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stil-lindigo · 1 month

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lighthearted.

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i turn 24 today. To celebrate, I made this comic to be a spiritual successor to lead balloon, a comic in which I talked about the darkest period of my life so far.

A lot has changed since my 23rd birthday and this one. My priorities have shifted a lot, in ways that I think are mostly good. But i think the best part about today is that suicide has gone back to being a far away notion. I'm really lucky, and I'm grateful for that.

#yet another largely personal comic that kind of only has real impact to maybe four people #it's crazy what a difference a few months makes #and a trip to the beach that makes you glad you're still alive.#the last page is just me drawing my friends and I as our respective art sonas #credit to my best friend for inventing the designs #i keep copying their shit but its their fault for always having good ideas #ugghhh i love the people in my life so much and im so thankful for them #one of my friends gave me a vintage camera for my birthday #im going to take so many photos i could paper my walls with them #thank you for reading #stillindigo art #stillindigo comics

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explosiongifd · 2 months

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GUESS WHAT?

The last couple of weeks have been NOT so pleasant for your dear Trevor at ExplosionGifd HQ but THINGS HAVE HAPPENED AND WE ARE ENTERING A NEW GOLDEN AGE I CAN PROMISE YOU THAT! A lot of things might change around here and some things might stay the same! I don't know things are moving quick! But stay tuned because I have A LOT planned and I'm excited to enter this new period of peace with all of you 💀❤️

#Public Service Announcement #There has been alot of things going on behind the scenes that might become public soon! Who knows its just Really REALLY STUPID LMFAOOOOOOO #I'd have to make sure everyone else involved would want it public and theres a BUNCH of stuff. Like the guy whos at fault is saying #hes getting cancelled BY A 16 YEAR OLD LOLLLL and also mega popular so thats also scary #Im just glad to have him out of my life i feel way more comfortable being myself now. THANK GOD!

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anistarrae · 7 months

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Thank you for being in the world.

started sobbing when i saw this. i appreciate this very much, thank you so much

#im not sure how to explain it. but i really do appreciate this from the bottom of my heart #i dont often talk to people. i barely am able to form friendships. admittedly its my fault i dont put the effort into it #its a bad habit. i fear building up a friendship only to experience others moving on from the friendship later in the future #but what you said is such a personal thing to say. maybe not to you but to me it takes a lot to say something like that #while we might not know each other. im glad ive impacted your life enough to say that #gamezz.txt #i apologize for the venting. i wasnt sure how to describe it without saying that it really does mean a lot to me #thank you :')

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aibouart · 3 months

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one of those work days you know how it is

(he/they/it)

#my art #sona musings #sona #cyclops #sketch #prince #furry #i was fighting a meltdown all shift #now im at home and angry my room is a mess even tho that's my fault #but will i clean it?? time will tell #so glad i can rest tho omg

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love-3-crimes · 1 year

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was stressed during finals last week and made these to cope

#chonny jash #i probably should have been studying instead but this felt more important at the time #so glad im on break now woooo #i was giggling to myself at 3 am while making these so the stress was my own fault #angelo tag

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tangledinink · 1 year

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sweating. gotdamn y'all have a lot of questions about swanatello the silly ballerina.

#this is my fault i did this to myself #also dont get me wrong #:)#i love the questons #but im also like #oh this is the one #of all the AUs and things ive made #THIS is the one that gets this kind of reaction--#the PUN BALLERINA BOY #GOSH #anYWAY im going out for the evening w my roomie so i will! answer asks later #i prommy u w u #hes existed for like. two days. and ive gotten dozens of asks abt him #i am glad... you like him :)#i like him too

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yuckydraws · 9 months

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Healing & Growth

(gif made by my friend @robanilla-arts is below - slight warning for flashing! Thanks again, Rob!)

#if you feel like reading it - I'm gonna ramble in the tags.#Don't really feel like having it attached to the post for forever... cause what if i just wanna reblog some fairysona art??#anyways #this year sucked a lot. in a lot of ways. but im grateful for it.#healing is stupidly hard and annoyingly enough? not linear in the slightest. Yet infuriatingly - it is worth it.#I am far from done with healing. I've barely scratched the surface.#but im learning and connecting with myself along the way.#The biggest step I've taken this year is working on my people pleasing ways. it's a bad habit birthed from a lot of different traumas.#but it no longer rules my life.#I am not passive anymore - and surprise! that doesn't make me a horrible or evil person.#my kindness is no longer a weakness. its still a part of me and always will be. i won't let go of it.#but it is no longer to a fault #there are people undeserving of my kindness... i realize that now. I know what i will and will not put up with in every kind of relationshi #im still learning and exploring - and i've said a lot of goodbyes this year. I'm sure i will say more.#but that's okay.#some relationships are forever - some serve you for a while and teach you a lesson when they end.#and some relationships stick around and don't *have* to have a deeper connection #and that's also okay.#I didn't think I'd make it through this year in all honesty. I was very close to ending it all on multiple occasions.#But. for what it's worth - as of now im glad im here.#i will continue to struggle and have my hard times. im not naive enough to think depression just goes away.#but im okay for now and im moving forward.#there will be pauses and abrupt stops and likely some good ol' rotting involved. but when i can - ill be moving forward.#i will not speak a word of 2024 because no matter what it will have it's ups and downs.#but i will continue to keep working on myself. and that's all anyone can do in this weird life.#if you made it through all of that... uhhhh wow you got a crush on me or smth? /j/j/j/j #but fr - if you read this far... thank you. i hope you're faring well and that you have a happy celebration tonight.#sleep well and dream well when it comes to you #yucky draws #my art

