#im insano crazy about this

[p0t80-t0m]

What the hell does soul power mean, maybe I'm just a faggy girl but I can't figure out what a lover with soul power implies

[gomacave]

Wanted to let you know your freak merging sfkr toxic yuri au has not left my mind since the day I read those words and felt them resonate with something deep in my brain

LIKE YOU GET IT

AHAHAHAHAHA IM FLATTERED WTF my sick and twisted fantasy...... REAL RECOGNIZES REAL........ u get me fr....

moar yucky sfkr merging comic.......👍 truly normal ab them....

[tvslashers]

i am about to ramble and it may not make that much sense but i gotta get it out of my system. So listen. I think that care for my psychiatric problems, and i mean true care that would really help me in the long run, is entirely not accessible with the way that things in the psychiatric care industry are. And you may say, oh is it because it’s too expensive? Too far away? But no, it is not any reason like that. It is simply due to the fact that I cannot be honest with any mental health professional without risking losing my autonomy. I know for an absolute fact that if i was honest with any health care worker about my mental state that they would institutionalize me. I have already on multiple occasions had to push aside my dignity to BEG literally beg them not to send me away due to wanting to hurt myself or being delusional at the time.

But does this help at all, really? Does shaming me and threatening me stop me from wanting to hurt myself? Of course not. But instead of opening up an honest and harm reductive channel for people to deal with these urges it is punished. And I am not exaggerating when I say that this kills people. It’s so taboo still that even bringing it up to people who are usually pro harm reduction as a treatment method for drug addiction suddenly become extremely uncomfortable at the idea of the same model for self harm (which can also be an addiction!). Suddenly everything about how shame and criminalization harms people flies out of the window. I’m not dumb, I understand that it’s super easy to accidentally kill your self when you’re cutting yourself. But freaking out on people will not stop them from doing it. Putting them in the psych ward involuntary for however long and just drugging them up and forcing them to try cognitive behavioral therapy mechanisms that don’t fucking work (if someone tells me to squeeze an ice cube one more time i will heap my lid) will not stop them from doing it. Frankly the only thing that stops me right now is everyone hiding sharps from me and knowing that if i do it it’ll just upset everyone around me and i don’t want to deal with the headache. I know it’s upsetting to see people you love in pain. I know it’s scary, it’s hard to look at, it can be ugly. But shaming it away is not the answer. I’m not going to pretend I know what the answer is either! Because im just someone who learned how to cope by harming myself and no one has helped me learn how to kick it because i can’t talk about it. But I do know what the response it right now to it is not working. For anyone.

[out-of-control]

hi i sent the original jaxjim theory anon and im keefed and i didnt realize that yoru discord usernames were usernames and i thought you were saying "dick game baptismal they fuck like crazy KILL YORUSELF they fuck like crazy dick game baptismal" and so on and so forth. can u guys elaborate on all the insano car crash metaphors in jaxjim divorce saga.

KATZ: before meeting Jim, Jax already has a relationship with car crashes. his mother was killed in a car crash and so even though he was never in it, it's become this thing that looms hugely over his whole life. like he and Erin were so close and he sees the crash not just as something that killed her but something that Took Her Away From Him and so since he feels so alienated from and by the crash and he's spent years and years trying to understand it/get closer to it. like when he was a teenager he dug up fucking police reports because he was obsessed with the idea that by understanding everything about her death he could sync up with her again somehow and maybe fill this hole that opened up inside him when she died. like. Jax didn't get Erin's birth date tattooed on his arm, he got her death date. so even before Jax ever meets him he has this whole thing going on where he's obsessed with the crash from his own past and. feels left behind by not having been in the car crash and so he tries to map out other violence onto his body to make up for it.

but in addition to having his weird like desire to manifest car crash stigmata to honor his dead mother, he also is deeply affected not only by the violence of her death but the isolation of it. she died alone and scared and in pain. and that breaks his heart. and it's that whole thing more than the violence aspect that first drives him towards Jim, actually. because he sees Jim as alone. and his brain sort of makes the connection between Jim the car crash victim and Erin the car crash victim, but ALSO between Jim as a literal car crash survivor and Jax as a more metaphorical car crash survivor (he wasn't in it, but it ruined his life regardless). and it was that sort of empathy of being like. so you went through this horrible traumatic pain and now there is no one to help you carry it. and subconsciously at least Jax wanted to shoulder that. just a little. he wanted Jim to not be so sad on a summer's evening. so he said do you wanna get out of here.

so that's the background. and although it's lovely that car crash related trauma brought them together it's also absolutely part of the reason it drove them apart. after Erin died, Jax sort of lost the ability to see her as a person. to an extent I think most people do that with their mothers but since she was dead too Jax heaped all of his misery into the same pile and really developed this belief that if only she had lived, his entire life would be perfect. which is of course silly. some things would undoubtedly be better, but some things are unavoidable. and although Erin can't really be affected by this on account of being dead, I think that the whole "let me sanctify you" thing freaked the fuck out of Jim. because well Jim is just some guy but Jax treats him like he's holy. lot of pressure there.

FEO: <- has nothing to add to this