#im currently outlining 2 books

[cupioriot]

oh gods i really need to stop having ideas i have too many unfinished projects for this

[selkies-world]

Hey great news! I'm writing an adult dark fantasy book which has an immortal who loved 1 human, but because another god (who was in love with the immortal but he had 0 interest in her) got jealous, she cursed any human X god &/or human X immortal relationship, so the human would die if the god stayed in their life. The human in question decided she'd rather stay with the god than live, so to save her from a slow, painful death courtesy of the curse, the god took her to the Daeva (gods of gods in this book-iverse) and asked for them to please place her in the river of creation / river of chaos in the stars. Only the Daeva can survive that river (bc it's what they were born from), so the god knows that the human will die instantly upon entering it. The Daeva take mercy and allow it, and this turns the river into the one which all souls go to upon death in order to swim through the cosmos for eternity.

The human died, her soul went into the river, and the immortal stayed loyal to her through millenia. Her descendents have a part of his name in their surname, and are considered a sacred family. He visits her riverbed every day to talk to the flowers and stars and water, and to spend a little bit of time with her, even if her soul can never breach the water or talk to him. He has vowed to protect the city she is from because it's her home, and her descendents as he sees them as little fragments of her, regardless of how many thousands of years have passed, and he is still seen as the guardian angel* of that family. He's the patron saint* of the city and is seen as its protector. At the end of the world, he will fight in the great war to protect the city because it's her homeland, and so it's important to her, and it's important to him because those are all her descendents. When he is finally killed in that battle, he'll be able to rejoin her at last as his soul will be allowed into the river to search for hers and reunite.

There is a large statue of the god and human erected in the city square, of him looking noble and brave, and her being a source of strength for him at his side, pushed just behind him so that he is the one protecting her; but in the gardens, there is a smaller one in stone, of him kneeling, weak and grieving, crying over her body in his arms; but standing at his side is a glass statue of her, with a hand reaching out to his face but stopping inches away from touching his cheek, to symbolise the fact she is still (& always will be) waiting on him.

it's always "immortals always lose the ones they love!" and never "this family has had this incredible, powerful, loving figure present through generations of their lineage, all because they are descended from someone the immortal loved long ago" and i think that's a shame!!

[aritany]

I'm sorry your writing strategy is WHAT?? I'm going to need a thorough explanation of this because I'm FASCINATED

[brian murphy voice] I DIDNT SAY ANYTHING WEIRD!!!

okay i did. but also! if it ain’t broke…

here’s how this crumbles cookie-wise. sometimes (as is currently the case) i feel like i am trying to hold onto a whole novel in my brain at once. this does not feel particularly good because the novel doesn’t belong in my brain it belongs Out There. so i make a very detailed outline and then i start at chapter 1, and i write to 100 words (give or take a few). then i move on to chapter 2 and write to 100 words. then to chapter 3 and so on until i have at least 100 words in each chapter. then once i’ve run through the whole book, i go back to the beginning and make sure each chapter is up to 200. then i’m usually in the Meat of each scene so i’ll get everything up to 500, then 1000, then 1500 and then usually i clock out of chapters around or just under the 2k mark.

this appeases the hyperactive part of my brain by making sure i’m never bored, and helps the project manager in my brain so i can keep track of many moving parts in the novel and also ensures that scenes at the end speak to scenes at the beginning since i’m (sort of) writing the whole book at once.

NOTE: sometimes i get lost in the sauce and write way past 100 or wherever im at, and that’s fine. it just means i probably skip that chapter during my next pass since it’ll be past my goal wc for each chapter of the run.

that is all. try it, if you want. i honestly don’t know how to write books any other way

[justmeinatree]

please please please (NO PRESSURE BUT) (IM BEGGING YA)

something extremely smutty where like niall is working out: (literally need nothing else completely go ham its up to you but just like LOOK:)

the little jerk as he lifts up yk what im talking aboutt lets not pretend we're not *respectfully* looking.

as if i could say no to this 😅 it’s not the smuttiest thing, but if we’re open to a part 2, there’s a lot of room to play 😏

Word Count : 1.3k

it was the breathy grunts that first got your attention. 

you’d never cared much for niall’s workouts, always preferring to have the quiet time, enjoying a cuppa, maybe a book or tv show. but as you were just getting cozy with your tea, pulling the blanket over your legs, you could hear him from down the hall.

it piqued your interest, the sounds he was making having reached your ears, and for some reason, shooting down to your centre, leaving a little tingle of interest.

and for that same reason, you were now leaving your warmth and comfort, flinging the blanket back over the arm of the couch, trudging down the hall. 

once you pop head around the doorframe though, eyes coming into contact with your boyfriend, the tingle of interest in your cunt quickly turned to a dribble of excitement.

because fuck, was this the scene you’d been missing out on all these years ? you’ll have to remember to scold yourself for that one later, but for now, your brain was short wiring. niall was currently laying on his exercise mat, legs bent up at the knees, slightly spread, his arms straight up above his head, doing some sit ups with an exercise ball in his hands. and, since the universe wanted to punish you even more, with every flex of his abs, his hips would thrust up just a bit with the force of the movement. 

he was glistening, a sheen of sweat all over his skin, torso bare for your eyes to ogle. and when did your drip of excitement turn into a full fledged puddle of arousal ? how long had you been watching ? why are you quite literally feeling yourself leaking down your inner thighs ? 

it’s once he lays back down, taking a moment to breathe between sets, that you make your presence known. you weren’t exactly trying to, but a small whimper managed to escape your throat without permission. but really, his entire body was stretched out, muscles flexed, and if you look really closely, you can see the outline of his cock through his shorts. you really can’t be blamed.

niall’s eyes flick over to the door, noticing you, quirking his eyebrow, “what is it, love ?”

you bite your lip, heat rising on your cheeks at the prospect of being caught. however, niall was your boyfriend, had been for a long time, and moments like this don’t much embarrass you anymore, “d’you always look this good while you workout ?”

a loud breathy chuckle erupts from niall, echoing through the room, “gonna start joining me, sweet girl ?”

you squint at him, tilting your head to the side, looking at him with a playfully untrusting look, “was this your plan all along ?”

and so maybe he wanted to see if being a little louder than usual, a little more grunty than usual, would make you come over. and maybe he chose to forego his shirt, and maybe he spread his legs a tiny bit more than usual, in an effort to keep you around. “does it really matter now ?” he smiles innocently, “can see how wet your thighs are getting.”

“i hope you plan on doing something about that,” you smirk, shaking your head at your boyfriend’s antics.

“can’t do anything from way over there,” he hums, nodding his head in a come hither motion, “c’m’ere.”

as you finally step into the room, waltzing over to niall, he quickly reaches out for your ankles, his sheer strength taking over your moment of weakness, making you stop with your feet spread on either side of his head, eyes locked straight up between your thighs.

it was still early enough in the day, you hadn’t changed from your sleep shorts, tiny piece of fabric without any panties, something niall typically likes to tease you about, “why even wear anything if you’re gonna put those on,” he always drones on before bed.

but for now, he’s not complaining a bit, a fairly good view of your sopping cunt, peaking through the drenched fabric, arousal coating your inner thighs, “s’a good thing i’m parched,” he groans, hands gliding up your calves, stopping behind your knee, abruptly giving a tug, making your legs buckle. you squeak loudly, echoing through the room, as you were caught off guard, knees colliding with the mat underneath niall.

with your cunt sitting right above his face, niall groans, feeling the hot hot heat radiating off of you, “christ, and i thought i was warm,” he mumbles, his tongue darting out to lick along your skin.

he swirls around your thigh, taking his sweet time, lapping up any bit of arousal that’s made it way past your shorts, before moving onto the other thigh.

your legs were trembling, head tipped back, as your breathing accelerates. he was avoiding any area near your pussy, every ounce of your being aching for more. more tongue, more touches, more niall. more, more, more.

