#ill probably delete this later. but its truth. guy whos scared of nothing (me)

[serafphim]

i kinda wanna focus more on my ocs with plots and stuff but im scared to pivot towards that because the thought of disappointing people is so strong. I have to get over that so bad. i love writing characters and stories and things but i care too much about what people think to just have fun with it. gotta fix that

[ironspiidey]

Superhero’s get Bullied Too- Chapter 8

Chapter: 1

Chapter 8: Tony Stark and Snooping Through Messages

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Harley looked up from his phone, hearing his uncle’s angry voice.

“What the fuck?” He muttered under his breath before getting up and opening his bedroom door.

“I need to know everything you know involving Thompson.”

Harley eyed him confused “Has age finally caught up to you? I’ve already told you everything I knew.”

“I’m not fucking around here Harley” he pushed his nephew to the side & made a gesture to the far wall. A projected screen of text messages between an unknown number and Peter showed.

Harley followed his uncle then frowned at the screen projected on his wall “What’s that?”

“This is a conversation between Peter and who I believe to be Flash Thompson. So this is the last time I will be asking, tell me everything you know in regards to him. “

Harley walked closer to the wall, swallowing as he read the messages. “What the fuck? When did this start.”

Tony turned fully and eyed his nephew “Wait so you’re telling me you had no idea of this?” He gestured again, and more screens appeared with more crude messages

Harley’s eyes widened “What do you take me for? If I knew what Peter was being put through Flash would be fucking dead!!!”

“Tone Harley.”

“Fuck this. He is so beyond dead. I don’t even care.”

Tony grabs Harley by the scruff of his neck. “You’re not going anywhere.”

“Fucking let go of me. You’re not the boss of me Stark” Harley seethed and fought his uncle, trying to break free.

“Harley calm down!” when the teenager refused Tony hauled him back and grabbed his arms, putting them behind the teens head and holding tight “Stop it Harley. Harley!” Tony raised his voice as the blonde kept refusing to settle

“Fuck you. I hate you. Let me go!”

“Well I love you and I can do this all fucking day.” Tony snarled

“Boss?” Friday called out

“Yes Friday?” the older man answered gruffly, still restraining his nephew

“Incoming call from Karen Sir, Should I patch it to you directly or over loudspeaker?

“Let it come over loudspeaker.” Tony gripped the fighting teenager harder and Harley stopped fighting all together upon hearing about Peter

“Tony!”

“Hey Babyboy, been worried about you.”

“Yeah uh I’m sorry about that.” Peter laughed nervously “I uh forgot my phone.”

“Yeah I noticed.” Tony said dryly, giving his nephew a look that clearly meant don’t fuck up before letting him go

“Everything alright? You sound weird.”

“I’m fine, where are you?”

“Don’t lie to me Tony, I’m just at Aunt May’s. Calling you from my suit, but Friday probably already mentioned it.”

“I’m better now that I know you’re okay sweetheart. Your coming back right Pete?”

“Yeah of course, I just went out to visit May but got sidetracked. “

Tony frowned as Friday silently brought up Karen’s report of Peter’s Vitals “Peter...”

“What?”                                                                                                                    

“Did you get into a fight? Did Flash get to you?”

“What no. No! Flash? “Peter sounded confused “Why would you think Flash got to me?”

“I’m looking at your Vitals report Peter.”

“Dammit Karen, stop ratting me out to Friday. But still that doesn’t explain… Oh.”

“Oh?”

“Anthony Howard Stark, were you snooping in my room?”

Tony swallowed, noticing Peter’s tone didn’t sound angry. “It’s hardly your room anymore!”

“You hacked into my phone.” Peter stated.

“Well to be fair, Friday just helped me figure out your passcode, I didn’t even need to hack it.”

“She helped you?”

“I thought it was your birthday but Friday told me to try something else and it worked.” Tony shrugged at Harley’s eye roll.

“Whatever, either way you didn’t need to go into my phone!”

“Apparently I did!! Because you weren’t about to be 100% truthful!” Tony started to raise his voice

“That doesn’t mean you get the right to go through my shit!”

“Yes it does! Peter Jesus Christ don’t you see that he could seriously fucking hurt you. “

“I’m not doing this now. Imma go.”

“Peter wait! Let me come get you.”

“I’m not planning to leave yet.”

“Well let me come get you in an hour.” Tony asked, knowing how much Peter hates it when Tony raises his voice and despite what most people think, Tony hates it too.

