#im clearly heartbroken but theres not much i can do about it except wait

[girldumas]

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[sanchoyo]

danny phantom 8-13 thoughts! again, under the cut bc I blew through 6 episodes in one go...

-LOVE THE WAY THE GHOST ZONE LOOKS. but theres fucking ghost cops??? ghost jail??? that SUCKS imagine dying and going to jail in your AFTERLIFE. danny going to JAIL WAS NOT something I expected. but seeing all the enemies together and work with danny to bust out. SO ICONIC I love that actually. and the thing about real world stuff acting as ghosts in the ghost zone is very cool.

-'there are some things more important that hunting ghosts!' mrs fenton says, about her husband forgetting their anaversary (FOR THE 18TH YEAR IN A ROW?? CHRIST) and not about, idk, their son clearly freaked out. she didnt even notice he was gone into the ghost zone!!! he might be a bad husband BUT shes not the best mom. they suck and I don't care about their relationship problems I care about these kids. danny doing his best to clean the house to keep his mom from getting mad at his dad?? hes such a good boy I want to cry, this is not his place, his dad should be cleaning his own shit up!!!

-maddie's butch lesbian sister is living my best life in her lil cabin. also being a snarky bitch to jack. queen. and her getting a 10th anniversary of her divorce. LOVE IT.

-mr. lancer being a cheerleader in his younger years makes perfect sense to me. king shit.

-dr. spectra's cat ears/mullet hairstyle?? sooo cute. I also just love the concept of a ghost just. sucking out people's positivity and feeding on emotions. a great villain. she put danny in a fucking diaper what the FUCK. and keeping it cold so no one would suspect shes a ghost??? INCREDIBLE. and her gay little blob sidekick. wlw mlm evil solidarity.

-JAZZ FOCUSED EP. YEAAAH!!! her first thought when she saw the ghosts was like 'omg i gotta tell danny :)' and her going to the teacher and also councilor trying to get help for him...shes just 16 but shes trying so hard to help him out :( watching this when youre younger I can imagine ppl are like omg annoying!! but watching this when im older im just like :( jazz baby im SO sorry </3 SHE BODIED THAT GHOST THOUGH. and the fact she didnt tell danny she knew surprised me. like, shes patient and waiting on him to tell her when hes ready!! thats so so sweet.

-christ the parents talking about 'PEELING IT LIKE AN ONION. AND EXAMINING REMAINS' of ghosts RIGHT INFRONT OF DANNY.

-'why am i so depressed and angry all the time!!' DANNY YOURE 14. i mean it IS a ghost this time, but...

-579$ top?? VALERIE NO ITS NOT EVEN CUTE IT DOESNT EVEN GO WITH THAT OUTFIT AAAA. tho this ep is called shades of gray..VALERIE FOCUSED EP FINALLY????! *THUNDEROUS APPLAUSE* I already knew about red huntress from my redesigns, but I didn't exactly know what that entails or how/why, so, it's fun to see the Origins.

-ghost pubby! ghost pubby!!!!! why is the dog a ghost?? the implication that the company had guard dogs and got rid of them...what did they DO. is it just the unfinished business?? of not having that toy it was looking for?? god I hope so.

I feel SOOO bad for valerie tho, my god. her friends are shunning her for what, because her dad lost her job and she had to move??? horrible. (and the fact the dog wrecked the moving van too...) I also love how 'from wisconsin' on the package was an IMMEDIATE RED FLAG FOR ME. WISCONSIN=EVIL NOW. vlads so petty.

-it took valerie like 5 mins to get the hang of hunting ghosts and shes already a much bigger threat than his parents tbh. who've been trying and studying this for years. and a more valid reason <3 love her shes so cute and cool. new daughter alert.

-'i should do SOMETHING to help valerie' no shit danny???

-'who is that, awesome outfit!' -top gay sam moments. i was going to say. before it immediately cuts to sam kissing danny LMFAOOO. don't think I like that, it puts tucker in a weird third wheel position... the next ep involves them holding hands and blushing when danny's cold...URGH No. not a fan ngl. the trope of 'if theres a girl in a trio she has to end up with one of the two guys!!'