but once your skin was cleaned up, he pats your legs, groaning, “perfect post workout snack. think m’gonna jump into the shower now, baby.”

your eyebrows furrow immediately, because absolutely the fuck not, “like hell you are,” you quip, shuffling yourself until your centre is hovering right above his stiffening member. “you clean me, i clean you,” you murmur, leaning down over him.

and just like he did for you, your tongue slowly laps up the beads of sweat over his stomach and chest, feeling the ridges of his abs with every stroke. 

your eyes flutter shut, the musky, heady scent of sweaty man wafting through the air, the salty taste on your tongue, it was doing things you never could have imagined. not once had you really given workout niall a chance like this, something he always does much too early in the morning for your liking. but the more you were delving into it, the more your brain was swirling with want. with need.

you couldn’t stop, too caught up in licking as much of him as you could, tongue flicking over his nipples, mouth attaching to his pulse point. 

and it was working. you were teasing him right back. his telltale little breathy pants huffing against your ear whenever you were close to his neck, fingernails indenting your hips, his cock now painfully hard.

you’re not even sure niall’s noticed that his hips have started rolling, searching for any sort of relief, something you’re not too keen on giving into quite yet. 

so a moment later, you pull away, coming to a stand, “better get that shower going, we have some things to do today.”

niall scrubs his face in his hands, groaning loudly for a moment, before getting up with you. and as quick as a flash, he’s got you scooped up in his arms, running off.

you squeal again, laughing loudly, as he whips down the hall, around the corners, and into the washroom. he quickly closes the door behind himself, setting you down on your feet, pinning you against the wall, “can forget about all those things you have planned today. gonna be too busy.”

you hum, your body melting against the wall, as niall’s mouth leaves a trail of open mouth kisses over your shoulder and neck, teeth nibbling on the shell of your ear, “hmm tell me. tell me what we’re gonna do.”

“gonna start by showering with me,” he murmurs against your ear, “and if you’re a good girl, i might use the shower head on you.”

you whimper, nodding quickly, “please, fuck. what else ?”

niall tuts, shaking his head, “depends how good you are for me. now how about stripping down and washing me off in the shower ?”

“yes, yes anything. m’a good girl, i promise.”

……

Masterlist

[littleshopofchaos]

Writeblr Interview Tag!

Thank you to @dearunreliablenarrator for the tag

I tag @waltzshouldbewriting @violetcancerian @watermeezer @cherrybombfangirlwrites and anyone who wants to do this

Short stories, novels, or poems?

All of them. Its fun and good to practise having a variety

What genre do you prefer reading?

I love fantasy as my main, but my second favourite is crime/ true crime and things like Agatha Christie

Are you a planner or a write as I go kind of person?

Both. I like to have a variety so I can get stuff done and not stress about some fun projects whilst outlining the serious ones that need a lot of work

What music do you listen to while writing?

Mostly musicals, right now its Wait For Me/Reprise from Hadestown, and then there's things like Linkin Park New Divide and Numb

Favorite books/movies?

Favourite books: Any Agatha Christie, Skulduggery Pleasant or A Good Girls Guide To Murder the trilogy

Favourite movies: Lilo and Stitch, Monsters Inc, Pirates of the Carribbean, Inside Out 1 and 2, Shrek 1 and 2

Any current WIPs?

Keep The Peace is part of my series Amongst The Chaos, an adult fantasy slice-of-life supernatural series where its a bunch of characters living in the city of Nottingham, and meeting up at various places to get together and talk about events that have happened in their lives as they live amongst the supernatural - e.g Angels. Demons, Ghosts and the like and their reactions to the chaos.

If someone were to make a cartoon out of you what would your standard outfit be?

jogging bottoms and a lilo and stitch t-shirt or a game of thrones t-shirt, stich trainers, a stitch handbag and a sunflower lanyard.

Create a character description of yourself: 

Fat non-binary person really into eating and crafting and loves to dye hair different colours, cannot see for shit without glasses and cannot drive.

Do you like incorporating actual people you know into your writing?

Yes and no. All my characters are original, but sometimes my mother will suggest 'oh, write about our family, your nephews, the cats' ect and to be honest with you, ive never figured out how to fit them in, so i dont.

Are you kill happy with your characters?

Oh yeah, absolutely. I will kill whoever I want to, whenever I want to. I'm not afraid to get violent with the deaths, but I gotta do it justice

Coffee or Tea while writing?

Tea, Hot Chocolate or different juices, depending what's in my reach and i'm interested in.

Slow or fast writer?

It depends on how motivated i am, when im not in writers block i can write 2k within like 2 hours

Where/who/what do you draw inspiration from?

Everything - the books i read, the games i play, the music i listen to.Bad writing pisses me off real bad and I know I can do better

If you were in a fantasy world, what would you be?

A librarian or writer completely done wih the city being destroyed by the supernatural but being really intrigued and trying not to die.

Most fav book cliche:

I cannot answer.

Least favorite cliche:

curing disabilities. like fuck off with that shit, give them their aids back and we dont need to cure autism, we're fine the way we are

Favorite scene to write?

all of them, i just cannot pick one thing i love. Its just... the whole process of writing that I love and I wouldn't change it fot the world

Reason for writing?

Because its a part of what makes me, me and i wouldnt have it any other way. I am a writer, its in my blood. I enjoy the creation, the creativity, the uniqueness of my own voice

[mayakern]

ppl keep asking what fandom this is from. it is from a fandom of one (1) and that one is me. it is from my brain. my heart. my very gay and horny soul.

chase me if you must, but i’ll be the one to capture you

[peachesofteal]

just want to mention that since the last update of DD ive been reading it in a straight loop. as soon as i finish a reread i start over again, get through 2-3 chapters a day i think. sometimes ill take a little break and go reread all of the AU posts and drabbles again. dead disco has me by the fucking THROAT you have so much power

its fr like the GTA gif "ah shit, here we go again" i swear HAHAHA

also a question! whats your writing process like? there's so many flashbacks and jumping around (which works SO WELL, i havent read an author that does it like you and thats a damn shame bc its just so seamless and gives so much insight to the characters and the dynamics and gives the pacing a lot of interest, like it gives the main storyline time to breathe without forcing it to jump from Big Thing to Big Thing since we get little snippets of past Things UGH so smart)

im so curious how you plan it out and execute it!!! do you come up with the little events you'd like to cover when doing the full outline, write em out and slip em in where they fit best in the 'main' timeline? do you come up with the timeline, then write a note for yourself like "put flashback here about xyz" in where you want to emphasize the background/buildup of whats happening in the main timeline, then write the flashback after the main timeline part of the chapter is done? i cant imagine writing the chapters straight through like they are and keeping it all straight in my head, theres gotta be a method haha

thanks for the endless reading material ur a lifeline fr xoxo

Ahh thank you so much! I'm so flattered. Dead Disco is my ultimate personal comfort fic, so it means a lot that others enjoy it (and the AUs!) 🖤

About my writing process: Dead Disco has two outlines. Current timeline and past timeline. It's outlined by 'events' more than anything else, and I use that to steer me when I'm working on it. I write current timeline first, and then past timeline second, usually because I'm trying to figure out where to put the flashbacks in so they make the most sense. So a chapter will have two major events on the current timeline that are outlined to correspond with something specific in the past timeline, if that makes sense.

