#im genuinely just ambivalent about the lower ones

[dubioushonour]

4am recalibrated PokeMiku opinions

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i hope this isnt rude or insensitive to ask, but is the car you just lost the one you had feelings for, or was that a previous car? sorry for your loss either way :(

oh no it's fine to ask lol... but that was my previous car (Miles, who was a 2005 Honda Civic)

the car im in the process of losing (Lawrence, the 2019 Honda Civic) well... i viewed us as being ambivalent toward one another, but no strong feelings in any direction, unlike my relationship with Miles where i do genuinely feel like there was some form of connection there... also i think my feelings toward Clockboy absolutely complicated things w Lawrence but blah blah blah

i was very torn up when losing Miles and kinda just feel... eh about losing Lawrence, where most of the negative emotions are related to financial worry rather than the equivalent to losing a loved one

it does suck though because Lawrence was still so new. we just hit 50,000 miles about a month ago. he got good gas mileage, handled well on the highway, all that jazz... also like, i picked him out because 10th gen civics are sexy, and since 10th gen civics are the 2016-2020 models, it'll probably be a long time before i can own another one which does bum me out a little bit

but yeah im kinda tempering my expectations on what car #3 will be. i want something reliable, but dunno what i want yet. definitely know i wont be buying a New vehicle again right away (financially cannot do that right now) and i want a significantly lower car payment. like it'll be bonus points if the car i end up getting is one i find appealing, but then again, i admittedly did not find Miles attractive at first lmfao.

so we shall see what ends up happening! i am trying my best to remain optimistic and will just be so relieved once i have the keys to a car under my name again