#im at least proud that. i checked one of my answers afterwards and i got it right

[omohole]

having an alter whos job is to handle school is great until they dont front when you have an exam and youre left to fend for yourself off of three hours of sleep

[organic-guacamole]

episode 209 spoilers below

I'm so late today but here it is

I love EJ, he's finally learning to be happy. I'm so proud.

Ms Jenn = every boomer during zoom calls, like jeez yes we can hear you stop shouting at me.

LOVE THE SUBTLE JOKE ABOUT QUARANTINE "these dark times" "you mean spring break?"

ah yes, remember when we thought covid was just gonna give us a longer spring break? good times

SEBLOS

damn the passive aggressiveness from Carlos and the absolutely over it tone from seb✋

CASWELL COUSINS!!!!! THEY'RE THE BEST!!!!

we needed more if this kind of goofiness for the first part of season 2 that only such an iconic duo can provide.

old old movies-

is it even that old, or is Nini being a gen alpha rn-

i choose to imagine EJ being scared of the movie and hiding in Ashlyn's shoulder while she keeps a straight face and then EJ pretending to be tough afterwards

aww redlyn are soulmates.... yknow, if gingers had souls

(please ignore me)

y'all saw how EJ's face *lit up* when Gina logged on? how dare you tell me he doesn't like her

ofc she's no damsel in distress, she's Gina porter, she's amazing.

so do we think she'd be the type to just glare at suspicious people? or bark at them

do they not know that Rini broke up? or is Ms Jenn just wanting Nini to suffer through her heartbreak to make her a better actress....

speaking of, why is Nini in the call? she's not in the show anymore. Unless she is, even after the rose and the song got cut, which would be so unfair to all those that auditioned properly before she even came back but whatever, she's the main character I get it 🙄

big red is a hero honestly, Nini better thank him for changing the subject like that

I can't-

i won't work you over the break-

this woman would 100% work her kids 24/7 if it was legal and idk how to feel about it.

YES GINA USE THAT CHARM

QUEEN

FRENCH QUEEN

SHE LEARNT FROM THE BEST (antoine obvi)

smh the airport lady, eavesdropping on Gina's call.

The way she was so happy to answer EJ's call, "eej"

I love them your honour.

EJ WITH PAINTED NAILS YES PLEASE

great now we need to see Gina, Ashlyn and EJ having a complete spa day and EJ getting really into it and Gina and Ashlyn take pictures of him when he's laying down in a robe with a mask and cucumbers on his eyes.

finally we get to see Gina's side of portwell

the way she considered it as flirting, this is the sign she asked for in episode 6 come onnnnn

no is Asher/jack really doing tiktok dances in an airport-

Ricky is me. I am burrito.

oh Lynne, sweetie, I'm sorry but the blonde hair is not it

is that even the same lady or-

THE BEAN

THE CHICAGO BEAN

THE BIG OLD METAL BEAN IN THE MIDDLE OF THE CITY 😭

jetlag is my go to excuse for anything... I haven't travelled in 2 years.

"welcome to the Lynne and Mike gossip show. where we talk about our depressed son that we both neglect in certain ways! And now a word from our sponsor, Nord VPN..."

SO MANY CANDLES

WHAT DEMON IS LYNNE TRYING TO SUMMON IN HIS ROOM-

is Nina becoming social media obsessed EJ from season 1? AND SHE LIED ABOUT HAVING SONGS TOO PLEASE WHY ARW THEY RECYCLING THE SAME PLOT-

Gina smiling at the picture of her family on Instagram makes me so happy, idek why.

EJ's nails are so pretty, we needed to see it more (unless he had it on for the rest of the episode and I just.... didn't notice🧍🏽‍♀️)

oh not the tiktok kid✋

yes ma'am end this strange mans whole tiktok career

sir take a hint and leave

GINA NO DONT SAY YOUR LAST NAME HE COULD BE A HUMAN TRAFFICKER

Ricky, walking in style✨

weird kid, ok then Lynne, can't you see he's this close to the edge?

not all your fault baby Ricky, Nini sucks a bit more

RICKY YOU DIDN'T COME DOWN HARD ON THE SONG-

YOU ASKED WHAT IT WAS ABOUT AND SHE SHUT YOU DOWN-

PLEASE DO NOT BLAME YOURSELF

ok but the deleting comment thing was very bad

still don't know if I like Jack honestly

hmmm so Nini's calling herself Nini instead of Nina in her little egg seat, while trying to write a song without inspiration.... Nini, honey, Ricky was your muse, he inspired you to write all those songs, even if it wasn't good for the relationship.

that doesn't mean you gotta get back with him, or that you can't write a song that not about him butttt it'll take some time

the rainbow sticker in her box and her rainbow shirt-

anyways wbk she's not totally straight

Jack are you a criminal?

quick, Gina, check his ankle for a tracker

THE YES AND PRACTICE STRIKES AGAIN

the way Gina wasn't into it in episode 6 but she's used the technique twice now

stole her grandma's Pomeranian-

Jack where the hell did you pull that out from-

the fake crying killed me, that looks like so much fun though

anyone wanna raid a first class lounge with me?

wait so is jack not gonna go in with her?

wouldn't he go in too? help look for the credit card? SO CONFUSED

the first class lounge guy was so into the drama though, watch his face when they start arguing 😭

sorry to break this to you Kourtney, but you haven't even blocked the second act yet soooo...

take that as you will

I love how all of them are totally dissing the dance off

that's the most realistic part of this show tbh

shouldn't Nini have asked how she knew....since the start? why is the fact that her best friend has knowledge of a North high secret now dawning on her...

Howie is sweet honestly, at least he's trying to help. but I stand with Kourtney, don't take him back just because he sang an amazing song, and is giving you a heads up on what's gonna happen...

KOURTNEY IS ME TRYING TO LEAVE AN ONLINE CLASS

I hate school

ooo Nini's writing a song about bad internet connection 🤩🤩🤩

I never lie, except when I do-

son that is the creepiest thing you could say to a stranger that you've been "helping"

2 truths and a lie👀

he's an Ariana fan 100%

called it.

