rock most of the time. It would wake me up briefly at like 3 AM but it’s easy to fall back asleep. What does it take to get you out of bed early (before 9 AM)? Knowing I have school and I’d be late if I don’t get up soon. Ever spent the night in a tent? Yeah, there were multiple overnight activities in my old school that required us to buy a tent.

Is it ever okay for a woman to ask out a man? This question is stuck in the 2000s. You’d be surprised at how much progress we’ve made, survey-maker. Do people confide in you? Yes, and it’s always a big honor when they do because it tells me they trust me. Ever been around someone who makes you feel stupid? Yes. How often do you use instant messenger?  Every day. Some of my friends don’t text; either that or I don’t have their numbers, so IMs are the easiest way to reach them. What do you call your grandparents? Lolo and Lola for my maternal grandparents, Lolo and Lola Dolly for my paternal grandparents. Everyone just got used to including the nickname for my paternal grandmother hahaha. What do you do when you have trouble falling asleep? I watch videos or read Reddit threads until my eyes get sleepy. Have you ever cried while reading a book? Sure. I cry more over movies and other videos though. How many college degrees do you want? I used to want to go for two (Journalism and Art Management), but I’m sticking to my Journ degree for now. Where do you call home? My friends. Would you ever attend a black tie formal event? I’m a sucker for those events and I definitely would. Never gonna pass up the chance to dress up and have my hair made and try white-ass appetizers hahah. Do you like animals? I love them more than I do people, that’s for sure. Have you ever written anything longer than 10 pages? Of course. My high school investigatory projects and various reports for college say hi. What do you wear to sleep? Shorts and whatever top I find comfy for that day. What do you look forward to most in the next two months?  Seeing Paramore again for the first time in five years. How important is it for a significant other to be good with kids?  They have to be really dedicated to them and constantly try to be their best when with kids. I had a horrific time being a child and all I wish for is for my own kids to never go through what I did; and if my SO does not put in any effort at all or show interest in children, I’m noping out of there. Do you have anyone who is a surrogate parent/sibling to you? Yes, Angela’s parents are the most amazing people who have taken me in. Ever fallen asleep sitting up? In cars, sure. Can you snap your fingers? Yes, but I can’t with my left hand. Can you wink? Yeah, but not rapidly. Do you wear a belt? Yeah occasionally. I have a couple of jeans that are a tad too loose on me. Any jewelry in the room you’re in? Sure. What song explains how you feel about love? Still Into You by Paramore. Do you know how to play pool?  Not at all. Never been interested. What about foosball? A little bit, yes. Have you ever finished reading an entire book in a day? Of course. When I used to read a lot I did this so many times. Ever known anyone who was a tomboy? Yes. I still know several people who are. What is something that begins with Z? Zebras. What kind of person do you hope to be when you’re 35 years old? Content, two kids, hopefully a great cook. How many keys do you carry with you? Just two - car and house. Have you ever been IN a wedding? What difference does the preposition make? I’ve attended weddings before, but I’ve never been the one getting married. Does hardship make a person stronger? It’s different for everybody. What comes to mind when you think of pregnancy? Blood. Have you ever attended a professional sporting event? I’ve been to a pro wrestling show, you be the judge if that counts as a professional sports event. One of the most amazing nights of my life, even though our seats were so high up and my glasses hadn’t been in the correct prescription yet and I could barely see a thing. Seeing Chris Jericho in the flesh and use his classic comedy to call us ‘gago’ was so worth it. What is your favorite brand of clothing? H&M. Which do you value more, intellect or work ethic? Both are just as important.  Have you ever been covered in mud? I...don’t think so? Maybe it’s happened, but it’s irrelevant that I’ve forgotten all about it. What U.S. cities have you not visited that you would like to visit?  Chicago. I never ever want to step foot in the US, but I’ll make an exception for Chicago. Which do you watch more, ESPN or MTV? Neither. I never watch TV. How well do you know the people you live with? Not at all. I dislike my family and would never make the active effort to know them better. Do you have any heroes?  There are people I try to emulate, but hero is too dramatic a word that I never use when referring to those I admire. Ever been to a cabin on a mountain? I’ve stayed at a cabin but I doubt it was up a mountain. Do you want to be married and have a family of your own later in life?  Did you mean: my calling? Joking aside, that’s all I want to happen. How hard is it for you to stay on task? Really difficult if I’m on a break. Ever lost your voice? Of course.  Could you handle being away from home for weeks at a time for your job?  It’s not being away from my house but being away from my girlfriend that would make it extremely difficult. Are you a cautious person? Yeah, very. Do you enjoy comedy shows? I like a couple of sitcoms, but that’s it. Do you chew gum? Occasionally. Do you own any jerseys? Yes, we had table tennis jerseys made for us in high school. Do you have a song stuck in your head?  Caught in the Middle by Paramore. Do you like your job? No job. Do you have a close relationship with your father?  It’s definitely closer compared to what I have with my mom, but my family is in other people still. Is there anything worrying you right now? Not really.

