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bosspigeon · 3 months ago

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my anxiety has been so fucking bad lately i rly don't know what to do anymore im having like multi-day breakdowns and i am constantly shaking and struggling to make myself eat consistently but like i still have to go to work and pretend everything is normal bc i can't afford not just push through but idk how long i can keep this up

#pidge whines #im gonna try to see about like #getting a therapist #friend recommended me a place that might be able to do like sliding scale affordability stuff #my work is legit suffering bc of this but i have to just Pretend To Be Fine bc like #its work #im afraid im gonna get in trouble for slacking so the past couple days i kind of threw everything i had into just work work work #cranked out like 10 blends the other day and also chattered at customers like an insane person #it legit kinda freaks me out how i get when im melting down #its very out of body experience but also screaming crying throwing up behind the veneer of normalcy #idk if im explaining it well #i alternate between like being borderline catatonic and then also aggressive cheerfulness and hypomanic work/cleaning #and then i go home maybe eat a cookie take an ambien and zonk tf out #im also spending too much fn money ubering to work bc its too hot for me to walk on top of just #sleeping like shit/struggling to drag myself out of bed #i feel like im gonna hit a breaking point soon but like #i cant afford to break #sorry i needed to rant #friends are screaming GET THERAPY and i rly want to bc man shit is getting bad #so yeah #if i seem kinda absent this is why

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