#im hoping one of these sites will have the books i'm looking for

[sexy-raccoons]

Hey tumblr! Poor student here that looking for a site that’s got some good, free books on it I could read. Anyone got any ideas?

[todorroki]

HEY GIRLS........ I'M DEAD (love sea ep 2 thoughts)

do you think mame watched kp and nodded to herself like "yes... exactly..." while rubbing her hands together because that's the only reasoning i can come up with for what we got today. anyways nothing too coherent will be said this week sorry. my mind is still [metal bar crash] [car siren] [truck horn] [glass shattering]

let's just say when i started this ep i was sitting upright on the sofa and by the 8 minute mark i was sliding down my seat, and by the time they got to the SHOWER? clutching the armrest, practically parallel to the seat cushion, scandalized as though i haven't been filtering by E on ao3 for years now. MY EYES! no warning full on horny beam blast to the brain. and i was wondering how they were going to measure up to their nc scenes in LITA. me to my past self: u know nothing. fool.

first line in is rak wondering about sex with mut like LMAO talk about setting the tone. i love this episode because the direction said absolutely no nonsense we're gonna dial up the horny right away and they're so valid for that. the tension was Chef's Kiss. when rak just went ahead and sucked on mut's finger i screamed (silently). mut's expression here is ME

tongrak's resistance is weaker than wet paper! what happened to don't go for him LMAO even the cockblocking seashell wound was forgotten by the time mut started sucking on his arm.

and MY GOD there was so much Tongue. OPEN YOUR MOUTH?????? HELLO??????? as someone who has greater-than-anakin levels of hatred for sand, i was not even CLOSE to thinking about the sand in this scene so hats off to fortpeat. drove the surrounding setting completely out of my mind. then the nc back in rak's room afterwards?? i was mentally screaming HEELLP! shooting terrified glances at the closed door by the tv hoping no one else in the house was awake because jesus peat was Moaning.. tongrak took ride dick bicycle SERIOUSLY! and fort's low "im expensive" and "woof" line delivery is PEEAK I SAY. SO GOOD. they've truly outdone themselves with this one. im practically speechless. and BEST BELIEVE IM REWINDING IT LIKE A MADMAN!!

this is Not the horny speaking btw, peat's face is so cute here. when his eyes go a little wide ↓

nc aside, the motorcycle ride is so cute. rak clinging onto mut with both arms like OKAY!! I SEE! mhm mhm olivia wilde nod

tiny break from our main couple- we get vimook this week!! even a forehead kiss and the preview for next week asking mook out?? wow we're moving fast!! side note: are those chanya's real tattoos? because the small flower one on her arm is pretty. also enjoying palm just popping up constantly out of nowhere. he's simply a chill dude.

i liked that scene at the restaurant a lot. both the scenery And the food on the table looked great. i think that was the first time mutrak actually have a nice, proper conversation with each other. and they were very sweet! we get mut's backstory, and a bit of rak's thoughts on his job.

now i have No idea if anyone else has this error, but when i watched ep2 on the iq app on my tv, there was a line of subtitle here right before rak says because it's fun, though there was no actual dialogue:

it was something along the lines of 'actually, it's an escape' which would match rak's line of thought in the book. but it doesn't show when i watch the episode on the iq website. not sure if they forgot to put the audio into the scene or what.

similarly, when mut texts kom in the scene afterwards, the iq site only has the punctuation while the tv app showed the texts' translation. same thing with some of tongrak's flashbacks at the end. i don't know if it's just on my end or anyone else has this problem! not surprised tho the eye kew site n tv app both operate terribly imo :-) why are the subs placed so high on the website :-) ui and ux nightmare :-)

my hatred for this corp aside, WE GET DIVING AGAIN THIS WEEK!!!!! i'm so excited to see the behind the scenes for this part. i love seeing the logistics of filming underwater. and because this one involves a panic almost-drowning scene, it must've been hell to film, especially if they had to do it more than once. really looking forward to it. the visuals so far in both episodes are killing it.

shoutout to fort in the wetsuit... he's so hot

i really like how they're slowly dropping rak's trauma in bits and pieces in these 2 eps. (and i know we're supposed to focus on the trauma, but my brain went 'omg peat with his hair down so cute' during that scene with rak's sister sorry). compared to mut, who spells out his past with ease because he's made peace with it, rak outright avoids talking about his problems.

also, i LOVE mut's character when he's being serious. any time fort's tone drops to talk lowly or softly, i ASCEND. please give fort more serious roles!!! he deserves them!!

and we end with the title drop tongrak mahasamut!

the ending song changing from rak by himself in the first ep to mut sitting with him in this ep is a nice touch! it's the little details.

overall, pacing for this ep was good. i love it more than ep1, though idk if my opinion is influenced by the nc frying my brain. also, the boy next world poster!! just in time for their workshop starting this week whoop whoop

as always, if you found this post and read til this point, thank you so much for your time! anyways, if you'll excuse me, i have to rewatch some uh parts of this episode again haha. my screenshot folder is um. quite filled. just like tongrak. alright im out.