-right as I say that they take it to extremes!! and ember shoots him with a love ray gun that makes him OBSESSIVE OVER SAM. AND SHE TAKES HIS HANDS AND SAYS 'YOU DONT FEEL THAT WAY ABOUT ME, I DONT FEEL THAT WAY ABOUT YOU' and her saying she doesnt want to be together like this. and tucker saying 'i always knew you two would get together!!' dont manifest it tucker please. the show pushing for it so hard makes me not want it KSHKJKJD I KNOW its probably canon. it sucks though. im a hater.

-vlad just LURKING AROUND THE SCHOOL GIVING VALERIE GIFTS ASJKDHKJ YOU WEIRD PETTY OLD MAN GO HOME!!!

-EMBERRRRR YOU WILL REMEMBERRRRRR . this is the one thing I kinda remember from when I was a kid EMBERRRRR ilu. top 10 cartoon bops. sams being a hater. popular things are popular for a reason. mr. lancer also being a hater. also everyone wearing her color scheme ..its a really good look, the purple, black, and minty color...

-penguins exist in the ghost zone. confirmed.

-EMBER JUST SHOWING UP AT A RANDOM HIGHSCHOOL TO PLAY?? UNANNOUNCED, MID DAY??? girl get a tour schedule. make some money or smth damn. I know shes probably doing it for the power boost but. lord. anyway if your show doesnt have a concert scene/ep, is it even valid.

-fellas is this gay. (she uses a GRAPPLING HOOK TO SHOOT OUT THE WINDOW AFTER SEEING AN EMBER VAN GO BY RIGHT AFTER THIS SHOT)

-hey, she had an undercut at some point!! my redesign!!! was accurate!! in..a way

-I feel like danny has a lot of pent up aggression ngl, him being heartbroken about sam and immediately going IM GONNA GO TAKE IT OUT ON EMBER. I mean she needs to be stopped I guess But. jazz has the right idea he needs therapy and a HEALTHY outlet.

-tucker singing > my singing

-girls cant be gamers -tucker and danny sexist moments. her being chaos in the game OWNED.

-TUCKERS HAT IS A BERET??? I THOUGHT IT WAS A BEANIE. SAM CALLED IT A BERET. WH.

-it was actually nice of lancer to let danny retake the test, and he go to play games again. smh. epic cringe gamer moments compilation. and driving him home!!! I actually like him as a character. anyway teachers like lancer are SO appreciated. I was failing middle school because of mental problems, and felt so dumb and got embarrassed by teachers who would just get onto me instead of bothering to ask what the real problem was, but when I was taking my ged classes I had a wonderful teacher who kept reassuring me that I was smart, and I got honors!! danny is SUCH a little shit to him (understandable, 14, but) but seeing them getting along better and danny putting in effort. SO CUTE. THATS MY SON, STUDYING HARD!!!! and being so PROUD OF HIMSELF!!! 91!!! BITCH!!! A- is STILL AN A!!!

-'why dont they ever realize thats me in a dress' mr lancer i am CRYING. i realized.

-technus being my ghost grandpa who cant game asking tucker for help. bless his heart. his out of date old ppl lingo circles back to being endearing <3 tucker not recognizing him despite the like, lack of any kind of serious disguise...I do love their lil in-game outfits....sam being the tank rules. I like technus' spider design also. more characters need to be giant freaky spiders, imo.

-finding your gf a new host because she cant maintain her ghost body outside the zone? amazing. using jazz as the host? ILL KILL YOU. jazz immediately accepting a ride home from a guy she just met and letting him know where she lives. letting him IN THE HOUSE??? nooo girl no lets use common sense </3

-sooo cringe the parents were like 'good job for spying on your sister' tho wtffff. doesnt matter if hes a bad guy, thats fucked. everytime these parents BREATHE im like. these are MY kids now <3

-BAD LUCK BEING A THEME OF THE 13TH EPISODE. thats super fun. johnny 13 being his name is so. iconic. your last name is a NUMBER? also goth tucker. I actually love the look. everyone looks good goth. 'the ladies love the eyeliner and onyx nail polish' sam you are sooo right every man needs to at least try those two things. im a lesbian and I agree. same, danny, your bff is gnc af

-LOVE kitty's design. and just, the concept of a ghost with a bike. couple goals, except yes stay away from jazz.

