#im glad i now only see my family in the weekends since i started uni

[lucyshypemaster]

hi uh I'm gonna rant a little so skip if you want

[maria-akira]

how you meet the ahs boys + their reaction while you're having a class - PART 1

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hey yall im back again 🧍🏻‍♀️ is this what you call a headcanon?? idk BAHAHSHHA. anyways i've had this idea in my mind for a while and i wanted to share it to yall, so i hope you guys like it 😌

these also have a little back story on how you guys meet !!

also, special mention to @tatestripedsweater for helping me give ideas with jimmy's part !! thank you so much mwah 🥺❤

warnings: none! just pure fluff <3

please excuse any errors !

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~♡ TATE LANGDON:

before the pandemic, you and your family have moved into the murder house.

the house gave your family a very odd vibe, but nonetheless all of you had to bear with it because it was sold for a cheap price.

but when the pandemic arrived the country, you were stuck at home 24/7. thus, classes were online.

you met tate because of your father. tate was one of his patients and the both of you grew close.

"Y/N, what are you doing?"

tate would randomly barge in your room while having a class and you would jump out of shock.

"Jesus, Tate. Stop scaring me like that!"

tate would giggle and lay on your bed, observing the lesson that the teacher rambled about.

while you're writing notes, he would stand up and take a chair from some part of your room and sit beside you.

knowing that tate is clingy, you would warn him not to bug you and behave while you listened in class.

of course, he doesn't listen and he would place his head on your shoulder and eventually would cuddle you.

"Taaate, please let me focus."

luckily, you always keep your camera off.

"Mmm, no. I enjoy bugging you."

~♡ KIT WALKER:

one time, you were driving to school on your own and you were almost running out of gas.

luckily, you saw a gas station nearby and decided to get a fill before heading to school. and there, you met kit.

when you first laid your eyes on kit, you thought that he was the prettiest man ever. you couldn't let this chance slip, thus, you exchanged numbers with him.

you talked all day and night, the both of you were so inlove with each other and you finally decided to introduce him to your parents.

your parents loved him and you were so, so happy.

but when the pandemic came, it affected your relationship with kit.

since all schools and unis were closed down, everything went online.

when kit stayed over, he couldn't spend a lot of time with you because you had to attend classes early in the morning, till afternoon.

"Can you stay in bed with me for a little bit, darling?"

unfortunately, you woke up late that day and you missed 10 minutes of your first class. and just like that, you were stuck to your desk until afternoon.

"Kit baby, I'm sorry. I'm late for my first class. Maybe later, okay?"

as much as kit hated this whole online class thing, he would always find a way to cheer you up.

thus, he would cook you breakfast and bring it over to your room.

"C'mere, I'll feed you while you listen and write down notes."

~♡ KYLE SPENCER (PRE DEATH AND POST DEATH) :

PRE DEATH:

madison, your friend, had bugged you all week to go with her to this college frat party near your house.

you weren't the party type. you loved staying at home, watching netflix or reading some sort of fan fiction on wattpad.

but you hated being single. so, this was your chance to actually get a boyfriend.

when you arrived at the party, you immediately hated it. everything was so loud and everyone was drinking, it was definitely a new sight for you.

you were sitting on a couch that was in the balcony, with a red cup that was filled with punch. you loved being away from the commotion.

this is where you met kyle, it was love at first sight. the both of you had so much in common and you thought that he was the man of your dreams.

you exchanged snapchats and from there, you were partners-in-crime.

you and kyle had stopped going to parties ever since the pandemic arrived, which means you got to see each other less.

since the both of you were students, both of your classes went online.

one time, kyle had no classes for a day and he decided to surprise you.

that day, you were having an online presentation. both your camera and microphone were on.

"Rene Descartes was the Father of Modern Philosophy—"

as you were presenting the slide show, you were cut off by kyle's presence infront of your desk.

"I brought you food, baby!"

you would shush him and suddenly turn off your mic.

"I'm so sorry, Miss. My boyfriend arrived and I—"

kyle would go beside you and kiss you on your cheek, your classmates and teacher cooing over it.

"Miss, you better give my girlfriend a good grade."

POST DEATH:

*pretend that he survived the bus accident and had a coma, because we arent involving witchcraft here*

kyle and his fraternity were on a bus that was going to some college event at school.

on the way there, you guys snapped each other and his friends would talk to you as well.

unfortunately, they got in an accident and the bus was flipped over.

a few students, including kyle, survived the accident.

when you heard this news, you cried your heart out and you didnt talk to anyone in your family.

you and your family visited the hospital and you rushed to kyle's room, it broke your heart to see tubes in him, with machines that beeped like there was no tomorrow.

when the doctor said that kyle was in a coma, your heart sank in the deepest part of your body.

this made you stay 24/7 with him until he was discharged.

when he was discharged from the hospital, he was not his usual self. the bubbly, energetic kyle was gone. instead, he was so confused with everything.

kyle's mom made him stay with you until he got his memory back, and you were more than glad to help.

but this took a toll on your studies because your classes were online due to a pandemic.

everyday in class, you would let kyle sit beside you and let him observe what you were doing.

"We're in Science class, Kyle. You were really good in Science, you helped me alot with my homeworks."

most of the time, you would help kyle develop his speech and his writing. but it was difficult for you.

"S-Sci... S-Sci-en.. ce?"

"Yes, Kyle! Good job, now one more time."

~♡ JIMMY DARLING:

ever since you were a kid, you loved going to carnivals, your parents would always bring you there every weekend.

there were carnivals almost everywhere, and your family brought you to all of them.

to you, each carnival was unique. the clowns and magicians in each carnival had different tricks up their sleeve.

but as you grew up, these carnivals slowly went out of business. except for one, which was elsa's cabinet of curiosities.

you decided to visit it one day just for a trip down memory lane, you never really had expectations for this place.

when you arrived there, there were a few people that were seated.

the show started and it instantly made you smile, they reminded you of your younger days. oh how you wished to be a child again.

you watched through a few acts, and the last act was a man named jimmy darling

when he came on stage, you locked eyes with him. there was something about him that really struck you.

after the performance ended, jimmy ran over to you and got your number. from there, you always talked and you would visit him regularly.

the regular visits stopped when the pandemic struck the country, forcing entertainment establishments, schools and unis to close down.

for the mean time, all your classes went online. you told jimmy that he could stay with you until things went back to normal.

on an early tuesday morning, you were in english class. jimmy was with your parents preparing breakfast, and you were falling asleep while your teacher discussed about the odyssey.

unlike tate, jimmy would always knock on your door. as his mom always taught, never enter anyone's room without knocking.

jimmy would giggle at your sleeping sight, your head lowered and your hair messed up.

"Hey, sweetheart, wake up! You're in class."

jimmy's timing was perfect. as he woke you up, you were called by the teacher.

"Miss Y/N, Do you think Odysseus was loyal to his wife?"

obviously, you panicked. but jimmy was there to save you. since jimmy was fond of reading, he finished the book and he whispered the answer to you before you could turn on your mic.

"No, Ma'am. Odysseus had an affair with Calypso and Circe."

once you got your teacher's approval, you turned off your microphone and let out a sigh of relief.

"You're lucky that I'm here to help you."

jimmy would joke and you would jump up to him, tackling him into a hug.

"I'm always lucky to have you, baby."

~♡ DANDY MOTT

at a young age, you were exposed to different types of fabrics. denim, silk, corduroy, neoprene. they name it, you've probably seen it.

your mother worked as a fashion designer. she managed to open a shop in the city and it was a great success for you and your family.

your mother has styled famous models. because of this, the shop was promoted and broadcasted all over the country. one day when you came from school, you saw a long line outside the shop.

that day, the staff count was low. there were only 5 employees instead of 10. you didn't exactly know why, so you decided to help.

after what felt like several hours, the long line finally dissolved into 2 customers, which was a mother and her son. they looked through the shop and the mother instantly loved everything.

her son, on the other hand, was trying on this lilac tux that your mother made.

you assisted her son and when you locked eyes, the both of you smiled. you entertained him throughout his shopping spree and the both of you never broke eye contact.

this was how you met dandy. he made the first move by getting your number, and of course you gave it back.

from there, the both of you talked day and night, even when you were in school.

since dandy's mother, gloria, loved your mother's shop so much, she would invite you and your mother regularly to her mansion.

gloria and your mother got along very well, and it was like gloria was your second mother.

so when your mother went to paris for a fashion show, she let you stay in gloria's mansion until she came back.

but to your dismay, your mother was not able to come back due to a pandemic that was all over the world. flights, establishments, and schools closed down.

of course you were sad, but you didn't worry so much because gloria treated you like her real daughter.

classes were online and you were forced to attend them everyday in the shared room you had with dandy.

since you had to get ready for class early in the morning, you would quietly get out of bed because dandy was sometimes a light sleeper.

it was around 8am and you were in math class. in your school, cameras were required to be turned on at all times. you thought this was a shit rule, but you had no choice to comply.

you were drawing some circles with a compass for an example that was being discussed by your teacher, when all of a sudden dandy was beside you.

"Dandy, sweetie, what are you doing up so early? Go back to sleep.."

dandy would pout at the lack of attention that you were giving him. since he loved holding your hand, you let him hold your other hand that you didn't use for writing.

"You're doing Math instead of cuddling with me!"

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i'm actually super proud of this omg !! i hope yall enjoyed reading this as much as I enjoyed writing it 🥺❤

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[selfcareparker]

WHY CANT I KEEP EVERYTHING IN ONE POST FFS, (on procrastination) i spent about half an hour scrolling reels on instagram that i didn’t even like.. like have you done that? like maybe the next will be better lmao

IM SO GLAD YOU GOT YOUR LAPTOP FIXED!!! hopefully that makes the zoom-uni better? how is uni going btw?

also i don’t remember how long you were gone for jshsjgsjsj but i checked a lot 😭 i feel like we have to catch up now, like you’re a friend i haven’t seen in a long time and i forgot to respond to the last text you sent me and now it’s like WAIT WHATS GOING ON WITH YOU lmaoo

i love healthy mom-daughter relationships😌 like me and my mom are best friends and everyone says it’s weird and unhealthy but it’s not?? and i love that you and your mom can talk about the neighbors above you HAHAH

but ily 😭😭 i know i keep saying that but i’m so glad you’re back bc i missed you <333 i’m gonna reread your response bc i swear i’ve read it i just need to refresh myself hdshsjs

- lovely anon 💘

Wait omg when did you send this? I only just saw it 😭

I’m good sksjsjsj not much to talk about. I’m just doing uni stuff and most of my lectures (esp linguistics— which is very surprising) are really really fun. I submitted my first ever assignment last night 👉🏼👈🏼 but it wasn’t that hard so I definitely think/hope I’ll get a good grade/mark. (🤞🏼)

And okay I really do not want to complain about having too much free time... but I have too much time on my hands omg

I thought I’d be busy 24/7 once uni started, and one of the things that was giving me the most anxiety and depression in the last year was not having anything to do. But now I only have like one lecture a day and not really a lot of homework (again I don’t want to complain, I don’t need more homework💀 but yeah) or assignments and I don’t have any lectures on Friday. So I always have a 3 day weekend which sounds amazing in theory but honestly I’ve just been sitting around, not knowing what to do and feeling useless for those 3 days (Fri-Sun) every week.

