#im glad it's this and not hardcore drugs. or worse. video games.

[sciderman]

do you ever get tired of spideypool? (i dont mean this in a bad way btw)

god i am SO tired of spideypool all the time. it's a constant i love her... i hate her.. i love her... i hate her... sort of a thing

at one point i got so tired of spideypool i left for four years (it was the mcu's fault) - but i kind of always come back somehow...

i think there's just something about these guys. i just - i really like writing them. i just really, really like them. i wish everyone loved them like i do. they're so neat. i want everyone to know about them. i want to hold them in my hands and share them with the whole class. i really, really like them. i want people to see how complicated and cool they are. like they're shiny pebbles i found on the shore and everyone has to see them. look at all the funny little details. there's a funny little pattern on this one. look. look. look look look look!!!

i don't think i've ever had a hyperfixation quite so lasting that has sunk it's hooks so deeply in my brain like spider-man and deadpool. and i hate that it's them. and sometimes i beat myself up about it, that this is the thing that my brain is excited about more than anything but - i'm kind of lucky that i've found that. i've found the thing that makes me excited, and that i want to create for.

but it gets a bit personal, sometimes.

god's sick joke on sci: bottomless motivation. but for spider-man and deadpool exclusively. you can't even figure out a way to make money off of this, sci. you're doomed.

anyway please donate to my ko-fi to fund my spideypool addiction