#im distraught .im going 2 sleep bye

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blue period // look back

[biggesttmntfanintheworld]

Hello May I Request a Rottmnt Fluff And Gn Reader like The Boys are a little bit sad for Whatever reason and Reader comforts them with Cuddles (also this is my First time Requesting Something so sorry if it makes no sense)

it makes sense don't worry! btw idk if this is what you asked for but this is what I came up with im so sorry if its not

1 request down like 8 more to go (im going to go crazy but its fine tho)

sad! rottmnt x gn! reader fluff

raph

he accidentally ripped his favorite teddy bear while sleeping

he was absolutely distraught

hes never been this sad before

he called you at 3am SOBBING

you came over at like 3:12am(on a school night)

he hugged you SO HARD crying about his teddy bear:((

you were scratching under his chin (i think he would like that??) as he was pouting like a baby with tears streaming down his face

you guys were now cuddling his face buried in your chest you can hear him trying not to cry again(I FEEL SO BAD BRO)

you lifted his head up to look at you and you started kissing all over his face and he started giggling like a little girl(goofy)

after your kiss attack all over his face

"i love you so much babe"

"i love you too raphie"

(forget school bruh)

leo

he got banned from run of the mill(its like his 87th time getting banned)

saying he was sad was an understatement

he. was. DISTRAUGHTTT.

it was his favorite pizza place...

AND HE WAS BANNED???(again)

and all he said was that huesos forehead is as big as the moon

he NEEDED your cuddles

so he portal sworded to your room crying

you were laying on your bed and you hear someone crying and you knew who it was

your himbo boyfriend(IM SORRY LMAO)

he jumped on you

"hey you ok?"

"i got banned from run of the mill"

you were trying so hard to hold in your laughter

"oh really?"

"yeah"

he was hugging you so hard

his face was in your stomach

you just started scratching his head

he started giggling like an idiot

"i love you mi vida"

"i love you to neon leon"

donnie

the purple game 2 got canceled...

THE PURPLE GAME 2 GOT WHATTTTTTT??????

YOUR JOKING RIGHT??

PLEASE TELL HIM YOUR JOKING

HES SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO SAD BRO

he's going through the seven stages of grief in 7 seconds

he would be so devastated

he would lock himself in his lab for days

he won't even go out for flavorless juice or pizza

his "dum dum" brothers need to call you bc of this

"hey donnie?" you knock

no response

"donnie its me 'name'"

the labs doors open

you walk in and hes not there?

weird

you go into his room and there he is just laying on his bed

you walk up to him

"hey"

no response

"HEY"

"what."

"whats wrong?"

"the purple game 2 got canceled"

"oh"

he's trying so hard not to cry for the 5th time today

you jump up on his bed and you put his head on your lap

he signs

and he looks up at you with his cute doe eyes(i love his eyes man)

"you know i love you right?"

"yes i know. i love you to"

mikey

he broke his skateboard in half

he was so sad:((

he was sobbing for like an hour

not even a hug from his brothers could calm him down

but yours can

he called you crying abt his skateboard

you came over as fast as you could

he was in his room and as SOON as he saw you he RAN into you arms

he was sobbing in your chest

you both walked back to his bed him still sobbing on your chest

you guys are now cuddling him STILL on your chest but not sobbing any more just reduced to some sniffles now

"i love you so much babe"

"i love you too"

IM DONEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE I REALLY HOPE YOU LIKE IT ANON

BYE BYE NOWW

[cappincooks]

𝗮𝗰𝗰𝗲𝗹𝗲𝗿𝗮𝘁𝗲.

pairing: highschool!jesse pinkman x fem!reader type: slight angst, fluff topics: smoking, mentions of depression, overdose, and drugs

overview: to your surprise (and slight horror,) you find jesse pinkman screaming his lungs away in the go-karting place you were working in.

the magazine you were reading wasn't really keeping you fully entertained, it was more so there to keep you occupied to pretend that time was going by faster at work. but you found yourself harshly flipping the pages, frustrated that the office fan kept blowing it back.

it was a long, slow day at the go-karting place you worked at. well to be fair, you couldn't expect a go-karting business to be booming. not everyone is in the mood for small fast car racing—they have real-world problems to be worrying about.