[whoschr]

To. You! — a heeseung smau

Chapter 1: im so sorry

As you walked through the halls, you received a notification from your messages. You opened the message to it saying they were gonna be there soon. you replied with an “ok” but deep down inside, both you and your friends knew that ms jeon was never playing with her commands. As you sped walk through the halls, you took a big stop when you noticed yourself bumping into a boy because of your loss of attentiveness due to the current command. “Omg I'm so sorry, my bad,” you said. You helped him pick up the book that he dropped, handing it to him. He said nothing but just stared at you. You, for a second, froze, as the gaze of your eyes and his met. You read his name tag.

(Lee Heeseung⁉️)

(Shit)

You dashed to the dance studio at the site of his name tag as if it was something you couldn’t stand.

In reality, you were dashing to hide the fact that you just saw one of the most popular guys in your grade. He was in fact even more good-looking than you would’ve thought. He ended up leaving you with nothing but rosy cheeks walking to the dance studio.

Heeseung who had also just been flabbergasted by how pretty your features were, froze. As he saw you walk into the dance studio, he let out a small murmur.

“so she’s part of the dance team?”he murmured.

“Interesting…,” his voice trails off as he walks away.

wc: 245

To. You! a heeseung smau || genre: highschool au, smau, fluff, crack || pairing: non idol heeseung x afab!reader

warnings: cursing, tell me if I missed anything else!

an: we powered through to get to chapter 1 😭. someone pls help i literally have an English quiz tomorrow 😭 I need good luck. anyways hope you all enjoy this 🤗. my first time making a written part of an smau so sorry if it’s bad 😭

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[trapastrology]

I want to have a chapter/segment dedicated to questions & experiences yall have had w/ 12H synastry & wondering what caused it so I can leave everyone questionless. The goal is...

for yall to always have a guide to look back on & not having to go on 100 different sites to figure out what's really going on. Being that im a sag stell & 2H, i want to share my own personal experiences with yall!

The synastry i've experienced the most & since birtth has been 12H synastry. & what better way to teach the ins & outs being that i've been thru it all. Most books and sites aren't based off of real 12H experiences. Its based off of, What they hear, see on the outside or what they've experienced once & only being on one side of the spectrum. The best way i feel to get information is from the source & in this case i genuinely and wholeheartedly believe i'm a good source!

I've been all the planets as the planet person. I've been the house. I can tell off bat which planet has falling into my 12H within the first meeting. I've been in positive 12H synastry, I've also been thru the negative. I've been the mature person & i've been the toxic one...

& more. So this book will also strictly have a chapter dedicated to me and my experiences and my book won't be biased becuz i've been on all sides so i know how it feels. This book is coming from a very heartfelt place and i hope yall feel my emotions & effort!

Nevertheless, this will be one of the biggest steps in my astro career of 6 years (it's crazy how long it's been). I hope you all support & truly learn something that you can apply to yourselves & yall relationships for the rest of ur lives.

~I love all of you

Follow my twitter for more book updates! (TrapAstrologer) Dm me to book a reading.

[sketching-shark]

This may or may not have asked more than once but I wanted to ask— what is your favorite alternate universe or stories of jttw in Tumblr? I've seen the glorious works of Kaijufluffs and kiri with her monkey business (may be some lmk here and there), but so far that's the only things in my list. There was also that one jttw artist and their au but like, it was from the 2015 movie (I think) and somehow integrated w the west pantheon too (their name might've been sun or something)

If you do and can, can you list down ur fav AUS and what you think of them? I've been following ur blog for a while and wanted to ask (but I've just been too shy)

Thanks for the question anon! And yes! There are definitely some fun JTTW aus out there; people on this site are incredibly creative.

So to begin, are you talking about the aus made by @sunny-days-and-warm-mournings? Because I know that they've come up with a number of AUs, and that from what I've seen they're all bangers with all sorts of interesting takes and flavors, from making everyone's favorite monkey more a god of food to a terrifying death deity! As you can imagine this has led to many a stellar design from the whimsical to the horrific for all of these monkey kings, each of which is fully worth checking out. tbh I feel like you should just scroll through their gallery to find them all & will promise that you won't be disappointed.

If you're looking for something a little more lego show flavored, then you should check out @digitaldoeslmk's "by the book au!" Its Monkey King is extremely fun sized, and it's really neat for the way it explores heartfelt sides to MK and friend's stories in a Monkie Kid scenario where JTTW happened according to Wu Cheng'en's story and where reality isn't constantly in danger so we see fun stuff like lion dancing and putting on plays and the warm interactions that come with it (& also where everyone isn't routinely yelling about how awful & incompetent SWK is fsgreafw).