OLDER BROTHER-

WHAT-

free spirit? damn so brother porter was in that horse movie

so has she been kissed or not?????????

I feel like she's moved more than 15 times though so possibly

but then if she's moved so much, and before east high she never opened up to anyone, she's never been kissed then?? damn

same though Gina so let's be besties please

heartbreak president is a great song title idea, give Nini a call rn

but wait

is the no strings attached feeling thing about her telling Ricky she liked him? she thought she was moving away so she thought it'd be no strings attached???

guys I think I figured it out insert the "I've connected two dots" meme

THE DUKE SWEATSHIRT

IS THAT YOUR BOYFRIEND'S

OMG I LOVE I LOVE

NOT THAT I KNOW OF???

ma'am did you just kill me

yes you did

Lynne and Ricky have such a weird relationship

YES IT DID SUCK

TODD SUCKS

LYNNE SUCKS

yeah I get that you wanted Ricky to like Todd BUT THAT WASN'T THE TIME

right so we already know that Ricky was so desperate to keep Nini cuz he didn't want to be like his parents, and now Lynne's talking about this-

Richard needs a long hug

yes Lynne, it is your fault. thank you for finally admitting it.

YES DYE YOUR HAIR

BLOND HIGHLIGHTS RICKY WILL RISE AGAIN

"sometimes the best, last thing you can do for someone you love, is let them go."

gotta admit I teared up at that point

not me thinking big red was calling ms Jenn cupcake for a hot second-

Carlos please omg, you're at the "beach" and they're leaving for the pool?

also, why not just do the call from the hotel room please omg

"don't ask me"

"Carlos"

OMG WHAT HAPPENED

big red wants the tea

O M G

SEB IS JEALOUS

JEALOUS SEBBY IS MY FAVOURITE THING IDC

I'm surprised ms Jenn knew how to give Nini permission to screenshare tbh

So lily's been stalking the East high kids and spending time editing this video while she's supposedly in an immersion trip.... right

EJ and Ashlyn's picture is so chaotic, what even is happening there

"slacking off" bestie its spring break, obviously they're confident enough that they'll get it done in time so why not focus on your own musical.

jealous seb = sassy seb

please what if those guys Carlos is posing with are his cousins or something and that's why he's so confused about Seb

6 YEAR OLD EJ I LOVE HIM I LOVE HIM I LOVE HIM

Nini saying she's obsessed with her ex, that's not weird at all 👍

I can just tell Matt had a blast harassing Julia with those puppets.

Jack please dont be like that, "yet"

chances are you'll never see eachother again 🥰

(honestly sometimes I really miss those friends I made on trips and stuff when we'd spend the day or week together, only to never see them again....those were the good days though)

Ashlyn and Nini should write more songs..... something better than this one at least

Nini: "im good"

cue the Tia Mowry (please I can't spell) crying gif

oh I forgot Ricky was in the show for a hot second

1. where did Gina get to film this without people being around

2. did she just... randomly change her clothes???

ok but the transition between Carlos and EJ

*chefs kiss*

now everyone shut up, EJ's singing

oh i think I'm pregnant

HIS MUSCLES

YES KOURTNEY

I love how big red and Kourtney went from being "the best friends™" to the couple in season 1, to kinda close themselves and having their own plots

sebby makes me so happy

props to biggies editing skills honestly

PORTWELL BEING SIDE TO SIDE I CANT

AND SEBLOS OMG

big red lives for the drama

"wow" so true Ricky

no he is not cute, stop it

"holding" ok that's kinda cute

yeah EJ's a lucky guy😌

jokes aside, it's not that hard to exchange numbers-

keep in touch if you want

ok I really like Jack now

if he comes back in season 3, maybe have him be LGBTQ+ ?

like the only out characters they have rn are Seb and Carlos and they're like the sterotypes, yk?

I'd love to see jack kinda break the mold

Ricky's breaking my heart

that song just hurts

the only thing

now I don't hate Lynne????????

HOW DARE THEY WRITE IN A PROPER REDEMPTION ARC FOR HER

UGH IM SUPPOSED TO HATE HER FOREVER

I mean I don't live her now but she's good

but honestly

"mom can I show you something"

IT WAS SO BEAUTIFUL

THE PICTURE AND EVERYTHING OMG

I'm sobbing please help

Gina saying she's just waiting for the right guy and then EJ coming to the airport to pick her up late at night without her asking, offering to bring her back in the morning so she won't have to Uber, bringing her a granola bar (WHICH IS EXACTLY WHAT SHE FORGOT TO PACK) and without expecting anything in return???

ms ma'am you've got a keeper right there

her smile at the end was so heartwarming I really can't.

this episode was great.

it felt really short but I liked it, great character development for Ricky, Lynne and Gina.

Cant wait for next episode to see more of EJ being the ideal boyfriend /hj

[wataponwrites]

Hi there, I’d love to request a “Ship-Me-With”, please! Here’s all the things you wanted to have-- Gender: Non-Binary, born female.- Sexual Preference: Pansexual! - Personality: I'm outgoing, feisty, and passionate. However, I also have a fiery temper and can be prone to snide remarks and brutal honesty (if it calls for it). I'm adventurous by nature and love being a thrill-seeker/daredevil, even if it gets me into trouble- I tend to have a lot of energy compared to others. [1/?]

OMG NO DON’T WORRY ABOUT IT BEING LONG IT WAS PERFECT, TYSM!!!!!! 💗

💚 I Ship You With Joey Wheeler! 💚

It’s everyone’s favorite brooklyn boy, Joey Wheeler/Jonouchi Katsuya! Starting off as friends, I’m gonna say you guys went to Domino High together! It’s the break before class and Joey’s in the classroom dueling with Yugi and pals, and oh boy, here walks in a student who just looks like they’re up to no good. Going over to where they’re hanging around, you can already tell there’s a disturbance. Maybe this student had some kinda weird beef with one of them, or just was feeling like causing a ruckus for some reason? Whatever the case, it wasn’t good. “Oh great, it’s you guys taking up air again. If you’re gonna be in this class, at least do us all a favor and stop being weird.” Obviously to any remark like this, The gang (except for Yugi) would be ready to throw fists, but before they could, someone intervened. “Hey, leave them alone.” They turned to where they heard the voice, and it was you! After a few exchanged words with the rude student, they decided it wasn’t worth the time and walked away. “Hey, thanks so much for helping us!” Joey said, and the rest thanked you as well. He then asked if you’d like to join them for a few more rounds of Duel Monsters before class started, and you guys got a few rounds in before the bell rang! After school Joey walked up to you, “Hey again, we’re hanging out for a bit after school if you wanna join us!” You joined them and had a great evening!