"FUUUUUUUCK! FUCK FUCK FUCK SHIT BITCH! FUCK YOU! EAT SHIT AND DIE! YEAH BITCH!"

jesus. h. christ. what the hell was that?

wanting to investigate further, you slowly peek your head out of the office door. to your surprise, it was jesse pinkman? you knew he was a nutcase to some degree, but this is a whole other level.

you weren't a goody two-shoes, and you're certainly not about to poop on someone's party, but you also needed him to quiet the fuck down or else bye-bye job.

setting your eyes on your box of cigarettes, you decided to light some up before containing the wild animal.

"hey! pinkman! i know you're having a blast but tone it down a bit!"

coincidentally, he was slowing down since his session was up. he looked at you, and got out of the kart with his hands in his pockets; eyes glued to the floor.

he looked really distraught. sleep-deprived even? ...is he good?

blowing out the smoke from your cigarette, you called out to him. "pinkman?"

surprised he even stopped in response to you, you try to ask him if he was fine.

"yeah, yeah. im good. sorry about the uh," he looked back at his go-kart, "the screaming."

once he finally faced you, you could see his face more clearly now. his eyes were bloodshot red. his eyebags could not be darker and more purple. plus, he was really fidgety.

not really good with words, you extend out your hand, a box of cigarettes on your palm. "you wanna smoke one... or two with me?"

-

"are you high out of your mind right now?" you mindlessly asked. remembering that you could be too direct at times, you apologized just as quick. "oh shit, sorry. i didn't mean to ask you that. well i did, but i didn't mean for it to be so straightforward."

jesse chuckled as he blew out the smoke from his nose.

to be frank, you were taken aback. the guy you're silently hanging out with right now is different from the jesse pinkman you knew when you see him in the high school hallways, or when he's smoking with badger and skinny pete behind the school.

"honestly yeah. im high as fuck out of mind right now. my life's just in the shitter hole. always has been." his eye twitches.

relating, you nod your head in approval. "oh yeah, amen dude. welcome to the club. my life has been a giant turd swirling around in an unflushed toilet for the past.. 2 years now?"

"jesus. that's one way to describe it."

"well someone's trying to be funny, mr. i-scream-my-lungs-out-in-a-go-kart-at-9-pm?" the both of you chuckled at your remark.

-

your neck was getting really sweaty since you guys were smoking outside, so you decided to put your hair up in a ponytail. minding your own business for a hot second, you didn't realize that jesse was looking at you.

"is the view good?" you were trying to lighten the atmosphere up a bit. to be honest, even though jesse was pretty easygoing, you always sensed something darker and heavier going on in his mind.

no response other than him quickly turning his head away from you, and a small 'sorry'.

you didn't really know why you cared a bit for him. it's not like you had a crush on him or something, but something always drew you to him, even at school. you never got the chance to talk to him though. well- until now.

fidgeting with your dangling earrings, you wondered if he remembered you from school so you asked him just that.

"hm." he made a sound, rather than actually answering. "yeah i guess i do. i see you around school, but that's about it. can i have another one?"

"for sure." you handed him another stick. "so more or less strangers, huh?"

he took a hit and nodded his head in response.

"you mind telling me the story behind all the uh, all the screaming back there? figured it's easier to tell me since we're strangers and everything."

you tried to steal a glance at his side, he seems calmer now.

"right on. well, my parents are fucking bitches man. they keep telling me to go to college and shit, but i just want to get high and live my life. they, they think that," he pauses to sarcastically laugh, "they really think they own me. bunch of pussies."

you sat, listening to him rant. it was pretty satisfying, actually.

"god! fucking assholes wanting to have a 'perfect family', well surprise!" jesse immediately stands up and holds his crotch which was, unfortunately, lined up right at your face. "you can suck THIS!!! perfect family my ass."

"okay, okay sit back down mister. you're not about to go hysterical again on my watch. plus, i don't really like someone's dick in front of my face- i save it til the second date." you patted the seat next to you. "though i get it, truly. parents are a bunch of assholes, AND college too. just because they get to finish college doesn't mean shit. they're not better than you."

"exactly! at least someone gets me. and it's not just that, they've always treated me like i'm some problem dog. they frustrate me so fucking much it's not even funny." you noticed jesse fidgeting with his fingers as he sat back down. "i would really kill for some weed right now though." his knees bouncing up and down, jesse staring at you as if you really packed grass for your lunch at work.

"how'd you know i have weed?"

"i guess we're not total strangers after all." he winked.

you were for sure enjoying his company, and you didn't mind spending a few more hours with him so you offered some back at your place instead. he agreed and waited for you to close up the go-karting place.

-

"so, this is me." the door creaked, revealing a dim living room.