I might get my vaccine (was about to spell that ‘vaxine’ 🤠) soon so maybe I can do more and meet more people but I’m not really that social and I’d be doing something once a week max. so I don’t think much will change sksjsh

I feel really bad about complaining about how little work I have to do like obviously I’m grateful that I’m not super busy all the time but... idk more free time means more time to overthink lol

One good thing is that I might have my driver’s license soon? I mean I’m quite good at driving but there are so many tiny mistakes that you could make that automatically mean you fail, even though everyone else makes those mistakes daily (they’re not really mistakes but you know, it’s just not what you’re supposed to do but nothing happens if you do it anyway irl, but in the test they’re just like: okay you can stop now cause you’ve failed 🙂). Idk how to explain it and i can’t think of any examples burneks

And another very very good thing is that (if and when I get my vaccines) my mum/mom(lmao) and I might be able to go to England and see our family! We haven’t seen them since 2019 and both her and I are really close to my grandad and all the other relatives in England really so that would be cool!!!!!!!

Omg I hate people who say that being friends with your parents is unhealthy? No. Not being friends with your parents is unhealthy lmao. (By friends I just mean being close with them obviously lol)

I love you moooore and (again) I missed you 💘💘💘 what’s going on in your life? Do you have anything planned for when school ends? 🥰

I feel like this was a really bad reply but idk why lol

[becomewings]

Archived Network Event

2020 Secret Bunny Exchange

hai lovely! Im sparkle and I’m going to be your secret bunny. I hope you’re having a good day or night. 🥰 -sparkle ✨💫

Hello Sparkle dear! Thank you for being my secret bunny. I hope you are having a good day/night too and enjoying this wonderful comeback.

I’m enjoying it too! It’s such a good comeback, and I honestly love it. This is like my second comeback with them. -sparkle 💫✨

This is my first comeback, eek! I was not at all prepared for how much I would be waiting on the edge of my seat, but it's been really exciting!

Yes! It's such a good comeback honestly. When did you first get into BTS? What drew you to them? I'm sorry I'm asking for many questions. Lol. -sparkle 💫✨

It's okay, ask away! ^^ I stumbled across BTS by accident...which may indicate just how much I live under a cultural rock. I actually don't usually listen to much pop music. I'm a classically trained composer and video game soundtracks and moody indie/rock are more my jam, but last year I heard the YouTube ad that uses part of DNA and it intrigued me. I didn't know which song it was so I ended up listening through quite a bit before finding it...and fell absolutely in love along the way! So I have a soft spot in my heart for DNA. How about you, Sparkle? What got you into BTS?

So first, I hope you're having a too day/night! It's been a very long and busy one for me. I'm so glad to be off. Alsooo, I've been into Kpop for around 10 years now, so I've always enjoyed and I have a soft spot for 2nd gen kpop groups. When BTS started to get popular I didn't like them at first. But I saw Dope after the FBE channel reacted to them and I'm like okay they seem interesting around 2018. Lol. And I went down the hole, and have been stuck since. Lol. They're amazing. -sparkle 💫✨

Thank you Sparkle, hope you enjoy your evening off! Mine was busy too (we’re prepping for a move, eep) but at least it was productive. Wow, you’ve been into Kpop for a long time! Dope is really catchy (and I love that honky sax haha), I’m not surprised it got you interested and then hooked. :) Do you have a favorite era? Mine is probablyyy Wings, but I love most of Love Yourself too, and HYYH is so wonderfully nostalgic even if I wasn’t a fan then... and I’m a big fan of this new era too

Moving sucks! I'm going to be moving in the next year or so, and I"m not read for it. And yes! I've been into it for so long. But HYYH is one of my favorites as well. I think mine may be LY because that was the era that I started stanning them. I forget which one, but it's the one with idol as their title song. Wings is super amazing, and one of those that I'll always listen to. MOTS is just GOD TIER. Lol. I love it. -sparkle 💫✨

Haha MoTS being god tier is accurate xD Sounds like your move is a little ways off, but I wish you the best of luck when it happens! Ours is on a fairly tight deadline so I really have to hustle this weekend with house preparations (we still need to sell ours). I hope you have a lovely weekend, dear Sparkle! 💫

It is a little ways off, but moving just sucks in general. The packing and unpacking and then trying to get everything ready. Especially in your case. But I hope everything works out for you. And I hope you have a beautiful weekend too. -sparkle 💫✨

Thank you, Sparkle! We made a lot of progress today so I feel a bit better (and extremely tired). When the time comes, I hope you have the opportunity to prepare ahead for your move so it doesn't stress you too much. :) Have a nice start to your week! ✨

Heyyy! It's me sparkle! It's been alright so far, let's how it stays that way. And I'm glad you've made more progress on your move! Hopefully your Monday was good. -sparkle 💫✨

Thank you, Sparkle! There's so much going on in the world right now, close to home and far away... I am trying to stay calm and positive, with varying degrees of success. Please take care of yourself! (And that goes to everyone... I know it is difficult because we all have our own obligations to school, work, family, etc., but please try to prioritize your health and stay safe 💜)

Yes! I hope you’re staying safe. I don’t know what area of the world you live in and I know the virus is hitting others harder than most. We have 8 reported cases here. And it’s a scary to me. I hope you are staying safe. I just said that twice. Lol. Happy Thursday! -sparkle ✨💫

Thank you, you too! I live in the US (California, to be somewhat specific) and so far there have been two confirmed cases in my county. I'm grateful the university I work at is (finally) taking precautionary measures by banning large gatherings and moving classes temporarily online, and that I can continue working unless there is a full campus closure... Trying not to be too anxious about things that are simply out of my control and hoping that things gradually work out and improve. I'm also grateful for the community here, even if I don't know anyone personally, it is nice to come online and see people being reassuring and encouraging to each other from all across the globe.

Music and BTS are a good distraction when needed... Now that their promotional period is done, do you have a favorite moment?

I'll repeat you too, please stay safe dear, you and everyone who happens to read this 💜

I truly wish that my job would take some measures, and they have yet. I work with the general public a lot as a secretary. So it's like seriously having me on edge. I know the schools year have temporally closed down and moving things to online since it was spring break here. As well as the public schools closing for a month. Honestly, I'm not sure if I have a favorite moment honestly. Lol. They were all good moments, but I did quite enjoy watching all the ON performances. What about you?

I truly hope your employer catches on soon and makes accommodations so that you can practice some social distancing and have a safe work environment. We were just informed today that we have to work from home two days next week, on rotation, to keep our department staffed but also reduce the number of people on the floor -- for next week only so far, but I won’t be surprised if it continues past that. I can’t fulfill all of my responsibilities from home, so I’m grateful that they are allowing us to complete online trainings and such in the meantime. I am also so glad it’s Friday. What a week it’s been.

Ahh, I love ON! As a former member of drumline and marching band, I have such a fondness for the drum corps elements they incorporated into the music and background choreography. I was excited for the Official MV version too, so beautiful and thought-provoking! I also looove Black Swan (JIMIN’S DANCING EEK). I haven’t been as excited about something in a long time as when I stayed up late to catch their first performance on James Corden. So while I’ve enjoyed all of the comeback (especially as it’s my first!), that was particularly memorable for me. The surprise MV drop was also lovely 🦢🖤

Sorry, I am really rambly tonight. Please take care and have a good weekend! Hope you can get lots of rest! 💗

It’s been a long couple days! Sorry I haven’t gotten back with you! I’ve been stressed about everything going on, and I do hope that they catch on soon too. I was very excited for this comeback and the art in their videos has been beautiful. Black Swan and Jimin dance break? Quality content honestly. Yes! The surprise MV was great. I prefer this version of Black Swan over the other, but both are good. I hope you had a good weekend! -sparkle 💫✨

Hi again Sparkle, thank you for checking in on me! Please don't apologize for messaging delays, there's no need! We all signed up for this event long before any of this started, so I'm grateful you can spare a little time to chat with me. 💜 I'm working from home for at least the next 3 weeks because my uni is now fully closed... But I'm very grateful I have that opportunity. (As much as sometimes I would just like to go to sleep and wake up when this is all over, hah!)

Please continue to take care of yourself! Hope you find some comfort in music or other personal hobbies!

How are you doing? Last week was so stressful for me. So I am quite happy to be working from home this week. I hope you are staying healthy and happy through all of this! How was your week last week? I hope your weekend was alright? I had a pretty decent one me and a couple close friends had game night, and that was the highlight of my weekend. -sparkle 💫✨

I missed hearing from you, Sparkle! (But totally understand, the world is upside down right now.) I’m sorry you had a stressful week and I hope this one is better for you as you transition to working from home. My days have just fluctuated between quiet/boring and a little stressful (mostly re: house stuff, but that’s out of my control at this point), but I suppose I’m glad it hasn’t been worse than that.

Ooh what are your favorite games?? I’ve been trying to keep up creative side work between writing and blog content, but… I might purchase Animal Crossing soon hehe. Do you have any other hobbies to help distract you from stress/everything that’s going on? Take care dear! 💗

I know! I let time get away from me honestly! I hadn't been meaning too. I miss talking to you! I love all kind of games. I'm not particularly picky, but i do like that Game of LIfe. I've had just about ever version they've made. We played this one called Blockbuster in reference to movies and it was fun because if you know a lot of movies it's somewhat easy but you have to act out some of hte titles. Lol. Animal crossing seems like fun, everyone talks about it. Lol. -sparkle 💫✨ 1/2

I’ve never played it before. I’ve been thinking of getting an Nintendo Switch, but I don’t know how often I would play it. I know that game comes on there. But I heard it’s also an app? I’m not entirely sure. Lol. Also, I’m planning on making you a gif set for the secret bunny exchange! I know you said you love Jimin (my bias wrecker and sweet baby), Kookie, and Tae. And you were right, it’s hard to pick just ONE. Is there any particular one you want to see in a gif set? -sparkle 💫✨ 2/2

Receiving messages from you makes me happy! ^^ I know life is strange right now though so completely understand if you don’t have time. I’ll be patiently waiting!

So you like tabletop games? Sounds fun! I gravitate toward video games more personally, but haven’t had too much time lately to play. There are definitely fun ones to try if you ever get a Switch! There’s Breath of the Wild of course, which I admit I am still holding off on finishing because I don’t want it to be over LOL, some Mario & friends party games if that’s your jam, as well as some really beautiful indie games (Gris for example!). ANYWAY I won’t ramble about that anymore haha. I’m not sure what the app is, if you were referring to Animal Crossing–might be a companion to the game? I saw a tweet referring to using an app for quicker messaging in AC lol, but I haven’t played the game myself yet. 

Aw thank you so much for asking about the gift (and for making it in the future)!! Oh dear you want ME to pick one? If I’m honest, I think Jimin and Tae light up my heart the absolute most (any vmin content gives me life but totally understand if that’s not your thing) but… please don’t ask me to… choose between them HAHA. How about you go with whoever would give you the most joy to gif right now?? I will truly be happy to receive any gift from you, regardless of who is featured. :’)) thank you dear!! 

(Edit: btw who is your bias??)

I love tabletop games, and I play a lot of video games too. So don't get me wrong, I am huge into video games, but I don't play them as often. my boyfriend uses his PS4 all the time. I'm still trying to get through SpiderMan, but that's also because I don't wanna end it. I'm almost finished though. And yes! It's so hard to choose just one honestly, so I get your dilemma. And I can do vmin content! I don't gif them much and I want too. I can't wait to work on something for you! -sparkle 💫✨

Yay!! Sounds like we might have that in common. I have a huge appreciation for video games (and video game soundtracks is one of my favorite ‘genres’ of music, recognizing that they’re incredibly diverse of course), but I spend more time watching videos of other people playing them than playing them myself haha. We have a PS4 too. SpiderMan looked fun but I never tried it! I loved watching my partner play FFXV and Death Stranding. Trying to remember what I’ve actually finished on PS4, it’s been awhile lol... Everybody’s Gone to the Rapture and Rime were beautiful. I started Last Guardian but didn’t get very far before life got too busy. :( Hope I can pick it up again some day! Do you have a favorite PS4 game?

Aww you’re too kind. I’m so excited to see what you create!! And to chat with you off-anon. :) Who is your favorite member to gif?