I also have to give a shout-out to @violetvirus for their JTTW cyberpunk au! It's got a very fun and bouncy cartoon vibe to it, and I love how SWK, Zhu Bajie, and Sha Wujing look as robots <3. There's hints of some interesting ways the JTTW scenario works with a cyberpunk setting, as well as some moments of silliness like this banger:

Last but certainly not least, and while its been awhile since he posted, I would definitely recommend checking out @antidotefortheawkward and @antidotefortheawkward-art's blogs for his JTTW AUs! Seriously, his blogs are cornucopias of wonderful JTTW aus, from an actors AU to a triad AU to a Lotus Lantern AU to a post-JTTW JTTW au! Each of these really shows a lot of attention and care for the characters and the details of the world they inhabit from clothing to religion to history, which as you can imagine opens up multiple opportunities for some really lovely, heartfelt, and overall great interactions. A few personal favorites include this comic of an conversation between Sun Wukong and Liu Chenxiang of Lotus Lantern fame:

A comic about Sun Wukong's reactions after first learning that Xiyouji included details about his time as Puti Zushi's tudi:

And to end on something a little darker, a comic for his JTTW-ish/Macbeth au.

So those are the JTTW aus I can think of at the top of my head, but I sincerely hope you find them as fun and interesting as I do anon! And needless to say if anyone has a JTTW au that they think worth sharing, please do so.

[fandomshatepeopleofcolor]

I love that you have this place for us Poc! ❤️ Just discovered your blog

it bothers the hell out of me that some people read fiction and sometimes can also assume that an author is using something from real life ALL the time. this is referring to the white/eurowhite readers when it comes to acotar. the eurowhite readers (which there are alot of ofc) white wash all of the bat boys and lucien vanserra DESPITE knowing that for one, lucien is part black from his father. the second which is my main point with the eurowhite readers in acotar is that because SJM uses the name of a race called “Illyrians” in her books to refer to a race of poc and because “the map looks just like the UK/Europe!” they all ASSUME that because illyria (where balkans are, no longer referred to as illyrians) looks like the Prythians map and because it’s the same name that it means they’re eurowhite characters. There’s been no confirmation of them being europeans but they ASSUME they are when telling other poc readers that “they aren’t Poc” DESPITE SJM referring to them as “golden brown skin” “brown skin” “Light brown skin” multiple times the ENTIRE series. Most arts they’re in they’re brown too! Aside from the ones that whitewash them. Maybe she stole the name (which is like her taking the name of a race and denying they’re that race) BUT STILL she never confirmed they’re european in her fantasy version of illyrians they just assume and use this argument whenever someone says they’re poc. racist asses unable to accept the fact that they’re canonly referred to as BROWN. not WHITE. not PALE. GOLDEN BROWN. does that sound like white to you?

Im a a poc who doesn’t mind SJM not being clear about race, it’s somewhat refreshing not to have it be so “black white asian” like it is IRL, and I don’t mind her using the same name, but she makes illyrians her OWN and made them brownskinned even if people in europes “Illyria” were “Olive skinned” and not brown. It’s obvious she tweaked it and made them darker so either way they aren’t white like these readers want them to be. And if there are White casted for these roles in her possible Acotar Tv show? It’s only going to piss all her Poc readers off so I hope her team is careful and Hulu when they do casting. Bc I know they would all get canceled for whitewashing, whole show burned to flames via twitter for it, regardless of her using an IRL country’s name.

Also don’t believe those that thinks she’s racist again as a black reader they woman’s best friend is black, she’s a obama supporter, Anti republicans and trump, Young and super modern and she’s not a dumbass. People call her racist for her blurred lines of race and for supposedly “Posted about Breonna taylor for Attention and more money from Poc readers” When …where tf is the proof that was her reasoning? Maybe she just wanted justice for her. As a poc I hate seeing poc acotar readers act like she’s racist like use your brain and not bias to make it seem like something it’s not. Idk your stances on her but this is just mines.

Ok so here's the thing... I'm trying to read more diverse books. Like my white bestie from college wanted me to read acotar and the rest of the series but i honestly just watched a youtuber do a rundown of the first 3 books. and it was fine? so I will say this about sarah j maas: like her books do seem v white to me. BUT I also can't really say anything definitive about her works because I'm experiencing them through a white youtubers lens. so if she didn't pick up on diversity in the books I didn't think of it as diverse. you're welcome to have your opinion though but in general.... don't stan white authors.