After this, you became a regular of the gang, and they were delighted to have you on board! Though all of them loved you, it seemed you got along the best with Joey! He immediately warmed up to your passion and fiery attitude and was with you all the way, as he’s the exact same way! Imagine Kaiba coming at Joey with his usual snide comments and just you guys coming back at him together 2x stronger and Joey just being so proud about it afterwards LOL. Though the rest of the gang usually just likes to hang out at peaceful areas and the gameshop and such, Joey is SO down to go to thrill-seeking places with you! This man has energy for days, so he loves that you guys can keep up with each other! Riding those slingshot rides, going to an amuse park together, zip-lining, jumping over fences, breaking into KaibaCorp for funsies, you name it! Joey always finds himself having the best time with you. ☺️

Now, onto relationship! I feel like Joey asked the gang what he should do about asking you out, but they all gave him different answers! Though, he ended up going with Yugi’s advice: “Just be honest and true to yourself.” But in the days where he was thinking about asking you out, he noticed you had been a bit quieter than usual and was kinda worried. But Yugi reassured him once again. He asked you after school to go with him to a grassy area in the city and watch the sunset over the lake there. “It’s real pretty, so I thought ya might like to see it!” And as you guys are watching it, he started getting fumbly. “Uhh, so, I’ve been meaning to ask ya something for awhile...” He went on and confessed to you, a bit sheepishly though, as this was his first time ever really doing anything like this, but he quickly perked back up. “But I’ll be the best boyfriend ever, Wheeler’s honor!!” And after you said yes, he shouted in happiness and quickly pulled you into a tight hug. 🥺

Joey would absolutely risk his life for you. Of course, Joey would take a bullet for all of his loved ones, but you’re right up there with Serenity, there isn’t anything he wouldn’t do for you. With both of you being a bit prone to get into fights easily, I feel like you two could really balance each other out and keep each other in check. And dates are never a bore with Joey! He’s always taking you guys to do some new, exciting activity! Imagine for a date you guys going to watch a comedy movie and just laughing together all night long 🥺 I feel like he’d be 100% down for PDA, just always having an arm around you, holding hands, and casual hugs and cheek kisses, and if you’re not cool with that, then he’s not cool with that and will stop immediately. 👏🏻 Serenity is always so excited to see you and hang out with you, and that makes Joey so happy! 🥺 I also feel like he’d be super interested in your tattoos, and asking if there’s a story behind them and just loving to look at them in general! He’s also always down for game nights, and sitting up with you until the sun rises playing video games, board games, and just any game in general! He’s also always so excited to listen to music with you and see what cool new song you have for him to listen to next! Also, he just absolutely ADORES that you’re into martial arts and boxing!! Attending every event you have for them, always cheering you on, and always asking you to teach him some moves! He may not exactly get it down but, he thinks it looks cool, and will definitely try it out on Tristan later please prevent him from trying moves out on Tristan later. Overall, this man will care and be there for you till his final breath and seems like such a fun relationship that always has something new!

im sorry this took so long!!!! but i really hope you like your pair up, and thank you so much for considering my blog!!!! 💚💗💕💙

[lixiepeach]

Nadia, Part 5

Pairing: Bucky Barnes x OC, eventual Stucky x OC

Summary: He’d forgotten a lot of things. He had no name. No identity. No sense of self. But he never forgot her. The omega. His omega. He didn’t know her, name. Or where she was from. Or who she was. But he knew she was his. And he’d kill anyone who dared to put their hands on her. An A/B/O AU of what happens at the end of The Winter Soldier.

Warnings: Winter Soldier Bucky, violence, kidnapping, A/B/O dynamics, mating, explicit sexual content.

Masterlist

Nadia stayed behind Bucky as he followed Steve through the compound. Her hand was clamped tightly in his, her chest nearly against his back. She jumped every time someone passed, pressing closer and closer to Bucky. He had nearly stopped to grab her, carry her so she could feel protected, but he wanted to keep himself open in case of an attack. He didn’t trust anyone. Not even Steve. They had tried to take his omega from him. Even HYDRA had been smart enough not to do that.

Steve took them to an isolated part of the compound, offering them some privacy. The soldier scanned the room, checking every nook and cranny, Nadia pressing herself into the corner by the door. Steve watched them silently, Nadia’s eyes following Bucky’s every move. He stopped when he found the room to be safe, standing in the middle, facing the door. He held his hand out, Nadia moving to his side, her hand gripping his as she stood slightly behind him, her eyes glued to the floor.

She was strange, to Steve. They had found no record of her anywhere. Not in HYDRA’s leaked files, not in any of the bases they’d scoured. A DNA test and background check offered no hints that she even existed. What had HYDRA been trying to hide?

“You’re safe here.” He told them, realising they had been waiting for orders, or at least Bucky had. Steve had a feeling the omega would follow him without question. “There’s a bathroom you’re more than welcome to use.” He nodded to the open door to his left. Bucky had already checked it, but he figured it wouldn’t hurt to tell them they had free will. “Dinner’s at 5. I can bring you food, or we’ll save you some. If you need anything, just ask.” He stared at Bucky for a moment longer, hating the blank look on his face. He knew his best friend was in there somewhere. He’d just have to dig him out.

Steve left them, closing the door behind him. He wanted to sit and talk to Bucky. Get him to remember. But he knew he couldn’t force anything. Bucky was a scared animal at this point. Coming on too strong could push him away. But being around his old Alpha once again had him feeling strange. He’d been the Alpha for so long. Science had changed him. Turned him into something greater. But now...now he had his Alpha back. Well, his body could recognize that. But his mind knew it would take a lot to get Bucky back to that state. But he would give as much time that was needed to bring his Bucky back.