"where your folks at?" jesse whispered, frantically searching for your parents.

you chuckled, "sleeping. come on, quietly."

as you guys reached your bedroom, past the creaking staircase, jesse shut your door slowly. raising his eyebrows and eyes scanning around your poster-filled room he asked, "yo, are you sure they won't get mad?"

you fixed your bed (putting shit in their respective piles), "they've caught me doing worse. we just have to keep quiet, and we're gold." you shrugged.

"right on."

"get comfy, i'll roll some up for us."

-

both of you were lying back first on your bed. it doesn't have enough space for the both of you, but you made do. you held that position for a good 5 minutes, enjoying the calm silence. though you decided to have some kind of fun, so you blew smoke on his face.

"you doing good over there, buddy?" you laughed heartily, looking at his profile.

he kinda looked good. well, he was coughing up since you blew some smoke in his face, but he still looked fine as hell. you guessed you just never noticed that til now. you gulped, trying to push this thought down, and fixed your eyes back at the ceiling.

chuckling and lightly nudging your body, jesse replied, "jerk." he propped up his pillow, and put his arm behind his head, exhaling slowly. "you have good ones, let me tell you that."

"glad you think so. about time i enjoyed them with someone." you admitted.

"you don't have anyone to bring over?" you shook your head. "ever?" you shook your head again. "i don't buy it yo. no way. you're like cool to hang out with, there's no way you don't have friends."

"that's just the truth. used to it by now. to be honest," you took another hit. "same time last year, or a little bit over a year ago maybe? i was losing my mind, and i mean losing my damn mind. i didn't care if my blood had too much alcohol in it, if i was overdosing, or high out of my fucking mind that i was close to touching jesus' clothes. i just wanted to-"

"die?"

you look towards jesse's direction. you see him already staring at you with wide, sympathetic but understanding eyes. like he knew exactly what you felt, down to a t.

not really used to personal attention, you remove your eyes from his and agreed. "yeah... die. one thing led to another, and now i'm doing better. at least, not worse." you finished off your little trauma dump.

it was a good thing that jesse understood. he understood that silence is better than empty, comforting words. what both of you have endured is way past words of encouragement.

from the ceiling, your eyes then trailed towards the window next to your bed, admiring the chilling night sky, the stars; then the moon. you were startled when something cold touched your pinky finger. slowly looking down, you see pinkman's pinky shakily making contact with yours. as if he wasn't sure if it was the right thing to do.

you wrapped your pinky around his as a go signal, jesse then finally held your hand. you heard a loud exhale from him like he was holding his breath for a while.

looking up to get a better view of jesse's face, you saw him still staring at your bedroom ceiling. all that direct, heartstopping eye contact earlier, and not even once when it counts. you lightly smiled and stared at the ceiling with him. both of you holding each other's hands in one hand, and holding joints in the other.

[tfw-no-tennis]

huntoxhunto

we watched 2 whole more eps but we’re abt to vacay so i better recap this biz now before i forget

ok so we finished the zoldyck arc and uhhhh gotta say we werent expecting like any of that to happen lol 

ok ill back up so we start w/killuas mom (i dont think we ever heard her name) confronting gon & co....and canary (i lov her) is not dead which i assumed but thank goodness. 

zoldyck mom was totally using nen. also she is off her rocker gotta say. tho that visor is super cool, albeit confusing - is it connected to a bunch of security cameras or something? how does she see all that shit? 

granpa is wild. his tunic thing that says ‘one kill a day’ or w/e is kinda hilarious, it reminds me of the ‘apple a day keeps the dr away’ saying...a murder a day keeps the....idk away????

i love that killua makes it abundantly clear that he couldve like escaped at any time lol. also tho why didnt he just escape....baby boy just leave 

killua getting all serious and threatening milluki if he messes with gon....my boys got it BAD 

this family has so many communication issues hvbjadkfbjaskdfj nobody is on the same page at all 

the butler guy continued to remind me of kuro one piece this whole time...i was waiting for him to bust out the ridiculous cat claws

oh my GOD wait the flashbacks of EVEN BABIER KILLUA were so precious ;_; he was soooo tiny and cute oh my god. so precious. and canary was also so tiny and cute 

baby killua really just wanted a friend :(((( and canary wanted to be friends w/him but knew that mom zoldyck would kill her if she overstepped like that :( thats so tragic mannnn

