#im glad yall like my shitty flags

[mogaiphobic]

[city-of-lame]

Creepy Josh from Olive Garden

Strap in for this Saga

So my drunk ass fucking DESTROYED a man yesterday. This guy (not-so-affectionately nick-named creepy josh from Olive Garden) has been harrassing women in the Nashville area for three years.

I can be polite to a fault at times, so mostly I just ignored his texts/snapchats etc. but would give a quick, generic “hi how are you?” reply on occasion. But yesterday he decided to “confess” his feelings and ask me out. Now that in itself isn’t so bad.

But hear me out, my dudes.

This guy has asked me out at LEAST 7 times in the last two years. Each time I have politely and clearly said “no thank you”. I’ve made it CLEAR I am not interested many times. But he always persists.

The first time, he was a new hire at Olive Garden where I was a server (19 at the time) and being me, I wanted to make him feel welcome. I know what it’s like to be the new kid and it’s always nice to make a friend on your first day. So I chatted him up about school and life and said to ask me if he needed help/had any questions. Turns out we were in the same program at MTSU (we would later have a class together and it was a whole thing and he harassed my friend about going out and I warned her with my experience and when she said no he badgered her to a frightening extent on who told her bad things about him)

All in all seemed like a normal dude that I would get along with at first. But he asked me out that night and I was in a committed, long distance relationship at the time. So when I declined he said “then why were you nice to me?” And in the weeks that followed asked questions like “why do you love him if he lives in another state?”

So the red flags basically slapped me in the face left and right and I avoided him as much as I could from then on.

Fast forward to the last few months. I’m fairly newly single and he found this out and has been mesaging me consistently on Snapchat and text since. He’s asked me out a few times (I answered no every time) and when he saw me at Walmart with my mom as he was leaving and we were going to the check out, we exchanged waves and “how are you”’s but then HE STOPPED AT THE DOOR AND WAITED FOR US staring us down as we check out our groceries. I made it take an absurdly long time and finally he left but shot me a quick “you looked great! Let’s get drinks sometime!” Text within3 minutes of finally leaving us alone.

So last night when he asked me out yet again (screenshots below) I was headed out with friends (not yet drunk when I was driving just for the record) to celebrate one of the girls leaving her shitty job. Naturally, I hadn’t replied or even read the message yet. Twenty minutes go by and he says “a reply would be nice considering I just put everything out there after two years.”

Y’all.

He had no idea what he started.

So I’m tipsy by the time I finally read this and I SNAPPED. I really was not having this today. Drunk Sarah was not here for any part of how he was (and would) speak to me over the next few hours.

So I threw polite out the god dang window and laid into this man. And when I say I snapped I mean I came for his ENTIRE life. I left him with 5 new assholes and his jugular ripped open.

The conversation was exhausting and I wish I hadn’t wasted as much time as I had on it but I was seething. I know at least 5-10 women he has harassed/ made uncomfortable/ treated like trash and when I brought them up he got mad saying he was tired of us going behind his back and never telling him what was wrong WHILE IM TELLING HIM WHAT WAS WRONG. Clearly us sharing our experiences and warning each other bothered him/ inconvenienced him. When I told him I’d heard from several girls he kept trying to guess and named three women I’d never even heard of so there’s way more than I know and it’s clear he’s been confronted before AND knows he’s fucked up but doesn’t see it as his fault.

So basically I was and still am disgusted to my core but mostly glad to be rid of him. Below are some screen grabs of his droning and whining and attempted manipulation. Just some highlights since I’ve already made you read so much. Also the last two screenshots are from a girl in a Facebook group warning women about him where he tells her to fuck herself because she didn’t reply to him while at work. Several other girls also posted on her post afterwards sharing their shitty experiences with him!

So that’s your piping tea for the day. Sorry for such a long post just really needed to vent all of that. Also please excuse my typos. Drunk Sarah was drunk AND angry so she did her best.

[meyhew]

hi hello guess whos back with another annoyingly sentimental post? yeah it’s me bc i’m an emo bitch who’s been listening to sott on repeat for four hours now and its got me feelin some type of way. it’s like the same old same old stuff i say basically but i can’t say it enough so i’m gonna say again. 