Yes, I also like watching other people play video games, but it's rare when I do. I always end up getting distract sometimes. I've played SpiderMan, Horizon Zero Dawn, which are my favorites as well as Tomb Raider. I do really like FFXV, but i haven't played it in so long though. I can't wait to talk to you off anon either. I be having to really make sure I press the anon button. adlfkjsl I"m bad at forgetting. And Yoongi is my favorite to gif. -sparkle 💫✨

Oo I forgot I watched some of Horizon Zero Dawn too! Very impressive game. It looks like a lot of fun and I might try to play it myself in the future.. but like you said, it’s easy to get distracted. Life just likes to get in the way huh. Have you seen/heard of Hellblade: Senua’s Sacrifice? Intennnnse. I’m an absolute coward when it comes to horror games (or movies) and somehow my partner tricked me into playing one of the scariest parts because he got too scared HAH. That being said, as much as I love really emotionally intense games, I love soft gentle ones too… especially chill co-ops! (I’m thinking of the one we played most recently, Pode… that was on Switch though.)

Yayy Yoongi! I really do love all of BTS, and while the maknae line ran off with my heart, I have a big soft spot for Yoongi. I was never really drawn to rap/hip-hop except maybe Linkin Park like in middle school am I dating myself until I met Yoongi and just… wow.  ._. He’s so expressive in his delivery, his lyrics are heart-breakingly raw and honest, and he has extraordinary range between his gentlest material and the lines that come at you with a knife. Also I’m so proud of him for continuing to work as a producer and refine those skills on top of his life as an idol. What are your favorite things about Yoongi? If you can even choose haha 💗

Lol I know what you mean, I was really paranoid the first 2 weeks about sending anon messages to my other partners on mobile because the interface was different and I was really suspicious of the term ‘public’ vs ‘private.’ And every time I send the ask for about 5 seconds I question whether or not I clicked anon.

P.S. I should keep my mouth shut but … I have an itty bitty guess of who you may be. I won’t say any more than that and I guess I’ll find out in 2 weeks whether I’m right or wrong haha. xD take care sparkle dear!!

That game was really fun honestly. I still haven't finished. And sameeee! I am not into the horror games. The movies I can do, but the games I'm just too scared to really play them. I tried Resident Evil, and I was like this is a BIG FAT NO. Lol. And I haven't heard of that game though, but it sounds intense by the name of it. I also like soft gentle ones, or the ones were it's not a lot of challenging aspects to it. I really like Spyro. The original and the remake. -sparkle 💫✨ 1/2

Linkin Park is one of my favorite groups. I love them, and miss Chester so much. Also it sounds like we're maybe around the same age because that's when I got into them maybe? And I am so proud of him for everything that he's done. Yoongi originally wasn't my bias at first. I think maybe it was going to be Taehyung, but watching their variety shows made me fall in love with him. Outside of his hard exterior, he's so sweet and loving of the boys. It's so hard to just pick one! -sparkle 💫✨2/2

Okay, so one more. Lol. Because the ask limit is so short! I get paranoid all the time, and i have to like double check to make sure I Press it. alkdjfls NOW i'm curious as to who you think I am! But I do how you have a wonderful weekend. -sparkle 💫✨

Dying over your Resident Evil reaction because... SAME lol. However. I have enjoyed watching some playthroughs of 7 and the remake of 2, which is the closest I will ever come to watching a horror movie again. xD I have really fond memories of playing Spyro at my cousin’s house as a kid, but haven’t tried the remake yet! It looks like fun too. There are too many good games to choose from, not nearly enough time to play lol.

I only really listened to a couple of Linkin Park’s old albums, but I miss Chester too. \: We could be around the same age yeah! I’ll tell you when we’re messaging off-anon. :) 

If I may tell a story, my discovery of BTS went like this: heard a music clip in a YouTube ad of all places (normally skip them lol but I got it a couple times at work and thought hmm this is catchy). Then had to dive into some compilation videos to figure out which heckin song it was (turned out to be DNA). But along the way I found more songs I liked. And then I fell HARD for the Mic Drop MV (again, a little strange for me, because it’s pretty hip-hoppy). Jungkook makes this super intense expression at one moment that made me go oh. hello. So then I slowly learned who the different members were, and since this was me mostly streaming YT in the background at work haha, I had to keep switching tabs to check who was singing. I loved Jungkook’s singing but then also realized that I loved Jimin’s sweet voice too (yes I admit when I was first getting to know them, I could not always tell them apart). And THEN mister baritone Tae with his unique falsetto and delicious low range (I really wish they featured his chest voice more but OH WELL I digress) snagged my attention and ANYWAY long story short that’s how I fell in love with BTS and also the entire maknae line I guess. :’)

Hehehe I’ll tell you after the event ends if I’m right or wrong, don’t worry. It might be almost over, but I hope you had a lovely weekend too! ♥♥♥

Yes, somehow my sister convinced me to get it like she was going to play the game too, and she did not. I ended up exchanging the game because I'm like this is a waste of money. haha. I usually always skipped them too, so I totally understand. Everyone I knew liked but I had stopped listening to kpop for a while after the members of Big Bang went into enlistment (sad sad times). I first heard Dope. The FBE Youtube channel reacted to them, and I'm like OKAY GUYS. 1/3 -sparkle 💫✨

When Jungkook hits that high note I was like COME THROUGH VOCALS. So then naturally I had to go and look a few more videos. This was during around the time they had appeared on the AMAs the first time. And then I listened to I Need U and Save Me (this is one of my favorites). And I was hooked. I went and watched their Ellen interviews, and they're so sweet. I ended up binge watching their variety show and Bon Voyage and I was hooked then. -sparkle 💫✨ 2/3

Run BTS was when I realized that Yoongi was my bias. Because I'll admit that I did not like him at first, but I said that already. And then I just realized how sweet and funny he actually his. And I think he's just shy at times. At least in the beginning, but he's so handsome and his stage presence is like a 360 from him being off stage. If that makes sense. I could go on for house about Yoongi. Lol. -sparkle 💫✨3/3

The high notes in Dope are pretty ridiculous because they’re at the start of the phrase so they get little to no preparation lol. Their vocal abilities are truly impressive... and then they do it all while dancing :’) 

I agree that Yoongi’s stage presence is strikingly different from his real self! Or the self we get to see in their behind-the-scenes content lol. Possibly like a lot of people, I thought he was super intimidating and tough until I saw more of him offstage... and then went awww he’s a big softie who just doesn’t pull his punches when he’s rapping and producing.

Do you have any favorite Run BTS episodes? So far I’ve only watched a handful of the recent ones, but all the random gifs and clips of older content warms my heart or makes me laugh. I’d like to eventually watch them all from the beginning... some day lol. (see all previous mentions of being too busy to do anything fun outside of work haha)

They are ridiculous. I love when they hit high notes in songs. All the boys have such a beautiful range, and I love hearing them. Especially when they do their solo songs. Jimin's solos are normally my favorite because his voice is the type I tend to lean towards a lot His stage presence is so different! Just like Jhope's. It's always so different, but it's them all in a nutshell, if that makes sense. Lol. I was in Chorus for a while, and I liked it begin in a group. -sparkle 💫✨1/2

It's easier being in a group, but I could never do it by myself. And favorite Run episode? Hmmm, there are so many that I love. I prefer some of the older episodes to some of the new ones. I'll have to find them again, but there was one where they were doing like this haunted house type of thing and it had me dying of laughter. They're all so funny though. I'm still trying to catch up with some of the new ones they've been doing. -sparkle 💫✨2/2

The vocal line is so wonderful, but I’ve been increasingly impressed with the rap line’s singing too. I have always liked the beginning of Spring Day and I confess it took me an embarrassingly long time to wonder which one of them was singing, and I was surprised to learn that it’s Namjoon. Also his low line in Louder Than Bombs is wonderful... I don’t even care if it’s probably autotuned a little lolol. And I only recently found out about the song Sea, but Tae’s chest-range melody at the very end.. UGHGHGGH it’s too. good. (DEAR BIGHIT COMPOSERS, MORE BARI PLS.)

I had to sing in choir in grad school and ended up enjoying it way more than I thought I would. (I’m a composer/pianist and I needed ensemble credit.) I’ve always been really self conscious about my voice, and now... I would love to take vocal lessons some day. While I know that no two people will play an instrument exactly the same, it’s kind of magical that you don’t know what the true sound or full potential of your own singing voice will be until you train it. Do you play any instruments? :)

The vocal line is amazing. I love all of their voices for different reasons, and sometimes I'm in the mood for one, and then another time I'm in the mood for another. If that makes sense. I haven't listened to Sea that much, but it is such a beautiful song! And you're right. His chest tone HELLO VOCALS. Lol. I'd love to take vocal lessons one day, but not sure if I ever would. And I don't play any instruments, but I would love to learn guitar one day. Lol. It's a dream of mine. -sparkle 💫✨

Hii Sparkle. I’m sorry it took me a bit to get back to you, but it really makes me happy when I receive your messages! Yess Tae’s chest voice deserves all the shouty caps all the time hehe. I hope you have the opportunity to learn the guitar someday if that’s what your dream is! Everyone starts somewhere... I would love to learn the cello too :)) one day haha. 

Do you have a favorite “underrated” bts song? Just curious! Take care dear, looking forward to finding out who you are soon~

Yay! I'm glad you like hearing from me! I really like talking to you. I don't talk to many people on here sometimes, but then other times I do. So this is nice just to be able to talk with a fellow army. One day I will learn it, I just have to learn how to read music first. Lol. Because I definitely don't know how to. Hmm honestly there are a few that I feel are underrated, that i Iove. Spring Day, Hold Me Tight, and Autumn Leaves. These songs are queens! What about you? -sparkle 💫✨

Music is a lifelong learning process but it’s worth it. :’) I believe in you!! 

SPRING DAY!! 🌸🌸🌸 One of my all-time favorites. I honestly might not have a very good awareness of what is underrated and what isn’t, especially among older songs, but... I love Spring Day, The Truth Untold, Jamais Vu, and most recently Sea... lol hm I’m sensing a trend of bittersweet/melancholy songs. But also House of Cards (it’s just so delightfully WEIRD and dark and different??). On the other end of the spectrum (although not sure if it’s underrated?), Silver Spoon/Baepsae. What a jam. Love to tune out the world with that one at work on one of my walk breaks if I had a frustrating day. And maybe it’s too early to tell from MOTS 7, but I get the impression that I might love Louder Than Bombs way more than the average army. And that’s okay :)

I don’t talk to or know very many people on here yet too, probably because my blog is still relatively new. So I’m very glad to be getting to know you

I loved Spring Day as soon as I heard it. I still listen to it a lot when I'm in the mood for it. It's such a beautiful song. The Truth Untold IS A QUEEN. I love that one too. Jamais Vu, I think I have to be in the mood to listen to it sometimes, but it's growing on me. House of Cards, that one I heard last year sometime and I like that one too. I don't listen to it as much. And Silver Spoon is my go too song honestly on my way to work. Louder Than Bombs is really good. -sparkle 💫✨ 1/2

I listen to that one a lot myself. I think We Are Bulletproof 2.0 maybe one, but I'm not sure either. I absolutely adore that song so much. It's such a beautiful mad song honestly. And also you're right this update is kind of weird, but I don't mind the font so much. -sparkle 💫✨2/2

Yasss I’m glad you like Truth Untold too. It’s too beautiful. I practically cried when I heard for the first time a live performance video (somewhere in Japan) where he sang a higher note in the climax than in the studio recording auuughgghgh my heart. 