“I think I need to be alone a bit Tony.”

“But you’re still coming home?” he asked nervously

Peter sighed “Yes. Regardless of you being an utter ass, I still love you so yes I’ll be home.”

Harley smirked “Well how about Happy? He could pick you up.”

“Harley? Wait. You’ve had me on speaker this whole time?”

Tony ignored Peter’s question. “So Happy can pick you up in an hour.”

Peter sighed again “Yeah have him pick me up then. But this isn’t over Tony. Bye Harley. Bye Tony.”

“See ya in a bit Parker.” Harley said at the same time as Tony said “Love you Petey.”

Which made Harley shake his head. His uncle really didn’t know when to leave a person alone

“Love you too. I’m hanging up now.”

Tony looked at his nephew when the call disconnected “What?”

“You really like Peter don’t you Tony?” Harley walked over and sat down on the bed

Tony followed Harley and pulled the desk chair closer to the bed. Sitting down on it he said softly “Yeah I kind of do like a lot.”

“You get crazy when it comes to people you care about.” The blonde stated

Tony licked his lips but nodded. “Yep and hopefully I didn’t just scare him away.”

“I know he wouldn’t want me to tell you this but Uncle I doubt you could scare Peter Parker away the hardest you could try.”

Tony rolled his eyes “You don’t need to flatter me with bullshit Harley.”

Harley leaned forward to look Tony dead in the eye. “This isn’t bullshit. I know for a fact he’s in love with you. Like the marrying kind of love. He doesn’t tell you or me what goes on because he knows Flash’s dad works for you and you would stop at nothing to teach Flash a lesson. Peter doesn’t want anyone to pay for some idiots actions by proxy. “

Tony looked at his nephew for a minute before speaking “When did you become so wise nephew.”

Harley shrugged then looked at the text messages on the wall “When did these start anyway.”

Tony looked at the conversations and went between pages with a flick of his wrist “The first ones in this conversation start 2 months ago.”

“Months? I’ve only known about Flash being a complete dick since a few weeks after you got together. And these are only what he has left on his phone”

Tony raised an eyebrow “What do you mean only what’s left?

“I know Flash was a bit of an ass to Peter for years. Something had to have happened to make him switch from basic dickness to this shit.” Harley states.

Tony eyes widen “Why didn’t I think of this sooner. Friday?”

“Yes boss?”

“Scan Peter’s phone for deleted messages from that unknown number. Before you try and say anything, this is for his safety.”

“May I call Ms. Potts for confirmation as she also had the protection of privacy protocol in place?”

Harley snorted, knowing full well how Pepper would react to their snooping.

Peter shook his head as he pulled his mask off. Heading back into the living room, he had walked into the hallway to talk to Tony and clearly that was a good idea. He took a deep breath then forced a smile on his face as he walked in.

“All good?” May asked from the couch

Peter nodded. “Yeah they were worried about me but it’s all good now.”

“They’re not the only ones worried.”

“Whatcha mean?” Peter asked as he sat down beside her.

May tilted her phone screen so both of them could see it. There were Facebook messages from both MJ & Ned.  May tapped on Ned’s chat bubble “See?”

Peter read through the messages then leaned ahead and pressed on MJ’s chat bubble and shook his head “They’re like the FBI.”

“Should I be worried Peter?”

“Oh no, not even. Flash was bugging me again and I just told him how it was and I haven’t had a chance to really tell em about it”

May nodded in understanding. “So they’re just hearing gossip from other kids?”

“Exactly.”

“Shouldn’t you call them then?”

“It’s okay, they’ll be fine till I get back to the tower. “

“Peter…”

“What? I’m here to see you not spend all afternoon yaking off to my friends.” Peter shrugged

May gave him a knowing look “But you were quick as shit to tell Tony Stark where you were. “

Peter blushed “And?”

“And from Ned’s messages you left school early with Harley. But your best friends have no idea what’s going on. MJ even told me she called Harley.”

“May its fine, I’m fine. I swear. Nerds honor.” Peter raised his hand and made the Spock symbol.

May shook her head and handed him her phone “Message them from my Facebook at least, I’ll go crazy if I have to deal with much more of Ned’s mothering.” She got up “How’s some cocoa and Greys Anatomy sound for a bit?”