also canary is so cool man. her beating up all those guys was epic

ok that whole scene with killua and his dad was like, such a rollercoaster lmao

like....it was all over the place for me...first of all the ambiance was wack, the room lighting was weird and im p sure killuas seat was an electric chair??? and the dad was in a coffin thing..???? like....interesting aesthetic choices all over the place here 

also i see now where killua got his hair and also his catboy tendencies. the zoldyck catboy genes seem to trace back to zoldyck dad, who has kinda scary cat eyes 

also im guessing that the dad is the blood zoldyck and the mom is the one who married in. they sure seem to put a lot of emphasis on like, family legacy or w/e, but the two parents certainty go abt it in different ways 

the whole convo b/w killua and his dad was wild, it totally didnt go where i was expecting it to. his dad was weirdly chill while also being super intense? 

killua happily telling stories abt gon was so sweet....baby boy baby 

and his dad telling him ‘never betray your friends’ was rlly interesting...i wonder what his reasons were for saying that 

cause then he tells killua he can leave, and killua does, but then dad zoldyck tells mom zoldyck (i rlly need to find out their names) that he thinks killua will come back on his own time....inch resting 

i wonder if dad zoldyck made killua promise that bc he was trying to set killua up for failure - as in, he tells killua to never betray his friends, thinking that killua inevitably will & be distraught abt it, and then turn back to the zoldyck family when this happens. idk

also its interesting to me that zoldyck dad wants killua to lead the family someday. like, illumi is right there, hes the oldest and clearly dedicated to being an evil assassin, and he seems p good at it...i wonder why killua is the favorite....the grandpa (i think) did say that killua is Special(tm) which...yes he is a special baby boy i love him. i wanna see more zoldyck family flashbacks/interactions so we can see what led them to this point 

oh lord that reminds me of illumi briefly appearing in the killua flashback and hes just like, suddenly there, wearing some gay ass sweater....like ok dude did you just come back from the Evil Assassin Library or st?????

that reminds me too, ruth tells me that apparently in the manga illumi and hisoka got married or something???? to which i say, thats fucking wild, but also it makes sense, those two are both horrible and disgusting and they absolutely deserve each other hbvajvhsdfjbak peak evil nasty gay rep, i love it. i cant wait to see whatever the fuck the context to that is bc, thats fucking wild

ok back to the plot so like its so wild to me how smoothly everything went hvubsjduhfbjsh like....killuas dad was rlly like ok u can leave and killua just went to the butler house and then canary woke up and was like ok gon & crew lets go to the butler house to see killua, fuck the rules, (and she didnt even get killed for ‘disobedience’ or w/e, or more likely - in most big shounen, she wouldve been attacked by the other evil butlers and gon wouldve had to fight them)

killua Rlly was like fuck this place im leaving my boyfriend and his parents are here to pick me up [puts on gayest outfit he owns and skateboards away] hvbhsjdfbjdkf

i love killuas weird gay preteen fashion so far and i cant wait to see more 

killua telling the butler guy to let him know as SOON as gon gets there cause he wants to see him AS SOON AS HE CAN ;_; bro they r....in love 

of course the butler is trickey tho lmao, any other shounen this wouldve turned into an 8 ep long fight scene sequence where gon has to fight the butlers in order to see killua 

and the of course gon is the same way, gon is like i need to see killua RIGHT NOW take me to him!!! ohhh my god babies

the whole coin game was wild, it was funny when the other butlers got involved too lmao 

when gon was like ‘hey leorio can i see your knife’ i was like OH NO I DONT LIKE WHERE THIS IS GOING. and i was right bc OWWWWW baby boy oh my god!!!! but that seems to have solved it even tho thats NOT how swelling works at ALL- 

anyways gon is a cute smart good boy and i also find it funny how killua eventually gets impatient and just busts in on this whole dramatic situation (and the tension immediately deescalates as a result lmao) 

tangent but god its so funny seeing all these butler guys deferring to killua, an actual 12 yr old....i wanna see the hilarious and hijink-filled results of killua being raised as a rich spoiled assassin prince. thats a lethal combo thats gotta result in some wildly skewed perceptions on how things work, especially paired with gon ‘probably eats dirt for fun and sleeps in trees’ freecess 

godddd gon and killuas lil reunion is SOOO cute they were so happy to see each other ;_; bro they are SO cuteeeee augh. two tiny babies

killua being like oh hi also uh kurapika andddd [looks at smudged writing on hand] lorpo 

