#ill continue later if you wanna ask further questions bc this is very rambley

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*pulls up a chair* after death au thoughts???

I love you so much. thank you for indulging me

besides the Vader designs i've been contemplating a lot how Obi-Wan's story would differ because 1) its not just that he left Anakin to die and/or has mentally separated Vader and Anakin. no he literally saw Anakin's death. he held his corpse. he *knows* that his brother his son his padawan is dead and 2) Padmé births the twins and dies before they get to Polis Massa. so Obi-Wan has had to witness his brother's death, birth his brother's children, then watch his brother's wife die all alone

so he shows up to the medical center with grief beyond comprehension, a corpse, and two children in desperate need of medical attention beyond the little force healing/sustaining that obi-wan knows

oh yeah and everyone else that he grew up with and loves and fought with is dead or betrayed him

like that's gotta be the worse headspace in the world to be in while discussing the future of your last link to your brother and sorta sister

like how does Bail and Yoda take all that. How does this change obi-wan's feelings towards separating Luke and Leia. and in general what do they think of how Padmé dies because it is definitely not natural in any respect. no it was horrid and painful and dark. but like with the darkness so much greater than even a day before would Obi-Wan have noticed.

i'm so conflicted about wether to separate the twins or not

like this is my max pain au. I have ideas about how both could be terribly sad.

like if they're separated I have ideas about how the force connects them as twins and how being decedents of the son of the force influences their own force connections. like they could have dreams and visions of each other. or like Luke could be super immersed in the living force and Leia in the unifying. or they attract too much attention or are just too much that it causes the organa's and Lars' to reach out to Ashoka and Ben respectively to help them. and like the horrors of the empire that Leia would see the truth she feels in the force all the time. the despair the death. and how Luke being on Tattooine could go horribly wrong. just the legacy of their parents on them in general without them even knowing.

and then all of Obi-Wan's hermitting just diving into that time of his life. and like having him find connections in this place that Anakin so despised. finding community again. I can so see Beru being called to come collect an absolutely waisted obi-wan from some bar and just patching him back together. and like if he was around a more maybe he and Owen could begrudgingly become friendlier. and I can't see Obi-wan after coming to terms with things sitting by and doing nothing when he knows intimately the suffering of the slaves of tattooine. so like that could be a whole plot point with Luke and Obi-wan together yk bonding with your not uncle uncle.

mmmm and yk as much as I was kinda meh about the obi wan show something happening to Leia where Bail calls up both Ashoka and obi wan to deal with it would be such the perfect opportunity for them to learn of Anakin's not death death. and them doing it together would be so interesting.

But Obi-wan taking them before they could decide how to split them and just running and running and running from everyone and raising them on his own is also such an interesting direction bc then you could bring in a wider cast of characters. Ahsoka and Rex or Cody or Quinlan or lead Obi-wan to the padawans who lost their masters and have him rediscover who he his in this role of a parent to these lost and hurting children in the wake of the genocide of the Jedi. like I could get super nerdy with the Corellian Jedi and the whills and the baran do sages or even the night sister (oh my goshhhh obi wan and ventrissss would be such an interesting dynamic) as Obi-Wan is searching for what being a Jedi looks like now and how to raise the twins and finding survivors.

and that when Vader comes after his children he fights to kill him to protect them and to make a better memory for the death of his people. but this Vader too familiar. he feels familiar. knows his moves too well and he figures out that Vader is Anakin and he can't kill him anymore. because that's the kid he raise who he saw die. like this should literally be impossible

learning that Anakin isn't dead would be so devastating. like an older cal and Caleb watching him regress back to his grief stricken state and trying to shield Luke and Leia from that just ahhhh

like both have such potential I just can't

I may have to have two versions

for the record this may never be written as a fic bc I don't write but it may be drawn just not for a long while...

probably....