“ Doveryayete li vy ikh? ” (Do you trust them?) Nadia asked after Steve left, judging he wasn’t coming back.

“ Oni pytalis' vzyat' tebya ot menya. Pytalsya otdelit' nas. No ... no ya yego znayu. Ya znal yego. Tak ili inache… ” (They tried to take you away from me. He tried to separate us. But ... but I know him. I knew him. One way or another…)

Nadia sat on the edge of the bed, pulling him down beside her. “ On Captain America. On vasha missiya. ” (He’s Captain America. He is your mission.)

“ On byl. On byl moyey missii. ” (He was. He was my mission.) He tightened his grip on her hand, reaching up to cup her chin. “ Teper'... moya missiya sostoit v tom, chtoby derzhat' vas bezopasnym. Ot nikh. ” (Now ... my mission is to keep you safe. From them.)

He tangled his fingers in her hair, yanking her head back so he could nose at her neck. A small whine left her throat as his teeth scraped over her skin. His mark on her shoulder was starting to scab from when he bit it, his tongue running flat over the rough marks. She whimpered, shifting slightly against him.

“ Tishe. Seychas ne vremya, omega. ” (Hush. Now is not the time, omega) He said, releasing her hair so she could tuck her head into his neck, scenting him.

“ Kogda, Alpha? ” (When, Alpha?) She whispered, licking at her mark on his neck.

“ Skoro. ” (Soon.)

******

Bucky hovered over Nadia as they sat in the kitchen. Steve and Natasha were the only two left. Bucky kept his metal arm over the back of her chair, keeping her tucked against his side, his body between Steve and her. He kept one eye on her, and the other on the two occupants in the room. Natasha sat at the opposite end of the table from them, watching the two. It wasn’t unheard of for an Alpha to be protective over a bonded omega, even more so in the presence of two Alphas, but this was something else. It was almost smothering, but the omega didn’t seem to have any objections.

“ Kak vas zovut? ” (What is your name?) Natasha asked, tilting her head slightly at the omega.

She paused, mid bite, her eyes shifting up to Bucky uneasily.

“ Nadia. ” Bucky said, looking to the red haired assassin. “ Yeye zovut Nadia. ” (Her name is Nadia)

“Can she speak for herself?” Steve asked, interrupting Natasha before she could say something smart.

“No. She doesn’t speak English.” Bucky said, brushing a hair away from Nadia’s face.

Nadia looked up to him as she chewed her pasta. Bucky had a plate in front of him, but he hadn’t touched it. Steve wondered if he ate, or if he got hungry. He’d taken a bite before Nadia, checking to make sure it wasn’t drugged, or poisoned, before handing her the fork, letting her eat.

Steve’s question was answered when Nadia put her fork down, pushing her plate away before leaning back slightly in her seat.

“ Vy zakonchili? ” (Have you finished?) Bucky asked, looking down at Nadia.

“ Yesh'te, soldat. ” (Eat, soldier.) Nadia said, the exchange seeming to come naturally. Like they’d had it many times.

Bucky grabbed his fork, staring at the food for a moment, before taking a bite. Steve could see the tension in him when he waited for the drugs to kick in, or the poison to start working. But he relaxed slightly when it didn’t taking another bite.

“ Otkuda vy? ” (Where are you from?) Natasha asked, staring at the omega. Nadia.

She looked up to Bucky and he nodded slightly, telling her it was okay to speak. “ Ya...Ya ne pomnyu. Ya byl molod, kogda oni vzyali menya. ” (I ... I do not remember. I was young, when they took me)

“ Kogda kto vzyal vas ? ” (When who took you?) Natasha asked.

“ HYDRA . ” She went silent, turning her head towards Bucky. Both Natasha and Steve knew they wouldn’t get anything else out of her.

Steve tried to talk to Bucky as he ate, but Bucky was just as ambiguous as Nadia. Don’t tell anyone too much, they could use it against you, Natasha had said afterwards. Especially people you don’t trust. Nadia had followed Bucky back to their room, Steve peeking in the open door. He could hear the water running, neither of them visible. But his sensitive ears picked up the sound of flesh hitting flesh, the soft whines of the omega, and the grunts of his Alpha. He immediately felt heat rush down his body and he swallowed, quickly closing the door. He could picture Bucky, taking the omega from behind, her hands pinned to the wall, head thrown back as he plunged in and out of her without resistance. He remembered when that was him in that position. Bucky bent over his back, taking him roughly through a rut. He tried to calm his flaming cheeks as he quickly made his way to his room. He was going to need a very cold shower.

Bucky didn’t sleep that night. The bed was too soft, the compound too quiet. Too peaceful. Nadia slept, her head on his thigh, arm draped over his legs as he sat and kept watch. She was wearing his shirt, his scent covering her. A ghost of a smile formed on his face at the thought. A proud smile. His omega should smell like her Alpha. He tangled his hand in her hair, feeling the strands slip through his fingers. He liked the feeling. Soft? Smooth? His fingers slipped down her cheek to her jaw, feeling the joint clench as she swallowed, taking a big inhale before shifting closer to him, her breath leaving her in a sigh.

“Alpha?” She breathed, her grip on his sweatpants tightening.

He shushed her, tangling his hand in her hair again. She drifted back off, her breathing evening out again. But her sleep wasn’t so peaceful.

She was dirty, clothes torn and burned in some places as she was thrown into the room. White. Everything was white. Her clothes were pulled from her body, leaving her naked. She tried to cover herself, but the hands were everywhere. Grabbing, pinching, scrubbing the dirt away. The water was cold. So cold. She was forced into a gown, pure white, her skin rubbed raw. She cried, screamed, fought them as they tried to inject her with something. She let out a high pitched cry, an omega calling for her nonexistent Alpha. There was a crash and the door flew open, the hands leaving her. A loud growl, warning, dominating,filled the air. She curled in on herself, crying as the Alpha stalked towards the men in white. They were speaking, trying to calm him, but his anger washed over her. She whimpered, curling further in on herself as he approached her. Black. And silver...metal. One of the doctors tried to stop him. Crack. Broken wrist. More people entered. More black. Voices spoke around her, but no one stopped the Alpha as he approached the distressing omega. He knelt beside her, reaching out with his hand. Pale, flesh. She froze, watching his face as he touched her cheek, his fingers slipping around to grip her chin, tugging it so she was looking into his eyes. Cold silver. His anger dispersed, and she relaxed slightly.

