#im glad i got into this game finally after allie insisted

[hanzobow]

happy to spend pride month being silly in game with some of my friends 💙

[hamilton-one-shots]

Hamilton High School AU 36

When he woke up hours later, Alexander groaned and sat up, feeling bloated from the pizza and overall, just gross. "John?.." He tried shaking him away. "John?.." He looked over and saw that he was shaking a pillow. He frowned and looked around, finding a note on the nightstand in John's handwriting.

[Hey, Alex. If you're reading this, I'm not at the apartment. I left to make sure my siblings were back home and okay and I'm going to make them some dinner. I left at 5 and I should be back no later than 6. If you want something specific for dinner, please text me to tell me. Otherwise, please text me anyways when you're awake and let me know how you're feeling. I'll explain everything that I know when I get back. I love you <3]

Alexander tutted and looked at the time. 5:48. At least he'd be back soon. He grabbed his phone and texted him. [hey] [im awaek] [awake*] [miss u] Then he figured that he at least owed Aaron a thanks. [hey] [im ok] [thnx 4 2day] [rly] [oew u big time] He sighed and put his phone in his pocket, then quickly took it back out. "What?.." He threw back the covers and gasped in horror at the warm, wet patch spread across the mattress. It couldn't exactly be helped with the drugs in his system, but still.. Did it have to be in John's bed?.. He got up and stripped the sheets off of the bed before stripping off his wet clothes and heading to the bathroom, taking a quick shower. He put on some of John's clothes and put a new set of bed sheets on the bed before taking the rest downstairs to the building's shared washing machines.

Aaron was the first to respond to the text messages. [I'm glad to hear that.] [Thomas didn't have anything to do with it, by the way. It was Jay.] [He got the drugs from Thomas, but he only gave them to him to get rid of. He said he never was going to use them on you.] [But I don't blame you if you don't believe me.]

John responded soon after. [I miss you too. I'll be home soon, I promise <3] [Do you want anything in particular to eat? I'll make you whatever you want whenever I get home.]

Alexander smiled and went to the group chat, figuring the rest of his friends would want to know he was okay.

[John's Bitch: hey] [John's Bitch: i lived] [John's Bitch: kinda] [John's Bitch: evrythin is sore] [John's Bitch: but im ok]

[Kitty Mom 🐱: Thank goodness! I was so worried about you! 😫]

[MamasBoi: thank fuck] [MamasBoi: what happened?? Jefferson?]

[John's Bitch: idk] [John's Bitch: i dnt thnk so] [John's Bitch: i dnt trst jay]

[Kitty Mom 🐱: I hope you feel better soon. Are you guys still up for the party tonight?]

[OhMyGod:*: Not sure.]

[Kitty Mom 🐱: Maybe we should reschedule?]

[OhMyGod:*: Not if it'd be too much trouble. Its more Alexander's choice.]

[John's Bitch: no its cwl] [John's Bitch: ur mom jst caem home] [John's Bitch: we shoud selebr8]

[MamasBoi: you sure?] [MamasBoi: At least take it easy with drinks 😜]

[John's Bitch: wil do] [John's Bitch: no intenshons of goin loopy] [John's Bitch: ..agen]

[Kitty Mom 🐱: Its fine <3 I'm just glad that you're okay.] [Kitty Mom 🐱: I'll snag that vodka bottle from your room.] [Kitty Mom 🐱: Hey, with that and all of the other alcohol around, there's no doubt that John will get wasted! : D]

[OhMyGod:*: Why are you so happy for that?]

[Kitty Mom 🐱: Maybe seeing you act like an idiot will help him feel better! : D]

[OhMyGod:*: Wow...] [OhMyGod:*: Glad I can help.]

[Kitty Mom 🐱: <3 <3 <3]

John finally showed up as Alexander sat by the dryer and wrapped his arms around him, kissing his cheek. "Hey, I was so worried about you..."

"I'm okay.. Just a bit off.."

"Okay.. What are you doing down here?"

Alexander hesitated to respond. "I... I wet the bed.. I just woke up and.. Yeah... But I changed the sheets and everything.. I'm sorry.."

"I'm not upset or anything. I know you couldn't help it."

Alexander nodded, though he was still embarrassed by the fact.

John held him close. "I'm going to kill Jay on Monday.. I don't know what he was planning on doing, but he used the date-rape drug on you.."

"He was acting funny since I got in the car.. Something about being my resident John and getting Jefferson there and buying my drinks.. I should've seen it.."

"You couldn't have known. Those things are meant to be undetectable.. You're okay now and that's what matters..."

Alexander looked up at him. "Everything was blurry and bright and scary.. But you came and I knew everything was going to be okay.." He smiled.

John kissed his cheek and smiled. "Of course. You know there's nothing I wouldn't do for you. I love you so much.."

Alexander couldn't help but blush. "I'm so lucky to have you.. Even when you make me eat my body's weight in pizza," he chuckled. He remembered pretty much everything from the past few hours.

John rolled his eyes playfully. "Yeah, yeah. Why don't we take the sheets and your clothes upstairs, then get ready for the party?"