hvhhbajfbs dont do my man leorio like that killua hes a hardworking father 

the fact that they just like. LEAVE...thats so wild. i cant believe how little fighting this arc had. this all wrapped up SO much faster than i could have ever anticipated lmao 

where the heck was alluka!? i assumed she’d show up here but uhhhh guess not......in the silhouette shot of all the zoldycks she and killua were holding hands ;_; my fucking uwus bro 

we also didnt see the grandma or great grandpa so im guessing theyll appear later 

gon being like fuck it im not using my hunters license til i punch hisoka in the fucking face hvbhahsfbjsk thats hilarious 

also a convenient way to let him have his hunters license but not utilize it til later in the story...its so early for him to have achieved that big chunk of his goal, which just shows that hxh is Not your typical shounen and isnt gonna just be centered around gons quest to become a hunter 

so we finally found out what hisoka said to kurapika....just as i thought, it was st to do w/the phantom troupe. so theres a handy setup for the yorknew city arc later. bam 

hisoka just being like ‘hey meet me in this (presumably) very large city on this date. no i will not tell you where in the city to meet me. bye seeya there’ 

tbf hisoka is very hard to miss 

god when they arrive and kurapika is just like ok well we got killua so im out lol bye everyone....bro hvbjkhgbfjhdksfhjk that felt so abrupt 

and then leorio was like oh yeah same i gotta go study time to take the fantasy MCAT or w/e

AND THEY BOTH LEFT....now gon and killua r chilling but im like oh my god no leorio kurapika come back, we need some (questionable) adult supervision over here 

and like immediately killua is like ok gon do you have money. and of Course gon doesnt have money. so killua is like well you need money and you need to train so you can deck hisoka, so lets go to a fantasy version of an underground fighting ring! this is why kurapika and leorio needed to stay 

tho they probably wouldve just gone along with it 

they did all promise to meet in yorknew city, but thats apparently like 6 months away. are gon and killua rlly gonna spend 6 months at heavens arena

the part where killua draws the diagram demonstrating how much of a n00b gon is....hvbajdkhfbhajskf

AND THEN when he drew himself into the diagram and was like :3c wow im so modest HBJHSKHDFHBJS that was so funny

it was like that post thats like ‘you can tell when a cats pupils change and they just shift into Silly Mode’ thats what killua looked like...catboy

so thats basically it i think, gon and killua are heading to heavens arena to join fight club or whatever. tournament arc time! 

PREDICTION CORNER: 

i doubt this is the last weve seen of the zoldyck family. i mean we havent even met 3 of them, and we barely saw the ones we did meet...idk when theyll come back but i suspect theyll be making some big money moves later on and fucking shit up somehow 

i think maybe illumi or someone will like, spy on killua sometimes to keep track of him. or theyll track him by other means

ill use the prediction corner to reflect on incorrect predictions so heres a few. i rlly thot killua was gonna be more edgy than he is but hes rlly just a good boy huh. like hes a gay baby assassin catboy but hes so cute and good too. he just wants to live his life and hang out with his tiny bf like... omg :’) 

also i thot hisoka held a totally different narrative role lbvahkfjhjjaksfl i thot he was like main villain guy....hes more like an annoying creepy clown dude who (probably) shows up a lot to bother the main cast. we’ll see, but thats what i think of him now

like i thought hisoka would be like p1 dio, where hed be/quickly become a powerful antagonist who would amass a bunch of followers/minions (when actually the only person he seems to hang out w/is illumi, and theyre more like equals than an evil guy/minion dynamic)...or like i thought hisoka would be very well known as a scary evil guy but nope he was just another participant in the hunter exam, albeit a weird freaky one whose rancid vibes everyone seemed to pick up on 

anyways actual predictions, i think hisoka is gonna be at heavens arena, which would be super funny. gon is like im gonna train to beat hisoka and he shows up to do that and hisokas just there like >;) hey

i think if i had to guess, the zoldycks will show up again (in a plot important way) at the end of the yorknew arc/before the greed island arc. i know basically nothing abt any of the arcs but i do know the order they go in so theres that

i do think illumi will show up earlier than the other zoldycks tho, since he seems to be out doing his own thing more than the rest. also we still really havent resolved the whole mind control thing that im still convinced of 

i think nen will finally be introduced/alluded to heavily in this arc...or like, characters will use nen and gon will be like whoa whats that 

i think killua knows what nen is...maybe? it would make sense since im sure all the zoldycks can use it (at least, we saw mom zoldyck use it, probably)

can killua use nen already? that would be pretty funny. i dont think so tho. maybe u learn nen at a certain age. i have no idea what nen is 

also isnt gons nen power the power to like, turn into a really buff version of himself or something. how the fuck does that work 

ok enough nonsense its bedtime zzzzz

[ladyshinobi]

