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[shalomniscient]

in the mood for some angst so…pls enjoy and unwind 🙏

being fwb with zoya is all fun n’ games until one of you starts having feelings for the other, (lets say its you) but don’t wanna ruin whatever tf you both have going on so you just keep your mouth shut. you’d rather have a purely physical relationship with her than not have her at all.

you know she would stop initiating intimacy if you asked her to, but a selfish part of you wants her to yourself even though technically she’s allowed to fuck other people.

if reader ever confesses it’d probably go two ways

reader: *accidentally blurts out how she’s liked her for a while now while tipsy*

zoya: *stares for a moment then lightly punches her shoulder and tells her to stop fucking around* “you’re fucking with me, you’ve got balls i’ll give ya’ that.”

reader: *plays it off as a joke after seeing zoya’s reaction* “haha….yeah.”

(reader never confessed again after that)

OR—

reader: *can’t hold it in anymore and spontaneously confesses*

zoya: *stares before chuckling a bit* “you serious?”

reader: *tenses up and nods*

zoya: “hm, really you deserve better than a gangster like me. let’s just end things here, and forget any of this ever happened, yeah?”

(zoya leaves after that)

but either way that is just IF she doesn’t feel the same way, i’ll let you imagine how she’ll react if she does feel the same

also please take care of yourself, sevvy!! make sure to eat well, drink well, and get enough sleep <3 dont overwork yourself!

HDHDKSKSKDD RUELLA U R KILLING ME…… zoya is undoubtedly a confident woman, but she’s internalised so deeply that her worth is tied only to the violence she’s able to inflict that she can’t see or let herself be loved and it’s SO heartbreaking like girl come here let me give you a hug ??? i feel like even if she DOES feel the same, there’s a chance she might shove her feelings aside in favor of letting someone ‘better’ have your heart, someone who has more to offer than bruised knuckles and self-destruction. zoya’s the type to hear you say i love you and respond with you shouldn’t 😔😔😔

she’ll be affectionate or allow herself to feel those fragile feelings only when you can’t see or don’t notice. like when you’ve fallen asleep after several intense rounds, she’ll gently brush some hair out of your face and run her finger along the ridge of your cheekbone and imagine what it’d be like to be worthy of you. she guards this secret with her life—no one, not even you will know.

her legionnaires call her brave. but when she looks at you from the corner of her eye, all she can think about is how she wishes she was brave enough to love you.

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Girlies and conspiracy bros whats the tea on Cropsey? To me it seems cut and dry: former worker in a horrible institutiom for thw mentally ill kids, mentally illmother who was instituionalized in an exact copy of the institute he worked in, he goes on to select only mentally ill girls to kill with the exception of one mentally ill grown boy who i belueve he targeted because he saw him on the news behind the mother pleading for her girl. He drools and pretends to be mentally ill in tbe public because be thinks its funny he takes joy in it, proves to be very verbose and manipulative. And lastly anyone who sends u scriptures in a convo is guilty of smth dark.

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now i REALLY can’t stop thinking abt cinnabar 😭 just soft intimate love making with cinnabar is just so….UGH it does things to me..(i apologize if this is out of character i just have rlly bad cinnabar brainrot) (this is VERY self indulgent)

she would probably whisper sweet nothings, praise, and encouragement in your ear while she plays with your pretty cunt, ignoring the strain against her pants, all she wants is to please you!

when you reach your high, she would help you ride it out while pressing the sweetest, most diabetes inducing kisses onto your neck, face, chest…basically anywhere, she just wants to make you feel like the most special girl in the world, because to her you are.

and when you try to make her feel good as well, she just gets flustered and says “it isn’t exactly necessary,” but you insisted! so how could she ever deny you when you’re just giving her the sweetest, and most reassuring smile?

when she’s finally, finally inside your puffy cunt, she just melts….one hand grips onto your waist, the other intertwined with yours, her face in the crook of her neck. all the while she never stops singing praises about you, she’s just so, so darling…

her thrusts are calculated, slow, steady. even as she’s balls deep inside you, she’s still thinking about you, your well being, were you enjoying this or not? her thoughts were interrupted by you pulling her into a slow, passionate kiss.

when you both reach your respective highs, cinnabar just holds you, she doesn’t pull out, you didn’t want her to. her large hands wrapped protectively around your smaller frame, she presses the most loving kisses against your forehead, and face as you both fall asleep in each others arms.

