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Can't turn on the car to lower the windows without the alarm going off and cant take out the keys to wait outside. so now im stuck opening the door every few minutes to breathe through the crevice like a reverse fnaf 2 freddy mask procedure
#okay#Locked it now i CANNOT open the door without an alarm going off#Locked it and it wouldnt stop even after closing it#scrambled for the keys in the front and turned it off#the alarm rang for at least 4 times in order to discover the info on my above post#im going to suffocate#also i made sandwhiches today
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postgame komahina househouse with pet cat named aki (after chiaki) and she really likes nagito. and hajime i guess but if nagitos home she’ll only sit on hajime if nagito is sitting on hajime
#hikoma#komahina#nagito komaeda#hajime hinata#sdr2#danganronpa#danganronpa fanart#wikoart#ship art#finished#hajime is genuienly upset she doesnt like him as much btw.#cat doesnt really act like chiaki its just a sweet thing#projecting my own cats onto her. i think she’d lay directly in nagitos face while he’s sleeping and hes feel too bad to move her#so hed just suffocate#nagito with cats is the most important thing ever to me i think#type of guy to like visit those cat island things and just get run over by a million cats#hes so cat to me#anyways ivealmost been here for a year guys#heh. isnt that funny#(im still going insane)#JUST REALISED I WROTE HOUSEHOUSE IN THE CAPTION LMFAO#im not fixing it its funny. its supposed to say household
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chara can have a little bit of protective older sibling traits, as a treat. why does frisk sleep face down
#im not finishing this beyond a sketch bc i dont feel like it. sparkle on its wednesday#i told yall i was going to make a comic based on one of my weirdly specific fears#and i am Deeply fucking scared of babies rolling themselves onto their faces and suffocating themselves in their sleep#i do not have kids.#working in childcare was fun until they placed me in the infant room for several years#now i am fucked up forever! babies are so fragile its terrifying!#nobody ever died but i have. So many horror stories of working in child care#that i wont share here. but i have so many#perennial buttercup au#undertale#chara#frisk#flowey#chara dreemurr#flowey the flower#he draws
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My gf got me into Metalocalypse now I have another man to sexualize
#my art#metalocalypse#nathan explosion#mtl fanart#deathklok#im gonna post this then go back to hibernating for months#i want this man to suffocate me so bad
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This really doesn't have to go on main but I'm putting it here for now:
So uh. Job hunting online for retail positions is definitely an experience. I saw a part time position listing for an office supply store and I think to myself, good! Not a restaurant! I can do office supplies! So I submit the resume/application and then get to the "great, thank you for that! Here are some multiple choice answer questions ranging from word association to number sequences to math problems!"
And I think to myself "great! I'm good with numbers and math and I should be okay associating basic words for this lovely RETAIL POSITION" and then I get the quick and easy practice questions. Wonderfully easy. I've got this. It's neverending and you just have a 10minute time limit to answer as many as possible! No problem!
Then I click "begin" and get slammed with the most ungodly whiplash with the first question being word association about "which of these four words is DIFFERENT" and the options were STRANGLE, PUSH, THROTTLE, and SUFFOCATE.
Hey, uh. Hey retail job. You uh. You okay there? I have some concerns and it was the first question.