@eversincencwyork @onedirectionwho - you two. god. sometimes i can’t even put into words how much you both mean to me. we’re reaching our second? third? anniversary idek i’m shit at remembering numbers and dates but?? whether it’s two years or three, it’s not a whole lotta time not rlly and we’ve thru so fuckng much together? like holy shit sometimes i look back at everythign that’s happened to us and it makes me wanna cry bc as shitty as some of it was, it’s only brought the three of us closer and i would deadass fight the whole world for u if i ever had to. no joke. you’re always always always there for me when i rlly need you and now i can’t imagine not having you in my life. 

@leemihno - i just. you know what i found today? that super gorgeous drawign you started of me and then misplaced the notebook. and all the other art you’ve made of me and for me and i teared up. you might be a kpop blog now but in my heart you’ll always be daggerau. loueh to my harru. i cant wait for louis to go on tour so you can come to new york and we can see him together. it boggles my mind that we became friends through something that has absolutely nothing to do with 1d and yet it’s something that brought us so much closer. also im sure i said this before but im gonna say it again - im so so SO proud of you for bringing ur bi flag to niall’s show and being the first one to bring it to his meet & greet. i honestly get so emotional when i think about it bc you got to have that moment with him and you allowed him to have that moment and i just,,,,  everything that happened after that too i’m so fuckign proud of u and love you so much. and i miss seeing oscar show me more of him pls 

@liamau @louisau - you know i was gonna write smth super sentimental for u both, esp bia bc shes my kid, but i literally cannot bc u just killed the mood with that video of pulling ur sister’s bra strap. how rude

@liarbgc - i know i’ve been kind of a ghost this past week or so but it’s mostly bc i’ve been feeling kinda shitty and i hate bringing yall down with me so i’ve been in and out but all of you?? are like sisters to me like genuinely i’m so so glad to have you guys in my life. i know i basically forced my into the chat and i’m not even sure how many of you knew i was making tina add me, but i’m glad i did it bc u all make my day so much better. even if i dont say anything, even if i just read the messages and look at the snaps, you always put a smile on my face. you’re all some of the funniest and smartest ppl i know, and so fucking kind and understanding and loyal and i’d do anything for yall.  

@rainbowsboa @harrysingingstilltheone @iconichalo - i’d say stuff to yall but i can’t bc reasons and i dont wanna spoil. love u 

and everyone else. all my friends that i cant possibly name here but @steviestyles @webeattheodds @niallacoustic @tightropeofhope (i would put u in a gc but im dumb and didnt do our gc :/ sorry) @rainbowharru @onlybird @runninwotah @stillhisone @velvetsharry @velvetslouis @trianglefreckle @fireproofs @babyhoncy @blushiin @lovesuran @itstomlinson @ot4tat @roguecurls @homelouis @hipchub @harrv @sammysstevens and so many more - you all make my days better i’m so so happy to have u all ♡  

[sweet-xoxo-thatcares]

Is it weird that I watch gay porn with straight guys fucking each other and gay transmen getting fucked too?

It's like when I watch a guy with a big, plump white or black ass, with some oil and hair on top of it....

I lowkey start thinking about fucking his ass too?

I lowkey find it strange, but then again I'm pan...

Asses look good on anyone. Even though I would never admit some objectifying shit like that in person.

It's like I immerse my clit as the dick that's getting sucked and fucked on.

Then I cancel out after I cum 🤣😇🥲

Lol like wtfff is wrong with me guys? I mean there are guys who like to get pegged, so I wonder do these women who strap on guys, think about the same thing that I do....

I feel really guilty because I keep saying idk if I'm ready to try dating another bisexual guy or another transman because of me getting heart broken by one.

But I still miss em' despite everything. It's just on and off, I hate you, I miss you....just like our relationship....

It was hot and cold with those 2 toxic mfs.😕

I just wanna have my chance to dominate a guy and get fucked rough and deep. Man or Woman and everyone else under the rainbow too.

I know most pansexuals will say that they don't have a gender preference, but I'm slowly starting to see where my eye keeps getting drawn to the most. And I think it has something to do with the people I messed with already.

I still miss them and maybe I shouldn't overthink it.