‘Ne pozvolyayte im prichinit' mne bol...' (Don’t let them hurt me) She whispered, no more than a breath.

His grip on her chin tightened momentarily. Protect. Mine. His arms slipped around her, picking her up off the floor, carrying her from the room. No one stopped him as he left, taking the omega back to his nest.

Nadia jolted awake at a knock on the door. James stiffened, his hackles rising defensively.

“Bucky?” He knew that voice. “Bucky, it’s Steve. I have breakfast if you want it.”

He looked down at his omega for a moment before getting up, moving to the door. He hesitated slightly before opening it. Beta . His head hurt as he looked at the man on the other side, hands full of food. His beta. Memories swirled around him, making him take a step back and clutch at his head. Fingers tangled in his hair as he stumbled back, dropping on the edge of the bed.

Steve frowned. “Bucky?” He watched his friend stumble back, tearing at his hair.

Steve set the food on the desk before cautiously approaching the ex-assassin. Nadia sucked in a breath, curling in on herself on the bed, scooting back as far away from the unknown Alpha as she could. Steve held his hands up, eyes on her as he stopped a foot away from Bucky. He could smell the change in her, the distress starting to seep into the air. His heart was pounding, knowing things could turn violent quickly.

“Bucky?” He asked, kneeling down in front of his friend. “Bucky, you’re okay. You’re safe.” He wanted desperately to reach out to his friend. His Alpha.

Bucky inhaled sharply, eyes snapping to Steve. Light Blue. “Stevie?” There was no lit there, no roughness like there had been before.

“Buck?” Steve swallowed thickly.

“I remember. I remember everything.”

Part 6

[beamkazoo]

8 and 14

thank you so much for asking! im sorry i wasnt able to answer in a timely fashion... but im here now, and thats half the battle!8: Talk about the thing you are most proud of.woof, this is a tough one... i have a really hard time being proud of myself honestly. i suppose if i had to choose (and i do :P), then... maybe this poem i wrote? its not really a poem, i dont think, in the traditional sense, but it certainly isnt proper prose, so i dont know what else to call it, ahaha. i guess, freeform poetry? here it is:- - - - - -everything was going just peachy until the day the moon bledthere’s no life in or on the moon; we’d’ve caught thatbut even so...probes have been sent, but none have returned yetwe could send a human, but everybody is too afraid to trythe slit in the moon’s surface has gotten biggerpeople are heralding it as a new god, but i don’t agree with themwhat kind of god would merely sit there and watch?they sent someone up to the moon, a criminal on death rowit was a televised eventthe camera cut off before too long, as we all somehow knew it wouldthe audio was mostly fine, thoughthe entire world heard his screamsthey’ve announced that they won’t be sending anyone else upthe gash in the moon covers most of the visible surfaceit’s hard to tell how much is wound, and how much is just pooled bloodpeople are wondering when it will scab overnobody has said anything, but we’re pretty sure the answer is 'never'today, the first drop of blood fell from the moon to earthit landed in africa somewhere, although reports vary on exactly wherenobody close enough to see has been heard from about iti heard someone ask: if the moon has blood, does it also have antibodies?It’s a bit cliché to declare humanity as a disease, i thinkbut, even so, it’s a good questionmore drops of blood, mostly in the oceansone on a beach in americawe’ve been told to ration our drinking waterjust in casethe moon has been soaked through with its own bloodpeople have mostly stopped mentioning itwe still mostly drink bottled water, thoughi wonder how much of that we havethe drops are more or less constant, nowi don’t hear many individual reports anymoremaybe they aren’t considered newsworthya loud splash sounded this morning during breakfastit’s been silent since theni’m afraid to investigate- - - - - -like i said, i have a hard time really loving this, but i have a hard time loving anything i do. the few people who have read it say they liked it, so im mostly going off that. i wrote it about a year or so ago, for a creative writing class. when i was writing it, i didnt think much about what it might mean. if im being honest, it started just with the thought “hey, the moon bleeding is an interesting image. lets write about it”. but, looking at it now, i think its about being out of your depth. i think its about things happening around you, and you having no idea what to make of it or what to do about it, and shutting down. its left ambiguous, but i dont think the speaker went to check out the sound. i think they stayed where they were and hoped everything would un-fuck itself. but, who knows? maybe you see something different! death of the author is a concept that is near and dear to my heart, after all.14: Talk about a vacation.my family is kind of vacation crazy (my dad especially), so ive kind of been on a lot. i dunno which to write about! ill choose the beach in west virginia. this was a while ago, so apologies if its a little disjointed. i only remember bits and pieces. i think i was, hmm, maybe thirteen or so? at a guess? my family rented a beach house in wv. when we drove up, even before unpacking, our car got stuck in the sand. i remember my little sister really losing it, i think she thought we were gonna die there in the semi-public beach? but we got unstuck relatively quickly. the house had a gamecube in one of the rooms, which i was THRILLED about. i get to spend vacation playing luigis mansion? yes, please! my sister and i made up ghost ocs, i remember mine was a hunter to go in the safari room. little did i know that originally a similar portrait ghost HAD been planned for that room, but cut late in development because it was too graphic (he mentioned wanting to put luigis head on the wall, if memory serves?). im not saying i was equal to nintendo, but, well. also, i met a horse on the beach! another vacationer i guess was riding it? it got real close to me, but i was too nervous to pet it or anything... i coulda lost a finger! one day, i was out in the water grabbing cool rocks and shells and stuff. one of the shells i grabbed, i didnt realize at the time, was actually inhabited! as i was lifting it, the crabs claw reached out and pinched on my finger. being the little kid that i was, of course i lost my mind and burst into tears. sorry for scaring you, crab! i dont remember it bleeding profusely or anything, but i had a little mark on my finger for a couple years afterward, even, which is ridiculous, so i guess it must have gotten me worse than i realized, or maybe just in a particular way or something. its gone now, at least, but what a grab! maybe it was a head crab-sassin, or something...