[arteacactus]

Memory Lane and Mother’s Kiss. :)

mother’s kiss: what’s your comfort item?

imma be honest, its really sorta dumb lol

when i was younger, four or five, my parents and i would often do “family nights” in which we’d color in coloring books and id pin up the finished colorings on my wall. i lost mostly all of them, i have only one now, and i cant even remember if it was my mom or dad that colored it, but its a little christmas tree with presents underneath it. the page is yellow and the colors are dull from it being there for so long, the paper is ripped up and bent, but just looking at it makes me feel both sad and happy 

,, i also have a couple pictures of my dad and i from when i was like 2 but i dont count them as comfort bc i just wanna cry when i see em fkljgsdlfkg

memory lane: best childhood memory?

ah i have so many i dunno if i can choose just one !!

how deep into childhood we going? like, pre-teen age or pre-pre-teen age ???

well, i cant remember all too far back, so.. we’ll go with a memory from a few years ago and im not entirely sure on my age, i think i was 13? 13 or 12, i dont know, and its really uneventful lol

my family (on my dad’s side) had this sorta tradition up until this story, in which we’d go on a trip to Boyne Mountain Resort in Michigan and stay for a week in one of the condos. And it’s soo fun, theres arcades and shops and pools and a water park and other small, outside parks, and the condos themselves are amazing- but thats besides the point lol

The last trip, this story, is the last time we ever went, and it’s probably the best trip there. 

My family is big, and we usually take 2-3 vehicles to carry us all places, so its a bit of a hassle to get everyone situated- so when we go to Meijer or something for just quick shopping, usually, not everyone goes.

The group in this trip consists of my grandma, two of my aunts, me, my brother, and five of my cousins. my grandma wanted to go to Meijer for food since we were running low and had to stock up for snacks, and she had asked who wanted to go with her.

The only ones who decided to stay were me, and two cousins.

i would have gone, but hell, that group was huge just going to a store and i finally got to be away from my brother so i stuck behind with my two favorite cousins, win-win yknow lol

so, since i was like, 12-13, my female cousin 9-10, and my male cousin 15-16, he was in charge. and it was gREAT

we technically weren’t supposed to be home alone so my grandma made a rule so that all the curtains had to be closed and we had to make as little noise as possible, and we decided hey, its pitch black in this possibly haunted condo, and were home alone and surrounded by food. hide and seek

now, both my female cousin and i are fucking stupid. we cant see anything right in front of our faces with the lights on. and my male cousin is a genius and sneaky as hell. best possible combo

so my female cousin was it, i hide under a table, she caught me like after 5 seconds, we ate an entire bag of cheetos and like five fruity suckers, and then finally decided to look for our male cousin

and in these condos are like, two rooms. they both have a living room, kitchen, and bathroom, and the smaller one has a single bedroom whereas the bigger one has two bedrooms and two bathrooms. so we thought, hes probably hiding in the big room right??

so we search both bedrooms. and both bathrooms. and the kitchen. and the living room. 

cant find him

so

second room, then

we hunt the second room. he wasnt in the living room, kitchen, bedroom, bathroom- or even the closets. 

and we were like well what the hell, not allowed to use the lights so what do?

we gave up

and started playing the xbox

eventually forget about him and so when we heard the chair squeak from the kitchen, we immediately start to freak out because holy shit this place is haunted

so we like, try to pretend we didnt hear anything, obviously

and then this fUCKING ASSHOLE

THROWS A CHAIR OUT AND CRAWLS FROM UNDER THE TABLE AND LUNGES AT US

WERE TRYING NOT TO SCREAM BC WE CANT MAKE NOISES BUT FKJGHDFLK ITS SO HARD WHEN A MAN BEAST IS LUNGING AT YOU AND YOURE TRYING NOT TO LOSE YOUR MIND

anyway we hit him in the face with a pillow and he forced his way into our video game session and my grandma came back (a few hours later than planned, cause apparently they got horribly lost) to the entire place a wreck

it was fantastic

Nostalgia Asks

[peggyfromtheblockk]

Get to Know the Blogger

Hey! So, I’ve realized aside from a few comments here and there, I haven’t really talked on here at all! This sad thought made me realize it was time to share a lot of unnecessary stuff so maybe you can get a basic--detailed--idea of who I am. So here’s a bunch of word vomit and feel free to come talk to me, I promise I’m a lot nicer than a lot of my answers make me seem lol

Name: You can call me E.