But it is disturbing how I keep swiping right on white guys and girls or even mixed chicks that look like Jay either as their nonbinary stage with light brown curly hair Upton, or their pre-trans stage with long curly hair or straight hair. It's the big cat nose, the eyes, the Eyebrows, the glasses, and of course the jawline and the lips, and the strong lip Bridge, all with a soft face, chubby, and the soft white skin and ass.

It's not that many out there that remind me of them, but I've talked to a few smart asses, just like them, that was a pretty close call for me. Cause Jay was pretty. I just want to keep all the good qualities about them, and take out all the bad, the mental trauma, the abusive behavior, and just have a nicer, quiet, less selfish version of Jay who actually smiles and not mean and cranky all the time.

I did match with one who's name was Ryan. And he had the soft round face, light brown curly hair, and the nose, and the lips. I was so freaking close we just clicked right off the bat and had sexted each other on snap. We were so freaking horny and excited. He was really enamored with my boobs in my bikini pic so I sent him those and he kept sending me his luscious pink dick. I haven't had real dick in a longgggg time like not since 2020, it was my ex, and I gave him head.

I still like strap.on too. Don't get me wrong.

But anywho Ryan's Canadian kept saying he wanted to come to America once the border opened back up to take me out to dinner and I said yeaaa I would so be into.fucking you in the bathroom, cause I love public sex. And this was before we started. I made sure to ask are you really coming or is this an online setting thing?

He said no, I really wanna give you this white dick in your mouth.

So I was even more turned on. We kept going snapping pictures. He wanted ass and titty pics. And then he sends me stuff of his dick getting harder and harder which I liked. He said he was 7 in....holy fuck. Wayyyy bigger than my ex Terrell.

But then when I sent ooh I want it on my clit, he stops answering after his last message was oh you want me to rub your clit. And then he goes I came so hard.

He left, yall....while I was still masturbating to this Wigga wtffff?

I even sent a question mark ❓like hellooo selfish ass what about me????

I check back on my phone and the snap I sent was still on delivered and it was 2hrs ago...

I see he posted a story...

I OPEN IT TO SEE HIM POST A VIDEO OF HIS FREAKING CAT JUST POSING ON HIS BED

AND THIS WAS ONE HOUR AFTER I SENT HIM MINE SHIT...

LIKE WOWWWW I HATE BEING PLAYED AND I HATE BEING IGNORED ESPECIALLY WHEN IM BUTTASS NAKED WAITING ON YOU TO TELL ME TO POKE IT OUT FOR DADDY MORE WTFFFFFFFFFFF

Rude ass, inconsiderate bitch.

So you know what, I checked to see when the Canadian border opens back up, it said August 8th.

BITCH THEY ALREADY OPENNN WITH YO LYING ASS!!! WHY EVEN LIE TO SAY YOU COMING???

WE COULD HAVE JUST HAD PHONE SEXXXX

Last message he got from me before I unfriended him on snap right after I saw red flag 1, ignoring me to post a cat video....#2 Canada border actually is open..

I said "Fine, I understand. I'll unadd you."

That's so.fucking selfish, I helped you cum, so help me finish idiot! That's exactly the shit I won't tolerate no more. Waiting on bitches to text me back when it's obvious they don't care, trying to be ms. Nice girl and give him 3 days....nooooooo

I ain't falling for that shit no more. I'm glad I unmatched his ass too right after.

Pissed me the fuck off, I started having flashbacks of when Jay and Terrell did that shit to me, ignoring texts and pushing me away, not giving a fuck about plans we both already agreed to. Blowing me off like I'm the idiot, I'm the sweet child that will always love them no matter how rude, impulsive, and impossibly disrespectful they were.

The 1st time I had phone sex with Jay, Jay cums and then I said what about me? Jay goes "just take a cold shower. I don't care if you cum"

I was so mortified at how cold, rude, selfish and disrespectful Jay was. Jay said the only person they care about Cumming is Ayunna. And this was wayyy earlier on before they actually did start caring if I came or not...but still that's shitty and poor etiquette.

Just like the real shitty version of Jay. That frugal McDooggle used me and lied to me.