Like I'll give you an example.

a favorite author of mine that wrote american gods, good omens and coraline is on this v site so that's why I won't name him but like even he's done some problematic stuff. like ok the biggest example is the marvel comic 1602 where he had a chance to race bend steve rogers but instead had a white steve rogers that was raised by native americans.

like just please don't waste your time stanning white authors. next thing you know they turn into jkrowling.

mod ali

[petrichoraline]

Hi Petri! 👋😊 I’m here to offer a distraction! (And cause I’m genuinely curious) Not to sound like an ignorant American 😬 but how did you learn English? Is it taught in schools in Italy? Like it’s just standard for people to be bilingual now? Or is it something you took extra classes for? Or did you grow up in an English speaking environment? How much English do you use in your daily life?

Ho imparato l’italiano all’università ma non lo uso tutti i giorni quindi l’ho dimenticato 😔

karen my love, first and foremost - thank you soo much for indulging me 🥰🥰🥰 the giffing process is kicking my ass right now so this is a breath of fresh air <33

i think i should immediately clarify - i am not italian! i'm assuming it's possible the misunderstanding happened because monica is? or maybe i said smth that could lead to that conclusion? anyways, i am eastern european and balkan, my first closer look at italian happened two days ago through a language learning app hahah

so, i don't know about italian schools, i would assume they also teach english just like ours do (i hope you forgive me trying to be vague about my nationality) but i cannot say with certainty. i've studied english all throughout school but i didn't become fluent because of it - most english classes in school are not nearly enough to make you good, whether it's the teachers or the study plans - it's just not it. this is why many of us were signed up for lessons as kids - i went to group lessons near school till the sixth grade. i took a pause because of school exams but never went back so all of my fluency now is a result of

1. english class in school

2. six years of private (group) english lessons (!!!)

3. all sorts of media - not only movies, music, books etc. the original language of which is english but also other foreign media in english -translated books, subtitled videos, explained lyrics (!!!)

4. talking to foreigners and friends in english

5. studying other languages through english - even while studying japanese in high school most if not all of our resources were in english, the sites we use, the textbooks - all of it (though there was this one textbook in vietnamese lol)

i'd say it's pretty standard for europeans to know english, a lot of us know three languages or more because they're close to ours. i personally don't but still, it is common. in school english was the basic foreign language and in middle school i chose russian as my second one. most people don't end up fluent in the language they choose in middle school (if they even choose any, you could do maths or smth else, i suppose schools are different) because we study it for three years only. i am not anywhere near fluent in russian lol

but language learning is a thing. my personal observations, though, are that people from my country aren't that good at english in general but maybe as a whole we're fine. a foreigner would make do around here especially speaking to younger people.

as for how much english i use - i use it daily lol, online i speak and read in english, the shows i watch are either in english or have english subtitles and i spend a lot of time on the computer. a lot of my personal vent monologues are in english (you know the ones where youre alone and decide its time to give a ted talk to no one in particular), even when i chat with irl friends we often use english because we're all fluent and we throw it in there, there's a lot of sentence frankensteining happening lol

thank you so much for asking!! if you have additional questions please hit me up, i am a yapper and you're giving me enrichment <33

also it's never too late to go back to italian you know 😗im just getting started and it's so interesting! (though confusing cause they also have gendered nouns but the genders don't match ours 😩lmao)

[busymagpie]

How are you so good at anatomy?

Everytime you post im amazed by how good your anatomy is! And how do you manage to get the same face in each drawing?

Everytime i try to draw Fingon he never has the same face or i get frustrated by how the faces end 🤔

(I hope its understable enough)

First of all thanks! :D

I'd say I'm looking at people a lot. It's definitely not accurate all the time, but it looks believable I think, and that's what matters to me. I don't think it's necessary to know every bone or muscle in the body, but it's good to have a vague idea. And that's why looking at people works so well, because you can see every bump and ridge and dip on a body and where they are located. Life drawing classes are even better for studying and preferable to studying from pictures only. But if you can't/don't want to attend life drawing classes, there are these two sites that are really good for figure drawing: Line of Action & Quickposes My aunt also once got me a book that helped me a lot. (Link isn't the same I got, but it's from the same artist) Oh yeah, also look up reference pictures (or take them yourself) if you aren't sure about something. There are still random photos of my hands in my camera roll.

The faces I draw aren't always exactly the same 😅 But I try to make sure I got the main feature in and I think that helps a lot with making all those faces look the same. But that only works when the design for a character is set and you're not unsure about it anymore. Like, for Fingon I have some key features that make him look the way he looks:

If I haven't developed a character enough, I always have to use the one drawing as a reference picture until I'm sure what the key features for that character are supposed to look like.

I hope this is gonna be helpful for you :D I'm not quite sure how to explain it without making it too long and complicated

[rainbow--panic]

Bravestarr x Detective! Reader

Pairings: Bravestarr x reader

Warning:None

Notes: Please tell me I'm nothing the only one who remembers this awesome show, also let me know if you would like more bravestarr content

This was literally made at 3:30 am so I'm sorry for any errors

New texas was quite a site. You had never seen a desolate planet so filled with life. You were (Y/N) (L/N), a new detective rolling into town. On your home planet you were a great detective, great enough to the point that your agency wanted to send you off planet when they expanded and got an office in new texas. Overall it was fine, if you liked tumble weed and dust getting everywhere like sand on the beach.