#moe talks a lot#not art#so salmon hows the job hunting going? oh you know trying to tell a retail company that pushing someone#is different than strangling or throttling or suffocating someone - you know - as one does in job questionnaires#tbh this got more likes and reblogs than i thought so i guess it can stay lmao#i was gonna delete it but glad you guys enjoyed it#it was also worth mentioning after i got the email saying my app was received and the assessments were done#i got an attached file with my personality test results which honestly were pretty accurate#and im like wow dang imagine being like oh you do uquiz? i do job applications to get judged by corporations to psychologically define me#it was insane dude i have never received personality results in emails from jobs i applied for
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Q10 and they want me dead again 🫠🙃
#the heart killers#firstkhao#joongdunk#first kanaphan#khaotung thanawat#joong archen#dunk natachai#gmmtv#Thai bl#the girlies be going crazy over firstkhao kitchen scenes#it’s me I’m the girlies#but then again they could literally post anything with the 2 of them in the same frame and i will suffocate#also im so ready for the flirty!first comeback era you have no idea#😭😭
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Wanna live here
#creepy girl#rotting in my room#insane girl#im going insane#dead inside#this is insane#i feel like im suffocating#pastel pink#pink aesthetic#pink blog#pink coquette#pinkcore#pink moodboard#pink horror#soft pink#light pink#pink#creepy aesthetic#creepy coquette#creepycore#creepy adorable#creepy cute#aesthetic#alternative#dolletecore#dollygirl#coquette dollete#dollete aesthetic#coquette angel#dark coquette
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Cringe be damned, cause IDGAF (I do) here is my mfb oc
His name is Kyo Noruki, and tbh I haven't really fleshed out all his lore
⚠️ YAP WARNING UNDER CUT⚠️
What I do know is that
He is/was a part of the Dark Nebula throughout season 1, he was a part of it since episode 1, but I don't know his reason for joining yet, but I don't think he really cares for their goals or anything.
He got ANTI-blader spirit, he isn't evil but he simply sees beys as pieces of metal, he doesn't believe in beys being sentient or having spirits or anything, so all of his battles have a sort of empty vibe, like something's just not right, because he has no passion.
Again, he's not evil or a bad person or anything, he just never had a bond with his bey cause he sees it as a spinning top.
(lil tidbit: I hc that he doesn't call out his beys name during battles, he just calls out the moves, bc again, no bond)
Because of his anti spirit, he doesn't take many beyblade related things seriously, like L-Drago eating peoples souls, because to him, 'it's just a spinning top, it can't be that serious', and with Reiji torturing people, he just doesn't get what the big deal is, like 'yea your bey broke, just fix it later?'.
(bc of this I feel like he wouldn't be mentally affected by Reiji, like he'd lose in a fight w him but he wouldn't really gaf)
I feel like Kyo would REALLY piss Gingka off, because he has NO spirit NO passion and NO fucks to give, and his bey is suffering for it.
His arc would probably be Gingka hitting him with his fist of The bladers Spirit™ by the end of season 1, and Kyo trying to make it up to his bey and bond with it in season 2 (idk where he'd be in season 3, cuz ngl, not the biggest Fury fan).
He has his own morals and stuff, but he is more on the morally-grey side of the spectrum, like he wouldn't kill anyone or anything, but he would harm someone if he had to, it's all a means to an end for him.
I am having troubles with his bey though, because honestly I don't really know the etiquette for making up beyblades, I want him to have some kind of fox because it just fits his vibe? idk, but the only fox bey I know of is Spiral Fox, which is taken, so I'm very open to suggestions, I've been thinking about the names Flash Fox and Phantom Fox tho.
Anyway, here's some lil character interaction doodles :D
(ignore how off model he looks, doodle are doodles) but anyway, thank you so much for making it through my brain gunk
I'm sorry, but there will probably be more to come 😔
#mfb#beyblade metal fight#metal fight beyblade#original character#yu tendo#daidoji#gingka hagane#i am so sorry#i will prolly be yapping a ton more about him bc im mentally unwell#so im just gonna give him a tag#Kyo Noruki MFB#dude i started writing and then i could NOT SHUT UP 😭#i have so many lil interactions planned out between him and the cast#does your oc wanna be friends with my oc? 🥺#ok time to go back into my little hole and suffocate <3#toodles
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I saw what you said about Jack and Bloodmoon👀 I SEE YOU ARE TRYING TO BREAK MY HEART-
WE'LL IT'S WORKING- But it also got me thinking👀
There's something so deeply unsettling about Bloodmoon's situation. It's an inner, deep rooted horror!
