#im fine rn because i live with my parents but im unemployed so i dont wanna spend my savings so quickly even tho top surgery and moving out

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i wish i was rich so i could constantly donate to fellow trans people. i really really wish i could. its so unfair that ppl like me are doomed to stay in poverty/working class when i wish i could help ppl :(

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I love drawing and hyperfocusing on it for so long that i dont realize just how tired i am and in how much my pain my hands and arms are and its so bad i gotta lay down but still noo despite all this mom tells me im HEALTHY AND FINE even if she knows about at least my hand pain but its like nothing of importance to her its not like im hiding anything i told her many times but in this family getting my parents to get me to see a doctor is actually impossible

Im pissed abt this rn bc im i wanna do stuff but im laying in bed bc of MY HANDS and bc ive been signing shit for future jobs at employment departments and shit since hashtag unemployed living and i had to chexk twice that im healthy and have no complications when i clearly do and i should get myself checked. Please at least for my mental health my mom knows i have some diagnosis but noo thats not important you hide it well so you must be healthy

I hope i can figure this out because i cannot do any fucking work normally like this i was suffering so much at my school during practice and i complained abt that enough (Tho my school was high key abusive)

I just wish people listened to me man. I wish i wasnt stuck in here and i knew how to talk to people and doctors and that if i wanted to do thst i didnt need to lie and sneak out. Please like i keep saying im in pain im tired i cant do this also i have constant stomach issues now as well but it's all ignored im always ignored here and i hate it. I just want help. If i wanna get out of here ill need a job but if the paperd say im fine i cant find anything that wont fucking destroy me. maam im not lazy to do 8 hrs i dont think i can do them id physically crumble at 6 hours of practice even before all this got worse after i had covid again.

Like ive accepted theres something wrong with me finally but now i cant even get help how fun is this. I just want confirmation i want to be heard