Episode 82: A Really Redundant Recap

A (slightly) self-sabotaging Val, A nostalgic (but definitely happier than on previous eps) Juls, a TOTALLY UNCANCELED Lupe, and obviously TONs of fuckin' Angst, sounds familiar? Let's get to it shall we?:

Aren't Juls Parents the cutest? Look at them being all happy and supportive and LUPE-Reloaded teasing Juls about contacting Val! I love them, Also next time I need a new place on 2-days notice I’m giving Panchito a call, I mean for 48 hours he truly outdid himself, just remember to never sit on his couch lol.

Inspired by Guille and Renata's "Fuck YOU, We're In Love" display from the previous ep Val decides to get some loving on her own and goes to look out Juls ...Only to find out she's no longer there lol, PERFECT TIMING.

Poor gurl is so distraught...If only she could find a direct way to comunicate with Juls, If only the comforts of modern society allowed us devices that help us reach out to others ANYWHERE at ANYTIME ...If only....

NO SERIOUSLY VAL, just grab your damn phone and call her dammit XD.

Just to make matters even ANGSTIER, now Chivis is getting floral arrangements from Juliana Valdes herself. Did you see how fast Val snatched that note from Chivis?, she even LITERALLY punches it lol, that's what you get when you ask for space, and people actually RESPECT and LOVE you and LISTEN? Keep in mind you can always CALL people and ask for less space apart and more time together, just sayin'...  

Normally Val is the one gaydreaming but to see Juls-Stoic-Extraordinaire go into full flashback mode was A LOT, and THAT scene in particular UGHHHHH...

I've posted about it in the past but THAT scene to me is the perfect example of why Juliantina works so well: they both came into each other's life at a time of struggle and forced reinvention, and they've helped each other uncover and embrace parts of themselves that were hidden or had been forcefully covered.

One of these was Juls creative talents, Val not only enthusiastically points them out, but actively supports and encourages Juls endeavours, even using her privileged lifestyle to support and create real opportunities for her.

Thats what Val brings, a chance for Juls to allow herself to dream of being something more than a hitman's daughter, a chance to believe in herself, of not being burdened by her past or anxious about her future, of LIVING instead of surviving...where have I heard that before? uhmmmmmm...

Sometimes Love is described as finding your other half, but I think a better interpretation would be: Love is finding the one that helps you feel WHOLE, and Juliantina has that shit in SPADES (Just get back together already!?).

THIS SCENE = PURE 24K GOLD

I love how they both try to play it cool talking about groceries and flowers and Lupe even brings out Val a second time (Bless her) Until they just crack up, JULS SMILINGGGGGGG!! its been 84 years guys! its so nice so see them like this, I knew the Suegra wouldn't dissapoint in the end, also Juls ....DONT' SIT ON THAT COUCH GURL XD.

Val & Sergio...The Founding members of The Juliana Valdes Fanclub XD...

I KNOW a lot of people feel a certain way about him, but he's NEVER been a real threat to Juliantina (NO ONE could be lets be real lol), keeping into account him & Val have been friends since childhood I find actually believable they still talk and manage to be relatively friendly with each other, especially after Lucho's death.

Is it awkward they were both crushin' on the same gurl? YEP, 

is it awkward they both got some action (In both cases consensually although under VERY DIFFERENT CIRCUMSTANCES) with her as well? Absolutely! 

But I do think its fitting for Val to still be reeling a bit about Lucho's demise, it makes her feel REAL, people don't get over shit like that in 2 days, you know? and he's the only one she can talk about it with.

It also serves as the perfect plot device for them to engage into the paranormal side of the main story line plot, so Sergio may not be the people's fave choice (I DON'T care for him TRUST ME), but character wise it is a very coherent one. 

 Listen... Soul Switching Dads, Corrupt Rich Girls Sleeping with Narcos, Transmigration, Half the cast pretending (sometimes with HILARIOUS results) to have native Mexican accents, THAT... I CAN Believe, but for some reason the whole "let's Google Search a Medium" and THEN getting Barbara the Bruja right away felt like a bit of a stretch to me?

I really thought they were gonna connect Val to this plotline a liiiittle bit better, I guess I'll wait until they actually meet to see how it actually goes.