He didn't give a fuck just like they didn't. It made me cry a little cause I was really looking forward to some dick with somebody that at least was chubby, white, and soft like Jay. And he had blue light eyes. I still like Jay's sandy brown eyes tho.

It just sucked....and yea you really shouldn't expect respect from an internet hoe like Ryan.

Kiss my ass Ryan, you'll never taste this ass and titties.

These H's are mine I tell you! Fuck yoooooouuuu.

I will admit, there was this girl by the name of KC, she doesn't seem as interested, but we talked on snap after matching on okc. She likes to read Stephen King books. So I asked her what are you reading now, cause I like smart girls like that. She said it's called The Stand. Talking about a virus that infects the world. It was nice to read that 1st chapter and connect with the character, Stu, who dealt with grief from his wife and mom who both had cancer. I started thinking about Grandma alot tho 😔 in not the most happy sense. The scene felt dark like as if more is to come.

I wonder did Stephen King lose somebody to cancer or was he feeling sick himself. It's got 56 chapters and I did say I would try reading it more. Thank God they had the 1st part of the book on Google preview.

I'm the type to dive in when I meet someone new. I like figuring them out. But so far, I noticed she hasn't texted me back with questions and stuff as much so she's really dry and probably still not sure what she wants rn...she said she's just going with the flow but I think it's a sign she's lonely but wants to see what's outside 1st before she leaves the safety of her world.

She works in retail too at a grocery store. So we connected a bit on that too. It's weird when I'm the more talkative one asking all the questions....thats not a good sign. Ppl who are interested in you, ask you stuff they wanna know too. And I did step back to give her chances to step in....so yea imma keep looking on tinder and okc.

[autisticmob]

on a similar not to the other gender stuff i just wanna say how wild it is when you realize youve actually been experiencing gender dysphoria your whole life but like, at the time you didnt realize that it was A Thing to be trans so you attributed it to other stuff

like i vividly remember as a kid in like 1st grade or smth saying “hey mom i kinda wish i could be a boy” and she just said “no you dont” and i figured like. “well i mean ok i CANT just magically turn into a boy anyway so shes right i just wont worry about it.” 

and then like, i hit puberty in fucking 3rd grade and had DD cups by the time i was 10 so like... i had all this angst about having boobs and i just assumed it was because i was the only one who had them at that point. idk why a red flag didnt go up when everyone else caught up to me and i still hated them but yknow compulsory heterosexuality/cis identification is a bitch.

and all through middle school and my first few years of high school i wore really feminine clothes and heavy makeup because i saw other girls wearing those kinds of things and i was like HOLY SHIT THATS PRETTY (newsflash asshole you just fucking like girls) so i would try to emulate that but when the dresses were on ME i was just like oh... yikes... that doesnt look right at all.... so i just thought i was a real ugly girl and just kept trying to find a brand of femininity that felt right but none of them did. 

then i realized i liked girls and i was like ok well im never gonna get a gf if i dont somehow signal tht im an Enormous Lesbian (technically bi but whatever) so i cut off all my hair! and it was cool and i liked it but i was still trying to look very femme even with the pixie cut and it just wasnt working out for me so eventually i just “stopped trying” and like

imagine my fucking shock when suddenly, with no makeup, and my baggy ass depression clothes that hid my curves, and my newly short, masculine haircut, i looked in the mirror and suddenly didnt hate how i looked. like... every bone in my body was telling me like, “this is what it looks like when you give up. girls are not typically found attractive when they look like this.” 

but i fucking DID and i was like whaaaat ok well i guess i just transcended all my insecurities suddenly, thats very convenient so im not gonna question it too much. and i still didnt fucking get it!! like lmao dude how dense do u gotta BE! so then i went to olive garden with my family and for the first time, the waitress looked at me and my dad, and was like “what would you gentlemen like to order?” and all of a sudden im grinning like an idiot. like. everyone assumed i was just laughing at her “mistake” or whatever but i was just. genuinely pleased, and i didnt really know why. i wasnt even gonna “correct her” or anything but obviously my high-ass voice tipped her off that something was Amiss in some way so yknow. that entire incident lasted probably all of 20 seconds.