Age: 20

Zodiac sign: Aries

Height: 5’7

Languages spoken: English but I do remember a few random words of Spanish

Nationality & Location: American and Michigan

Work: Currently working in the infant room at a daycare

Favorite fruit: Blueberries

Favorite scent: Lavender, vanilla, or apple

Favorite animal: I really love otters and llamas

Favorite fictional character: Dana Scully of course (though, I do have a soft spot for Stella Gibson)

Favorite candy: KitKat’s but currently I’ll devour almost any chocolate given to me

Favorite holiday: Christmas and Halloween. But probably Halloween more because I love the prep and the actual day, whereas I just really love the prep for Christmas

Favorite season: I really like autumn because my hometown and college towns are so beautiful but I love spring because I love everything coming back to life

Favorite Social Media? Twitter, but like, stan twitter

Favorite thing about where you live? I just love that I have some of my favorite people within literal minutes of me. It’s a really comforting feeling. And we have a fair every year which is gross but entertaining at the same time

Favorite swear word? Probably shit, but fuck and damn do escape quite often

What are you listening to:  As of right now When I Kissed The Teacher from MM2

What Books Are You Reading? I have three books I haven’t finished and haven’t touched in like two months. We, Beaches, and Yes Please

What Time Do You Usually Go To Bed? Around 1 in the morning usually

What Makes You Happy? A lot of things, though I don’t always realize that. I’m usually an “It’s the little things” person too. BUT to answer, Gillian and msr never fail to make me happy

What Are You Craving Right Now? I could smash a plate of spaghetti right now

What Is Your Gender? Female (she/her pronouns)

What Is Your Sexuality? Bisexual but I’m definitely like 85% women, 15% men

What’s The Next Movie You Want To See In Theaters? MAMMA MIA 2 IM SO EXCITED

What Eye Colour Do You Find Sexiest? I’m a sucker for blue eyes

What Do You Wear To Bed? A tee and shorts usually but if I’m in The Mood I’ll wear just a tee (Yes, That Mood)

What Sounds Are Your Favourite? I love the sound of a campfire and babies laughing or babbling literally melts my heart

What’s the first thing you notice about people? Usually, their eyes but I’m drawn to those with a bright genuine smile

What’s something that makes you feel all warm and fuzzy inside? Being With My People. They never fail to make me feel warm and fuzzy. Also when I get a cute little note from my favorite professor on an assignment because she is like the light of my life  

What are your hobbies? When I’m not in school I like to read and I’m able to write some. During school, you can find me watching x files, sleeping, or enjoying movies or music

What’s your favorite book? I love anything by Laurie Halse Anderson and really anything in the YA genre

What inspires you? Gillian is really inspiring to me because of all the work she does to help others. Bette Midler too

What’s your favorite place in the whole world? well, ok. So, I love Mackinac Island because it’s so beautiful and peaceful (even with thousands of tourists covering the tiny location) but I also just love when I’m with my people. When I’m with one of My People wherever we are, that’s my favorite place because I’m really happy. Also, I really love my work because nothing exists outside those four walls except the babies I take care of

What do you typically have for breakfast? A big cup of coffee and the occasional bagel or bowl of cereal

What’s the longest you’ve ever gone without sleep? The first semester of my sophomore year I had this 60-70 page case study due for the end of the term for an education class. For at least a week I would stay up until about 5 am working on it, go to sleep, get up at 7:30 am and do it all over again. That’s been my most stressful and sleep deprived time of my life so far and just looking bad makes me shudder. At least I got a 99% on it

What makes you angry? A lot of things. Let’s not get into that.

What makes you nervous? Uh, everything. But thinking about the real part of my future (bills, working, adulting) really gets me going

Do you wear glasses: Yes and these specific frames fucking suck and my eyes keep getting worse (my doctor told me I’d need surgery before I turned 30, wtf thanks dude)

Do You Have Freckles? Yes and it used to bother me how many I have but thanks to fics that mention Scully’s, I’ve become fond of them

Do You Sing In The Shower? When my family or suitemates aren’t home, then yes I usually belt it all out but usually, I stick to humming

Do You Collect Anything? Postcards and shot glasses. And llama things now too apparently

Do You Prefer To Swim In A Pool Or The Ocean? Pool because it’s clean and I can see the bottom

Do You Study Better With Or Without Music? It depends on the subject or the task but I almost always need some type of constant sound