Sometimes it gets a little complicated and/or confusing, but I try to smooth it out for the reader if I feel like I'm not telling a cohesive story. I really enjoy writing this way, with flashbacks, and would love to adapt it to something like a book, but who knows. Basically everything I write looks like this in my head:

[dingo-ate-my-hot-lettuce-crazy]

Scripting Template [2]

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☐ General

☐ Appearance

☐ Characteristics

☐  Likes/Dislikes

☐ Relations

☐ DR Setting

☐ Cloning + Affirmations

[1] General

Name:

Origin:

Nickname:

Pet name (sweetheart, baby, etc):

Sexuality:

Gender:

Pronouns:

Age:

Mental Age:

Birthdate:

Zodiac/Chinese Sign:

Birthplace:

Current Residence:

Past Residence(s):

Languages:

Accent/Dialect:

Ethnicity:

Race:

Nationality:

[2] Appearance:

[photo]

Hair:

Color:

Length:

Texture:

Cut: [photo]

Eye:

Shape:

Color:

Body/Facial Hair:

Facial Structure:

Height/Weight:

Body Figure (pear, hourglass, etc):

Breast Size:

Body Details:

Scars:

Dimples:

Tattoos:

Piercings:

Birthmark:

Ring Size:

Jawline:

Blood type:

Clothing/Style:

Casual:

Pajamas:

Work Attire:

Exercise:

Party:

Hot Weather:

Cold Weather:

Date Night:

Jewelry:

Rings:

Necklaces:

Earrings:

Other:

Appearance Affirmation:

•I am irresistibly attractive.

•iI have prominent muscles (abs, biceps, etc)

•My hair looks perfect straight, curly, or wavy.

•I never get a bad haircut

•My lips are never chapped.

•My breath is always minty and smells nice.

•My voice is raspy/honey-like/angelic/etc

•My skin never has any pimples, or cysts.

•I have perfect hygiene and smell like ___.

•I have a clear nose and never have earwax.

• My smile is contagious and sweet.

•My smile lights up a room.

•Im immune to lice, greasy hair, and dandruff

•My closet has endless tops, bottoms, underwear, bras, accessories, jewelry, etc

•All my clothes fit me perfectly/just the way i want them to

•My teeth are white

[3] Characteristics:

IQ:

Myers Briggs:

Talents:

Traits:

Hobbies:

Habits:

How do people feel when you walk into the room:

How do people talk about you: How do people perceive you:

How do you perceive yourself:

What do you value in yourself:

Insecurities:

How do you view the glass (half full, half empty, etc):

Fears:

[4] Likes/Dislikes

Color: EXAMPLE Like: red/dislike:green

animal:

food/dish:

dessert:

drink:

alcoholic beverage:

taste:

smell:

season:

place:

holiday:

plant:

book:

literary genre:

movie:

movie genre:

tv show:

tv genre:

actor:

artist/band:

song:

music genre:

clothing style:

game:

game genre:

[5] Relations

Family:

Father(s):

Mother(s):

Sibling(s):

Children:

Extended Family:

Pet(s):

Who Raised You: Who do you favor:

Family Background/History:

Who is alive/deceased:

Work:

Employer:

Employees:

Coworkers:

Friends:

BFF:

Close Friends:

First meeting:

Friends:

Acquaintances:

Love:

First Crush/Love:

Past Partners:

Current Partner(s):

Sex Information:

Marital Status:

[6] DR Setting

First Shift:

The Date:

CR to DR Time: (1 hour in CR: 1 month in DR)

When I shift I…

Feel:

Physically:

Emotionally:

See:

Smell:

Hear:

Wear:

House:

Layout: [photo]

Address:

School:

Primary:

Secondary:

College/University:

Work:

Address:

Coworkers:

Shifts:

Experience:

Book/Movie/TV Timeline:

[this is where you can set up a specific outline if you were shifting for exact media events]

Before:

During:

After:

Memories:

Headcanons:

Events:

[7] Cloning + Affirmations

Safe word/action:

Clone: 

-My clone is always safe. 

-My clone always acts like me. 

-My clone will keep my personality. 

-My clone will remember whats happens in my DR after I return to my CR. 

-My clone will carry out any normal tasks that were left for me in my Cr. 

-My clone will not die. 

-My clone has great mental health. 

-My clone is like me in every way possible. 

Other Affirmations:

misc affirmations:

•I cannot die

•I will not get trauma.

•I will return back to my CR anytime I say my safeword + action.

•I can stay as long as I want in my DR.

•I am not sexually assaulted by anyone.

•I won't forget my safe word/action.

•people in my DR do not notice me shifting when I say my safe word.

•All of my memories from my DR before I enter are automatically there so I know what is going on when I arrive.

•all memories from my CR stay intact when I arrive back.

•I always come back from my DR safely.

•i remember what's happened when i come back to my CR after i shift

•I do not feel severe pain.

•My body is healthy and I never get any diseases aside from the common cold or allergies every so often.

•I never throw up.

•I cannot get pregnant unless i want to

•I have fast metabolism.

•Bodily waste never causes any issues.

•I don't have a period.

•I have a high pain tolerance.

•People in my DR do not know Im shifting.

•no one is in my DR that does not belong

•i can easily run a mile in ___ time.

Shifting Affirmations:

1. i can shift

2. i can shift easily

3. i can shift realities easily

4. i believe i can shift easily

5. i have successfully shifted

6. i have the ability to shift

7. i am focused on shifting

8. i will shift successfully

9. i can shift successfully

10. i am able to shift successfully

11. i am confident in my ability to shift

12. i am in my desired reality

13. i am already in my desired reality

14. i know i am in my desired reality

15. i am in my desired reality already

16. i live in my desired reality

17. i can shift whenever i want

18. i can shift realities whenever i want

19. i believe i can shift successfully

20. i know i can shift whenever i want

21. i know i can shift successfully

22. i’m shifting

23. i know i’m shifting

24. i’m shifting right now

25. i believe shifting is easier than breathing

26. i know shifting is easier than breathing

27. i believe shifting is easier than blinking

28. i know shifting is easier than blinking

29. i believe shifting is easier than moving

30. i know shifting is easier than moving

31. shifting is easier than blinking

32. shifting is easier than breathing

33. shifting is easier than moving

34. i shift everytime i breathe

35. i shift everytime i blink

36. i shift everytime i move

37. i know i have successfully shifted

38. i believe i have successfully shifted

39. i believe i am in my desired reality

40. i have succeeded at shifting to my desired reality

41. i have succeeded at shifting

42. i know i have succeeded at shifting

43. i know i have succeeded at shifting to my desired reality

44. i believe i have succeeded at shifting to my desired reality

45. i believe i have succeeded shifting

46. i know i can shift

47. i have successfully shifted to my desired reality

48. i have successfully shifted to my desired reality because i deserve it

49. i have successfully shifted realities

50. i know i have successfully shifted realities

51. i believe i have successfully shifted realities

52. everything is perfect in my desired reality

53. i am a master at shifting

54. i’m the best at shifting

55. i will shift realities to my ___ DR

56. i can shift realities to ___ DR

57. i can shift realities to ___ DR easily

58. i’m happy to be in my desired reality

59. i’m grateful to be in my desired reality

60. i’m thankful to be in my desired reality

61. my desired reality will follow my script

62. i know shifting realities will work

63. i know shifting realities is real

64. i am shifting to my desired reality

65. i can shift to my desired reality

66. i can shift to my desired reality easily

67. i will shift to my desired reality

68. i know i will shift to my desired reality

69. i have the power to shift

70. i know i have the power to shift

71. i believe i have the power to shift

72. i know i have the ability to shift

73. i believe i have the ability to shift

74. i will wake up in my desired reality

75. i will wake up in the ____.

76. i have shifted realities

77. i know i have shifted realities

78. i went to my desired reality

79. i can shift realities with ease

80. i am going to go to my desired reality

81. i have faith in shifting realities

82. it is easy to shift realities

83. i know it is easy to shift realities

84. i know i am going to go to my desired reality

85. i know i can shift realities with ease

86. i know i have shifted realities

87. i am capable of shifting realities

88. i know i am capable of shifting realities

89. i’m finally in my desired reality

90. i finally live in my desired reality

91. i am a master shifter

92. i look like my dr self

93. i am in my ideal reality

94. i live in my ideal reality

95. i will wake up in my ideal reality

96. i am prepared to shift

97. i know i am prepared to shift

98. i am safe in my dr

99. i am protected in my dr

100. my shifting process will go smoothly

101. i can shift using any method, including ones i make up.