"Sounds like a plan."

John grabbed everything from the dryer once it went off, then took it upstairs. He gave Alexander his clothes and folded his sheets, then left with him and walked to Herc's place.

When they got there, Sarah greeted them with a wide smile. "Ally! It has been too long!" She pulled him into a tight hug before taking a second to look at him. "You've gained some weight, I see! That's great!"

Maybe the others may not have noticed it as much, but it was definitely true. Compared to just a week ago, Alexander didn't look nearly as frail, though he did feel like his eyes would pop out of his skull if Sarah hugged him like that again.

"Are you calling me fat?" he teased, causing her to roll her eyes.

"Oh, hush." She smiled and turned to John. "Martha was such a little lady earlier, John. She insisted on helping clean before leaving. She's so mature."

John nodded. "That's Martha for you."

Sarah smiled and led them to the living room where Lafayette and Hercules were sitting on the sofa, already with drinks in their hand and shot glasses on the table.

"Hey, guys," Hercules greeted. "Come join us." The game in front of them was a Snakes and Ladders board modified for other purposes. Most spaces without a snake or ladder occupying it had an instruction written in instead.

John sat down with them and took the dice as Lafayette handed them to him. He chose a game piece and rolled the dice, moving as the dice instructed. He landed on a blank piece and tutted, giving the dice to Alexander. "Want to play?"

"Yeah, sure." He rolled the dice and on 'Down your drink'. "Ha! Stupid game, I don't have a drink ye-" He cut himself off as Hercules pushed his glass of Guinness in his direction. "Gee, thanks. Herc-germs." He picked up the glass and downed it's contents. The glass had only been half full and the drink wasn't particularly strong, so it was no mystery as to why he gave him that one.

Lafayette took his turn next, rolling the dice and landing on 'Everyone Takes a Shot'. He grinned and poured some of the vodka that he'd snagged from Alexander's room into the shot glasses that surrounded the table.

Alexander almost wanted to protest, but he did practically drink all of Laf's wine last time they'd gotten drunk. It was only fair. He took his shot and watched as Hercules took his turn, landing on a blank spot before handing John the dice.

John rolled the dice and moved his piece, also landing on 'Down Your Drink'. Before he could make the same joke as Alexander, Lafayette poured a glass of wine for him. "Thanks for the girly drink," he joked, knowing how strong the drink really was as it scorched his throat. "Christ, Laf."

Alexander watched and felt memories flood back of last time. He grabbed the sharpie from the table and scribbled untidily on a few of the blank tiles 'Kiss BF'.

Hercules chuckled. "Someone's trying to say something."

"Shut up." He rolled the dice and moved his piece, landing on 'Next player takes a shot'. "There you go, Laf."

He shrugged and downed the shot like it was nothing, taking his turn and landing on a blank space.

While Hercules took his turn, John turned to face Alexander with a cheeky grin. "If you wanted a kiss, all you had to do was ask." He cupped Alexander's face in his hands and pressed his lips to his in a loving kiss.

Alexander let his eyes fall shut as he kissed back, intoxicated by the taste of the wine on John's tongue. He only pulled away when Hercules cleared his throat to get their attention. "What? Is it my turn?"

"No, Casanova, it's where I landed." He pointed at the 'Choose a player to take a shot' written on the tile.

Alexander tutted and poured himself a shot, then downed it. He was certainly starting to feel a light buzz, though he could've sworn that it was more from the taste of John's lips than of any alcohol he drank.

John watched him, in a love struck daze until Lafayette got his attention.

"Your turn, John."

"Yeah, yeah." He took the dice and moved, grinning as he landed on 'Kiss BF'. Perfect. He turned to Alexander and pulled him into a passionate kiss, not pulling away until he was out of breath. "How was that for a kiss?" he asked with a cheeky grin as he dropped the dice into Alexander's palm.

All that escaped Alexander was a strained squeak. He blushed and rolled the dice, lazily rolling them across the board and landing on another 'Down Your Drink' tile. He tutted and downed a glass of wine, though he thought it was too good to waste like that.

"Maybe you should skip a few turns.." Hercules suggested. After all, it wasn't like Alexander hadn't just gotten date raped. Still, Alexander made them promise not to bring it up, so he threw in a joke for good measure. "Otherwise, you'll be borrowing condoms before you get up the stairs."

Alexander shot him a playful glare, but it worked.

It worked for John, too. He went quiet for a second. "Maybe I should skip a few turns, too.."

Hercules cursed himself for that comment and cursed the alcohol for making him lose his ability to censor his thoughts.

Lafayette shifted everyone's focus back to the game, taking his turn and landing on a blank space.

Hercules went next. Another blank space. They went back and forth like that for a minute until Alexander piped up.

"Don't you have anything else to fill the spaces with?"

"Do you have anything in mind?" Hercules asked, offering the sharpie.

"Maybe.." He wrote on a few more blank spaces 'text'.

"Text?" Lafayette asked.

"Yeah. You choose someone and give them your phone and they choose anyone to text."