[bumblegem]

hey im gonna be thinking about marion doing everything she can to get matt put into a vault, even if she /can’t/ make it in with him for the rest of the night and i dont wanna keep dragging convo in that direction so just gonna... put those thoughts here

i dont think it would be a locket for matt, exactly, but probably a picture of her and him when he’s young. something framed, names & dates on the back and a letter behind the picture. a letter to remind him that she loved him and wanted to give him the best chance. she’s a wreck and she knows it, and he has so much potential to make the world a better place after the bombs drop. she cant be sure she’ll survive, but says she hopes she gets to see him soon! and from his prospective like. i think he would grow up understanding her sacrifice, and the vault hes in /is/ a good one. he doesnt know her, doesnt really feel that Connection to her, but hes alive and who knows whats going on outside the vault. but he has food, friends, and the startings to make something of himself in the outside world! i think theres an assumption that like. shes dead, yknow? its easier to accept that- even if he didnt Love her, its a relationship he wished he got to have and hes sad that he didn’t. the letter was sweet, she clearly loved him and god there are probably mascara stains from her crying over the letter. this was hard for her, he might even remember being sad when they were separated later, yknow? but then from /her/ perspective she’s just. left with so much uncertainty. she survived the bombs, probably thanks to will, but??? now what???? her son is in this vault and who knows when it will open again, but until it does she doesnt want to wander too far away. she wants to be there when it opens, when her son is back to her. so its just being in the area, checking surrounding areas for places to hold up and live and scavenge and as the years pass they start hearing about some other vaults in the area. some vaults /not/ in the area. 

marion gets to start learning about some of the fucked up things vault tech did to people they claimed to try to be saving. she gets to learn about good things, too-- not EVERY vault was a bad one. but there were bad ones, and its hard not to let that consume her.

and then his vault doesnt open when she was told it would. its hard to keep track of time after an event like this, so maybe she was off. says that allowed so will can hear, will can confirm that yeah she was wrong, but he doesn’t. she was right, this was when it was supposed to happen. its maybe a week of hanging around, marion fretting and trying to reassure will (or really just herself) that its just the day is off! it should be soon! this is fine!!!! i definitely DIDNT hand my son over to someone that was going to experiment on him! theres no way, this was a /good/ one

except it still doesnt open. i honestly don’t think she comes back after that, because she’s just. her son has to be dead. it /was/ one of the bad vaults. she got her son killed and /she/ lived and /she/ wasn’t even in a vault and its /her/ fault he died. who knows how horrific it could have been, shes read terrible things and the idea of him living through any of them is enough to make her physically ill. theres definitely a period of time where she just stops functioning. its probably real bad on will but she just. isnt gonna be able to do anything. its a lot to process, shes got a lot of guilt and grief. she had 20 years to worry! 20 years of learning and living and trying to convince herself she made the right decision-- good vaults exist and she put her son in a good one. but now, as shes accepting her boy is gone, its just so many questions that eat at her. how long has he been dead? was he scared? did it hurt? was he alone? did he make friends? did he hate her for it? she hated her for it, and it still didnt feel like enough hate.

i dont know /how/ they’re going to meet again, brief mentionings of the older crew saving the vault crew but like? god. shes going to have spent the last 5 years in a drunk stupor, shes tired and worn and the guilt just never subsided. the marion matt meets is a shadow of the person he has a picture of. and its her, he knows it. i think it takes.... time. not a lot, but enough for him to piece if shes really like. is she a good person? is she going to take this in a positive way? she helped them sure, but.... and then at some point, sitting around a fire for the night, matt sitting next to her and very cautiously pulls the picture out. its older, faded, but he keeps it as safe as possible. theres a beat of her staring at this picture where she cant even hear what hes trying to quietly explain because she knows the picture. through the trauma and grief and the years passed she /knows/ that picture and thats her son. thats her son. this is her son and shes just got a sob stuck in her throat and now theres so much /more/ on top of years of emotion. theres a new level of shame that this, who she is right now in the moment, is what matt just. gets to know her as. shes almost afraid to touch him after that??? shes just apologizing, sobbing, leaning her face into his shoulders and gripping onto his arm and shes so sorry. shes so sorry, she’s just so fucking sorry for everything. shes missed him so much and he was dead. he died in the vault but hes here and she let him down a final time by abandoning him.

they both have so many questions but at least matt can quickly confirm that if there were experiments going on in the vault, he didnt know about them. they just waited longer, there was no way to tell the outside world and /he/ had to believe she was dead. its a relief to see her alive, he wants to know her, he loved her and she clearly loves him and hes not mad at her. hes.... heartbroken, to see just how broken she is, but hes there now and she doesnt have to let go this time.