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*slides in*

How about 3, 16, 17 and 29 for the fic writer asks?

omg i didnt think id ramble this much (thank u for enabling me ner 🤧💕💕)

3. how you feel about your current WIP

tbh i'm not super confident about my writing any time i come out from from a long long hiatus of not posting anything. also like… i'm not super confident writing other charas aside from jamil since i don't really think ab them as much… (sorry leona-natics* whenever this drabble gets posted, but like fingers crossed the sitch will hopefully be exciting enough)

*i think it might have to do with the fact that i kinda hc leona on the grayspec++have more vv specific hc characterizations i like of him, but ig i do see his appeal (one of m'oomfs is a leona-natic and well ahu her propaganda might've been subconsciously assimilated)

but ahaha i tend to write things that i'm very personally interested in so i'll find a way to have fun with it, i'll be gucci i just get too into my head, it's a vicious cycle as a writer.

16. favorite place to write

uhhh im a very sedentary person, probably a result from the pandemic, and being a thorough homebody even after that

hmm i would say id like a nice ambient public place with coffeeeee my blood my life force Some amount of people engrossed in their own work, but like in the ph, esp in a place populated by a lot of uni students, cafes end up being hella cold (im skin and bones the cold is Evil)++noisy (which i don't see as a big bad thing esp since i like socializing with my friends...at the cost of putting off my own writing oops HAHAHA)

17. talk about your writing and editing process

oh boy. here we go. one thing to note throughout all this: my only consistent practice as a writer is inconsistency. (and ig, if i try hard enough, i can usually put out a passable 200-300 words in one sitting)

sometimes i can outline a fic and take forever chipping away at it

^^(case in point: that sebek x vampire!reader x silver fic... i joked abt waiting until book 7 would drop on EN but it has been Stuck. i wanna write bi-disaster sebek so bad though 🤧🤧)

other times my actual writing veers waaaaay into a diff plotpoint instead of what i have plotted out

^^(there're these 2 now-removed bullet points in wcidfy's outline for ch 3 that went: "do i have the balls to write a fever scene… gaguhan anhirap nito pag walang ob [tl: fuck this is hard (to write) without overblots]" and "i also keep thinking of a scene in the (scarabia) gardens…and lying about bees…weird")

and sometimes i can just shit out 1k-ish words unprompted.

^^though this last example leads to my most rough writing++editing ('ily but leave me tf alone' and 'no id rather pretend'), i only look over for immediate errors, but keep iffy-phrasings and repeated words, but sometimes i still miss incomplete sentences that i jus quickly fix after posting ahahaha.

in terms of my more "polished" writing, i edit as i write (<- i do Not recommend this style. it's very unsustainable if ur planning to do more conventional writing/publishing and it's very easy to get trapped in your writer's block)

and after finishing 80% of it, i try to get a second pair of eyes on it (thanks @jessamine-rose mwaps) because validation of works in progress feels good it also helps to have a trusted outside person look at the work with fresher eyes. also smtimes we get into bouncing ideas back nd forth that we spawn new brainrot lmao like this👇

i like to call my writing a "semi-polished first draft" partly out of self-defense and self-criticism. but really, i think i'd rather have "good enough" writing posted than "my best" because i could spend forever hoarding my wips. i think i'll always have regrets over not fleshing out certain beats/using certain phrasings and references, but i also enjoy looking back on my writing and seeing the incremental, microscopic progress. it makes the process more enjoyable than self-flagellating.

on a personal note, the writing workshop scene can be brutal. with some criticism being needlessly harsh, sure it produced some of my "best" writing but the process was Not Fun. while i get that being able to revise meaningfully is an important thing, i think the endgoal of feedback (from my short exp of betaing for friends) shud always be aimed towards uplifting the writer's aim to create/improving the writer's vision of what they wanna achieve, especially in a craft that is as solitary as writing. wait ill rb a post about making ur shitty pots, very in-line with making art in general

29. how easy is it for you to come up with titles?

very hard. i hate thinking of titles, thats why i yoink lines from songs (who cares if the vibe doesnt fit im adding layers of interpretation or sumn🥴🥴). ACTUALLY wcidfy had like 3 other possible names (it was either *rolls out list* hairtie, nonequivalent exchange, or ben franklin effect* wcidfy was the most bearable one.) *i tried to look up how to distill the psychological phenomenon of someone probably liking u more after u do a small favor for them into 2-3 words, but it had to be a WHITE MAN'S NAME 🤢🤢NAW!!!!

for few other examples:

'say what you mean' was initially titled 'oh how the tables turn'

'roommates? more like roomfoes' was first titled 'pet peeves'

'hypothermia' was first titled 'frigid' but then i thought of paradoxical undressing nd stuff and da pseudo-warmth

i've also moved a bunch of other plot beats from wcidfy's main document into a file called "part 45678 of wcidfy"

as u can see i prioritize making myself laugh wid my wip titles. i wanna put the illusion that my writing's not that serious. unless it is? idk i'm not sure how to describe my writing in terms of its vibes.

(list of fic writer asks, ahaha bug me ab my wips)

[americanrecord]

Good morning, Kelsey!! How was yesterday? I hope today is wonderful!!

hi, ashley!! happy wednesday!

yesterday was fine. i didn’t really do anything productive, but that’s okay! i also just have nothing to report on. laid around!!

today, i’m currently in the waiting room at the dentist, yayyy…🙄 and after that, i’m not super sure. i might do some job searching, we’ll see!! i finished my book 2 outline so now im in need of another new project, so i’ll have to figure out what that will be!

how are you? how was yesterday? i hope today is great!!

[crows-murder]

Ask game: 2, 5, 16, 20 ✨️

2. talk about a notable time a narrative or character has looked you dead in the eyes and said “fuck your plan, here’s what we’re actually doing.”

when i first outlined my fic all the ashes in my wake i had a basic idea of where the story would go and who the main villains would be, etc etc

and then.

AND THEN!!

i wrote chapter 5 and i as like "hey it would be cool actually if the cursed mystic amulet had fallen into the hands of Big Mama" and i went with it. i mean, it's a fun lil twist and it was fun to write. except now i'm on chapter 7 and i have to rewrite a good chunk of my outline bc it doesn't WORK anymore now that big mama came along and became an important bit of the plot!!!

and thats only one instance in this fic where this happened actually. casey was not supposed to be in this fic as much as she currently is. (im not complaining about that one though bc i absolutely love her with my whole entire heart)

5. have you ever made a playlist about something you were writing as an elaborate means to procrastinate when you could have been actually writing and if yes drop a link, son

one thing about me is that i love making playlists for my fics and characters. i ABSOLUTELY made a playlist while procrastinating writing said fic.

HERE IT IS: fic playlist for ataimw

16. where is your favorite place to write?

either my university library or this little coffee shop in town. those are both very ideal writing locations for me because they include my favorite things: cozy vibes, coffee, books.

20. what is your favorite trope to write?

found family all the way. i'm sure it says a lot about me but its just so!!!! wonderful!!!! ON PURPOSE!!! I'LL STAY WITH YOU AND I'LL LOVE YOU ON PURPOSE!!!

if u look at all the media i've hyperfixated on, the common denominator is usually found family lmao

thank you for the ask!! <333

ask game

[rubythecrimsonwriter]

Hi!!! I’m a super big fan of all together cousins, and Im currently re-reading it for the like 4th time:) I know you havent updated in more then 5 years now, but is it something you’d ever think of continuing? Sorry if this is annoying feel free to tell me to shut up lol:)

Oh my gods my heart. Darling, I would never tell you to shut up.

The fact of the matter is that I started writing ATC when I was fourteen, which is over a decade ago now. Fourteen year old me had Big Brained Ideas, and a decent method of execution, but my writing has improved a lot since then and I've kind of fallen out of love with the story execution.