They have always been two, working as one. And despite their hunger, despite their violence, they worked in perfect harmony, never fighting for control. Or anything, for that matter.
Imagine: You wake up. You are surrounded by the abyss, and your body is aching.
You are hungry, so hungry, it drives you to insanity. So hungry, you want to claw off your skin. So hungry, you want to rip out your insides.
But then there is someone else. They are inside of you. A part of you, yet someone else.
And they understand. They feel the same hunger. Their body aches the same, for theirs is yours, and yours is theirs. You are the same.
You are one. You can hear their voice inside your head, and feel their presence tingle underneath your skin. There is a presence inside of you, and it turns your insides warm. It eases the hunger, eases the pain, just enough to make it bearable.
There is a constant presence inside of you, and your head is never quiet. It is always filled with thoughts, some from you, some from them. Sometimes, they will respond to an idea of yours. Sometimes, you tease them for thinking something silly.
Sometimes your body is heavy, and they will gently tug you back. Their presence is no longer beneath your skin. Instead, it surrounds you, their warmth swallowing you whole. They will think of something to make you laugh, because they are a part of you, and know you better than you know yourself. And when you laugh, you feel their lips, yet your own as well, quirk up into a smirk.
You are never trapped, because you're always free to take control, and they will let you, because they trust you, and you are as much a part of them as they are of you.
You are still hungry, but you are not alone in this hunger. Instead, together, you do anything to fill it, hunting down prey. And when you are unsuccessful, they will simply tug you back, and reassure you, telling you you'll catch it next time.
This is your whole life. From the moment, that you first opened your eyes in the abyss, they were with you.
You do not know loneliness, for they are a part of you. Even as you are used and betrayed, time and time again, you do not learn the meaning of loneliness. Because they are right there with you, feeling the same pain. You can hear their thoughts, their anger, their wrath, yet they never lash out at you, rather killing a rat you've stumbled across. Likewise, you're own thoughts are leaping waves, crashing against your skull and leaving you two with a numb ache. But you are not alone, there is a buzzing beneath your skin, and you find them pulling you in. They do not come out, leaving your shared body leaning against a wall, as their warmth surrounds you. "I am here." they tell you. "I'm not leaving." you reassure. You will never know loneliness.
Except then you do.
You are separated. At first, you do not notice the silence, still high on adrenaline and bloodlust, high on seeing you sibling, your other half, face to face. But then you lose you fight, and there is no one to reassure you, to tell you "good job", or take over and finish it for you.
Suddenly, you become aware of the emptiness. The presence underneath your skin is gone, leaving you freezing. You feel your stomach rumble, but no one notices, no one shares it.
Your head is silent. Their voice is gone. Their presence is gone. You can only hear yourself, and you are left reeling. You feel like a stranger in your own skin, a husk who has lost it's soul.
Then you are told, they won't come back.
The buzzing in your flesh will not return. The warmth inside of you will never save you from the cold again. The voices inside your head are gone for eternity.
The presence inside and around you has left. For the first time in your life, you are truly, and utterly alone.
And you are left feeling like nothing but a parasite in your own shell, for there are meant to be two, not one.
Just imagine: there is a constant weight on top and inside of you, like a weighted blanket, and a voice filling your head. And one day, the weight is gone, and your head is quiet, for the first time since you can remember.
But it's not a relief. The weight was a comfort, and the voice was your friend. They were familiar, and all you've ever known. There was never an existence without either.
