#im its only hater i just dont like it and some implications

[lesbianraskolnikov]

Rodya truly is a character ever i truly adore him sorryy. So well done. I love u. Im ignoring the epilogue chapter 2 though

[opens-up-4-nobody]

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[asthedeathoflight]

For the writing asks: M, J, B!

M - whats the weirdest scenario/au you've come up with? Have you actually written it?

Oh my god this is hard bc like how do you define weird. I think I've gotta give the shoutout to my long-running No Magic au of my original fiction, which is where i put all my really self indulgent wish fulfillment stuff for my ocs that wouldn't work in canon, purely because the implication that their lives would have been so much better if magic didn't exist is really funny. Also because in the no magic au Dezzy keeps on with her career in the theater and so I get to imagine all the shows she would have been in. If it weren't for all the magic. I havent written any of this bc there isnt a plot to the no magic au its just vibes. Like half of it is just me imagining the kind of twitter discourse there would be about my ocs if they were famous.

J - whats your favorite trope? Have you written it?

I loooove soulmate aus sorry im bad aromantic representation but they r so good... Like okay just to be a hater for a second but I think a lot of people are really unfair when they talk about soulmate aus and it's soooo clear they've never read any. Like it's actually pretty common to have aro characters and explore the aro experience in soulmate aus (altho theyre usually side characters) like if you don't like reading romance in general yeah its not gonna be your thing but in my experience the complaint that its insta-love or some kind of existential horror that forces potential aro people into relationships is just completely baseless. People will say "i would only read soulmate aus if they explored xyz" and then list things which are major themes in like sixty percent of soulmate fic. Ppl who write soulmate aus aren't idiots. They are in fact aware of and capable of addressing the Implications. The Implications are actually half the fun.

Anyways hater moment over. Yes I have! DM soulmate au is very precious to me. Like Daniel and Armand are literally soulmates you don't get it. Normal IWTV is already a soulmate au. To me.

B - what was the first fandom you read fic in? Wrote fic in?

Oh god I think the first fandom I read fic for was Undertale way back in the day. They had some diabolical shit going on in that fandom. And I don't even mean like sex stuff undertale fic writers loved just absolute nightmare angst fics. Flowey is Not a Good Life Coach fucked me up. Really good tho 10/10 do not regret.

And then the first time I ever wrote fic was for Wolf 359 because the finale fucked me up and i just lay awake in bed for like a week with that fic on a loop in my mind until i finally got up and wrote it lol. Actually very funny hypocrisy on my part because i saw a poll of least favorite fanfic tags and was almost gonna vote fix-it fics and yet my first fanfic WAS a fix-it fic..... Anyways i mostly dont read fix-it fics bc i like messy endings and my wolf 359 fic was a "goddamnit you do NOT get the clean separation of dying, get back here and answer for your fucking crimes" fic.

[narwhalandchill]

(4.7 TCG leaks but Big Lore Implications? Maybe)

Well. This is (was) certainly an interesting Moment.

See. narwhal coming in TCG right? i obviously lost it we are all aware. so i was checking that shit out Instantly the second it was uploaded onto hakushin to see the kind of playstyle theyd given my beloved

but there was something else. see. tldr the narwhal starts at only 5hp but it basically eats all your discarded cards to increase its own max hp and dmg dealt (also takes into account the dice cost of the discarded cards). which i Love its so on brand and lore accurate. but anyway. its ult is to summon the electro dude whose dmg and duration is also affected by the cards eaten and their dice cost. such a cool kit right?

But then i saw what they Call the knight summon guy in the first uploaded version of the card kit in ENG

...SHADOW OF THE ANCIENT WHAT NOW????

and like. okay. okay. thats pretty fucking insane this is why i was looking so forward to the narwhal getting a card bc . sometimes tidbits like these just. Happen thru TCG. just casually like that (like parsifals Curiously Familiar Appearance for another relevant one).

bc like. an ancient nemesis huh. on one hand could reference surtalogi since the descriptor for the phantom in 4.2 patch previews in several languages (not sure what the in game stuff says these days) did have some similar wording to surtalogis CN title. also obviously fuels my personal foil hat agenda of surtalogis whole "keeping this very much sentient cosmic being as a Pet TM" being something that from the narwhals POV is very much like. a demeaning act of imprisonment and being used against its will as a pawn (im such a surtalogi hater dude. i Dont trust him). so like thats one option for the. whos the nemesis whose shadow is summoned. its surtalogi. but also ancient is a funny wording for when the guy is very well around to this day so

then theres the other option. bc the narwhal 4.6 namecard speaks of ajax intent on challenging the narwhal again and references hunting for the same whale the "third time" which like. most simple route u could just be seen as. okay despite just freezing up during their 1st encounter at 14 and doing jack shit to "challenge" it he still considered that the "first" hunt, fontaine was 2nd and next is 3rd.