You stepped out of the ship that had delivered you to the planet and made your way to the nearest station. From there you got to ride on......a bull? You were comfused, yet intrigued to see that there hoverbikes, as they were known on your planet, were made to look like bulls. You giggled to yourself at how odd it was. From there you had an escort who brought you to Fort Kerium. You were supposed to meet up with some people when you got there, a sort of "welcoming committee" a judge named Mcbride, who was an old friend from the earlier days, a sherrif named Marshal Bravestarr, and his deputy named thirty-thirty.

The escort showed you the hourse you would be staying in, it was a nice little home near the sheriff's office, a bit broken with some cracked boards, but you had hopes that you wouldnt have to be here too long. You dropped off your things, inspecting the inside as you walked. The inside reminded you of the story books you were read as a kid, about the old west and the settlments. This whole planet gave off that vibe of being oldtime-y, except for all the machinery of course. You found your bedroom and set down your things, heading back outside. as you passed by one of the windows that are by the entrance door you noticed somewhat of crowd had gathered outside. Its majority seemed to be town people who looked exactly as you thought they would. Old time-y like their old west surroundings. Three people stood out tho, your old friend McBride, a man with a cowboy hat and brightly colored clothes, and a horse...standing up? Wasn't expecting that one, were you?

They all shouted and cheered when you came out with a big "welcome to Fort Kerium!" Then the three that stood out came up to you with their introductions, welcoming you to their big-little town. You had got aquainted with some of the people who ran stores and lived nearby. soon everyone departed aside from the three as they spoke about the area. "Always stay alert here, criminals run rampit here" stated McBride. "Though Im more than sure you are capable of handling yourself" she added witha cheery smile.

"Sure, i mean we've been to new detroit before, i doubt this place would be much worse" you stated. Thirty thirty looked confused, "what happened in new detroit?" he questioned. You looked up at him and smirked. "Its a long story, but to summerize it, you can't have shit in detroit." McBride laughed.

Bravestarr, who had for the most part remained quiet, finally spoke up. "Miss (L/N), if you ever need any backup in the feild, olease dont hesitate to call on me" He looked at you with a smile which you returned . "How kind of you bravestarr, I'll definitely take you up on that, if needed."

McBride gave the two of you a look before huffing, with a smile. "Well we will leave you to your unpacking then" she said as she began to turn, pushing thirty thirty and bravestarr diwn the few steps of your porch. "See you tomorrow!"

Wavig them off, you went inside your new home. Perhaps that exchange was a bit awkward but that bravestarr was surely...something. You brushed away the feeling as you began to unpack.

Meanwhile, as the three went back to the station, Mcbride and thirty thirty began to toy with bravestarr. "How come you never offer to give me backup in the feild, huh? cuz i aint no purdy girly?" remarked thirty thirty. "what about me bravestarr? will you hive me backup?" McBride taunted. They both laughed and tormented bravestarr while he remained silent, thinking of your interaction earlier. He smiled as he got back to work while letting their taunts become background noise.

[schizopositivity]

I've been showing symptoms of Schizoaffective, including delusions..hallucinations... and alot of the depressive symptoms but I don't know what to do, I don't have access to a professional or anything, do you know any reliable sites I can check out to idk... double check facts and stuff? I'm sorry if I'm not allowed to ask this here.

Im really sorry you dont have access to a professional, especially when dealing with such serious symptoms as this.

In my opinion, I think you may have better luck focusing on coping with individual symptoms if you can only do it by yourself. Although it is very hard to find resources online for yourself and how to deal with these types of symptoms, it is possible. Try starting with the depressive symptoms (like "how to cope with negative thoughts spirals" for example), because there are far more resources online on how to cope with depressive symptoms rather than psychotic symptoms.

For more information on schizoaffetive disorder, I'd suggest websites like NAMI or PsychCentral (or any website that has the authors listed as licensed professionals and is medically reviewed, it should say so after the title of the article). Also if you want to hear people with schizoaffetive talk about their experience you can go to YouTube and search "SBSK schizoaffetive" (special books by special kids is a great channel and interviews people of all ages with different disabilities and experiences).

Sorry if this wasn't the answer you were looking for, good luck on dealing with your symptoms, I hope that you can one day get the treatment you deserve.

