#im glad she did bring it up bc ive wanted to renegotiate physical boundaries for so long but im just. incapable of initiating that talk | Explore Tumblr posts and blogs

phagodyke · 1 year ago

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roommate throwing me the curveball of "I get the feeling ur a physically affectionate person and its ok if u want to cuddle sometimes" then immediately hitting me with a SECOND curveball of "I also kind of like biting people. so if u ever want that too-"

#apropos of NOTHING?????#im trying to remember if ive made any particularly touch deprived comments lately that wouldve prompted her bringing this up #bc normally w the way she thinks abt things i can trace it back to smth specific. its kind of endearing actually #but i dont rember.. maybe its been on her mind a while. also its not like my behaviour is particularly subtle so maybe its that #im the walking talking epitome of that htn quote thats like you were so afraid anyone might touch you you had always been afraid of-#anyone touching you and had not known your longing flinch was so obvious to those who tried it like okay let me just KILL MYSELF!!!!!#im glad she did bring it up bc ive wanted to renegotiate physical boundaries for so long but im just. incapable of initiating that talk #bc its smth that feels so loaded to me bc touch is so complicated but i AM. a physically affectionate person at heart so!!!!!!#its actually been kind of one of my new years resolutions to be a little more open and try to erode some unnecessary boundaries #i think the latter has gotta stay off the table tho bc girl. im good with hugging but im incapable of being normal abt biting #if u start biting me i am going to start thinking thoughts u def do not want me having abt u so......#ANYWAY. man im so tired early bedtime tonight i think..#.diaries

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