but theres also the. what if the first hunt was the historical ajax of the myth? whose reincarnation our ajax may be? bc if His destiny was also to oppose the narwhal back then in celestias grand plan and possibly had the same constellation tying him to it too. would THAT be the ancient nemesis the knight in the narwhals stomach is the afterimage and shadow of? hmmmmm.

like dude i was. Actually losing my fucking mind bc this might be THE closest thing to a direct confirmation that If ajax has reincarnated over the samsara/cycles whatever . if That is the case. then this "ancient nemesis" being og ajax would then Very Much Imply that both his and Our Ajax' destiny in all incarnations has Always been tied to the narwhal in some way and that his "role" and "duty" in celestias decreed fate is to be its counterpart and opponent (read: tragic soulmate) . of Some sort. like yes inconclusive still but this couldve been such a massive fucking deal dude

Anyway .

then they removed that descriptor in the next update to the beta info on the new TCG cards 😭😭😭😭

so now its just called a dark shadow whatever 😔😔 this is So Sad. but. i have Witnessed the original so its not getting out of my head. what does it meannnnn

why would the narwhal be emulating its nemesis as the force that protects the source of its power that lies within it (like. we Had to be eaten in order to get close to that source in the AQ fight)??? did it eat that doomed soulmate nemesis (og ajax moment Surely) in the past and is now carrying its remnants and constructed shadowy afterimage within itself?? or does it represent some sort of control/power source surtalogi (if hes the nemesis) has inflicted upon the narwhal in order to keep it weakened and/or sufficiently subservient to be kept as a "pet"???? MANNN

obviously. since this was a clearly incomplete beta version text (like the narwhals kit was unfinished in ENG during this part) that was Very swiftly deleted (whacking myself over the head for not checking what CN said while this version was still up) its not like. something that can be referenced as legit confirmed canon lore for the narwhal since its not making it to live. but im just. Curious. like. even if its outdated text that was removed. Surely there HAS to be a Reason that description was originally written to describe the dark shadow summon.

so is this a case of. its no longer meant to represent an ancient nemesis, that was old ass lore for the phantom knight dude thats never going to happen and thats why they cut it. like fair enough it happens. old pre launch beta genshin stuff was directly a honkai sequel/spinoff but they changed that. it could always just be that

ORRRRR then. hear me out. that its STILL true but that the writers simply realized they dont want to reveal their cards (ha ha) on the subject just yet??? they dont want to leak this potentially Massive lore drop through a random TCG update?????? we arent meant to know the meaning behind the shadow just yet????????? 🤨🤨🤨 Surely

anyway. forever mourning shadow of the ancient nemesis as a descriptor . but i Have to post it here so that yall can at least know. this existed. this WAS a thing. so whats it mean...

(also if this turns out to be all legitimate and og ajax Was the ancient nemesis. Possibly the funniest way my original "who the fuck even thought the purple dude in the whales stomach was going to be childe" take from way back could be Technically proven wrong JSJAISJSJSISKD . if it was ajax. but just not. this one)

[draykin2]

give me an 8 for shadow. have funnn

THANK YOU PEARLLLLLL <3

8. What's something the fandom does when it comes to this character that you despise?

hmmm. this is actually kind of hard because i can't actually think of anything ive seen that i can really say i despise? the only thing that comes to mind is this "shadow is a swiftie" thing ive seen a few times. it was based on a joke that shadow's current va made and i cannot say im a fan of it!

and... i know you didnt ask me this about flint but i actually have an answer in mind for this about flint that i wanna be a hater about. and it's the focus on him liking drama. there was a point in time last year where that was like the only thing i ever saw people talk about in regards to his character and its just. so damn BORING!!! theres a lot more going on with the details of his cogs ink profile that have some really fascinating implications for his character & cog society as a whole. but no, dont worry about that, hes just a gossip guy. sure.