We Are Bulletproof pt. 2 took awhile to grow on me but I was happy when it did. I can be a little odd about the order in which I listen to songs, and usually need to listen in album order, but for some reason I really like that one after No More Dream. Also, though it’s hardly underrated, I now know what all the fuss is about Cypher pt. 3. I’ve been gradually purchasing their older albums (kinda out of order) and finally got to Dark & Wild about a month ago haha. I’m listening to all these mad songs now. Been in a weird sad mood for a lot of today tbh and... mad bts is helping a little haha. So is chatting with you!

I’m probably overreacting about the dashboard, but something about that bubbly serif font is irritating haha. And I don’t see this mythical option to revert to the old dashboard that people are talking about in their settings. Boo. I’ll get over it... eventually haha.

The Truth Untold is one of my favorites, and I normally don't like ballads a lot. It takes me a while to get into them, but this one just caught my eye. I'm learning Korean, and it's one of the ones that I can sing along too while reading the lyrics! I am super proud of that accomplishment. When I was going through their albums after I got into them, I skipped the older ones at first. I wasn't sure if I really liked them. -sparkle 💫 1/2

I listen to a select few of them on their darker albums, but a lot of it isn’t really what I like hearing. Although, I think I may revisit the albums again. It’s been a while since I actually listened to them. haha if you go to settings > dashboard you’ll see it there. Just let it load for a second, adn then it pops up. -sparkle 💫✨ 2/2

(Ugh I typed an answer and then tried to drop in a screenshot and everything disappeared. Got it, tumblr. No dropping images. REDO.)

Oo that’s awesome that you’re learning Korean! Are you self-studying? How long have you been studying? I’ve been studying Japanese for several years (very slowly lol). Then a few months ago, thanks to BTS, I was suddenly really interested in learning Korean too. I worked on memorizing hangul for a week and then had a “lol what am I doing” moment when I realized I didn’t know nearly enough Japanese yet to realistically tackle two challenging languages at the same time. So Korean is on hold for now, but I really wish I could just… magically be fluent haha. It would be amazing to understand their lyrics or interviews/conversations on the spot without relying on translations. And English is stupidly difficult, so as much as I appreciate how much effort they’ve put into learning too… as an international fan, I wish I could return that effort too and learn their language so that they don’t feel like they need to learn English. 

Love Yourself: Answer was my first album and I purchased that one specifically because it was a compilation and contained most of the individual songs I already knew I liked from YouTube haha. Then I expanded from there. To be honest, if I had found BTS when they were just getting started, or anytime before HYYH, I probably wouldn’t have connected with their music, sound-wise or thematically. But… they were exactly what I needed when I did finally find them. And now I have immense appreciation for their beginnings and how far they’ve come, even loving some older songs/styles that I never expected to. As I mentioned, I don’t usually listen to pop or rap/hip-hop… like ever haha. But something about them just reached into my heart and I’ll be forever grateful to them.

I tried what you suggested (waiting on the page) and… the text kinda jumped at one point as though something else had loaded, but nothing else displayed. Am I derping around on the wrong page? \:

edit: I see it in the source code, idk why the toggle isn’t displaying for me 🙃

Yes! I am self learning. I have been doing it on and off for like two years, but the last part of last year I've been doing it most often. However with everything that's going on, it's kind of slowed down and I've just been focusing on what's going on in the world right now. I feel the same. I think if I would have found them before, I don't think I would have liked them as much as I do now. I do have an appreciation for their older music even if I don't listen it to it much. 1/3 -sparkle 💫✨

Their first two albums I didn't like as much, but everything from then on I'm pretty sure I am obsessed with when I found them out. Lol. I do remember you say that previously that you don't listen to a lot of that style of music. What do you normally like to listen to? I listen to a lot of everything, so I'm not sure if I have a genre that i really stick too. Although, I think in the beginning i listened to a lot of hiphop/rap and alternative stuff. -sparkle 💫✨ 2/3

Then the older i got the more I got into pop music because I found kpop when I was about 17, and it's been stuck to me ever since. Lol. So I don't know I like a lot of music that makes me feel good and I can dance too or sing along with. I think maybe it depends on my mood. Lol . -sparkle 💫✨3/3

I think that’s awesome that you’re working on learning the language on your own! And I understand the challenges of keeping it up independently, especially in such strange and challenging times... I feel guilty that I stopped my daily kanji studying pretty much as soon as I started working from home. It was initially because I used my commute time to study (I’m in a vanpool) and... definitely lost some motivation once everything started changing. I know I shouldn’t be too hard on myself though for taking a break, and I hope you are not either. I’m hoping to get back into soon and reform some study time habits :)

Yeah it sounds like you’ve been listening to Kpop for a long time! ^^ Aside from my fairly recent BTS obsession, I gravitate toward moodier music in general haha. Evanescence was my instant favorite way back in middle school and... tbh I still listen to their albums sometimes! I tended to like anything indie-ish with piano or rock + orchestra. I loved this European band Within Temptation, their music is like a blend of rock and symphonic orchestra. Nowadays, I love video game music and that’s probably what I listen to the most... Nobuo Uematsu (Final Fantasyyy), who is probably one of my biggest inspirations for pursuing composition, Austin Wintory (Journey, Abzu, etc), and more recently Jessica Curry (everything the Chinese Room studio made lol). The past few days I’ve been streaming the songs from Death Stranding. I admit I don’t tend to have a lot of variety... I’m kind of picky and when I find something I love, I will listen to that obsessively over and over for months on end. Like BTS. xD No regrets haha! But I know I should broaden my horizons too...

I'm trying not to be so hard on myself, but I know I'll get back into it soon as I set a schedule for myself. Evanescence is amazing, that's all I got to say. I love them so much, so I totally get it. That's interesting though. I love learning about others music interest. It's always so different and diverse from mine. And also, I realized I didn't answer your question about the dash, and for some reason I don't know why it's not showing up. You were in the right place though. -sparkle 💫✨

Yayy glad you like Evanescence! Yes it is amazing and also wonderful that we all have unique tastes. I know I should make a better effort to try out new things, because finding something new that I connect with is amazing (see: BTS hehe).

I'm so excited to meet you next week!! Please take care and enjoy the rest of your weekend 💗

Sometimes it’s harder to really step out the box. So I totally understand, but I’ve always kind of had “weird” taste in different music so I like listening to whatever it is I like! And yes! I can’t to show you what I’m working on. I’m still searching for things for it! Lol. So I hope you like it. Also I hope you have an amazing week! And also a good day! -sparkle ✨💫

I woke up way earlier than planned thanks to this new isolation insomnia, but I was so happy to see your message. 💜 I’m so excited to meet you, but don’t feel like you have to rush on the gift! I know whatever you make will be wonderful. I hope you have a great week too. Do you have any ~weird~ music suggestions? I’ll give them a try!

I totally understand how that is. I hate waking up earlier than I want too because then you don't want to get up out of bed, but then you're too awake to go back to sleep. At least that's how i feel. Hmmm, weird music suggestions? I'm not entire sure. I like Florence and the Machine, FK Twigs (this might be an acquired taste), Panic at the Disco. There's so much I listen too, and my mind is going blank. Lol. -sparkle ✨💫

Yeah, that was my feeling exactly. :( At least I put in a couple extra hours of work, so I’ll get to take a shorter Friday. Or whichever day we try to brave a grocery run.

Thank you, I will check them out! Hehe due to your comment, I am intrigued by FK Twigs. For some reason I couldn’t really get into Panic at the Disco in high school, even though I had friends who loved them, but... I do appreciate that someone made an Emote! at the Location bot on twitter. xD

I hope you are having a good week so far! Tbh mine has been a little gloomy, but... I am really looking forward to meeting you! And finding out if my guess is right haha :’)) Take care dear!

And I loved Panic! They were so good, I still love them or Brendon Urie. Lol. FK Twigs is really good, but I know she's not for everyone. I really enjoy her music honestly. And honestly, I'm just about finished with your gif set. I have to find a few more videos and I'll post it probably tomorrow or later tonight depending on when I finish. And hmm, I don't know I don't think it is, but it shouldn't be long though. however, I'm really curious to know who you think I am. -sparkle ✨💫

EEek I’m so excited!! (Please don’t stay up late just for me though!)

As much as I am terrible at branching out, I do enjoy finding new music I like, so thank you again for the suggestions! I will try to listen with open ears and mind haha. Have you heard of Fleurie? I stumbled across her music when an artist I followed made a piece inspired by some of her lyrics. She might be quite a bit different than the artists you recommended though.

I’m going to feel a little silly if I’m wrong, but I’ll tell you after the reveal so I don’t make a fool of myself early. xD Can I ask you one question – do you know your Myer-Briggs type?

I'll probably go to bed soon. I'm actually in bed. I just got stuck on the tiktok app, and I really shouldn't. I've never heard of her, but I'll have to check her out tomorrow and see what she's about. And yes! I do know my Myers-Briggs type! -sparkle ✨💫

Oops you fell down the internet rabbit hole before bed :) Hope you didn’t stay up too late and got enough rest!

Love and War is the first song I found by Fleurie, and it’s also the title of one of her albums. It’s a little bit older but probably my favorite overall! I love the song Hurts Like Hell. It’s devastating but beautiful.

Have a great day, hope to talk to you more soon! 💜

p.s. I’m INFJ ✨

I did fall down the rabbit hole of the internet. It always happens. Also you should check out Kerli! she's really interesting, and I really like her music. Her music videos are also really nice. Intriguing at most. Lol. And I'm infj too! -sparkle ✨💫

I know the reveal has been made, but I didn’t want to leave this sitting all alone in my inbox.

Thank you, Ash, for taking the time not only to make me a beautiful gift but to talk with me this past month. Thank you for being a light and comfort in these uncertain times. I will miss your little surprise messages, but I hope we keep in touch. Now I will go back to liking your wonderful posts (because I confess I held back once I started to guess who you were, I didn’t want you to be suspicious either HAH). I’ve said it a lot but I really hope you stay safe, healthy, and happy!!  💗✨💫💗

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love notes #Part3

5/1/17

P: Amore i watched ten Times each video because I miss you soo much. I would really need you here with me for the next days at least to have my love here since I can’t do anything but studying. You are so beautiful and I wish you were snuggling under the bedsheets with me. I want to wake up early tomorrow morning. Send you my love🐒❤

5/2/17

P: Amore mio.. you are my muse. You inspire me and seeing you so discouraged by your bosses really made me upset. I can’t live with the though you’re not enjoying your everyday life. I hope this will change soon and that with experience you’ll be able to have more of a first hand on your tasks. Ask, be hungry, absorb what you can but remember you work for living and not viceversa. Keep in mind that you are not what you are professionally but you have a spiritual soul which is so pure and kind that any job position would appear so useless compered to your beauty. I know it’s just a hard moment for you right now, and a traditional period to a life style you’re not used to.., and I’m so blind I didn’t understand how many things you are asked to be strong about. I’ll be a better listener I swear my love. Please sleep with free mind and wake up like a flower ready to blossom . I love you from here to there and back together with wrong dates❤🐒 go out and rock my miracle worker. Because with our love you’re doing such a miracle 🐽tu bacio patata

Y: Hahahaha Amore I love the wrong dates part ❤ Honey you are the best, I love you so much. Some time I still can’t believe how magical is it to have you .. thank you for being so amazing and standing by my side .. 💙un bacione, have a lovely day

5/4/17

P: Amore mio, I just read yours.. it can be very true in some aspects and I’m in doubt for some other parts but it might be I didn’t had the chance to get to you well enough yet, and this boosts my curiosity to see everything about you!!! I didn’t read mine yet. I’ll do that tomorrow while on the train for uni. Juventus won 2-0 and I’m quite happy, but I would honestly exchange that result with only one night here, with you. My patata. I miss you so much and always hoping nothing is harming you. I need you. I wanna cook carbonara and matriciana for you❤🐒 un bacio amore, wake up with my love