"Very evil. I like it." Hercules nodded in approval before offering John the dice.

"Sure." He smiled a bit and took the dice, rolling them. Of course, he landed on 'text'. He pulled out his phone and pondered his choices. "Let's see... Lafayette is embarrassing just being Lafayette, Hercules has no filter when drunk, and Alexander is Alexander.." He gave Alexander his phone.

Alexander rolled his eyes and went through his phone, already knowing exactly who to text. [madison, if u had a kid nd maed them angery, wud they be ur mad son? pls respond. v importnt.] Alexander handed back John's phone, like he hadn't just text James the most god awful pun. It wasn't long before he got a reply.

[...I came out of a movie with Dolley to answer this.] [Damn it, man.]

John chuckled and responded. [Lol, so sorry dude] [We're playing a game and I had to let Alexander text anyone he chose] [And he chose you] [So sorry :' )] "Where would I be without my jealous boyfriend tormenting my business partner?"

"I don't know what you mean."

Lafayette took the dice and took his turn, landing on another 'Take a shot' tile. He downed the shot with ease and passed the dice to Hercules, who took his turn and landed on 'Everyone takes a shot'. Everyone downed their shot, then John took his turn.

He landed on another 'Take a shot' tile and did just that, feeling the alcohol mess with his system. He sighed contently and leaned into Alexander.

Lafayette smiled at the dorky drunk and took his turn, landing on 'Person on your right takes a shot'. he poured a shot and passed it to Hercules along with a kiss on the cheek.

Hercules smiled and downed the shot, feeling the same buzz that John was. "Dia, tá tú chomh álainn, leanbh..." ("God, you are so beautiful, baby ...") he muttered in Irish.

"Slow those flirty tones, son," Hugh chuckled from the kitchen.

John snorted with laughter and took his turn, landing on a blank space.

Alexander, despite Herc's warning, took a turn and landed right on a 'text' tile. Like John, he ruled out Hercules immediately and ended up giving his phone to John, figuring it was only fair. "Go easy on me, won't you?"

"Maybe." He giggled and went through his phone. [Hey, Aaron. Thanks for helping me with club stuff, but don't get too friendly. I have an amazing boyfriend, after all 💗]

It didn't take long for him to respond. [Hmm... Judging by the mainly correct grammar, I'm assuming this is that amazing boyfriend.]

John giggled. [You caught me : P]

Aaron responded. [Okay. No need to get jealous.]

[Just a warning : )]

"And I'm the jealous boyfriend?" Alexander asked with a chuckle.

John ignored him and cuddled into Alexander's stomach. "My baby.." he hummed.  

[jons v. drunk] [lmao] [dw: ur not my tipe anywai ;)]

[Now it makes sense. John's a very sensible person when sober.] [And you'll be glad to know that you're not my type in the slightest.]

[rude]

John whined and grabbed Alex's wrist, taking his hand and putting it against his cheek. "I'm amazing, too.."

Alexander felt a pang of guilt. Ironically, he'd only been hanging out with Aaron so much because he wanted to make the art department as a surprise for John, but he couldn't very well tell him that. "I'm sorry.." He kissed his hand. "I love you so much, more than anyone."

John smiled and sat up a bit. "I love you too. I'm sorry for being stupid and jealous. Don't feel guilty."

"You're not an idi-" He was cut off by John squishing his cheeks together and giggling sweetly. He was always just melting his heart. When he let go of his face, Alexander smiled and put a hand behind John's head, pulling him down into a hug and holding him close. Nobody was going to hurt him anymore. "You know, I really prefer my guys with curly hair and freckles, anyways."

John smiled and looked up at him, his chin resting on his chest. "I have curly hair and freckles!"

"You do!" Alexander smiled, as if it was some sort of epiphany.

Hercules tutted and leaned against Lafayette. "I'm glad we're not soppy like that. We don't have to be for you to know I love you."

"Of course we don't," Lafayette claimed, though Hercules was just as soppy and silly.

Sarah giggled, looking over at them. They were all so sweet together, so in love, just like herself and Hugh.

Hercules looked over at her and her orange juice. "You're not drinking?" Sarah wasn't a heavy drinker by any means, but she hardly ever passed up a chance to drink with her family.

"No, not tonight."

"Why not? Everything okay?"

"Well, we were going to wait a while longer to tell you, but you're going to be an older brother."

[survivor-mountmerapi]

Ep. 12: “This round feels like a season of glee” - Steven

Anastasia

So I did something finally. I flipped on the newbies and sent Madi home. Honestly the only thing I did differently was actually think about the game and numbers. Plus I talked to people and made a really good bond with DeNara. I'm also a little better with Raffy, not that it matters bcs we are somehow getting Raffy outta here I think. I know the next competition is endurance and that's apperantly Raffy's strong suit. So frick. But I know where everything stands for once. I know who is working with who I THINK. So I just need to survive next round and gain the numbers.

Gian

My revenge is coming for being left out of this vote. Idk when and how I'll do it but I will do whatever it takes.