[edge-lorde]

hp update: its been a long time, boys. ud think that with this plague outbreak id have more time for shitty phone games, and ud be right! however, the time i normally might use to make tumblr posts has been taken up by reading lotr orc fanfiction non-stop for at least 1 full month. id still be in the thick of that obsession even now if only the fics would update. that is how i find you today folks, for the first time in many weeks i am staring at a screen with nothing to do. so come with me friends, theres no better way to fill the soulless void we are all in than reading a nice long tumbler post. 

disclaimer, first of all, a lot has happened, i prefer to keep these updates as plot spoiler free as possible but do to extenuating circumstances i feel like it is necessary to say, [SPOILER SPOILER SPOILER SPOILER BELOW]

that rowan fucking died,

i wont say exactly how, but i will say that her death was animated as were animations of myself and a few others reacting to our friend fresh corpse. obviously meant to be serious moments but the animations made it seem almost comical. 

i saw at least one post going around right after this update that was like ‘how could the game devs do this to us..... how could they hate rowan so.... this is punishment from on high’ and its like.... u guys do know what a story is right? the events of  a story are not typically done to punish less faithful fans, im pretty sure they were planning to kill rowan off from the beginning. this isnt disney im pretty sure the writers are not writing each chapter the night before its released by popular vote. 

that little “are we drifting away..?” scene with rowan makes more sense now. there was a bit in one of the scenes where the kids all reminisce on rowans life and the mc talks about it being the last real one on one time they had with rowan. a nice bitter sweet moment. i dont hate this turn of events. its a good reminder that actions have consequences and we are way past they days of “should i wear a hat or scarf?” its YA time now. 

i did manage to take 1 screenshot from this time, i had commented that before that when rowan said she didnt have many friedns that barnaby seemed to be hanging out with her without be there as a friend buffer and here was his reaction to her death:

;_;

the funniest part in all of this however, was of course cedericks reaction to rowans death “but she was so young....” LOL fuckin RIP.

lets see... what else.... i forget a lot of what happened but i think there was a time sensitive quidditch event in there somewhere? if so i  dont remember it. what i do remember of the quidditch pals is that im gonna play beater now, skye is being weird and cagey about it, andre is involved.... the others are there.....

sidenote, i love the shitty b characters they throw in to be like yes you know this person but no they are not cool enough for u to even think about befriending. the first one of those is face paint kid, and now we have another, who is a former beater girl with horrible bangs named bean who didnt go to any classes for a whole season so she could just play ball 24/7 and got kicked off the team.  this is a character who only exists to provide an explanation as to why there would be a beater position open but i love them on principle. 

right now im in the midst of another time sensitive event, this one is a bother-your-brother-at-work-day event where recent hogwarts graduate bill weasley is bullied by myself and his younger brother charlie into letting us go with him on one of his curse breaking jobs. 

so for those unfamiliar, bill works for the magical bank of england.... and his job seems to be “retrieving treasure” for said bank. in the books, there is a bit where he takes his family on one of his trips to egypt, where his job seemed to have been tomb plundering indiana jones style for the posterity of the english bank :X. i wont explain here why thats bad but its bad. 

the game devs however in this instance, at least SEEM to be doing what jkr couldnt do by attempting to salvage what is left of gringotts bank and form it into not a super shitty implications factory run by horrible jewish caricatures. bills mission is to retrieve a goblin made artifact that was taken by dragons, so no going to foreign countries to steal things from other people! only going to a dragon reserve to rifle through animal nests. they even appear to be providing us with a likable goblin character, egad!  

my hope for this event is that we get a plotline about how maybe, goblins arent shifty human haters for no reason, and in fact they hate magic humans for very understandable reasons, like being forced to go into hiding with the rest of the magical world even though only the humans wanted to do that, and maybe despite running the bank in england they still dont have a lot of political sway in the world of wizards and witches, and have to rely on the faith that said wizards and witches wont fuck them over at every turn, even as they see how they treat other non-humans, such as house elves, which they desperately dont want to end up like. and maybe they DONT only care about gold... maybe thats a human stereotype based on the fact that theres a long history of humans not respecting goblin ownership customs.... which i could get into..... but i wont.... i just....... very badly dont want them to suck ;__________;

i know i said its ok to still like a piece of media as long as you recognize the problems with it, and i do, but once this game is done im gonna stop hp posting all together. ive been feeling more and more uncomfortable making these posts lately.  

GENERAL GAME NOTES; theres been some new layout changes and such. 

most notably the stairs screen has been changed from a bulleted list of all locations to a screen with tiles picturing an image of each location along with the name + icons of all classes at each place. there is one additional location that is new and yet to be unlocked, and the dragon reservation is appearing temporarily as its own tile as well. i prefer this method of getting in and out of a temporary location to how they did it with car during the last christmas special. the stairs icon also now stays in the corner when you scroll through locations, allowing you to open the stairs menu without scrolling all the way back to the left. 

they also moved a few of the buttons down into the lower left corner rather than the left side & combined the story button and sidequest button. they added a little camera button as well, just like in the dormitory, that makes all the icons in a location disappear and look better for screenshots. 