Ps: I just read mine as well.. I’m astonished how true this things sometimes are

5/5/17

P: I truly love you baby, I was boring and very not romantic in my answer tonight, I just wanted to feel powerful on a very easy going thing and I ruin the mood to both of us. I just want your happiness and you know I would come anywhere anytime to see you, my love. With tonight dreams you’ll wake up fresh and strong again, just wish I was there tonight drinking with you❤🐒 Ps: if by any strange case you bought the flight, don’t throw it away ! I would jump on it! I send you loads of love And enjoy your night You are super sexy

5/6/17

P: Amore mio. Happy birthday. Another winter is gone and you are more beautiful than I could ever imagine. Time goes by, you’re growing and I love you more each minute, hour, day, month! What kind of magic is yours that enchants me more and more each time? You’re entering in the best years of your life. You have the gift to have a rich mind, a deep soul and beautiful body. Don’t ever be sad because the energy you can dissipate will take you wherever you want. I admire your life till now and I hope to be part of it for the upcoming years, cherishing many other adventures, silences and birthdays with you. How much we are invested in the future of each other? The time will give our love a label of beauty, if we will only be lucky enough. Today its your day and I’m sure eating like a pig will make you smile even without me. You’ll be a bit tipsy screaming those little sounds which made me follow in love with you. I really wish I was there to pamper you, to make you feel loved on this planet. I will always be next to you with the aim of being a lift to the other dimension. To the world of dreams where Love rules and we are just little puppets eating passion. But, what I want the most, what I would really like, is to be close to you as soon as possible, so that, with a big kiss from me, you would also receive the wish for happiness that lies in my soul in this very moment. We will find a way to make that happen, together. I send you kisses and 22 minutes of pussy pompino bonus to be asked whenever my princess is in need. Have fun with your friends, go crazy and live the night. Cant wait for the time to come, sharing the same sun, the same soil. I want to discover the world with you. As usual, I woke up today thinking about you, just as I go to sleep with you in my thoughts every time. I love you. Always yours, P. Happy Birth day pataaaa ❤❤❤🐽🐽🐽🐽🐽🐽🐒

5/7/17

P: My love, your birthday is everyday for me because I want to celebrate you daily. We already saw each other growing up from one day to the other and from my side the feeling is that many are yet to come. Im really keen for the upcoming ones but I would like you to savour the present one. Keep one significant image printed in your brain, and rise smiling to the world. I love you. Un bacio🐽🐒

5/9/17

P: You’re such a pataaa and I’m grateful to life, to the world and the starts for putting us together. Sometimes I don’t even know if it’s true because this loves elevates me to a powerful dimension never experienced. I love you amore mio🐽🐽🐒 ti bacio, I miss you

5/10/17

P: My love, I’m sure you had a lovely night with your friend ! How long will she be there? That’s great. I miss you and I want to be there eating hummus on the bed with you. Good night baby sweet dreams ❤🐽🐽🐒 Tesoro have a lovely day

5/11/17

P: Good night my love I will wake up super super early tomorrow to review the final and revise big times! Anyway the only person I would really love to celebrate this with is you and luckily we will be together to catch up very soon 🐽🐒 I’m glad you have a new table, useful, and a friend whom staying over for the weekend ❤before I was just being greedy thinking about the gifts for your colleagues..if it is a “tradition” in the office in the end of the day it will probably build warmness and everyone will gather positive vibes from that ! Hope you have Sweet wet dreams. I love you

5/13/17

P: My pussy patata I’m bouncing to bed for few ours and at 4:20 I have my train from nyon! I always think that I love you because even when passion will slow down and than up and down.. I’ll always love you, for the person you are, whatever happen,I’ll stand with you❤🐽  I’ll text you tomorrow morning! I love you and I don’t know who’d I be without you. Ti bacio amore🐒 

P:In train patata! Everything smooth till now I would like to materialise there and watch you sleeping and kissing you slowly without waking you up, kiss kiss for you sniffff wooooof wuf ruuf

Y: Honey I’m going to bed I hope you guys have a fantastic night out, I love you from D to Barcelona, and to the moon and back again. Can’t wait to see you soon! Un bacione my love ❤

5/14/17

Y: Honey bunny I hope you had an amazing night/day  Heading to work now!! Un bacione x

5/15/17

P: Dear my love. I can’t explain the amount of joy that I’ll have when I’ll see you. I’m sick about you and I hate we didn’t Skype this two days even when we have had both busy days. But what really make me realise my true love for you is the fact that every moment, even on vacation with my family and busy all day, happy, full.. at my best, I still miss you a lot. Anywhere I go I wish you were there, with me, hand in hand, fighting all the beasts and ghosts of this world. In the dark and in the light I renew my love for you every moment. I love you. I hope today you had fun with your friend at the reastaturant and please let me know how are you! Today after sagrada we went to park guell and stayed at the beach! At night we had amazing dinner in a very conceptual restaurant I hope you’ll drop your point when the time will come and we will make Barcelona one of our cities of love such as the Paris one already on the list.

5/17/17

P: Amore mio! Can you please, I beg you, send me a vocal message tomorrow? I really need to listen to your voice.

P:I love you so much. I’m so upset with words to be so poor after a while to not have more words to describe love. I wonder how poets managed to write so much about love with a relative short dictionary. I really want to have a new vocabulary to talk about love with you and till now we just coined “don’t patata meee” which is not enough and we can do much better. I just want to melt my lips with yours into a never ending kiss.. I feel part of something when with you. Buona notte amore, I could talk for hours about my love for you. I really want to maximise time this time in D and just to spend all the time with you, I don’t need site visiting I just need to visit you my Love. Un bacio grande and have a great day lady❤🐒🐽🐽🐽🐽

Y: Ciao patata Thank you for always being the best boyfriend sending me love letter Even on your vacation day. I’m truly the most lucky girl, found my love and I’m deeply so happy and still in love with you Un bacione, let me know what’s your plan for today Hopefully we can skype tonight amore 🤞🏻

5/18/17

P: I love you, good night my only love, dream.❤🐷🐒

I’m back Already I just wanted to check out the mirador one last time at night, the view on the Alhambra. I was there talking to my self and than I just started referring to you my bocca d'orata, making you alive next to me watching at the view trough my words. It might seem full but I jope you received my call on love in your dreams🐽🐽🐽

5/20/17

P: Amore mio good night, sleep well and I love you ❤

Y: Good night patata I love you Can’t wait to see you soon!

5/21/17

P: Dear my patata I’m counting the minutes and thinking about how I will spend every valuable second with you. I want to have a routine, I want to experience chill life with you and massage you after work cuddling and having nice meals together. I miss you everywhere and soon you’ll be in my arms! I love you❤🐽 Always yours.. We just arrived in T.

5/22/17

P: Home sweet home for a couple of days Amore mio im in my great bed and I feel like a king! I wish you were here next to me as always I send you all my love, I’m exploding thinking there are still 2 days left before my departure ! Tomorrow I will go grocery and stuff and meet the Airbnb guy ect ect! Have a great wake up, I wish I could wake you up tomorrow with a routine  pussy pompino❤🐒

Y: Love good night Sorry I was being stupid today I love you so much can’t wait to see you soon, no matter how many days you may have Un bacione my love ❤️

P: No amore Don’t say that Cry for love whenever you want for me, I feel special to be the reason of your tears But I want as well to be the reason of your happiness

Y: Always ❤

5/23/17

P: I love you my patata!  Everything is ready for my departure and tomorrow is grocery day❤🐽 can’t wait to be in that Airbnb with you for the time gifted us by gods! Sleep tight and wake up as a princess  Hope I’ll dream you tonight🐒

5/24/17

P: Im awake And without alarm

5/29/17

P: Ciao my love! Once again it’s hard to leave you here. This staying has been lovely, even if doing almost nothing, being fed with our love makes me always feel alive more than anything else in my life. I’m always dreaming about that day when we will have our own life together, when we will get the chance to feel sick of one another and ti anyway come back because this love is too great to be trashed. I’ll miss you..! Tonight I’ll send you the no no period in august so you can ask for days off. Planning a new adventure with you is always thrilling.

Y: Hi amore

P: Love you

P:: I’m boarding

Y: Text me when u r at Istanbul and Milan  I love you so much

P: Yes patata

Y:Thank you

P: Have a great day at work my miracle worker

Y: ❤ Can’t wait t to see u soon

P: Wish you a good life again in this period while I can’t be there for you. Treat your self and be safe. Take care if the bump goes worse and please keep me up to date.

P: Ciao ciao D 🐒❤

Y: Safe flight baby

5/31/17

P: My patata I love you and I want to be with you now and always I need to drive back now Gugus is drunk with his friend the grandson of S H! G is strange.. you always meet this kind of people but I can’t wait to have you here already. Ti bacio amore, always yours. P ❤🐽🐽🐽🐒

6/1/17

P: My patata.. days, months are gone behind us but I still feel the same passion, the same flying soul and big heart when I look at you. I hope there, in your worm spirit the feeling is just the same. I love you so much and I don’t know what I would do with my life without you. You are my reason of hope, my guiding light and I can’t wait to have you tight in my arms soon again. Sometimes..now for instance I’m falling asleep picturing all the moments of our love: on that pagoda in T, in front of louvre and in Istambul caffè . I want more. I need more. I will do my best to have more time with you in my future days. Often I feel detached, lost, confused but when you are there with me..well everything has a clear shape, a smooth label and vibrant vibes are stimulating my mind. I deeply believe in the love I host in my heart for you. Hoping you’ll be feeling better tomorrow I wish you sweet dreams. Please let me know if you recovered or if there is anything I can do. Distance is hard but it also gives a strong taste to relationships if well managed and I’m proud of us. I’m sleeping in your blankets. I feel good. Ti bacio..i love you🐽🐽❤🐒

6/2/17

P: Pattaaaaaa! I want you here next to me every moment and I have no other words to express this will. My happiest moment of the day is when we are on Skype telling each other about our day, sharing thoughts. I miss you dearly.. I don’t feel my love could ever be bigger than the one I have for you. I learned to love from you. It’s like we were meant to meet and show each other what love was and is. It’s been hard for us, left and right since the day we became “we”. You’ve changed me, with your love you’ve made me strong, you’ve accepted me in your life. Y, I love you a little more every day. Thank you. 6 months. Happy anniversary baby. Ti bacio❤🐽🐒

Y: I love you

6/3/17

P: My love good night 🐽❤I’m home and the night was good to us, we walked a lot and showed the guys the river side and we end up at a strange silent party in baroc park! I love you and hope you’re dreaming softly. Ti bacio amore mio , I need you by my side🐒

P: Amore Patata Love Goodmornig 🐽🐽🐽

Y: pattt

P: We are going to the boat🍾🍾🍾🍾🍾

Y: Be careful baby

❤❤

6/5/17

P: My dear pussy patata! Seeing you so sad makes me sad as well, when you’re happy I’m fine as well. My mood is bounded to your intrinsically, therefore I can only hope and help to always make you feel fair, happy, full. I love the Y crazy for life, passionate about anything and strong as a Siberian tiger. It’s only through the synergy of our love that I can have hope for my life. I love you so much and even now in Geneva, there’s anything that keep set my mind off you. I know it’s hard to ask and that I can’t even imagine how really is.. everything in D for you.. but try to be strong and to be professional till you’ll sit in that office. Be polite, fair, kind, smart..all what you are and sooner or later results will come. I strongly believe in you and in our love as well. Can’t wait to have you in my arms and die in yours because you’re simply home to me. I’ll text when go running tomorrow. Sweet dreams tesoro mio. Ti bacio❤🐽🐒

Y: Ciao patata thank you for being you and making me always in love and happy Good night amore

6/6/17

P: I love you my dear! I’m so glad I have you in my life and I can’t wait to have you in my arms whenever time will be so gentle with us. I always think about you before sleeping because it’s the only thought that makes me relax and wondering about our adventures is the driving force for everyday . Sleep tight my only princess. I send you all the love I have and hope sun will rise in your heart tomorrow morning. I hope I dream of you tonight and our fairy tail. ❤🐽🐒

Goodnight my loveree

6/7/17

P: Patata mia I just so all the concert to commemorate Manchester victims and Liam Gallagher from oasis is always the best

P: Anyway you are my angel and I don’t know where you’ve been al this time I don’t even remember life before you came into mine. Please do never worry about a thing because I would hurt my self before hurting you and I could never betray the promesse of love I did for you. Amore i now feel I want to live my life with you. You’re bringing so much energy into my life but mostly I feel alive because you allow me to bring love in you’re life as well. Thank you for opening me that golden door. Sweet dreams my love. I really wish the best for you and I hope you’ll get what you want and go to Hong-Kong or wherever you’re passion will take you. I’ll be standing next to you fighting for our abd your happiness . Ti bacio.

