#im depressed then im happy and im in pain but i wanna fuckin walk forever lmao

[melatoninv]

school just started back and djsjjss lmao i feel Bad! ive been way more depressed and anxious the past couple of weeks and. yikes!! im at a new school and everythings kinda confusing and im so alone and it sucks! i havent got anyone unless u count these two guys in my science class i have 2 sit w bc we all have similar interest but im fuckin nerv o s so im not a great conversationalist and we cant talk for too long anyways bc we cant really talk during class but i dont even really knoe anyones names yet but djsjsj Fuck. my chronic nasal congestion and allergies + my tmj is acting up BIG TIME and im so congested and in pain and my throat hurts f uuuuuuck. also im in band now and ive never been before and i regret!!!! bc imma have 2 get an instrument and i feel like the only kid my age just starting band??? ik im not but sTILL. im in 3 advs classes and idfk how. i get adv english and maybe adv science but like....adv history?????? w h a t. also at my old school u just went 2 classes on the same hall and w just ur grade maybe u had gym w another grade but here unless ur in a class specifically for ur grade (like adv or. pre-alg and shit???) ur all mixed up like in hs??? and im not used 2 it and I'm esp not used to being lost bc idfk where any my classes are AND i got a top locker and thats just funny tbh bc my 4'11 ass???? dead. at the very least the schools p chill w dress code policy snf phones n shit. most my classes just have my grade expect hr, gym, and band. uhhhhh i guess im Complaining abt some of this but its really not that bad. im having to walk to school and back which i havent done since 2nd second and ive never done it b4 but its actually p cool i like walking expect when its hot but its fokin florida r ip my pale ass 😔 thas a joke btw lmfao i could use a tan and uhhh Dont Fokin Wear Tights unless u got like. shorts between ya thighs bc lmfaoooo. AAlso i have.....a new aesthetic. my dress code shirt, leggings (w shorts ig), and some sorta dress shirt or flannel type outer wear w my jacket tied around my waist. im gay and i do what i want 😤 but shshhsns im kinda tired rip. rhis. qent on 4 way too long but rip lmao im just. all ocwe the place and its prob bc my period and the fact im taking my meds again after not taking them all summer but hhhhhhh u kno. 😝

the only thing i ate in the last two days was cereal but i just had some pizza and. wowie no wonder i felt like shit.