AGAIN THIS IS SO SO SELF INDULGENT AND IDK IF THIS IS OOC AT ALL

"idk if this is ooc" proceeds to write the most cinnabar accurate smut i've seen in my life /j

by the end of it, if cinna had a tail, god it'd be wagging so hard. she's literally on cloud nine. though i feel she'd roll you both over so she's on her back and you're on top of her. she doesn't wanna crush you beneath her body weight after all.

she also has everything you need post-sex ready to go on the bedside table. water? there's a pitcher full and a glass. something to help clean up the mess? there's two small towels in the drawer. morning after pills? right there on the tray.

man. the more i write cinna the more i see the vision of the cinna lovers, but alas...... siren call of toxic (fictional) women.......... it is my very own permanent personal debuff 😔😔😔

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got another thought i desperately need to share……..housewife. rahu.

like yes puppy go stay home with the kids i’ll be the provider <33

rahu’s that one meme that’s like “me doing whatever my hot witch wife wants me to do” but we switch hot witch with girlboss ��🤩🤩 idk why but this prompt inflicted VISIONS on me like i’m the oracle of delphi frfr like i was immediately imagining like, conglomerate CEO reader who marries her bodyguard of all people and goes out to girlboss by day and comes back to the warm embrace of her wife and twins (yep, twins) by night on the top floor penthouse of the most luxurious apartment in the city

maybe rahu’s like the only person who never tried to get in reader’s good graces just because of her position, and also rahu gets mighty hot when she’s bodily shielding reader from harm that reader falls horrendously in love with her, while rahu remains entirely oblivious JSHDHSJSJDKSK the relationship progression might be something like co-workers —> friends with benefits —> lovers or something like that ?? i’m just rambling at this point LOL but mmm corporate espionage…… corporate intrigue……. if i was good at scheming i would try and write some of this but alas i do not know how to be conniving 😔😔😔 what do you mean people say one thing but mean the other 😔😔😔

OOOOOO reader taking rahu out to all those fancy corporate galas at them expensive ass hotels like the ritz-carlton or intercontinental and reader has an arm around rahu’s waist the entire time like wow… my wife is so gorgeous… and she is !! rahu is canonically so pretty her face alone can make petty crime stop in its tracks (one of her supervision incidents) rahu has probably gotten approached by idol and model scouts only for them to be swatted away by reader like a hissy cat LMAO reader be like the only one who is can appreciate all my wife’s beauty is me 😤😤😤

also maybe if angst… reader doesn’t want rahu to be a commodity, a product… KDHDHSJSJ someone take my keyboard away from me

[shalomniscient]

sevvy oml i have no idea who corso is but she’s so gorgeous gorgeous woman 😞

corso is indeed gorgeous gorgeous woman 😞😞😞 i had to go through the absolute TRENCHES to finally be able to do her interro (read: clear chapter 12 off story mode) but honestly it was very well worth it. corso is so dog-coded but also, she'd get along well with childe. if that's a good or bad thing remains to be seen LMAO

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i want to power bottom corso so badly, honestly. stick a muzzle, leash and collar on her and she's going crazy for you. her obedience doesn't come easy, and she'll fight you at nearly every turn, testing your limits, but if you hold strong and keep the leash taut she'll heel (at least, for now). your tight cunt around her cock is reward enough, anyway.

corso is a very hard and fast girlie. she likes the primal feel of it all, and doesn't really do softness. it's not enjoyable to her unless her blood feels like it'll burn her alive and her heart is pumping a mile a minute as she ruts into you like some feral dog while you squirm and pant and moan beneath her, but your hand on her leash never going slack. she likes the push and the pull, the give and take, the feeling of being rewarded for a job well done.

if she's domming, it's doggy style or nothing with her. seeing you ass up, face down in the bed is so hot to her. she even gets to slap your ass as she fucks into you like she wants to breed you full of her pups (corso is very much an ass woman to me, ngl). more often than not, corso fucking you doggy style eventually evolves into her fucking you prone bone into the bed, pulling screams of pleasure from your throat that she's tempted to shut up by looping her arm around your neck in a headlock and cutting off your air supply.

as for aftercare, she isn't the greatest like some other sinners, but she'll get you a glass of water and maybe a towel to clean up. meanwhile, she'll just lounge on the bed and admire the way your legs tremble as you stand (if you even can, at this point) and watch the way her cum trickles down your thighs.

in conclusion, another incredible addition to the list of syndican dog-coded women.

