#ill probably call the vet tomorrow tho idk if i can do an appointment right away cause i dont have the money rn

[zackfairmutual]

marcy can we go one month without you making me anxious

[bonkalore]

I wish I had some good news...

But I don't. Birb is going to be finally put down tomorrow.

We went to the vet today with some bit of hope maybe we could help him a bit further but there's nothing else we can really do at this point without prolonging his suffering. We could have done it today but I just... didn't come in mentally prepared for it (even tho I should have; I try to prepare myself every day for it already knowing it would come sooner than later), but idk Ibjust couldn't do it right then... I wanted to take him home one more night to spend time with him and let him spend time with his favorite things and food and lay with me again.

Appointment is at 4:45pm tomorrow but I probably should have set it earlier... He's already so weak and it's hard for him. I don't want to put it off longer than it should so I might call again tomorrow to reschedule sooner.

Idk what else to really say... I could go in detail but I just... I can't right now... I've already been crying on and off since. Was shaking at the vet bc I couldn't even handle it.

It's only been 2 years since we've had him... he's maybe 3 years old. Almost to the date. It was Feb 2016 when we got him on the leap day... Painful years dealing with his chronic illness but also the best I've ever had. He's been so precious to me and always will be.

I'll miss my sunshine boi more than anything. Been the light of my life even tho it was so short you could be with us. You deserved the whole world before you.

I love you, Birb, my beautiful feathered son.