[bloodsbane]

ive been thinking about my ~resolutions~ wrt my art for 2023, and i think the main thing is i want to re-learn how to let myself sink into a picture and do stuff just for fun

mainly, i want to develop the patience it takes to put a lot of work into something that i know won't be perfect, because being too scared to start holds me back. in particular i want to make more detailed pictures. not in terms of realism, but like... STUFF. draw more objects, more small details, flavor, personality. i want to try drawing more interior settings, get used to furniture and walls and ceilings and everyday objects. learn to fill in spaces in ways that convey a lot of personality and/or story

i also wanna make more comics!! but newspaper myself when it comes to longer-form projects. excluding MOIRA, which i hope to pick back up again this year, i am going to try limiting myself to short story comics that are only a handful of pages. my problem is that i like slow development of concepts and dialogue-heavy stuff. i want to train myself to be better at just having fun with a simple concept that i can play around with in like, 2-3 pages max. it's going to be tough, but im hoping this will help make me even more proficient in drawing comics and sand down some of the rough edges i feel grating on me still

i also want to make more merch! ever since getting a book specifically for the stickers i collect, i've gotten even more into stickers and want to make more of them. i hope to re-open my etsy store this year, though i may also try to FINALLY do what it takes to set up my own website. i think that would be a good Main Goal for this year - a site to make a porfolio out of, even if i'm not personally interested in securing, like, Professional Art Jobs... I did do some work as a colorist for someone else's comic and I think I'd love the chance to do something like that again? maybe!

a site would also be good for setting up a way to buy merch from me more directly, though there are some perks that come with doing things through etsy... no pay cuts would be pretty sexy though, especially because something as small as stickers or A5 prints are really easy to package on my own. i'll have to look into it and see.

OH AND THE LAST THING IS THAT I WANNA MAKE ZINES! little ones that I can send to friends, and then less-little ones that I can put for sale digitally and physically, maybe for limited runs. gotta research that a bit but i've already got a couple of fun ideas and I'm super excited to find the time to work on stuff like that.

so... here's to hoping, i guess, for a productive year. im hoping my move and major restructure of my life/schedule, and not living with family anymore, is going to give me the space to be more myself irl in ways that will benefit my energy levels and creativity... so here's to hoping i guess!

[godza]

hiii lisey.... just wanted to stop by and say i've been making good progress in sui hunter !! i finally downloaded it as an epub. for some reason it's just easier for me to read things as like whole files like that than flipping through chs published on a site. i'm in like the 50s right now so not super far in but the way things are going so far is interesting i'm looking forward to the academy arc you've been talking about. i have a feeling it's them going into that one academy book used as like an example at the beginningish? anyways thank you for introducing me. sssrh novel of all time 👍

YESSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS!!!!!!!!!!!! WOOOOOOOOO!!!!!! oh im so happy, epubs are so good! and 50s is pretty far in, great progress!! oh its the best im so happy! it rivals orv tbh if you think hard enough and analyze. im so glad you like it! i consider myself a webnovel missionary, i got wei into s classes and you know how thats going lol. and sssrh is one of my faves so im very happy!! and i hope youll enjoy the academy arc, it starts in the 90s so its not far away at all ^_^ have fun and tell me every single thought you have teehee

[ex-textura]

Hiya, Sebastian! ♥ I'm just passing by to say I really admire your art and your talent, and one day I hope to have enough money to share with you and support your beautiful work. :( ♥ I'd like to know a little bit about how you first came into contact with drawing and if you have any cheap/free tools and tutorials you'd recommend to someone who wants to start taking drawing more seriously (and knows 0% about it lmao), if you don't mind. Much love always! - tiefling enthusiast anon

Anon!! I’m so sorry it took me so long to get to this! This is such a kind ask omg thank you 🥺🥺

Don’t ever worry about not being able to buy anything from me, your kind words are honestly enough (and I know what it’s like not to be able to afford to support artists. It’s hard but I promise you messages like this mean so, so much more than money. I’m giddy rn lol)

As for getting into art, tbh I started drawing very young. I used to draw Pokémon and digimon on my desk in elementary school, and then going into junior high I started to branch out a little more though I stopped around high school and didn’t pick up drawing again until more than 10 years later lol….but it’s always been something I loved to do, and coming back to it has really filled a hole in my life I didn’t realize was there for a long time.

For a lot of my early drawings, it was just printer paper and ballpoint pens or plain old pencils until I got my first graphics tablet years later. So if you’re just starting out you don’t really need anything but the will to draw and something to scribble on. If you’re looking to start with digital art though there’s a couple of routes you can take. If you have access to an iPad, or can get one cheap (think used, past model… you don’t need much) there are a number of apps you can get such as ibis paint (which I think may be free or have a free version though I don’t use it myself) or procreate (it’s what I use on my iPad, but it has a one-time fee of I believe $13.99CAD). Or, if you have a computer I got started on a simple graphics tablet and you can get them for fairly cheap these days used (mine was like $80CAD) and I used a free version of Paint Tool SAI which works great.

Still though, if you’re okay not starting with digital art I would recommend just getting a small sketch book for under $10, a mechanical pencil and a gum eraser (those brownish ones). That’s all you really need to get started.