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hollypies · 1 year

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I lied. Death time

#art #help how do i anatomy #have a nice death #have a nice death art #yeahh i dunno. just felt like drawing himb.#been playing the game a bit. i got addicted so ive had to put it down for now. or at least limit my hours.#the have a nice death discord is super cool tho. specially if you need help with sometjing #useful because its got a lot smaller fanbase than others so i go to them if i need help with something #uhm. ive just been in a bit of a . decline lately? dunno what it is lol. been burnt out #ill be fine dw ! it happens sometimes. judt need to figure out whats bothering me cuz even im not sure #probably just me feeling obligated to draw only like. three things for my art blog instead of. yknow. doing what i want #which is completely my fault but i know people dont like my other art ad much as hk or sky. it. bums me out #which again!! is on me! im so glad people like that art i! i just need to get out of the mindset. its hard though #i guess posting this is breaking the cycle a bit huh #hehe

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monards · 3 months

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everytime i find out someone has assumed i had a crush on them because i treat them with (normal) platonic affection i die a little inside. i fear people have unnormalized just being decent and kind a little *too* much

#it is a tiny bit worse when they take things i did to be nice or make them feel better in that way. please!!#i just want!! to make you feel a bit better about yourself !!!! not that !!!! stop !!!! no!!!!!!!!!!! shoo !!! away !!!!!!!!!!!#-> in people's defense. i dont really have those same shames when it comes to assuring your friends or family you love them.#so that probably makes things feel different.#which i still think is odd!!! love is universal!!!!#-> also. most romantic songs ive listened to dont end up interpreted romantically in my little head LMFAHFSHOO #so that could also be it #(crepe chronic addiction to telling people songs remind her of them backfires on her)#;; sorry guys! i have a joyfriend that i love more than the world! please have those thoughts go away! pretty please! ew !#LMADSGHDOASO #-> ALSO !!!!!!!! this was not meant negatively!!!!!!!!!!!! it just makes me uncomfortable when people assume. its not their fault entirely #just feels abit icky. and odd. for people to have assumptions like that without any basis #i have been in love a total of two times in my life. ido not think im the slightest bit in *LOVE* you when i speak to you twice a week #-> slightly offtopic im glad i dont have to worrya bout confessions anymore with the fact i make my sexuality & status fairly clear #id kill myself if another man talked to me like that #i have an extreme curse.#and making sure i have the lesbian flag on any of my belongings has largely saved me #(for the most part)#crepe rambles #((none of this applies to mylovely joyfriend. i loveyou very much and your interpretations are always perfect. hi #you can assume all you want because you know me and are not weird in any capacity about me. 💜 muchappprecation

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faaun · 9 months

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it's just not going to work it feels bad but it has to happen but breakups that happen when nothing in particular has gone wrong and it's just an issue of like...paths in life/compatibility etc etc, where otherwise you actually rly do love the person, are so hard !! like i care for u i still want to be ur friend it just wont work in a romantic way !!

#its 1yr+ relationship too i care abt her so much #we just both deserve to feel fulfilled and i dont currently feel that way its not rly her fault i think we were just meant 2 be friends #and not lovers but somehow that makes it worse ?? like im glad im not on bad terms w her ofc i love her a lot #but it makes it harder to get over yk #....i hope we can still be friends idk idk !!#she has been my best friend for a while #breakup happening in 1 week from now. i keep delaying this decision but it rly rly has to be done #we r just...fundementally missmatched and we both need to be w ppl who we can grow with #i think we could grow together if we were just friends but aughh its sl ahrd ik being friends after a breakup rarely ever works out #my friends say its like a 50/50 chance if u break up on good terms #anyway being the person doint the breaking up is hard !!!#also i have been doing kind of super badly recently and i think i need some time to figure stuff out w my own mental health too

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stormyoceans · 1 month

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Have you seen GAP the series?? Personally I thought it was trash. So bad, but I heard they changed the script so many times so it was bound to happen. I didn’t watch Marvellous Dream but everyone says it was bad too. Now Loyal Pin is starting and I don’t want to give that a chance either. What the heck, Idol Factory? I’m not saying they’re masterpieces but their BLs are good. Why can’t they make good GLs?

