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andragoras-in-vanity · 2 months ago

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genuinely, how do people with fibro hold jobs? ive always felt like my fatigue stops me more than the pain, but i can do stuff if i get enough sitting time, so lately ive felt shitty for not working when others seem able to. worse, because i wouldnt want to work even if i could, so im almost relieved i cant.

but genuinely what the fuck. how do yall do this. theres "pushing through it" and then theres...whatevrr this is. packing up the house the last three days is making feel worse than death, my back hurts so much. and its not even that bad other than my mum freaking out and my stepdad doing half the job, a full physical 12 hour shift would be equal to this and i cannot do it. i couldnt do 9 hours a week two weeks in a row!! im convinced some of yall either don't actually have chronic pain OR theres something far worse going in with my body than fibro.

#like i do need a mobility aid some days #most of the time i go out i keep my cane on me if it isnt a quick trip anyway #but i need to lean i need a crutch #i just dont have one bevause i cant fold it up and tuck it in a bag when i dont need it #like im at the point where the idea of a shitty cheap wheelchair for trips to museums or into the city is really appealing #it would be such a relief #but i feel bad wanting that when some people are so much worse than me #but then i meet others with fibro and im like what drugs are you on and where can i get some because i COULD NOT handle that #my tattoo artist who i LOVE has it and like...girl i ger that you have to make money you need to support yourself because your husbands #doesnt make enpugh for the whole family and also you enjoy what you do #but oh my god???? how????#is yours just not as severe as mine? do i not have fibromyalgia and its actually soemthing worse??#why does fibro have such a range like this??#cause i couldnt keep a job enough to pay the bills no matter what id try #i can barely handle the things i enjoy #ive lost my ability to write bevause of brain fog ive lost my drawing motivation because of migraines...#im really good at appearing unaffected #im good at keeping the invisible disability invisible but fuck i cant understand how some of yall are able to work despite it?#im really looking forward to moving the sea air genuinely eases me but even on medication i wasnt olay enough to hold a job #im too inconsistent in my energy levels and everything feels too demanding #imso tired and sore and scared itll always get in the way even if i live according to my needs #i dont want to miss out on life anymore

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