#im going insane mizuki save me

[suntantism]

just disappear.

[bogbees]

my current plan for drift au is like

Iruka: so here's the training room— oh, pardon us Hatake-san. I thought it'd be empty this time of day

Kakashi: fancy that, so did I

Iruka: ah, well, we'll be leaving then, sorry for the intrusion—

Naruto: hey, hey, what does sparring look like? can you show us? you n Kakashi-sensei

Iruka: i don't know... maybe not today—

Kakashi: ah, why not sensei, let's teach em what disappointment looks like

Iruka: *thousand yard stare* *removes knit sweater to reveal a nearly too tight button up* if you insist

Kakashi obviously gets a bit embarrassed by how hot Iruka looks. mostly the transformation fr goofy pencil pusher to the front page cover for every gay porno mag ever made. plus maybe idk a past infatuation that won't die?

Iruka just wants a chance to smack him upside the head for his rudeness.

whoops. turns out they're extremely drift compatible based off their quick spar. neither have any words. Kakashi is low-key upset he's gonna have to pilot again and kill Iruka this time. Iruka's just surprised by how... right it felt. he tries to cool his nerves, Kakashi interpts it as "oh no the grim reaper is coming for me next" fear, bc he's not aware Iruka might just be genuinely kinda amped up ab being toe-to-toe with a renowned pilot with a lot of kaiju kills. so Kakashi storms off. Iruka tries to calm his brain and his class.

he's ultimately hoping nobody finds out. he won't do well as a pilot, just let him do the paperwork for the base PLEASE.

now. they get hooked up with the actual machine to drift. it's stellar. until Kakashi starts freaking out ab how good it's going. Iruka tries to help but they're already fucked it up a bit.

now I'm thinking. Naruto, Sasuke, and Sakura end up taking the new mech. bc their drift results turned out better than Iruka and Kakashi's, but mostly bc they have less opportunity for failure; they're not riddled with depression and chronic illness.

so. Kakashi and Iruka get benched and become newt and herman without intention. like. idk. they finally go insane, try to hide away in a broom closet to make out, only it's the research lab, and with Iruka's book smarts and Kakashi's physical smarts (as in he knows kaiju patterns fr dealing with so many) (and Iruka's hobby is studying up on them in his spare time) they figure out the breech.

im imagining Kakashi trying to fuck Iruka senseless on some desk, only for Iruka to get distracted by the papers and he's like "wait, wait, look at this," effectively killing the mood by distracting the both of them.

i want iruka to be the one to drift with the kaiju??? idk fuuinjutsu feels like a mad scientist sorta deal

Mizuki still attacks Naruto and Iruka still saves his life by offering his own

Ramen. Dandelion yellow hair. Summer. Okinawa beach. Onsen. Bath. Ramen. Ma, Pa. Auntie Kushina. Ramen. School.

???

[spoinky39s]

n25's turn and i put in more effort because they make me insane!

im gonna talk abotu them too now

so everyone but mafuyu dies and mafuyu has to go through the tragedy and also somehow get over her dead friends. they tried to help her during the killing game in basically the same way as in canon, by making songs together , and she actually smiled for once but thennnn mizuki dies in chapter 3 and then ena dies in chapter 4 and then kanade dies in chapter 5 sooooo after she escapes she starts seeing their ghosts as a hallucination to help her get through it all . i chose her to survive because she's the one that wanted to disappear the most and then she lives haha!

mafuyu's true self gets revealed in chapter 2 cus the whole group staying up late is used as evidence in the trial but nobody knew about the staying up late so they have to explain it, so it's kinda like when mafumom finds out about kanade, she freaks out and her mask just slips more and more as the game goes on.

moving on to what the portraits represent: mizuki is holding hers because she kills herself in chapter 3 to prevent her secret from getting out, but someone got killed anyway so it was all for nothing! i love to make them suffer! ena kills someone shortly after in a fit of rage because she feels guilty over mizuki not being able to tell her secret, gets really irritable , and takes it out on someone.

kanade dies protecting honami, trying to take her place and claiming she killed someone, but it doesn't work and the mastermind kills her for breaking some rule. so she couldn't save anyone in the end! tragic! (can you tell i am enjoying this)

[ru-bwee]

bwee insanity below my once a week autism paragraph

i mean it so much when i mean twilight light is a masterpiece by the way. its so soft and warm. despite the suffering and pain nightcord will stay together and make music throughout it all.. part of the song is basically a message to come to the SEKAI if you are feeling alone in the world

also the chorus. ough. they connect they hands at night.. at 2500...

the 2dmv equally ruins me... the butterflies flying free from the cage (later on in the MV) into the sekai.. mafuyu running away and heading to kanade and nightcord.. the butterfly goes to sekai.. the apple heart again.... the phone in the water... also. mizuki going "will i be able to face it someday?" as a connecting lyric. i will kill all of you with my autism.

25-ji nightcord de has ruined and saved me at the same tme.. im so normal about them...

just teared up a little bit at twilight light . nightcord kileld my family