[josiegellersbff]

its not okay

so.. very few times in my life have i wished i had never met a certain person, but i guess i need to make the list a little longer. I'm sure my friends are tired of hearing about how hurt i am. i've been awkward and fat most of my life but it's never really felt like that was all that i am, until i met you. Months went by where we talked as if we were already dating, you called me beautiful, gorgeous, adorable, and so many other sweet things and told me meeting me would be the best birthday present in the world. i had hope in my heart that everything was going to work out. i was anxious as fuck but i put the final touches on your present, and headed off to see you.. three hours away. i had the whole drive to think about best and worst case scenario, little did i know itd be worst case pretty much from the start. i got to your apartment and gave you your present (which i didnt even see you look at twice) then i played with your dogs (who liked me more than you did, apparently) while you cleaned out your car so we could go. We get in the car for the 20-25 minute drive, during which i try to make conversation and you're just not having it. We get to the aquarium and you fucking speed walk through the while thing only occasionally looking back to see if i was still there (EVEN THO IM PRETTY FUCKING POSITIVE YOU HAD WISHED I WASNT). Afterwards, we're walking back to your car and you get a phone call. the call lasts about 5 seconds, and you casually (while not being able to look me in the fucking eye) tell me that you need to go pick up your friend so youre gunna drop me off and go get her. i could feel in my gut that you were lying to me and there was no emergency. We get back into your car at the aquarium and yet again for the whole ride, not a word is said. i started sniffling just because of allergies and you look over at me, i looked the other way because even tho i wasnt crying i kind of wanted you to think i was. then you started sniffling, part of me hopes you have allergies but the other part hopes you were crying because you realized how fucking shitty the situation was. we get back to your apartment parking lot, you park, and then cant even look at me. you lean into your steering wheel, say "sorry again", and that was that. i tried to say thats okay but it wasnt so it came out a little delayed and weird but that was the least of my worries. You sped off before i was even inside of my car, where i sat for probably 5 minutes just crying because of everything that just happened. i compose myself enough to drive and head to my sisters because LUCKILY i had somewhere to go, not that you cared. In an unfortunate coincidence i had to drive by your work to get to my sisters and GUESS WHOSE CAR WAS IN THE PARKING LOT?? The same exact car I just had one if the worst experiences of my life in. The same car that is supposed to be off rescuing a friend in need from her home. The same car i used to imagine we'd go on road trips together in. All this does is confirm all of my worst fears. i get to my sisters and wait a little while and then message you saying i hope your friend is okay. you tell me "thanks, she's really shaken up" STILL LYING TO ME. i ask if youre gunna want to try again tomorrow and you say you have to work. after telling me the very day before that you couldnt wait to spend the two days, that you had taken off of work for your birthday, with me. So at this point its nothing but blatant that you're not going to tell me the truth. I should've given up right there but i go on to ask if i did something wrong, you say "no? i just forgot i have to work" to which i said "i just thought maybe it was me because you said you were off for your birthday" and you tell me somebody got fired so youre covering. this is a totally reasonable answer but after everything that has happened, i dont fucking believe you. I was already so defeated and embarrassed so i didnt want to push. i tell you you can just message me later because you're supposedly consoling a hurt friend. i sent you a video of my nephew because he's the cutest but thats it.. i didnt push, i didnt bombard, i didnt do anything. then its midnight and i go to snapchat a friend about everything and i immediately realize your name, along with our snapstreak, is fucking gone. My heart sinks even further and i go check facebook to see if you deleted me there too and sure enough i see that dreaded lil "add friend" button. Without a goodbye or a single word, you deleted me from your life. I cant recall ever being so embarrassed or defeated. All that was left of us was your picture on my snap story where the night before i had told you happy birthday and that i couldnt wait to see you, along with all the screenshots we took of each others cutesy snaps. Actually thats not true, my phone is chockfull of songs that i only listened to because they made me think of you and everything we were going to be. Ive already deleted some music and pictures but after this post i plan on purging you from my life. I cant express how stupid and naive i feel because i believed everything you told me, i actually thought this was going to work out. Maybe its my own fault, maybe i jinxed everything by telling people and posting about you. No matter what, im sorry. Whether i did something wrong or you just didnt like the way i looked, im sorry. I'm sorry because, not to sound arrogant, i saw the difference in you when i was in your life. You were happier in general with the idea of me in your life. Im sorry that i either did something wrong or you are so fucking shallow and that this didn't work out. i know you wanted it to, so yeah im fucking sorry and i cant even tell you because you had to go and do the bitchiest thing possible and delete me from your life. A big part of me still wants you to be happy but the rest of me wants you to use that owl mug i gave you (because you love owls) often af and i want you think of that girl you fucked over that one time. I want to be stuck in your head. I dont want you to suffer but i do want to cross your mind sometimes. I dont want to be forgotten because this wasnt okay. I told you it was, it was the last thing you heard me say, but its not. In no way, shape, or form is this okay. I'm not okay. I was falling for you and now i feel like I cant trust my instincts because you got in under my soggy asshat radar and that pisses me off. I'm already dreading the day i run into you somewhere random after you move here next month. my family says theyre proud of me for even going to see you but im so full of regret it makes my heart hurt. I feel like i've lost a girlfriend and a good friend, even tho im supposed to just hate you now. I miss you so much and i feel like an idiot for it because it was so easy for you to just leave. At least it's over now, I guess. I don't have to wonder what will happen anymore. Bye, E.