However, I have good news and bad news about All Together, Cousins.

The bad news is that I'm not continuing with the story as it currently stands. The difference between fourteen year old me's story writing abilities and twenty year old me's story writing abilities is stark, to the point where looking at chapter 2 vs chapter 13 is straight up jarring, and frankly? I don't like it. Also I kind of lost track of what I was doing between hiatuses, so I was relying on subplots and character development to drive the story, rather than an overarching plot.

The good news is that I'm in active revision for it. It's not the first story I've done it for; my series Fury's Stresses was a fic that I liked the idea of but not the execution, and overhauled it in its entirety. I'm working on a total outline for everything, so that I can refer to it as time goes on. I'll be splitting it up into three parts, rather than one long fic that ATC became (I still don't understand what in Hades's name high school me was on, tbh, the amount that I wrote for the rewrite of BotL was longer than the original book).

If you want to see the first bit's outline, you can find that here, and I'm working on the second part in between emergencies and work and house renovations 😅.

Happy reading, darling. 💜💜

[mollish-art]

hehe hello again, i have tiny question. so im currently working on a little story abt elves and dragons and the more i work on plots it just goes all over and i just wanna know how you can pace a story with mixed species and a rather large amount of world building, and also how to have proper transitions to different character povs as i have 3 main povs that i wanna try 2 being elves and 1 being a dragons. :)

That's a really cool story concept you have there! I've actually been developing my own fantasy universe for the past 7-ish years called "Draka Imperium", which is all centered around dragons and such.

Funnily enough, I've been struggling with the exact same problems that you have laid out here (complex worldbuilding, story pacing, multiple character POVs, etc), and I've been wrestling for the past few years with rewrites in order to make things work the way that I want.

One of my friends who is a published author (Fennah - you may recognize his youtube animations or his book, Amygdala), gave me some really good advice recently about writing in general, and it's given me some direction to help with my own rewrites. One of the things that stuck with me the most was about letting your characters speak for themselves. Don't try to put your own words or ideologies into the mouths of your characters - let them live and breathe in the world that you've created!

As for my own personal advice, at least when it comes to POV alternating, I'll let you know what I did with Unperson, as I am alternating between 2 POVs for that story. I planned out (roughly) what story beats I wanted to hit for each chapter and made notes for each POV in a different color - this just helped with organizing. But what helped the most with writing was to keep the environmental/story beats in mind from my outline, but to simply allow the characters to react to them. I never had dialogue pre-composed before I started writing; all of my chapters so far have mostly been written like a stream of consciousness. I merely led the characters to interact with certain things in their environments, and then wrote their dialogue and mannerisms as if I were an actor and improvising their lines/movements without making them stick to the 'script', if that makes any sense. In other words, in the process of writing a scene, if it felt more natural for the character to react in a different way than I had originally planned it in my head, I would simply allow the character to act in that way rather than trying to shoehorn them into a box that I had created for them.

Idk if that makes any sense, but I hope it helps somewhat!

[tismcosmology]

ive been reading a book on human and primate evolution called the first idea (by greenspan and shanker), specifically about the evolution from a non-sentient animal to an animal thats capable of like, going to the moon, and i figured id brain dump some of my thoughts about it here because. theres a lot

im pretty sure this book is about as old as I am which is WILD bc i was baffled by how much shit in here i just did not know about. idk how much of that is because i never researched super deep into some of these topics, and how much is just bc this wasnt scientifically accepted fully when it was published, but still.

The heart of the book really is the authors model of the development/evolution of intelligence, as thats the bit that is constantly pulled up and referenced as you work your way through human development, psychology, (paleo)anthropology, sociology, etc etc. They hypothesize that while humans are born with the genetic and biological capability for things like language and logical thought, its not inherent, and are instead developed slowly over the first years of a childs life through sustained emotional regulation with their caregiver. I could never explain it as well as they do, but the jist is that the first step to developing intelligence is symbol formation (being able to seperate the concept of "mom" from the person "mom"), and the dual coding of experiences (a baby experiences a sound as both loud and frightening, or soft and soothing. both objective and subjective).

Theres 3 parts, the authors walk you through a shiiit load of stuff.

Early human development, focusing on the role of emotions and caregiving in healthy neurological development. They focus a lot on ages 0-2, but do discuss neurological health and stages of development from birth til death. The main point put across here is an argument against determinism in regards to human evolution. ie that the process of a child developing language and logical thinking is not coded in their genes, but rather a dynamic learning process between a child and its caregivers using emotional signaling (conveying emotional states using non-verbal communication), as well as generally outlining their model, the different stages of development, and how it works. Theres also a few chapters on their model applied to autism spectrum disorder development

Primate evolution (mostly). There was a large focus on the bonobo ape Kanzi (who, if you know anything about ape language studies, uses a lexigram board to communicate quite well) as one of the authors had worked with Kanzi at some point and was able to learn from him. Theres a Lot of really cool personal accounts from the author that were incredible to read. Of course also touching on chimp hunting practices and other primate behaviours, and then connecting it all back to the same model of a dynamic learning process between child and caregiver, and showing that all primates have a developed intelligence that can be placed at a level roughly corresponding with various ages of human children. insane. ofc they then go through and argue their case against the many other hypothesis for human evolution. very engaging read

(2.5.) theres also a lot of information in this part about ASD, coming from one of the authors who worked extensively with high support autistic kids, particularly in teaching them how to form and use symbolic ideas, and how to use those as a basis for learning language. They use their model and explain ASD as a breakdown of the ability for a child to engage in this dynamic emotional process that is required for functional development.

Group cohesion and the social structure. to be fair, im only about 3 chapters into this part, but the segments I have read have done an incredible job at both describing the current understanding of why and how social groups form and work (or dont work), and then applying everything previously stated to much more 'current' political groups. This part seems to be leaning away from anthropology and more towards sociology and political science oddly enough, but im very excited to finish it

[kikithefox231]

HI KIKI!!! For the askgame: 1 3 13 and 23 if you're up for it!! 💖💖💖

AAAAAAAA THANK YOU AGAIN FOR THE ASK!!!!! I’ve been writing more recently and I’m so happy to talk about it and all my thoughts haha :DDD

1.

Q: Last sentence you wrote?

A: “…So uh. Do you want that 50 dollars in cash or credit?”

This is from a crack fluffy fic I’m writing for Infinity Train!!! Featuring Lake and Jesse who I absolutely adore <333 they are the idiots ever!!!! Half a brain cell shared between them lmao

I titled it “Jesse and Lake’s Disastrous Table Building Fiasco (Or How Jesse and Lake got banned from IKEA)” which explains itself LOL

I’m very excited to finish it ^^ SOON!!!!

3.

Q: how you feel about your current WIP?

A: Great!!!! @mell0bee was really supportive of me while I was writing and gave me feedback as I wrote it! It definitely helped me not immediately lose motivation haha

Also I’m happy to do something crack and fluffy!! I rarely ever do that and I really missed doing something really silly :DDD

13.

Q: a fandom you’re thinking about writing for?

A: SOOOOOO MANY!!!! But at the moment I’d like to write more for infinity train!! I’d like to write something for each book and make it a series of character studies!! Also the show has so much angst and I THRIVE off of angst LOL so I must write more for it!!! I’ve really been appreciating it a lot after rewatching more of it recently (esp book 2 & 4!!! I love all of them tho!!!!)

I’d also like to write a canon divergence/au ficlet for The Dragon Prince as well!! The new season gave me some brainworms 👀👀👀 (it’s super angsty as well LOL)

I’m ALSO working on a longfic for glitch techs!!!! I’ve been stuck on a part of the first chapter DX BUT IM GETTING THERE!!!! The notes doc for it is 24 pages long and the outline doc is 4 (atm) LOL so it’s very thorough!!! I’m really excited to release it since this show doesn’t have as big of fanbase as it used to back when it was airing so I thought doing a big project like this could bring back some more fans again and get some more support for the show! But anyways, I just really adore the show I got a canon divergent idea back in February and I’ve been developing it into a longfic since!!!! I even have a cover for it ready :DDDD

23:

Q: pick three keywords that describe your writing?