DeNara

Thank goodness I survived this vote! All thanks to Anastasia! I need a brain break, I am so tired now lol

Raffy

An hour before tribal council, Elle decided that she would give me the immunity necklace. The reasoning she told me is that we need a strong 4 votes to cause a tie. Anastasia told DeNara that she would be flipping on Madi and Gian by voting Rachel (which is what that side thought we were doing). Because of this, I wanted to use my SWP since they would have a 4-3 majority. However, Elle believed that we could not trust Anastasia until after tribal. Anastasia could be lying and wanting me to play the SWP (which Madi and Gian happily spread around) so the newbies would have 4-3. Despite this, I wanted to be safe because I was starting to worry that Madi would play her idol on herself. The compromise would be that Elle would give me the immunity necklace which did occur. Finally, the alliance's acting paid off as Madi misplayed the idol which caused her to get voted out. Now, the Faes alliance is the majority alliance. Wig.

I have new worries going into this round. Anastasia really wants to do big moves, so she should want to vote me out now that Madi is gone. My other worry is that Anastasia is much more loyal and is a solid ally for DeNara, not me. This means, if DeNara was so inclined, she could get the numbers to vote me out. DeNara is going to get a lot of power the further we get. It's very interesting to see what the breakdown is. Due to this, I have decided to keep my door open with Gian. Steven agreed that we could potentially work with Gian to hide behind him as a shield. Also, this is kind of an emotional thing because I really do feel close to Gian. I do not know what kind of move I'd do to keep Gian this round. If he wins immunity, then it would be great and I would not have to do any maneuvering. However, in all scenarios except one, I am betraying my allies which is not a good look for me. My idea is to finally get Rachel out this round, so it would keep Gian in the game while keeping my allies good with me.

Raffy

I got on call with Gian earlier today to express a desire to work with him to target Anastasia or DeNara. I was doing a lot of talking during the call which had me worry as he seemed to just be taking in this information without providing any back. This had me skeptical on whether or not he wanted to work with me. My skepticism was correct. According to DeNara, Gian told Anastasia that I want to target her for being a wildcard this round. He used the information I gave him against me. However, thanks to my very good relationship with DeNara, I am now in the know that he does not want to work with me. Bye Gian. Say hi to Madi in jury for me. I might just use my SWP just to be sure. Plus, it forces Anastasia to target Gian instead of me for this round.

Raffy

The current plan is for DeNara to tell Anastasia that she is willing to flip after a bit of reluctance. In actuality, we are just trying to make them think that Gian is the vote. At tribal, we will all vote for Rachel instead in case there is an idol. I am VERY nervous for this tribal. I do not want to be here. According to DeNara, Elle would be the person the newbies vote for if I leave which is perfectly fine with me. I need to survive. I have to get to F6. There's really no guarantee that this plan even works in the first place. And does DeNara even trust me after hearing all that information from Gian's rat mouth? UGH. The paranoia is way too high for my liking.

DeNara

Honestly this game is so tiring, why do I torture myself with this stress? Oh because I love Survivor that's why. Lol. Soooooo Anastasia wants to flip on Raffy, Steven and Elle and take Raffy out of the game because he is a threat. Which means I am in the middle....AGAIN. It is Raffy, Elle, and Steven vs. Gian, Rachel and Anastasia. I want to stay with Raffy, Elle and Steven and take out Rachel this vote and then flip and take Raffy out next vote so I can keep the numbers but I am super super super nervous of Raffy. I caught Raffy in a lie today. I talked to Gian and he said he was on call with Steven and Raffy earlier and that Raffy was throwing my name out because I have a good relationship with Elle, Rachel and Anastasia (which I do). I called Steven and he admitted that the 3 of them did talk, but he said that Raffy was saying Rachel the whole time, not me. BUT when I went on call with Raffy, Steven and Elle I told Raffy that Gian said he went on call with him and he started to make an excuse saying he was at school all day and that wasn't true. THEN Steven said to Raffy that he already told me they were on call so Raffy had to back track..... All the newbies are saying to Raffy that they are voting for me.... so I am scared Raffy is working with the newbies to get me out since I have become such a threat.

Steven says it wouldn't make any sense for Raffy to flip and get me out now, but if they all think I have become a bigger threat than Raffy, he could very well flip and take me out. I really really hope Raffy is being honest about wanting to vote Rachel out or I am super hecked tomorrow. Here is to hoping I am in the game after the next tribal!!!!!!!

Gian

After a very insightful conversation with the VL, I've decided to grab the game by the balls and attempt to get out the kingpin of the game (again) or at least weaken him by taking out one of his minions. I'm being super careful this time about everything. Saying the right things to the right people can cause panic and paranoia and victimizing myself from the last vote--I'm using that to my advantage. Let's hope this pays off. If not, at least I'm leaving with a big swing!

DeNara

My morning of paranoia continues. I don't think Raffy will flip because it would be a stupid move rn, but I do think I need to be careful. This will likely be the last time I can truly play the middle like I have been.

I feel so bad about lying to Anastasia because she did save me, but this is what is best for my game. I also feel bad for Rachel because we have gotten close and I dont want to vote her out. Really I want Gian out next but I have to stick with my alliance.