Y: Ciao pat Thank you for being so supportive love you and I want to be with you and guard our happiness together Ma mi ami ? 🙈

P: Ciao pat yes wa oi ni

Y: ❤ I miss you

6/8/17

P: Patata i would love to have you here with me now. I’m getting into bed missing you so much! Every time I see something beautiful  in this world I want to share it with you because you’re a lovely being. As simple as that. Tonight I truly hope to dream about my panther 🐯 alias eggplant! Good night❤🐽

6/9/17

Y: Baby Can u write love letter for me ?

P: Sure my love

P: My dear patata I’ve simply never been that in love in my life with anyone. I fully express my best when with you and I thank you for making me being who I am now. I feel i have the power to conquer peace, happiness and this equilibrium is feeding my soul. I miss you more than ever.. I want you in my arms now I would give anything to swap you and matteo or you and Juanita which is here I hope you feel empowered from my love as well, that you feel to be a better person just for the reason of our lovely relationship. I picture my self with you and our dog one day! I really hope fare will be gentle enough with us to give us this time!!🐽❤🐒

P: Ciao patata. Un bacione

Y: Good night my one and only

6/11/17

P: Ciao my patata!!!!! I’m home and everything was just fine. We had chill dinner down stairs in the common kitchen and than we went on the bench in plan palais square to have a drink and a walk by the lake side! I love you so much and I enjoyed Skype session with you. You were very gentle and sweet today I really felt loved and I happily enjoyed this extra pampers from yours. I hope some days I have the same effect on you and that this passion will last forever. My days would be so happy , full of love and energy. I send you my best kisses from the alps which are waiting to welcome you❤🐽🐒 ti bacio mia principessa

Y: Ciao pat pat And you always have this lovely and sweet effect whenever I talk to you ..❤ Good night amore Let’s see if we can catch each other tomorrow then. 

6/12/17

P: Amore I’ve been thinking about the ifs about our relationship.. if we kissed earlier, if we had sex earlier, if we began all of this 12 months ago. If I have to be honest I do not regret one thing. Time gave us the appetite of one another, experience, I mean we fell in love because of time value of our own humanity. We were perfectly cooked just like a medium rare stake or a juicy muffin. What I’m trying to say is that I appreciate every small thing of how things went because I’m afraid any change would impact our current passion and that is the only relevant thing. I love you from the moon (which I’m praying to be in our favour) and back and I would be lost in this chaotic universe. Stay with me and let’s save each other from the boredom of daily life to cherish the moments of wilderness. I send you all my love and I hope tomorrow you’ll have a great day. I need you in my arms. Here. Un bacio grande stellina❤🐽🐒

Y: Honey You are right. We fell in love in the right time and I should be grateful of that. Like you said, we have so much time left together. I can’t wait to explore it with you. Thank you for always keeping up, being the poet and lover that I know and love. I love you from the moon and back My stellino ❤

6/13/17

P: My love since I m loosing a bit my imagination after writing so many love letters, which start being repetitive, I decided to start something experimental today. Daily letters would not be so special any longer, therefore I’ll describe a moment of love we had. Our ancestors said: “verba volant scripta manent” (words disappears, ink writing will survive history). For this reason I want to make unforgettable some of our most lovely portraits. Walking to the restaurant under the rain with you was something magical. I remember the love I felt for you in front of notre dame in the cold Parisian night. You had black leggings a blue jacket and black water proof boots, the ones I like. We were both freezing and I just wanted to go home to warm up under the bed sheets. I felt wanderlust watching to shining Eiffel Tower. Talking of art, dreams and hope for a stimulating life made my staying in Paris something unforgettable so dense and perfect. I love you. I want this to last forever. Un bacio amore mio.❤❤🐽🐒wa oi ni

Y: Ciao baby I’m happy to say I’m sure there are more to come those momsnv Moments* Those moments where we felt madly in love of one and another all the time  miss you x

Y: Pat

Do you love me

6/14/17

P: Dear love tonight it’s the turn of the caramelised strawberry at the night market. The lights, the stinky tofu and a huge winner schnitzel Asian style made me full and happy. What I really loved was sharing with you caramelised strawberry sticks which at first are crunchy than sweet and juicy just like your pussy. I would feed my life of those two ingredients and nothing could be ever better. Eating on the door step of a temple a non identify soup, buying gringo prized tropical fruits and waiting your friend to get pierced: well all the little things happening in our world are somehow to me meaningful for the sake of being ours, unique in a way. I love you deeply and I need another pussy strawberry stick very soon. I want to go back to Taipei with my only princess.❤🐒

Y: Ciao pat I miss being with you When you narrative these stories, I can see it in front of my eyes You are a true poet and lover, you should write that on your application 🤗

6/15/17

P: Yo pata I really wanna tell you. You rock. Yes you are lovely because you always have sweet talks for me and your words tastes honey. I remember when we are breakfast on the first morning in Istanbul. The weather was pretty nasty but apart from that breakfast was awesome  fried cheese, olives and a young black kitty out of the window. I was happy that day as much as everyday I can have breakfast with you. We have more of those to come❤🐽 buona notte stella🐒

Y: ❤ Amore I was just talking to a friend last night saying the best is to have breakfast with family And tonight you also thought about our breakfast time Have great great day my love You are incredible, I’m so happy I found you Everyday, you reminded me of why we are in love Thank you

6/16/17

P: Amore mio im eating the days and I simply live dreaming about the tomorrow with you. Can’t wait to have you here in my arms, it’s going to be phantasmagoric. I remember the night in the toilet at M palace. Your blue dress was short enough to be easily lifted up for an easy sneak in. Us at the beginning of everything. I can’t even imagine what I was thinking back than because I was literally smashed by love. Pure dust of love. It’s always good to have some rough sex. Above all I think I really fell in love with you in Paris that first evening  eating Indian food. I can’t wait to make another adventure with you. Wherever and whatever it takes. I hope you are all god, having fun with tam tam and the guys. Un bacio stella🐒🐽🐽❤

Y: Thank you for always giving me the strength. Being with you, I’m always discovering more about life, us, and love. You fill up the gaps of my ignorance about being in love and loving. I can’t wait to spend next weekend with you It will be another time of our lives, just like all the other times I’ll see you soon, my hero, love, and patata I love you so so much. ❤❤

6/17/17

P: Amore These days I’ve been asking my self lots of times why am I here attending summer semester and what really matters in this life. It took my a while to start understanding that working the entire life to accumulate, to run, to climb the social ladder it’s a narrow minded, dumb approach. First thing must be love, love doesn’t need consumption because it can be always renewed every single day. What will really makes our life meaningful is the amount of love we are going to spread during the time given. I found in you my access to the door of love and without your guiding light I’m sure I wouldn’t be able to express me at my full potential. This being said, I want to say that I don’t care if we are broke, if things are going to be hard, if time and kilometres will take us apart or whatever will fate reserve for us. I’m sure of one thing only. That love is the only thing that matters, and you are my love, so you are in first place for everything. Tonight takes me back to the crazy dance with you at the club. I will always remember the trashy time I had with you in the stars of taipei. I love you my patata ! I can’t count the seconds that are taking us apart but I love you crazily ❤🐽🐒ti bacio

Y: Good night my patata Can’t wait to explore Geneva with you ❤

6/18/17

P: Dear love, I’m in my bed thinking of you, as always, before sleeping. I would have loved to have you here tonight. The art scene in plan palais was something you would have loved and was seeing you everywhere. Tonight I felt in love with the memory in Basel when waiting for Zey’s friend to come pick us up, you wished I had something for the party really keen to get high. You rocked!  it was our first official kiss even if I already kissed you a lot in my dreams. I am only thinking of you every time. Un bacione amore mio. Sleep tight because you need energy for the weekend.❤🐒🐽🐽

6/19/17

P: My sweet lady. I miss your skin, your fluffy touch and your cute head. I think how we treat our relationship is extraordinary. It’s a miracle how strong we are and you are my dream, golden mouth from Taipei. I remember the chicken eaten bare hands. One of my favourite dinner with you. Actually it was a bit cold but fried eggs, rice and vegetables fed me perfectly. Any day, night spent with you gives more hope for this life. I want to be tourist forever with you. Soon there’s gonna be another adventure patata and I really can’t wait. Have a great day Stella , I love you.❤🐽🐒  ❤❤🐽 You brought strength amore I love you pat, everyone who does not is missing out something special you flower Can’t wait to have you here and make you feel so.🐒

Y: Honey, I feel lost and feel not in peace for a while. In the past years, I have been motivated to have goals and to always work hard to achieve it. From stuck in T for six years, my goal was to leave, and I did it. From being in school and deciding where to go for my internships, I did it all. And from graduating with honours with finance specialization, I did it. And once I’ve done it all, I feel lost. In the alchemist, one of the crystal merchant never went to Mecca because he was too afraid that if he did go, his life will be without a meaning. And now I feel like I’m in the stage where I am a plastic bottle in the ocean, going with the flow but at the same time struggling to tell myself I have some sort of “purpose”, goal, or dream. The truth is I have been lost for the past almost a year. I don’t know who I want to be anymore, I don’t know where I want to be, and I don’t know if I should stand up tall and just keep thriving without a direction or to do something else. I feel trap in this maze that I set myself in. I hope soon I can feel happiness and determination like the times when I walk down the stairs in the humid and stinky NYC subway, or stroll down the vertical avenues of the NYC street, passing through financial buildings, historical buildings, and parks. I want to feel the sense of coolness when biking down the road in bulle, where I see the nature at its best and worst in that far faraway town. I want to go out and meet new people and different people. I miss socializing with humans. I miss dancing and getting drunk with people have just met one hour ago. I miss feeling that I have a goal and purpose. I feel trapped, honey. And I feel my heart and brain is not glowing anymore, because I’m too afraid or don’t know where to go and what to do with my life. I feel dull. I used to look at the flower blooming and feel like the happiest person. I used to spend time going to supermarkets and struggle to find the cheapest discounts and feel rewarded. I used to go online and look for healthy recipe and make it for me and my sister. I used to be so fearless, and now I lost that sense of courage and feel dull….