A: OOF this one is so hard :’) I think I’d go with “short but impactful” since lots of my works don’t go past 1K but I’ve learned to pack a bunch of emotions into every word and scene! I think it’s sometimes a hit or miss but I really like writing emotional scenes that are really hard hitting and dramatic haha

If it’s just keywords and not a phrase then I’d go with “emotional, dramatic, personal”

Personal because a lot of my work is me projecting onto characters and expressing a lot of my own emotions and thoughts through them

Thank you so much for asking again!!! It means so much to me and I really appreciate it!! ^^

[the-dying-star]

• My favorite line I have written so far? That's pretty difficult. I have to go with two;

"If you are a monster, then you are the most exquisite monster I have ever known."

And

"That's just a fancy word for slut."

Im leaving them both out of context here.

• I honestly can't think of anything right now. I typically enjoy the characters as they are.

• I have no comments yet. Lol sooooo none.

• I don't think I have any wild ones

° I write anywhere since I typically just write in my phone's notepad app for now. Although I prefer to be at home instead of work, but I'm not picky.

• I have a rough outline but I typically add the majority as I go.

• I'll share the Prologue to my WIP below the bullets.

• I have actually only read two fandoms of fanfics. TMNT and My Chemical Romance.

• I post at random

• Silence...lol

• Probably my current one honestly, If Not For Me, the one this Blog centers around.

• Myself honestly. If others like it. Cool.

• I was honestly bored and couldn't find any other fanfica to read. So I started writing my own .

• I love writing my OCs. But I enjoy TMNT 2k3 Donatello and 2K3 Raphael.

• Dude....Rise Donnie and Rise Leo and also 2K3 Leo...I feel like I write them terribly but I stopped caring lol. 2K3 Donnie is so much easier for me.

• I have only written TMNT fanfics so far. But they are also both crossovers with one of my fav book series.

• Often since I have to proof read a few times and I often reread chapters to see how they flow and if anything needs added or taken out.

• Nope.

• I would pick INFM but I have never thought of casting honestly.

• Sometimes art but mostly music!

• I do some research yes. With my current work I have deep dived into different demons and angels from mythology.

• If the scale is 1 for wildly original and 10 for canon compliant I like a aolid 2-3 lol

• Relationship. I pretty much only write romance. Can't help it. Sorry not sorry. Lol

• Yesss. I have. So honestly they are both easy and difficult. The difficulty comes in finding tactful ways to describe things. And dialogue. The easy part is knowing how they flow.

• I can write fluff. All day. Angst. Oof

• I like a happy ending. But also I live for a cliff hanger. Because it typically means a sequel lol

• Three.

• Nope

• I realllyyy have enjoyed Dark Underwold on fanfic . net. Her Morningstar trilogy and accompanying works inspired some of the imagery and mythology in my own fic. And I have been really enjoying All Roads Lead Home by @spirit-of-the-westao3 (shameless shoutout! Go read it)

• My older brother loved the 87 TMNT and got me into it. And then I was heavily into the 2k3 TMNT as a kid, like, would come home from school and would turn on Nick at the exact time I needed to watch it. I was hooked from there. And at least one of my friends loves them too so I had someone to geek out with.

• Nope lol

• Life lesson? Do it for yourself.

• long fics

• Not exactly.

• I have no advice... I'm in it right now. It sucks lol I'm sorry.

• Nah.

• I am spare parts...If trope means what I think it means then Romance. Lol

• Ohhhhhh man If Not For Me. 100% if you ever want to. Do it. Please. Bring it to life. Lol i need to see it how you see it.

• The Prologue to INFM •

𝕴𝖋 𝕹𝖔𝖙 𝕱𝖔𝖗 𝕸𝖊

𝕻𝖗𝖔𝖑𝖔𝖌𝖚𝖊

He didn't remember a time when he had felt this at peace. He didn't remember much of anything really.

Weird.

Everything was wonderful here.

Everything was perfect here.

He didn't need to remember.

𝘚𝘤𝘳𝘦𝘢𝘮𝘪𝘯𝘨. 𝘞𝘩𝘰 𝘸𝘢𝘴 𝘴𝘤𝘳𝘦𝘢𝘮𝘪𝘯𝘨? 𝘞𝘩𝘺 𝘸𝘦𝘳𝘦 𝘵𝘩𝘦𝘺 𝘴𝘤𝘳𝘦𝘢𝘮𝘪𝘯𝘨? 𝘕𝘰𝘵𝘩𝘪𝘯𝘨 𝘸𝘢𝘴 𝘸𝘳𝘰𝘯𝘨 𝘩𝘦𝘳𝘦.

He stretched his arms up toward the sunshine and smiled at the steady warmth that he absorbed from it as he wandered the large expanse of tall glittering green grass. It felt good on his pebbly textured green skin.

𝘓𝘦𝘰 𝘴𝘤𝘳𝘦𝘢𝘮𝘪𝘯𝘨 𝘩𝘪𝘴 𝘯𝘢𝘮𝘦. 𝘛𝘳𝘺𝘪𝘯𝘨 𝘵𝘰 𝘨𝘦𝘵 𝘵𝘰 𝘩𝘪𝘮. 𝘏𝘦 𝘸𝘢𝘴 𝘧𝘢𝘭𝘭𝘪𝘯𝘨. 𝘍𝘢𝘭𝘭𝘪𝘯𝘨.

Leo?

He stopped and furrowed his brow.

Who was Leo?

He shrugged again and continued walking. He walked the same path everyday now for.....

"Huh....I don't even know how long." He smiled serenely to himself as he crested a large hill and looked down at the field below.

It was covered in fluffy pink, magenta, coral and white flowers for as far as he could see really. He descended the hill and wandered through the field slowly. The green foliage under the heavy heads of the blooms brushed against his clothed legs.

His three fingered hands brushed against the soft petals as he passed by.

Every time he moved through them and disturbed them by touching the silky soft petals they released their intoxicating perfume into the air.

𝘗𝘦𝘵𝘢𝘭 𝘱𝘪𝘯𝘬 𝘭𝘪𝘱𝘴 𝘵𝘪𝘭𝘵𝘪𝘯𝘨 𝘶𝘱 𝘪𝘯 𝘢 𝘴𝘮𝘪𝘭𝘦 𝘢𝘵 𝘩𝘪𝘮. 𝘚𝘪𝘭𝘬𝘺 𝘴𝘰𝘧𝘵 𝘢𝘭𝘢𝘣𝘢𝘴𝘵𝘦𝘳 𝘰𝘱𝘢𝘭𝘦𝘴𝘤𝘦𝘯𝘵 𝘴𝘬𝘪𝘯 𝘶𝘯𝘥𝘦𝘳 𝘩𝘪𝘴 𝘧𝘪𝘯𝘨𝘦𝘳𝘵𝘪𝘱𝘴. 𝘌𝘺𝘦𝘴 𝘵𝘩𝘦 𝘥𝘢𝘳𝘬 𝘨𝘳𝘦𝘦𝘯 𝘰𝘧 𝘢 𝘩𝘦𝘢𝘥𝘺 𝘱𝘪𝘯𝘦 𝘧𝘰𝘳𝘦𝘴𝘵.

He laid down within the field of flowers and pulled a deep breath in through his nose. He wasn't sure why he came here every day. It felt...right....or familiar. Something like that.