Rachel

I love the misconceptions of this game. Even if i'm on the outside. That was an excellent play by the returnees. I am so sad to see Madi go! She was with Gian and I since day 1. I can never repay her for using her idol for me. I am just shocked Anastasia flipped too, but I understand her reasoning (even though i thought we we're a solid 4). Hopefully we can make a big move this round and if not, we'll go out trying! I just hope Gian and I are truly not at the bottom. I wish we got Raffy out sooner, but only cause he is such a great player-socially and strategically.

Elle

I'm in class rn lol but here's a convo I just had with Dylan in my Host Chat 10:10 AM VL: The amount of lies I've heard and confirmed they are lies before 9am is absolutely terrifying to me 😅 GUYS THIS IS GONNA BE SO MESSY OMG Dylan, 10:12 AM wild what all is happening 10:14 AM so yesterday, gian went on call with steven and raffy to vote denara out but then on our alliance call, raffy tried to deny any meeting when denara asked, until steven was like "no okay we called, to vote out rachel" and now denara is being a double agent trying to convince the newbies shes gonna vote for raffy in exchange for safety so it seems like maybe the newbies dont actually want denara out and are trying to scare her into siding with them? why raf and steven are lying i dont know Dylan, 10:18 AM spicy [tiktok voice] that’s suspicious...that’s weird re: raffy and steven 10:20 AM mhm?? like it's fine if they're tricking the newbies but why lie to us anyway im perfectly out of the direct loop completely because now ppl think im completely in raffy's pocket but also that me and denara are probs close so im just "she's there." Dylan, 10:22 AM oof not a fun position to be in 10:23 AM nah im fine w it i hate lying lmao this way im mostly just watching it happen while talking to ppl about like, good playlists khjdlsajldj

Anastasia

So I got Denara on board with teaming with the newbies and together we will all take down Raffys trio hopefully. We will most likely target Elle instead of Raffy so we can take out one of his minions. I think the safest option would be to vote Steven because I think nobody would expect that but Gian insists Elle. I think Elle has an idol. Lets just hope she feels safe. ALSO IM SO GLAD IM SAFE but now im just worried for my future because I obviously need numbers to move on.

Elle

D: I don't knowwww whats happening okay so basically it seems like neither side has an idol and is psyching the other out that they do but probability wise at least one person has an idol rn??? So idk ugh :/ what the heck is going on anyway I'm making a playlist and i need new music for it send me a song recc everyone reading this like a month later i promise ill give any song a listen🎶

Raffy

The plan seems to be going well. DeNara has successfully infiltrated the newbie group and is leaking their shit. According to her, the newbies are scared that I have an idol and want to target Elle instead. I would love to push this narrative, but I don't know how. If I can get them to target Elle over me, then this would be great. However, I do believe now that they do not have an idol based on all that DeNara has spilled on their paranoia. It should be a successful 4-3 with Rachel getting the boot. Then, I am guaranteed F5 in this game.

Steven

This round feels like a season of glee where people are just trying to hit plot points with no rhyme or reason

Steven

https://youtu.be/xfJ6x988Dqw

DeNara

I am in the middle and so stressed. Do I vote Rachel or Raffy?!?!?!?! Maybe it is me

DeNara

I am so stressed... oh my gosh! If I get voted out, it was a great move by the others and I will regret not voting Raffy

[survivorsolomonislands]

Episode 6 “bye bye winning streak” - Karen

The complete opposite of what usually happens, Aro did my dirty work instead of me doing his! I'm so proud of him but I revealed a lot of stuff about our connection to Mitchell yesterday bc I was certain he wouldn't be able to pull off a change in the vote but I'm really glad he did anyways bc now I still have an unflappable ally in the game and someone who was actively targeting me like two weeks ago is gone instead! :)))

I can't believe that actually worked. We probably could have gotten out Daisy like planned but we thought she was gonna use her idol last minute so we switched to Monty. But either way, I live to see another day.

Also! I've outperformed myself in Arabia so that's lit! Day 16 y'all!

I know I say this in like all of my confessionals, but I'm really worried for this challenge. Like its so simple, but that's what makes it hard? and I mess up really easily too, so I'm a bit nervous.

Hi I'm zakrazzak and i think im in a good position in this game? i never feel like that in any game ever i always just assume im gonna be voted out should we end up at tribal but this time i feel... completely safe with just about everyone??? weird. i think me, mitch, and dana lowkey made a f3? but like dana hates duos and they both know me and aro are fuckbuddies so im a little concerned. they both kinda really want to get karen out because she and lexi are pretty much a duo and we all know it, no ones heard anything about the idol yet and im assuming someone has it to be honest so that could make things messy. I'm pretty much just assuming we're going to tribal at this point and, for me, the choice would be down to either Karen or Allie - Karen and Lexi are way too dangerous and were targeting me week one, Allie pretty much just doesnt talk. im kinda really worried about voting out another vet so soon seeing as Linus and Monty the traitor just left back to back but I'm hopeful a little i guess