[shalomniscient]

what are your thoughts on domestic life with cinna? 🤔

cinnabar is like the poster child for domesticity. partner of all time. she's like one of those picture-perfect romantic partners people post about all the time except she really is, no exaggerations.

she's really good at the little things, i feel. not to say that she's bad at the big gestures, but the small, everyday ones are really where she shines. so something like, getting up a little earlier to make breakfast and making your tea/coffee/other drink exactly the way you like it. or maybe draping a blanket over you when you fall asleep at the couch watching your favorite show or movie, and giving you a gentle kiss on the forehead.

she's a great listener too, and will attentively listen to whatever you have to say, if it's about your day or something that happened or some niche interest you have. she'll be sure to ask questions too, to make sure you know she's engaged, that she cares. but if you just need someone to rant to at the moment, she's more than happy to hold you in her arms as you talk and just listen.

now this may be a little random, but i like to think cinnabar has a vast collection of hoodies because i mean c'mon, they're so comfortable. that being said, this also gives you the opportunity to raid her closet for them. she finds it cute and a little amusing the way you drown in her hoodies, but you clearly adore them, so she lets you have them. she keeps a hoodie rotation in her mind, making sure there's always a new one for you to steal after the previous one goes in the wash.

as for receiving affection, cinnabar likes it the same way she gives it, i feel, so that's acts of service. if she cooked breakfast, maybe you handle dinner, and if she tidied up the house, maybe you could tackle laundry. so the chores in the house have a 50/50 split, yk? also, doing equipment maintenance with her! her equipment gets pretty banged up on account of her role as a bodyguard/endura, so helping her out with fixing some dents in her shield or sewing up any cuts in her combat clothes is something she greatly appreciates! she will give you many forehead kisses as thanks <333

tangentially related, but she also likes seeing you have fun or interact positively with serpent eye. they're her family, after all. she'd be so, so happy if you invited them over for dinner or something, like a big family gathering. she'll even endure all of her uncles' drunken teasing about how she's such a puppy for you, because now she has all the people she loves most in one place, and that's something beyond words for her.

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HEAR ME OUT. quickie with iron in one of the storage rooms where they keep the extras n shit

PLEASE GO TO BED IF YOURE STILL AWAKE RN

ok i see the vision with the storage closet but hear me out: the on-call room. [nsft utc--]

it's not uncommon for you and iron to crash into one of the small beds together to save on space. nurses come in and out all the time, and they'll just see you and iron tangled in each others' embrace, not really knowing where you end and iron begins, and they all find it very endearing.

what they don't know is that sometimes, under the dim lights and criminally thin blanket, iron has her (organic) fingers stuffed knuckle deep in your cunt, working and scissoring you open with frankly ridiculous skill, all while you cover your mouth or bite your pillow to stifle your sounds.

all the while, iron looks as if she's peacefully sleeping, spooning you from behind, her warm breath tickling your neck. it's dark enough that no one notices, but anyone walking in will be able to hear your moans, so you really should do your best to keep quiet. iron tells you as much, whispering lowly into your ear.

"be a good girl for me and keep quiet, alright?"

it's nearly impossible to do so when she makes you cum all over her fingers, were it not for her iron ones slipping into your mouth and pressing firmly on your tongue. she lets you cant your hips and buck against the ones buried in your cunt, now gently stroking your walls as you ride out your orgasm, before withdrawing slowly.

eventually she retracts her touch, and settles for slinging an arm over your waist and burying her face in your shoulder. she holds you close to her body and mutters out a few words of tired affection before dozing off to catch whatever few minutes of undisturbed sleep remain.

you, of course, make sure to return the favor later. it's the least your lovely girlfriend deserves, after all.