Also Im just gonna ignore DEATH staring at Val 'cause I can handle just a certain amount of drama per episode,ok?

Miss Death...just ...Stay the Fuck Away? PLEASE and Thank You?...

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I KNOW they are supposed to draggggggg the dramaaaaaa out till LITERALLY the Final EP, but dammit, this ANGST is crazy. I'll never judge an Abuela screaming at a TV EVER AGAIN.

Also on one of the latest interviews released, Maca and Barbara agreed that their favorite Juliantina moment is the ending, and Maca said It had a lot of guts....WHAT ARE THEY GONNA PULL!? Hype? ...Hype.

4/5 eps to go, I better start thinking what I’m going to do with this blog (and the existential crisis it will have) 5 days from now, back to random reblogs of funny shit I guess? lol.

K, Thanks, Bye.

[iminhellxxx]

Me Too

“I wish you were here, I just want a hug.” She said into the phone, catching her tears with her sleeve, her voice distorted by the plug of her nose. It’s nearly 2 am, it’s a cold October night. “Please come get me, I miss you. You’re right, I shouldn’t have come with him!” She wailed into the phone. She ended the call, broke into tears and sat on a corner curb, hugging her knees tightly....crying into them, uncontrollably. The roads were damp and empty, green and red street light reflections lit up the pavement. The only thing colder than than the temperature outside, was the inside of her chest, in which her heart broke and bled that night. Suddenly there was a rush of warmth...a loud, rugged purring noise; a car. She didn’t look up. She sensed it, but continued to bury her nose in her knees. But the pavement was so bright and green. If the streets were empty, why was this car hovering?? The light was green.....

Afraid and curious, she finally looked up to see a dark grey car idled at the light, with no driver...the door was open. She came out of her knees and there in the dark, was a man. He didn’t have a face...she never saw it. But her life was about change forever that night. He stepped forward.

🎵Trouble - Kristin Hersh

*8 Hours earlier*

Her phone lit up with a text message. “Where are you, I’m in an Uber.”

“Ugh, I told him to bring his car!!!”

Frustrated, she began to reply until she saw a familiar car that she loved so much. He was joking, he pulled over in his car and she ran excited to see him, she got in. “You lied!” She squealed. He had his infamous evil smile spread across his face. We were headed to Universal Studios for Halloween Horror Night. It supposed to be the best night ever.

It was not the best night ever.

He wouldn’t let her hold him by the arm in the mazes, even though she wasn’t afraid.

He got mad when she took a sip of his soda, and she had to get him another straw. Seriously.

He didn’t walk with her, or talk with her in line, but instead, read a boring article on his phone.

She felt like she went alone. Especially when everybody else was paired into cute couples, who did all the things he wouldn’t.

She gave up. But there was one point....before the clown tram. They were in line, and he was behind her. She didn’t look back to even try to make conversation. But where was the guy she’d known for 2 years? She closed her eyes. She wanted to feel him hug her from behind. SHE WANTED his body to press up against hers, she wanted him that night. Disappointed, she opened her eyes. And that was that.

AFTER MIDNIGHT

The sound of their seatbelts clicking broke their silence. “So where do you want me to drop you off?” She lives in Corona, he knew she didn’t have a ride home. She couldn’t get a hold of anyone for a ride. He drove her to Union Station. Broken-hearted, she closed her eyes and pretended to fall asleep the whole way there. She felt the car stop, but kept her eyes closed. Maybe if he thought she’d fallen asleep, he wouldn’t have the heart to throw her out into the cold, and they could sleep in the car like they had in Corona one time, holding hands, lying down in the backseat. Where she traced hearts into his skin, and listened to his heartbeat, hoping that it was saying he was as happy as she was that night. “WE’RE HERE.” Startled by his voice, she opened her eyes. She opened the door. “I’m cold!” She cried. “Man, I gotta go to work in the morning, get out.” He whined. Disgusted, she got out of the car and didn’t even tell him bye. He drove off.

Her hands hands cradled her chest, where all the pieces were broken and falling. Union Station was closed. Cold, sad, and sleepy, she made her way to the bench and lied down for just a minute. “Hey you can’t be here, Union Station is closed.” A guard said. “Are you waiting for a ride?” “I.....I don’t know, I just got dumped here. Im trying to get a hold of someone. I’m just tired.” “You better stay here, you look tired girl. I like your outfit.” “Hey baby, come with me, do you wanna go get a coffee?!!” A homeless man passing shouted at me. “She’s fine right here, go on!” The guard shouted back. He continued to ask her a series of questions, and made flirtatious comments, and gestures. It was uncomfortable and strange. He went to talk with other securities. Then he kicked her out and told her she couldn’t wait there, and to leave.