Man, I gotta tell you... ok i just noticed the top of the confessional page is a gif??? Wtf!! Okay so where was I.......... during the challenge, I thought that Aromal needed to win it to be safe. He basically confirmed what we'd suspected - that he'd flipped to Linus and Monty, and then Monty had flipped on Linus, leaving him on the outs. Aromal seems like a great guy and a potential ally, so it definitely sucked sending him off to Tribal Council. It even got to the point where I saw if I could give him my Idol - the people who would survive on that tribe probably don't have my interests at heart, but Aromal might. I couldn't, and was resigned to the fact that Aromal, a good potential ally, would be going. But then Aromal survived and Monty got axed!!! I was absolutely FLOORED to see that. FLOORED. I liked Monty and think in another world we could've worked together, but it's about damn time the Karen/Lexi/Monty clique got taken out, and it's even better that I didn't have to do anything but stay immune for four consecutive rounds in order to make it happen. Aromal survives, a potential ally but admittedly a member of a threatening obvious trio went home, and I lived to see another day. And on another note... I hope that I don't start to get seen as a challenge threat. Admittedly, I did win the last two immunity challenges for my tribe by myself, but speed typing and Jeopardy! are like the only two challenges I'm good at. That's not necessarily true, as I proved in Malaysia that I'm a bit of a force in challenges from Snake to Touchy Subjects, but in a tribal setting, the two challenges I won are ones that I'm dominant in and can't hide if I want to protect my tribe. I'm hoping that I've created strong enough bonds so that people aren't seeing me as a challenge threat - they're seeing me as my ally Mitchell who's been doing good for our tribe. But it's going to come down to some point where I can't deny my challenge abilities, and I'm working to prepare myself for when that happens.

I FUCKED UP THAT CHALLENGE. FUCK FUCK FUCK. I just feel awful, even though I was the last one left, I just feel like Makira immunity was all on me, and I let everyone down. I know we haven't officially lost yet but it sorta feels like we have since we all fucked up early. I was looking at another number and got distracted, so I really have no excuse, and god I just feel awful about it idk. On another really terrible note, I think someone else has the idol. Because Allie looked in the plane wreck, and there was nothing there. Also when Karen sent us the spreadsheet that the vets made someone had looked in the plane wreckage, so that means one of the vets has the idol :////. I could be completely wrong about this but I don't think its Karen or Mitchell that have the idol because Karen sent the spreadsheet before she looked for the idol that round, and Mitchell made some joke about expired Walmart coupons, which was on Karen's spreadsheet for where the idol wasn't. So that must mean that either Dana or Zakriah have the idol. Also on the vets spreadsheet it has it as the idol is not in the plane wreckage, so whoever found the idol must be lying about it to the other vets. But I also could be completely wrong about this, so yeah.

Recently the game has been going pretty well for me. After losing Lily, two vets have gone home, which has put the numbers in our favor. I high-key hope that LA and Daisy lose that challenge for their tribe, and take out Aro for flipping on Lily, and it also seems like Daisy and LA left Aro out of the loop on the last vote, so getting rid of him would be like getting rid of a vet. Jacob made me aware that he fucked up on the immunity challenge, and I know my score was about average, so at this point, we're falling on Luca to do really well, and we're also falling on another tribe to fuck up, so I'm hardcore hoping at this point. I thought we were going to swap this past round, but we're still here, and if this tribe heads to tribal council, I don't entirely know what my plan is, BUT I do know that I was offered a f4 deal with the vets, which I might play up, but I'm not entirely too sure about it. I might cohesively vote out Luca, with the vets and Jacob, and hope that that's a good long term move on my part, with keeping Ryan, Matt and Lex trusting me, but I'm not entirely too sure how it'll all play out, but at this point, I am expecting to go to tribal council and have a crazy round of tribal ahead of us.