“Fine! And sounds great, don’t forget the marshmallows.” Peter took her phone and created a group chat with MJ and Ned

M: Hey guys Its Peter, Im alive and well. I left my phone at the tower and am with aunt may! You guys are like the fbi, you don’t need to worry so much.

N: DUDE OMG WHY ARE YOU USING MAY’S PHONE. DID SOMETHING HAPPEN HARLEY WOULDN’T TELL MJ ANYTHING

MJ: calm down weirdo, glad your okay loser. Seriously tho what happened to your phone? You don’t go anywhere wo it.

M: Wow ned nice yelling at me through texts. I just came home and left my phone back @ the tower. I was just beyond done with today and had some much needed Chinese. Sorry if Harley gave yall a tough time

N: sorry dude just worry about you when you disappear, glad your alright . chill soon?

M: All is good guys. Ill message you later tonight, mays got hot cocoa and greys to watch.

MJ: oooh hot cocoa. Enjoy loser.

N: Jeallllous dude. Ttyl

Peter closed the chats and deleted them. “Hey May. I’m just going to use your phone to tell Mr. Stark not to send Happy out for another hour or two okay?”

May walks in with two hot steaming cups of homemade hot cocoa. “Actually, you can just text happy yourself.”

Peter raised an eyebrow “Text Happy?”

“Yeah he’s the second conversation. Hand me my phone.” She passed him one of the mugs as he handed her the phone.

May sat down beside her nephew then pulled up her text app, clicking on her second conversation which was with one Happy Hogan.

Peter watched her curiously. “What are you doing texting Happy?”

May almost blushed. “I’m allowed to have friends Peter.”

“Yeah of course but Happy?”

“What’s wrong with that?”

“Well he’s Mr. Stark’s driver!”

She raised an eyebrow “and your point? You don’t see me prodding you about being around a man half your age in almost all your spare time!”

Peter looked at her and debating on saying more but she was right. While May didn’t know fully just what went on during his time with Iron man. She was exceptionally cool about it.. He let him come and go from the apartment to the tower without much fuss. While it really weirded him out the thought of Happy and his aunt spending time together. She did deserve someone, especially a nice someone. After Uncle Ben passed away there hadn’t been a lot of successful suitors so who was he to judge.

Peter smiled “Well I’m happy for you then.”

May smirked and shoved him “Don’t be so excited, we’re just talking. We haven’t gone on a date yet. “

“Well do it!! Happy is a standup guy and he puts up with Harley and Mr. Starks antics so we know he can handle you.”

May flicks his hear “rude. Anyways! What do you want me to tell Happy.”

Peter started laughing and took a sip of his drink “Just tell him we’re going to watch an episode or two of Greys. Then I’ll be ready.”

May nods and types for a moment before sitting her phone down on the table. She picked up the tv remote and got Netflix started.

“Ready for some Mcdreamy time?”

“Always” Peter said with a grin.

[thecapricorndevil]