[survivorpacificislandallstars]

Ep. 12 - “Fly my ass back to Hawaii and dump me in a volcano” - Andrew (Pt. 1)

So I guess All Stars is just gonna be me watching the people I know and love go home one after the other at this point. At this point, I shouldn't be shocked or mad. Rhea, Karen, even Brandon to an extent. Who's next is my only question. Shockingly, to not my surprise, Jordan and Ash couldn't be trusted!!!! Who could have foreseen this? Well, I could, and I did. Anyone with common sense and a brain could have, but I guess that's too much to ask. Like with Ash, I had zero expectations. Jordan... I mean, there was at least a low bar, a very low bar. Because as far as I can recall, I've been completely honest with Jordan each tribal I've been with him... And yet each time he goes against his own word, then we make up afterward, and it's just... I don't even know. I'm totally numb to betrayal by now. Also Gage's vote is hilarious. "I don't take kindly to lies" wow bitch me too the fuck???? Kinda why I voted for him cause like, at every tribal all my interactions with him have been lies built upon lies, sometimes mutually and sometimes from him. But there's no actual trust and we've just been pretending every round, so I'm glad we've finally dropped it and we can acknowledge the tension. Jordan said I'm not on the bottom of the tribe...which sounds fake but, okay. Maybe I can work with him, maybe I can't, but really I'm just praying for once that we swap one last time to save my ass. 

I am so so so so shook right now.

Conf #18: wow! final 14! Im doing so much better than the other two games that i wont talk about. Im concerned about this immunity challenge because usually when it comes to touchy subjects I feel like I know how the game is going, but with all the swaps I feel like I know nothing about what people are thinking it concerns me. *Coco Peru voice* that bothers me. As far as the double tribal? *Yawn* but also im ready to die again, hopefully I can get people to go after mitch!!!

Honestly this tribe swap has me wet. I'm on a tribe with a bunch of icons like daddy Andrew or Sam B or fake Sam, even Steffen to an extent. More importantly I am away from that horrible nest of snakes from my previous tribe. The bad thing is Samantha wants to go after Jay, because Jay tried coming for Sam at some point, which is horrible. And if I had to choose right now I'd vote out Jay over Sam just because Sam unlike some people hasn't blindsided me!!! But no I'm not bitter or anything, why would I be bitter? I mean I shouldn't be because it's not like I considered those people trustworthy or anything!!! Anyway. Mitch is obviously siding with Jay, which leaves three people in the middle. Sam and I both want Andrew because he's trustworthy (and Sam also wants him because he's hot and I have no issues with that). I trusted Andrew the most at the very beginning of the game, and we've both been through a lot but hopefully that connection is still there. That leaves Steffen and fake Sam as the swing votes...... Idk how much I trust either of them. Steffen did side with me at the Chrissa tribal, Sam sided with the snakes at Brandon's tribal tho.... So yikes!!!! We'll figure that out tomorrow!!! 

OKAY. So this new Kyaal tribe? EW. ALL MY FRIENDS ARE ON THE OTHER TRIBE AND I MISS THEM OKAY? NOT REALLY THO. I'm so chaotic in here wtf. Anyway, SO I'm back with Jordan Pines, which is litty titty. I feel like I actually can trust him because he gives me A LOT of tea like all the time. Whether or not it's all factual is another story, but at this point I'll take what I can get. I'm also still with DADvid. He's my Dad, check my birth certificate. He is such a good person and I'm so happy we've gotten so close through this game because we have had a lot of time to get to know one another in various communities and never have. So David told me he is pretty sure of a Drew/Jay/Mitch thing thang going on and I believe it! Drew just had a moment in the HOS15 VL when Jay was evicted so that's confirmed. ADDITIONALLY, Jordan just told me that Mitch found an idol (which isn't surprising) some ruby idol bullshit that makes everyone go to rocks??? Apparently Drew has it right now and knowing my luck I'll be rocked out of this damn game. But hey, I keep saying this but I'm so proud of myself for making it this far, so if I go, I go! (I'LL BE FUCKING PISSED AND PROBABLY NEVER PLAY ONE OF THES AGAIN IF I FUCKING GO HOME, I AM FUCKING SANDRA DIAZ-TWINE AND I WILL BE THE QUEEN THAT WEARS THE CROWN TWICE.)

So who the fuck does Jay think he is exiling me?! Why me?! Clearly he has some plan to get rid of me because we're not working together so he isn't exiling me to get the clue or anything so obviously he wants me gone. If for some reason he DOESN'T want me gone he's crazy because now I'm just pissed off. I don't get to just waltz back into the tribe with immunity like Drew does. I'm gunna have to scramble and make sure it's not me and this is gunna be so annoying. Plus he just messaged me "I'm exiling you I hope that's ok" LIKE NO ITS NOT FUCKING OKAY YOU DIMWIT FUCK WHY THE FUCK DID HE CHOOSE ME??? Also I just looked at the touchy subjects results and I got who has the most F2 deals? Technically I have none because I haven't actually talked to anyone about going to the end together AND I really only talk to Steffen, Drew, and Jordan so like fuck I'm so mad because it looks so bad on me. I'm just really overall pissed off right now and I can't believe I can't even rant to anyone! I feel like Drew and Jay are tight. I started going off not even thinking of it as a game thing but more like I'm frustrated and want to rant to a friend about it but then I remembered back on the first tribe when Jay, Drew, and Mitch were all so far up each other's ass it was disgusting so like I can't even talk to Drew about it because he'll go run and tell Jay and be all fucking annoying. I just want Mitch and Jay gone so bad. Steffen better be able to pull some people in and make sure it's Mitch and not me. If I go home because Steffen can't strategize to save me I'm gunna suffocate him when he comes to visit