I think I just orchestrated a master plan, and I made this because I'm extra careful, and really covering all my bases, but if this works, I'm going to come out of this tribal with a strong alliance of four, consisting of two veterans, and letting all three rookies from this tribe stay in it, leaving me, and my closest ally, Jacob, in the power position in this game. First I need to backtrack. I spoke to Matt a few rounds ago, and he was badgering me about a final four alliance with the vets.... mkay dude. That's definitely going to happen *shakes head furiously behind his back.* However, apparently he had been having conversations with Luca, and Luca was insistent to Matt that Lexi needed to go home, and that it'd be easy since she was inactive, but that's not the path I'm looking to take here. Lexi is the veteran in the game I'm probably the closest to, and I would almost prefer Luca the rookie go home over Lex, because she's proven to be a great ally, and an incredible asset to my game. My plan was to approach Lexi, and go back to the relationship deal we made the night we swapped, go up to her, and make an approach of letting her decide whether she'd prefer Ryan or Matt to go home. Once she said she would prefer to vote for Matt, I knew that I could use a lot of what Matt said to Luca, against Matt. I told Lex that Matt said if enough votes were there to take out Lex, she would do it, which made Lex be more willing to take Matt out of the game, and I set the ball in motion to make it happen. I went to Jacob and Luca to explain the plan of Lex flipping to us, to vote out Matt, and that Luca needs to get the thought out of his head of taking Lex out of the game, mainly because she is one of my closest allies. As of right now: Lex is with me, and she is voting out Matt with Jacob, Luca and I, and hopefully, unless Matt has an idol, Matt is going to go home. HOWEVER, Matt thinks that I have a f4 deal with Lex, Matt and Ryan, and that we're all voting for Luca. Matt wants to vote for Luca because Luca is apparently threatening, for outright targeting Lex, and being too strategic, so that works out fine for me. Luca and Matt should be the only two targeted. My plan heading into this tribal, assuming we even lose the challenge, is for Lex to be the one to approach Ryan, and she is going to propose a four person alliance between Jacob, Ryan, Lex and I, and this way, we can make a chat, and rope Ryan in into voting for Matt, and letting him know that the four of us need to make sure that all of the votes, regardless of who goes home, the votes are on Luca and Matt. I don't see Lex, or Ryan for that matter, lying about their vote, because I don't get the vibe that they're super cutthroat, like I am, so hopefully we're going to be good. Five of us voting for Matt, and Matt thinking that the vets and me are voting for Luca. Time to pray that we don't lose immunity, but if we lose, I'm all planned out, in a very discrete manner as well To enable screen reader support, press shortcut Ctrl+Alt+Z. To learn about keyboard shortcuts, press shortcut Ctrl+slash.

Today was very interesting. It's been the first time in ages since we knew we did poorly in an immunity, and the swapped Temoana might be going to tribal council for the very first time. We're not allowed to share our scores but we know we did poorly. And something interesting, game-related finally happened. I was talking to Johnny and Jacob today in our three, and Matt apparently approached Johnny for an F4 because he wants the Vets and him to vote me out if we lose - he's saying I'm playing hard. I brought Lexi up to him before, and quite honestly that was because she wasn't online much. But now that she's back on, I think I'm gonna need to try and work with her. Matt is a snake and he's playing the game very hard right now. I trust Johnny/Jacob enough to tie it. Lexi promised me she wouldn't vote me, so I think I'm safe today. Hopefully. No idea on what Ryan is doing right now.

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Well this challenge has been really interesting, basically I was kind of already resigned to losing the challenge because I was under the impression we were gonna show some like single digit scores, but I guess we won. I'm happy about winning because we have six pretty good people on this tribe and if we swap I have this nuTemoana alliance and the old Vets who I could potentially align with, but who knows what's going to happen? Basically tho, I think I am in a good spot on this tribe because I pretty much orchestrated a blindside of Luca that we aren't actually going to be playing out but oh well... I'm kind of eager to play this game just so I can really get my finger on the pulse of this strategic game, but if I have to sit back and play from the shadows and just observe then so be it, call me the Shadow King, because I will be so god damn sneaky no one will see me coming until i slit their throats. Slice slice.

YO FOR REAL I'M ACTUALLY SO MOTHERFUCKING PISSED THAT OUR TRIBE LOST THIS CHALLENGE! I'M GOING TO LOSE MY FUCKING MIND THAT *ME* DOING WELL IN A CHALLENGE IS GOING TO BE THE DOWNFALL FOR MY GAME. I am 99% sure that Matt would've gone home, and that would've taken a vet out of the game, and now Willow or Allie is going to probably going home, unless they pull a horse shoe out of their ass, and those are two of my closest long term allies in this game, and all of a sudden, they're at risk, and my team is going to fucking be safe, when I had convinced Lex to make such a BIG move, and now, we can't even make the move, all because I fucking did too well in the challenge. I'm actually losing my mind how badly I fucked this up for my game, and I didn't MEAN to do well, it just fucking happened. I hate being good at shit! FUCKKKKKKKKKKK

FOR THE FIRST TIME SINCE THE SWAP ULAWA IS NOT GOING TO TRIBAL AND ITS ALL THANKS TO ME. I DON'T CARE HOW COCKY OR BRAGGY THAT SOUNDS BECAUSE MY SCORE ALONE BEAT THE OTHERS TRIBES TOTALS. And Aro fucking threw the thing, he told me he wanted to in order to make daisy use her idol but that was the stupidest fucking idea and I told him no, that we need to win for once and then he throws it anyways. Daisy's score wasn't the greatest either, IT MUST BE SO NICE HAVING AN IDOL CAUSE APPARENTLY IT MEANS YOU DON'T HAVE TO TRY. CAN YOU TELL HOW BITTER I AM?! Honestly though, maybe its because I game a lot, but I'm used to having teammates who actually help and put effort in. We might make jokes about one person carrying the team but its all in good fun and the rest of us do help, BUT NOT ON ULAWA. (still a little bitter over here) I'm worried this will put a bigger target on my back, if Daisy already considers me to be a challenge threat, this does no help my case at all and others might share that concern now too. At this point I'm just hoping the alliances I made before the swap are still there and I can move forward with them. I am happy we, I, won though. It might not seem like it but I am so relieved for once I don't have to stress about tribal.