Do You Save Money Or Spend It? Save it usually but I also tend to spend it all on a big impulse purchase

Do You Have Any Obsessions Right Now? That’s why I’m here lmao

Do You Have Strange Dreams? Alright so I just started taking Zoloft and before it, my dreams would be weird but like unrealistic-weird, like having-a-bad-trip-weird. But since starting the med, my dreams have become realistically-weird, like sometimes I wake up and question if that all really happened

Do You Make Your Bed In The Morning? When I’m at school, yes, but when I’m home I usually just say fuck it because I’ll be back in it at least 8 more times

Do You Like To Read / Write? I love to read (fics, duh) but I do try my hand at writing but I struggle to finish anything and I’m terrified to post any of my work on here

Do You Have Any Homework Right Now? If So, What Is It About? YES and it’s just barely halfway into summer break and I’ve got a huge assignment due the first day back

Do You Get Homesick? Sometimes but I really do love my college life and wouldn’t change it

Do You Wear Jeans Or Sweats More? A mix but because of work, jeans most days

Do you use sarcasm a lot? Sarcasm is my middle name

Do you believe in miracles? Yeah I think so

Do you have any special talents? I don’t think so but I’m good at taking care of kids. Sometimes my supervisor calls me the baby whisperer lol

Do you have any pets? Three cats and a dog and some succulents

Do you have any siblings? A little (half) brother and then technically I have four other half-siblings but they don’t know I exist

Do you believe in the paranormal? Absolutely. A big secret of mine….I actually could, and sometimes still can interact with spirits...Just call me Mrs. Spooky

Do you play any instruments? Nope but somehow I have managed to have a guitar and a keyboard in my possession. I do sing though and was in choir for 7 years

Do you have any crushes? Do celebrities or fictional characters count? If no, then no

Do you have any bad and/or anxious habits? I just have panic attacks a lot lmao and I tend to get really bitchy and mean when I’m anxious which I feel bad about but I can’t stop it

Do you believe in anything enough to fight for it? My right to marry whoever I want and have kids with whoever I want and be in control of my body. There’s probably more but those have been on my mind today

Do you keep a journal? Yeah a few actually but I lose motivation after a little bit and it takes so much to start it over

Do you like your age? Yes and no. I’m an adult which is cool and all but like….most of my friends are old enough to drink and it really pisses me off that I’m 9 months short of legally doing that. I’m super responsible and mature for my age like what will 9 months do to change that? It’s just stupid that I can join the military and go thousands of dollars into debt but I can’t have a glass of wine with my mom at a block party. UGH. American laws  S U C K

Do you like your own name? Yes, I love my name. When I was a kid I hated it, I didn’t get the sentiment of being named after someone. I finally got the sentiment around the time my grandma started getting sick. Now that she’s gone, I know just how blessed I am to carry on the legacy of my full name and try to make her proud.

Do you have any scars? Oh plenty, I’m really clumsy. My most notable is the one on my thumb from a freak childhood accident that nearly cut my entire thumb pad off. What a wild time

Do you have a strong accent? I’m from Michigan so apparently, I have a strong Midwestern accent but I don’t hear it. But anytime I’m on the phone/skyping with my friend from Missouri, she always points it out and laughs

Do you talk to yourself? Probably too much but also not in the way that I think is expected. I’m just constantly talking in my head like a constant tv interview about whatever the fuck I’m thinking about which 99% of the time is msr lol

Coffee, tea, or hot chocolate: All of the above

Beer or wine or neither: W I N E

When was your blog created: I knew this was the place to find the best gifs and fics and I wanted to be in the fandom more since I’m so new. Also, I wanted to try my hand at fic writing but I continue to lose the motivation or the courage to write/post

Last movie you’ve seen: Hotel Transylvania is pretty much on repeat in my house thanks to my little brother, so most likely it’s that

First job: My first job was customer service/field hand on a blueberry patch but my first legit legal job is/was at a daycare

Pet peeve: The first I can think of is slow walkers because I walk so fast because my legs are like a mile long

The color of your eyes: Green but they used to be giant sky-blue saucers

Night owl/day person: I don’t like getting up before 9 but past midnight I’m a grouch

Tattoos:  None yet, but I have two planned, it’s just a matter of money and timing

Like to cook: Not really but I can cook enough to survive which is typical for college

Grab The Book Nearest To You, Turn To Page 20 Give the last two lines: “Action: Today I will be kind to myself. Affirmation: This is who I am, and I feel glad to be me” - We

Last Person You Cried In Front Of? I cried while holding a baby at work because my shift is changing so things will be different and also my hormones are really out of whack right now