and i guess from that point on, when i realized that people COULD look at me and think “hey thats a boy if i ever saw one!” i was... kinda disappointed every time that didnt happen? and thats around the time i figured out that maybe my gender wasnt always what i assumed it was 

and im still not 100% sure what my ideal body/label/etc. is but like... its definitely not “cis female” so idk it just makes me kind of emotional realizing that kids are growing up now with the concept of transgender identities being like... a legit topic in the public eye?? like holy shit if i’d had the words to describe what i was feeling back in first grade, before society unloaded all its shit on me and convinced me that my feelings werent a thing that i even COULD have? holy shit! man i wouldve been so much more insistent about it. maybe i wouldve even been able to transition before estrogen-based puberty started wreaking too much havoc on my body and self-image. like if my mom knew then what she knows now about trans stuff? she wouldnt have even fucking SAID that shit to me! she probably wouldve just said “are you sure?” and we couldve had a whole fucking conversation about it instead of me repressing that shit for like a decade.

i know theres still shitty people and shitty parents out there, and not all the attention being given to trans people right now is positive attention. but holy shit i get so fucking happy thinking about all the young kids whose families and peers and teachers and stuff have the tools now to treat them the way they deserve?? like when my sister was 13 she told me she had a friend who was ACTIVELY transitioning already and i was like holy shit! im only 5 years older than her and even then, when i was her age?? i cant even imagine a 12 or 13 year old kid being that fucking brave and that fucking in tune with their own identity... like stuff is bad right now obviously and things are kind of going to shit but theres still little things like that to celebrate and im so glad yall

[whenismuna]

are u like... are you good?

:-) im gonna use this as an excuse to completely overshare and vent even though its all ive been doing to delaney, michelle, emma, and max for the past week (ps i lov yall thank u)

so like this all started last week. so i matched with this girl and we connected immediately and it was really great and we went on a date and i had an amazing time and really thought it was gonna go somewhere, but then the next day she texted me saying she was in an open relationship (cool, whatever not a big deal) and that her boyfriend changed his mind and didnt want her to date other people (which going off of other things she told me, i have opinions on but whatever) so that really sucked and i was bummed for a few days and lowkey pissed but im over it.

so then yesterday (kinda late last night, which is key to the story), i matched with a different girl, and she immediately latched onto me and started saying a was super cute (which lbr i am) and started oversharing (which i get to an extent but the stuff she was telling me you wouldnt normally tell to someone youve only known online-only for literally like an hour. then she just kept saying how bad all of her exes were to her and that shes so glad she found me and that im the first person in a while to make her not feel like a burden, but then if i took longer than like 5 minutes to reply shed be like “sorry for being annoying/being a burden” or like “sorry for double texting” etc. which i did not like how that makes me feel, like when anyone does that i feel like shit tbh. so then i felt like she was lowkey emotionally manipulative and i obviously cant take that mentally so i told her (really calmly) that i wasnt mentally in the right place to give her what she needed and then she went off? like she was like “wow ok well sorry for giving off vibes i didnt know about“ (?????) and i didnt know how to reply because i was talkin to michelle about it and then she replied and was like “dont let that make you leave please stay” or whatever and michelle typed my response calling her out (bless u ily) and being like “tbh thats why. like u do shit like this and i cant take that?” and then she was p much like “wow ok well next time dont blow up on people” and like…????????? i thought it was all pretty calm but that was a serious red flag bc she was all sweet until i didnt wanna talk to her which i do not like so theres that..uh….. yeah

and then i remembered shitty things other people have done to me and just like always being passive aggressive and lowkey talking shit and im just so over it honestly. like i just wanna be able to be happy for once without feeling like someones gonna come around the corner and run me over with the Sadmobile™. like im sick and tired of people being passive aggressive and just like not being upfront about shit. like we get it, youre an Intellectual or whatever the fuck, but no one cares. im too depressed for this shit and i cant even try to go to a doctor for like 3 more weeks to get medicated because our insurance got fucked up!!!!!!!

like i deserve so much better than what i get and whenever god or jesus or whoever the fuck would like to recognize that and give me peace, that would be really nice; soon preferably.

everybody please just leave me the fuck. alone. god damn.