Who're the three best challenge performers on NuMakira?? Me, Dana, and Karen. But all three of us were busy!! So Allie, Willow, and Zak came up to the plate. It's an easy challenge. It's... counting. It's literally fucking counting. I've won four immunity challenges in a row and all that stands between me and #5 is counting. All they gotta do is count. ...that's it. Now I've never done this challenge before, but I assume it shouldn't be that difficult to count, right?? WRONG WDFEWDFSDCEWDSAHONFWD within like 2 hours all three of them were out, so we had an entire extra day to prepare for Tribal Council. The results came in and our lowest scorer did better than both of Ulawa's lowest - AROMAL GOT A FUCKING 1 - but we STILL got obliterated, with LA and Johnny putting Ulawa and Temoana respectively into the thousands themselves. We got beat by a bunch of numbers. This sucks - going to Tribal Council is never a good thing. That being said... I've been on cruise control for a while, and now I get to actually play. I've harbored thoughts of making a move against Karen for some time, and now that we're actually going to Tribal - particularly as I suspect there is going to be a swap next - I'm excited that I've had the chance to shore up some trust. Willow and I have been good, but I had a very good and lengthy conversation with the ICON Allie last night. I really like Allie's energy and her vibe, but last night was our first real extended conversation, and it went really well. We talked a lot of game, she gave me a lot of insight into the rookies' tribe, and I feel... good about it. Allie and Willow have both said that this is, if not their first, ONE of their first ORGs ever. Now, they could be lying, and using this information to mislead my opinions of them, but I'm choosing to trust them. What benefit do they have in making up an entire backstory both for themselves and for the OG veterans' tribe? I like them, and so I believe them, and if Karen goes home 5-1, I will trust them without doubts. Moving into a swap, I'm piecing together who I can draft into a majority merge alliance - if everything goes smoothly at this Tribal Council, I'd say that the five remaining NuMakira plus Aromal would be my ideal. Relationships with Matt and Ryan will hopefully still be in tact and exploitable for the early merge. I truly think that, from the information I have - which is a lot, if it's all true - I'm sitting in a rather enviable position with Dana. We seem to be on the same wavelength on our own opinions and in the ways others feel to us. I hope that Dana doesn't try to bite the apple and oust me eventually for this reason; I like her a lot and I'd like to work with her for as long as possible. However, I can't help but have doubts about how good this partnership can truly be, and will remain vigilant to hopefully catch whenever this betrayal should arise, if ever. I will be shoring up my relationships with Allie and Willow for as long as we have left on this tribe, and will make sure Dana and Zak are okay with booting Karen. Then we dancin. Things are going so well I expect to get fucked up real good any day now.

It looks like it'll be Karen tonight but I trust not a single bitch until after tribal council results are read and I'm still in the game.

I'm honestly so worried about this vote, like it could go so many different ways fuck. I'm especially worried because I did so terrible in the challenge yesterday, and sorta all of the challenges in general. There are so many ways this vote could go right now and I'm not really sure what to do. Because its probably going to be me or Karen going home tonight. Okay so the first scenario is that Karen flips on a revote. She said she was trying to convince the other vets to split the vote in case we might have an idol (which we don't lmao). Then Karen said it would be 2-2-2 in which case it would go to a revote, and she would flip and it would be 3-2-1, or it would be tied. If me and Allie sided with Karen then it maybe wouldn't be me going home idk. Also I'm pretty sure we could trust Karen, at least for this vote. The other scenario would be going with Dana and Mitchell and Zakriah(?) to vote out Karen. So I'm hoping its a unanimous vote to get Karen out, or else I'm screwed lol. 

ANYWAY! bye bye winning streak......me when i thot we could go thruout for this whole tribe swap without going to tribal but ! here ! we! are! ugh ok so as far as i know, zak and mitchell were gonna vote for me the first tribal so i dont see a reason not to snatch them this round, u kno show them not to mess w me. ok so basically ive made fairly strong bonds with both willow and allie, and as far as i can tell we are a solid 3 and tbqh im not here for picking the rookies off one by one and obviously i gotta be friendly w everyone bc u never kno what circumstances youll end up in. so i have an all vet alliance and a rookie alliance, they both have docs with idol info on it and basically this is the best position for me bc i can find the clue faster, which! i did and i shared it with the rookies so that they can help me look. but the thing is tho the clue clearly says that it has something to do with the plane wreckage but its already been checked? so i think i may have to do it in order which is ok it guess but hopefully i stay on this tribe long enough to figure the rest out. so all day i was thinking of a way that me and rookies can get our way this tribal, and im talking to the vets about idols and such and basically scare them into thinking that one of them having it bc weve been flopping when it comes to looking for them so, i propose a 2-2-2 vote as an easy way to flush any idol and even if it ties, we'd have majority on revote but! jokes on them bc im flipping to the rookies to make it 3-2-1 for zak. this plan is one of my better simpler ones, but it relies on no idols actually being played and the vets being naive enough to think that we'd all be sticking together.