6/20/17

P: Sometimes we find our selfs in times of trouble and nothing seams to be clear. This feeling of disruption, of detachment you had tonight is just the beginning of understanding who you really are. Life till now was easy; goals were clear, the path was well indicated and success was the only possible answer. Nevertheless after playing by the rules, after such a hectic life for the past few years, getting back to a sedentary life in the desert where freedom is not granted and humanity is hard to find like water..well I understand your struggle. I think nobody would be able to stand still, to not feel like you feel every here and than. You want to be stoic? You are already my love. You’ve been so strong, with self control and wise attitudes. Nobody said it was easy to go to D at 22 with the hope of a youngster and feel integrated in few months. Be resolute my love. Now that you have clear in your mind that even with top management positions, with all the possibilities in this world..when you have no one you love to cherish the fortune with, everything is gone. I would advice you to set new goals in your life, new steps to be achieved. Find something you want to improve of your self, take care of small soul facets you’d like to empower. Be close to spirituality and transcendence, feel the magic of love and have faith for a wonderful life. When you practice love and wisdom the rest will follow, I’m sure the light will guide you pat. I cannot teach you anything unfortunately because I know nothing. Wisdom or love are only practicable, liveable. When you are seeking and you’re able to find nothing, nothing because what you see is only what seeks, being obsessed with the goal I mean. What really finding is..is being free, being open, having no goal. Your soul is the whole world, the world that you create. Finally I want to tell you I love you so much because you’re full of questions, with very little answers. This is a sign not only of mere couriosity but mostly a sign of intelligence. I hope that within us there is a sort of sanctuary where we can both retreat and be our selfs with each other. Trough your struggle I’m learning my self new aspects of my soul and I’ll be always grateful to golden mouth. Don’t be so angry at your fate, because you’ll find new solutions. Great humans rise when in shitty situations. You are not alone on this planet patata, you are not the only one struggling in the chaotic cosmos. I’m here to hold your hand, not being ambitious to guide you, but just to tackle the flow together if you wish. I send you all my love and wish for a better day tomorrow. -4 and you are in my arms and I’ll be in yours. Ti bacio tanto amore, sei una stella❤🐽🐒

Y: Ciao patatoz  Thank you for being here I’m looking forward for the day when I am stronger. And looking forward for the day when I’m going to see you This Friday my love I can’t wait

6/21/17

P: Dear my waxed patata🐽🐽🐽🐽everything is ready to host you here. Please don’t cut your hairs tooo much. I have no words tonight to explain my will to have you here right now next to me sharing the same sky. I want to remember our dinner in front of Sophia mosque, with the muezzin calling the prayers. The food was delicious and I loved you so much that night. Maybe for the reason that you were dizzy just after a glass or because you always choose the nicest places for us. I love you and I need to have you in my arms amore. I’m super happy seeing you pimpin to come. Ti bacio🐒❤

6/22/17

P: I don’t even know if you’ll manage properly to read this message since screen is fucked! Patata -2 I don’t know if this is real. The magic you bring in my life is powerful. Today since you mentioned in our last call I want to jot down the memories of me walking on the floor in Taipei. It was amazing smoking up with you and just crawling in each other eyes. I loved how that night we went out for dinner whatsoever, I loved the way you just stayed there with me in the dumbest moment. I had a lot of fun with the best Jerome ever drinking beers, playing FIFA and talking about the news of the workd, (he was being very generous and I cooked pizza for us). Sabrina and matteo are at home and now I’ll try to go to bed knowing I’ll have to sleep deeply. I wish you were here my love to share bed with me. Tomorrow is the day, you didn’t fly out of the country recently and now you are coming to Geneva to meet me, you deserved that. Ti bacio, I can’t be more impatient, I wait for you here Stella.

6/23/17

P: Hey patata tonight I am excited about our love in a way I never experienced before. I am always up to speak with you and see what you’ve become shaped by life. I want you so much my patata that I can’t explain! I will send you all the infos and Sabrina will be there to open the door and get you settled. I love you, hope you’re confi there because here, here we will have to rock❤🐒ti bacio amore mio

Y: Amore I’m in Frankfurt Good to be back in Europe

P: Welcome home

P: Ciao pat! I’m in a super rush and late! S will be there to welcome you in, money on my desk inside the book, I forgot to leave the keys but you can  arrange with Sabrina since she has M’s. I should be done early I think since there is in class assignment. Be safe for the last bit and weekend is about to lit !!🐽🐽

6/26/17

Y: Dear pat.. ❤thank you for this weekend one again. I’m so grateful to have met you in my life, over the past 6 months, I have only loved you more not less. And like you said, when we are together we both feel more assured about who we are and want to be together. You are my love. I honestly have never met someone I love so much. Being with you I only have love, happiness, and sex. I honestly can’t wait for what’s more to come. I want to travel, live and have puppies with you. I can see myself spend time with you and being better for you and for us. Amore, for every moment looking into your eyes, I love you more. I’ll see you super soon ❤

6/27/17

P: Amore mio I can’t believe just few hours ago I was holding you tight and playing with you. I feel so happy when I’m with you whatever happens around. My soul is at his best when you are there and my body feels fearless. I can perceive the energy. I become stupid and I can’t stop to repeat pat pat and whaaaazzz uuuuuup! Anyway the thing is I’m in love with you. Hope you felt the life going fast, open heart and indulgent with me. I will always take care of you. We will meet soon mia dolce bocca d'orata. Ti bacio 🐒❤

Amore i love you so much that you can’t barely imagine. I never loved in my life that intensively and I can’t think of me loving someone more. Please trust me on that

6/28/17

P: Amore I don’t know how you do but you always manage to make me feel loved even when you are far away. These last days were amazing for me. I will never forget,whatever happens, the picnic with paella and sausages laying on grass. The stroking around the city, floating with the river’s current and the easy food. I’m in love with you, meaning that you’re my sexy exotic pussy and best friend, a home where to restore with joy. You buying a cake also makes me happy because you’re always gentle and generous. I hope tomorrow will be a fine day at work and I’ll Skype with my princess for sure,

If available. Ti bacio tanto amore mio. Mi manchi❤🐽love

6/29/17

P: My love we spent more than 2 and a half hour on Skype and calling today without counting the amount of messages and related stuff . I think this is love. I think about you all the time and I wish you were next to me all the time. I love you. The time we had sex till 1pm in milan with elisa in the apartment and than I run to giannasi to grab some food for us. I would be happy if I could continue to feed you for the rest of our remaining time. Please let’s make an effort and resist till we enter in our own place. I’ll be very happy that day especially if you’ll give me that pompino you promised. Buona notte tesoro, don’t be late tomorrow. Ti bacio tanto❤🐽🐒

6/30/17

P: Dear pat, distance is hard to understand many times and things seems to fade away, but in the deep of my heart I know you’re hear. Just next to me. I want, I need to create with you a value of life that would satisfy my soul. I want to be shaped by our necessities. I’m thrilled by the idea of being like water ready to leak into every grief. I’ll be always there for you, loyal to our love, asking for nothing, offering all I’ve got. These days may seem strange, hectic, full of confusion and different dreams. I truly hope our paths won’t take opposite direction. I see my self five years from now next to a great yet normal woman, simply sharing the time gifted to us. It’s widely spread the idea of how a relationship ought or shouldn’t be, how work life should or shouldn’t be. I don’t want to be part of any label. I want to shape our own time in a very personal way, asking many question without necessarily having all the answers. I want to print in my mind the lucky day when you were laying in this bed naked, satisfied by sex. I wish you were here with me right now to be animalistic in bed, flying high with our minds on the madness of the world out there. I thank every atom, particelle of experience that lead my path bumping into yours in a cold snowy night in Bulle. Since than slowly but surely our destinies were bound to partner. I love you my patata. I wish you a nice sleep. The stars of the desert are looking at you, because you’re beautiful and precious. Ti bacio sempre. ❤🐽🐒

7/1/17

P: Amore mio im in bed room with parents and they are sleeping already can’t really call You are my one and only princess on this planet. I need you so badly. I’m in a very small bed right now and wouldn’t share an inch with anyone.. but I’m sure with you this would be just fine. What I mean is that there always room for you to stay with me if you only wish. I can’t wait for the day when we will have a tesla and a couple of dogs..driving our down the road mood. I want to live my life with you and it’s hard to accept is still not happening. I miss you deeply tonight I want to touch your hairs and have you. I want to remember the first evening in Taipei where I rolled and your friends were astonished, I was talking to a South African friend on the phone regarding the shitty sumas situation, we were high and the air was hot. The only moments when I’m calm, happy are the one with you. I love you pat, buona notte.❤🐽🐒tuo P

Y: 💙💙💙 I know I’m always jealous and annoying But with you I can’t stop thinking about everything. All the happy and sad runs through my mind when thinking about you. You are the sunshine and strawberries, and my source of happiness and food.

Y:I was watching a series yesterday, don’t really remember what was it about, but one part the girl was saying how her ex boyfriend depend on her so much, he lost who he is, and how can she be with him when there’s no more him…. I fell asleep with those sentences in my mind, because i realize my happieness everyday depends on you too now. Of course it relates to other things, but I couldn’t imagine going through the first couple of the year in D without you. Not just in D but the fact that I can’t think and imagine another time right now without you. You are my source of happiness and dopamine. I seek for the messages you sent when I wake up, I look forward for the nights when we Skype, and I travel through time and cities having you with me. And this makes me afraid too. Because now again, I realized never love someone so much as I love you and there’s no one else I would want to share my happiness sadness anger and love with. I know I’m not the easiest girlfriend to be with, and thank you for giving me so much patience, kindness, and love. Be with me for a bit longer and I’ll give you all I can give…would you ? 💙 I love you my love ❤️ I’m always only thinking about you

7/2/17

P: Amore mio. You deliver love letters less than me. This is a matter of fact. But when you do, well it’s exceeding any expectations. I love you so much and every time is a special gift for me. I believe more than you that is possible, that for us there is a shared fate. You are not hard at all. In this world where we look only for perfection and fiction stories, I seek for mistakes, for the love of misunderstandings. I believe I love you not for your perfect body, for your smooth skin and sexy ass. I love you for te annoying part, for every small mistake you do that freaks me out. I’ll never stop loving you and I can’t wait for august to bring you to my home land. We will eat like kings and I’ll show you everything worth our precious time. Thanks for being you and sharing your time with me, my only princess. I depend on you and my happiness is bounded to yours, so please do not be afraid because there is no fear we can’t defeat together. Ti bacio tesoro mio. 🐽❤🐒always yours Have an amazing day tomorrow and please let me know username and password Let’s dream my love

7/3/17

P: Amore I just want to hug you so much And hold you tight t must have been something I can’t imagine But I’m sure you’ll manage to find your pictures I would like to be with you and go trough them together You know I’m here if you ever want to talk or call right?

P: ❤❤ my love I’m not prepared enough to understand how traumatising was that moment of your life for you. I can’t imagine you going trough such a horrible period and becoming the woman you are now. You’ve been amazing and I’m astonished, amused of you as always. You exceed any expectation, as always. I just want to be there and hug you tight in my arms I can’t stand the idea of you being there in the bed thinking of those things without my support. It makes me sick as well. In quinte sure now if I say I believe our moods are dramatically bounded and so I feel a bit sad as well. I’m very sorry for what happened and how you feel tonight. I hope one day we will be able to share this when we are together. I send you all of my support, please call me any moment of you have nightmares or anything, I’ll live the ringtone max level

Anyway tonight I want to remember the dinner in Oman, at the nice random restaurant before taking off for D, I loved that dinner as almost all the ones with you. I really liked the rice and all the dishes. We also changed table to go to the window one, I can remover we had a nice conversation. I enjoyed su much your company that night and I hope there are thousands to come. I need to live with you pat, I can’t wait any longer.

