#im atheist so i dont belive in gods plan or some other shit

[pupika-samika]

All you're life, you'd been told that God had a plan for you, you just had to wait for it.

When your childhood dog died, your parents said Gods plan ended too early for the little pup.

When your father died, your mother said that he'd been waiting for Gods plan for him his whole life and finally, it's come to fruition.

When your mother died, your church said that God had planned all of this to happen. That you must face tragedy before you were ready for happiness.

When you lost your job, your house. When you were at your lowest and the sky was dark, you found the light in the stars that kept saying God had a plan for you, you just had to wait long enough to see it.

So you waited. You got married while you waited. Had some kids to make the wait pass. Bought a house and a car, had a few pets and made new friends to make the waiting easier. Waiting was all you knew how to do until you'd waited for so long that your skin turned pale and your hair thin. Your eyes glassy and body too weak to breath without assistance. Your partner had died- they'd been a part of God's plan as well. They had to have been. Your children moved across the world, schooling or careers pulling them away from you.

So it was no surprise that you died unsatisfied and alone. Was that God's plan for you? To waste your life waiting for him to make your happiness? Was that you're only purpose in life, to wait until you died?

"That was never my plan for you," a disembodied voice sung from around you. "All that has happened in your life has never been a part of my plan for you. My plan for you was for you to live your life to the fullest." The Voice sounded so serene. So warm and so inviting. Like a mother's lullaby and a father's hug.

"Then why," you started. No longer were you old and wrinkly, your body reverting to the young and smooth body of the little kid that had lost their childhood dog. "Why did I wait for so long without gaining any happiness?"

"Every tragedy in your life happened because of my plan for you. You brought yourself happiness out of the ruins of your pain." The Voice said.

No longer were you in your room but you were in your childhood home. Your dog laying in your lap, tail weakly wagging until the very end. Your fathers handprint fading from your mother's face. The medical bills no longer needing to be payed, giving you money to start your hobby of painting.

Your corrupt boss and greedy landlord got arrested, leading to you meeting your future partner. And the years passed. You started dating, got a job you enjoyed. Got a pet dog that looked oh so eerily similar to your childhood dog and got to take care of it the way you wished you knew how to when you were younger.

You got married and had your first kid. Through the whole pregnancy you glowed with happiness. A healthy child followed by another, followed by two more. Each one just as healthy as the last.

You bought a great house for dirt cheap and got the chance to work part-time to spend more time with your family and on your hobbies. As you grew older you saw how much it pained your children to leave you, tearful seperations followed by enthusiastic reunions.

And when your partner died, it was a celebration. Guests told their happiest memories and shared their funniest moments. All three of your kids slept with you for the first time in decades.

And as you grew older, your skin did grow pale and your hair did grow thin. Your eyes grew glassy and you needed help to live. But your skin was marked with life and your hair was a healthy grey. Your eyes with happiness and you got the chance to meet your future son and daughter in laws when they came to help you.

"You waited," The Voice began. "But you created your own happiness. I merely gave you the push you needed to achieve it."

"But what about that part, when life was hard?" you ask god, pointing at the footprints in the sand. "There is only one set of footprints there."

"Well", said god, "that is the part where even I had no idea what the fuck you're doing, but you looked confident enough that I figured it's the safest to just step wherever you did."