𝘚𝘩𝘢𝘳𝘱 𝘨𝘭𝘪𝘯𝘵𝘪𝘯𝘨 𝘧𝘢𝘯𝘨𝘴 𝘥𝘳𝘪𝘱𝘱𝘪𝘯𝘨 𝘸𝘪𝘵𝘩 𝘨𝘰𝘭𝘥. 𝘌𝘺𝘦𝘴 𝘣𝘭𝘰𝘰𝘥𝘺 𝘳𝘦𝘥, 𝘣𝘶𝘳𝘯𝘪𝘯𝘨 𝘸𝘪𝘵𝘩 𝘧𝘶𝘳𝘺.

He shook his head. Barely able to dislodge the strange images that kept bombarding him.

He looked up at the brilliant blue sky and watched as giant fluffy white clouds floated by slowly. He watched the massive flower heads bob in a lazy breeze and he reached up to brush his fingers over them again. Hmmm

What were they called again?

𝘛𝘩𝘦 𝘴𝘬𝘺 𝘥𝘢𝘳𝘬 𝘢𝘴 𝘱𝘪𝘵𝘤𝘩. 𝘚𝘤𝘳𝘦𝘢𝘮𝘪𝘯𝘨. 𝘚𝘰𝘮𝘦𝘰𝘯𝘦 𝘸𝘢𝘴 𝘴𝘤𝘳𝘦𝘢𝘮𝘪𝘯𝘨. 𝘞𝘩𝘰 𝘸𝘢𝘴 𝘴𝘤𝘳𝘦𝘢𝘮𝘪𝘯𝘨?

Poppies? Hmm no. That wasn't it.

𝘓𝘦𝘰 𝘭𝘪𝘧𝘵𝘪𝘯𝘨 𝘩𝘪𝘴 𝘢𝘳𝘮 𝘢𝘴 𝘪𝘧 𝘩𝘦 𝘤𝘰𝘶𝘭𝘥 𝘴𝘵𝘰𝘱 𝘵𝘩𝘦 𝘣𝘭𝘰𝘸 𝘵𝘩𝘢𝘵 𝘸𝘢𝘴 𝘤𝘰𝘮𝘪𝘯𝘨.

Pansies? No no. Not it.

𝘏𝘪𝘮 𝘬𝘯𝘰𝘤𝘬𝘪𝘯𝘨 𝘓𝘦𝘰 𝘢𝘴𝘪𝘥𝘦. 𝘈 𝘵𝘦𝘳𝘳𝘪𝘣𝘭𝘦 𝘤𝘳𝘶𝘴𝘩𝘪𝘯𝘨 𝘱𝘢𝘪𝘯, 𝘏𝘦 𝘸𝘢𝘴 𝘣𝘦𝘪𝘯𝘨 𝘭𝘪𝘧𝘵𝘦𝘥. 𝘏𝘪𝘨𝘩𝘦𝘳 𝘢𝘯𝘥 𝘏𝘪𝘨𝘩𝘦𝘳 𝘪𝘯𝘵𝘰 𝘵𝘩𝘦 𝘴𝘬𝘺. 𝘚𝘰𝘮𝘦𝘰𝘯𝘦 𝘸𝘢𝘴 𝘴𝘤𝘳𝘦𝘢𝘮𝘪𝘯𝘨.

Petunias?.... Absolutely not.

𝘉𝘭𝘢𝘻𝘪𝘯𝘨 𝘳𝘦𝘥 𝘦𝘺𝘦𝘴, 𝘨𝘭𝘪𝘯𝘵𝘪𝘯𝘨 𝘵𝘶𝘴𝘬𝘴 𝘵𝘩𝘦 𝘤𝘰𝘭𝘰𝘳 𝘰𝘧 𝘥𝘳𝘺 𝘣𝘰𝘯𝘦𝘴. 𝘛𝘩𝘦 𝘤𝘳𝘶𝘴𝘩𝘪𝘯𝘨 𝘱𝘢𝘪𝘯 𝘪𝘯𝘵𝘦𝘯𝘴𝘪𝘧𝘪𝘦𝘴. 𝘏𝘪𝘴 𝘣𝘢𝘵𝘵𝘭𝘦 𝘴𝘩𝘦𝘭𝘭 𝘤𝘳𝘢𝘤𝘬𝘴 𝘢𝘯𝘥 𝘤𝘳𝘶𝘮𝘣𝘭𝘦s 𝘵𝘰 𝘱𝘪𝘦𝘤𝘦𝘴. 𝘏𝘪𝘴 𝘳𝘦𝘢𝘭 𝘴𝘩𝘦𝘭𝘭 𝘤𝘳𝘶𝘮𝘱𝘭𝘦𝘴 𝘭𝘪𝘬𝘦 𝘱𝘢𝘱𝘦𝘳. 𝘏𝘪𝘴 𝘣𝘰𝘯𝘦𝘴 𝘴𝘩𝘢𝘵𝘵𝘦𝘳. 𝘓𝘶𝘯𝘨𝘴 𝘱𝘶𝘯𝘤𝘵𝘶𝘳𝘦𝘥 𝘣𝘺 𝘳𝘪𝘣𝘴. 𝘉𝘭𝘰𝘰𝘥 𝘧𝘭𝘰𝘰𝘥𝘴 𝘩𝘪𝘴 𝘴𝘦𝘯𝘴𝘦𝘴. 𝘏𝘦 𝘪𝘴 𝘧𝘢𝘭𝘭𝘪𝘯𝘨.

Primroses?...Still nope.

𝘐𝘵'𝘴 𝘩𝘪𝘮. 𝘏𝘦 𝘪𝘴 𝘴𝘤𝘳𝘦𝘢𝘮𝘪𝘯𝘨 𝘪𝘯 𝘱𝘢𝘪𝘯. 𝘍𝘢𝘭𝘭𝘪𝘯𝘨. 𝘏𝘦 𝘭𝘢𝘯𝘥𝘴, 𝘤𝘳𝘶𝘮𝘱𝘭𝘦𝘥 𝘪𝘯𝘵𝘰 𝘵𝘩𝘦 𝘨𝘳𝘰𝘶𝘯𝘥. 𝘊𝘩𝘰𝘬𝘪𝘯𝘨 𝘰𝘯 𝘩𝘪𝘴 𝘰𝘸𝘯 𝘣𝘭𝘰𝘰𝘥. 𝘓𝘦𝘰 𝘪𝘴 𝘵𝘳𝘺𝘪𝘯𝘨 𝘵𝘰 𝘵𝘢𝘭𝘬 𝘵𝘰 ��𝘪𝘮. 𝘚𝘰𝘮𝘦𝘰𝘯𝘦 𝘦𝘭𝘴𝘦 𝘪𝘴 𝘴𝘤𝘳𝘦𝘢𝘮𝘪𝘯𝘨. 𝘚𝘩𝘦 𝘪𝘴 𝘧𝘶𝘳𝘪𝘰𝘶𝘴. 𝘚𝘩𝘦 𝘪𝘴 𝘣𝘳𝘦𝘢𝘬𝘪𝘯𝘨.

He furrowed his brow again and stared intently at one of the soft pink blooms. Something about them felt so familiar. So safe.

They felt like.

Home.

But where was home?

"𝘉𝘳𝘦𝘢𝘬 𝘵𝘩𝘦 𝘣𝘰𝘯𝘥." 𝘏𝘦 𝘨𝘳𝘪𝘱𝘴 𝘩𝘦𝘳 𝘴𝘩𝘰𝘶𝘭𝘥𝘦𝘳𝘴. 𝘚𝘩𝘦 𝘪𝘴 𝘴𝘰𝘣𝘣𝘪𝘯𝘨, 𝘴𝘩𝘢𝘬𝘪𝘯𝘨 𝘩𝘦𝘳 𝘩𝘦𝘢𝘥. "𝘉𝘳𝘦𝘢𝘬 𝘪𝘵, 𝘥𝘢𝘮𝘮𝘪𝘵!"

"𝘕𝘰!"