[shalomniscient]

i’m alive! sorry for my inactivity these past few days, a situationship i’m in has drained me of all my energy (but another rahu fic will be coming soon, so hopefully that makes you feel better!) shsgaga and i hope you’re doing alright!!

another girlfailure deren thought

i feel like she’d have a nosebleed from seeing you naked for the first time. like you’d both be ready for some sexy time but when you take off your shirt, she’s just jaw dropped. yes, she’d start fondling them, sucking on them, giving them some good lovin’ then you take a good look at her and there’s just a stream of blood comin’ out her nose. immediately you push her away, and she’s confused asf, and starts apologizing, thinking she did something wrong, until you start covering your mouth with your hand, and just cackling, and she’d be even more confused. (this goes on for like a good 30 seconds) before you managed to blurt out something about her nose, and she just tilts her head to the side, before looking in the mirror and just seeing the blood coming out her nose, and droplets of blood on her chest.

i love this loser sm

LOSER DEREN RAHHHHHHHHHHH she's literally so pathetic girlfailure (/pos) about you ??? she tries to be cool and nonchalant around you but it just. doesn't work. BUT I MEAN can u blame her ?? her lover is literally so hot and pretty and gorgeous like EYE TOO would be having trouble keeping it cool 😔😔😔

ok but like imagine the two of u r like. going to discars or something and she's waiting at the door and when you finally emerge from your room in literally the MOST beautiful dress deren has ever seen she just. blue screens for a solid five minutes. like total system crash, you can SEE her brain rebooting LMAO you lightly pat her cheek to get her to focus again and all she can say is "you look........ wow." HSLJDSLJSD THE GRILFAILUREISMMMMMMMMMM you simply reduce her to utter speechlessness 😌😌😌 trust me i saw it myself 😌😌😌

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unfortunately i don’t have cinnabar and all i got from others posts are; she’s sweet, easily flustered, (most likely) a service top….

but i’m quite smitten with her 😭 (she reminds me of my girlfriend) so pls enlighten me about her more my lord 🙏

cinnabar is like. the Most Normal person in the mbcc, and that’s a good thing !! that’s a very good thing !! i mean normal as in remarkably well adjusted !!

besides that though, the best way i can describe cinnabar is princely or very knight-like. she’s stalwart and honest and sincere and sees the good in people but not to the point of naivete. she can acknowledge that the world is a fucked up place, but she doesn’t let that be her free pass to do fucked up ot bad things. she also takes her job seriously, but will not compromise on her morals on its account.

at her core cinnabar is a gentle soul, the kind of person you can just be comfortable around even if you don’t know her for very long. i think she loves deeply, as evidenced by her interactions with serpent eye (functionally her family, if i’m not mistaken?) and she’ll shower her partner in it too. i don’t feel like she’s the type for grand gestures, but she’ll remember every last detail about you and your preferences and can always tell what you need, be it cuddles, a talk, or just some quiet time in each other’s presence.

tldr; cinnabar is the girlfriend of all time and the healthiest option you could go for in the mbcc.

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if you insist…..*takes mic* AHEM. LADIES AND LADIES. i now present, my girl failure deren hcs

who would have thought the big named director……can’t cook. (she normally orders takeout or just forgets to eat) or do any house chores, honestly….but ever since she met you she’ll try to help, keyword; try. she’s god awful at it tho

really obvious and pretty sure it’s canon but a Slacker with a capital S. she complains and whines whenever she has to do the least bit of work, and desperately tries to get out of it by saying she’s not feeling well

her fame and success often leads to the occasional love confessions from other celebrities (more specifically, uprising stars, actresses etc u get the idea) but every time she gets one, she’s often at a loss for words and most of the time she just runs away after saying “no comment!”