As for tutorials, I mostly watch YouTubers for art advice. I’d recommend Sam Does Arts, Drawfee, and Sinix Design

Sam does a lot of “rating art advice” videos, critiquing his followers pieces, and some goofy things but he has a lot of great tips and he explains things in a very easy to understand way. He also calls out his own flaws easily and teaches you to learn from his own mistakes which I find very encouraging.

Drawfee is four artists with different styles that mostly do art challenges among themselves but they also host art classes for their patrons and those videos get posted to their channel for the general public so you can still follow along for free. I like that they have different styles and different methods, and when they post their speed draws they talk through their process which is very informative.

Sinix is an incredible artist and while some of his videos are definitely more advanced he has beginner videos too that teach the very basics and I still spend a lot of time watching those ones to really drill them into my brain. He’s more informative than entertaining like the other two are, but his stuff is so good.

Other than YouTube videos, I also spend a lot of time on Line of Action which is a great site for practicing form and anatomy.

I’d also recommend the morpho drawing books if you can find a free pdf online (there are definitely sources for them I just can’t seem to find any right now…).

Im sorry this got so long winded xD I don’t even know if it makes any sense anymore lol. But basically…. Get yourself some paper and a mechanical pencil, a decent eraser and start with the basics. There are so many free resources online to get you there. After that… just get yourself a blorbo that you’re just so obsessed with and draw them over and over again until you can do it from memory. Then keep drawing them some more. It takes time and persistence and you might even feel frustrated when you start out, but remember that everyone starts somewhere and even the greatest artists are still learning.

And, please if you do start drawing feel free to share your art with me! I’d love to see it, and hopefully we can grow together ❤️❤️

[28062023]

Watch me fix my life

I've always wanted to have a blog. In fact, I have had a few blogs, Tumblr, and Instagram accounts in the past already. I'm not sure if this one will stick but fuck it lets just try. Im planning to post content and cool shit I find like a blog but also like a second brain. I am always finding things, videos, books, weird shit online (so much weird shit online). I mean I used to fucking love weird shit online and now, I guess I'm adding to the list of weird shit online.

I hope this is giving a tim urban vibe and not totally cringe but this is what I plan to do:

do more shit.

I need to do more shit because doing shit helps you grow as a person and gives you great perspective.

I also need to do more shit because the opposite of depression is action. Not sadness, action.

Less scrolling on the phone, less trawling through youtube videos. less looking through clothes sites - move the fuck on!

The biggest struggle will be that I love looking at weird shit on the internet and when I was younger, weird shit on the internet was my happy place. But then yeah, I was younger, more alone, more time to look at find weird shit.

I also want to do more shit because I don't want to settle. This is in reference to Bevy Smith's post on 'How to find your Authentic self' - which I will make a dedicated post on. But, there is a point in the video where she asks why people feel unsatisfied and then settle for watching shit tv, shit youtube and shit social media.

Next post - hopefully how I plan on doing more shit...

Til then x

[rrxnjun]

stress is deff a bitch but i feel like me and stress are the same now so🤡🤡

it's the 20th of august🤭 nooo that's a bit sad that u couldn't add urs but ur still a king for adding three birthdays in there🫡

WELL I HOPE THAT WONT HAPPEN AGAIN!!🤣 whaaattt that's such a long time oh my but the fact that u still had it is jaw dropping tbh

i don't understand why middle aged women have to be so rude sometimes☹️ wait i completely forgot that accents exist oh my god now thats even worse🥲 YEYY U SHOULD ARANGE ONE IN OCTOBER AS WELL COME TO THE 5SOS SHOW WITH ME/j (i'm heartbroken i have no one to go with so i probably can't attend) (i hope this doesn't break ur heart more cuz i saw ur posts about them sorry if it does☹️☹️hope i didn't cross a line with this joke☹️)

NOT TELLING ANYONE🫢 i look up to u for that cuz i'm still pretty much unable to do i suck💔 SO TRUE THE BEST DESCRIPTION I HEARD OF THEM JUST SOME GUYS!! i was so sad when yedam and mashiho left and i understand the soft spot he is such a lovely guy🥹 being a treasure stan is fun and a heartbreak but glad u admit now that ur a teume 🥲😌 ofc ofc we are sharing😵‍💫 HE IS SUCH A MENACE AND ITS SO FUNNY tbh he was the reason why i came back to tumblr cuz i wanted to see more content and things about him then i ran into the same problem as u that there are not that many writers in the fandom here tbh (or i just can't find them)💔 (sooo if u end up writing something for jihoon i will be waiting🫣)