the daily special add offer thing now has its own button in the top right corner of the screen, and idk if i mentioned it before but now there are daily challenges that appear in the sidequest screen that offer small rewards for completing 3 tasks per day + a better one if u get all 3. the prizes are things like 4 energy, 75 coins, 3 monster food. the better rewards are usually either more coins, 8 energy, 3 gems, or 1 notebook. i think that it does all the different color notebooks but i cant remember for sure if i ever saw the gold one up as a reward. i like this addition in any case. if you dont pick up ur reward by the end of the day, the next time u log on it will force u to stop and accept them, and if one of the rewards is energy and ur energy bar is full, it does not seem to stack beyond the bar so watch out.

 the character stats page is now more zoomed out so you can see your full character instead of just from the waist up. no change to the leaderboard. rowans face in the friendship roster is now a still black and white image that says ur friend may be gone but friendship is forever u-u. 

rowan has been removed from all classes. in the classes where the minigames involved her, those minigames have passed the mantle onto other friends in the class. in potions that person is now liz helping u find stuff off the shelves and in tranfiguration that person is badeea. bless these girls for helping mc get through it. touched my heart. 

theres been a few fun little “i know u have more free time now so uhhhh have some energy” prizes like they do sometimes when they dont update on schedule so thats been nice. just a few days ago they gifted us 3 gold notebooks the same way. :O. 

theres also been a few instances of a energy happy hour where for a limited time energy takes less time to refresh. normally it takes 4 mins for 1 energy to do this but during happy hour its like 2:30 mins. :U its all very interesting.

and that will have to do it for tonight my friends, ill do a post for the dragon event when its done because i do like it so far and i do like getting to bully bill with charlie. 

until next time, remember.......

[tumblunni]

Also kinda random and only tangeantalky related but can i add that this is also why i dont like connor x hank from detroit become human? Obviously its not pedophilia, but its still an unhealthy age difference for a ship. Connor looks like he's barely started his 20s and Hank is like 40 or 50?? And they constantly play up Connor's inexperience due to being an android, so it draws attention to the damn age gap and makes it seem even bigger than it already is!

Like ive seen people saying 'oh people only hate connor x hank cos something something fatphobia hank isnt conventionally attractive'. No wtf thats absolute nonsense?? Hank is my favourite damn character and i'd love to ship him with someone if there was really any moment he interacts with another person the same age that isn't just mutual hate. I mean man i fuckin found myself shipping him with the one burger kebab shop salesman cos apparantly they have some sort of friendship, right? So like please dont accuse me of hating my favourite character or promoting predjudice against my own body type just because i think dating someone LITERALLY OLD ENOUGH TO BE YOUR DAD when you're only the very youngest definition of adult is MAYYYYyyyyBE a little unhealthy?!

Tho also again i can understand how younger fans could probably fall into this stuff without knowing the implications. And also how it kinda has that similar situatiin of 'well its the only option' since hank and connor are like the only well written people in the game and i guess i could see people reading that as them having good chemistry rather than the canonical love plots just having reaaaaallly shitty chemistry. There's also (at least potentially) no other close male friendships to use for shipping unless you headcanon backstories for one scene npcs like i do. The only other options are Simon (who can die early on due to a random choice and get no chance to bond with your character) and i guess Connor and Markus (who dont even get to meet until the very last chapter of the game, and only talk like once) Kara also has literally no shipping options except Luther, and there's so few female characters in the plot that she only ever meets one other woman and she's also a far older parental figure. So yeh i can get the idea of 'it sucks but therecs no other option'. Or hell i can understand if some people just look at those designs and perceive their ages differently, like to them connor looks older or hank looks younger, i dunno. And the emphasis on connor's innocence and hank always calling him boy and son doesnt ruin it for them, i guess.

But like.. If i can understand that, can you guys please understand that people have legitimate reasons to feel uncomfortable with the ship? Its not all 'oh wah theyre just homophobic oh they just hate hank cos he's fat'. Just like how i've seen people saying that the worry about problematic/badly handled racism elements in the plot is 'just hate' and acting like..yknow.. people arent criticizing A SPECIFIC THING and giving actual reasons for it! And a lot of people criticizing these things are not even haters at all! Hank is my favourite character and i dont like this ship with him. I can see lots of good parts in the game even if i criticize other ones. You cant preach 'stop the hate' while acting aggressive to fans for daring to have anything but 100% glowing praise 24/7.

Ehh sorry i didnt mean this to come off as so aggressive but i guess whats done is done. Im not gonna tag this or anything cos this is just my personal rant and i dont want it to end up in the tags for people who like this ship.