#im falling asseo and rambling nonzenze

[blacknidstang]

Ok i know i never shut up about sam being a pretty pretty princess boy but when it comes to weecest, i'm having growing obsession with Sam not being described as this beautiful desirable boy. It's perhaps less about the objective description of sam and how beinga teenager felt like: being weird & uncomfortable in your body, your face changing and your hormones messy and everything feels a bit unadjusted and wrong. And perhaps i love projecting that on sam. I love reading about him being this awkward looking boy hunching, a permanent frown on his face, his bangs too long, his nose growing ahead of his face, zits and pimples and chewed up dry lips and boney knees and uncoordinated limbs. I feel with sam the physical discomfort would even be extra hard with his growth spurt and general struggle with the space he occupies. This makes it so real to me. So personal and intimate.

And the wonderful thing is the juxtaposition of this Sam with Dean who is the infamous heartthrob, beautiful & bold, with bright charming smile and larger than life attitude. And this Dean that has all the girls wrapped around his little finger, being so utterly obsessed with his little brother, feeling the visceral need to eat up every inch of his awkwardly stretched skin. this dean and his wide gorgeous smile ready to burn the world to make sammy's dimples show themselves just a little.