"𝘗𝘭𝘦𝘢𝘴𝘦...𝘐 𝘥𝘰𝘯'𝘵 𝘸𝘢𝘯𝘵 𝘺𝘰𝘶 𝘵𝘰 𝘥𝘪𝘦."

"P𝘭𝘦𝘢𝘴𝘦 𝘥𝘰𝘯'𝘵 𝘮𝘢𝘬𝘦 𝘮𝘦 𝘥𝘰 𝘵𝘩𝘪𝘴! 𝘋𝘳𝘢𝘨ă, 𝘵𝘦 𝘳𝘰𝘨. 𝘕𝘶 𝘱𝘰𝘵 𝘵𝘳ă𝘪 𝘧ă𝘳ă 𝘵𝘪𝘯𝘦." 𝘴𝘩𝘦 𝘣𝘦𝘨𝘴 𝘩𝘪𝘮. 𝘗𝘭𝘦𝘢𝘥𝘴. 𝘛𝘦𝘢𝘳𝘴 𝘴𝘵𝘳𝘦𝘢𝘬 𝘩𝘦𝘳 𝘧𝘢𝘤𝘦.

"𝘐 𝘸𝘪𝘭𝘭 𝘧𝘪𝘯𝘥 𝘺𝘰𝘶 𝘢𝘨𝘢𝘪𝘯."

𝘗𝘦𝘵𝘢𝘭 𝘱𝘪𝘯𝘬 𝘭𝘪𝘱𝘴 𝘧𝘳𝘰𝘸𝘯.

"𝘉𝘳𝘦𝘢𝘬 𝘪𝘵."

He rubs at his temples as a steady searing pain blossoms there. Something warm trickles from his tympanum. He lifts his fingers to touch it, bringing them in front of his face. Something metallic and gold is there on his finger tips.

Home. Where is home?

"𝘐 𝘭𝘰𝘷𝘦 𝘺𝘰𝘶, 𝘮𝘺 𝘴𝘶𝘯 𝘢𝘯𝘥 𝘴𝘵𝘢𝘳𝘴." 𝘚𝘩𝘦 𝘤𝘳𝘢𝘥𝘥𝘭𝘦𝘴 𝘩𝘪𝘴 𝘩𝘦𝘢𝘥 𝘪𝘯 𝘩𝘦𝘳 𝘭𝘢𝘱.

"𝘐 𝘭𝘰𝘷𝘦 𝘺𝘰𝘶...𝘮𝘰𝘰𝘯...𝘰𝘧 𝘮𝘺 𝘭𝘪𝘧𝘦." 𝘏𝘦 𝘤𝘢𝘯 𝘧𝘦𝘦𝘭 𝘦𝘷𝘦𝘳𝘺𝘵𝘩𝘪𝘯𝘨 𝘧𝘢𝘥𝘪𝘯𝘨 𝘢𝘸𝘢𝘺.

"𝘊𝘰𝘮𝘦 𝘩𝘰𝘮𝘦 𝘵𝘰 𝘮𝘦. 𝘊𝘰𝘮𝘦 𝘩𝘰𝘮𝘦 𝘵𝘰 𝘶𝘴." 𝘏𝘦𝘳 𝘧𝘪𝘯𝘨𝘦𝘳𝘴 𝘣𝘳𝘶𝘴𝘩 𝘩𝘪𝘴 𝘤𝘩𝘦𝘦𝘬. 𝘏𝘦 𝘴𝘮𝘪𝘭𝘦𝘴. 𝘏𝘪𝘴 𝘣𝘳𝘦𝘢𝘵𝘩𝘪𝘯𝘨 𝘨𝘶𝘳𝘨𝘭𝘦𝘴 𝘸𝘪𝘵𝘩 𝘸𝘦𝘵𝘯𝘦𝘴𝘴. 𝘉𝘭𝘰𝘰𝘥 𝘵𝘳𝘪𝘤𝘬𝘭𝘦𝘴 𝘧𝘳𝘰𝘮 𝘩𝘪𝘴 𝘭𝘪𝘱𝘴.

"𝘏𝘰𝘮𝘦......𝘐 𝘸𝘪𝘭𝘭....𝘤𝘰𝘮𝘦......𝘩𝘰𝘮𝘦." 𝘵𝘩𝘦 𝘴𝘸𝘦𝘦𝘵 𝘱𝘦𝘳𝘧𝘶𝘮𝘦 𝘰𝘧 𝘱𝘦𝘰𝘯𝘪𝘦𝘴 𝘢𝘯𝘥 𝘴𝘵𝘳𝘢𝘸𝘣𝘦𝘳𝘳𝘪𝘦𝘴 𝘴𝘶𝘳𝘳𝘰𝘶𝘯𝘥𝘴 𝘩𝘪𝘮. 𝘌𝘷𝘦𝘳𝘺𝘵𝘩𝘪𝘯𝘨 𝘧𝘢𝘥𝘦𝘴 𝘢𝘸𝘢𝘺. 𝘏𝘦 𝘪𝘴 𝘧𝘭𝘰𝘢𝘵𝘪𝘯𝘨. 𝘍𝘭𝘺𝘪𝘯𝘨.

He sat bolt upright as pain speared his temples again.

"Peonies!" He nearly screamed. The pain throbbed again and he had to grit his teeth.

"Peonies. Feel like home. You...are home. I said I would find you." The turtle wiped at the golden liquid that trickled from his nostrils and shifted to his knees. He squeezed his eyes shut.

He had to remember.

He had to remember everything.

He reached up to his neck where he had just noticed the light weight of something hanging there.

His fingers delicately brushed against the slim silver chain necklace and he wrapped them around it and tugged. The chain snapped off and he held it in his palm. He gazed at it and watched as it pulsed with a golden glow and morphed into the shinmering image of a silver and gold elongated eight pointed star, hovering over his open palm.

He had to remember. Remember home.

He grasped at the star and pulled it back towards him, pushing it into his plastron, right over his heart.

Remember.

His heart was hammering in his chest. Tattooing a rapid beat there.

Home.

Memories flickered over his closed eyelids. Pain kept a steady throb in his temples.

His brothers.

He had to grit his teeth as the pain turned to an agonizing burn.

His family.

He cried out in pain, doubling over, holding his hands against his head as if it were splitting in two and he had to hold the pieces together.

Luciana.

The pain suddenly stopped along with the flashing memories. He took in a deep, shaking breath and looked around. Thankfully he was alone.

Or so he thought.

Where was he?

"Oh fuck." He remembered now. He remembered everything. He was dead. Very dead. Super dead.

He lifted his hands to wipe the ichor off his face and on his-

He looked down and noticed he was wearing only a pair of white slacks and a white tunic.

"Shit. There's no fucking way. Not with all the crimes I committed. Assault. Assault with a deadly wrapon. Blackmail. Cyber crimes, Harboring a wanted criminal, Illegal possession of firearms, the list can keep going..." He was muttering to himself as he stood up and started walking out of the field.

"There's no way they'd let me in here. And I thought I was supposed to go wherever the Hamato clan is." He narrowed his eyes in contemplation as he crested the hill again and looked around.

Yup. There was no denying what he was seeing. Glittering white city. Sunshine. Feilds of flowers. Golden gates off in the distance.

"Fucking Heaven." He growled lowly, clenching his hands into fists at his sides.

He was in Heaven. And he definitely did not belong there.

• Thanks for reading if you made it this far I'm super nervous about posting this here hahaha 😅•

Fanfic Writer Ask Game

These are always fun so I wanted to make one! Reblog this and let others send you an ask based on any of these emojis/questions:

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💥 What is one canon thing that you wish you could change?

✨️ Out of the comments you’ve received on your fics, what are two or three of your favorites?

👻 What is your wildest headcanon?

✍️ What’s your ideal writing setup?

🚀 Do you like to outline your fic first or create as you go?

🎁 Have a piece of a WIP you want to share?

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