The Fault in Our Stars- Troye Sivan

“I wish you were here, I just want a hug. Please come get me, I miss you. You’re right, I shouldn’t have come with him!” She cried into her phone, catching her tears with her sleeve. There was a man. He didn’t have a face...she never saw it. But her life was about change forever that night. He stepped forward.

*Screaming*

Pain.

Filth.

She couldn’t run away. It was like she was paralyzed...everything was numb. Everything except the broken heart.

She always imagined this moment...but much differently. She wanted HIM that night, but like always, he disappointed her. It took a STRANGER to put his dirty hands on her. Her eyes were closed the entire time, and tears poured out. “Are you okay? You just need to be fucked.” The man said. He stabbed her, like a sword...and she bled. Although it pained her, NOTHING was more painful than the way Orlando treated her that night. Than the way he treated her for THREE YEARS. How selfish he was to waste her love, to waste her heart. Her childhood was being taken, and even then, she cried for him. IT WAS SUPPOSED TO BE HIM, SHE SAVED HERSELF FOR HIM! Then it was over. The scum bag got his fix for the night, but she lost her virginity forever.

Slow It Down - The Lumineers

*hysterical sobbing*

*Sink water turning on*

She looked up, into the mirror.

Disgust.

*angry sobbing*

*vomit*

Virgin blood everywhere.

PAIN.

SCREAMS.

Murder Song (5,4,3,2,1) Acoustic - AURORA

BROKEN. She walks back to Union Station to report it to the guards. She finds one security. She is relieved to see a man in uniform, and feels safe. He smiles at her. Breathless, she tells him her story, and he nods and pretends to care. “Daaaamn, She too sexy for you!” Another security comes out and walks with us. “Aye nigga she’s mine.” What is going on. She comes for help, and no one is listening. Not even the MEN WITH A BADGE.

*SCREAMS*

The first guard gets scared away. The second guard says “Dick is dick and pussy is pussy” about the rape. Then the security man from the beginning, the one that flirted and then told her to leave the bench, THE MAN RESPONSIBLE FOR HER WALKING TO THE NEXT BLOCK, comes and says that her dad is looking for me, and that she would be in trouble. Then he walked away. The other guard told her to follow him, she thought he was taking her to her dad. Instead, he led her inside Union Station, inside a wall....that must be put up after hours. He closed the door and tried to kiss her and whispered for sex. Then when she refused and attempted to walk away, he began to undo his belt and pushed her shoulders down and asked for “at least head.” In disbelief, she pushed him with his dick hanging out, and ran out to the front, and saw her Daddy in the car, and she got in, and the guard was talking nonsense crap about her, crap that she was too distraught to care about at the time.

Iridescent- Gavin Mikhail

How do you tell your daddy you just lost your virginity? How do you tell him you were raped? She held back tears during the car ride home. He didn’t speak to her. “Could he know? Does he know? Am I at fault? Why didn’t I run away? I want my virginity back!!!!”

Breathe Me - Sia

4 something AM

Home....but home didn’t even feel safe anymore. She wasn’t herself anymore. The guard had told her dad that she was drunk, and fighting with her boyfriend when she got off a white vehicle. Complete lies. But they made me feel like I was a whore, like they believed HIM, and not me. They think the worst of me, but they don’t know ANYTHING! How innocent I’ve been compared to the stories they believe. She was hurt that her dad believed him in the first place. She lost her courage to tell him, to speak up, to tell her story. Instead, she burdened herself with hatred towards humanity...and towards herself. She bled for a whole week.

“The men who penetrate me

Stab me like a sword then leave me wounded

Once a month I bleed,

But I do not die.”

-E. Kelly

It wasn’t until the next year, when she watched “13 Reasons Why” that she understood the “Fight, flight or freeze response” and forgave herself a little bit. She froze. She didn’t fight hard enough, she couldn’t run away. She was emotionally broken at how that night went with this guy she was in love with, this guy who was her best friend, the only person she opened up to. It wasn’t her fault she was raped. But she still feels guilty....she gets flashbacks every now and then. He took something from her that wasn’t his to take. Something that she cherished and saved, for the right guy. It’s gone. And she will never be the same. She was 24. She is me. #MeToo