IT SHOULDNT BREAK UR HEART IM SORRY IT WAS A CRY IN A POSITIVE WAY!!! i think it just means u portray emotions well (?) cuz every time there is a good sad scene in movies or books i just have to fight the tears back even when i was in a good mood before💔 AND THANK U FOR BEING AN AMAZING WRITER AND JUST BEING LOVELY AND READING MY LONG ASS REPLIES LMAO U ARE JUST TOO NICE OF A PERSON💖💕💝 (liebestraum anon💕)

omg 20th august is such a good bday to have im noting it down!!! 😌😌

IT IS the fic was originally supposed to be a part of collab but the writer deactivated and cancelled it but when i asked if i can keep the idea they were ok with it!! so yeah hopefully one day 💓

LOOK lets go to the concert together 😭😭 im like,, half serious and half joking 😭😭😭 i keep telling my mum about it and like the bus tickets to budapest are only 7€ and then i can find a cheap hotel and shit and i have money saved for the tickets 😭😭😭 like. budapest is objectively the closest stop to me ((even tho im still salty there is no vienna then i would go for sure) and i wanted to visit anyway 😌 but my mum doesnt wanna go w me and my dad doesnt either and i have no friends that would wanna go w me either and i am not allowed to go alone so. theres that 😭😭 i dont think ill get to go tbh im still kinda heartbroken but oh well its not the first time :// if i didnt live in such a shitty ass place this would all be easier 😭

girl i think its a miracle tbh but i got the names down. thanking my hyperfixation tendencies 💓💓💓 when i saw it i was so shocked tbh and now i keep getting sad mashidam edits on my tiktok fp and living through the pain LMAO. GIRL my crush on jihoon is getting out of control like genuinely what the fuck is happening to me- WHY IS TEUMEBLR SO DRY THO WHERE ARE THE FICS ??? i found like 3 fics and the rest are like 2 years old headcanon posts its such a struggle 😭😭 do i really have to do everything myself on this site.... (dont feed my delusions but give it a few months and if i dont fall out of them i can see myself creating a seperate treasure blog.....got a jihoon drabble idea the other day but. i will contain myself. so far he's the new main side character of the mark fic im writing 🥴)

awh you are too sweet 😭😭😭😭 thank u so so much !!!! this means the whole world to me 💓 once again was happy to hear from u, hope youre doing well ily xx

[stormwaterwitch]

I dont think i have a future. Seriously. Nor do I think my friends like me much, im too dramatic and loud, too stupid to get things right. I only hurt and confuse people. I need someone.

Hey sugar~

Thanks for reaching out to me ♥

This is just going to be me blathering so take what you want and discard what you don't need/want to do okay?

I remember feeling the exact same way at one point in my life about my old friends group from high school. My best friend and I had a falling out and it turns out none of the people I thought were my friends were my friends and were only friends with me because of her, which really hurt to discover in the back half of my senior year. I had no real group, but I made friends with some of my other classmates and ended up with a few new people who were kind to me. We never ended up becoming super besties like how close the old group and I had been but it was comforting enough to not have to sit through lunch alone that I was content.

I tried being friends with that group again a few years later but I couldn't get how they treated me out of my head and what helped me the most was taking those people out of my life for good. It hurt me to be friends with people who had been so rude and mean to me, even if they 'didn't mean to be'. I'd held on for as long as I had because they had become "familiar" and were "what I knew" and I longed for that same nostalgia. But it never came back and that realization was the hardest part.

If you're close to your friends group maybe you can try bringing up how you're feeling to them and help them be aware that you're in a tender state. Their reactions will tell you all you need to know going forward.

And let's face it: Putting yourself out there to meet new people/make new friends can be scary as fuck. There's the whole re-getting introduced to others, relearning how to not overshare/info dump all at once, as well as building that trust in that friendship. It takes effort. It does. But I know you will find your herd of people who love and enjoy your company for all that you are.

::Content Warning- Suicidal Ideation Mentioned below the cut::

As for no future: I'm going to be completely honest with you: I didn't think I would live past the age of 25. No joke. I had it in my head that I would die at 25, and here I am, six years later at 31 looking back and laughing at the absurdity. Life can be hella daunting, it piles and piles and piles with no end in sight. The constant feeling of drowning among responsibilities for family, life, job, friends: It's a LOT!!!!

If I'd died at 25 I wouldn't have my story that I'm working toward publishing, I wouldn't have gotten married. I wouldn't have my husband or my son.

At 25 I'd had no plans on publishing a book let alone writing it. But I'm still here: and so are you. You're still here. It's okay to not know what you want your future to be like. It's okay to take life one day at a time. Whatever gets you through the day is what gets you through.

Something that I've been doing this last year was a gratitude journal. Just write down one thing every day that you're happy/thankful for. Doesn't have to be anything big, could be that you got to sleep in an extra hour. Just something that at the end of the day you can look back on and say: Yeah, I enjoyed that.

It's hard to see the good through all the bad, so make it a point to look for the good everyday when you can.

If it really feels bad please reach out to your support system and/or consider therapy/journalling to help work through everything.

Some links to help:

I hope this helps.

I'm rooting for you ♥