I'm back and alive A lot of things have happened, and apparently confessionals aren't mandatory, so I haven't been writing things! That's great. So the last time I wrote a confessional was the round before Billy right? Ok So I sort of kind of may have manipulated the vote against Billy. I heard from Van that her and Billy were trying to flip the vote onto Charlotte, so I told Charlotte that Billy might have been trying to target her, and she easily flipped to Van and I. Jay didn't want to vote Billy, so it was 3-2. I'm glad I got him out of the game at least. I love Billy as a person, as a player, whew. He reamed me afterwards, and every bad thing he said about me was truly well-deserved. So then we swap, fun shit. Expected. We played Kanto! I got gay pokemon, but no idol or whatever. I have a team of cuties, so that's all that matters to me.<3 I couldn't play the grass game, so we kinda had to go to tribal. David was the target, but he whipped out an idol and his one vote for Punpun sent them home, which is disappointing. But fuck, good job David. Props to you, I ain't even mad. Apparently Van was voted out of the other tribe which SUCKS because I had to vote out Billy to protect her and then she just went home anyway??? Uggggh My friends keep leaving. We stayed in Kanto for a week and I got to play Pokemon LeafGreen. I caught 111 pokemon and earned myself a trip to exile, which was mostly pointless, and our tribe got immunity. I wasn't even playing to win, I just really love FR/LG. But of course I'm secretly digging my own grave, because who wants to keep a tryhard around at/before merge??? No one. I gave my idol to Drew because he said he might've been in trouble. It was insurance in case things turned sour. BUT APPARENTLY AT THEIR TRIBAL IT WAS UNANIMOUS VOTE FOR CHARLOTTE. I love Charlotte... She was my #1 man. I wanted to help her get far. And then Drew told me she might've been a catfish. So... Maybe that was for the best, idk. COME TO THINK OF IT, a first boot being considered an all star is VERY suspicious... I want my idol back tho. Also Karen went home at the other tribal!!! Bless up. Jay told me she had a sapphire idol so that is... good that she's gone.  ALSO Dan has the Whetu idol and I'm surprised but also not. So here we are on new tribes, and what better way to put a fire under my ass than to play touchy subjects??? Do I have good luck with this game? No. Do I usually get nice answers? Yes. Did I get them this time? Not...really. People think I have an idol and they want to vote me out next. Which is unfortunate, because now I honestly don't have an idol. And I'm going to be traveling tomorrow!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! So I can't even really talk to people and defend myself!!!!!!!! Fortunately I at least have Jay and Andrew on this tribe. Sam G and Kevin would likely vote with me too. I don't want to vote Steffen because I just told him I wouldn't and meant it. So that leaves Sam B, who just won Panem and should go... We'll see how the chips fall. Maybe I'll get my idol back, maybe Samg and Kevin like me enough to keep me around, and maybe I'll live another day. If not, oh well, I made jury.

When you accidentally send a confessional....to the wrong game....hosted by Jay....and it's talking about Jay...and it reveals your allies........ I'm actually gonna hate myself if this fucks my game up why do I do these things

"Not to nitpick at the Touchy Subject results but the fuck! Firstable Ash and Gage put me down as backstabber like besides last vote which was just me returning the backstabbing to Gage, when have I done that... Second of balls, people forgetting I'm in the game? Well, not shocking, I'm naturally irrelevant. Still won't stop me from being salty but. So um if Jay goes after Sam B he's officially cancelled, because I would literally die for her every day of my life I had to. And the fact that he's immune....sigh. I don't know if he trusts me but!!! If he doesn't he can catch these gay 12 year old hands. Sam B and I want to go after fake Sam now because she has too many allies (she wanted to go after Mitch but uh, I think not). Idk what Jay thinks about fake Sam but he did send her to Exile so there's that. Hopefully Andrew and Steffen will come through???? Because if I have to watch Sam B die I might as well drop dead to the floor right now because there would be no point in living after that"

Andrew wants to form an alliance of me him Jay and Mitch. Like, I love those people, but you know who that excludes? Sam!!!!! You know who I would never vote out in a heartbeat? Also Sam!!!! Voting out Sam would be like Ciera voting out her mom except actually important and heartbreaking (but it would still be a hashtag game changing big move). So I kinda bs'd to Andrew saying I don't trust Jay because he voted out Karen (also my mom) which is half the truth. The good news is Andrew said we should choose between Steffen and fake Sam. While Steffen has backstabbed me once, we're supposedly friends now cause he was like "miss you!!!" when we swapped but like Gage did the same thing and look where that got me. But I don't wanna break that bond just yet. Sooooo I'm still gunning for fake Sam but Mitch was like "I like her" which just proves real Sam's about connections and yadda yadda. Really I just want to get to the point where I can stop distinguishing the Sam's and my life gets easier. 

I’m me and sara planning to search the well together

So the vote should in theory be Ash tonight. I'm perfectly fine with Ash going home but I'm not perfectly fine with lying to Gage about it, but at this point unless Ash/Gage have an idol I don't foresee things changing. Thankfully Gage seems to like me so that is a plus. If there's an idol played it most likely will not be me going home. I don't love that it will be David going home though. Jordan Pines is a dear friend of mine, but he's just in general very aggressive. He has strong social ties to people and seems to utilize them when he needs things. He put together the 5 votes against Ash and it seems like a done deal. But I'm at a cross roads. Do I try to turn David and work with Gage and Ash to vote Jordan out? Idk. My concern is that endgame, people like Mitch/Drew/Jay/Jordan will be an unstoppable force in this game and idk if I'm ready for that. I'll probably touch base with David before my vote is submitted and if he thinks the plan is good, it's happening. If not, I'll just have to lie to Gage and possibly lose my newest ally's trust... :/ 

I. Hate. Survivor. Here I am, dealing with important stuff, cleaning literal dog shit, and then here in the game shit hits the fan. Sam B wanted Sam G out. Jay wanted Steffen out. Sam B was fine with this. I tell Jay this. I also tell Jay Sam B wants Sam G out, but we can roll with Steffen. Jay says cool. But somewhere after some shitty sequence of events, Jay goes apeshit and throws out like, everyone's names and wants to vote out Sam B???? And doesn't tell me of course, even though he wanted to make sure "we're cool." So I guess keeping me in the dark, again, is a good way to gain trust. And then an even shittier thing happens. Sam B, fake Sam, and Steffen unite to vote out Mitch. I think voting out Mitch is the most effective way to weaken Jay, and Jay does need to be weakened. But voting out Mitch...and sending him to the jury...is difficult. I would rather send Mitch to jury over Sam. Sam said Jay directed votes back to Steffen... But I can't trust him, and I don't want to sit still and do nothing about that. He's fooled me once and I don't want to be fooled again, I'm tired of that happening. Voting out friends is hard, but I think tonight there's no easy way out.