-Stardust
HELLO STARDUST ANON HOW DARE YOU DO THIS TO ME I AM IN SHAMBLES
I don't even have any additional thoughts you literally worded this all spectacularly. The second Bloodmoon wasn't even technically supposed to be there, but they latched onto each other all the same and worked their existence around each other. They were comfortable and they were familiar and they were happy :(((
UGH THATS SO FUCKED UP. I'M GUNNA BE THINKING ABOUT THIS FOREVER NO ONE TOUCH ME
#asks#anon#stardust anon#'the weight was a comfort and the voice was your friend' IM GOING TO START PROJECTILE CRYING AAUAGAHAGHHHH#I CAN'T EVEN BEGIN TO IMAGE HOW DEFEANING THE SILENCE FEELS.#HOW SUFFOCATING IT IS TO KNOW WHEN HE LOOKS AT HIS BODY HE WILL ONLY FIND HIMSELF AND NO ONE ELSE#FUCK OH MY GHOD ITS JUST LIKE ANIMA SOLA NO ONE LOOK AT ME STARTS PUNCHING AIR#sun and moon show#the sun and moon show#tsams#sams bloodmoon#sams bloodtwins#tsams bloodmoon#tsams bloodtwins#angst#tsams spoilers#sams spoilers#long post
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My gran just heard me mutter "neil tennant i love you so much" that was extremely humbling and embarrassing
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watching isttvg with your partner and holding their hand with the sudden awareness of how close you came to death. thinking: we are alive, we are alive, we are alive. thinking: every day we save ourselves from more and worse. thinking: for the love of god, dont let go.
#i saw the tv glow#obviously we are both trans#im with my family for the summer and i forget who i am#i see her speak to her father and i feel sick with pain#but we are alive. we are here. we are crawling out of that grave inch by inch#once i said 'im not trans bc i could keep pretending to be cis'. i get made fun for it and rightfully so#but that sentiment is death. that sentiment is death. nothing else.#we have spent so much of our lives lying. suffocating and lying and apologizing for everything that's true.#this is me stopping. please come with me. please stop. for the love of god - keep crawling. please. we have to go.#this cannot be us. never again. we cannot pretend reality away we cannot choose not to see it. itll kill us.#i found our hearts and theyre still beating. we are alive. there is still time#for as long as your heart is beating. there is still time. please. dont let go.
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in act i piltover doesn't care that the people they're threatening war over to get arrested are a group of four children and in act iii piltover doesn't care that jinx is a mentally compromised teenager who sometimes acts even younger than she is due to The Trauma and who needs help not to be locked up in a cell like vi was. i am so on vi's side about piltover's prison system being awful because what the hell is wrong with them
#arcane#I've seen aus where jinx did end up in jail because of jayce's demands and#1) silco would never. like im not a fan of his but he literally wouldn't#turn her in#partially because he loves her but also because zaun has no bite behind its bark without her#jinx is perfect. jinx creates weapons. jinx is the perfect weapon of chaos in the face of piltover's suffocating neatness#and 2) if they DID lock jinx up vi would KILL THEM#it wouldn't FIX ANYTHING#it would just put a very vulnerable girl in a very dangerous situation where she might end up trying to kill herself again!#or goad someone else into killing her#and isolated as she would be there's no silco or vi to intervene and stop her#like it's. the idea of jinx being in jail is so wrong it makes my skin crawl#which speaks to how well crafted the story is that despite so many characters lobbying for it#you can TELL that that's not how it's supposed to go#it's deeply deeply wrong#and we know full well that the prisons don't care about their inhabitants at all#so no matter what it wouldn't end well for jinx#it's not like stillwater is going to protect her after how they treated vi
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ok ok look i understand that celia recognizing chester and emails from "john" and whatever the FUCK is going on with lena and gwen is all mind-boggling and such but
i feel like im not seeing NEARLY as many posts about the statement this episode???
I only listened once but what the fuck is the significance of those donations???? The laughter?? "it's all for a good cause"???????
WHO THE FUCK IS THE "SECURITY FIRM" THAT DEALT WITH IT?????