Juste remember call me if you need anything or if you wanna talk or just stay in silence. Un bacio grande stellina mia 🐽🐒

: I’m always yours and ready to give you my love❤🔥buona notte

7/4/17

P: amore mio in these days you’re making me feeling so loved and wanted that I can’t remember a better moment of my life for love and passion. I always think of you in a sweet way, moving than to a strong sexual desire and this is simply crazy because I’ve been always separating my sexual desire with the passion I hold for your mind, philosophy of life. I m hanging all my hopes for the time when I’ll be hugging you again, showing you the beauty of my homeland. I really need you badly here and in the future. I want to jot down tonight our joints in taipei especially the ones smoked on sun and moon lake just out of our small hotel. Do you remember the butler/receptionist asking for how I felt about the coffee? I admit I like every moment when you are there. Hope tonight is a smooth sleep in for my princess. Ti bacio tutta. love

7/5/17

P: I am loving with no expectation nor demands but only with the curiosity for what will happen, being sure the best is yet to come for us. I barely imagine a situation in which patata number one is without pataaa2. I know sometimes we become childish but it’s hilarious. I really like it. When you tease me I’m still loving you. These days Goldenmouth is making me so happy. I love you. I want to remember the first time I met your mum . I couldn’t say properly the things you thought me. I really loved my time in town with you. Everything form food to sleeping wee had was great and sometimes I dream about the market and being there eating anything. Tu bacio tanto amore mio❤🐒have a great day tomorrow

7/6/17

Y: Buona notte amore I love you 💓💓

P: Amore tesoro mio!❤ you are a crazy little lovely thing and I can’t can’t loving you. I’m so happy we obtained another adventure together and it’s gonna be great time because whatever happens or we do when we share same stars above us everything is magic, full of passion. I kind of like the memory of us walking into park de bastion in the morning and listening to the small van beats while sitting on the yellow iron chairs. It was a charming moment for me full of recalls. I want to drink coffe with you every morning and last ray of sunshine. Ti bacio tanto my love and I wish you sweet dreams. 🐽🐒 Can’t stop In the beginning *

7/7/17

P: My tesoro caro where you that tired?

I love you. I love your nose Y, your mouth and crazy voice. I love the way you walk and and how you smoothly surf life. I’m always thinking about how happy I’ll be when we’ll be together in august. I need to play with you and keeping you right tonne. I don’t want to ever let you go forever. I love you my sweet patata. Un bacio 🐽❤🐒always

Tight in my arms*

7/8/17

Y:My love, words can’t explain how much you mean to me. Your knowledge and love for life enlightens me to be the best version of myself with you and alone. Thank you for taking the time and patience teaching me the things that I forgotten or never know about. I promise you, each day, I’ll become more positive with our love. Not that I am not positive now, it’s just that there’s a burden of love for me when opening my heart to someone or going to someone’s heart. I love you so much but it’s still hard for me to see the way you see love. I do believe what you believe deep down, but I always forgot about it with my three second gold fish memories. I would like to have faith in us together. Please give me some time, as I never thought about I can be competed naked outside and in. Thank you for showing me another world. I love you my patata or should I say I am passionate about you.

P: Ciao My passion I miss you so much here

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Not so haute: six writers on their biggest fashion mistakes

From tights on the beach to head-to-toe taffeta, writers reveal the outfits they regret

Kenya Hunt My version of day-to-night dressing was a night-time look worn all day

Despite working at a fashion magazine, Ive made a few sartorial mistakes. I comfort myself with the sentiment of an Instagram edict I saw: If youve never looked a little dumb, youre not having fun.

Id count the moment I met my husband as an off day, so it pains me no end that the clothes I wore have become a part of our marital lore. In his mind, the outfit is key to a story that must be retold, again and again: She wore a shiny shirt, tight jeans, big, gold hoop earrings, tall boots and a giant white furry jacket. And I said, I need to know this woman.

This visual loudness the metallics, the big proportions, the shaggy texture was my everyday look back in my late 20s, when I was living and working in New York. I dressed this way to please no one other than myself. I relished being able finally to buy and wear the labels I read about in magazines, but could never find in my suburban childhood home in Virginia.

My version of day-to-night dressing was basically a night-time look worn all day ready for whatever fun might happen later. Id think nothing of a morning commute in glittery Miu Miu heels or a gold Chlo sequin skirt. (To be fair, it was the era of high heels, flashy coats and skirts that were either very big and long, or very short.) No matter what the prevailing trend, Ive always had a soft spot for the razzle. For further proof, see this old image of me in Milan, in bright colour and print, layered on top of more colour and print.

Now, my wardrobe stands on a foundation of grey, navy and black, mostly because it suits my lifestyle and the London weather. I limit the flamboyance to my accessories (a bright shoe, big earring, bold handbag) or show it through shape, such as an enormous puffer jacket. Its just that now I choose pragmatic black rather than hot pink.

Theres a real joy that comes with loud dressing, because it requires a certain kind of go-to-hell spirit. Ive come to indulge this in a more restrained way, but I dont regret the mistakes. If I did, Id have divorced my husband a long time ago, for telling that story so very, very often.

Kenya Hunt is fashion features director of Elle.

Ruth Lewy: To think that this was my coolest look

Ruth Lewy, aged 20, with Dizzee Rascal.

It was May 2006 and I was coming to the end of my first year of university. I had just received my first proper student journalism commission: an interview with Dizzee Rascal. I borrowed a Dictaphone and hastily scrawled down three pages of uninventive questions (What is the best thing youve ever got for free?).

Now the important bit: my look. I loved Dizzee; I knew his two albums back to front and had mastered all the words to Fix Up, Look Sharp. What was I going to wear?

To think, looking back, that this was my very best outfit. My coolest look. Not one floral print top but two, a T-shirt layered over a shirt. Not one necklace, but two. (Made with beads collected while InterRailing around Europe. I know.) My curly hair was slicked back with Brylcreem. Off I went, looking like Laura Ashleys long-lost daughter.

He was courteous, holding eye contact and answering all my inane questions with grace. (The best thing he ever got for free? A lifetimes supply of trainers.) I stood up and shook his hand, and he invited me to his afterparty. The next student journalist sat down and went straight in with a question about homophobic lyrics and issues of representation in pop music, and I thought, Ohhhh, thats what journalism is.

The evening took a strange turn. My friends and I crowded into a bar on the high street, where Dizzee had a roped-off section at the back. It didnt take him long to zone in on my gorgeous friend L, persuading her to leave with him. We were agog.

Twenty minutes later, she was back, laughing her head off at the way he had clumsily propositioned her. She chose us over him.

What do I see when I look at this picture? I feel embarrassed at my choices. But Im also glad I spent my 20s dressing like a weirdo: it demonstrates a self-confidence that I dont think I appreciated at the time. These days, you could still file most of my clothes under eclectic, but Im much more careful, uninventive even. Now I tend to wear only one necklace at a time.

My interview never appeared in the end; the other journalist broke the embargo (she went on to write for the Daily Mail: go figure). I was left with only this blurry picture, a reminder of my youthful enthusiasm for floral prints, and an uncanny impression of Dizzee Rascals best chat-up line.

Ruth Lewy is assistant editor of Guardian Weekend.

Nosheen Iqbal: Everyone else on the beach was 89% naked

Nosheen Iqbal in Tuscany, aged 21.

I was a skittish 21-year-old in the mid noughties and I had, against my will, ended up on a Tuscan beach. It was the height of summer, but I was wearing thick black tights, thicker black skirt, black scarf and witchy pumps . Everyone else was dressed in 89% naked and the entire beach was rammed. Id been sent on a work trip with four other journalists who were, as far as I was concerned, super-old (fortysomething) and, I hoped, probably willing to buy my stubborn refusal to strip as some cool youth thing. (They didnt.) I made an attempt to style it out by looking casually moody, staring out to sea behind sunglasses, pretending not to notice my shoes sinking in the sand, legs looking like inky black stumps.

Why dont you take off your tights?

No.

What about if

No.

A couple of key things: the seaside was not on my itinerary and I hadnt packed for it. I didnt (and dont) own swimwear or a bikini, and I didnt (and dont) know how to swim.

Being Muslim is barely an excuse to look as daft as I did; there are chic ways to be modest by the sea childhood memories of Karachis Clifton beach were proof, where lawn cotton tunic and trousers were everyones friend. But being Muslim, plus an average level of body dysmorphia, was my bikini body ready get-out card. I knew there had to be more comfortable ways to be in public than permanently sucking my stomach in wearing what is, essentially, waterproof underwear. But 100-denier hosiery was definitely not the answer.

The general advice to give a shy 21-year-old should always be, Its not as bad as you think, to allay their disproportionate embarrassment. Except, in this case, the cringe levels are fully warranted; I havent been to a hot, sunny beach since.

Nosheen Iqbal is a commissioning editor for G2.

Morwenna Ferrier: I cant remember why I decided to cut off my hair

Morwenna Ferrier in Aldeburgh in her early 20s.

Other outfits have been more challenging. The mother-of-pearl bustier I wore to my graduation, say. Or, recently, the T-shirt printed with Valerie Solanass Scum manifesto I wore to meet a friends baby. But the outfit I am wearing here, worn on a walk along Aldeburgh beach in Suffolk, is the one I most regret.

It started a few months earlier when, in my early 20s, I decided to cut off my hair. I cant remember why. I imagine I fancied a change and, in fairness, I liked it. But then, I looked like a boy in a dress. I reacted by phasing out dresses and instead wearing drainpipes, striped T-shirts and headscarves. None of this was good. In the photo, Im wearing tight cropped trousers under the dress.

I had spent my late teens in dresses, grungy or flowery, with self-cut hems. It was a more innocent time, when I didnt really care what I wore. But the haircut triggered an anxiety.

What is it I regret? Back then it was the haircut; now, its that I ever worried about looking like a boy. I clearly hadnt been paying attention in those Judith Butler seminars; maybe I was still too attached to the binary. As my hair grew out, I started to care for the first time about how I looked. At 24, late in life, I became self-conscious.

Morwenna Ferrier is the Guardians online fashion editor.

Pam Lucas: I looked like a turkey at Christmas

Pam Lucas at a family party, aged 39.

As a single parent in the 80s, I was dirt poor. I didnt have the opportunity to make fashion faux pas because I didnt have any money. We shopped in jumble sales, and we had fun.

My family was invited to a party to celebrate my aunt and uncles golden wedding anniversary. I didnt know them that well, but my mum wanted me to impress them by looking modern. In the 80s, that meant puffy sleeves and big shoulders. My mother came with me to buy the outfit from BHS , so I had to comply. I was 39 at the time.

It was a beautiful colour between purple and lilac but I didnt like the synthetic fabric. It was watermarked all over and had a flared, taffeta skirt and a little jacket with a peplum. I looked like a turkey at Christmas, but it was such a fab party, I soon forgot how uncomfortable I felt.

In a way the outfit is a testament to my relationship with my mother. I was a grownup, with a child of my own, but she was still trying to keep hold of the mum bit of herself.

Pam Lucas is a model and appears regularly in All Ages.

Tshepo Mokoena: I settled on a vague hippy child look

Tshepo Mokoena at 19.

It would be nice if we could start over. To spare me, and others my age, a fair bit of niggling shame, by wiping all early photos from our Facebook accounts. Anyone who set up a profile between 2004 and 2009 now lugs around the digital baggage of horrible pictures of misspent youth and terrible outfits.

Case in point: this delight of a photo. I was 19, killing time between the second and third years of uni in Brighton. In a few weeks, my housemate and I would set off on an impulsive charity volunteering trip to Kerala because and I still cringe wed watched Wes Andersons The Darjeeling Limited.

Until my early 20s, my aesthetic consisted of not knowing when to edit. At 18, I would layer at least three beaded necklaces, two chunky bracelets, about 17 bangles and seven rings, for no good reason.

I attended secondary school in Harare, Zimbabwe, largely insulated from fashion, more concerned with my whizzing hormones than the latest velour tracksuit. I settled on a vague hippy child look at 15 and filled my wardrobe with earthy prints, flared denim and jewellery picked up in local markets. By 19, I looked like a substitute art teacher.

If youre old enough to have only private, analogue photography from your youth, or young enough to have crafted a near-fictional version of yourself online, youre spared the permanent reminder of your mistakes: 1,287 grim images owned by Mark Zuckerberg. I implore other twentysomethings to join me in calling for a digital purge. Its time.

Tshepo Mokoena is the editor of Noisey.

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