#im going to lay in my bed now my head kinda hurtie

[goyouku]

kicks down your door hello hawks' giving his childhood endeavor plushie 'wings' with a few of his feathers so it can fly around thank you and goodbye.

[sleepingsystem]

beep beep me being a stupid dumbass under the cut

- dave

head hurty- Today at 6:09 AM

ok i used to wish i was dirk and skyler got scared to read homestuck because they thought homestuck was behind A Trauma happening but like id get this physical ache in my chest? wishing i was someone else but im not a fragment. im a fully formed dude now. so i cant change shit im just kinda stuck how i am unless i integrate somehow which isnt likely god haha thatd be incredible me integrating only for skyler to split again and form the dude i wanted to be a man can dream sigh le sign wow i actually meant to type sigh but it came out as sign existing is fuckin exhausting. all this bullshit is exhausting having to communicate with half your friends through sticky notes is exhausting and stupid and i still cant get rid of the feeling that im not good enough at my job or whatever i mean i know i got formed sort of in the middle of all the cult shit but it went on while i was there. i didnt put an end to iti just kinda went with it because i just go along with everything maybe if i was someone else id have been more useful i really wish skyler had read to act 6 and gotten one of the actual cool dudes instead of me or hell why not like what else did they like percy jackson?? take him he got shit done unlike me i dont get shit done i just kind of sit there and let someone set trees on fire i guess this coffee probably isnt helping but i dont have wait no i do have benadryl but thatll put me to sleep so fuck that ive gotta work in uhhhhh less hours than itll take me to wake up from a benadryl nap man fuck me being an introject of someone elsewhy couldnt i have just been my own dude most of these other clowns are mae and z and guy and kindle and renaliy and the narrator and casi and bethany and scarlet and oh my god i can go on and on why did the brain get lazy on me a piece broke off and it was like 'fuck it i dont give enough of a shit about this one to make something up' well i guess thats not 100% true. cole is an introject and hes super useful at his job and hes so nice and stuff probably because hes actually a useful dude and i just roll with whatever punches wow this is getting more long and pathetic the longer im awake im gonna have to delete all these ugh thats so many to delete @discord gimme the mass delete option plox blaurgh i can hear someone awake and taking a shower

head hurty-Today at 7:05 AM

whatever its 7 am i got no sleep im gonna drink coffee and lay in bed and drink coffee and hate myself then eventually ill go downstairs and do the same goddamn thing jesus why did they let me do this ive got a strongly worded sticky note just waiting for these pricks wow jade and lucas just never go offline do yall goddamn

head hurty-Today at 8:11 AM

is it raining??i think its raining haha boy the world sure has conspired for me to be in this emotional state

head hurty-Today at 8:45 AM

i made coffee but i cant motivate mysef to get up and get a cup this is stupid stupid stupid stupid stupid i cant wait to get us out of this fucking house so i never need to front ever again

head hurty - Today at 9:30 AM

tfw even ur internal self helper gives up on u felt danny phantom gettin his help on in here somewhere or trying to i mean i cant hear inside very well or see or do much of anything the most interacting i ever did was when i was outside it and everything was on fire and i walked inside and ive been inside since then i guess but man cole sure was there for a sec felt worried? idek but he fucked right off tfw even the dude whose job its supposed to be to make sure people dont go batshit just quits im not gonna elaborate on what tf is because its pretty much self explanatory tf is shitty B( me and cole used to be so tight actually i used to be pretty tight with everyone like ok one time we were at this cool amusement park and we were holding pretty decent cocon and cole was on a roller coaster and all he did was grin didnt scream didnt move nothing just smiled and when we got off i was laughing so hard because oh my god what the fuck but now i cant even talk to him arurhgjhrghhh i should just move this to my blog idk what im trying to accomplish here ive had too much coffee and not enough sleep