i have indeed watched GAP but i have to admit that it’s hard for me to be as objective about this show as i usually try to be with all the media i consume, because while part of me KNOWS it’s not the best series, im also very fond of it for what it represented as the first fully fledged GL we’ve ever gotten

im also aware i tend to be more forgiving towards GLs compared to BLs, mostly because BL shows have been around for years and were allowed to sometimes be pretty bad as they experimented and tried things out, while as it often happens with women i feel like a lot of people expected GLs to be nothing short than perfect from the get go and refuse to allow even the smallest misstep

all this being said, my marvellous dream is you was definitely (and unfortunately) not a good show (albeit i did weirdly enjoy some parts of it), and if you already didn’t like GAP you for sure wouldn’t like mmdiy either, because sadly i think this series has all the flaws GAP had but magnified 10 times: the main pairing keeps running around in circle about the same misunderstandings over and over again, the miscommunication goes through the roof, the relationship is very unbalanced, there are way too many characters who are there just for the drama and aren’t given enough space or depth (people saying we only got crumbs for chainpun in we are, well, let me tell you….. it can be worse ;;;;;;;), the pacing is a mess, and im sure im forgetting something else too. there could have been one saving grace in my marvellous dream is you (the fantasy element), but even that was neither explored nor narratively used at all

what i think it’s interesting is that both series were adapted by novels from the same author, so i do wonder which of those issues are due to the original material and which ones are due to idolfactory itself, because while an adaptation can definitely try to fix certain things, it also depends on how much artistic license they can actually take (this is why im very curious to see how GMMTV is gonna adapt pluto and us, since they’re also stories from that author)

as for the loyal pin, i haven’t been able to start it yet (petition to get an extra day in the week just to watch my shows), however im really looking forward to finally be able to, because this time the original novel is from a different author, so im hoping it won’t have the same issues when it comes to the plot and the characters

so yeah, i do think that there are some stylistic choices that are very typical of idolfactory that they should probably revisit (for example, having a big cast and pretty long episodes), but when it comes to GL specifically maybe they just didn’t pick the best material (or the right one for them as a company), so i hope the loyal pin is gonna be their turning point and that future projects will get better and better!!!!!

#i personally think idolfactory is great when it comes to chemistry and intimacy scenes #(if there's one thing you can't fault in mmdiy is that those girls sure do be kissing)#however their pacing is a very big issues imho #i have no problem with episodes that are more than an hour long but SHOULD they be more than an hour long????? eh #but yeah im honestly glad for the gl content but i hope that by moving on from chao planoy's novels maybe they won't have as many issues #sorry my brain is fried does any of this make sense ;;;;;;;;#gap the series #my marvellous dream is you #m: ask

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montanamp3 · 3 months

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coming down with terminal post-fic disease (refreshing ao3 inbox page every five minutes) (i need to be put down like a dog)

#i get really intense about comments on these fics because in my mind i stress and fret and cry about word choice for months on end #for something that five people will read (at best) so i feel somehow like i'm entitled to like instant validation from these five or so ppl #and even then no matter how nice my friends are about the fic i've built up their response for so long in my head that whatever #they do say feels a little bit like a letdown #which. to be clear. is totally not their fault HAHA i'm so glad that people even read and/or like these things at all #im just neurotic. and insane #girl help im tying up my worth as a person to the quality of my writing again #girl help im refreshing my ao3 inbox agaib #girl help someone PUT ME OUT OF MY MISERY 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭

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rosekasa · 6 months

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there's something about art for ur fics....

#literally makes me feel like i got put in a blender like a frappuccino #GOD #im very glad i made a tag for it now #i know there's more but it's my fault for not organising properly......#♡alizeh talks♡

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shinzoku · 28 days

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Thinking about how in 2019 I saw a doctor because I couldn't breathe and they told me I was fat. So I started trying to work on it but after camping I went to urgent care because I quite literally couldn't breathe. Of course I made an appointment with the doctor and they kept telling me I'm fat so I went to an asthma specialist later and had to be put on steroid inhalers for almost a year because my lungs were so shredded and destroyed. Then in 2021 I saw the doctor because my ear was clogged and they did the water tube treatment thing but she had looked at me with such disgust and disdain while doing it I thought I did something wrong. Now my ear doctor that I had to seek out specially because they said my ear problems are because I'm fat(?) and had allergies (and then they tried to sell me an mlm allergy cure all) said that the bad ear cleaning possibly led to a 3 year long raging ear infection I thought was allergies this whole time. And now I might have permanent hearing loss in my ear.

Needless to say I stopped going there ages ago but man... they were pretty alright up until about 2020.

#reemblings #its my fault for not getting it checked out by someone else sooner #but last year my life quite literally fell apart and i was regularly -500 in the bank #so it wasn't feasible #im just glad the ent didnt need a referral because i wasnt gonna be able to get one otherwise #and people wonder why i have doctor anxiety when i go in get seen for ten minutes and get told im fat and shuffled out #to pay 110$ in copay

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termagax · 1 year

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1F for the poly art meme!