Right Girl Wrong Time

I know i need to let her go But she might pop up And finally we'll get to talk Her man will be gone And he wont be a problem no more She was never a hoe See all these girls were a crush She was something more She was the purest form of love And me? I was the purest form of fear She'd love me and Id be afraid Hoping to be with her But slowly I walked away Thinking she'd be the same as all the other girls But she was never the same Now nothing was ever the same She was strong and had moved on I looked it but an empty hole where my heart once was Thats so far gone I just got my heart back After a year and a half of growing from the last ex Everyday she'd text me Not the ex the purest form of love Even if she said she needed a shower Even if she said good morning It was an excuse to talk to me On the outside id act like i didnt want it On the inside i fucking loved it I fucking craved it And when i ran away I thought she was just another artefact Another embarrassing crush If i knew she'd mean this much to me id never have left But truth is you never value something the most until you lose it After i ghosted and cutted her for christmas I completely forgot she existed Ghosting and cutting people off is my no 1 talent Art and writing aside This entire time i thought i was ghosting her This entire time i thought i was cutting her off But in fact it was her It was always her Shes always ahead The day came when i couldnt go a second without talking to her And from that moment on No from the moment i thought i ghosted her We were strangers I tried and i tried to contact her Messaging her I wrote paragraphs saying how sorry i was I wrote paragraphs saying how i want things to go back to being normal But i got nothing in return Well i did and all that was, was a bigger hole in my heart Id do anything and trade anything to be with her Everyday and every night i wonder Does she think about me the way i think about her Does she feel the same about me the way i feel about her. Everyone says leave her in the past Delete her Forget about her But leaving her means leaving those memories and leaving a lot of myself behind I was the happiest i had ever been at that point in my life. I thought it was just me but it was her all along man. Recently i saw her tweet "biebs in the trap<<<" and then "get the fuck out my head man" i got excited cause id been talking about that song all year and i thought she was thinking about me but then i realised i was overthinking it. Then a few weeks later she sent a snapchat of my favourite song at that time whilst i spoke to her. It was an indian song called "Tu Meri" and at that moment id never been happier. That snapchat made me realise she thought about me. I even replied "eeeeee you still remember" and she replied " of course i do" and let me tell you one thing i have never been so in love with a girl in my life. I was so happy because for bit of time i was on her mind i dont care even if it was a second. I had known this girl for what? 2 months and she had been the closest and most caring person id ever met. Id never eat at lunch and she'd always come shops with me to get food so i didnt go alone. She'd even buy me food or share with me. We were acting like kids for fuck sake. Talking to each other in justin biebers purpose song titles. Another thing, that album fucks me up. Its like it helped me get through my first heartbreak and fucked me over even more man. But i still reminisce about it and her. Every song and every movie and every picture and just everything reminds me of her. I see that long wavey black hair and that kylie jenner lookalike face and if you notice me smiling out of nowhere thats cause a memory of her or just her face popped into my head. And for that moment my heart will beat normally and feel like ive never been heartbroken ever before in my life. These moments come and go. To this day my friend told me just tell her how i feel. But the thing is she has a man for one. And my past tells me and experience that every time i do this the girl distances her self from me. And for her to distance her self even more than she already is. Im already dead on this inside and i actually think id fucking go insane. I make excuses to go back into my old school stpauls just to see her once more every time. But shes never there. I just pray before i walk in through those doors shes there and that id see even the back of her head. I HATE HOW SHE NOW TALKS TO OTHER GUYS AND SHES POPULAR BECAUSE IM SCARED SOMEONE MIGHT HURT HER MAN. If anything hurt her you dont understand the rage and pain id feel. Im willing to give my life for this girl just to see her smile. This sounds like im trying to be all romance movie type of shit but actually its my heart emptying out. The amount of times ive deleted her and re added her and the disappointment on my bestmates face every time makes me feel guilty but her pictures man omg. Have you seen this girls pictures??? Like i said shes love in human form. Her eyes and her lips are my favourite thing about her. And that cute little nose of hers. But yeah man i still have her on my instagram and snapchat hoping she messages me saying she misses me or we start talking again. Just one day. I dont know how much of this torture i have to take before that day comes. But imma wait. You might think im overthinking and its a stupid fantasy and that it will never happen. But everyone has a fantasy they wished happened. Some wanna be rich and some wanna be superheroes. I just wanna be with her i dont care if its as friends or in love. And whats wrong with having a little hope? Every guy has that one girl just like every girl has that one guy. Even guys go through emotional shit but we've so brainwashed by the idea that guys arent weak and that we cant cry it's ridiculous. Im here in my room and i write about her and you know whats amazing. I sing bryson tiller and drake and songs that are like emotional as if shes in front of me. I know i might sound off tone and pitch but in my head where my fantasy is i sound amazing and she loves it so fuck you. After a while of me realising we probably wont talk at the beginning stages of me and her not talking i went around looking for things to get that exact happiness and feeling she gave me. You know what? Its been almost a year and a half like my first ex and i still havent found it. I may forget when im with my best friend but shes engraved in my subconscious. I know the right thing to do is tell her and no matter how much it fucks me up ill have to move on from it. It'll probably scare me break my heart and fuck my head. Who knows i could be overthinking the fuck out of this thing. But do i tell her or do i stay in this same position forever wondering and holding onto that hope. I might just tell her. If it doesnt go well then itll be an amazing story to write and paint about. Every movie i watch ive replaced the hero and his girl with me and her like a fucking idiot and just zone out and dream. Fuck man this is it. I gotta do this. I have to move forward from this. I know i shouldnt have disappeared from her life like that it was wrong stupid selfish and she didnt deserve it. But you know what? Shes happy. Thats "all that matters" (another justin bieber song title reference) even if i messaged her and she ignored itd fucking kill but you know what fuck it. I did what i had to and ill always be there for her if she has a man or not or if we're speaking or not. No matter what like drake said "if i ever loved you ill always love you thats how i was raised".