#the magnus protocol#tmagp spoilers#there's also the fact that it was the hilltop centre dont think that escaped my notice#you canNOT convince me this statement wont be important later#'security firm' that kinda reads to me like trevor the vampire hunter in terms of handling of supernatural stuff. but on a larger scale#....sister department to the oiar#WHO KNOWS????#THER'ES SO MUCH TO FUCKING UNPACK !!!!!!!#trying to analyze what the fuck kind of entity was involved with that#something about hoarding and crowding and too much STUFF. unwanted gifts (esp considering it was the holiday season)#while also insisting it's all for charity. all for a good cause#perhaps (going off what people have said about the entities in tmp being desires rather than fears)#it has to do with the desire for the material. the desire for stuff#alternatively considering the charity angle it could be tied to a desire to help....#but the ''help'' comes in unwanted and in fact SUFFOCATING ways#idk man im just throwin spaghetti at the wall at this point lmao#jort post
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every day i kick a rock and bash my head into the wall because i'll never get to go on a big space adventure and become tightly close-knit with my new found family up there <//3
#re lrb..........#i mean realistically if i was in the voltron/quintenary stars universe chances are i would probably NOT be one of the people#going on the space adventure.#i'd be roped into the plot when the aliens invade and earth almost gets destroyed. spoilers for arc 2 btw sorry#but man. child soldierism aside i wish that were me so so so bad#sadly kicks a rock when will EYE have a deep and mystical connection with a giant ancient cat :(#its not even that i want to interact with the main cast bc i dont really i just. wanna be in their position man#i think one of the reasons why voltron grabbed me so hard (among MANY) is how badly i wanted to do what the main characters did#i remember when i was first watching it while it was coming out i would CONSISTENTLY daydream about being launched into space#with a handful of other people and having to fight a war and grow up far away from home and all the suffocating stuff that came with it#and then coming back years later already solidly knowing who i am and being confident in that#so i'd actually be brave enough to be unapologetic about it. and i'd be found family with the people i went to space with also#that parts important#idk man just. i dont like saying i was abused when i was younger because i really dont think it was like that and it isnt even close to#what how people who have really been abused have had to go through#but sometimes i really do wonder. like now that im (mostly) out and able to review everything with an outside perspective#not even getting into the cult survivorism stuff this is JUST family dynamics im talking about here#bc that shit is a whole other can of worms#i think my parents were genuinely doing the best they could with the cards they were dealt but. jesus christ.#i would have given ANYTHING to be able to run away from all that. and throw magic cats into the equation? brother im GONE#anyway this tags ramble has derailed in a MAJOR way. tldr i wanted to be a paladin sooooo fuckign bad bro#like it actually makes me SICK how much i want a lion. red you are my forever girl even if only in my heart <///3#i still do want to do all that out of principle but its not as desperate now i just really love space and really want a big kitty friend#winter speaks
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found a video of the worst torture/execution methods in history ! sooo happy to see many of my own fav torture methods on here. the rat bowl is my favourite :) but im very very fond of the honey&milk boat ride and the gibbet. video below the cut for anyone whos interested. the graphics r pretty intense tho w lots of gore
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#if anyones curious my other favs that havent been mentioned are the brazen bull#(specifically bc the guy who came up w it became its first victim)#the iron maiden#the one where victims are tied down on top of bamboo which then slowly grows through them#impaling them#and that one where they slowly place weights on top of the victims chest to slooowly suffocate them#ahhh and also also 'the well' where they basically bury a person upright w only their head sticking out#they can also cover their face w honey again for insects to crawl on them#speaking of insects theres also the one where they make naked ppl sit on anthills..#the ants. just like the rats. find a way out#OK IM SORRY#i read a huge book on tortures and executions when i was 9 and i havent let it go since#whump#gore#execution#torture#Youtube
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vent in tags pls ignore i have no outlet
#but life has been so suffocating#and loneliness is too#ive been going through this depressive episode for weeks now and it’s extremely annoying#i’ve also been on this app for years and years but now that i have an actual account with a following where i post it’s somehow lonelier#i’m losing inspiration#and creativity#i’m self critical and it’s at an all time high#im not proud of any works or ideas and it’s so discouraging#being on here feels very lonely#but so does being offline#and i feel like i can’t win
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