#im deranged today im sowwy

[manicpixie-tieflingboyfriend]

I bet Astarion went crazy the first time Halsin ever got his cycle

like imagine you're desperately trying to keep your vampirism under wraps and then you rescue a druid the size of a bear and he'd huge, he's stacked, he's probably so fucking big—

He had his stereotypical Oh. Oh. Moment when he picks up the Slight shift in Halsin's scent. Maybe it's thicker, more heady, less sweet. He approaches Halsin, who is an absolute pro at dealing with his own problems, who is showing Zero signs of even being on his cycle, just offering to help because they're allies now! Astarion just so happened to catch sight of a little blood (lie), he is Just being helpful (lie), he has zero to gain (Lie!)

Halsin knows, because of course he does, he knows a vampire spawn when he sees one. He's been alive long enough to tell. He tries to be cordial about it, polite, his mind is busy of course with all his guilt and such.

Astarion had to finally cut to the chase and do his whole "I just need a little bit" shtick to whit he adds "why not just let me help you while helping me?"

Halsin folds, because it is a little inconvenient to deal with alone, especially now that he's traveling abroad again.

They find that nice quiet place Astarion had planned for his botched seduction plot, and they are both very pleasantly surprised at how well it goes.

Halsin is surprised how gentle Astarion actually is (so is Astarion) and how even tempered he is, how deliberate every lick and nibble is and how it really does just melt all the discomfort away.

Astarion is surprised at how good Halsin tastes, like he had a feeling he would be holy hells it's addictive. Even when Halsin is mostly cleaned up and the blood is just slowly trickling out he keeps going because he can hear how far gone Halsin is by now, he's getting warmer from all the blood, gods does he want to do more.

Do they? I don't think so. Not until later on. Around Baldur's Gate when Halsin is so uncomfortable with the city and Astarion finally feels comfortable with reinventing himself in his freedom.

Astarion takes Halsin to his grave and they have a really sweet moment about long life and restarting because Halsin has to have a new goal too after lifting the Shadow Curse so they start over. Right there.

Did Astarion wait until Halsin was on his cycle again? Maybe so. Maybe they redo that very first night they were together all over again, Astarion's vigor fully renewed and this time when he's full and warm Halsin begs him to, begs Astarion to fuck him properly so he does and Astarion gets lost in it, ravenous and determined to make Halsin as full as he is.