blurts out embarrassing shit during interviews. one time, she said something so controversial it was on the news headlines for weeks

nsfw :3

SO. MESSY. when she’s eating you out, like slick getting everywhere, sloppy movements, nails digging into your thighs messy

ik ya’ll gon’ debate me on this, but she’s a pathetic virgin. absolutely unexperienced, never masturbated. you’re like her first lover EVER. you’ll have to teach her literally everything, she gets the hang of it after a while

can i just say that she’s so loud during sex ??? despite being normally calm and relaxed, she moans and whimpers against your cunt. especially if you pull her hair to beckon her closer, to shove her tongue in deeper, she can NOT handle it. will probably cum untouched

gets super prideful when she makes you cum (even though she came like three times in the process) she’ll be all like “my performance deserves a Discar, don’t you think?” while she has that dazed look plastered on her face

probably watches R-rated movies to try and learn more about how to pleasure you better, but gets super horny in the process but doesn’t know what to do about it cus you’re out rn

lowk sucks at dirty talk, not necessarily because she doesn’t know how but because she makes it more romantic rather than sexy (very aww)

DEREN NATION WE HAVE AN ADDRESS FROM THE PRESIDENT ‼️‼️‼️ IJSHDHDJDSKSNHSJSKS RUELLA THIS IS SO GOOD ??? deren is like my blorbo in law at best but omg this has me giggling blushing kicking my feet shdjskshdjd ALSO that part about deren sometimes saying the most random shit during interviews… she’s giving no media training icon renee rapp 😌😌😌

also….. those nsfw hcs…. 🥵🥵🥵

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deren the typa mf who’d sign ur tits or any part of your body like do ya’ll see my vision

I DO HAHAHAHAHHAA funnily enough, i thought about this recently too, but with an oc of mine (fafnir) but yes !! deren would totally sign ur body after a very fun night so you have something to remember her by <33 maybe she signs your tits or maybe she signs your inner thigh… or if she’s feeling particularly possessive, around your collarbones or even your neck, so everyone knows without a doubt who it is who’s been making you feel so damn good 👀👀👀

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another rahu thought

i feel like rahu has always had a thing for older women but she doesn’t realize it until she was like 17-19 and when she does its like an “oh” moment

now ig she knows why she always stares at her girlfriend’s mothers whenever they brought her over for dinner

NAURRRR NOT MILF HUNTER RAHU 😭😭😭 fuck being a doberman call her a bloodhound the way she’s sniffing out every milf in her area LMAO

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AHHHHHHHH SEVVY YOURE BACK!!! i hope you’re doing alright!! please take care <3

ruella !!! it's been so long aughhhh thank you for the well wishes !! i will try to take care of myself <333 also, i see you've developed an interest in shawn 👀👀👀 look forward to anything you'll write about ptn's second dark haired loser <333

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SEVVY! idk if you’ve been catchin’ up on PTN BUT if you have played the deren’s event rerun thing, what’s your opinion on her now?? i’m dying to know 😉

i have nothing to say for myself for answering this so late but honestly deren is like. a bro to me. a homie. i would chill with her and be silly little low-energy gremlins together, maybe watch shitty movies that we trash talk together. all this to say, i am solidly friendzoning deren 😔😔😔 but what i ALSO am doing is wingmanning her for you and every gamer down bad for her lazy ass (/pos) AMEN 🫡🫡🫡

[shalomniscient]

just binged a BUNCH of ur zoya asks/thirsts and can i just say you fed me so well i’ll be full til’ the next week

(also very scared to like ur posts cus i don’t wanna spam you 😞)

NOOOOOOOOOOOOOO don't be scared :((( seeing likes from the moots on my posts give me so much serotonin like....... friend.... likes work..... 💕💕💕💕 🥺🥺🥺🥺 truly it gives me the strength and confidence to keep up on my nonsense HLSJSDLHSLSHDJSH but anyway enough about me, i'm glad u like the zoya stuff !!! adding zoya to ur tab on the mental list of moots' blorbos 😌😌😌

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hey sevvy! i hope you’re doing alright rn! please take care and know my dms are always open <3

shdhdjskkskd thank uu……… i will confess i am currently Experiencing The Horrors and that burnout i was planning to avoid yoinked me by the ankles nonetheless 😔😔😔 going to be in a slump probably for about a week before i get possessed by the writing demons again LOL but again tqsm for the kind words lovely !! they mean so much <333