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[messylustt]

So I wanna enter the dating scene next year. I’ve never had a boyfriend, but I really struggle with the thought of a man being a gentleman towards me. Like I struggle with BPD and that makes me struggle with self worth. So it’s hard to imagine anyone actually liking me and wanting to treat me well. Does that make sense? Any advice on allowing someone to treat you well and accept compliments?

aw, my love <3

i’ve never had a boyfriend either, so i can understand the nerves with stepping into the dating scene (i’m fucking terrified).

and that totally makes sense. it’s hard having almost that little voice telling you that no guy will ever treat you right. or that you “don’t deserve it”.

let’s be honest some guys can be shit. and if they’re shit to you that is utterly THEIR problem. nothing to do with you at all. pls remember that!! (it’s a lot easier said then done tho ik)

it’s amazing that you’ve rooted the problem—a lot of people can’t get to that stage, so you’re already halfway there. it’s most definitely gonna feel like stepping out of your comfort zone, but always know that you deserve so much love ❤️

ignore those voices as best you can and really BELIEVE that you deserve a guy who will treat with respect and unconditional love (because you do). don’t lower your standards for anyone.

it’s a mindset. 100%. so I say just really focus on what makes you feel so down/uncomfortable about excepting compliments/respect etc. it’s easier when you focus on the exact thing that makes you feel that way. then you can overcome it.

now I may have just waffled on there and maybe none of it was that helpful. but a feel free to ask more. you can most definitely text me privately if that’s more comfortable <33 ilysmmmm

[baseofthings]

Daemon people,

While the ringneck snake is a good analytical fit for Tybalt, I’ve (we’ve?) found myself more drawn to the symbolic or spiritual angle of daemonism lately. This had led me to try out meditation. I’ve only tried it out once and saw some things but I’m not sure how I should continue. How long did it take for everyone else to find a secondary or tertiary form or hold longer conversations or feel/get in touch more?

[sailintothesun]

things that have happened in my Sims game of maze runner that are now officially canon

- this all started when I made gally, minho, brenda, teresa, newt, and thomas move into a shitty apartment. I mean shitty the attribute associated with it is literally "needs TLC" there are mice holes everywhere, and I had to fully redo the kitchen so it wouldn't blow up in their faces every time they tried to touch the stove or the fridge. there was also no room for a shower so it had to go out on the balcony oops. this is all fine tho because rent is $2400 a month

- only teresa and brenda have jobs #mommy's money!! teresa is a politician!! and she's fighting against climate change!! brenda is a secretary but she is moving on up in the world!!

- all of them recently got into college with at least one scholarship!! except minho because like the smart king he is got 3!! this is good because as a collective they have $3000 and that is not cutting it bc brenda is a diva and expensive #menarenowrequiredtogetjobs

- minho, thomas, and gally all have the "bro" trait meaning that they fist bump and watch sports together A LOT. also gally and minho are workout buddies and it's literally the most adorable thing. thomas is getting into basketball and wants newt to play with him but newt just like... looks at him and goes to sit on the bench (I literally put in the command for his character to play basketball and he Would Not do it)

- newtmas is canon. like official. they're boyfriends. BUT they won't stop woo-hooing in the shower on the balcony. ALSO IN A STRANGE TURN OF EVENTS TERESA KEEPS FLIRTING WITH NEWT???? BUT NEWT SHUT THAT DOWN FAST (king love him for that)

- also!! brenda/gally is a thing! and they and newtmas went to the romance festival, at which brenda and gally would not stop making out and the game tried to make me have thomas propose to newt about 20 times, even though they only started dating FOUR DAYS AGO (they haven't even gone to college yet what the fuck)

- Minho keeps getting electrocuted by the coffee machine and it's really funny. He wants to be like helpful and fix stuff but he always ends up electrocuted. He also set the grill on fire and it made Newt freak out so much that he proceeded to cry in his bed for two hours and be "Tense" for 2 DAYS

- GALLY IS A CHEF!! HE IS LITERALLY ALWAYS COOKING AND HE'S KINDA GREAT AT IT. TERESA ALSO MAKES REALLY GOOD GRILLED FOOD! meanwhile minho literally cannot cook to save his life and even when he makes coffee the food quality is always "poor"

- newt decided to try painting (I was not on his character at the time) and he painted a rainbow (listen trashner I just want to talk how DARE you keep newt repressed for this long)

- remember how I said they live in a shitty apartment? with mice holes? well the boys all share one big room and that's where the mice holes are and at 2am the mice came out and woke everyone up and newt got so mad that he started trying to kill all the mice so thomas had to fix the mice holes

- also when the neighbors made too much noise newt almost got into a fight with an elderly woman and minho just started trying to be friends with her

- (not about the Sims game) nadia and I have decided that newtmas' canon dynamic is that newt makes the decisions but thomas has to follow through. for example: newt always chooses the restaurant they go to, but when they run out of condiments its always thomas that flags the waiter down and asks for more @nneiljostenn

- minho is really good with electronics and like programming so im gonna make him program in college I think

- brenda is a vegetarian and she keeps preaching to gally and minho about being vegetarian and minho is like totally down and gally just says shut up and makes out with her. also teresa won't stop yelling about climate change to minho but minho is like "cool!" and gets very happy for her when she's doing that

- teresa was also really mean to newt and newt got Sad TM whenever she was around so Minho yelled at her and then she apologized

[universal-invariants]

Hello, all. Happy 420. A quick story:

One of my roommates is black. A Rwandan refugee, specifically. The pure hell her family went through to get to the US is unfathomable to begin with, but that’s not the point of this particular story.

Her older brother is currently serving an 8-year prison sentence for carrying less than 8 ounces of recreational marijuana across state lines.

How’d he get caught in the first place, you ask? He was a young black man driving through a wealthy white neighborhood in a neighboring state. One of the residents of this neighborhood called the police about “suspicious activity,” and the police pulled him over. Because he had a driver’s license from another state, he was arrested for marijuana possession with intent to sell across state lines, despite the fact that the amount he was carrying was *clearly* for personal use. His family busted their balls to raise the money for a lawyer good enough to get his sentence reduced from 25 years to 8.

His birthday is this weekend. My roommate and her entire family are spending the weekend driving down to Kentucky to visit him.

In contrast, my own brother (who is white) was once caught smoking weed in the woods near our house. Despite the fact that he was 18 (aka a legal adult), the police simply brought him to the police station, gave him a ~stern talking to~, and called my parents to come pick him up. No charges were filed. Gee, I wonder why.

Please keep the stories of imprisoned POC in mind while you celebrate your 420, your Hash Bash, your privilege. The legalization of marijuana carries a lot of potential for good, but not at the expense of the people for whom the US prison system is still violently racist.