#im having an existential crisis because of said paranoia since i keep questioning my existence and if i have the right to even live
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How do you deal with paranoia?? /gq
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#ive been getting a myriad of intrusive thoughts recently#its been so bad this week and i dont even know why#I'm either thinking about getting murdered violently or suddenly dying#theres more but i dont even remember most of it right now#plus in general i think I'll get executed on spot if i even dare to speak constantly#← though on that; its getting worse since i genuinely think i shouldn't speak ever due to how paranoid i am#i genuinely think someone would slit my throat for it#for all i know this could be some mental episode?? though im not even sure#nothings happened this week that would cause me this much stress it's all just out of nowhere#im having an existential crisis because of said paranoia since i keep questioning my existence and if i have the right to even live#im so paranoid to a point where i don't even think I'm worthy of living#i wouldn't say its suicidal ideology either since i absolutely do NOT want to go out the way my intrusive thoughts insinuate if i were too#i keep getting phantom pains of being stabbed in the back or of strangulation and its scaring me#i hate hate this#i just keep ignoring it and trying to sleep it off and then it's gone for a few hours and then comes back and its back to square one#i dont have plans on acting on anything but my paranoia keeps getting more prominent and i dont know what the cause is#i keep doubting my own choices as of recent too#i dont know why this is happening and its bothering me so much#i know its not true but i constantly feel like I'm on edge or someones out to get me#like at this point yell at me in the fucking replies for these thoughts i shouldn't be having them and maybe itll force it out#i dont even know anymore#KillerKiller.txt
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