If You Were A Crayon What Colour Would You Be? Any shade of purple

Name One Movie That Made You Cry: Beaches is my go-to crying movie, same goes for Steel Magnolias (what a typical answer, I know)

If I Handed You A Concert Ticket Right Now, Who Would You Want The Performer To Be? Cher, Reba, DD, Bette Midler or Straight No Chaser. Reba especially though because she’s going to be near me soon but it's a 21+ event and I’m nine months short of that so I’m really pissed I can’t go

Would You Rather Carve Pumpkins Or Wrap Presents? Carve pumpkins but I do a damn good job wrapping too

Did You Like Swinging As A Child? Do You Still Get Excited When You See A Swing Set? I loved it even though it made me sick. There’s a park down the street from my campus so if I’m really upset, I’ll go down there and blast my headphones and swing until I forget what’s happening. It’s really therapeutic

Name Something That Relaxes You: I have some relaxing instrumental playlists and I’ll put one of them on, turn on my lavender oil diffuser, and hop in a nice hot shower (and the hot water at college doesn’t run out so I can pretty much be in there for like ever really) or I’ll watch a fav movie that tends to soothe me

Scary movie or happy endings? Happy endings give me life. The fluffier the better

When was the last time you cried? I’m sure I’ve cried today and just don’t remember. There’s literally not a day that goes by that I don’t shed tears but I literally cry so easy (This video or this video will make me cry almost instantly)

Where would you like to visit? I’ve wanted to visit Barcelona and California since I was a kid but in the past 4 years I’ve really wanted to visit New York and Greece

Describe your favorite people in the whole world? I’ll just sum all five of them up with they literally make me feel so warm, happy, and validated. I love them so much I could cry just thinking about them. And don’t get me started with Gillian because I do often cry when I think  about her I just really love her a lot ok

Who would be your ideal partner? Gillian Anderson, Dana Scully, or Fox Mulder of course. No, but I want someone who’s like me morals/humor wise

Most used phrase? Right now I’m really into saying “Yikes” but “god fucking dammit” leaves my mouth A LOT

Most used word? Probably “like” as much as I hate to admit it

Extrovert or Introvert? Introvert 100% except when I’m with My People of course because I feel comfortable with them

Who was your first real crush? I had plenty of crushes during early school years but I think my first real one was on a school employee. Wowza I was head over heels for her and the very obvious knew-it-was-coming heartbreak hurt a lot

How many piercings do you have? Just my first holes in my ears but I’ve been thinking about getting my Helix pierced (upper portion of the ear)

How do you deal with stress? Uhhhh I panic first lol. I tend to listen to music—very specific songs that I know will drown out the anxiety/stress, or sometimes I’ll write what I’m feeling, go for a walk, read an absolute favorite fic in my list, watch x files, or I’ll just scroll through my thousands of pictures of GA lol

How many pillows do you sleep with? Three, sometimes four and then I have four accent pillows when I make my bed. Too many, as I’ve been told by everyone

Have you ever been to the hospital? Been to? Yes, plenty of times. Been in/admitted? No, thankfully

Have you ever met any celebrities? In 2016 I went to a rally for Hillary that Cher was speaking at so like…I was in the same room as her. AND THEN my friend shoved me up to her path as she was leaving and she touched my hand and I literally nearly passed out

Have you ever been in a position of authority? I am always deemed the mom friend so I’ll let you figure out that answer...

Have you ever drank underage? Yeah but nothing crazy. I just really like my wine. The craziest I’ve ever gotten was after I turned in that case study, I chugged half a bottle of wine (on an empty stomach), got bad heartburn, and then went to bed for like 14 hours

Are You Easily Influenced By Other People? Depends on the person, but I’d have to say no unless it’s Gillian/Scully/Stella

Are You A Picky Eater? I say yes, but compared to my brother and my uncle, no

Are You A Heavy Sleeper? Usually yes

Are Both Of Your Blood Parents Still In Your Life? Just my momma, but I do see my *gag* father around my hometown every now and again

Are you religious? Not really. I used to go to church a few years back, and then went to another church which ruined a lot of stuff for me and then I went through some tough stuff that made me question, idk

Are you a good liar? I like to think so (I say that as if lying is something I should be proud of), at least to everyone but my mom because I swear I can pull off the best lie ever and she always sees right through me

Are you a clean or messy person? My home life is messy. My room is trashed but the things that are put away are organized. But life at college is completely opposite, my dorm is very clean and organized and I clean it top to bottom every weekend

If you made it this far, thank you for putting up with my crazy long first post, and I’m sorry that I practically vomited my thoughts into a jumbled mess but I wanted to share myself with you!